STARDUSTD's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=STARDUSTD STARDUSTD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ weight loss maintainer, weight regain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5792332 I can't believe I used to be successful. Is there anything more depressing than that thought right now? Triggered by a recent pic of a Spark friend who's actually maintaining, and has consistently been maintaining, her weight loss, the thought occurred to me that it's downright inconceivable that I was ever capable of getting my sh!t together enough to lose weight, let alone maintain it for any length of time. I think never having lost weight would be better in some respects than discoveri... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 15:42:54 EST back to regular running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496690 My goal of completing a half marathon -- which I dismissed as achievable as my knee worsened -- is back on the table! Last Friday I saw a new knee doctor who gave me the go-ahead to ignore the pain as long it was tolerable and assured me no exercise I did would worsen things. Yay! I'm feeling really gung-ho about getting into the swing of things. <BR> <BR> I decided to do C25K again to 1) get into a routine of regularly running multiple days per week and 2) increase the length of my run ... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 09:07:45 EST Spark break over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493599 Back in June, I turned my spark page offline. Why? <BR> 1- Seeing people's successes on Sparkpeople heightened my shame regarding how out of control I felt about my disinhibited eating and weight gain. <BR> 2- Gratitude and reciprocity are big deals to me. If people leave me page comments or reply to blogs or message board posts I write, I feel obligated to show my appreciation by responding, at the very least, and at the best, following their posts in return. It is not easy for me to jugg... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 09:18:58 EST Reframing eating challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384505 Upon seeing yet another carton of ice cream gracing the freezer with its presence (the 3rd brought into this house by my family in the last week), I immediately met with doom. “Why are they doing this to me?” Ice cream’s a bigtime red light binge food. Also my #1 red light purge food -- while I’ve not purged in months, I will admit to being tempted to restarting it in recent weeks. <BR> <BR> Here’s the fact: I cannot control what food they buy. I cannot control whether or not they put it... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 12:04:56 EST Sugar is not love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5378491 I want sugar. <BR> <BR> Actually, I want love. For me, when I want comfort, when I feel sad or ashamed or bad about myself or my life, I get a message saying "SUGAR! NOW!!!" <BR> <BR> Sugar is not love. Sugar will make me feel better momentarily. Until I feel worse, and in need of comfort and love because I screwed up. Then I will want more sugar. Assuming I get past round 2 of wanting sugar, I will have the crash from sugar to contend with, at which time I will want sugar yet *again*... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 22:18:52 EST I am whole. I am complete. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365146 My 2 new mantras. <BR> <BR> They're not BS, either. I don't need *convincing*, just reminders. That's why yoga's so crucial for me: it connects me to that truth. <BR> <BR> When I'm conscious of my wholeness and completeness, I don't need to eat to fill some void or make up for character deficits. I'm enough. Wed, 22 May 2013 23:34:04 EST I'm sitting on the dressing room floor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5364883 "I am sitting on the floor of a department store fitting room, disgusted, fatter than I have been in years. My renewed vow to step up my workouts as a way of turning things around is being undermined by the unrelenting mockery of my aching shoulder and neck." <BR> <BR> Penned earlier today, that's my reminder to myself, the answer to the questions that keep surfacing during my "eff it" moments: <BR> <BR> "Why should I care about my weight when it's not going to solve my problems? when I'm... Wed, 22 May 2013 18:11:06 EST Maintenance Lesson #4: Paint a new picture http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344365 Two of the most powerful weapons in my weight loss and maintenance arsenal were Combat and running: both phenomenal calorie torchers, endorphin releasers, and THE primary means of my self-development & -empowerment. <BR> <BR> They became part of my identity, and their loss left a huge, gaping, bleeding hole I didn’t know how to close. <BR> <BR> “Who am I without them?” and “How do I manage my weight without the calorie expenditure of high intensity exercise?” combined with “Not being able t... Fri, 3 May 2013 12:19:59 EST Maintenance Lesson #3: Deal with reality as it is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343826 There were a few things about my most recent employment that made the experience awesome. For instance, my coworkers shared a couple gold nuggets of wisdom with me, and, I assure you, I threw out a few of my own. Two in particular are relevant and helpful to my maintenance: <BR> <BR> Gem Received: "Ya get what ya get, and ya like it." <BR> As in, <BR> me: "I am so sick and tired of the same, boring, flat, one-note food all the time. I want to eat something different, like one of the recip... Thu, 2 May 2013 23:30:57 EST Well lookee at that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337750 Go me! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l445099983.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Goal Cals: 1330-1680 <BR> Actual: 1447 <BR> <BR> Goal Fat: 30-65 g <BR> Actual: 54 <BR> <BR> Goal Saturated Fats: 0-25 g <BR> Actual: 16 <BR> <BR> Goal Carbs: 150-273 g <BR> Actual: 185 <BR> <BR> Goal Protein: 60-147 g <BR> Actual: 78 <BR> <BR> Goal Fiber: 25-35 g <BR> Actual: 37 <BR> <BR> Goal Sodium: 500-2300 mg <BR> Actual: 1809 Sat, 27 Apr 2013 22:20:18 EST Clothes shopping today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336775 I talked about my need for a new wardrobe here: <link>http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_pu<BR>blic_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=53<BR>17092 </link> . That need became even more pronounced yesterday with an at-home donation pickup from some charity. Monday saw me veritably dancing around the house in glee, gathering the vast majority of my clothes while inwardly proclaiming "You have no place in my life! Get out get out get out!" (Woulda gotten rid of more, too, but for the nekkidness f... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 21:07:30 EST Maintenance Lesson #1 revised http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335769 In my Maintenance Lesson #1 blog ( <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202085 </link> ), I spoke about guilt signalling my eating for the wrong reasons. Time to revise that lesson! Last night was one of those "Whoooa, I can't believe I didn't see this until now" moments that opened my eyes and made me realize I have to amend Lesson #1. The basic message underlying it remains unchanged: "Pay attention to the message behind the guilt." HOWEVER, guil... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:22:29 EST binge urge busted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322293 If you're not alert, the binge urges can creep up so sneakily, you're not fully aware of your *choice* to give into them. <BR> <BR> I don't plan binges. I never, EVER buy food with the intent to binge on it. I don't sit around at night saying, "Hmm, you know, I think I'd like to spend this evening gorging myself." No, it's usually eating something - maybe emotional eating, maybe overeating, sometimes just a reasonable snack - followed by the guilt-wracked "Why did I do that?" It's the mo... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 23:04:02 EST In dire need of a new wardrobe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317092 Because I'm poor and frugal; strive to reject materialistic ideals; and was raised to behave in the following way, I don't get rid of clothes until they wear out. When I was overweight, that meant the inner thigh area of my pants rubbing until they accrued stubble and finally split open. In the case of shirts, it means holes. Not just any holes, either: only once the holes grow big enough to be noticed from a few feet away do the shirts get tossed. In the case of my last pair of crosstrai... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 11:44:12 EST to quote Britney Spears: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304830 "Oops, I did it again." <BR> <BR> I binged very, very badly. Like "I'm gonna see a number in the 160s next time I step on the scale" badly. Like I believe "I'm NEVER going to weigh an acceptable amount again" badly. Like "I need counseling because I'm completely out of control" badly. <BR> <BR> And it's in moments like this, when I'm physically ill, when my guilt, shame, and self hatred are surging so wildly I can almost feel them coursing through my veins, that I want to give up. I wan... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 22:50:37 EST I quit my job http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293969 But before that, boy, did I ever get a primer in adjusting my schedule, workout routine, and eating habits on the fly! Talk about a crash course in developing balance while trying to maintain sanity. It was a big adjustment going from working a couple hours a day, a couple days a week, with meals either provided or unaffected, to working full-time 5 days a week. Full-time helped me prioritize a lot of stuff, though, not all fitness-/health-related. Wed, 20 Mar 2013 17:06:55 EST Reworking my program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5248403 Started a full-time job last week. Juggling the new schedule, trying to adapt to the massive change in routine. <em>198</em> Tue, 12 Feb 2013 22:49:13 EST Feb 8 Progress Report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244573 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>42</em> <BR> Did well. Until I decided to binge. Then I got on the computer. <BR> <BR> 2. Repeating my mantras & practicing breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> 3. Practicing visualizations [force field, safe place], twice daily. <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> 4. Watching 2 FatLoser.com videos <BR> <em>42</em> <BR> <BR> 5. Strength training. <BR> <em>42</em> Sat, 9 Feb 2013 23:39:33 EST February 8 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242443 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Repeating my mantras & practicing breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 3. Practicing visualizations [force field, safe place], twice daily. <BR> 4. Watching 2 FatLoser.com videos <BR> 5. Strength training. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress report: <BR> <BR> Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> 2... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 07:10:27 EST February 7 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241152 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Repeating my mantras & practice breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 3. Practicing visualizations [rainbow, force field, safe place], twice daily. <BR> 4. Really savoring any special birthday treat [should I choose to eat anything special]. <BR> 5. Going to bed by 11. <BR> 6. Abstaining from using my heart rate monitor. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 06:55:40 EST February 6 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240823 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Repeating my mantras & practice breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 3. Practicing visualizations [rainbow, force field, safe place], twice daily. <BR> 4. Going to bed by 11. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress report: <BR> <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>42</em> Succeeded several times, then gave in during a binge. <BR> <BR> 2.... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 22:05:16 EST February 5 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238060 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Wearing my “Breathe” bracelet. <BR> 3. Repeating my mantras & practice breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 4. Practicing visualizations [rainbow, force field, safe place], once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 5. Meditating. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress report: <BR> <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>48</em> <... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 00:00:23 EST February 4 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236657 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Wearing my SillyBandz. <BR> 3. Repeating my mantras & practice breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 4. Creating 3 meal plan ideas. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress report: <BR> <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> 2. Wearing my “Breathe” bracelet. <BR> <em>48</em> <BR> <BR> 3. Repeating my mantras & practice b... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 07:15:32 EST February 3 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235566 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Wearing my “Breathe” bracelet. <BR> 3. Repeating my mantras & practice breathing techniques, once each during morning, afternoon, and night. <BR> 4. Writing in my flavor journal at least once. <BR> 5. Planning meals for 2 days this week. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress report: <BR> <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>48</em> success <BR> Almost overrode this one. St... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 10:48:30 EST February 2 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234237 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Taking a break from eating to clear my head if I notice myself ruminating while eating. <BR> 3. Carrying my stopwatch and using it to time using coping skills for 2 minutes if I get a binge urge. <BR> 4. Writing in my flavor journal at least once <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Yesterday’s progress report: <BR> <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>48</em> success <BR> <BR> 2. Taking a b... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 09:15:53 EST February 1 Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232835 Today I commit to: <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Taking a break from eating to clear my head if I notice myself ruminating while eating. <BR> 3. Carrying my stopwatch and using it to time using coping skills for 2 minutes if I get a binge urge. <BR> 4. Listing what strategies contributed to success during my last binge-free streak. <BR> <BR> * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * <BR> Progress report for yesterday: <BR> <BR> 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> <em>... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 08:46:41 EST Today, I commit to: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231615 1. Staying off the computer while eating. <BR> 2. Taking a break from eating to clear my head if I notice myself ruminating while eating. <BR> 3. Carrying my phone with me and calling OA if I get a binge urge. <BR> <BR> <BR> I can do this. Thu, 31 Jan 2013 11:33:07 EST 1 step forward, 4 steps back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230333 That's how it's felt lately. Up until Jan 14, 24 days binge-free, followed by at least 12 binges since. 3 days were actually less clear-cut binges than almost non-stop eating. Weight's way high, self worth way low. <BR> <BR> I'm not giving up, damn it all. Really battling the urge to. <BR> <BR> I invite all the positive, supportive forces that want to be present in my life, into it. Wed, 30 Jan 2013 13:42:36 EST Maintenance Lesson #2: Get over the need for external validation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204039 Sometimes external validation can be a positive source of motivation. Case in point: color-coding my fitness calendar with markers or stickers after I finish a workout is one more reason for me not to skip exercise. <BR> <BR> Other times, it can be bad. Weighing yourself 6x a day, letting the scale dictate how you feel about yourself. Ignoring your intuition. Believing other people over yourself. Their opinions about your body; your life; your choices, goals, values, beliefs. <BR> <B... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 19:10:12 EST Maintenance Lesson #1: Guilt over eating is a surefire sign that something's amiss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202085 There are no foods that I've permanently foresworn. Red-light foods, yes; banned foods, no. I can be ok eating extraordinarily high caloric foods without a shred of guilt, when I'm deliberately deciding to indulge and mindfully enjoying the food. When I feel guilty for eating, it's almost assuredly a sign that I'm eating for the wrong reasons. <BR> <BR> - "Other people are eating. I will, too." <BR> - 'Clean Plate Club' <BR> - To satisfy food pushers <BR> - Emotional eating <BR> - Scar... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:57:44 EST 2012 in Review: A Year of Lessons in Maintenance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202043 As 2012 came to a close, I reflected on the year and its changes on my weight. Dec. 31, 2011 saw me at 147.6 lbs, whereas Dec. 31, 2012 showed 154.1 lbs. Six and a half pounds really isn't a lot in the grand scope of things; however, they corresponded so closely to a year of great emotional tumult that their metaphorical magnitude exponentially exceeded the physical weight. <BR> <BR> With the lost ground and gained weight, it would be easy to see 2012 as a failure. I did for most of the y... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:33:56 EST I'm on a roll http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178265 Super shorty tonight. I'm doing great. Tonight's close = 7 days binge-free. Reviewed where it all went wrong last time I broke my streak, and I developed a strategy for dealing with rough waters this time around. I hope you've all been keeping up with your strength training as of late, because my plan involves leaning on my dear Spark friends. <BR> <BR> ** <BR> [ETA: In answer to what my strategy is: <BR> 1. While feeling mentally strong, imagine I'm feeling a binge urge and role play us... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 23:28:11 EST my recipe for maintenance mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5171987 I resolved in my last blog to determine what led to the mental shift to maintenance mode. Determine it I did, and what better time to put it down into words than following a relapse with bingeing? <BR> <BR> There are several factors that contributed to the shift and which sustained it for its duration, but they're really secondary to the key difference: <BR> **Lack of food** <BR> <BR> It's amazing the mental change I underwent with: 1) the elimination of binge foods into my environment in ... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 11:39:28 EST In maintenance mode http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5167696 Figured it's about time to update this since it's been 3 weeks since I last wrote and even longer since I wrote about things being friggin awesome. And friggin awesome they are. <BR> <BR> Tonight will conclude 8 days binge-free. More importantly - and contributing to the latter - my head's in maintenance mode. What's that mean? I'm no longer fighting myself. I believe. I'm trusting myself. I'm recognizing myself for and feeling like the warrior I am. I'm trying without letting the fe... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 23:06:28 EST I just want to give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147800 I'm not. But I want to. All of 2012 spent over my weight maintenance range, the best month consisting of "only" 4 binges (the worst: 16)...I can't help thinking this is all in futility. Telling myself I'm making progress couldn't look more like a lie. Mon, 26 Nov 2012 23:24:58 EST Never Quit Pledge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5113455 October 26, 2012 <BR> <BR> Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 09:41:55 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 30: Proudest Step Taken this Month http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093491 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>;www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j<BR>ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *What are you most proud of about your journey towards healthy living during the month of September?* <BR> <BR> That I began reaching out for help on at least some of the occasions I foundered, instead of withdrawing into myself and letting things snowball. I think that's really been a big contributor to my not having given up on any of the numerous occasions... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 02:08:44 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 29: About Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5092163 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *There is so much MORE to you than your wellness journey. Please share 10 facts about yourself that aren't related to your weight loss journey, how you eat, or how you exercise.* <BR> <BR> 1. I'm really easily amused. <BR> 2. I love animals. <BR> 3. Bright colors make me happy. Rainbow colors especially make my heart burst with joy. <BR> 4. I hate the cold. <B... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 02:19:53 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 28: Wellness Activities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089445 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *What do you do for wellness? For example, to increase emotional, spiritual, or intellectual well-being?* <BR> <BR> As I mentioned here <link>http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_pu<BR>blic_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=50<BR>83160 </link> , I read positive affirmation note cards daily, practice DBT and CBT, journal, and work throughself-help books. I also keep... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 22:20:31 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 27: Hiring Professionals for Help Losing Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088586 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *Have you ever hired anyone to help you with your journey? A personal trainer. A dietitian/nutritionist? A wellness coach? A life coach? What worked and didn't work?* <BR> <BR> No. I pretty much navigated the journey myself. When I first started, I joined Jillian Michaels' pay-for-use website, until I found out about SP and cancelled my membership. I never hi... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 02:18:35 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 26: Social Preference for Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088580 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *Do you like to exercise alone, with a partner, in a small group, or in a large group? Why? <BR> <BR> It depends on my mood. Sometimes I like the solitude, notably when I'm walking or running outside. Aside from running, I like group exercise. It feels less like work, it gets me out of my head, it's more interesting, and the exercises themselves are more fu... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 02:09:48 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 25: Exercise: Past & Future http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088578 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *Is there any form of fitness/exercise that you tried and gave up? Is there any form of fitness/exercise that you would like to try?* <BR> <BR> I had to give up plyometrics last year because it was just too hard on my knees. I stopped Pilates when my gym cancelled the classes. I also don't really do workout DVDs anymore because they don't raise my HR enough. ... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 02:02:21 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 24: Fitness Goals on the Weight Loss Timeline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088577 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *When did you incorporate fitness goals into your healthy lifestyle? (Before starting to lose weight, during weight loss, after goal weight, etc.)* <BR> <BR> Although I started exercising right off the bat, I don't recall setting any fitness goals until I was about 4 months into weight loss mode (Feb 2010), at which point I wanted to work my way up to running a... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 01:55:48 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 23: Current Fitness Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5085639 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *What are your current fitness goals? <BR> <BR> I'm not actively working toward any fitness goals at this time. I lost my umph a year ago, when my goal to run a 10K resulted in escalating an injury. I haven't set any new definitive goals...I don't know when and to what extent my body will cooperate with me. <BR> <BR> My only real fitness goals are to do cardi... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 19:29:03 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 22: Current Workout Routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083803 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *What is your current workout/fitness routine?* <BR> <BR> <em>312</em> I aim for an hour or more of cardio 5-6 days a week. Depending on knee pain, I often do the elliptical or walk, either on the treadmill or outside. I prefer high intensity, high impact exercise (solo: running; group classes: Zumba, Body Combat, Body Step). When money allows, I'll throw ... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 12:50:11 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 21: Disordered Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083160 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *Did you or do you have any disordered eating habits - binging, purging, excessive calorie restriction or excessive exercise? How did develop (or how are you developing) a healthier relationship with food?* <BR> <BR> Yes, all of the above. <BR> <BR> I worked through 2 self help books and recently purchased another 2. I review DBT & CBT. I read through 5... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 00:00:44 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 20: Favorite Healthy Foods http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083051 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *What are your favorite healthy foods? What healthy foods have you 'discovered' along the way to better eating habits?* <BR> <BR> I used to be the pickiest eater! My tastes have totally revolutionized since bettering my eating habits. I KNOW I’m gonna forget a ton, on account of the extent of the changes. <BR> <BR> Some healthy foods I used to HATE that I no... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 22:35:14 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 19: Unhealthy Foods http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081421 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *What 'unhealthy' food(s)/drink(s) do you refuse to give up? Any that you have given up completely?* <BR> <BR> Diet soda. <BR> <BR> I haven't given up anything completely. I've cut back a ton on the frequency with which I eat some unhealthy foods—and the amount I eat—but I can't think of anything I've compelely foresworn. I will say that I've gotten pickier... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 23:50:56 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 18: Go-to Meal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080002 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *Do you have a go-to meal for days when you have to be on the go, no time to stop to eat and no refrigeration/cooler available?* <BR> <BR> No, and now i will be sure to scour other challenge participants' Day 18 blogs for ideas. Sat, 29 Sep 2012 23:28:46 EST 30 Day Blog Challenge, Day 17: Repeat Meals/Snacks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078582 from TANYAP71's Challenge: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038746 </link> <BR> <BR> *Do you have any meals/snacks that you repeat over and over? What are they?* <BR> <BR> Excluding notorious binge triggers: <BR> fruit <BR> yogurt <BR> Fiber One bars <BR> popcorn <BR> carrots & hummus <BR> salad <BR> turkey sausage Fri, 28 Sep 2012 15:17:41 EST