SSCHULTZ59's SparkPeople Blog SSCHULTZ59's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New Year.. New Me.. New Changes.. with the start of the new year i had so many good intentions.. start out the first 15 days great... but i decide to do something for me.. take some classes so i can get my customs brokers license, which will require mega hours of studying.. take care of me. work out every day.. and wham.. my grandson is back in the hospital.. after a tough douple of days in the hospital we have him home trying some options before we are forced to have him have stomach surgery.. BUT.. the good thing.. i ate he... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 22:23:28 EST I am in a funk it really bites.. been working hard all week to eat 1200 calories.. i have been between 1000 and 1200 and i gained 1.5#.. keep eating at 1200 and ill gain 30 by the end of the month.. and the only liquid i drink is water.. at least 114 ounces a day Wed, 11 Jan 2012 14:06:49 EST HAPPY FRIDAY !!! so far the year is going well.. Im staying on track calorie wise and am working out daily, and expanding to doing different cardio workouts.. of course i am not seeing any results yet.. but I have nothing but time. Fri, 6 Jan 2012 09:35:35 EST Happy Healthier New Year to all as we reflect on our successes and failures of 2011, may it help us to determine and set our small goals for 2012. Every year is filled with success and failures.. but often all we reflect on is the failures. Remember your success first before moving on to adjust your goals for 2012. <BR> <BR> May you all have a Happy, Healther New Year. May 2012 be the year you accomplish all your goals. <BR> <BR> Fri, 30 Dec 2011 14:09:30 EST i am on a roll I made it through the holidays with families without breaking down. I did enjoy my christmas present to me Ethel M's chocolate pecan brittle.. i savored every bite.. and i counted it in for calories. I m once again on the Merry go round to changing my life. I will succeed ! Wed, 28 Dec 2011 14:12:04 EST Glad the week is over.. what an enlightening, busy hectic week. <BR> been diagnosed now as pre-diabetic.. so once again it is time to re-evaluate the food. <BR> running out of things i can eat.. made it easy this week, ate the same for breakfast and lunch.. (guess i have to get used to lettuce) will work on eating just chicken for supper.. <BR> that should help.. no more breads, pasta, chocolate sweets for me.. <BR> Yeah.. life goes on. Fri, 9 Dec 2011 14:18:13 EST When do you start to feel better Have not smoked now in 4 months.. when do you start to feel better? .. <BR> it is harder for me to go upstairs now than it ever was while i was smoking.. <BR> Tue, 1 Nov 2011 13:55:28 EST Turning the Tide one wave at a time workignon improving my self esteem so workignon the dieting and smoking will be easier. <BR> i am now 32 days with not smokin, they say you will feel better, i feel no different. they say you will be able to breathe easier, i find myself breathing heavy now just going up the steps. maybe it takes a few months? Food taste no different and i still dont care for alot of foods. but eating is not my concern as much as not smoking right now. the only thing i feel good about not smoking is i am s... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 09:54:23 EST Fresh Start New School Year, New goals, once again another start. <BR> My weight is creeping up faster and fster. problem is i am not eating above my calorie goals, and i am excercising more.. I am now 14 days without smoking.. now i just have to loose weight and eat healthier.. one of these days i will get it right.. <BR> need to work on the self esteem portion i know that is my biggest down fall. Tue, 6 Sep 2011 13:36:49 EST Time to Start over time to wake up and smell the roses.. no more feeling sorry for myself.. my life situation will not be changing anytime soon.. so get on with .. Mon, 8 Aug 2011 14:17:32 EST Turning it around once again stuck in a rut.. cant seem to turn it around. Dang !! Depression is strong. Tue, 3 May 2011 14:40:15 EST change change change. Change is a good thing.. I am working on slowly making the changes necessary for me.. <BR> one step at at time.. <BR> body is staring to get used to the new excercise routines. My sister and i now work in the same plant so we can work out together and keep each other motivated. <BR> still need to work on the emotional baggage. but that is getting better, my daughter is now cancer free and no more chemo.. so one less worry for 3 months.. <BR> one step at a time Thu, 20 Jan 2011 13:10:51 EST New Year New Year, New Goals, New Challenges. <BR> <BR> took a long break away to deal with family issues, and found i am truly an emotional eater. <BR> daughter made it through her cancer surgery.. now we wait a few weeks to be sure they got it all. then with lots of prayers we might get back on track to a semi normal life. <BR> Starting new physical challenges this year as well.. zumba tomorrow night.. and group workouts at work.. day by day.. step by step.. i will succeed at something this year... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 12:52:26 EST New Year New Year, New Goals, New Challenges. <BR> <BR> took a long break away to deal with family issues, and found i am truly an emotional eater. <BR> daughter made it through her cancer surgery.. now we wait a few weeks to be sure they got it all. then with lots of prayers we might get back on track to a semi normal life. <BR> Starting new physical challenges this year as well.. zumba tomorrow night.. and group workouts at work.. day by day.. step by step.. i will succeed at something this year... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 12:52:23 EST it has been ages since i have been on to blog.. i have tried to keep up my tracking and try to get some excercise, but i am not doing to well with it.. <BR> life has so many challenges and sometimes it is to hard to tackle them all at once. <BR> I am doing the best that i can right now, but i know it is not enough. My daughter is struggling through her cancer, my grandson has pnumonia again and his lungs are getting worse, it is Christmas, there is no money left to help my daughter,, and Christmas for the g... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 13:02:15 EST A tough morning this morning was a tough one for me.. i went to my daughters to watch the grandchildren and take them to school/daycare while she left to do her clinicals for respitory therapy and i find her in the bathroom sobbing.. they upped her chemo dosage yesterday because they were not happy with the results and this morning she had big chunks of hair falling out. all i wanted to do was hold her.. but she wanted none of that... it is hard. Fri, 12 Nov 2010 16:59:51 EST Everyone have a Safe and Restful Weekend. Hope everyone's weekend is kind and good to you.. may your challenges be small, and for those of you whose time changes this weekend, enjoy the extra hour of sleep. <BR> <BR> Fri, 5 Nov 2010 16:17:12 EST Today is day 2 of trying to find myself today is day two of finding myself. i know i am in there somewhere, i just seem to have lost myself to the lives of others. <BR> tonight i am going to be brave, i am going to remeasure myself, and finally take a picture. <BR> I hate pictures and done have any of myself, (i tore them all up a long time ago) <BR> but i am starting over this week, so will take a picture of myself, and really look at what i see. <BR> that is teh only way i can set my goals to make changes so that i can be h... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 08:48:15 EST Been gone for ages but i need to get back on track.. i will start slowly once again, but i know i have to get my mind to heal before i make any headway. i have not lost hope.. but i have been distracted for month.. <BR> with luck i can stick with it again. Mon, 1 Nov 2010 15:35:20 EST I will not give up without a fight. it has really been a struggle lately.. i am eating on track, and excercise though slightly down is still higher than where i used to be... i have not even left work and i have 7,811 steps in... <BR> i still have 4 hours of line dancing to do.. <BR> but the sad news is i am still gaining up another 3.. so i am back to square one again.. <BR> But someday i will get it right.. and i will succeed.. <BR> i have found that i cannot eat, banana, pear, apple and grapes, lettuce and cucumbers in o... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 15:15:56 EST Struggling and tired.. this month has been a struggle emotionally for me.. it just seems like it is one thing after another. But i am still here and i will succeed in taking care of me.. <BR> it is just there are times when i wonder does anyone really give a sh*t. I am tired of being the mom, grandma, puppy sitter, house keeper, main cash cow, cook, and if i have to change one more toilet paper roll.. i am going to throw the toilet out.. and tell everyone to go to the gas station.. <BR> okay that temper tantrum ... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 10:12:32 EST I am back and hiting the ground running still cannot get sparks at work anymore, but i will adjust my time so i can do it home every day. <BR> I miss it and it shows in my weight gain.. of course finding out my daughter may now have cervical cancer is not helping anything either. but i will take one day at a time, and i will take care of ME... <BR> i can and will do this. Tue, 7 Sep 2010 17:16:48 EST I am trying but it is not working Things have not been going well. i used to spark every morning at work, but for now sparks is blocked from my computer, i am trying to find the time to do it at night but with the grandkids and changes in my routing i have not been able to do it. i will be gong this weekend, but will make a renewed effort to be back on line after the holiday weekend. <BR> I am holding my own.. not gaining not loosing, still being very active, start the choose to loose program at work on the 13th. One grand ... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 20:50:38 EST Tired Tuesday I am thinking of stopping line dancing on Monday nights.. currently i dance from 7:00 to 9:30 which gets me home about 10:15.. by the time i get into bed it was 11:00 and up at 4:00 to get ready for work.. I am always so tired on Tuesdays.. I love the dancing, I love the way it helps with stress, I dance with some wonderful people (130 in our club) i have been doing it for 7 years.. and it would be hard to leave, but it is so hard to start out the week so tired all the time. i need some i... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 13:13:15 EST Monday August 16 Summer is almost gone. vacations and fun are over. The only thing good about it is it is easier to watch what you eat, when you eat and why you eat. <BR> Goals are being adjusted accordingly.. time to buckle down and succeed. Mon, 16 Aug 2010 12:53:20 EST I hate Monday at work i have hated mondays for 15 years.. but it is the cross to bear to get to Fridays.. <BR> This week will be tough it is hot hot hot.. humid humid humid.. and we are taking wednesday off of work to go to the state fair.. should be a great time relaxing with the girl friends.. walking and talking and listening to music.. shopping and tasting and walking some more. <BR> a full 12 horus or more of fun. Great way to break up the week. will have to watch the food. but the only thing i really have... Mon, 9 Aug 2010 16:31:07 EST Friday again.. another bad week.. and it showed on the scale.. <BR> have my first 5K this weekend (will be doing a fast fat jiggle not up to running more than 5 mintues yet) but am doing it with my sister so am looking forward to it. <BR> Lots i need to do to get back on track.. and unless i get the emotional baggage under control i am making it harder on myself than what it i needs to be.. <BR> sometimes i wonder if it is worth the fight.. but then i look here on sparks and see all of those who have s... Fri, 18 Jun 2010 11:52:22 EST Friday Wet and wild Friday. I am so glad today is Friday and the weekend is upon us. it is amazng how quick the weekend goes. this week has been a hectic one. trying to get used to the new schedules at home. The son is home from Colorado with Abby the puppy.. takes a bit of time to get used to having extra people in the house again. Daugher is now doing her clinicals so we have adjusted our schedules to help her out with the grand kids. Grandkids now go to day care tues - Friday. i tke them bo... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 09:48:34 EST Sunshining Thursday Great day to wake up... Sunny with a cool breeze.. supposed to heat up for the weekend but today is a great day. will be walking tonight with my sons dog.. i only have to babysit the grandkids till 4:30.. so tonight i get some time for me. this week has been challenging, as i sit at work and re-evaluate what i want out of my life.. i am paitiently waiting for the 6 month sinus infection to clear up.. 4 more days on the prednisone.. hopefully after that i will start to feel like myself again... Thu, 10 Jun 2010 13:37:48 EST Monday.. start of a new week Not much to say today.. except I hate Mondays.. the only good thing about a Monday is dance Monday nights for 3 hours and I love that.. <BR> work is always stressfull and it takes time to get everything figured out from the weekend, to get back on track for the week.. <BR> tracking calories and fitness is easier during the week.. <BR> guess it is a toss up.. everyday cant be perfect.. so we just deal with what we get.. <BR> on to tuesdays... Mon, 7 Jun 2010 13:51:39 EST Restful Sunday been a good day.. staying with in my calories.. and took a 2.2 mile hike on a nature trail.. <BR> sister and i did it in 40 minutes.. some of the hills were wicked but we made it. <BR> spending the day relaxing now.. Hubby and son golfing so i get time to myself.. sparking and then going to read a book.. <BR> couldnt be a better day. Sun, 6 Jun 2010 17:10:43 EST Friday June 4 Memories.. 26 years ago today i gave birth to my son.. amazing how fast time flies by and all the things that have changed our paths from one route to another.. <BR> I could not even count the pounds i have lost and gained in the past 26 years.. but in those 26 years i have not changed my lifestyle.. i was dieting.. and in 26 years dieting has not worked.. <BR> I am trying with Sparks. and i am having my up days and down days and some really down days.. but i am finding out some truths abou... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 09:58:20 EST Struggling but I will survive and triumph. After an awesome weekend up north with the family for the holiday weekend, i have started this week terribly.. it has been very stressfull with work stuff, and daughter/grandson stuff. but i just cant seem to stop eating. (i ate better while i was on vacation) I also have not excercised like I usually do and i am starting to feel it all over, in mind as well as body. <BR> Im trying to work myself out of this funk... I must get back on track.. and quick.... <BR> i can and will do this... !... Thu, 3 Jun 2010 10:40:59 EST Long Weekend.. Short Week.. Long weekend was great, great time to spend with family.. Had beautiful weather, lots of activity.. (specially playing with a 2 year old.. and a 6 year old and a 1 year old lab puppy. ) <BR> Caught lots of fish.. tasty stuff., did not go over my calories per day.. so was happy with the weekend.. <BR> Now we deal with the short week.. and another active filled weekend coming up... <BR> Tue, 1 Jun 2010 11:59:45 EST half ay through the week. Half way through the week. Today will be a tad stressfull this week. good and bad stress. <BR> Work is as usual stlightly stressfull. lots of things to straighten out. <BR> son is hours from home now. he left Colorado yesterday afternoon and is driving straight through.. talked to him at 4:00 am and he was an hour from the state line.. 4 more to go.. and he and the grandpuppy Abby will be home. <BR> Youngest grandson has pnumonia again.. so we are hoping that will clear up soon. <BR> goi... Wed, 26 May 2010 08:57:53 EST Dove Cheating Revelation Last night as I was eating my usual night time treat: 2 Dove Dark Chocolates, the stress of the last two days (with children stresses) came at me like a ton of bricks, so i continued to mow down my chocolate.. but it was a blessing in disguise as my chocolate was giving me messages that i needed to see to help myself.. <BR> <BR> Dare to Dream and go for it. (Patricai Jasper TN) <BR> Silence might be golden but laughter is pricless ... Tue, 25 May 2010 10:55:51 EST Great Weekend. what a great weekend, stayed on track all weekend and got in our 3 mile hike 4 hours of line dancing, and 3 other walks in between. Now it is back to work for a short week. <BR> i have Friday thru monday off, total break.. we will see how well i do. no computer up there. <BR> i will log it in my journal, but not on sparks. My goal will be to stay on track with both excercise and eating.. cant wait for the weekend to get here Mon, 24 May 2010 15:53:49 EST Friday.. last weekend before changes. This will be my last weekend, with life at a somewhat normal routine. My son is moving back home from Colorado, he is 26 and moving home. SCARY... i have missed him the past 6 years, but am not sure i will be abe to handle the worry once he is back home. I am fine when he is away..but once i have him back the mom worry sets in. The one plus is i will have an excercise partner as he is bringing my grandpuppy home. Abby is a yellow lab so i will now have a walking partner Fri, 21 May 2010 08:41:04 EST Monday is almost over. i started out good. diet wise i was fine and excercise i was fine.. i have gone 3 days without a cigarette.. and i bought a pack.. I am so useless..... Mon, 17 May 2010 18:48:48 EST Get to know you quiz from another member A - Age: 51 <BR> B - Bed size:king <BR> C - Chore you hate: cleaning the bathroom <BR> D - Dog's name: i have a grandpuppy Abby.. no longer have my own <BR> E - Essential start your day item: wheat toast and peanut butter with a book <BR> F - Favorite color: yellow <BR> G - Gold or Silver: silver for summer gold for winter <BR> H - Height: 5'2 <BR> I - Instruments you play: none <BR> J - Job title: Freight Operations manager <BR> K - Kid(s):1 girl (2 grandchildren) 1 son (1 grandpuppy) <BR... Sun, 16 May 2010 00:33:04 EST Time to re-evaluate things. again. I am so glad the sun is shining today.. i have been down and out this past week. i am sure part of it has to do with feeling lousy since January. They finally decided since the anti biotics have not done anything in 45 days.. it was time for a CT Scan.. and gee... my sinus's are packed solid.. (i could have told them that) but now i patiently wait to go to the ENT on tuesday to see what they want to try next... i talked the husband into going up north without me again this weekend. so now i ... Fri, 14 May 2010 13:30:47 EST Time to get back on track I have had a few days where i have been doing nothing but struggle.. i am sure when i weigh in tomorrow i am going to have gained weight. I Need to get my head back on track.. <BR> Feeling down and out.. Husband will be going away for the weekend, so hoping the time alone will help... and we might have sunshine this weekend which will help too.. Thu, 13 May 2010 14:10:12 EST Rain Rain Rain.. leads to Sleep Sleep Sleep.. once again it is raining, Windy, Wet and very cold.. a few degrees lower and i could be complaining about snow.. <BR> Today is a work/worry day. then tonight it is painting for the hubbies side job.. <BR> wih the steady stream of rain all i want to do is sleep.. very soundly.. <BR> i love the sound of rain on the roof... just not on me. <BR> Tue, 11 May 2010 09:30:54 EST Rain Rain go away.. and take tonights snow as well. Friday, my favorite day of the week. cold and wet today, but will get in 240 minutes of line dancing tonight.. tomorrow is a day of painting as a side job.. and sunday is mothers day. <BR> Happy Mothers Day to all. plan on sleeping in and spending the day with family. weekends go to quick.. Fri, 7 May 2010 08:46:19 EST Tired Tired Tired Tired and feeling old today. celebrated my daughters 30th birthday last night, stayed up later than i wanted. all i want to do right now is sleep sleep sleep. will have to try for more sleep tonight. just not enough time in a day.. Wed, 5 May 2010 09:07:45 EST Loosing ground this week Loved my weekend away but it is very hard getting back on track this week. <BR> Guess that will teach me for getting out there and having fun. I am sure i will get back into it again.. I just need to keep my head on straight and not give in to the urges. Tue, 4 May 2010 09:17:00 EST Sunny Wednesday again. Missed being on yesterday to busy with work, and babysitting at night. <BR> But i am back at sparks today. Looking forward to this weekend. Going away for the weekend with my sister, will be dancing dancing dancing. late night dips in the pool and sleep.. cant get any better than that. <BR> Wed, 28 Apr 2010 09:57:47 EST Sun Shining Monday Today starts another week, the sun is shining, im back at work (darn) but have a short week this week. Im off on Friday for a line dancing workshop 18 hours of line dancing, swimming at the hotel. looking so forward to the upcoming weekend. Will be walking the straight and narrow all week so i can enjoy my weekend. <em>335</em> Mon, 26 Apr 2010 10:09:54 EST The Weekend is done made it through the weekend pretty good thi sweek. did a lot o excersice and painted for 6 hours Sat and 5 hours sunday. made sure i made it my excercise. <BR> I think my hubby thought i was nuts, but if i had to do it i made sure and stretch and roll those walls till my arms ached. <BR> Looking foreward to the week, only working 4 days, then i have a line dancing workshop Friday and Saturday. ill burn the calories then. <BR> Heres to a new week. Sun, 25 Apr 2010 22:00:26 EST Time to Re-evaluate my thinking Time has come for me to be more realistic with myself.. I have good days and bad days, but i am letting those bad days work me over mentally. i need to work on being more upbeat and not so hard on myself, all it does is frustrate me more. <BR> I will keep on working at it.. I can get there. and i can change my lifestyle and bad habits. <BR> <BR> just needed to put it in writing.. now i have to believe it Tue, 20 Apr 2010 14:46:17 EST