SQUISHYMEISTER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SQUISHYMEISTER SQUISHYMEISTER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4624234 2011 was a good year for me. I finally finished getting all of my licensing done (for ASHA and for the HPC in England) I ran in my second half marathon, but injured my ankle pretty badly in the process, and started having knee trouble as well. I didn't really manage to lose any weight this year... but I'm doing ok equalizing my gaining and losing. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping to finish off the year at about 190. I'm hoping to have a wedding sometime in 2012, and I really want to look my best for th... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 14:07:21 EST Breakthrough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3129658 So, I know it seems contrived and cheesy, especially with the amount of Biggest Loser I've been watching... but I had a pretty huge breakthrough while running a few nights ago. It's not completely earth shattering, and I've known a lot of the bits and pieces of it for years, but have somehow not put this together in my head until now. <BR> <BR> I think I finally know why I'm overweight. Sure an immensely crappy metabolism, love for high calorie food, and a twisted upbringing are easy answers... Sat, 17 Apr 2010 12:06:40 EST Pants http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1849640 So, as I've said in recent posts, I've been exercising a lot lately. It's been a great way of dealing with stress and stuff! (though it is really hard to find time in my 65+ hours of work a week, I'm still managing it! go me!) <BR> <BR> The scale is moving very very slowly, but at least it is moving again, so that pleases me. <BR> <BR> But even more so, I noticed today that my jeans are significantly looser on me. This is easy for me to tell, since I really only get to wear jeans on Wednesd... Wed, 4 Mar 2009 11:55:31 EST Dos http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1513020 Day 2 met at 1500 calories. It was close...but I'm over-calculating, since my lunch was home made chicken noodle soup, and have NO idea how many calories are in it! I had a good deal of soup (maybe 3 cups worth...3.5?) so I guestimated on how much that was, but I know it's healthy. I cooked it all from scratch, including the broth. SO it has chicken, water, carrots, celery, onion, whole grain noodles, and various seasonings. Wed, 15 Oct 2008 00:08:39 EST 20 Day Streak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1510636 I'm tired of the not being back on track. Stupid school and life being hard. It feels like food is the only thing I have to look forward to anymore...but I'm going to try to make this work, gorramit. <BR> <BR> So, I've decided that since I keep trying to jump in head first, I'm going to set a small goal for myself, and then go from there. <BR> <BR> This goal is to go 20 days in a row of meeting my calorie goals. I'd also like to meet my exercise goals...but I've got a sprained ankle, so I'l... Mon, 13 Oct 2008 21:58:30 EST My Wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1491001 Yes, I keep falling off of it time and time again. Which is so frustrating, because I was doing such a great job up until my life fell apart in August. <BR> <BR> I'm 5 weeks into the semester, and it's REALLY hard. I don't feel like I have time to exercise, and I'm so stressed and miserable about things that I keep turning to food to calm me down. <BR> <BR> I need to stop. Seriously. I want to get up an hour earlier every day and do Wii Fit, even if I can't make it to the gym, I can at leas... Thu, 2 Oct 2008 10:34:17 EST Alone Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1380006 My boyfriend of 4 years left me Friday night. He told me he just isn't feeling it anymore, and that he doesn't think we've ever been right for each other. <BR> <BR> I'm not doing too well with it. I'm scared about the apartment and my future. And I just can't believe that it's over. I'd do anything to change things and help him feel more for me, but that isn't in my power. <BR> <BR> It hurts, a lot. Mon, 4 Aug 2008 13:53:25 EST New Running Time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1321170 About a week into this Sparking thing (April 7)I was super excited because I biked to school, jogged a mile without stopping, which took 16 minutes, went to a strength class, and biked home. <BR> <BR> Now it's almost exactly 3 months later. I bike to school regularly, and haven't had to change gears or walk my bike up hills since this summer started, and I do a few days of cardio and strength classes at the gym every week. I've lost 30 pounds, and feel great! <BR> <BR> So today I was on my ... Tue, 8 Jul 2008 23:10:29 EST Becoming More Hard Core http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1258910 Starting today, I'm going to see how many days I can go in a row where I make all the right choices! I'm talking about hitting my nutrition goals, exercising 30 minutes, drinking my water, posting in my amazing teams, and being more "hard core" in general. <BR> <BR> I had a bad weekend, I was over on my calories both days, and was "rewarded" by the scale being up 5 pounds today. So Saturday morning I was 202, and now I'm 207.5. I hate being this close to 199 and screwing it up all the time! ... Mon, 9 Jun 2008 11:06:51 EST Life is Too Busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1210748 Even on this mini-break from school (while waiting for classes to really get started and for clinic to start) I'm still waaaay too busy. I'm putting most of my energy into my relationship right now. We're in a touchy phase, and I want to make sure that we can work on things and improve and stuff. <BR> <BR> I'm still dieting, and I really want to re-find that "week 1" enthusiasm. I still love the site, and use it every day...but it's becoming more and more of a chore to track foods and exerc... Thu, 15 May 2008 23:30:24 EST One More Week of Finals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1169845 Wow, what a hellish couple of weeks I've had, and next week should culminate them in absolute misery :P <BR> <BR> The good news is I'm still hitting my calorie goals...even though it's really REALLY hard! I haven't wanted to eat fast food and pizza so bad in a long time. But I'm stressed out about as much as I've ever been (this is by far the hardest end of semester I've ever had, I can't even describe it!). <BR> <BR> The scale has gone up a little...but I haven't had time to exercise...I k... Sun, 27 Apr 2008 01:00:22 EST Finals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1163443 This week so far, and will continue to be, a living nightmare. <BR> <BR> Next week will be worse. <BR> <BR> My goal is to hit my calorie goals each day, even if my proportions aren't perfect. Wed, 23 Apr 2008 21:09:45 EST Mild Stress Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1155452 I finally gave in a little bit. The stress eating monster was killing me, so last night I had red wine (a whole bottle...I have an insane tolerance to alcohol...) and today I ate a chocolate brownie that my friend offered me. <BR> <BR> But that's it! Other than that I've still been good. I'm really hoping I can beat this thing and make it through finals without completely blowing my diet all together. I'd rather make a little slip up here and there than just kill it dead. Sun, 20 Apr 2008 19:13:11 EST E-mailing the teacher http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1155451 I can't believe what I just did... <BR> <BR> I e-mailed my Cognition teacher FIFTY questions I have on just the first (of 4) questions for the final. I feel like I've figured out what the answer is, but I don't understand it at all. So I went through it line by line and asked questions. Things like <BR> <BR> "What are transmitter-specific extrathalamic corticopetal pathways of the ARAS?" <BR> <BR> He's going to think I'm a moron. He's going to think that I want him to do all of my work fo... Sun, 20 Apr 2008 19:10:57 EST End Of Semester Woes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1152308 This is mostly about my cognition class, but there's other stresses vented here as well. <BR> <BR> Here are the questions that I will need to write out blue book answers for for my Cognition final in 13 days: <BR> <BR> 1. Define attention, discuss the functional neuroanatomical mediation of this cognitive domain, and describe how it supports speech/language function, with reference to levelt's model. <BR> <BR> 2. Define long-term memory, discuss the functional neuroanatomical mediation of ... Fri, 18 Apr 2008 21:44:37 EST Egg Sammich http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1149285 Today as I ate my scrumptious egg sammich for lunch (I enjoy sammich better than sandwich), I realized that many people do not know the joy of the egg sammich, so I'll share it here! <BR> <BR> This is an easy meal that my mom used to make for us. It's fast, filling, warm, and healthy! <BR> <BR> Ingredients: <BR> Egg(s)- I like to use 2, but my mom uses 1 for herself, and my boyfriend and brothers like 3 <BR> <BR> Sammich bread- Whole grain for the win! <BR> <BR> Ketchup- adds flavor for l... Thu, 17 Apr 2008 13:29:04 EST My Diet Zen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1144286 I feel like I have grown by leaps and bounds these past few months, all resulting in my being much happier with the person I am more like now. <BR> <BR> It's strange that so many changes can happen so quickly, when so much time can pass in stagnation. <BR> <BR> My first step was probably one of the best things I've ever done for myself. For Lent this year I gave up self-deprication. I chose this because somebody I care very much about told me I was an extremely negative and self-depricative... Tue, 15 Apr 2008 12:57:13 EST Lucky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1144138 I just wanted to take a little bit of time out of my day today to reflect on how lucky I am to have a guy like Tony. This is, of course, in the context of my dieting attempts (though he is great in other ways too). <BR> <BR> Since probably about 6 months after we started dating, I've been trying to lose weight. And it seems that the more I try the more I gain. Tony has never really been a dieter nor somebody to really give weight management a whole lot of thought. <BR> <BR> He has been prog... Tue, 15 Apr 2008 12:03:50 EST 2 Weeks In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1142901 I've made it to day 14. It's pretty exciting because I still have a lot of momentum. <BR> <BR> One of the best things about this so far, is I'm not resenting being on a diet, which makes such a big difference! Instead I'm EXCITED that I'm on a diet, and can't wait for a whole new world to open up for me. <BR> <BR> A world that includes piggy back rides from my boyfriend, slinky dresses for parties, a six-pack, and mostly feeling good about myself. <BR> <BR> I haven't been tempted to give u... Mon, 14 Apr 2008 22:08:06 EST Racquetball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1137964 I want to play racquetball, but I don't have a partner. And I really have a HARD time meeting and talking to people I don't know. I wish that somebody I already knew was interested in playing with me a few times a week. <BR> <BR> I don't know...I guess there are ways to find a partner...like Craig's List or something, I just don't relish that idea. <BR> <BR> If anybody reads this who is in Bloomington Indiana, and can use the SRSC (IE you are a student or teacher in some capacity) and are ... Sat, 12 Apr 2008 17:07:35 EST Day 10!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1134325 I've made it 10 days and the motivation is still strong. <BR> <BR> I can do this. <BR> <BR> I will do this. <BR> <BR> I am doing this. Thu, 10 Apr 2008 18:57:47 EST Sore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1128462 I'm pretty sore today. But in a good way I think. I'm going to walk home after 420, so that should be enough exercise. <BR> <BR> The scale was kinda weird this morning. It didn't know whether I had gained a pound and a half or lost a half a pound. <BR> <BR> I'm not too worried though. I know I ate well and exercised well yesterday. It was a good day. <BR> <BR> Today I have already gone to a 2 hour cognition class, and written a Phonology paper. I'm about to go have lunch, then I have 2 mo... Tue, 8 Apr 2008 12:09:54 EST Finally Some Exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1126146 I biked to school (7 miles) today. <BR> <BR> I biked to the school gym (great facility!) (1 mile) <BR> <BR> I took a break by stationary biking at a medium low level for 10 minutes <BR> <BR> I jogged a mile in 16 minutes!!!! AND I didn't stop!!!!! <BR> <BR> I went to the 45 minute group strength class. At this point I was pretty tired, so it was super hard. Lots of sweat. <BR> <BR> I biked home (8+ miles) had to walk the bike up a couple of hills... <BR> <BR> <BR> All in all about 3 or... Mon, 7 Apr 2008 14:26:30 EST One Week Down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1125597 I'm so happy! I made it a week! Instead of focussing on how many more weeks it will take for me to get to my goal, I'm focussing on how awesome I did last week. I hit my nutrition goals every day, and all of my numbers went down! <BR> 230 lbs to 222.5 lbs!!!! <BR> <BR> This week I'm going to try to add some fitness steps into the mix. Speaking of which, I need to go to a str training group session now. <BR> <BR> Whenever I feel down and discouraged about my weight loss, I want to remember ... Mon, 7 Apr 2008 11:17:06 EST Dreams of Weight Loss and Lucky Charms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1123138 OK, maybe I'm spending a bit too much time thinking about how much I want to succeed here! I had this crazy dream last night that I had a GIANT bowl of Lucky Charms cereal some time in the distant future where people don't even know what cereal is anymore. There were also weigh ins floating in and out. <BR> <BR> I guess I'm nervous about my first official weigh in day tomorrow. I've been weighing myself everyday (I know I shouldn't...but I like the daily tabs), but I haven't measured myself.... Sun, 6 Apr 2008 09:42:12 EST Dreams of Weight Loss and Lucky Charms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1123136 OK, maybe I'm spending a bit too much time thinking about how much I want to succeed here! I had this crazy dream last night that I had a GIANT bowl of Lucky Charms cereal some time in the distant future where people don't even know what cereal is anymore. There were also weigh ins floating in and out. <BR> <BR> I guess I'm nervous about my first official weigh in day tomorrow. I've been weighing myself everyday (I know I shouldn't...but I like the daily tabs), but I haven't measured myself.... Sun, 6 Apr 2008 09:41:45 EST Exercise, Or My Complete Lack Of... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1120839 I just can't get myself to find the time to exercise this week. It's weird cause I feel so motivated for this program, and have hit my calorie and food goals every day. <BR> <BR> I guess, I'm just feeling really low energy, and I know that exercise should help that, but with my asthma all it will do is make it hard for me to breath plus low energy. This is negative thinking though, but telling myself it's negative thinking isn't helping me get over this block. <BR> <BR> It's supposed to be ... Fri, 4 Apr 2008 23:14:30 EST The Joy and Danger of Cooking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1118436 I made dinner tonight. It was actually a spark recipe that was sent to my inbox. It was REALLY tasty! <BR> <BR> I think I may have had more calories than I have up on my counter though...I'm not sure. And I don't know exactly how much salad dressing was in the salad since I split it, and was silly and didn't measure it first. Ultimately, I think I'm still in my calorie range or just a few hundred above it. But even if the calories are high today, I think I made good food choices (no Burger K... Thu, 3 Apr 2008 22:02:54 EST Having A Partner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1115853 I find that I'm way more likely to exercise when I have a buddy. I met up with my friend, Sara, tonight to do a Richard Simmons tape. I know he's weird, but he's actually really funny if you're with a friend, and it got my heart rate up for about an hour, was very easy, and I was laughing through the whole thing. <BR> <BR> I'm looking forward to when many of my regular foods get added to my favorites. Having to fill in all the nutrition info right now is a pain. <BR> <BR> At the moment my p... Wed, 2 Apr 2008 22:16:04 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1113213 Today was a little rough. I have a big test tomorrow morning, and I tried studying pretty much all day. I think I've got it mostly covered, but there's still a bit I don't know. I also had my Cognition class today, which was more depressing than usual. <BR> <BR> Good news is I hit my targets for nutrition! Though I would have like to have some lower numbers in the fat and carb categories, and I needed to drink more water. <BR> <BR> I didn't get around to exercising today because I didn't ge... Tue, 1 Apr 2008 22:02:36 EST New Around Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1109095 Well, here I am. At yet another attempt to lose weight and keep it off. I am a classic example of somebody who tries very hard, loses a little bit of weight, gets frustrated (either with the diet or with life) and ends it, eats like made for a few weeks, and ends up heavier than I was when I started the diet in the first place. <BR> Needless to say, I'm trying to change this cycle. <BR> <BR> I've got a lot of weight to lose. 75 pounds. Yikes! Though everywhere I look I see people who have lo... Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:44:15 EST