SPSPSP1's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SPSPSP1 SPSPSP1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Half-Marathon Completed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332991 Woohoo! It's been over a year since I started running and now I've officially completed running a half-marathon! And, as I learned along the way, <BR> <BR> "The real purpose of running isn't to win a race; it's to test the limits of the human heart." <BR> Bill Bowerman (who was the founder of Nike and Prefontaine's coach) <BR> <BR> Thanks so much to the friend who sent this to me. Tue, 23 Apr 2013 13:08:55 EST Happiness Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322432 This guy is on to something: http://www.ted.com/talks/shawn_achor_the_h<BR>appy_secret_to_better_work.html <BR> <BR> As he suggests, I'm going to do the 21-day challenge of expressing gratitude for 3 different things each day and send out at least one positive email/post praising and/or thanking someone each day. <BR> <BR> To start-- I'm so grateful for my mom, my dad, and my good health. Sun, 14 Apr 2013 03:55:27 EST Building the Happiness Muscle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321418 Just wanted to remind myself that this is the most important muscle of all and how to take care of it.Building the happiness muscle requires: <BR> <BR> 1) Practicing gratitude daily--Sometimes it may seem like there's nothing to be thankful for, but how fortunate are we that all our limbs work or that we can see a gorgeous blue sky or hear a moving piece of music. When we were children, everything was amazing and awe-inspiring. Just because we're used to it, doesn't mean it's not worthy of o... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 01:14:25 EST Noticing Triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320337 These last few days I've really been on edge and I definitely chose to eat poorly because of it. At least I knew that I was using food to cope rather than completely "checking out". The first step is noticing. Finally today I made use of other coping methods. Will continue to work on that so that next time I feel "triggered", hopefully it won't take me so long to get back on track or--better yet--no longer be triggered. :-) Fri, 12 Apr 2013 02:54:21 EST Resistance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315328 I don't want to write. I don't want to open up today. I wonder how much of it is physiological and how much is psychological. Mon, 8 Apr 2013 02:46:44 EST Challenging My Assumptions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312134 For decades I didn't believe my body was made to run. In fact, I told many people this over the years and many of them believed me because I was so vehement about it. Then, last year my hiking buddy asked me if I'd be interested in running with her. I immediately said no. After a few days, I said I'd think about it. A couple weeks later we started running a minute here and a minute there during our hikes. It took almost a year for me to run a mile without stopping not simply because my body w... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 01:43:20 EST Ask the Right Question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310911 I think Tony Robbins is onto something. He talks about how when we say to ourselves "WHY CAN'T I...(lose weight, make more money, etc.)?", our brain will immediately come up with answers as to why we can't. But, if we keep practicing asking "HOW CAN I...?", our brain will start coming up with solutions. Be vigilant about asking HOW and eventually we'll find an answer that works for us. Makes sense to me. Thu, 4 Apr 2013 01:42:33 EST Frou Frou Says It All http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5309656 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3Cg1wxgX6M Wed, 3 Apr 2013 02:41:20 EST Non-judgement Experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306989 I'm working on not freaking out or judging myself as being "bad" after eating over 4,000 calories worth of food in one day. I'm actually not just letting go of negative thoughts about this, but exploring positive ways to view my choice. <BR> 1) It was an adventure for my taste buds. <BR> 2) Tasting everything was a way to show my appreciation for my hosts' efforts. <BR> 3) I did not feel "deprived". <BR> 4) It was a way to bond with friends in a manner of speaking. <BR> <BR> Hmmm...looking a... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 04:43:12 EST Easter Egg Belly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306960 Ate a LOT...Easter brunch then Easter dinner. I may have actually eaten more than I did on Thanksgiving. Oy Vey. Starting fresh tomorrow. Mon, 1 Apr 2013 02:51:32 EST Warning: Very Crude and Equally Hilarious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5305926 Still, it's all about good health: http://thugkitchen.com/ <BR> Sun, 31 Mar 2013 02:07:29 EST "Humble Pie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304928 don't taste good, but those who can choke it down and use it as motivation are the true champions." -Greg Randolph, Bike Magazine Sat, 30 Mar 2013 00:55:42 EST Mindless Chocolating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303892 When I came home, my roommates offered me some chocolate and I gobbled it up and then finished off my nightly chocolate chip cookie. After all my contemplation about my eating habits yesterday and today, it's ironic that I succumbed to this with hardly a thought. I wonder if I would have turned down the extra chocolate had I not missed out on my afternoon snack and eaten dinner later than usual. Oh well. I'll do better next time. Fri, 29 Mar 2013 00:57:55 EST Not So Sweet Salvation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302739 Earlier I had my nightly sugar fix--a chocolate chip pecan cookie. I noticed--as I have been noticing a lot lately--that while I feel I "must" have sweets every day, most of the time I don't truly enjoy them. Yet, despite the fact that this habit has caused significant weight gain and negatively affected my health, I have almost inextricably linked them with a feeling of comfort/satisfaction/care/peace, basically all positive associations. I say "almost" because I plan to get past this. I'm n... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 02:29:13 EST Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301523 I am challenging myself to be vigilant in seeing the positive in everything for the next 7 days. Let's see what happens. Wed, 27 Mar 2013 02:23:46 EST Strive for Excellence, Not Perfection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300288 Wise words from Brene Brown: <BR> <BR> "Perfectionism is not the same thing as striving for excellence. Perfectionism is not about healthy achievement and growth. Perfectionism is a defensive mode. It's the belief that if we do things perfectly and look perfect, we can minimize or avoid the pain of blame, judgement, and shame. Perfectionism is a 20 ton shield that we lug around, thinking it will protect us, when in fact it's the thing that's really preventing us from being seen. <BR> <BR... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 02:54:36 EST Latest Epiphany http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5298960 If I fail at something, it does not make me a failure. Mon, 25 Mar 2013 01:51:34 EST The Dawn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297857 Realizing just how much my thoughts affect my outlook and my circumstances. Accepting and even enjoying the ebb and flow of life. Understanding that happiness is truly a choice as is everything else from being healthier to having a heftier bank account. Sun, 24 Mar 2013 02:36:42 EST A Long Way, Baby http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296819 In the past I blamed other people or external circumstances for my "negative" situations--whether it was excess weight, stress, poor work environment, whatever. Now, I realize it was and always has been my choice to stay in the negative situation. Now, I'm working on changing my circumstance or changing my mind. Sat, 23 Mar 2013 01:26:08 EST The Big Little Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294474 A delicious turkey and brie panini, the scent of jasmine in the air, the marked recovery from injury, a smooth run...all these are the makings of a beautiful day and a wonderful life. Thu, 21 Mar 2013 01:02:04 EST The Good Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293140 Amazing that I live the life I dreamed of and didn't appreciate it for so long. So much gratitude now. Wed, 20 Mar 2013 01:10:26 EST Ruh Roh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291896 Think I'm coming down with something. Scratchy throat all day...just stared sneezing...on the verge of watery eyes. Oh well. C'est la vie. Tue, 19 Mar 2013 02:57:32 EST Belly Talk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290568 Today I had a chat with my belly. It doesn't want to leave. It wants to protect me from deep pain. I explained to it that I appreciated that it's been here acting as a buffer all these years, but that I'm stronger now...emotionally and physically...that I can handle anything that comes my way much better. I also told it that I was grateful for it looking after me and that I know I can call upon it again if I feel the need. But, right now it's free to move on. Mon, 18 Mar 2013 01:54:18 EST A Little Muddled http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289305 Haven't slept much these last few days so I was feeling worn down/out of it today. Finally took a nap and am feeling refreshed. But, a good work opportunity came up and yet I'm feeling anxious. Trying to work through it. Sat, 16 Mar 2013 23:15:32 EST Foam Roller http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288394 My savior that works out my injury--yaay, foam roller! Sat, 16 Mar 2013 01:44:42 EST At Peace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286995 Quietly enjoying my life Thu, 14 Mar 2013 21:04:16 EST Heart Broken or Heart Strong? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285309 What if instead of just being permanently broken or scarred, the heart is like the muscles in our body? It gets torn with each workout, but with a little rest and self-care, it comes back stronger. Wed, 13 Mar 2013 13:35:02 EST Not Anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284725 Last night I had a dream that left me feeling angry and resentful when I woke up. Instead of avoiding or ignoring the feelings, I decided to explore the root cause. This led to some deep revelations about how I have felt "left out" often throughout my life. And, now I can truly see that this was an illusion. There have been so many people who have been eager to include me in their lives--even though they may have seen me at my worst. I just didn't appreciate it. Instead, I focused on those wh... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 01:43:59 EST All Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283406 Mellow day. Healthy food. Good workout. Tue, 12 Mar 2013 02:02:54 EST Sweet Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281614 Spent the afternoon playing with my friends' toddler, did a little grocery shopping, eating delicious and healthy foods. :-) Sun, 10 Mar 2013 20:10:24 EST Confused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280675 Was feeling great today, but on the drive to work out my thoughts became very hostile. Traffic was definitely a trigger, but the hostility just stayed with me. I did try to stay conscious of it and work through it. In the end I just don't really understand how I went from feeling so good to a general sense of anger. Sat, 9 Mar 2013 23:26:40 EST Feelin Groovy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279618 My mental state is great. I ate healthy today and meditated. Got a lot of tasks done. :-) Attempting to run tomorrow. Hope my injury won't be aggravated again. I haven't done any exercise in a week and I'm itching to go! Sat, 9 Mar 2013 00:40:16 EST Up Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278207 For 5 days I was really struggling...eating poorly, feeling frustrated, angry, and scared. I think it was because I got more and more frustrated that I couldn't exercise so I'd lose all the health benefits I've gotten out of this process. I've finally turned a corner.I think it's because I'll be able to exercise again soon. I'd really like to deal with my emotional eating better. so I don't freak out if I have to take a break from exercising again. Suggestions? Thu, 7 Mar 2013 23:58:30 EST Slightly More Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276851 Ate much healthier today, but still had one major indulgence. Slowly clawing my way back. Thu, 7 Mar 2013 02:18:07 EST Out of Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275299 Since I stopped exercising altogether because of my injury, I have been eating out of control...as in 3,000 calories/day. I feel so hungry all the time and I'm giving in to all of my cravings. I'm not sure how to stop without having strong feelings of deprivation. Wed, 6 Mar 2013 02:13:50 EST Double Argh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272996 Getting more and more frustrated each passing day that I'm not supposed to exercise. Mon, 4 Mar 2013 15:59:41 EST Arrgh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269887 A bit frustrated that I'm still feeling my injury after over 2 weeks...I want to RUUUUUUNNNNN! Sat, 2 Mar 2013 14:39:46 EST Loving What Is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269260 I'm not at my goal weight yet, but I'm falling in love with my body as it is. I'm truly recognizing its value and appreciating the ability to breathe, move, and make the most of my 5 senses. I'm still going for my goal weight, but now it's more because it's about taking care of my body as a way of showing appreciation rather than punishing it into submission or for an outward accolade. Sat, 2 Mar 2013 01:55:21 EST Happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267921 Once again...nothing earth shattering happened today, but I'm just happy. Oh and I finally got 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. A record! Thu, 28 Feb 2013 23:57:23 EST Realization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266353 I've been walking around feeling unbalanced. Nothing new or bad or "special" going on in my life. Just going about my day--sleeping, eating, exercise, working, watching TV. So, it took me a while to figure out what it was...contentment. Who knew it was there all along? I just hadn't been paying attention. Wed, 27 Feb 2013 18:43:42 EST Another Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5265446 Ate healthy overall, exercised without too much pain, worked on an interesting project, watched TV, did some spiritual thought work, and now I'm sparking...simple and serene. Wed, 27 Feb 2013 00:55:07 EST Sugared Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264189 Ate a significant amount of sugar today, but decent number of calories and healthy food overall. Still need to tweak my diet because I still eat desserts even after I don't want them anymore. It's like I'm compelled to finish them. I'm stuck psychologically because I feel like I'll miss out or waste them if I don't finish them. Tue, 26 Feb 2013 01:14:28 EST Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5262852 30 minute run, 90 minute walk, socializing, networking, good fun! Mon, 25 Feb 2013 02:49:01 EST Gentle Reminder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261587 Reminding myself throughout each day to be kind to myself and I'm so much more at peace. Sat, 23 Feb 2013 23:23:07 EST Getting past the blip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260541 Had a pretty unhealthy week, but got back on track today! Fri, 22 Feb 2013 23:04:12 EST Craving Causes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259412 I just ate a king size Kit Kat AND a king size Hershey bar w/ almonds. I believe that because I have not made a better effort to get enough sleep or protein, not exercising because of injury, and general anxiety (along with my period), I have set myself up for STRONGER cravings. So, it's time to reset myself. Here we go...picking myself up and dusting myself off again. Thu, 21 Feb 2013 23:35:21 EST Me So Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257618 Trouble sleeping for many days... Very grumpy today. :-( Wed, 20 Feb 2013 14:16:47 EST Insomniac http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256966 Slept a total of 8 hours (if that!) over the last two days. Uggh. Wed, 20 Feb 2013 02:41:01 EST Missing my workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255592 I'm going to attempt to run tomorrow. If that doesn't go well, I'll just walk. Working on fear that I'm losing my momentum. Mon, 18 Feb 2013 23:52:20 EST Embracing the Adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254172 I have been trying not to let my injury get me down. On top of it I've got a strong surge of PMS. I ate quite a bit of chocolate today. I've been noticing my thoughts...all the negative self-talk. I'm coaching myself through it....reminding myself that it's okay to stumble once in a while...that I can direct my attention to other ways of taking care of myself besides exercise...that this is my adventure...conquering or cleverly circumventing the symbolic snakes, bats, and boulders that I come... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 22:31:01 EST