SPARKLISE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SPARKLISE SPARKLISE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Eggplant recipe http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645622 Before I leave, I need to post this because Carol had asked and I hadn't done it. <BR> Well, here it is, how I eat eggplants. <BR> <BR> I cut the eggplant in little pieces (here they are too small, next time ill cut them bigger) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l382775250.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2060267395.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l242643673.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I put them in a bowl and toss them w... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 19:48:18 EST It's not about the food. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616993 I have been having a really hard time with my food these last few weeks and have put on a few pounds. <BR> My binging and sense of out of control towards food was coming back and I was not sure how to stop it. <BR> But last night, I finally realized its not about the food,it's my emotional eating,and instead of trying to control the food and exercise part, I have to get back to the managing my feelings part. <BR> I have found a great blog about whole foods and emotional eating and a lightbulb... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 14:28:44 EST Emotional eating is killing me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613373 Wanting to eat when I'm not really hungry is one thing, but wanting to eat when I'm over full and actually have a tummy ache, is just unbelievable. <BR> <BR> It just amazes me this wanting to eat. <BR> It's like my brain is damaged and will never be right again. <BR> But I know that it does get easier over time because I experienced it once before. <BR> <BR> Giving in the food just makes it worst,but my mind pretends it will be better and I should eat it " just one more time". <BR> <BR>... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 20:12:20 EST I am giving up the scale until June. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612351 I have decided to give up weighing myself until June. <BR> <BR> Good decision? Bad decision? <BR> Who knows?! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I have been obsessing over the number on the scale and it's been making me crazy and anxious. <BR> It's also been causing me to hate my body. <BR> I just can't seem to get over those numbers on the scale and I have put my life on hold until I lose the rest of my weight( like not buying a winter jacket because I'm not at goal weight). <BR> <BR> I want t... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 18:15:30 EST Do I hate the scale or do I hate me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597740 Yesterday and the day before, the scale showed 169.4 lbs. <BR> I was sooooo happy! 80 lbs down! <BR> Then this morning,my " official" weight and record it day, 170.4 lbs. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> To say I was disappointed is an understatement. <BR> <BR> I told my husband I hated the scale. He said its just water retention. <BR> <BR> But it downed my mood. <BR> Being Saturday morning of not rushing off to work, I stayed in bed and I pondered on the thought of being disappointed ... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 08:42:10 EST Do normal eaters regret the food they have to throw out? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591116 My goal is to be a normal eater. <BR> I have been eating normally for over a week now. <BR> <BR> Being a binge eater means I can eat abnormally high quantities of food at one time. <BR> <BR> Last night, I was having a plate full of awesome food, but I could not finish it because I was full. <em>40</em> <BR> I could have if I had pushed myself, but I knew I would have a stomach ache if I did. <BR> <BR> I guess this is a part of what being a normal eater is, but I was kind of regretting ... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 11:08:31 EST God was right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591101 God made the world in 6 days, he saw that is was good and on the 7 th day,He rested. <BR> <BR> I made a supper for 30 people happen yesterday,it went off without a hitch, it was good,we had a good time, but today I am EXHAUSTED!! <BR> <BR> So today, I rest. <em>102</em> <em>247</em> Sun, 12 Jan 2014 10:49:45 EST Survived day 6......kinda http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5586463 Yesterday was day 6 of me following the No S diet. <BR> <BR> It's a very simple plan to follow, but my mind can play tricks with it. <BR> <BR> Sunday I had too much food because I could "have" it. <BR> I felt like crap and it wasn't worth it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a snack and I wasn't really hungry. <BR> My husband asked me to make him a sandwich at 10:00 am and I had cheese,meat,clementines and grapes while doing it. <BR> I was able to stop myself before it developed into a full blown... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 05:46:16 EST Lost 3.4 lbs in 3 days. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581945 Weighed myself this morning because Saturdays are my weight in days and I lost 3.4 lbs since Thursday( That's when I "officially" started the No S Diet). <BR> <BR> So that means I hadn't gained that much over the holidays, because the first days of a diet I usually lose water weight. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> So I am very happy. <BR> This year I need to be more consistent with my weight ins- I only posted the weight ins that I lost weight .....this year I want to post every Saturday- gain o... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 13:42:29 EST Survived day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581146 I have made it through day 2 of the No S Diet. <BR> I was a bit hungrier than yesterday but that is usually how it works when I come off a binge. <BR> After lunch I really felt like eating and actually " thought" I was hungry, but it passed and I was ok until supper. <BR> Makes me think that I am really out of touch with my hunger signals. <BR> I just hope it gets better. <BR> <BR> So tomorrow is a day that begins with a with S. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> The No S Diet is: No seconds, No sn... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 19:28:17 EST Survived day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580366 I survived day 1 of the No S diet and it wasn't that bad. <BR> <BR> Oh I had the usual slight headache,heart burn,and general not feeling well of getting off a sugar binge,but nothing major. <BR> At supper I went to get seconds,but then I remembered I couldn't . <BR> Really I wasn't hungry. I just wanted more because it was good. <BR> So I didn't feel deprived of not having more, I just acknowledged that I had enough. <BR> There are left-overs that I can have today if I want to. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 06:39:49 EST Starting weight 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578965 I am starting the last stretch of this weight loss journey. <BR> Next step will be maintenance. <BR> I know I can do it. <BR> <BR> Weight : 176.2 <BR> Waist : 38 <BR> Hips : 43 <BR> Thigh : 24.5 <BR> Arm : 13 <BR> <BR> I know I will still have flabby skin because I've gained and lost , and gained and lost, and losing 100lbs will leave skin, but I still have a lot of fat that I want to lose. <BR> I have been working on accepting my body as it is. <BR> It will never look airbrushed, it has st... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 06:06:02 EST Sugar and PMS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578372 The last few weeks has seen me eat lots of sugar. <BR> And when I say lots of sugar,I mean insane amounts of sugar. <BR> Chocolates,cakes,desserts,fudge,ice cream,you name it I was having it.....all.the.time. <BR> <BR> I broke my rule of "don't buy it,you won't eat it" because it was Christmas- right? <BR> And some of it was brought in by others and left here. <BR> And because my mom was hospitalized,we did not have our Christmas supper where most of that would have been eaten. <BR> <BR> S... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 18:29:00 EST Goals for 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5578214 Goal # 1 is the same I've had for ever: stop binging <BR> <BR> In 2013, it was on and off. Some days were good some days were bad. <BR> This year, I want more binge free days than not. <BR> So this means managing my emotions better. <BR> <BR> Goal #2 : reach goal weight. <BR> <BR> I'm only 25-30 lbs away and I'm hoping that by working on goal #1 that goal # 2 will just happen. <BR> <BR> Goal #3: run a race. <BR> This means I have to make a plan and stick to it ......that is a goal in ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 16:20:00 EST Simple but not easy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575993 I'm finally back on track. <BR> Eating well and exercisizing makes so much sense.....so why do I struggle so to be consistent? <BR> <BR> 2014 has to be better. <BR> <BR> Less binging,less sugar and wheat,more exercise and more water. <BR> <BR> Simple right? <BR> <BR> Right! <em>41</em> Mon, 30 Dec 2013 20:22:11 EST 30 minutes in 2 weeks. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5574728 Today,instead of lying on the couch all afternoon, I went cross country skiing . <BR> It was only 30 minutes, but it was my first 30 minutes of fitness in 2 weeks and I'm proud that I went. <BR> <BR> Holidays, snow storms, Zumba instructors on vacation, my mom being in the hospital and me catching a cold are all reasons that exercise was just not happening. <BR> <BR> And I have to tell you that I saw a difference in my mood. <BR> Yesterday I was really cranky and felt mad at my husband for ... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 15:14:26 EST Going back to basics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5574679 Good news! My mom is home from the hospital! <BR> She had a bad cold and had a hard time breathing, but she now has antibiotics and puffers and is doing much better. <BR> <BR> Can't believe how much my eating has been bad these last few weeks! <BR> Had way too much sweets,and way too much food all the time! <BR> I kept sayings that its Christmas time and I'll stop tomorrow. <BR> But tomorrow did not make it any easier to say no to excesses and I just kept going. <BR> <BR> But today was dif... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 13:57:25 EST No Christmas supper for the first time in 45 years. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572455 This Christmas was very different. <BR> I brought my mom to the emergency room on the 23 rd and they kept her so I cancelled Christmas supper and we'll have it on January 11 ,on her 87th birthday. <BR> We are usually around 30-40 people, so it's a big deal. <BR> For the first time also, I did not go to church. <BR> So it doesnt really feel like Christmas passed, it's weird. <BR> <BR> My mom is going to come out on Saturday or Sunday, depending on how good her oxygen is. <BR> When I brought h... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 18:02:29 EST Envy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555662 I envy people sometimes. <BR> I used to envy people who I thought had no food struggles. <BR> The more I talk to people about my struggles,and the more time I spend on SP, makes me realize that almost everyone struggles with food or body image in one form or another. <BR> It made me realize that some people struggle less than me, but some people struggle much more than me. <BR> That is life. <BR> <BR> My latest envy is people that have the ability to write. <BR> People that write great bl... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 06:06:59 EST Eating is such a joyful event! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541329 I have been in binge mode for 2 days now. <BR> <BR> Binge mode does not mean I binge. <BR> <BR> It just means I want to binge...sometimes every waking moment. <BR> I have much more control over my binge eating because I know what my trigger is and I know that eating will not make it better or change the outcome. <BR> The only thing it will do is make me crazy and gain weight. <BR> <BR> Last week, I binged, and it was much harder to regain control then when I don't binge. <BR> Last night I ... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 18:57:05 EST Getting back food control. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536037 Had a hard time with food yesterday. <BR> I was holding on to control by a thread but then my husband brought me to a pub for a burger and I thought " Frig this! I want a burger too!" <BR> It could have been worst, it could have been better. <BR> Burger was delicious at least. <em>4</em> and I only had a few fries from my hubbies plate,but I did eat them with tartar sauce. <BR> But when we stopped for gas, I got a big desert. <em>39</em> <BR> That too cold have been worst. I really wante... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 18:39:06 EST wanting to eat so bad! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534252 This emotional eating stuff is so unreal! <BR> <BR> One day I am fine and don't want to eat anything unhealthy, but other times, like now, I want to eat everything in site!! <BR> And I know its not from hunger, so it has to be emotional. <BR> <BR> Today, I put the Spark phone APP on my phone and I calculated my calories. <BR> Just that is enough to make me want to eat more. <BR> I have not been calculating calories and I thought maybe it would be good that I start and just make it to goal a... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 20:08:55 EST November http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528880 This is a new month. <BR> It can be a dreary month because its getting colder and darker,leaves are falling and it rains alot. <BR> But this month, I'm going to make it a happy month! <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I have started a challenge of doing 10 minutes of exercise everyday for the month. <BR> I have put on a little bit of extra challenge and fun in mine......to do 10 minutes of a different exercise, exercise that I don't normally do or have never done. <BR> <BR> Will I find 30 different ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 05:10:31 EST Could hot chocolate be making me sick? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523252 One day last month, at the office, I was feeling really ,really tired. <BR> I had given up drinking coffee but I felt like I could not go through the afternoon without one so I made myself a "coffee" with 1Tbsp instant coffee and 2 Tbsp diet hot chocolate and some almond milk. <BR> I felt like it helped, so the next afternoon,I had another, then, I had one every afternoon. <BR> Then, I started having one in the mornings too. <BR> Then, sometimes 2. <BR> (I get "addicted" really fast!) <BR> <... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 14:28:37 EST Finally! Out of the 180's and out of being obese! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517512 This morning, I weight 179.6. <BR> BMI is 29.3 so I am just considered overweight. <BR> <BR> I have a 70 pound loss ,I am active with Zumba and I've started running on the treadmill, I go to the gym for strenght training regularly and I'm getting stronger!! <BR> <em>362</em> <em>315</em> <em>355</em> <BR> And I can plank for 1 minute 15 seconds! <em>320</em> <BR> Doesn't sound like a long time,but when you're planking,it's an eternity! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Still strugg... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 06:52:59 EST Goals not met. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509334 Wish I could say that I met my goals these last few days, but alas, I had fallen down and it took a little while to get back up. <BR> <BR> Me and my husband went to a marriage seminar at the church this week-end, and it opened up some memories and emotions that I was not ready to deal with. <BR> <BR> Pair that up with awkward social situation and throw in lots and lots of junk food available, well, lets just say that my food intake from Saturday to last night was not the best. <BR> Monday I... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 21:23:36 EST Sometimes you do it one minute at a time...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503781 and today was one of those days. <BR> <BR> I am 21 days binge free and 21 days of no eating in the couch and no eating in the car, but I was counting the minutes before my next meal a few times today. <BR> <BR> I knew it was emotional eating wanting to get the best of me, but because I had done it for the last 20 days, I knew it was doable and that I was going to do it!!! <BR> <BR> I just kept thinking that it would be sad that I could not post having made it to 21 days when I was so close... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 19:40:05 EST When natural is not really natural http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502827 I bought a bag of almonds at the store today and on it it said "natural" almonds. <BR> <BR> It was just a snack bag and I wanted something healthy for my snack. <BR> So I erroneously assumed that my almond would be natural, or raw. <BR> <BR> But all it meant was that they were unsalted. <BR> They were still roasted and to me that tasted burnt because I'm used to eating raw nuts. <BR> <BR> If I would've known that, I would've bought the salted ones because I love salt! <BR> So much for tryi... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 20:21:31 EST Cooking class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501842 For the last few years,I have been teaching a cooking class to girls on Tuesday night,through an organization called the 4-H club. <BR> Last year we had 4 girls, which is a good number. <BR> But this year we have 8. <em>40</em> and one of them can't eat wheat. <BR> <BR> We usually go at the local center but tonight I wanted to do it differently ,so the parents dropped off the girls at my house( was only supposed to be 6 but turned out 8) because I wanted to tour my garden with them. <BR> ... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 21:14:09 EST Day 18...finally, a great zumba workout! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500659 Not much to say today. <BR> <BR> Goal # 1 :no eating on the couch <em>248</em> <BR> Goal # 2 : not eating in the car <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Had an <em>345</em> zumba work-out tonight! <BR> My leg is completely healed....or almost. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I introduced a friend to zumba....she loved it but she was already sore at the end! <em>246</em> <BR> Next week, I will remember to take pictures of us and post them! <BR> <BR> Have a great day! <em>67</em> <em>247<... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 20:05:05 EST Day 17 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499590 Goal # 1 : not eating on the couch <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Goal # 2 : not eating in the car <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Still going strong on those 2 goals! <BR> Thinking about what my next goals should be, but I still have 2 weeks to decide. <BR> I want to make sure these 2 goals are a habit before I concentrate on another one. <BR> I think that will be best. <BR> <BR> Beautiful, beautiful weather here today! <BR> I even saw some people swimming at the beach.....for the end of Septemb... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 20:09:26 EST Fickle scale! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5498323 Yesterday morning, I weighed myself and saw 179. <BR> Haven't seen that in a long time; been trying to achieve it for 6 months now. <BR> I know I shouldn't, but a little while later(after having a glass of water) I weighed myself again and I had gone up to 180. <BR> I laughed and I said " fickle scale!" <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed 180.2 and I was a little disappointed by not seeing 179. <BR> But last night me and my husband went to this fancy restaurant and maybe I had a little too muc... Sat, 28 Sep 2013 08:09:40 EST Week 2 done...-5.6 lbs gone. oh ya! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5497124 I went to my new weekly support group and in 2 weeks I lost 5.6 lbs. <BR> <BR> I am now 3.2 lbs away from having lost 70 lbs. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> The weight does not reflect my ticker weight because even though I did get to 181.4 a few months ago, I had gained a little and was yo-yoing, so I just left it there. <BR> Plus, my weight-in was on Saturday morning, so maybe i'll be there this Saturday, but i'm going to now "officially" weight in the night of my meeting. <BR> SO I will chang... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 19:31:52 EST I am wearing the most beautiful ring in the world!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495219 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1099092784.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Why is it the most beautiful ring in the world??? <BR> <BR> Because it's my wedding ring!!! <BR> And finally!!! <BR> After years of not being able to wear it because I was too fat! <BR> I finally have it on my finger again! <BR> <BR> It's a great incentive to continue on my weight loss journey. <BR> When I want to eat something I shouldn't, I glance at my finger and it gives me the courage to continue. <BR> ... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 19:49:24 EST Day 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494225 How ironic that the day after I say I don't have too many cravings that I had many,many cravings today! <BR> I struggled with not eating in the car because I went for a long business drive with my husband and I wanted junk food and lots of it!!! <BR> But the only thing I had was a hot chocolate when he stopped for coffee. <em>469</em> <BR> I should have had a herbal tea,but I never even thought of it at the time! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I was really,really tired today. <BR> I have a theo... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 20:53:43 EST Day 10. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493053 Goal # 1: no eating on the couch <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Goal # 2 : no eating in the car <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> I have been having good food days. No binging,eating regular meals and not too many cravings. <BR> Had a few meals that I had more food that I should have had( like tonight!)but since I'm keeping my 2 goals, I'm still happy with my week. <BR> I was proud last night because we went to a wedding and there were lots of dessert but I only had one even though I wanted like 5 mo... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 18:55:25 EST week one done! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5490569 Week one is already done! <BR> <BR> Goal # 1: no eating on the couch <em>248</em> <BR> Goal # 2 : no eating in the car <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> I went to zumba again tonight and was able to do a little more! <BR> <BR> LOVE IT! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l56912097.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So true! But it's better than being addicted to tv! <em>334</em> Thu, 19 Sep 2013 20:51:32 EST A moment of sane eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489623 I am a binge eater. <BR> One of my goals on this journey to wellness is to be able to do what I call "sane eating". <BR> I don't really have a set definition of sane eating, but it's contrary to a lot of disordered eating that I do. <BR> Today was a weird food day and I did not get regular meals (because of not being hungry), so when I finished at the gym I was really hungry. <BR> But because I go directly from there to Bible study at church, I did not have time to eat. There are some snacks ... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 20:41:09 EST Day 5 already! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488609 Goal # 1 : no eating in the car. <em>248</em> <BR> This one was hard today! I wanted to stop to get something to eat because I was really tired. What I really needed was sleep but that was not possible so I wanted food. <BR> Instead I made myself a coffee (a little instant coffee with hot chocolate powder and milk- i'm trying not to have coffee!) and that hit the spot! <BR> Having this goal and already at day 5 really helped me not eat. <BR> I really want to make it to week 4 and be prou... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 19:46:39 EST I shocked my leg muscle! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487628 Went to zumba tonight!!! <em>104</em> <BR> Finally! After 5 long weeks!!! <em>334</em> <BR> Even if I can't walk tomorrow, it was all worth it! <em>356</em> <BR> <BR> I don't think my leg really knows how to react right now. <BR> I'm going to ice it before going to bed and hope for the best. <BR> I did what I could and did not even do the last song...I knew it was just too hard for my leg. But that's A-ok! <BR> I will go back on Thursday and have fun again. <em>321</em> <BR> ... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 20:36:42 EST Another day of success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485629 Goal # 1: no eating in the car. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Goal # 2: no eating on the couch. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Very quiet and calm day. <BR> Did groceries, worked outside in afternoon, went for a drive with my husband, now I'm in bed early cause I don't feel we'll. <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> Sat, 14 Sep 2013 19:18:42 EST Love your body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485137 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1579410970.jpg"> <BR> That is what's it's all about! <BR> <BR> That was the reason why I used to exercise, before, when I went on diets. <BR> I ONLY exercised when I went on diets, because I needed it to burn calories. <BR> <BR> That changed last year when I joined zumba. <BR> I went to try it out and I was not even on a diet....imagine that! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> And I LOVED it! So I went again, and again, and again. <BR> Then I start... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 07:20:56 EST One day of success. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484865 I did it! <em>104</em> <BR> Goal # 1 : no eating in the car. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Goal # 2 : no eating on the couch. <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> One day done....on to the next. <BR> <BR> Went to the gym and did 15 minutes on the exercise bike! <BR> It was at the lowest setting with no resistance and I hardly broke a sweat, but it was exercise.....and my leg did not hurt too much! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> At the beginning of the week I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 19:27:14 EST Joining a support group. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484259 I joined a diet support group last night. <BR> It's a lady that after struggling with weight issues, got them under control,got to goal and started a support group for people who need it. <BR> <BR> There is no diet, you decide what you eat and it's very focused on lifestyle change and good habits. <BR> <BR> When you get in your BMI, it only costs $3 per week. It's $10 before. <BR> <BR> I joined because I have been struggling with motivation a lot . <BR> I do good for a few days but then I... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 05:35:10 EST Never give up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481273 I feel so sad when I see people giving up. <BR> <BR> But I know how easy it is to give up. <BR> <BR> I wanted to give up this summer and stayed away from spark for awhile. <BR> But deep down in my heart I knew that giving up was not an option because I have been down that road before and I was not happier. <BR> <BR> So I hung on, and no matter how much I wanted to throw in the towel, I did not let myself do it. <BR> I knew that one day I would get my spark back, and I'm happy to say that i... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 04:56:32 EST At least I can walk faster than a snail!! ;) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476084 Since yesterday, my leg ,that I hurt in a 4-wheeler accident, is much better. <BR> <BR> It still hurts,it's still sore, and I still have to rest it and elevate it, but at least I don't need my cane and I can walk faster than a SNAIL!!! <em>148</em> <BR> <BR> Ok,so that's a lady bug,but they have no snail emoticon. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I should be able to start Zumba again in about a week ( hopefully). I'll take it slow and easy when I go back and it should be fine. <em>353</em> ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 20:22:53 EST I'll pay u if u you get get me ice cream! ;) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473909 That's what I would have done for ice cream yesterday ! Or even yogurt!!! <BR> <BR> I have no junk food in my house. None. Zip. Nada. <BR> Sometimes I buy a little bit to have, but since I did not go for groceries I have none. <BR> We could have gone to the store,but nah! <BR> <BR> Laying on the couch all day watching tv makes for junk food cravings so I made popcorn,but I really wanted sweets. <BR> <BR> BUT.....having lots of food,especially lots of sugar, and no exercise makes me want ... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 20:47:49 EST 3 weeks no Zumba http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5472682 Last week I hurt my leg in a 4-wheeler accident. <BR> <BR> My leg is better but to much. <BR> It's not as swollen,and black and blue markings are now showing at 3 places. <BR> I now understand why my ankle was swollen too! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I have gone to work anyways last week so it did not have a chance to unswell ,but we went to bring my daughter to college in Ottawa, so I had 3 days of very minimal walking on it,and it got better. <BR> I also bought myself a cane to help me walk ... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 14:55:51 EST Hurt my leg http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465030 After 2 weeks of waiting for the Zumba girls to come back from vacation,Zumba starts again tomorrow. <BR> <BR> The bad part? <BR> <BR> Went 4-wheeling with my husband today, I flipped my machine and it fell on my leg. <BR> So now it hurts like heck. I can't even walk on it so God only knows when I can Zumba again! <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> But I have to look on the bright side and be thankful that I did not hit my head,or any other part of me, on a rock or a tree stump. <BR> <BR> But sti... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 16:34:31 EST How much water????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459582 In the last few weeks, I have really been struggling with my eating. <BR> I felt sick all the time and wasn't sure why. <BR> When I ate, it seemed to make me feel a little better,but I did not want to be eating all the time. <BR> I had not been drinking alot of water, some, but not nearly what I should have been drinking. <BR> A few days ago, I renewed my commitment to my wellness journey and decided to drink more water. <BR> Well, I think I now know why I was feeling sick. <BR> Since drinkin... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 08:08:27 EST