SPARKLINGME176's SparkPeople Blog SPARKLINGME176's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I have been helping teach in a small spiritual group & performing BARBRA STREISAND marionette! This past weekend's teaching was VERY enlightening for me! The saying goes, you teach what you need to learn! <em>90</em> I am catching up on all the things I couldn't do for the past 4 days..... including work! LUCY <em>338</em> needs her walk & we are off to it, before Zumba, <em>355</em> this afternoon! <BR> <BR> Keep Sparking! & I will too! <em>252</em> <em>244</em> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 20 Oct 2014 17:53:51 EST After several weeks of eating perfectally, I over did it last night. I think I know what happened... Happy Saturday: <em>211</em> <em>91</em> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Last night I over ate. It was good food, but over did it by a lot. <em>33</em> I have been trying to release 5#. So I have been REALLY watching every bite & exercising more. Yesterday I cleaned our pool. <em>237</em> I haven't done it lately because of being on my trip. <em>433</em> The temp dropped to 68 <em>444</em> .... I added the solar for a few hours & it got up to 73. <em>67</em> Our pool is 9 feet d... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 12:58:40 EST Traveling helped me remember, who I am, what I want & goals important to me! 1 great thing about traveling is coming home! It takes some time recalculating, but I had a fun time, learned a lot about myself & glad to be back on a computer! <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> Looks like everyone is doing pretty good, too! Happy HuMp day! <em>381</em> <BR> <BR> I made my green drink today! Lot's of pumpkin, yogurt, protein, greens galore! I feel GREAT! Happy Friday, (date night w/DH) <BR> <BR> Back into the swing of ZUMBA classes & walking the sweet LUCY, the wondrous Circus... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 09:59:39 EST Vacation over tomorrow, drive home then Zumba when I artive' Hi! STILL not accessing the whole sp site! But I was able to get in here! Vacation going great! Home tomorrow, could use another week, but I feel DH needs me. BIG Dr. Appointments this week. <BR> <BR> I guess I'm FINALLY over the rich deserts representing a vacation ! Fresh apples are what I am eating & craving for desert! Yes! For me ! <BR> <BR> Hope you are all well ! I hiked Hollywood hills for 1.5 hours today, before too hot! The costume exhibit was AMAZING!!!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="h... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 16:42:34 EST Vacation is a blast! Weight doing well, no scale But clothes are looser! My phone is the way I am sparking! It won't let me go where I need to sign into teams..... Hope you are all well! <BR> <BR> Miss sparking on a computer! <BR> <BR> Be the health you want to be! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Photo of me at Safari park, last Sunday, 10 mile walk took. 6 hours of seeing wonderful animals! <BR> <BR> Today is costumes at the Academy of motion pictures, exhibit just opened! Tomorrow is Hunt... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 15:38:42 EST Traveling on vacation & doing GREAT! Lot's of activity & healthy eating.... no scale so I am judging weight by my jeans! They were a little tight when I left home. <BR> <BR> The Safari park was a blast! 6 hours of walking up & down hills. <em>311</em> I came 'home' VERY tired... haven't been walking like that for about a year! The new tiger exhibit was AMAZING! I brought protein bars, but got hungry & instead of frozen sugar treats I opted for carrots <em>210</em> from a children lunch, GREAT FOR ME!!!!! Grilled salmon fo... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 12:15:44 EST Before I go on trip.... Just 1 more handi hint from me! My 'go-to snacks" I pack several raw veggie packs, quart sized bags, at beginning of week. Carrots, radishes, peas, celery, cherry tomatoes, cabbage chunks & hard eggs-separate, grab 1 pack & 2 eggs & put in my ice pack lunch pail &sometimes a 100 calorie pack Trader Joes, lite popcorn & I am off & running! I work at home, so I also use this for lunch sometimes, too! I eat about 7 cups of raw veggies a day... so these packs REALLY are convenient for me! Hope this helps someone, too! <em>55... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 13:47:41 EST Getting ready for a trip, working & playing to catch up! I haven't traveled since Oct. 4 2013. I use to travel about every other month. DH is finally able to totally take care of himself, so I feel 'safe' to go. I know it will feel a little odd, but I need to take some 'me' time with my friends. I'll be gone about 10 days & hope to see many friends! <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I'll be on Spark just enough to keep my goals in focus! I leave Saturday. So you may not hear from me for awhile, BUT I am thinking of you! My weight is finally coming down, b... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 15:19:52 EST Sure is fun being a featured SP blogger! I all most didn't do it at all! <em>381</em> It sure is fun being a featured SP blogger! I all most didn't do it at all! <BR> I have never been on 'social media' SP is my only 1. I didn't think what I had to say was really important to any one else! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> to everyone who wrote to me! I'm SO glad the teachings of SP that have helped me, help YOU! That's what SP is all about, right? <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Happy, healthy weekend! <BR> *~L <em>220</em> <em>304</em> <em>504</em> <em>516</em> Fri, 19 Sep 2014 14:41:05 EST This past weekend was a blast! I need to rest, but back to work & ZUMBA!!! Walking LUCY pup Happy Monday! I performed BARBRA marionette this weekend, the audience LOVED her! She sang "AT THE SAME TIME" <em>335</em> <BR> <BR> Flash Mob on Sunday was a BLAST off! A couple from Mexico got engaged! About 70 of us, dancing Salsa! IT was SO fun! <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> Making plans to perform at a Renaissance fair near San Diego at end of Sept. Full costume (which fits because of SPARKPEOPLE!!!) , I will bring my Jester marionette, PIPPIN & another little 1 I bought, (we usually ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 16:22:05 EST Down a pound! Watching sodium VERY carefully & added 30 more exercise minutes a day! I'm flying today, again! Added 30 mins a day of more exercise.... LUCY loves it! I'm down a #, also REALLY counting sodium levels! It's all working! HOW RU? <BR> <BR> Happy Friday! It's date night with DH! <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I perform my BARBRA STREISAND marionette, Sunday is FLASH MOB!!!! Fun weekend! <em>351</em> <BR> <BR> I'm having a blast with the Spark People Community team! WOW! They are great! Just what I needed because of getting above goal, motivation! <em>25... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 14:00:39 EST OK, you've heard me say it before, BUT I LOVE SPARK PEOPLE! Have you read Chris Downie new 10 minut OK, you've heard me say it before, BUT I LOVE SPARK PEOPLE! Have you read Chris Downie new 10 minute mini book? OMG...Way to go, Chris! Not sure where to find it in SparkLand, search for it in help.... maybe in there! <BR> <BR> I was trying to figure out WHEN I 'forgot' to keep to my goals, (although kept tracking), that I am an athlete in training & started gaining weight, again. When I joined SP I PROMISED myself NO MATTER what, I would always weight in, even if I am going up in weight. I... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 13:58:21 EST How I eat in restaurants & maintain.... <em>346</em> I am finding if I take just a couple of minutes & VISUALIZE my goals, body weight, clothes fitting, etc. BRFORE I order, it REALLY helps me stay focused! (Sometimes I have to go into the wash room, but whatever works, right?) Then I ALWAYS ask for a take home bag, even for salad. & split it up right then, before a bite, that way I can finish EVERYTHING on my plate & not feel guilty. It is odd for some people, But oh well! This is MY journey not theirs. I also drink at least 8 ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 15:03:50 EST My rude awakeing.... glad it happened! Yesterday my DH brought out a video he made of our cruise in Aug. 2010. OMG, seeing myself 51 pounds higher was a RUDE awaking! I've been struggling with 5#. Do you know the saying it only takes 1 thought to change your world? Seeing myself, 2 years before Spark People & in a video, (not a photo I could choose different angles or delete) helped me REFOCUS on my goals. I have been reading them almost daily, but NOW, I am REALLY visualizing my true desires. I did not even recognize myself, THAN... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 09:45:18 EST A funny thing happens when I try to plan! A trip to walking Lucy, the wonderous Circus Dog! I do not usually walk Lucy on Friday mornings. The park behind our home, 10 acres, gets mowed. The big machines are too hard to maneuver around. Also, Fridays are a busy work day for us.... I do Sheppard Pilates, DVD. (I also can't swim, I don't like the gas fumes from the cutters, our pool is right on the other side of the park. This is NOT a complaint! I LOVE the open feeling we have because of this beautiful, green older park in the city!) BUT this morning, Lucy NEEDED to walk. I could fee... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 11:44:35 EST My weight is up, again. Scary! Open letter to STEPH-KNEE STEPH-KNEE: I am SO happy to read your blog, "Disappointment & a lesson from Sparkey", no, really! ! <BR> I live in Vegas & this past few weeks has been VERY hard for my eating. I keep celebrating my DH's return home from hospital (5 months there)! Today I am over by 6# from my high goal. When I got off the scale I 'got real". I'm still making MUCH better choices than I did before SP, but this upward mode has me a little scared. I just can not keep my weight in check eating 2,300 cals a day.... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 08:48:53 EST 30 Months of SPARK PEOPLE! WOW! Maintaining 18 of them! Our world IS so different because of SP! I've been maintaining for 18 months of my 30 months with SP. The first 12months I released 52 pounds. <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> I spread the SP word, too! My DH has been in the hospital & rehab & now home since 12-31-13! I take him to doctors offices..... I am sharing SP with EVERY doctor & Nurse I can talk with. I hand out my printed SP cards & try to inspire everyone who will listen. I even printed out 'before & after" photos to help show people wh... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 10:27:04 EST Happy Friday... it is for US! I'm finally catching up on DH business, because HE is! I'm doing a Happy Dance for that! He was in hospital for 5 months.... he is STILL healing from pressure wounds from Jan. 3, but able to do so much more. Our clients are STELLAR! <em>8</em> They were able to wait until his return. WOW! Truly prayers answered! We are so blessed, his business is our main income. <em>528</em> <BR> <BR> I am performing my BARBRA Streisand marionette this Saturday.... lot's of rehearsal. FUN! Happy Frid... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 13:04:47 EST How I decided to change my goal weight, it is only 3# BUT..... I have been REALLY struggling to stay at my goal weight. Especially these past 2 months. So I went to my weight tracker since I started SPARKPEOPLE & found I was only at my old goal weight about 3 months out of 30. So I decided instead of giving myself a hard time, I put my goal up 3#. It may not be allot, but it seems to be where my body functions at it's best. When I was 3# below my old goal, I felt sick. Tired, low energy, etc. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I had always promised myself my bod... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 15:10:58 EST Another healthy Birthday celebration! Yes! Another celebration for my B'Day, last night! (July 6, good thing I celebrate for a month!) Plus DH B'day & 2 more, we both did VERY well! His first outing since Christmas! Healthy & fun! We ate VERY well & had a tiny sliver of cake made just for me, chocolate with almond frosting, delicious! I worked it into my food plan, no guilt here! <em>44</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>338</em> LUCY the wondrous circus dog, enjoyed her extra long walk this morning, before the temps go to 107. We h... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 14:03:43 EST When life is great REJOICE! When we have challenges, have faith! Today is a new day! A new week & our choice for a new life! Go for it!!!! <em>250</em> <em>244</em> <em>252</em> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Flying peacock <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Life with my DH his birthday last year! Sun, 27 Jul 2014 12:48:48 EST PS...What I have learned about the Sam's Club peaches, necturens, plums About the recall of Sam's clubs peaches. The recall is nationally. A bacteria, Listeria, rhymes with wisteria. It is worse than e-coli, (usually found in hotdogs, etc. not fully cooked). Hard on people with diabetes & over 65. Hits & damages nerves, flu symptoms may take up to 2 months to show up. From what I have learned, it was in the fertilizer. It is SO sad because they were the BEST peaches we have ever eaten!!!!!2 a day since June 16. (The recall is for July) Hopefully DH will be OK, he... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 12:06:39 EST My life is SO full of joy & LIFE, today! DH said..... I am his reason for living! He wants to make sure I am "taken care of" after he has passed over. WOW! We have been SO close since his trip to the hospital for 5 months. It's the little things we do NOT take for granted. I am/we are SO blessed! <BR> <BR> I hope all of my Spark friends have found the love of YOUR life, too! You deserve to have this kind of joy, also! It really makes the small 'glitches' in our relationship mean nothing! <em>337</em> (we met 46 years ago, I still feel like a ... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 14:31:49 EST Happy Friday, this & that of my amazing life! 7-11-2014 <em>224</em> <em>524</em> Today is "date night" with my sweetheart. We try for EVERY Friday night. I am SO blessed he is home & getting better everyday. Still about a month to go before wound from Jan. 3 is finished healing. (YES! Long time but he better!) <em>337</em> <BR> <BR> Also, my Mom, (I haven't seen her since Oct. 4th last year) Surprised me with a call saying she is coming for a quick visit Monday & Tuesday. I usually go visit her, but I haven't traveled since last November,... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 16:56:08 EST Thank you all for your love & support! Back to you! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> *~LIGHT <em>90</em> <em>355</em> Tue, 8 Jul 2014 14:33:33 EST My Bday is July 6. Spark People has helped SO much! I'm trying to maintain! I'm up over my 3# limit. Trying to get back to reality, for my Bday. My body is craving SO much more than I am use to eating. The temps have been up to 116 degrees & I am still working & delivering & doctors appt. for DH, in this extreme heat. I AM drinking LOTS of water & trying to stay hydrated. Sun screen every 2 hours, but my body wants/needs salt! So I have been adding salt to hard boiled eggs, eating more concentrated foods like popcorn 100 cal packs, etc. Still 4 cups of raw veggies, d... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 14:10:19 EST Thank you to all my Spark friends! You helped me through the hardest year of my life! You have all helped me so much these past 6 months! WOW! We are finally seeing the rainbow at the end of this VERY long trying time of DH staying alive! He is still having nurses, daily to help with his wounds from hospital. Truly wonderful people! IF you live in Las Vegas & need at home nurses, they are AMAZING! Integrity home health. <BR> <BR> I'm flying to dance & play with Zumba today. I'm on a scale of 1-10 with 10 being the highest, an 11 today as far as joy is concerned! Your the bes... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 11:50:07 EST I am FINALLY feeling like our life is going to be 'normal' again! <em>250</em> It's been a LONG, LONG year so far. Plus I am really waiting for it to start! Yes! I still have our Christmas tree up. When DH is strong enough, he will reopen his presents! <BR> <BR> I'm getting a new computer, so I will be able to Spark SO MUCH FASTER!!Got it, now all have to do is figure out how to access ANYTHING!3 hours looking for stuff & found nothing! XP to windows 7. It took teck guy 4 hours just to set up. I'm on tablet......I sure feel dumb! <BR> <BR> I'm flying no... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 20:13:52 EST Feeling a little overwhelmed with caregiving my DH. SP helps SO much! I'm feeling a little guilty about feeling overwhelmed caregiving DH, today. Sometimes I 'over due it' & sometimes I have several places I feel I could do better:-) :-) <BR> This has been an VERY intense 1/2 year! He was in hospital 4 months, rehab 1 month, & now home since May 7, (wow a month!) I DO have help! A nurse comes daily to clean his level 3 wound, he got in hospital Jan. 3. It IS healing, but I feel I need to be at the house, to let them in. I always try to make people who come to... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 15:10:59 EST I have tried EVERYway I know to peel a hard cooked egg. I Give UP! I keep trying, but I just can't do it. I have followed Martha Stewart, Spark People, Julia Child's, my Grandmother &&&& I loose more egg than it's worth. They are a staple of mine. With my veggie packs when I leave the house. I buy organic & like to eat them them. I have heard of a gizzmo that I can use by opening a raw egg & put inform & cook. But can't find it. <BR> <BR> Help! <BR> Love you! <BR> *~Light <BR> <em>490</em> <BR> So I found already cooked eggs at Costco. Very low priced. S... Sun, 25 May 2014 17:30:16 EST May 9, 2014 DH home, NOW the real healing begins! 17 weeks later! We are learning to the new home processes. He is doing REALLY great!! Physical therapy & a daily nurse helping us with his wounds from being in hospital. He is doing great! Walking pretty good, etc.. <BR> <BR> Lot's happening, just a quick note! He took back most of his business things & the bills..... I'm a VERY happy camper! <BR> !!! <BR> Love you all!!!!!! <BR> <BR> *~LIGHT <em>104</em> <em>244</em> <em>250</em> Fri, 9 May 2014 18:18:32 EST An open letter to my Mom, The Tool of the Timer! (I have written this for a workshop my Mom is teaching this weekend, The Inner Child Workshop, she asked me to share my experience with the attendees)!! <BR> <BR> The Tool of the Timer 4-30-2014 <BR> <BR> I won’t go into all the details of my last 4 months. Just to say they have been some of the hardest, most emotional & stress filled of my life’s experience in most recent years. I recognize many people are going through these types of changes, too. I know I am not alone! I have been helpi... Thu, 1 May 2014 17:47:39 EST Happy Earth Day! I'm taking our world VERY slowly! It's the only way I can handel NOT going into over whelm!! <BR> <BR> My Mom helped with a solution, take a timer, set it for an hour & for that 1 hour, do NOTHING else except the project I choose. When the bell rings, STOP! This has REALLY been helping me! I find I get things done SO much faster!! When I have time left over, I use it to do "me time". PLUS I add 'me time" anyway!!! So I am handling almost everything, 1 step at a time. <BR> <BR> THANK YOU so much for your continued support.... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 16:00:23 EST So today is SO filled with chaos, I'm ready to give up all the stress! This week has been the hardest, since DH went into the hospital. Dec. 31 He IS doing better, but his business REALLY needs HIM, not me. I've taken it as far as I can, putting in 10 hours a day. I have gone into overwhelm. There are so many things I WANT to do, can't do 'cause I am trying to keep his business going, ( I DO have help with 2 other people who work with us, it's not just me). Let me make it clear, his business pays for our life. Our home, our cars, our pets, EVERYTHING. I have not... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 20:31:32 EST 5 minutes before I leave for Zumba, BUT Just had to write & let you know, DH is in rehab, as of Saturday! He walked 90 feet! First time since all this roller coaster started, 12-31-13 he has released 35 pounds & has only 30 more to go! I am so happy!! I'm doing my happy dance! Off to Zumba!!! <BR> <BR> I'm doing REALLY well, too! Flash mob Saturday for earth day!! I'm loving my life today & YOU! Thanks for all your support!!! <BR> *~Light <em>356</em> <em>291</em> Thu, 10 Apr 2014 18:49:54 EST Day 380 of maintenance! I am TRULY amazed! I went through ALL of my pants yesterday, Yoga, Zumba, Jeans, Slacks etc. I am donating the last of my 14/16/18's. This is a BIG step for me. It means I am VERY serious about this health thingy I am on. IF (I do not believe it will happen, as I have made my lifetime chose to stay healthy, NOT worry about my weight or the scale) I were to gain back weight I would have to buy the bigger sizes. I had donated the 18/20/22/24's before, now I am back to getting to the pairs that do not make me feel... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 15:35:38 EST My Spark People journey My HOW'S & WHY's Justyna7 inspired this! <em>244</em> for Justyna7 !!!!!! The old saying "When the student is ready, the teacher appears"! Sounds like what is happening! That how it was for me! I FINALLY asked my Angels for weight help & SPARK PEOPLE came to me in 10 minutes after my prayer! No really! Once I joined, I started seeing SPARK PEOPLE everywhere! Even in places magazines, etc. I had read before, but I never became aware of the site, before I asked for spiritual help with this situation. I believe since I asked, VERY ... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 11:06:13 EST Spring cleaning &&&&&& I had NO idea when I woke up today, that I would be cleaning & gardening for 6 hours! Watering! trees that are weepy. Needs more moisture in soil. Before I start 'doing' anything else to them, I'm going to learn what they like in this up scale desert! They are 'bottle' trees. The pics I've seen so far, do not look like anything we have. We planted 5 of them about 5 years ago & now they need some more love. YES! I'm a tree hugger.... but there is one that doesn't really want to play any more. ... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 18:32:19 EST This is it! 2 years of amazing life, because of Spark People! I'm feeling a little better, today, I think I had a cold. I do Sheppard pilates as my form of yoga, Zumba as my form of play & sweat & Flash Mob is my 'volunteer' job for our community. Eating perfectly for my body, etc. I truly thought I had the stress under control, DH still in hospital, day 74. I guess I was wrong, or I wouldn't have gotten sick. <BR> <BR> I have done a zillion things I didn't think I could do, including keeping his business going. It IS getting time for him to get back ... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 18:17:29 EST 2 year Sparaversary!!!!!! Spark people saved my life! Spark people saved my life! <BR> <BR> This week has been a double edged sward. I have an allergy to 'something' making me not to want to go out side, or do anything for that matter! REALLY WEIRD FOR ME. I tried a allergy medicine last night & it made me almost pass out. REALLY ruff night. I just can't do drugs. I keep trying to find relief, but hot teas & soup are about all I feel like eating. Yes, I am under goal for the first time in MANY years, that feels good, but not being able to go o... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 18:43:43 EST I ate a tangerine today! A poem dedicated to IAMJETTA The little tangerine <BR> <BR> The color of the sun with it its' white corded core <BR> and vein sack, holding the womb of its fragrant juices. <BR> <BR> Being a tree hugger, I "see" the baby growing with it's friends, <BR> under the sun and wind and rain and lush soil and <BR> think of the 7 years of growth it took before it could give me it's life. <BR> I am so grateful for the ultimate sacrifice this tiny being gave me! <BR> <BR> Branded as a "halo", the gift of a tiny sticker, smili... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:09:57 EST A BEAUTIFUL DAY IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD! My stress level has been 8 or above since Dec. 31. DH still in hospital. I AM learning to listen to my angels & have faith. It has helped me cope with SO much. He is getting a little better. He had the flu this week, over that now. Next step is to learn to walk again. Phanomia (I do NOT like this word, can never spell it & spell checker can't figure out my spelling either! ) gone, finally! He wants to come home now, but he still has several issues we can't address at home. So daily I am takin... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 10:58:28 EST A quick update on this Sunnyside up day! So fun reading about all of you & your life!! <BR> <BR> I have been dreading & putting off going into DH email for his business. I FINALLY did, yesterday, now that I have the passcode. 600! Then I found 500 more in his 'old file, aol is SO dumb! If you even just click on an email, it goes into the old file. I spent 4 hours <em>40</em> going through the junk in this email, yesterday! I have to be VERY careful, as this is the email that brought the encryption virus into his computer, that ... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 12:03:25 EST I have lost yet another blog trying to up load a link! BOO HOO! No time to re write right now! Darn it! <BR> <BR> 2/8/14 - FMLV (Flash Mob Las Vegas) - "Let My Love Open the Door <BR> <BR> Still need to learn how to link, the link will not stay highlighted long enough for me to even copy it! Sorry! I have to get back to work!! Mon, 24 Feb 2014 14:00:04 EST I believe ALL weight issues are because we do not have self love: I believe ALL weight issues are because we do not have self love. You may not feel this way, but I think it is true for everyone. We are born & spend the next 18 years creating our own 'story'. Then we spend the rest of our lives learning who we are & what we need to do to become the best "us" we can. We ALL have a story. How we learn from it is how we change & grow. What is your story? Share here!! <BR> <BR> Spark People has helped me come to this realization over the past 23 months!! As mo... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 13:59:23 EST My world is becoming less stressful, finally! <em>244</em> DH getting a tiny bit better, daily! He so frustrated every time I go in, cause he can't communicate, yet. To take the stress off both of us, I'm not visiting everyday. I have a zillion things I want to do, so cutting back on the frustrated time, with my sweetheart, helps both of us. <BR> <BR> Today, after working with DH business, I did my ZUMBA DVD, as my instructor is in Australia, teaching! She's fabulous!! I KNOW she is having fun! Its not as much fun for me, but keeps m... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 21:59:36 EST An open letter to CRISTALITE: You are doing great! Your blog 'jaded' I agree with JUDYAMK, all of this is about stress that is in our lives. I just updated my spark page, with the subject of stress. I, too am going through a tremendous life threatening stress of my DH. He might pull through, it is still ify. I am having to bring up incredible strength right now just to keep my world going from hour to hour. He runs his own business, so 1 thing I am doing is trying to keep ALL the balls in the air, so he has a business to come back to, which pays for our home &... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 06:39:17 EST Tomorrow is my 22 month SparkVersary! I have learned to handle stress! DH in icu! What I Have learned: <BR> Patience, my life is a process, not a destination, sounds cleshey, but it is true! <BR> <BR> When life brings on the biggest stresses, ever..... REMEMBER who I am; how far I have come, it is my example that helps the people in my life, NOT my words, when I am physically hurt to stop & heal (as I am today, my right hip is sore from stress in my home life) feeling OK!! <BR> <BR> I'm SO much stronger, smarter than I realized in the past, I CAN tackle things with grac... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 17:59:39 EST DH still in ICU, I need to remember this won't last forever! Baby steps! It feels like months since I have been here! DH still in ICU Very sick. A tiny improvement. It has been 9 days. WOW! He is still very drugged so he will heal his lungs. I am praying he will recover, still ify, but better now than when he went in! I am handling his business, so we can continue living in our sweet home! I'm doing it! That is my <em>244</em> going to hospital daily, Zumba, taking care of the household, pets, & trying to simplify my life! I'm eating perfectly! I thought I wo... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 09:15:06 EST I am keeping my world together, even though DH is in ICU! The strength I am having to experience, is making me a better person. I am having to put "my big girl pants" on & just do WHATEVER is required of me. He has been in ICU since 12-31-13. Lung infection. He is not conscious, yet. BUT, yesterday he moved when I held his hand & he moved his lips when I told him I wanted a kiss. For me, this was HUGE. I KNOW he knows when I am there. I try to be with him at least 3 hours a day. I wish it could be more, but I need to take care of me, LUCY & Lucky, h... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 06:20:17 EST