SPARKLEPIE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SPARKLEPIE SPARKLEPIE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Where does the time go... and what do you give up? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166254 I have been struggling lately with time... in that I was always busy before and now seems to be so busy I find no time to be here on spark people... I miss that time, but I also know that what I am doing instead is just as important as being here.. and truthfully probly more important... <BR> <BR> So as my status says I'm kinda gonna take off till early January... I may pop in here and there, especially is any holiday motivational is needed to maintain my progress during this time... <BR> <... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 08:50:54 EST Had it really been over 2 weeks since I sparked and blogged!! What?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5149220 Goodness Me!!! <BR> <BR> Well I ahve been trying t take more "me" time (like 30 minutes a day) which is what I used to take for sp time and well it's not working out so well... <BR> <BR> Seems I am filling it with more "things I feel I must do" but in all reality could likely wait.... and this is part of what I am learning is my own little stress and anxiety making whirlwind that keeps playing "keep away" with my time. <BR> <BR> So I miss sp dearly and those here... I feel almost lost som... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 08:25:09 EST Personal Trainer, additional dr notes and Thanks to all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130400 Hey everyone.. This week has been nut nut nuts! <BR> <BR> I've worked ealry and late and had things to do everynight and morning... so I am working on commenting to all who have left comments and questions on my recent blogs... I shall get back with you all soon... I am so so so freakin' thankful for all of your support - it's pretty much amazing and what helps to carry me on this journey. <BR> <BR> Because some of you may be wondering what else I found out from the dr, on my followup call... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 09:53:02 EST DR RESULTS ARE IN! (and I'm a little confused) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5126985 Hey everyone - <BR> <BR> The nurse from the DR's office called yesterday with the results.. they are not bad (and I'll get to that in a minute) but I now have piles more questions I asked her to get with the DR and let me know, so this is likely update 1 of 2 to come. <BR> <BR> Okay- the big stuff: <BR> <BR> My hair loss- the nurse did not mention it at all, and just went over my results, of those none would indicate a low level of anything that would affect my hair. <BR> So- I am waiting ... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 08:14:15 EST Belly and Butt- good greif! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5125847 You know I was looking at myself in the mirror and if it wasn't for my belly ad my big butt I would look almost more trim and fit... <BR> <BR> Sheesh I have no clue how to conquer those two areas but to keep working... I don't really want to lose any more weight but I need to get those areas in shape... I love my curves but I'd sure love it to looks a little more like a bike tire than a spare tire. So I need to tackle them without dropping more weight... my waist is already very thin, my fac... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 07:53:04 EST Dr Visit Update- Stress & Random http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122476 Well... Whew, yes I'll do that again Whew! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my dr appointment to discuss my hair thinning/loss.. <BR> <BR> I ended up have a wait, they were running behind so let's just say the hour in the waiting room felt like mild tourture... and why in the world they have those health channels on in the waiting room tv's is crazy! Plan vintage movies, play a comedy (they say laughter is healing) play anything but more and more scary medical stuff... so that was not good- I asked ... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 12:34:31 EST my hair thinning update for those who have followed me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5120020 Hello dear sparkers... <BR> <BR> Well tomorrow morning I finally have my Dr. appointment to discuss my hair loss/thinning I started noticing in July that alarmed me. I am greatful to have a job now with health insurance. <BR> <BR> This all started in July and from my best estimation and those of others I talk to the general thought is that I was in no way eating enough for my body to sustain itself... I unknowingly reduced my calories to around 900 for a while and 30% of those were used for... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 09:16:50 EST The one time I was happy to sit at DMV for 20 minutes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119562 So today I had to pay my registration for the my car... sidenote, it's name is Sparky... lol! <BR> <BR> Moving on, so I went in with every intent to just pay, get my tags and go... but then I thought to myself as I pulled out my driver's license to verify I was me... and AHA!!! <BR> <BR> So some days it's still hard to see the *new* me.. I still see the 251 pound sparklepie... I still see me as fat, very fat some days... my mind and body image has not caught up to my other changes... <BR> ... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 21:27:26 EST zumba mirrors!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109649 I just changed Zumba classes because the place I was going before the instructor had to take time off... it was being done in a multi-purpose room in the community... with no mirrors.... <BR> <BR> I ended up joining snap fitness which I think will be a good thing... <BR> <BR> I've done Zumba twice now there and tried jazzercise too (pretty cool, it's not your mama's 80's stuff anymore :) <BR> <BR> and all in all I'm pretty happy... I do miss some of my favorite songs and moves from my othe... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 09:25:09 EST Vacation Return...Sparklepie Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5096210 Hey everyone... gosh let me just say I thought it would be hard on vacation to stay on track... (and it was simply because of time, lack of choices, and it was a celebratory type of vacation..so who wants to be good all the time) anyways... what I did not factor was how hard it would be to be away from sparkpeople... It was like I was an sp addict on withdrawls... but there was little (and I mean little) down time and a computer was hard to come by... <BR> <BR> We went to west virginia, wher... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 09:15:50 EST highs and lows http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5078176 Well a got a huge reminder (from myself to myself) that becoming fit, focusing on me and my health and losing weight will not fix any other issues or things that need there own "overhaul"... <BR> <BR> This is all very random and I don't much intend it to make all that much sense but sometimes a faceless..new blog window is all a person needs to get it out, declare it and move on... <BR> <BR> I am that kind of a person, find writing to be a good release.... <BR> <BR> I am having so frustra... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 09:36:14 EST What are your numbers? My http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5072639 ****EDIT**** <BR> <BR> OK add height too :) good call! <BR> Mine is 5' 5"ish <BR> <BR> Hey sparkers... <BR> <BR> So I'm kinda wondering what are other people's numbers so I'm requesting sparkers to "tell all" :) <BR> <BR> I've been wondering were my numbers are to other peoples, and I know everyone is different and at different levels and puts in different efforts but just for the sake of gathering a little less than scientific data.. comment if you want with the following... <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 09:43:25 EST 40% Hair Loss.. tonight is a hard night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068550 Tonight I saw my hairdresser... and well I was anxious all day about it.. I even indulged in 1/3 of a chocolate bar and some crackers... the worry was getting to me all day... <BR> <BR> I love my hairdresser.. she will not sugar coat but she does comfort me... <BR> <BR> So the bad news first: <BR> She estimates about a 40% loss of hair from thinning. <BR> She say I have much much less hair per quare inch <BR> She also sees NO new baby hairs growing in place of all the hairs that have "lef... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 23:49:16 EST silly dogs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5062890 well I can tell it's cooler temps in the morning because my dog are getting the cooler weather goofy's... <BR> <BR> Mostly my Shadow... she's the white 55pound g. shepard, dalmation mutt-erific breed... <BR> <BR> She gets her fav little squeaky toy (at 4:15 am mind you) and starts going to town!! She loves this this.. she makes it squeak then jump back as if waiting for it to come and get her... and when it just lays there as if to say "mercy" she start barking at at... then it starts... zo... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 09:56:40 EST SIZE 12!!! OH YEAH!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061451 (this had nothing to do with the other blog so I'm posting as two sep.) <BR> I went shopping yesterday for the wedding I'm attending in 2.5 weeks... <BR> <BR> I needed a dress and some jeans.... and wholly size 12 batman!!! <BR> Pic is in my photos because I could not get to load here :( <BR> <BR> <BR> I went everywhere because I have a hard fit for jeans: <BR> <BR> big butt <BR> small waist <BR> large calfs <BR> short legs... <BR> <BR> So I finally after what felt like 100 pairs of jean... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 11:27:50 EST recommendation from another scaredy-cat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061443 whew, <BR> Ok... so I've calmed down from my recent blog post about seeing a dr and having blood drawn... <BR> <BR> I happen to bring it up last night with friends and what we all call "saturday family dinner" though we are not family... <BR> <BR> One of my dear friends... who I know has had loads of medical procedures and she told me she was not only scared of needles... but it stems from bad experiances having blood draw because her veins collapse.... <BR> <BR> she recommended her dr,... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 11:20:00 EST if I could just wash my hair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058859 So my hair... <BR> <BR> still coming out in handfuls and if it's from my previous neglect to make sure I was getting enough of everything or a thyroid issue... once it has started all research suggests it is many many (like 6+) months till it will stop... then it will stay thin till all the new hair can grow.... <BR> <BR> It seems to really only get me down on days I wash my hair... because that is when it falls out, I don't even feel a tug.. it is just loose hair coming out enough to make... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 10:02:58 EST what a difference a walk makes..the changing of plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058384 Tonight is dvd cardio walking night. Every Thursday I do Leslie Sansone 4 fast miles, it has 5 intervals of 3 mnutes that are jogging... it's a 47 minute killer indoor cardio workout... don't let the "indoor walking" name fool you it's some serious stuff... anyways... <BR> <BR> When the temps got hot outside I switch to these dvds, (I used to do both in the early part of the year till it got hot) <BR> <BR> Then I started mixing it Zumba now which I love... and perhaps I'm just bored... it ... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 23:14:39 EST calorie reconsideration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055675 Well I've been thinking alot about my calories... <BR> <BR> I was at a bit of an unsafe level early on, not planned to do that, just a makeshift tracking plan based on a homemade ww system which was not taking into account the quality of the food I was eating, just the points it cost... <BR> <BR> So when hair thinning started in June-ish I started to freak and research what I was doing wrong... <BR> About July-ish I revamped the program, went to straight cal tracking and macro's and went ... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 08:59:07 EST weigh day relocation-tracking and misc http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052257 It has been a while since I blogged and since I know there are people who like to see what's going on in sparklepie's world... here's an update... <BR> <BR> #1. Weight <BR> I am still just kinds lingering at that 180 weight... I've been doing some random mid week weighs and it ranges anywhere from 179-183... and while 180 was my first goal and I've now adjusted to go for 170 I have noticed that my weight is fluxuating now more than any other time on this journey I started in January. I was a... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 09:51:44 EST Reach goal.. now what. (oh and a tip for those who have not yet) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043281 Hello fellow sparkers.... <BR> <BR> I am have been so overwhelmed and touched by all the comments and cheers on my recent blogs about reaching my goal weight of 180, which again... I can hardly believe is a 71 pound loss... my friends are calling my "skinny" (while of course not true, in relation to where I was prior to the journey I do look "skinny" (what???!!) <BR> <BR> I fit into size 12 pants this weekend and yes, I'm getting through 60 minutes of Zumba and still going strong into the ... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 00:18:02 EST 71 Pounds down... side effects below. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5032829 Ok.. Here's my list of side effects and the list of what losing 71 will and won't do... enjoy:) <BR> <BR> Side Effects: <BR> <BR> 1. Overflowing joy <BR> 2. Cheers from all those around <BR> 3. (thus) More overflowing joy <BR> 4. Empty Closet (see below) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l682086560.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 5. Hangers will start a party in your house (see below) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l58692728.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 6. (even more) Ov... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 09:09:56 EST With many thanks- the journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031593 Thank you to everyone... thus far 66 fellow sparkers have commented, cheered, jump for joy with me and so much more on my blog yesterday celebrating my 1. loss of 71 pounds and 2. Reaching my goal.... <BR> <BR> I have to start by saying last night was my sister-in-laws birthday party, because life is busy we'd not seen them in about 3 months.... well I showed up at the party (no one knew I'd reach my goal or how much I'd lost really in total) and the ohhh...and ahhhhs were wonderful to fee... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 11:39:36 EST I've lost 71 pounds and reached my goal weight!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030251 Wow. <BR> <BR> This is all I can seem to keep saying this morning.... Wow. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself 15 times (maybe more, I stopped counting) I actually can't even believe it.. it's like I'm someone else right now... how in the world did I do this!! I never thought I could do this... but that scale kept on saying the same thing.... <BR> <BR> 180 <BR> 180 <BR> 180 <BR> 180..... and I'm standing there, in my 5am no coffee yet stuper...like what?!? 180, 180, 180.... <BR> 180!!!!! That's m... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 08:54:09 EST meditation vs. fur-kids http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029086 So I woke up at 4am... an hour earlier than normal and since tonight is my planned workout since this is a rest morning... I thought ok, sparklpie now's the time to meditate and let go for a little bit.... <BR> <BR> well let me say this... my 2 dogs (1-47 lb border collie mutt and 1 55 lb white german shepard, dalmation, who knows what else mutt) decided that while "mommy" was on the floor was actually the best time to get in some lovin' they must have wanted... at first I said no kiddo's mo... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 09:57:47 EST Who ever thought I would motivate others??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5027645 So it's been a little shocking to me to say the least that I have: <BR> <BR> 1. Stuck with this and done it in the most healthy way I knew how <BR> ( minus my little snafu with calories for a while but on track now) <BR> 2. That I did it without pills or aids of any kind <BR> 3. That I actually got active, really active! <BR> (and I love it) <BR> <BR> and then number 4.. that I have motivated others in my life to look at their own weight, wellness and health.!!! WOW! <BR> <BR> I now hav... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 09:55:39 EST a zumba funny moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5024620 ok, so your in the zone...rolling your hips and shaking your booty as though the fate of the free world rested on your hips and how much you can wiggle..... the burn is happening.... the legs are on fire and then it happens... the instructor come up next to you and start making you work it harder.... so you do... and then she says to me... "dang girl get a license for that thing!" about my booty... I lost it laughing... lost my place in steps and had the best laugh of the day along with my fr... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 09:29:15 EST scary shower and no clothes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5022986 So this moring was I think the worst shower hair loss since this all started... it was a massive amount, about double what I normally lose which is about 3 times was is notrmal...so basically today with what I lost I could create a small hamster... This pretty much freaked me out, I'm scared to take the towel off my head and see how that equates to what I see on my head... so until the absolute last minute that I must get ready I'm choosing to ignore it and move on with my morning till I have... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 09:25:16 EST More Food. More Energy. Another Pound Down- Week Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5020537 There I was this morning, the moment of truth... just me and the scale and the scale as the rest of the house was fast alseep... I already started the coffee so the promise of something good to I could smell in the kitchen air no matter what this little square white box on the floor had to tell me.... <BR> <BR> Nervous after a week of what I eastimate was an extra 1500 calories total in 5 days since starting my new program on Monday... not to forget the increase of proteins, fat and grains t... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 11:11:51 EST Quick Day 4 update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018755 I did about the same today... just about or right at every goal, it worked out to way more "points" which just go to further my feeling my hair loss is from lack of food and all the good stuff..god for you food has... <BR> <BR> Did Grace and Gusto by Ellen barrett tonight... <BR> <BR> I love that series.. it's a nice warming, getting in touch with yourself cardio session with a soothing twist... perfect for late in the week... <BR> <BR> I was able to do the tall tree pose tonight!!! whoho... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 22:48:29 EST Day three- food tracking..Balance! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5017400 OK well I have to say 1. I feel fuller, almost a little too full but not sick or anything like that. 2. I got through zumba better than ever before and I wonder if my increase in food/nutreits even over just the course of 3 days has helped my body be stronger (eventhough I never felt week) it was weird zumba was over and I was ready for more! <BR> <BR> So totals for the day: <BR> (grams for nurtrients) <BR> <BR> 1500 Calorie Goal *1454 Actual <BR> 113 Protein Goal *120 Actual <BR> 50 Fat Go... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 23:36:56 EST New tracking- Day 2 and again eye opening! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015928 So.. again many thank to all who have been following my recent blogs, your comments are beyond helpful... personal thanks you will soon follow.. just know my heart is thankful. <BR> <BR> Today I woke up and while still a bit of an emotional ball, I brushed it off and carried on. <BR> <BR> I spent my lunch reading on my phone an ap I downloaded for like $2 from Deepak Chopra on stress free living. It's a daily lesson and right up my alley... I did the lesson while eating my much more BALAN... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 23:17:09 EST New tracking system and a slightly calmer sparklepie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5014480 Ok.. before I start.. anyone who read my last blog, I blame the tears for the misspelling... sorry :) <BR> Also... a deep heartfelt thank you.. it was like you all showed up just when I need the support of friends without judgement who understood... if comments were internet versions of hugs.... I felt the love... and I thank you deeply. <BR> <BR> OK- so a recap of the new system. I was going to shoot for 1700 cal's but I think since weekend are a little "cheating session" for me normally I... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 00:07:50 EST UPDATE: Hair Loss Devestation & My tearful breakdown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5013273 UPDATE-- <BR> <BR> Ok I'm halfway through day one of eating more (trying) and tracking on my homemade ww system and straight tracking cals, fat, protein.... <BR> <BR> Right now **INCLUDING** what I plan to eat for dinner and remaining daily snacks day one of tracking calories has been EYEOPENING.... yep I was full, before but clearly not enough... I would consider today to be a higher "point" day of my old system... and yet I am coming in at ONLY 1138 Cal's so I think of course I'm no dr...... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 09:50:15 EST shapes and numbers thanks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011103 thanks everyone for all the positive flowing comments on my previous blog. <BR> <BR> I've got a new dvd coming from amazon and I downloaded a free app as one suggested and I've got my game plan... tone session every day at least 16 minutes per day- 8 abs, 8 arms. <BR> <BR> while I know this will not scultp my arms to super star status or my lingering belly jiggly (some fat some skin) into 6pack material... I know it will tone it up a little and that's what I'm looking for... <BR> <BR> I... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 15:59:50 EST Shapes and Numbers.. (and no I'm not talking preschool :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5009421 Ok, so I have been doing a lot of blogging and thinking about what I do when I hit my goal of 180 which ought to be in the next few weeks if everything stays on course. That will be a total loss of .....drumroll.... of 71 pounds!!! Wow... did I compute that right? something must be off... the scale must be off... 71 pounds??? That's kinda the holy cow freak outs (good way) I've been having because I truly NEVER thought anything like that would happen to me... I was going to be happy jusy to l... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 09:21:53 EST blog calling my name..updating on the general http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005975 Here we go.. a full update for those who follow or just are curious... <BR> <BR> hair... all I know is thank goodness I had thick hair to start... it is still falling out, but my new profile picture was just taken middle of last week so as you can see... still a good head of hair thanks to my styling efforts and previously mentioned thick hair to start. I am still guessing it is a lack of nutrition and or calories or both compiled with my weight loss, while safe at 2 pound per week or a litt... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 23:52:22 EST Color Run 5K 2013!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4994410 My friend was telling me about this so I'm all in!!! <BR> <BR> This sounds like so much fun and just the kind of 5K I want to sign up for. I think it will be awesome too since in Jan of 2013 will be 1 year of me on my journey... what a great way to celebrate it will be and something to keep me going after I meet my first goal!! <BR> <BR> Check out the video: <BR> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4EERSfHiq<BR>T8&feature=plcp <BR> <BR> Or visit: <BR> http://thecolorrun.com <BR> <BR> I guess I... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 09:22:29 EST blah to better- brain break coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4992787 OK, so yesterday and actually all weekend I was kinda blah, not a total funk but when unoccupied my naturally cheery disposition landed more in the anxious and down in the dumps disposition realm. <BR> <BR> I was glad to get some encouraging words from some sparkers..that certainly helps just make me smile...but deep down I need a full blown brain break I think to blow this off, especially after this morning... <BR> <BR> so the good news, tonight is ZUMBA! and I have now roped a total of 3... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 09:27:41 EST 50 Things About Me ( from BEFEARLESS and others) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4987182 Well I rarely do stuff like this but I'm feeling like a distraction so here goes: <BR> <BR> 50 Things About Me- <BR> <BR> 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> not really, my name is one I gave myself- the name my parents gave me is from a song. <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Sunday <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> not really other than the fact it look just like my Granny's which is pretty weird. <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 23:49:45 EST what a compliment- even if it sounded like it wasn't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4984560 So last night a friend of mine, was telling another friends of mine while I was out of earshot (they thought) that I should be a plus size model.... <BR> <BR> Now some may have been offended, espcially since I've lost 62 pounds but I know that even at my weight now of 188 I would be considered plus size and since my goal weight is only 180, even at that I would be *plus sized* ... and truthfully I don't take offense to this... <BR> <BR> I'm still an not sure if I am going to set a second... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 09:36:22 EST lessons learned at 87 and from the middle seat dr. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4982443 This weekend I make a quick (One day and evening) trip to surprise my granny for her 87th birthday... this was hard since I am not good at all with keeping a secret like that but I did it and the surprise was great! Sadly I over did it with food, double desserts, cheese, bread, wine, pastries, creamy dressings, butter, and so on and so on... so basically I indulged to the point I feel now sluggish... however I am certain by Tuesday I'll feel fine, and if I keep on track as always I will lose ... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 23:23:32 EST first zumba update and blog thanks... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4974088 OK... <BR> <BR> To all of you lovelies who commented on my last blog.. <BR> <BR> from the depths of my heart I that each of you for your heartfelt encouragement, congrats and support. Some of you I have "known" on sparkpeople since close to the start of this year and thus this journey and some of your sparkfriends I've picked up along the way.... <BR> <BR> To each of you I can not tell you truly amazing your support have been and without a doubt a part of the journey that has become one of... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 08:14:58 EST Zumba..Empty Hanger.... Oh My! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972480 Well it's official... I am not at my goal but I feel like I have already won! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did another several hours of clothes trying on in my closet to clean out everything that does not fit and almost just shy 80 hangers later my closet looks nearly empty, literally. EMPTY. <BR> <BR> So this shocking moment I stood there and looked at years of clothes collecting (big girls as a generally rule I think hang onto clothes longer because its harder to find cute stuff) and I was near... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:21:12 EST 10 pounds to Goal #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4969777 Ok so I hit 190 this morning, my total loss thus far 61 pounds! <BR> I am just 10 pounds from my goal of 180. <BR> <BR> I am not to worried about the next 10 pounds... since I thus far have been so lucky in my loss process to have not had a week where I didn't lose something. I am certain lucky and my hard work and dedication have a huge role to play in this. I have stayed true to my "plan" of allowing for days off from counting calories and working out and I sprinkle them in between days of... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 09:50:16 EST 53 Clothes Hangers and 60 Pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959550 I am so AMAZED... actually I'm nearly pinching myself at the fact that as of today I have lost 60 pounds since the start of 2012!! I am 12 pounds away from my first sparkpeople goal and I am so darn shocked I'm hardly believing it... I got on the scale so many times just to see if there was a glitch! I asked my partner to weigh herself so I could see it was not a glitch and the scale was working.... <BR> <BR> And then I ran into the mirror, stripped down and while yes, naked I do see I weigh... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 17:33:25 EST so uhm... someone (non sparker) ask me for help...whoa! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4957649 This event could not have come on a better day... You see yesterday and still a little today I'm feeling fairly somber... not depressed, nothing specific is really bothersome... a few things going on but nothing too off the norm of daily "things" that go on.. but yesterday and today I feel a little "down" And I shouldn't... I'm more fit now than ever, I'm no longer commuting to work...and while my hair is still falling out at a pace I'm not to keen on all and all nothing has changed this week... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 08:58:33 EST sparkpeople love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4947382 I just have to say this: <BR> <BR> I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE Sparkpeople!!! <BR> <BR> The support here is amazing and I really feel so incrediably thankful for all those who have and do inspire me here to keep going and have jumpped on to see my journey and cheer me on as well. <BR> <BR> It is one amazing little place! <BR> love it. Fri, 29 Jun 2012 09:27:01 EST new/old job and 4am is a bust! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942827 Ok, so yesterday I started my new/old job... let me explain. <BR> <BR> I worked at a local news publication, in advertising for about 3 years..then 2 years ago I left to work for a friend/client in the insurance world, got my agent license and have been there up until last week, which was my last day before returning back to the newspaper advertising industry and my old job. <BR> <BR> So let me back up a little.... <BR> About a month ago a few things spiraled into me thinking I could not h... Tue, 26 Jun 2012 09:04:07 EST First week with more calories...and I still lost! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4939239 OK, so anyone following my journey may know that this week I started on my reassessment plan of adding in more calories, all from complete protein sources like lean meats, soy and creating complete protein combos as apposed to my previous incomplete protein consumption... <BR> <BR> I also put myself back on a multi-vitamin (had stopped taking it because I was feeling so good from losing weight I didn't think I needed it) and a higher regular dose of biotin. <BR> <BR> I also stopped all dry... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 17:51:33 EST