SOXYINMO's SparkPeople Blog SOXYINMO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Feeling fit Wooo HOOO! While running today I could feel my biceps inside my shirt. It made me feel STRONG <BR> <em>362</em> Wed, 15 Mar 2017 20:23:29 EST Healthy choices What "new" healthy thing am I going to work on? Well, I think my best bet is to continue to strive for a healthier food intake. Making those healthier choices until they, once again, become the norm. <BR> The other thing is getting this stress under control. Continue working on meditation techniques and breathing and FACING things sooner rather than later so the anticipation doesn't kill me. <BR> Those are the two things I think are most important right now. Tue, 28 Feb 2017 12:33:37 EST Need to increase exercise The question was how do I shake up my workouts, but I'm barely working out. I am finding time slipping through my fingers. Yep. there are definitely times I could be working out that I am on the computer or sitting in front of the TV, but lately having those 10 minutes to myself even just sitting still seem awfully precious. <BR> I want to add biking to my workouts; i keep trying to get the ONE bike the gym has but so far no luck. I dont feel up to RPM yet and those bikes are at a premium. <... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 22:21:51 EST Making Mistakes What was my last mistake? How did it make me feel? On Friday I went out to visit my mom at her assisted care facility. I didn't bring any water with me. That was the biggest mistake. It got to be late afternoon and i was hungry and thirsty and I went to the local chicken house. I decided to get the BBQ chicken sandwich. I'd been wanting BBQ chicken and that would be a quick and easy meal. <BR> My mistake came in not stopping there. I SHOULD have gotten the sandwich and then gone to the gas s... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 07:03:50 EST Where's the stress? SparkCoach asked about stress or anxiety associated with my weight loss journey. My stress levels have been pretty high lately but mostly because of my mom falling, her moving into an assisted care facility and having to get everything out of her house so quickly. <BR> This adds stress to my health just in general but also in trying to get good and healthy food in a shrinking time frame. <BR> Trying to balance the extra time & food on top of everything else can be stressful. <BR> I'm tryi... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 17:43:29 EST Diet sabotoge Is someone sabotaging my healthy eating plan? There have been little snippets here & there. My mom is about the worst. She managed to lose a lot of weight and has put it back on and more. I do believe that when the people in my life act in a sabotor type way, it's because of jealousy. <BR> My plan of action has been to change the subject. When someone pushes food on me or says disparaging things, I redirect the conversation. <BR> My friend and I have been known to take cake that we just coul... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 07:46:03 EST Healthy life motivation My mom's health has not been the best over her lifetime. She has indulged in many things she shouldn't and that has taken its toll. A few years ago she was doing tai chi, going to the Senior Center to do LIT there and looking and feeling good. Then her 'friend' got cancer and told my mom 'life is short. Do whatever you want! Don't listen to anyone else! Just enjoy life!" What my mom didn't realize was that she was actually enjoying life. But she decided she didn't feel like working out one da... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 07:05:22 EST Workout commitments So, what keeps me from making my workout commitments? At work my friend and I used to walk every day at 10 and again at 2. She got transferred to another department and it is much more difficult to get up and go on my own. I have also gotten a promotion and, feeling the need to prove myself, I have taken to working through my breaks, even though I know how counter-productive that can be. <BR> <BR> Two years ago, after my marathon, my IT Band was in bad, bad shape and getting it back took som... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 07:39:32 EST Finding my way So I'm supposed to blog about the positive changes since I changed my lifestyle, but I'm in the throws of a return, so I'm going to come at this a bit differently. <BR> I lost 115 pounds and have, over the past few years (especially 2016), watched 30 of those pounds return. <BR> Well, the brakes are on and this is as far as that goes! So I guess I'm looking at comparison. I am still moderately fit, still running some, still working out, but my muscle tone is Ptht. That flabby belly was GONE! ... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 09:54:49 EST Back to the races Yesterday was my first running race of the year! A very bizarre 5K in the next town over. It was 15 degrees F (-9.45 C) and hilly! I've been fighting off allergies that want to become a chest infection, which made breathing tough, but I managed to do it in 30:05, which isn't record-breaking, but makes me feel like I'm back in the game! <BR> <BR> It was a very small field, but I came in second woman overall & the woman ahead of me couldn't have been older than 25! So I'll take that at 58 and ... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 10:38:12 EST Of my philosophy Last night I had a nice meal in front of me; a nice, well-rounded meal. And we ate while the news was on. And we ate as the reporter talked about Syrian refugees eating dirt and grass because there was nothing else to eat. <BR> <BR> I am not going to feel guilty for enjoying the food I have. I am, however, going to have this picture of children eating grass in my mind for a long, long time to come. And I should. <BR> <BR> This isn't about politics, neither is it about sharing what cannot b... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 09:41:33 EST Lost arts I really miss writing letters. I miss receiving them as well. This was brought home to me as I wrote my quarterly letter to my in-laws. My mother-in-law is no longer able to respond due to Parkinson's Disease and Post-polio syndrome, but she and my father-in-law still enjoy my letters and when I'm late they let Al know it! <BR> <BR> I like that I can connect instantly with people now. Especially with those people who would never write a letter; people like my sister, my niece or my youngest ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 07:03:38 EST Untitled Some 25 years ago I had a VHS exercise tape for larger women. It was a good workout, but one of the things that I liked about it was that at the end of the tape the trainer told us to hug ourselves & say "Today I am okay the way I am." <BR> I think that's important to remember even when, or maybe especially when, we are working towards a healthier us. <BR> Yes, I have things I want to change. Yes, I have to be realistic about the loss of muscle mass. Yes, I have to eat better. Yes, wanting an... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 13:44:24 EST What lies ahead Start where you are. <BR> Use what you have. <BR> Do what you can. <BR> <BR> My daughter posted this on FaceBook this week. I keep getting caught on the 'start where you are.' On one had I think : Well, der. But on the other I know how easy it is to put things off ‘until Monday,' until 'after Christmas,' 'after New Year’s Day,' 'after this cookie.' <BR> <BR> Then there's the little problem with my weight tracker. Yes, I started at 250 pounds. And, yes, I am now at 156 pounds. Not bad. And ... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 14:04:41 EST Taming monkeys I got a promotion at work. I deserved this promotion, no doubt about it. I have been doing 98% of this job for the past six years, and 100% of it for the past two years. But working for the Federal Government has some drawbacks and one of those is that they will pass you over for someone who has never done the job, never even worked in your field, if they are in danger of being downsized. <BR> I get it! They are looking after their employees, but it is really a wacky situation that saw this ... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 06:59:37 EST Positivity Circle 1-4-2016 Last year I posted a positive thought or feeling every Monday here at work. It really helped us move into a more positive frame of mind, and we were great at helping each other through the rough spots. <BR> We had not decided if we wanted or needed to continue this into 2016, so I decided that it helped me enough that I would post my positivity thoughts here every Monday to help keep me on the path I want to be walking. So here it goes : <BR> Well, 2016 certainly entered on a wave here in Mi... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 07:03:41 EST "To stay our minds on" I don't know if you've read Frost's poem : Choose Something Like a Star? You can find it here: <BR> <link><BR>s/rf-star.htm </link> <BR> We sang this in choir in high school and the lines that have stayed with me from that day to this is : <BR> "So when at times the mob is swayed <BR> To carry praise or blame too far, <BR> We may chose something like a star <BR> To stay our minds on <BR> And be staid." <BR> And that's certainly in my mind a lot these da... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 07:04:11 EST Lessons learned Things I learned on my 25K trail run that it's taken a few days to get straight. <BR> <BR> Life is a trail run. <BR> <BR> Just when you think you've found your pace, things get rocky or root-y or steep, and you have to change your pace to meet the new challenge. <BR> <BR> While it's important to know what lies ahead, if you focus too far ahead you will fall. Be present where you are right now to give yourself the best footing. <BR> <BR> Mind-monkeys are rat-bastards and even when you th... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 07:02:07 EST Relativity I need to stand up, get dressed and run a nice little half-marathon distance. I don’t really want to do this today. I ran a 5k race yesterday. I am going to the movies later this morning. I have to stop by and see my mom at the physical rehab facility. It’s going to be a busy day after a busy week, after a busy month, after a busy summer, and before another busy week, and I really just want to have a nice, peaceful morning. I’m not sure if my Walkman is working again (it didn’t yesterday) and... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 07:31:11 EST Asleep at the Wheel Music is one of my greatest loves in life. When people ask what’s the best thing about living now, my answer is always “that I can have music at the touch of a button.” Think about that. Think about the days when you either had to make music yourself, or had to go somewhere to hear music. You couldn’t have a string quartet follow you down the road, or out in the fields. Music had its own place and time <BR> . <BR> Now we can listen to what we want when we want. It really is a miracle. <BR> ... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 10:05:05 EST Scientific-ish study Okay, so I’ve had a bit of a zeitgeist here. I’ve read the information. I’ve understood the information, I just didn’t put 2 and 2 together. <BR> <BR> I have been part of a Biggest Loser type competition at work off & on for the past year. (The competition has been off & on, my participation has been consistent.) Any road, since not everyone at work wanted to lose weight, and since some of the people in the challenge wanted to boost their weight loss by setting and meeting specific goals, we... Fri, 23 May 2014 08:54:21 EST Reflecting on Boston Everyone, runners and non-runners alike, everyone knows what the 2014 Boston Marathon meant. It meant redemption. It meant strength. It meant purging demons. It showed us all what can be done if you want something badly enough. It showed us that the more people try to tell us we can’t, the more likely we are to prove we can. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did my short run. 2.6 miles on a wicked up and down trail, a short run that is part of my training for my first marathon this fall. Like the parti... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 07:07:26 EST Because I can This isn't really my blog today. This was written and posted to Facebook by my daughter. If you would like to see the article she mentions, you may find it here : <BR> <link><BR>boston-marathon-photos/ </link> <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <BR> With the price increase deadline for the St Louis Rock n Roll approaching, and after a fairly uncomfortable 5K this morning, I began to have doubts about running a full marathon this fall. The race today was only 3... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 07:02:33 EST Using your head In Tai Chi we teach that we "Use the yi, not the li" which means to use your head, and not to react to things with brute strength, or without thought. <BR> <BR> In commenting on someone’s page today that thought came to mind, and it makes me think about how often we eat in response to something. About how much we eat is in response to something. Although not a big emotional eater, I have let the cold weather around me be an excuse for poor choices lately. “Ar, it’s freezing out. Have anothe... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 10:03:25 EST The Nature of Habit What is it they say? If you can do something for 28 days it becomes a habit? <BR> <BR> Last year I decided to create a Gratitude Jar. (You can read about that here if you want) <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254420 </link> <BR> <BR> The idea is to write down, every day, something for which you were grateful, fill this jar and have something visual to remind you of all you have to be grateful FOR, and at the end of the year, spill it out... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 07:48:33 EST Starting over I’ve been sliding. Slip-sliding away. In the back of my mind is the thought : I’ve done it before, I know what to do, I can do it again, and yet I am not doing it. <BR> <BR> I have gained back at least 16 pounds, and after this holiday I’m sure it’s closer to 20. (My scale is at work for our competitions and support groups and I have been on vacation and am now snowed in, so no weighing until tomorrow.) I think one of the tricky things is thinking that I “ONLY” have a ‘few’ pounds to lose. ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 09:04:51 EST Sorry, no title. This blog was meant to be a kind of reflection of the new year with an added tribute to John Denver and all he means to me on what would have been his 70th birthday, but it turned into something else, so I've had to come back and look at this again. To be sure, I made a note that his songs, his singing, his voice gave me my life back, and in many ways what else is there to say? <BR> <BR> I found it impossible, when I first sat down to write this, to move my fingers. For someone who has been ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 17:29:53 EST Remembering what to remember “Memory lives longer than what it remembers.” <BR> <BR> This quote from Lloyd Alexander’s Prydain Cycle is stuck in my head. The entire work has been stuck in my head lately, but this quote may as well be lit with neon and hung right behind my eyes. <BR> <BR> I remember hopping up behind my dad on his motorcycle. He used to pick me up at grade school and that gave this very un-cool girl some appreciation, let me tell you! More so than when he would pick me up in his police cruiser. <BR> <... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 09:25:50 EST Understanding choices I’ve been thinking a lot about choices lately. I’ve been reading that our lives are what they are because of the choices we make and while I want to shake my head and shout, ‘no! no! no!’ the fact is, it’s true. <BR> <BR> We make certain choices for a lot of different reasons. We are influenced by our Faith, by our families, by what we want at the moment, by what we want down the road a piece. We make choices based on our relationships and friendships and what we want those to be. We choos... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 09:34:42 EST Summer's Bounty (with pics) My garden has been amazing this year! We had a cool first half of the summer, and of course our lovely (NOT!) flood. The heavy rain did in most of the watermelons, <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> but the winter squash are coming on gangbusters! <BR> . <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have pickled cucumbers, wax/banana pep... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 10:12:23 EST Feeling Pensive And so it begins. The march into Fall. <BR> <BR> The black walnuts begin the parade as always, dropping their leaves as quickly as they gained them in the Spring. How odd, though, to see the ground littered with brown bodies when the temperature is as hot as it got all season. The air cries “SUMMER!” But nature whispers “fall”. <BR> <BR> Friday night I heard the “gabble ratchet” of wild geese. They were there again last night and this morning, so I am thinking they are gathering in the fi... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 11:12:44 EST Inspiration I’m 55. Nearly 56. As you know, I lost 110 pounds through SparkPeople. I hit my goal weight in May 2012, and have managed to sit below or at that weight since. <BR> <BR> This has been a bad year for me, emotionally. The past seven months have been a struggle to keep my weight at goal. I had actually beaten it and had five ‘play-with’ pounds. They are gone now and I’m back at that goal. I want to get those five pounds back off, but it has been a struggle. It’s harder than when I weighed 250... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 09:11:31 EST I did it! Way on back in October, after just finishing the Rock n Roll Half Marathon in St. Louis, and possibly after a cocktail or two, my daughter told me that her gym was going to be sponsoring an AFAA certification for group instructor. AFAA, otherwise known as the Aerobics and Fitness Association of America, is one of the top certifications for instructors and personal trainers in the industry. She was planning on taking it and asked if I wanted to as well. Yep! Sure! Sounds super! <BR> <BR> Well... Sat, 11 May 2013 09:37:44 EST Sacrifice I don’t know who she was. I’ll never know who she was. But I will always remember her. <BR> <BR> There we were, 3.75 miles into a 4 mile race. She was younger than 50, so not my competition as far as age group goes. And she was right in front of me as we turned the curve to the finish line. I picked up my pace a little; I wanted to sprint over that line, but I was pretty much at my limit. <BR> <BR> Still, I managed to pass her. Barely. I felt her pick up her pace. I tried to do likewise, b... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 10:21:25 EST De Plan! De Plan! So. I have a four mile race next Saturday. Shouldn’t be a problem, should it? But of course it is. It is because I’m a slacker. It is because I have not been doing much for cross training. It is because that’s not a fanny pack on my belly. That’s my belly. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I took Fiona and Bozko out on a short run. Fiona, of course, wanted to run 65 mph, especially since this was the first time we’ve brought Boz with us. Bozko is younger and faster but Fee is in charge, so she needs to st... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 08:42:19 EST Sparking Blueberry Madness <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know what you’re thinking : that’s a very odd looking breakfast. And you’d be right. I’m thinking that myself. But what’s a person to do? Here it is payday morning, and I am wracking my brains for what to eat for breakfast. <BR> <BR> At work I eat a lot of these overnight oatmeals in jars. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love them. I do. It’s a grea... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 10:32:56 EST Hanging in There It seems like a lot of people are thinking about maintenance these days. As I approach the one year mark of reaching my initial weight loss goal, I have to admit it’s been on my mind a lot, too, so I guess I’ll weigh in on the issue. <BR> <BR> Get it? Weigh in? Oh, never mind! <BR> <BR> First and foremost, I highly recommend that you check out this string on SparkPeople Before you reach your weight loss goal : <BR> <BR> <link><BR>le_center_detail.asp?i... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 09:09:27 EST Filling the jar Way back in the very beginnings of winter, or at the last dregs of the old year, depending on how you look at it, I decided to start a Chore Jar, filled with the things I needed to get done, and a Gratitude Jar : a jar I would fill every night with things for which I was grateful. <BR> <BR> This is my Jar update. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Okay, the Chore Jar went out the window. Not literally, although it was a close-run thing... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 07:25:32 EST "Pegasus, and flying fish, and woodsmen made of tin" This is a tale. One I need to tell. Because I am sick and tired of so many people having the wrong idea about what we do, and what we're worth. It's a long tale, a rant, even, but I need to get it off my chest. This is not weight-loss related and it is my own opinion, seeing it as I am from ground zero. But it does affect my over-all health and welfare, and, well, it's my blog. <BR> <BR> I work for the Government. I catalogue library books, so I neither have, nor want access to any secret go... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 11:05:17 EST A reminder I said goodbye to a friend today. No, she didn’t die, but she is retiring from her job here. She worked in another building from me, but had helped me with a job problem; she always seemed to say the right thing just when you needed to hear it, just when you thought you couldn’t take any more. <BR> <BR> It doesn’t seem possible that I won’t be seeing those e-mails she was charged with sending out every day, her name in the ‘from’ line always bringing a smile. I won’t cross paths with her whe... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 14:43:28 EST Lining up the goals And, no Cinericia, not in a firing line! <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Now is the time for all people to set some goals. Well, it was time last week, but now it’s time to make those goals more specific. That is something I learned on SPARKPEOPLE. It is easy to make vague goals, but hard to keep them. It really helps to have firm, obtainable goals in mind. Let me repeat that : obtainable goals. <BR> <BR> It’s all very well to say I want to lose some weight, or I want to eat better, or I want to... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 13:51:07 EST Every Journey Begins... Wow! I started out writing this blog with every intention of looking forward to the New Year. Four words in, however, it had turned into the usual self-pitying drivel. Well, I’ve scrapped that. I’m not going there anymore. Well, I will probably go there, but if I do I’m grabbing myself by the scruff of the neck and dragging myself right back out. <BR> <BR> I’ve fallen into the trap of counting the bad things in life instead of the good things. I’ll allow that the past four years have been p... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 21:23:02 EST Thanksgiving Memories Someone in one of my teams was challenged by another team to write a blog about their favorite Thanksgiving memory, and as soon as I read that the room was filled with the smell of roasting beef, Yorkshire pudding, and puppy-breath. <BR> <BR> When I was a child we spent Thanksgiving with my “uncles.” I sometimes think about how amazingly lucky I was, growing up in the 1960s and 1970s, to have a mother (who grew up in a place and time where there was a lot of prejudice and bigotry, especially... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 19:58:50 EST Obstacles I read something a few weeks ago and it has been battering around in my mind ever since. It came from Stephen Greenblatt’s Pulitzer Prize winner, The Swerve: How the World Became Modern. I haven’t read this yet; as a cataloguer I tend to get my hands on a lot of interesting books and have a chance to flip through them and take a peek into them before sending them to the shelves for others to check out. <BR> <BR> What caught my eye was a quote from The Nature of Things by Lucretius, whose re... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 19:28:15 EST St. Louis Rock & Roll Half Marathon (with pics!) Well, I went and did it! I ran the Rock & Roll Half Marathon in St. Louis today. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It was barking cold. I look a little crazed here! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I wish they could think of another thing to call the corral than a corral. It made me want to moo the entire time! My daughter took this pic. I'm up there somewhere! <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 16:19:38 EST Watching my Rose bloom After reading someone’s blog about how they are moving towards eating more real food, or at least less processed food, I wanted to share my daughter’s journey. <BR> <BR> Several years ago Demelza (or Rose as she's more commonly known) moved back in with us. She wanted to help out and figured cooking was a good way to do so. She looked in my cabinets and said, 'How the hell am I supposed to cook all this from-scratch sh*t?" I laughed and told her : Learn! <BR> <BR> We had done “from scr... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 11:50:09 EST Totally Beccaficient Okay, let me start by saying that my sister’s name is Becca, and she is the most efficient person I know. She is all things organized, crafty and clever. So any time I do something organized, crafty and clever, I am being Beccaficient, see? <BR> <BR> So I saw a thing on Pinterest : Someone had used chalkboard paint on drinking glasses so their guests would have their names on their own glasses. Well, we’re not the most social people, but it made my brain start working. I have a glassed-in ... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 21:41:16 EST Moving right along Well, golly. Where do I begin? Maybe with me hitting pipes sticking out of the back of a plumbing truck in claymore? Clodmore? Cluckmore, Oklahoma yesterday? I broke the straps on the truck, and bent the pipe-holder thingy. Pipes everywhere. So I gave the guy my info, right? And I’ll pay for those straps, but I have an amount in my head and if it’s more than that I’ll turn it (and the photos of how their truck was parked) over to my insurance and let them deal with it! He knows he was parked ... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 23:38:45 EST What selfish creatures, we It never ceases to amaze me how selfish we are as whole. Even when doing unselfish things, there is too often a ‘for me’ component, or a ‘for me’ thought. Or maybe I’m just more selfish than most. <BR> <BR> Next Thursday my mom and I are flying to Phoenix to bring my brother here to die. His breast cancer has spread and he’s lost his job, so he has no money and, for reasons that we here in Missouri can’t figure out, he can’t live with his wife; the wife he attended to when she nearly died ... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 08:56:30 EST The Fallen I did a run yesterday in honor of the Fallen. <BR> <BR> The Sgt. Major who gave the speech before the race could barely finish, he was so choked up, and one family there who had recently lost their Soldier son had tears just flowing and flowing from their hearts. My feelings on war and warring aside, my concern over a nation that gives people hero status just for putting on a uniform, rather than for deeds performed in that uniform aside, I understand this sacrifice made not only by the ser... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 10:44:52 EST