SOXYINMO's SparkPeople Blog SOXYINMO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Heavy heart She was the most amazing friend. She was my nearly constant companion. She got up with me no matter the time or the weather because there was work to be done. She worked for the joy of it and was never swayed by treats. She would chase a tennis ball or Jolly ball for hours on end, and footie? Or soccer, as it were? She was the most amazing goalie! She FLUNG her body in front of the ball to keep the other team (usually me) from getting that goal. <BR> <BR> She herded chickens, which is not a... Wed, 28 Mar 2018 22:44:12 EST Apathy I feel like crap. I want to scream and rant and rave but it just seems like too much trouble. I want to go to one of my groups for help but people there have REAL problems so I feel like I'm whinging. <BR> I'm only about waist deep in this quagmire, and I am holding onto the nearest vine, but pulling myself out just doesn't seem worth the effort. <BR> I'm not suicidal. Just having an emotional pity-party. <BR> I just don't care. I just feel like I've lost the plot completely. <BR> I am grat... Wed, 14 Mar 2018 06:56:50 EST Randomish thoughts I get the feeling, when I blog, that I am spewing forth the same diatribe over and over and over and...well, you get the picture. <BR> <BR> In a way it's true. I mean, reinforcement, right? But in a way it feels like spinning wheels. <BR> <BR> So while re-building new goals, I am going to try and approach some things from a different angle. I have been awful at challenges, though I've held on to the Biggest Loser one pretty well. I haven't lost any weight, in fact I've gained weight, but s... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 09:45:13 EST Timing My nutrition has been all over the place the past two years or so and has resulted in my putting back on 25 of the 115 pounds I had lost. I get frustrated that I have had such a difficult time getting that back under control. <BR> The past few months I've felt that my focus is getting clearer, I'm choosing apples over cookies, and I do believe that the path before me is a bit easier to follow than it has been for some time. <BR> Right this minute, however, I could really use some NECCO wafers... Fri, 15 Dec 2017 22:40:35 EST Patterns Did you get a chance to see the Super Moon? <BR> It was amazing. <BR> But what makes it super? <BR> Two things need to be in place. First, the moon has to be at its closest point to the Earth, and it has to be full. I mean, if the moon is new and close to the Earth it’s not like we can SEE it, right? Nothing super to see here. Move along! <BR> But I digress. <BR> What’s amazing to me is the thought of things that happen frequently enough to be a known phenomenon, yet not so often that we b... Mon, 4 Dec 2017 07:21:56 EST Peace, Love, and Pushing Through Wow! You want to talk about positive? Our gym is closing just before Christmas. Our gym is not just a building with equipment and sweat but one of the longest-running gyms in the area, and has become a community in itself for so many of us in this small town we live in. <BR> <BR> The Ark sponsored Les Mills courses, and if you know Les Mills, you will know that quarterly they release their new choreography for their different courses. This helps keep moves fresh and new, and helps keep our b... Sun, 5 Nov 2017 09:09:43 EST Seeing Stars There is nothing in this world quite like an October sky during the new moon. I am so fortunate to live in a river valley away from much light pollution. <BR> This morning after feeding my animals I turned off my flashlight and just stopped and drank in the glitter cast across the black above me. <BR> Orion, Leo, Canis Major, Cancer...all old friends there to meet me in the early morning hour. <BR> This display always pulls me in and reminds me that I am a part of all of THAT! And THAT is ... Thu, 19 Oct 2017 07:16:00 EST Feeling healthy So the challenge is to describe how I find or define health in ways other than weight. One is muscle! I love that when I shower my shoulders feel muscular and firm rather than squishy and soft. My clothes fit better and I can do more. Getting that scale number out of my head isn't easy, but I am determined to concentrate more on gaining muscle and improving nutrition and keeping within a healthy calorie range and let's see what happens next! Mon, 9 Oct 2017 09:53:51 EST Running Free This weekend is the local big run. One of the church groups here puts on a half-marathon, with a 10K that Saturday (yesterday) and a 5K on Friday night. <BR> <BR> This year I did the 5k at an average speed of 6 MPH, garnering a 2nd in my age group. <BR> The 10K I pulled off at 5.7 MPH and grabbed the 1st! <BR> <BR> Not gonna lie, that 10K was tough and I had no sprint at the end. I left it all out on the course. <BR> <BR> But it was a beautiful day surrounded by so many people I have come... Sun, 8 Oct 2017 10:45:41 EST Bad time????? Ouch! I read this yesterday and it really hit me : <BR> <BR> “Was it a bad day? Or was it a bad 5 minutes that you milked all day?” <BR> <BR> Yeah. It can be so easy to hold onto every slight, every frustration, every complaint; but who does that serve? Trust me, I’m as good at dragging out the dead horse to give it another whack as anyone! All that does is wind me up and make me feel bad. <BR> <BR> Some days are going to be bad days, those days when everything seems to pile on and up and... Wed, 27 Sep 2017 06:46:17 EST done I wanted to make a work area that bred positivity. Not the sparkling rainbows and unicorn positivity, but an area with a free & open exchange of ideas. Where everyone shared the load so the load was light for everyone. Where kindness was encouraged and gossip and cruelty were discouraged. <BR> Unfortunately, one of my employees couldn't handle that. They have reported me for creating a hostile work environment, and even though my boss has supported me in every way possible, she can do nothing... Sun, 24 Sep 2017 18:49:40 EST Ordinary days This weekend I spent time with my daughter and eldest grandchild. <BR> This weekend I ran a 5k for the first time in AGES! <BR> This weekend I watched by Sox win and my Sox lose. <BR> This weekend I took a long, hot, Epsom Salt bath (did I mention is was the first run in ages?) <BR> This weekend I petted dogs, made lunches, fed animals and ate ice cream. <BR> <BR> It was a small weekend. Nothing overly exciting. Just an ordinary couple of days. <BR> <BR> It’s sometimes easy to overlook how ... Mon, 18 Sep 2017 07:27:22 EST Forgiveness Last year the Colombian Congress signed a peace accord with the Rebel faction known as FARC. <BR> The accord has been a hard pill for many people in Colombia to swallow. The fighting had been intense, had lasted for generations, and had ended with an estimated 220,000 people dead. For the 50 years this fight had been going on, nearly 6 million people were driven from their homes. Their places of refuge, including churches, were often bombed. Forgetting the atrocities will be impossible. <BR>... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 07:34:11 EST Kindness matters Kindness matters. It really does. In nearly every interaction of every day we live on the precipice of choice : to be kind or not. <BR> I will admit that my first reaction to a person or how that person acts or makes me feel is not always with kindness. They may not see it, but that doesn’t make the “Ugh” the “Blech” the “Expletive deleted” any less unkind. <BR> Those auto-responses may not ever be totally tamed, but the response we give that person, or pass on about that person to others, ... Thu, 31 Aug 2017 07:28:01 EST Grabbing the ring Balboa Park has a truly phenomenal carousel. Besides the requisite horses, this gem that sits near the San Diego Zoo, has tigers, ostriches, giraffes, roosters, sleighs and a lion. <BR> <BR> As a young child I was content to sit on any animal with my dad or my uncle standing beside me. Later, the greatest joy was going up and down on a jumping horse in the center of the platform. <BR> <BR> But the best was, like Lucy Pevenesie riding Aslan, racing to the platform to ride the lion! <BR> <B... Sun, 6 Aug 2017 15:44:18 EST Positivity, Scales, and the Art of Forgiveness The past few years I have been trying to erase the negativity in my workplace. Slowly but surely, a few of us have worked on our faults and tempered our reactions so that we can have a work environment built on treating each other with mutual respect. <BR> <BR> Friday I found out that one of my team is spreading lies about me, and to my supervisor at that. Fortunately, my supervisor has known me for a long, long time, and has seen the change I have made in myself and my area and knows that ... Sat, 5 Aug 2017 10:07:30 EST Balance Life today can seem like walking a tightrope. There is always something that needs doing, and often that doing is not for ourselves. This makes it so easy to become overwhelmed and make us feel like we are not enough. <BR> I really like this definition of balance : “A condition in which different elements are equal or in the correct proportions.” It’s that second part that caught my attention. The first part says Equal – the second “In the correct proportions.” Sometimes we have to give a li... Wed, 2 Aug 2017 06:57:57 EST A Certain Wizard's Birthday I’ve been really, REALLY looking forward to the birthday party we are having at the library on Sunday. I’ve been looking up recipes and have my Hufflepuff tie all ready to go. I am excited! <BR> French author Gustave Flaubert once said “pleasure is found first in anticipation, later in memory.” I know that I have often found that the build up to something and the memory of that thing are sometimes more real than the event itself. <BR> Sometimes when living the anticipated event it seems surr... Tue, 25 Jul 2017 07:08:38 EST Reactions I found this the other day while looking for something else, but it is amazing just the same : <BR> “We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.” – Charles R. Swindoll <BR> <BR> I’ve bee... Thu, 20 Jul 2017 11:54:07 EST A Fresh Take I have been a member of SparkPeople for a long time! With the help I found here I was able to lose 115 pounds. By stepping away, I re-gained some 25 pounds. <BR> Things around me were changing, as things around us all do, but I jumped on a raft and just floated, I abdicated my rudder, my paddle, my oar, and let the river take me where it would. <BR> There is a saying : You cannot push the river, and that's true, but you can steer your craft on the river. <BR> If you just float, you can't c... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 08:46:31 EST Feeling fit Wooo HOOO! While running today I could feel my biceps inside my shirt. It made me feel STRONG <BR> <em>362</em> Wed, 15 Mar 2017 20:23:29 EST Healthy choices What "new" healthy thing am I going to work on? Well, I think my best bet is to continue to strive for a healthier food intake. Making those healthier choices until they, once again, become the norm. <BR> The other thing is getting this stress under control. Continue working on meditation techniques and breathing and FACING things sooner rather than later so the anticipation doesn't kill me. <BR> Those are the two things I think are most important right now. Tue, 28 Feb 2017 12:33:37 EST Need to increase exercise The question was how do I shake up my workouts, but I'm barely working out. I am finding time slipping through my fingers. Yep. there are definitely times I could be working out that I am on the computer or sitting in front of the TV, but lately having those 10 minutes to myself even just sitting still seem awfully precious. <BR> I want to add biking to my workouts; i keep trying to get the ONE bike the gym has but so far no luck. I dont feel up to RPM yet and those bikes are at a premium. <... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 22:21:51 EST Making Mistakes What was my last mistake? How did it make me feel? On Friday I went out to visit my mom at her assisted care facility. I didn't bring any water with me. That was the biggest mistake. It got to be late afternoon and i was hungry and thirsty and I went to the local chicken house. I decided to get the BBQ chicken sandwich. I'd been wanting BBQ chicken and that would be a quick and easy meal. <BR> My mistake came in not stopping there. I SHOULD have gotten the sandwich and then gone to the gas s... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 07:03:50 EST Where's the stress? SparkCoach asked about stress or anxiety associated with my weight loss journey. My stress levels have been pretty high lately but mostly because of my mom falling, her moving into an assisted care facility and having to get everything out of her house so quickly. <BR> This adds stress to my health just in general but also in trying to get good and healthy food in a shrinking time frame. <BR> Trying to balance the extra time & food on top of everything else can be stressful. <BR> I'm tryi... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 17:43:29 EST Diet sabotoge Is someone sabotaging my healthy eating plan? There have been little snippets here & there. My mom is about the worst. She managed to lose a lot of weight and has put it back on and more. I do believe that when the people in my life act in a sabotor type way, it's because of jealousy. <BR> My plan of action has been to change the subject. When someone pushes food on me or says disparaging things, I redirect the conversation. <BR> My friend and I have been known to take cake that we just coul... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 07:46:03 EST Healthy life motivation My mom's health has not been the best over her lifetime. She has indulged in many things she shouldn't and that has taken its toll. A few years ago she was doing tai chi, going to the Senior Center to do LIT there and looking and feeling good. Then her 'friend' got cancer and told my mom 'life is short. Do whatever you want! Don't listen to anyone else! Just enjoy life!" What my mom didn't realize was that she was actually enjoying life. But she decided she didn't feel like working out one da... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 07:05:22 EST Workout commitments So, what keeps me from making my workout commitments? At work my friend and I used to walk every day at 10 and again at 2. She got transferred to another department and it is much more difficult to get up and go on my own. I have also gotten a promotion and, feeling the need to prove myself, I have taken to working through my breaks, even though I know how counter-productive that can be. <BR> <BR> Two years ago, after my marathon, my IT Band was in bad, bad shape and getting it back took som... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 07:39:32 EST Finding my way So I'm supposed to blog about the positive changes since I changed my lifestyle, but I'm in the throws of a return, so I'm going to come at this a bit differently. <BR> I lost 115 pounds and have, over the past few years (especially 2016), watched 30 of those pounds return. <BR> Well, the brakes are on and this is as far as that goes! So I guess I'm looking at comparison. I am still moderately fit, still running some, still working out, but my muscle tone is Ptht. That flabby belly was GONE! ... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 09:54:49 EST Back to the races Yesterday was my first running race of the year! A very bizarre 5K in the next town over. It was 15 degrees F (-9.45 C) and hilly! I've been fighting off allergies that want to become a chest infection, which made breathing tough, but I managed to do it in 30:05, which isn't record-breaking, but makes me feel like I'm back in the game! <BR> <BR> It was a very small field, but I came in second woman overall & the woman ahead of me couldn't have been older than 25! So I'll take that at 58 and ... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 10:38:12 EST Of my philosophy Last night I had a nice meal in front of me; a nice, well-rounded meal. And we ate while the news was on. And we ate as the reporter talked about Syrian refugees eating dirt and grass because there was nothing else to eat. <BR> <BR> I am not going to feel guilty for enjoying the food I have. I am, however, going to have this picture of children eating grass in my mind for a long, long time to come. And I should. <BR> <BR> This isn't about politics, neither is it about sharing what cannot b... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 09:41:33 EST Lost arts I really miss writing letters. I miss receiving them as well. This was brought home to me as I wrote my quarterly letter to my in-laws. My mother-in-law is no longer able to respond due to Parkinson's Disease and Post-polio syndrome, but she and my father-in-law still enjoy my letters and when I'm late they let Al know it! <BR> <BR> I like that I can connect instantly with people now. Especially with those people who would never write a letter; people like my sister, my niece or my youngest ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 07:03:38 EST Untitled Some 25 years ago I had a VHS exercise tape for larger women. It was a good workout, but one of the things that I liked about it was that at the end of the tape the trainer told us to hug ourselves & say "Today I am okay the way I am." <BR> I think that's important to remember even when, or maybe especially when, we are working towards a healthier us. <BR> Yes, I have things I want to change. Yes, I have to be realistic about the loss of muscle mass. Yes, I have to eat better. Yes, wanting an... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 13:44:24 EST What lies ahead Start where you are. <BR> Use what you have. <BR> Do what you can. <BR> <BR> My daughter posted this on FaceBook this week. I keep getting caught on the 'start where you are.' On one had I think : Well, der. But on the other I know how easy it is to put things off ‘until Monday,' until 'after Christmas,' 'after New Year’s Day,' 'after this cookie.' <BR> <BR> Then there's the little problem with my weight tracker. Yes, I started at 250 pounds. And, yes, I am now at 156 pounds. Not bad. And ... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 14:04:41 EST Taming monkeys I got a promotion at work. I deserved this promotion, no doubt about it. I have been doing 98% of this job for the past six years, and 100% of it for the past two years. But working for the Federal Government has some drawbacks and one of those is that they will pass you over for someone who has never done the job, never even worked in your field, if they are in danger of being downsized. <BR> I get it! They are looking after their employees, but it is really a wacky situation that saw this ... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 06:59:37 EST Positivity Circle 1-4-2016 Last year I posted a positive thought or feeling every Monday here at work. It really helped us move into a more positive frame of mind, and we were great at helping each other through the rough spots. <BR> We had not decided if we wanted or needed to continue this into 2016, so I decided that it helped me enough that I would post my positivity thoughts here every Monday to help keep me on the path I want to be walking. So here it goes : <BR> Well, 2016 certainly entered on a wave here in Mi... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 07:03:41 EST "To stay our minds on" I don't know if you've read Frost's poem : Choose Something Like a Star? You can find it here: <BR> <link><BR>s/rf-star.htm </link> <BR> We sang this in choir in high school and the lines that have stayed with me from that day to this is : <BR> "So when at times the mob is swayed <BR> To carry praise or blame too far, <BR> We may chose something like a star <BR> To stay our minds on <BR> And be staid." <BR> And that's certainly in my mind a lot these da... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 07:04:11 EST Lessons learned Things I learned on my 25K trail run that it's taken a few days to get straight. <BR> <BR> Life is a trail run. <BR> <BR> Just when you think you've found your pace, things get rocky or root-y or steep, and you have to change your pace to meet the new challenge. <BR> <BR> While it's important to know what lies ahead, if you focus too far ahead you will fall. Be present where you are right now to give yourself the best footing. <BR> <BR> Mind-monkeys are rat-bastards and even when you th... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 07:02:07 EST Relativity I need to stand up, get dressed and run a nice little half-marathon distance. I don’t really want to do this today. I ran a 5k race yesterday. I am going to the movies later this morning. I have to stop by and see my mom at the physical rehab facility. It’s going to be a busy day after a busy week, after a busy month, after a busy summer, and before another busy week, and I really just want to have a nice, peaceful morning. I’m not sure if my Walkman is working again (it didn’t yesterday) and... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 07:31:11 EST Asleep at the Wheel Music is one of my greatest loves in life. When people ask what’s the best thing about living now, my answer is always “that I can have music at the touch of a button.” Think about that. Think about the days when you either had to make music yourself, or had to go somewhere to hear music. You couldn’t have a string quartet follow you down the road, or out in the fields. Music had its own place and time <BR> . <BR> Now we can listen to what we want when we want. It really is a miracle. <BR> ... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 10:05:05 EST Scientific-ish study Okay, so I’ve had a bit of a zeitgeist here. I’ve read the information. I’ve understood the information, I just didn’t put 2 and 2 together. <BR> <BR> I have been part of a Biggest Loser type competition at work off & on for the past year. (The competition has been off & on, my participation has been consistent.) Any road, since not everyone at work wanted to lose weight, and since some of the people in the challenge wanted to boost their weight loss by setting and meeting specific goals, we... Fri, 23 May 2014 08:54:21 EST Reflecting on Boston Everyone, runners and non-runners alike, everyone knows what the 2014 Boston Marathon meant. It meant redemption. It meant strength. It meant purging demons. It showed us all what can be done if you want something badly enough. It showed us that the more people try to tell us we can’t, the more likely we are to prove we can. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did my short run. 2.6 miles on a wicked up and down trail, a short run that is part of my training for my first marathon this fall. Like the parti... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 07:07:26 EST Because I can This isn't really my blog today. This was written and posted to Facebook by my daughter. If you would like to see the article she mentions, you may find it here : <BR> <link><BR>boston-marathon-photos/ </link> <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <BR> With the price increase deadline for the St Louis Rock n Roll approaching, and after a fairly uncomfortable 5K this morning, I began to have doubts about running a full marathon this fall. The race today was only 3... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 07:02:33 EST Using your head In Tai Chi we teach that we "Use the yi, not the li" which means to use your head, and not to react to things with brute strength, or without thought. <BR> <BR> In commenting on someone’s page today that thought came to mind, and it makes me think about how often we eat in response to something. About how much we eat is in response to something. Although not a big emotional eater, I have let the cold weather around me be an excuse for poor choices lately. “Ar, it’s freezing out. Have anothe... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 10:03:25 EST The Nature of Habit What is it they say? If you can do something for 28 days it becomes a habit? <BR> <BR> Last year I decided to create a Gratitude Jar. (You can read about that here if you want) <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5254420 </link> <BR> <BR> The idea is to write down, every day, something for which you were grateful, fill this jar and have something visual to remind you of all you have to be grateful FOR, and at the end of the year, spill it out... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 07:48:33 EST Starting over I’ve been sliding. Slip-sliding away. In the back of my mind is the thought : I’ve done it before, I know what to do, I can do it again, and yet I am not doing it. <BR> <BR> I have gained back at least 16 pounds, and after this holiday I’m sure it’s closer to 20. (My scale is at work for our competitions and support groups and I have been on vacation and am now snowed in, so no weighing until tomorrow.) I think one of the tricky things is thinking that I “ONLY” have a ‘few’ pounds to lose. ... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 09:04:51 EST Sorry, no title. This blog was meant to be a kind of reflection of the new year with an added tribute to John Denver and all he means to me on what would have been his 70th birthday, but it turned into something else, so I've had to come back and look at this again. To be sure, I made a note that his songs, his singing, his voice gave me my life back, and in many ways what else is there to say? <BR> <BR> I found it impossible, when I first sat down to write this, to move my fingers. For someone who has been ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 17:29:53 EST Remembering what to remember “Memory lives longer than what it remembers.” <BR> <BR> This quote from Lloyd Alexander’s Prydain Cycle is stuck in my head. The entire work has been stuck in my head lately, but this quote may as well be lit with neon and hung right behind my eyes. <BR> <BR> I remember hopping up behind my dad on his motorcycle. He used to pick me up at grade school and that gave this very un-cool girl some appreciation, let me tell you! More so than when he would pick me up in his police cruiser. <BR> <... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 09:25:50 EST Understanding choices I’ve been thinking a lot about choices lately. I’ve been reading that our lives are what they are because of the choices we make and while I want to shake my head and shout, ‘no! no! no!’ the fact is, it’s true. <BR> <BR> We make certain choices for a lot of different reasons. We are influenced by our Faith, by our families, by what we want at the moment, by what we want down the road a piece. We make choices based on our relationships and friendships and what we want those to be. We choos... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 09:34:42 EST Summer's Bounty (with pics) My garden has been amazing this year! We had a cool first half of the summer, and of course our lovely (NOT!) flood. The heavy rain did in most of the watermelons, <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> but the winter squash are coming on gangbusters! <BR> . <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have pickled cucumbers, wax/banana pep... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 10:12:23 EST