SOUTHGOINGZAX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SOUTHGOINGZAX SOUTHGOINGZAX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Feeling overwhelmed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682457 This is not going to be a sunny, walk-in-the-park blog, unfortunately. I had surgery for my shoulder on the 24th of April. I'm back at work today, thanks to the fact that I do not get sick leave and only 15 days of paid vacation a year, so I had to use vacation days to get the surgery done and have a few days of recovery. <BR> <BR> I am so overwhelmed financially from my medical expenses, it's beyond ridiculous. I only get paid once a month, and last month I had a lot of travel that I sti... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 13:40:43 EST Cruising along into Spring. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633562 I'm ready for Spring. I'm ready for change. The past couple of months have been a little rough, but as this month is coming to a close, I can look back and see the progress that has been made and the path ahead a little clearer. Maybe. <BR> <BR> I saw three orthopedic surgeons about my shoulder. I am currently doing acupuncture, and I have returned to CrossFit (still with some modifications), but I have arthroscopic surgery scheduled for April 24. I have no idea how I will pay for it, a... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 15:26:26 EST Tracking 101. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587006 I'm back at it. Tracking calories. Almost 2 months of virtually no activity (except eating and drinking) due to my shoulder issue has led me to be not-so-enamored with my body, anymore. Things are not as they should be, with the additional 4 pounds back on my frame, so it is back to the beginning. <BR> <BR> I'm working hard to not feel frustrated with myself for this lack of progress, or, actually, for the backwards progress. It's ok, it happened. I'm dealing with an ongoing, chronic pa... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 14:17:00 EST Post-holiday Blahs. Blah. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584395 Yuck. <BR> <BR> That about sums it up. <BR> <BR> I feel yucky. <BR> <BR> The holidays were stretched out over 3 weeks because of travel back to Iowa to visit my boyfriend's family, and that in combination with a request (a demand, really) from my physical therapist to stop ALL crossfit for a month led to me gaining 3 pounds (seemingly overnight). <BR> <BR> Add to that the fact that my shoulder hurts worse than ever even after a month of ABSOLUTELY NO arm stuff at all, AND I have some sort... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 13:42:07 EST Lower Body Exercise Ideas? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541059 So, I am finally deciding to take a break from any and all exercises that involve my shoulders, on the advice of my physical therapist. That means no push-ups, burpees, pull-ups, jerks, cleans, snatches, kettlebell anythings, push-presses, etc. <BR> <BR> I think I can safely do front squats, back squats, and deadlifts. <BR> <BR> But I need some other exercise ideas for substituting out moves in the WOD. I could use some moves to strengthen my back and core, and I tend to get stuck in a ru... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 11:53:15 EST Paleo Challenge Wrap up - Final Weight and Measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540100 Well, I got through the Paleo Challenge without too much struggle, although we did have cheat days here and there. My starting measurements were: <BR> <BR> 123.6 pounds <BR> 14.25% body fat <BR> 26.75" waist <BR> 34.0" hips <BR> <BR> We did the Fran WOD three times during the challenge. My initial Fran time was 4 min. 45 sec. My second Fran time was 3 min. 40 sec. <BR> <BR> My ending measurements, after 90 days of eating Paleo, are: <BR> <BR> 122.0 pounds <BR> 13.0% body fat <BR> 26.25... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 11:53:32 EST My Rant about the true causes of the "Obesity Epidemic". http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529402 I realize this may be a controversial subject. And I also realize I am not a doctor or an expert in obesity, nutrition, agricultural history, or human evolution. I do have an advanced degree in Anthropology, however, so I can at least make some statements about human behavior and evolution with some confidence. I also feel that people are entitled to their own opinions and are free to make their own decisions regarding diet and exercise. But - I just have to put this down: <BR> <BR> Let'... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 15:44:12 EST A second opinion. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528346 Yesterday was not a good day. The night before last, my bf sat down with me and told me I needed to take a break from CrossFit. I was super-annoyed with him, but he is right. <BR> <BR> Since my shoulder first started bothering me, I have never really given it a break - a week in February, and four or five days here and there since then. In late June, when I finally went to a doctor about it, he told me to "lay off the shoulder stuff for a while." That sounded kind of vague to me - what k... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 12:28:17 EST Best Weekend Ever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525862 Last weekend was pretty great, with the trip to Glenwood Springs and the couples massage and sitting in the hot springs and all the great food, the hike to Hanging Lake, etc. But this weekend was even better, because I got to hang out with my family, eat some amazing brisket my bf cooked, plus cake and ice cream, and basically just have fun, but on Sunday, get this - we actually got to sleep in! Oh, it was so heavenly! We woke up around 8:00 am and then went back to sleep for another 2 ho... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 19:15:10 EST Progress. Or not. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523187 I'm not making any headway on my weight loss goal for the past two weeks. I have until Oct. 29 to lose 2 pounds. Since it's my birthday party tomorrow - I like to draw out the birthday celebrations for as long as possible, so even though my birthday was last week and I've already had a birthday dinner and spa weekend with my bf, this weekend is my actual party - so once again, I won't be sticking to my calorie range. I can't even say I will try to stay within reason, because I know I won't... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 13:01:03 EST Bummer Day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522387 Today is sort of a bummer day. Last night bf spent the whole evening installing a super-complicated programmable thermostat (it has a phone app so you can program it when you're not even home) - he had to go into the crawl space and change the wiring on the furnace?!! - so he was irritable and not a lot of fun to be around. And, after I spent 2 hours prepping and cooking the meat loaf and sweet potato mash, it was just ok. Not, so-delicious-I-can't-wait-to-eat-it-again, which is what I was... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 14:54:38 EST HUMP DAYYYY!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521277 It's Wednesday already - woo hoo! <BR> <BR> This week is not going to be a heavy one in terms of work, so that's nice. Starting in November, things get a little crazy, with a ton of travel for work, so I'm trying to enjoy the calm and quiet while I can. <BR> <BR> I had a super weekend with bf - although he had to work really late on Friday, and then went in again on Saturday, he finally fixed the issue he had been working on, so it was worth it. We did the Saturday WOD - which was awful a... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 12:07:39 EST It's Freakin' Friday!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517037 My birthday dinner was way over the top - deliciousness abounded. No, I did not stick to my Paleo diet, it was my birthday - and apparently everyone else's birthday at Flagstaff House as well. My bf and I had a good laugh when we realized there was someone at each of the four tables surrounding us celebrating a birthday dinner. It's apparently "the place" to go on your birthday. Although I didn't restrict myself in terms of food, I did enter everything into the food tracker - holy cow! A... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 14:06:54 EST Adding the muscle back in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5515143 Yesterday was my 4-week paleo challenge weigh in. Unfortunately, I didn't lose any weight; I came in at 122, just like the last weigh-in. However, I added a pound and a half of lean muscle while losing a pound and a half of fat, and my body fat percentage is down from 14.28% to 13.67%, so overall, I'm pretty happy with the results. I think, with the added muscle and sticking to my calorie range, getting down to 120 by my next weigh in should not be a problem. <BR> <BR> I'm pretty pleased... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 12:05:30 EST Blog 2 of the Day - Really, People? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513539 I saw this on my yahoo page and I could not believe the hateful comments left on this woman's facebook page: <BR> <BR> http://shine.yahoo.com/parenting/hot-mom<BR>-defends-herself-against-facebook-hate<BR>rs-192149769.html <BR> <BR> I just had to write something quickly to say, really, people? <BR> <BR> First off, is it demeaning to refer to this woman as a "hot mom"? She clearly is attractive, and she is clearly proud of her body - as she should be. But is she "asking" to be objectified... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 19:27:52 EST My boyfriend's back :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5513255 My bf left on a hunting trip on Wednesday last week, and got home last night. It was the first time we have been apart for 5 days with no communication (he was up in the mountains camping, and had no cell coverage). It is really great to have him back, but I did realize just how much of my life has been focused on him and "our" time together, rather than just myself. Which, I'm not saying is a horrible thing, just that maybe I need to make sure I get in some time to do what I want to do, r... Mon, 14 Oct 2013 13:08:00 EST Friday and I'm Gonna Do My Own Thing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510846 I *SHOULD* be working right now. It's just a little after noon, and much too early to skip out - but let me tell you something: I don't care! As soon as I finish this blog and get some files uploaded for a project, I am D-O-N-E for the day! I am making an executive decision that I have worked enough for today. Period. <BR> <BR> Normally, I would want to try to be a better employee, but honestly, I've about had it with my job. I've been working for the same company for 6 years (!), and ... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 14:32:08 EST Thursday already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5510001 It is day 25 of the 60-day Paleo Challenge. I'm at 121 pounds today, which is good - I just realized that the Challenge ends November 16 (I thought it ended the 4th), meaning that I have 12 more days than I thought to reach my goal weight. I think I can get down to 120 by Tuesday if I stick to my calorie range and keep up with the exercise -Tuesday is my next weigh-in. Which means I will have a whole 4 weeks to lose the remaining 2 pounds - that is WAY easier than losing two pounds in 2 we... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 15:59:48 EST Wednesday - I'm just not feeling it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5509035 Not feeling much of a strong work ethic today. Also, I wasn't feeling the Oly lifts today, either - my legs are sore from running and from a low-blow in karate last night, and my shoulder is slightly irritated from the muscle-ups yesterday morning in CrossFit. I do, however, feel like eating again today - eating a lot. I've decided to try letting myself eat until I'm full early on in the day, and counting on my appetite to taper off in the evenings (which it does). Now, if I can only stay... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 14:03:19 EST Hungry, Hungry Tuesday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507954 Paleo Challenge Day 23. <BR> <BR> Hmm. So I am trying to cut out the excess fruits I've been sneaking in as a way to soothe my sweet tooth on this Paleo diet thingy. Turns out, that is MUCH harder. I am hungry all the time without my sweet, sugary fruit carbs to fill me up. I've already eaten almost half my calories for the day and I still have 2 hours to go before lunch! <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I have karate tonight, though, which usually means I don't eat dinner (just a snack befor... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:32:03 EST Paleo Challenge Day...22? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507100 The Paleo Challenge seems to be going more smoothly than at first, from a digestive issue point of view. I'm not sure how effective it is for weight loss, though, at least for me, because I have only lost 2 pounds and have not really been trying that hard to stick to the allotted calorie range. Since I was already gluten free, phasing out grains was not a big challenge. Also, we ate very little dairy - I thought I would miss my morning yogurt, but I don't, really - so phasing that out, wit... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 14:52:45 EST Friday is Food Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5504615 This morning was heavenly. Friday is our day off from the CrossFit WOD - technically, I suppose we could go 6 days a week, but thankfully, bf and I decided we should take 1 day off (in addition to Sunday, but there's no Sunday WOD). So, instead of the alarm waking us up at 5:30 am, we blissfully slept in until 8:30 :) <BR> <BR> Of course, we forgot that we had scheduled an appointment at 9:00 am with a food preparation service....oops! But the chef arrived a little late, and I was just wr... Fri, 4 Oct 2013 17:25:08 EST 2-week Challenge Results - and a new PR. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502538 So I made my 2-week challenge of being down 2 pounds. Which is great, except that 1.5 pounds of that loss was lean muscle, and only 0.5 pounds lost was fat. The guys conducting the analysis (they are sponsors of our CrossFit Box, but own a GNC-type of supplement store) didn't really have any advice for me, except to say that because I'm so fit, that could definitely happen. <BR> <BR> Hmm. Seems to me that if I'm losing muscle instead of fat, then there ought to be something I can do about... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 13:45:03 EST Paleo Challenge 2-week Weigh-In. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501442 Well, so far, this paleo challenge thing has not been that hard. I mean, eating paleo hasn't been hard - I mostly just miss sweets. Coffee is hardly worth it without sugar in it. We have made sure to have a cheat day, so I don't feel too deprived, really. <BR> <BR> The hard part is sticking to the recommended calories given to me in order to reach my goal weight of 118 by November 15. I started the weigh-in at 124.3, officially, I think. Unless I track my calories the very second I pu... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 13:20:10 EST Paleo Challenge Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5489278 It's morning. I did not go to crossfit today. I feel a little guilty about that. But, oh well, it is what it is. I could go to another class in the afternoon or evening, if I really wanted to. I still feel a little shaky, digestive-wise, though, and today is heavy squats - not necessarily something I want to do with crampy intestines. <BR> <BR> Today I am down to 122 - I'm not sure if that counts as weight loss, since I was sick yesterday. But anyway, that's where I am. <BR> <BR> Toda... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 12:42:20 EST Paleo Challenge Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488374 Yesterday, somehow, I managed to eat under 1550 calories. I was pretty miserable all day, and was prowling around for food, looking up calories, debating on whether I should eat this or that, pondering what would make me feel fuller - almond butter on an apple or a banana? - but then the afternoon got really busy and I kind of forgot how hungry I was. My BF had to work late, so I ended up cooking various paleo meals until midnight. I am glad I did it, though, because now we can have ready-... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 14:26:49 EST Paleo Challenge Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5487210 I spent most of last week eating paleo - with a few exceptions. On Saturday, I was down to 121. That was before heading to an Oktoberfest party and several pieces of cake, several hard ciders, chips, etc. So even though I took before and after photos on Saturday, I felt like I probably needed to retake them, since I know the weekend cost me. This morning (the official start of the challenge), I weighed in at 123.6 pounds. I did Fran, the benchmark WOD the coach is using to gauge our prog... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:06:47 EST What's the Skinny on Body Fat Percentages for Women? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484803 As I am entering a 60-day Paleo challenge at my CrossFit Box next week, one of the things I had to do this week was get my body fat percentage measured. Based on skin-fold caliper tests, I am at 14%. Which, according to some online sources, already puts me in the at-risk category for amenorrhea (no periods) and bone density loss. <BR> <BR> I realized this may be an uncomfortable topic for some; I noticed right away the two men at the Max Muscle store who were measuring my body fat turned r... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 17:16:09 EST Um...Hmm...Success-Driven Binge, Anyone? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5481745 So I *did* meet my goal of 121.5 pounds by August 31. I actually got down to an incredible 119 (at least for a few hours one morning). Can I tell you how exhilarating it was to be in the teens again? I felt really great about my accomplishment - so great, in fact, that over the course of the holiday weekend I ate a bunch of food and drank a bunch of alcohol and managed to regain three pounds in about 4 days. <BR> <BR> Then - yes, then! I continued my splurge because I am starting a Pale... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 14:20:32 EST Recalculating. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468102 I am not going to meet my weight goal for August 31st. I know this, and I'm trying to not let that prevent me from continuing to track calories and eat less. It's tempting to just say, "screw it - let's have some cookies," but I'm really trying to resist that urge. <BR> <BR> I know where I am going wrong and what I need to do to fix it. <BR> <BR> 1. I have been letting my shoulder injury and financial concerns "limit" my physical activity. I ostensibly stopped going to boot camp bec... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 17:23:06 EST Buckling Down (my last procrastination blog). http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461966 Shoot. When things fall apart in one aspect of your life, it's sometimes a pretty good indication of other aspects being out of whack. <BR> <BR> Work has not been good lately. I have felt undervalued and overworked for a while now. Add in the fact that I have a new relationship which is vastly more interesting than work, and that my bf makes almost 3x as much as I do - and well, lately I'm not feeling very motivated to work hard when I feel like I am not being adequately compensated for m... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 12:10:17 EST Frustration. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461059 This is my whiney blog. <BR> <BR> <BR> So. Lately I've been trying to pull photographs of my bf and I together because our 1-year anniversary is coming up in November, and I want to put a photo-book together as a gift for him. I know that I have gained some weight since we started dating but was ok with that until recently. After all, before I met him, I lived alone, so I worked out all the time and ate very little. Which is not a realistic way to continue for very long, especially once... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 13:27:36 EST Ta - Dah! (well, almost). http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448721 The scale read 124 today. That's right, like magic, two pounds have disappeared since I stepped on the scale on Monday. And, that's even with having a piece of pie for breakfast 3 days in a row. I have been trying to cut out the carbs and sweets (other than the pie), eating smaller dinners or no dinner at all, and just eating less overall during the day. Also, no alcohol this week, and bam! Two pounds gone. <BR> <BR> This weekend is going to be a potential problem - we're heading up to As... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 11:22:44 EST The Numbers Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446533 A recent comment on my last blog - and the number of times I've heard it said, and a couple of spark articles I just read, have gotten me thinking about the scale, and the focus on a number goal rather than focusing on being "healthy". <BR> <BR> Hmm. This is a tough one for me. I am as healthy as I have ever been, in my life. My blood pressure is perfect, my resting heart rate is excellent, my bloodwork, whenever I get it checked, shows no potential issues such as high cholesterol or elev... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 13:50:11 EST Get a Grip! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439782 Oh, things get out of control so quickly! We went camping over the weekend, and the s'mores abounded, then we went out eat Sunday night, and got ice cream afterwards (not just ice cream, a sundae, with whipped cream and caramel sauce)...since then, I've been eating and eating and eating - and I am really feeling the effects of four days of bad food choices today! Yuck! <BR> <BR> Today we are headed out to Red Rocks to watch The Big Lebowski, with the requisite tail-gating before the movie.... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 12:28:31 EST Wednesday is Hump Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432188 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Oh yes, it is. <BR> <BR> Suffice it to say my morning started out well. And last night ended well. <BR> <BR> I have learned the secret, too, to at least my personal weight gain/loss issues. It's a simple thing, really, the problem is how to make it a reality now that I am living with someone much larger than I am and with caloric needs that far exceed mine... <BR> <BR> What's the secret? What have I figured out, you ask? <BR> <BR> Well, it's finally clicked w... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 18:03:59 EST Monday-Funday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5421930 It's Monday and I am procrastinating a bit. The trip back to visit my bf's friends and family over the 4th of July went well. I did not meet my weight goal of 124, but did get down to 126. I felt pretty comfortable at that weight, even in a bikini, but it's still not where I want to be. Not surprisingly, after a week of a lot of social eating and drinking, my weight is back up to 128, which definitely makes me feel...swollen. It's funny how two pounds can do that. <BR> <BR> I've decided... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 14:05:20 EST Happiness is a choice. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402379 It's true. I am in the driver's seat when it comes to my state of mind. All those voices in my head, telling me to worry, be afraid, be sad, or whatever - those voices are ME. Which means, I am in charge of them. I am the monster at the end of this book. And I can tell them to stop it. They are not helpful. <BR> <BR> Right now I am worried about some things I really can't control. I feel really down, and nervous, and upset. But why? What is the point of it? I am creating sufferin... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 12:01:15 EST Acknowledging Defeat. At least, it feels that way. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395387 Ok, ok, ok. <BR> <BR> I get it. It has been 6 months of shoulder pain. I thought it might heal on its own, I tried resting it (mostly....sort of), I tried massage, I tried ice packs, I tried 800 mg of vitamin I (ibuprofen, for those of you not familiar with the chronic pain sufferer's drug of choice) every day for a week, I tried paying a chiropractic sports-medicine doctor to torture me once or twice a week for 8 weeks, I tried a compression/activation shirt (ever tried to play Ultimate F... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 16:00:46 EST Procrastination. And a weight update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392306 I should be working on a project right now. The deadline is coming up, and I haven't done a thing, really - it's a huge report, of which I have written maybe a quarter of what I should have done by now. Sigh. I *really* don't want to work on it. <BR> <BR> So, here is a blog to help me procrastinate! <BR> <BR> I had the BEST weekend! I spent it with my bf, of course, and it was amazing. <BR> <BR> Tonight I have two and a half hours of Ultimate Frisbee. Should be fun. I should be tired... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 17:08:48 EST Oh Scale - Are you lying to me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5389146 So, yesterday morning, I stepped on the scale, and it read 129. I never had a scale at home before, but during a work project I came across a discarded scale in a basement and....well, I "borrowed" it. All right. I should have left it there. But no one was ever going to come back for it, so, anyway, I took it home, put new batteries in it, and viola - it worked. <BR> <BR> But now, of course I can check my weight anytime I feel like it. After becoming thoroughly disgusted with myself and... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 14:06:11 EST The limit. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387982 I realized yesterday that I have had it. I have finally reached my limit. The scale this morning said 129. Dear lord. I want to feel sexy again. I want my stomach to be flat and my pants to be loose in the thighs again. I want to feel good naked. I want to look good in pictures. I'm tired of these extra pounds, especially when more just seem to be creeping back on. <BR> <BR> I guess there is a drawback to not being single....there's so much food in the house, and it's so easy to eat w... Thu, 13 Jun 2013 12:11:30 EST Falling Apart. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381556 Things are starting to fall apart. Literally. I ripped a big hole in a pair of jeans I have had for almost 10 years. And I know what you're thinking, if I had them 10 years, it was probably time for some new jeans anyway. But I wasn't prepared for them to give out so suddenly, after so many years of good service. <BR> <BR> I may have (likely have) a tear in my supraspinatus muscle or tendon - yay. My PT said it may take 6 months of struggling through some pain before it heals, and if it... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 14:05:51 EST One step forward, two steps back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373738 On my way to boot camp after crossfit this morning, with my mind pre-occupied with some relationship woes, I accidentally ran a red light. My car was struck on the driver side by a Dodge Ram 1500. I am fine, but my car may be totaled. <BR> <BR> Sigh. <BR> <BR> It is hard to get ahead. It seems like, every time there is forward progress (towards weight loss, towards financial goals, relationship goals, etc.), something comes up to push you backwards. Things have been a little rough on th... Fri, 31 May 2013 14:09:51 EST I weighed myself today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5372625 So funny how numbers have such a big impact on mood. <BR> <BR> The scale (I have a scale at home now, a risky move, I know). said 127, with clothes. I'm going to allow a pound for that. So 126 is the official number. Not awful. Not where I want to be, but not that far off. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did 1 hour of CrossFit, 1 hour of boot camp, and took the dogs on a 4 mile run (which took about 50 minutes, considering the all the stopping and peeing - by the dogs, not me). I also had to tak... Thu, 30 May 2013 13:40:55 EST I love CrossFit - and I hope it doesn't kill me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371706 Just a quick update - <BR> <BR> I have been traveling a ridiculous amount and have kind of been hating life. I have a gorgeous, sexy, perfect boyfriend at home (I have instituted a no-shirt policy at home solely for that reason), but I am thousands of miles away - major bummer...but, I finally signed up for a CrossFit Elements course and I did my first official WOD on Saturday - it was Murph, for Memorial Day. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and I LOVED it. I mean, I ... Wed, 29 May 2013 16:38:17 EST Force of Will. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302185 I have found I have an incredible ability to will my body to keep going. I can't necessarily will it to go faster, or harder, but I can keep it moving, even when it doesn't want to. I put my head down, grit my teeth, and make it happen. I have not tried a marathon or anything even close to that, but I'm sure I could do it, because not quitting when my body feels like quitting is what I do. It's what I'm good at. <BR> <BR> I'm not a quitter. Even when I should be. That's why I stayed in... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 15:22:08 EST When we are happy, we both get fat...er, or one of us does. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300824 So... <BR> <BR> The thing about me is that I love to eat. When I'm happy, I love to eat, anyway. Sad and depressed? I have absolutely no appetite. I look fabulous, even though I feel miserable on the inside. But when I'm happy, everything is good. More of everything is even better. <BR> <BR> Living with my bf this past month I have gained 7 pounds. Because we're cooking actual meals (instead of grabbing a PB&J), and because I forget that I just can't eat as much as a 170-lb man eats ... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 13:08:40 EST Moving on up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5285593 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l599845064.jpg"> <BR> Day One in St. Marten! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/1/l917203129.jpg"> <BR> Day Two <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1543891099.jpg"> <BR> Day Three <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1119611055.jpg"> <BR> Day Four <BR> <BR> I'd add more pictures, but they are taking forever to upload. <BR> <BR> I'm super-happy. My boyfriend moved... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 18:07:45 EST Mi Casa es su Pantelones! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238630 Ok, so the wresting costumes may have been a bit over the top. But, it was super-fun to run about the streets of Denver, cape flying out behind me like a super-hero. With the mask on, I could do anything - no one knew who I was. The only bummer was that no one else at the Mardi Gras party really dressed up in costume - a few people had masks and/or silly hats and bow ties, but we really went all out. <BR> <BR> It was so good, I think I will continue to refine the costume and wear it again... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 11:26:46 EST