SOULFISH80's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SOULFISH80 SOULFISH80's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ It's good to be me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764628 Life is just good right now. I have things I definitely want to change and make better, including all Spark related activities...........but I want to stop and take note that things are good. There are things around me, in my family that are hard/sad, but in my day to day life, all is pretty great. Tim has a great job, I am "working" from home, I have lost weight and kept it off........and am attempting to lose more. We recently got a kitten, which just makes life great. The summer is coming ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 00:41:44 EST Sp has been there for me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698862 SP has really been there for me over the last few years. I have been through so much, a miscarriage, loss of a job, moving, Grandfather's death, multiple health crises for both myself and my husband. Through all that SP, and of course sparkfriends were there in a way no one else was. I really feel like I owe it to myself, and to all of my sparkfriends to do my best. I am losing weight, but I haven't been a productive part of this community and I really missing that. I want to try harder, hope... Tue, 20 May 2014 00:47:51 EST Take two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687582 Highlighting my hair, so I have a bit of downtime while it processes, let's try again!!! Blog number two for the day. Hope this goes better this time. Thanks for the sweeties that commented on my blog from this morning. I was a bit frustrated when I lost my 5 paragraph blog at 7 am this morning. Oh well, it was probably just a bunch of boring nonsense anyway!!! Ha! <BR> <BR> So, all is really great here. Lost another pound. This makes eleven in just about two months. I have 5 more to go to g... Sun, 4 May 2014 22:56:47 EST Whaaaaaa? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687087 Just typed and entire blog and lost it! Not cool!!!!!! Not typing another now. All is well here, hope all is well in your worlds. I'll type one up when I get over losing this one!!!! <BR> <BR> Hugs. Sun, 4 May 2014 10:43:22 EST Quickie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679314 Just wanted to get a quick blog in this morning before work. I leave soon, so this will be short and sweet. I've been logging all calories in and burned and have been attempting to get as much water in as possible. I have lost ten pounds since the first week of March and I feel a glimmer of hope in my bones that I might be able to keep losing for awhile. Ever since I stopped my old medication and got a new one I have been struggling to even want to eat very much. This is the polar opposite of... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 09:30:11 EST Small victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675254 Don't know how this whole spark thing works so quickly, but it does! Started tracking and exercising yesterday, and today did the same, and already I managed to loose that stubborn pound I have been working on for a few weeks!!! I could not manage to break that pound, but alas, today, I have, I feel pretty happy. I know that scale victories are really not the main way I stay motivated, however, I will take them when they come. I have 8 more pounds to get back to my weight from last December..... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 18:01:46 EST Trying to get my head back in the game. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674583 Everything has been a HUGE tornado of events for months now, and I see the dust clearing, but am afraid to believe it's really over. I must, however, start getting my head back in the healthy living game. I feel good about myself emotionally, but I know I have a lot of hard work to do if I want to feel the way I know I can physically. So today I started tracking for the first time in months. I usually won't track my food if I have eaten "bad" stuff, or feel guilty about an item or items I hav... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 19:26:00 EST Palm Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671096 Palm Sunday can be a big deal for Christians. It is always the Sunday before Easter. I am celebrating (because I am lucky enough to have the day off) by going to church, out to lunch and then car shopping. I know car shopping sounds like an odd way to celebrate an important religious holiday, but as some of you know, I'm really not religious by normal standards, I just really love Jesus. So, wish me luck. We sold our "good" car to my sister two months ago because we needed the money, and have... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 11:08:24 EST Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670576 Well, my math is wrong, it's been just shy of 4 months, not 5 since I've been on here. And that really does make me feel a little better somehow! Strange but true. So, I won't get into any gritty details, but here is a quick rundown of the last 4 months. Grandpa passed away in the middle of December, we took two months to have the funeral. The funeral was mid February, it was hard, but a big relief at the same time. Tim and I were living on the road in his big rig, staying with Mom occasional... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 15:24:11 EST Quick catch up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575090 Just wanted to say hello really quick. It's been a really wild couple of months and I am really looking forward to the New Year. I hope you all have had a lovely holiday. I am looking forward to reading about all of your new adventures in the upcoming year. Love you guys. Hugs. Sun, 29 Dec 2013 22:08:34 EST In Mourning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564840 A few hours after I posted my last blog my Mom called me to tell me that my Grandpa had been taken to the ER in Davis. We had the day off, unexpectedly, and rushed over there to see Grandpa, and be support to my Mom. The next few days were spent in the hospital with all of the family members that could make it here. We reminisced about the good old days and laughed, hugged and cried. It was a really great feeling having all of the family around. But slowly, each person had to get back to thei... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 11:48:48 EST Making time for me....?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557283 So I don't know why, or how it's been almost two weeks since I've been able to blog.........OK, that's a lie, I know why and how, I just can't come to terms with what has happened in the last two weeks!!! This is really craziness over here, and I know I'm in the thick of the tornado right now, so I'm a bit overwhelmed. I'm just hoping when it's all over we're in one piece!! <BR> <BR> To start off, Thanksgiving was great. Didn't do any of the great things I said I would do, like track all my... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 02:59:00 EST Flying by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548033 Wow these last two weeks have really flown by. Tim took off this whole week also. Tried to work on Monday, finished the short drive, but injured himself and damaged the truck in the process. So we decided he needed another week to heal. He seems to be feeling better. I think his healing process will be much like mine, long and drawn out. Small progress week to week, but needing TLC for quite awhile to really get back in the full swing of things. <BR> <BR> We've been packing this week. We bo... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 21:55:28 EST A new week begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543777 Not too much going on over here. We've been holed up all week trying to heal our injured body parts. My ankle is feeling much better, even took a nice long walk today. Tim's shoulder is getting a bit better too. One day at a time. Looking forward to a small, intimate Thanksgiving celebration spent with my Mom, sister and husband. Planning on tracking all food, and staying in calorie range. If I stay in range I will be so proud of myself. <BR> <BR> Hope you all are doing well. Have a great we... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 20:49:13 EST Hurts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5540296 Tim seperated his shoulder on Friday night. He's been off of work since then. I feel really bad, he's in quite a lot of pain. He saw a chiropractor, and we ordered a muscle stimulator machine today. He'll go back to the chiropractor on Friday. We are quite the gimpy pair right now. My ankle is nowhere near being fully recovered, and now him with his shoulder...........what a sad sight!! It is odd that both of our injuries kept us from being able to work. Wonder what the message in that is? <B... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 15:58:08 EST Happenings (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537385 So, blogging everyday is not necessarily possible under my current situation. I can't believe it's Sunday and I haven't been able to blog since Wednesday. Blogging really does help me sort things out and keeps me focused. But some days I just can't do it. Thursday was spent on the road with hubs. Wanted to stay in Oregon once we got there, as usual. It was quite cool and sprinkling, but just as beautiful as it could possibly be. Friday I spent with my Mom and sister in Bodega Bay and Sepastop... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 14:29:20 EST Interesting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534334 Made quite the discovery recently about my eating habits. I've been back to tracking my food daily, for the last 3 or so weeks. I haven't been consistent in this area in a really long time, and am fully convinced that this is crucial to weight loss...........I know, I know, I'm a slow learner. So, what I've learned is that many days I do not eat enough food. I know this sounds bizzare for an overweight person to say, but it is definitely true. I am eating approximately the same way I've eaten... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 21:57:10 EST Taking time to heal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532113 Decided to take this week to properly heal. I've been running around like a wild woman trying to figure my life out, and I haven't really been properly addressing the needs of my still tender ankle and knee. So, this week is about rest, water, reading, connecting with God, writing, catching up with friends via phone chats and all around regaining the strength I need for the upcoming move. I will be of no help to myself or hubs if I don't heal this ankle/knee properly, and I just can't do that... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 16:02:16 EST Nitty gritty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530912 So, did some serious self facing today. Haven't changed my weight ticker since May of this year. Which means I haven't lost any weight since May of this year. I was under the impression for quite some time that I was the same weight I'd been for the last two years give or take 5 pounds here and there. My scale wasn't working for a few months, so I had no conrete way to track my weight. I went back to my weight tracker from May, and according to what I weighed last Monday, I gained 24 pounds f... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 12:00:51 EST New life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530353 I feel instense feelings of love and excitement for my new life! Quitting my job is turning out the be the best thing I've done in years. I am swelling with feelings of excitement for my future. I feel a brand new sense of strength and priority in putting my needs first in life. I have been seeing day by day all of the things I've done in my life that have not honored me. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to say what I mean and mean what I say, and I don't want to talk/think/feel bad ab... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 20:31:39 EST The great unkown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525484 Standing at the precipice of the great unkown is me, right here, right now. For the first time in my adult life, I have no idea of what the future holds. I am moving to a place I know very little about. I am completely open about what I will do for a job, I mean COMPLETELY open. I am not even sure, at the very moment, what town, or part of the city we will be settling in. I have my ideas of areas I like better than others, but for the most part all I really know is I will be there, and Tim wi... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 11:41:57 EST So great http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524541 Just took a stroll through the world of SP, and came across this on Cheryl_Anne's page. Wow, how interesting how life just brings you what you need at the exact time you need it. So happy to be learning about life and myself and others with the help of this gorgeous community. I've searched for a community I could fit into my whole adult life, and never found one, until now. I never imagined it would be an online community. Technology definitely has it's positive place in my heart. Love how i... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 10:59:43 EST Big plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524273 Today was really nice. Spent the day shooting the breeze with my Mother and sister. Got lots of nice gifts from my Aunt; books, jewelry, art, Mikasa dish set, it was like Christmas in October. I felt really spoiled. It was very nice to spend the day with two of my favorite people. I love them so much and feel so much love and support when I'm around them. <BR> <BR> So, the plan of the day, since I don't have a job holding me back, is to give up the apartment and live on the road for a few mo... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 23:23:19 EST Beautiful people http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523586 I try to be blatantly honest with myself............and by blogging, with others too. And today was hard, downright hard. Uncontrollable outbursts of deep emotions teamed with almost unbearably violent crying. Questioning life, self and God. It wasn't pretty. Not proud at all. But after some music therapy, and support from beautiful friends and family, I do feel a bit better now. <BR> <BR> I did eat TERRIBLY today, which is not good at all. I was on the road with Tim all day, didn't pre-plan... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 00:43:10 EST Aftermath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522278 OK, it's started today already. Just got a call from my ex-boss. She hasn't been to work yet, and doesn't know I quit. She was sounding tired, but almost nice. I'm really, really wondering what she is going to do when she finds out I quit. I wonder if she'll call me, or if it's all just water under the bridge. You know, I know that I did the right thing by quitting, because I don't feel bad about it at all. I feel good, really good. I am a little sad to be leaving my clients. But other than t... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 12:23:27 EST Coo-coo crazytown http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521653 I quit my job today. Yeah, still can't believe it. I 'm in shock. Major shock. Shaking major shock. It feels like leaving an abusive marriage. I made the best of it for way too long, because I love what I do, but it's been bad for awhile, a long while. The straw happened yesterday when I went in to work, hobbling on my bruised, sore and weak busted ankle, because my boss asked me to. When I realized I couldn't work, DUH, I told her and she gave me the most evil look and said some snarky, cold... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 20:18:23 EST My husband says.....and smoking. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520222 So, it's just after 7:00 am. I've been up since 6:00 am. For some this is normal, or even for people like my Mom who have to be to work at 5:30 am, 6:00 am is sleeping in. But for me, well, for me this is a VERY unusual thing. So, I'm using this time awake, and alert and excited for the day's adventure to immerse myself in the positivity of SP. <BR> <BR> My husband has been saying, for atleast 6 months now. "If you really want to loose weight, you need to do Sparkpeople. That's the only thin... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 10:31:59 EST All in a day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519646 "I can't get enough freggies in the spring/summer, then when fall hits I have to force feed myself to get enough. I love vegetables, I don't know why I'm like this. I think I might need to get a little more creative with my winter veg recipes. " <BR> <BR> Quoted by soulfish80, 2 days ago <BR> <BR> And this morning was spent steaming cabbage and beets and roasting butternut squash. So take that lazy, don't wanna cook self. You can do it, you really can!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 18:42:16 EST Daily blogging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5518885 With all my down/homebound hours on my hands, due to this busted ankle, I was inspired to really dig into the SP site today. I haven't done this in a really long time. It lead to hours of reading blogs and articles, taking quizes and eventually doing seated cardio and strength exercises. I can do a walk down memory lane and see all the things that have happened in the last two years that have been a hinderance to my lasting success on SP. One huge hurdle was living without internet for nearly... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 22:16:19 EST Unexpectedness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517767 For the last month or so, it's been a series of unexpected pitfalls for my health/body. The horrifying blood donation experience that took nearly a month to recover from, and now this busted ankle that looks to be atleast a full weeks worth of recovery, if not more have just about ruined this last month for me. I'm a bit bummed at the pitfalls, because this weather has me very motivated to exercise. However, I can channel this motivation into planning what it is I will do when I'm well, and i... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 13:10:56 EST Fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5499805 Fall has really snuck up on me. Time is whirling by so fast these days. I just wanted to say that all is well here. When there is peace in my home, there is peace in my heart, and all is well on the homefront. Hubby is working hard, as usual, but when he's home we always make time to snuggle and chit chat about what is on our hearts. I love this man so very much, what a blessing to be married to the best friend I've ever had. Truly awesome. <BR> <BR> Been walking, in the living room. Picking... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 00:13:51 EST Warning, diarrhea blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494037 So, I feel a diarrhea blog on my hands. I don't mean a blog about diarrhea, just a babbling blog about life these days. It's due, it's been ruminating, and now it's time! Change of season, better get this broom out and clean up the dusty spots of my meandering soul, and share it all with you ;) <BR> <BR> So, on the 6th of this month I had my blood drawn. I will not go into great details about just how horrible that was (I was donating, so it was a large amount of blood taken) but it was bad... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 16:21:39 EST I'm baaaaccccckkk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486460 Just decided to try a different brand of computer charger to see if it might work on my computer, and it did!!!! Wow, so very happy. I was thinking I'd lost all of my photos and resume and computer........with no money saved to buy another. So, I am very happy right now. Blogging from my cell phone was quite hard, and rather ineffective. I added the sp food tracker and sp recipe apps onto my phone, so nice. I like that the new tracker also tracks strength mins, which is really handy. Had a fe... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 18:30:42 EST Cell phone??!! Won't keep me down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482945 I am attempting to blog from my cell phone. We'll see how this works out. Decided to break down and buy the sp food tracker app, used to have it for free. For four bucks I think it's definitely worth it. Finally picked up more protein shake after a week without it. The store was out and I was really missing it. Makes meals easier, especially breakfast. I started walking in my living room, it is the simplest way to get easy cardio, and watch a good movie at the same time. I like it even better... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 17:27:35 EST Vacation is over, whew!(pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464261 I've officially been back to work for two weeks now, but my vacation mood is still in full force!! I rode up to Oregon with Tim last weekend, and went to Santa Cruz yesterday with my sister. I like running here and there this time of year, it just seems right. The last few days of my vacation there was a free museum weekend going on up in the gold country. It was really great. My Mom, husband and I ended up hitting 5 museums the Saturday that we put Josh on the plane to go home. I got quite a... Fri, 23 Aug 2013 17:09:18 EST Summer Vacation (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446573 I have a full week left of vacation, and I'm already worn out!!! We've been having a blast. My step-son is 11 now, and he's so much fun! He's always been a joy, but now he's old enough to really get out and do fun things. We've been horseback riding, went to an amazing railroad museum in Old Sac and went hiking yesterday to Horsetail Falls and Pyramid Creek. We've really had a lot of fun so far, and the week is just begining. It's really nice to get a little time off work. It's also been nice... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 14:23:38 EST New news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440223 Well, things seem good, for today. My quick trip to Oregon a few weeks back, coupled with my upcoming trip there next week and our move planning has really sparked me into some happiness. I was in a mild depression for the last few months. Which was affecting my weight. I went gluten free and gained 9 pounds. Not good at all........that was 9 pounds on top of the 5 I had gained the month before I went gluten free. So things were spiraling out of control. I actually hit my all time high weight... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 20:25:45 EST First SP meetup!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430945 Wow, Sarina(ridmycocoon)/me, meeting up, letting it all out, coffee, midtown Sac, so great!!! Loved it! What an amazing treat! This community just gives and gives!!! All I can say is I wish I could do it every weekend. Man I love meeting great people, it's so inspiring!!!!! Hope you are all happy and healthy! Tue, 23 Jul 2013 19:23:43 EST Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407963 From the title of this blog you must be able to tell I've run out of title ideas! Too funny!!! Just checking in. Letting the fingers flow, see what comes out today. I had a really nice weekend. Very mellow. It's a heatwave here, so temps up around 110 degrees for the week. Makes spending time inside very attractive. I have been swimming, that's about it lately. I felt silly going to water aerobics when I have a perfectly great swimming pool right here, just waiting for be used. So I've been s... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 22:36:45 EST Picking up the pieces http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396743 It's been a really hard week. I took off from work to pick up the scattered pieces of my fragmented self. I am, as many of you know, bi-polar, and I caught myself going down that all too familiar path towards a manic episode this week. I think I may have caught myself just in time. I am a bit sad, since I thought all of this was behind me. I am so thankful for SP though, just getting on here, reading some blogs and dreaming of a healthier me is making my heart a little lighter. I went to talk... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 21:49:34 EST Busy bee (pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5381805 I've been so incredibly busy. Which is great, I love to be busy, especially with positive stuff. Had my brother's family visiting for a month. It was great! Just a few of the over fifty great shots I got of my adorable nieces: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l904095289.jpg"> <BR> Ferris wheels are so fun! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l167891804.jpg"> <BR> Biggest slide ever! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 19:39:42 EST Wheat free, and other ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5371702 So, my wheat free experiment has amounted in some very obvious observations and concrete conclusions. I can't eat wheat. It's painfully obvious. I've realized the only time I've had success on SP and in the past with weight issues is when I don't eat it. I went all last week without wheat, lost four pounds, without killing myself with fit mins. On Sunday I went out to eat, ate just a few bites of wheat containing items, I instantly felt like I was going to pass out from intense sleepiness, fo... Wed, 29 May 2013 16:35:50 EST Plugging right along http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366778 I'm about halfway through with the book 'Wheat Belly'. There is a lot of info in that book. Tons of stuff that makes me really question our modern medical/food organizations. I am on my second wheat free day, and am praying that I turn this into a lifelong eating path. I think any way you slice it, according to the facts and figures in this book, eating wheat is just a gamble. You may not see the negative effects now, maybe it will turn up later when it's too late to reverse the unhealthy pro... Fri, 24 May 2013 14:12:35 EST Gluten free me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359365 My brother and his family is in town for the month, and we've been having all kinds of fun, and also some educating conversations. They have recently went gluten free as a family, and were talking about all the good things that have been going on for them since doing it. This spurned some personal searching and self educating, and I think it is something I'm going to try for myself. I did it years ago for a month or so, and did feel noticeably better. But I didn't stick with it. Today I was g... Fri, 17 May 2013 13:32:25 EST May http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348944 May is shaping up well. I've been sticking to my calorie range, which always feels great. I've started out a tad slow with fit mins, but not too bad. I should have 250 in a day or so, so that is better than nothing! Really gonna have to work it to get my 1,000 in again this month, but nothing is stopping me, so I'm going to have to make it happen. <BR> <BR> This was another great weekend. My babe was home, we were a bit lazy, which was actually really nice because I'd been having a pretty ba... Tue, 7 May 2013 18:20:02 EST Quick hooray http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342391 Just wanted to write this feeling down so I won't forget it when I make decisions to exercise or not this month. I LOVE to see the scale go down! And it did today. Thought I'd write it down so I can somehow remember how today feels and attempt to continue on this path so I can keep feeling this way. Guess those 1,000 fit mins had something to do with it! Wed, 1 May 2013 19:40:34 EST Cool weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339881 My weekend started out cool, and is ending cool too. My boss took me out Friday night for our 4 year anniversary celebration. Nothing too crazy, I had two beers, half a sandwich and a salad. Not too bad. We had a really good time. There was live music outside, and the weather was perfect for good conversation under the stars, with great food and great music. After work on Saturday, I drove out to Winter's to spend the day with my Mom, and we went to a local festival they had going on at the c... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:11:14 EST Life is hard (mental health blog) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336672 You know, I've been thinking, after reading some blogs lately, that life is hard. Warning, this is going to be a little messy. I usually try to stick to positive blogs, but I need to vent, and this is as good a place as any. <BR> <BR> Like I said, life is hard, for everyone. Everyone seems to have some overwhelming thing, or things that keep them struggling, almost non-stop, without seeing a lot of progress. The more people I "meet" online and in other areas, the more I see this. I think our... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 18:37:02 EST Tweaks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335536 It is amazing how little tweaks here and there can be so motivating. Just changing my SP weight tracker to 20 pounds instead of 100 has helped me so much. I feel like I can attack 20 pounds, that is conceivable, but 100........well that's just too much for me to wrap my brain around. I got my hour of water aerobics in last night, even though hubs was home and I wanted to soak him up while he was there.......I decided my health cannot be put on hold. And even though tonight will be his last ni... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 17:20:43 EST Whew...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333641 I've had a strange few days. But I will start off on a positive note, I am pretty sure I am going to get OVER 1,000 fit mins this month! That is really huge for me. I'm not sure the last time I got 1,000 fit mins, but it's been a really long time. So I am very proud to see that I am getting one part of this weight loss equation in order. My food, on the other hand, is not great. I haven't been as diligent on tracking, and this must stop. I am completely done with being overweight. And am full... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 01:27:59 EST