SOULFISH80's SparkPeople Blog SOULFISH80's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Thanks!!! Thanks you guys for the love and support on my last blog. I needed it. I'm feeling much better now. Spark friends always make things better. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>532</em> <em>345</em> <em>304</em> <em>220</em> <em>212</em> <em>247</em> <em>250</em> <em>252</em> <em>244</em> <em>381</em> <em>223</em> Fri, 4 Sep 2015 08:05:50 EST Hmmppfff.... I had a MASSIVE headache, let's just call it a migraine that started Tuesday night. Tim suggested I take some pain/sleepy meds. I did, slept all that night, all day yesterday, on and off, and then all night last night. I have a feeling I may be sleeping some of today and hopefully most of tonight also. The stress is causes so much tension in my head, neck and shoulders. I've had two of the headaches in the last few months and many little ones that are just there and painful, but don't cause m... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 11:48:53 EST Ridmycocoon, you made my night!! I got a surprise call from the dearest, most darling Ridmycocoon. She really knows how the ask the right questions at the right time, and how to surprise a girl. You are wonderful girl!!!!!! I actually feel so good to get some of what's been up off my chest to someone I know can take it. She was my girl last night, so many thanks!!! <em>212</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> So, the results from the MRI were relatively positive. Tim is feeling pretty OK. Not 100%, but not horrible. We've FIN... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 14:16:46 EST Friiiddaaaayyyy! Yay, we are still alive! All is good. Tim had an MRI yesterday, we should hear the results today. Thanks for all of your support. It's been a real blessing to us :) <em>212</em> <em>212</em> <em>212</em> <em>212</em> <em>212</em> <em>212</em> <em>212</em> Fri, 28 Aug 2015 11:50:48 EST Day's haps Hey you wonderful peeps. All is good in the hood for today. We still don't have any income, but our friends and family has been so amazing to us. We did some deep cleaning today. By we I mostly mean me. I went through our outside storage unit, and then through our inside coat closet and my clothes closet. I still have the hall closet, and the kitchen cabinets/fridge to sort through. But I made a good dent. I hauled a heavy box down to the laundry room and labeled it free art supplies. I sorte... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 22:42:09 EST A new week We survived the weekend, and quite well I might add. The food in the cupboards and fridge were so full that we have barely made a dent in it. My freezer is full of meals I've prepared, along with a few tasty homemade treats. All of them are in small, sturdy plastic containers with good, freezer ready seals. I am so happy to know that we are extremely good to go in the food/paper goods area for quite awhile. I'm sure we could hunker down a month or more and live just fine. <BR> <BR> I've rea... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 23:51:12 EST Sunday (pics) We went to church today for the first time in awhile. It was exactly what we needed. I am so glad that God put it in our hearts to get up and get going this morning. There were tears, some singing, smiles, hugs, and new faces. I loved it. The sermon was lead by a young gentleman youth leader, and he was funny and pretty engaging. It was on the book of Genesis, Joseph to be precise. He is one of my favorite old testament characters, so I enjoyed the lesson, and even learned a bit I didn't know... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 20:19:52 EST Still afloat :) Well, as of today, although our plans have changed ten + times, everything seems almost bearable. I went to the pool for an hour, soaked up the sun, tread some water, did a little water aerobics and stretching. It was nice. Tim is off for the rest of the week again. He is not feeling stable yet, and has plans to schedule an MRI soon. Progress is good. Baby steps and progress. If it's good enough for SP, it's good enough for all other areas of life. I say I'm baby stepping so much now that I f... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 21:26:10 EST Current haps......... Well heck, where to start? I actually, truly don't know. It's been a wild ride this last month or so. All seems to possibly be working out, and possibly be moving in a positive direction. Only time will tell. I am still unemployed. Tim's shoulder is still injured. In fact he should be seeing a neurologist soon in order to help him decide what the next course of action is for his course of recovery. Seems strange that a neurologist would be involved for a shoulder injury, however, a lot of the... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 15:21:24 EST Zen and the art of pool time It's been swimming, water aerobics and various strokes of treading water for me every day, often multiple times a day. Yesterday we didn't go out because there was a fire nearby the night before and the air quality was still pretty terrible. I am praying that tonight things are back to normal, and I can breathe safely. The worst part about summer for me is the countdown until it is over, wwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :( I LOVE summertime. The swimming. The swimming. Tanning. Salads. The swimming. Tank t... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 19:35:48 EST Noooo It never fails, when I write a blog, and lose it, I am peeved. <BR> Which is me, right now. <BR> <BR> My goals right now are to follow the SP suggested guidlines as closely as possible. I know that I will not be able to scale the highest mountain tomorrow, or ever......but that's OK. Mom is bringing over a bicycle, I am really excited about that. <BR> <BR> I have not been seen without my water these last few days. I am remembering what it feels like to be fully hydrated. I have been a big... Fri, 10 Jul 2015 12:13:45 EST Spring 2015 This season, each year, is such an odd time for me. I embrace it with excited anticipation as I imagine what the rest of the year will hold, but it is also a time of year that I am a little wobbly on my feet, both literally and metaphorically. I have been doing well by staying busy. This is my third week of spring cleaning. I have gone through most of the closets, just have one left. I have sorted through almost every box we have, both in the apartment and in storage. Today I took boxes to s... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 18:28:26 EST Blog mode I wrote a rather boring blog yesterday about how happy I am to have access to SP after a 6 month hiatus. Don't get me wrong, I am happy.......but there were so many typos in it and fixing them on this tablet is not easy for me. So I erased it. Today I am in a different place. My health is fully on my mind, and I am in "tackle this beast" mode. I am not going gung ho crazy........since that leads to injury for me.........or it has in the past. But I am in the "focus on me" mode. What does my b... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 23:52:26 EST Mt Lassen pics and recent musings <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Tim having an all out glorious moment. The water in the background is Lake Helen, and in person it actually is as blue as it looks. Divine. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Lake Helen without the hubs blocking the view :p It is small in circumference, but HUGE in beauty. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> First vie... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 19:03:54 EST Quick little blog So the happenings here are good, interesting and keeping me quite busy, mentally, emotionally and physically. Tim and I had a MUCH needed weekend getaway to Lassen Volcanic National Park this weekend. It was truly spectacular, and we cannot believe we have lived in the Sacramento area nearly ten years and have never been there. It is just under 3 hours away, and it is wonderful. The people we met were down to earth, friendly and fun, the food was good, the lodging was affordable, but most imp... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 22:17:39 EST Measuring tape I was reminded at exercise class on Monday about the importance of measuring ourselves. The last time I did this I was shocked at how much my body was changing even when the scale was not moving. Just leaving a quick blog to remind myself to do that today....after I find my measuring tape ;-) Wed, 10 Sep 2014 06:22:59 EST Size really does NOT matter. So, I was going through my clothes yesterday, got rid of a ton, and have quite a bit more to get rid of. Wish I could say it was all too big, bit in reality, most of it just does not seem to suite my taste anymore. What I found, not only from the clothes I gave away, but also from the pieces I kept is, size means nothing. I am wearing a medium dress today, and was wearing a medium dress yesterday. I also have size 18 dresses, and a few sizes between medium and 18. I have medium shirts and XXL... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 21:54:50 EST New work out class Today would have been day three of my new workout class.......but hubs came home today and scheduled and impromptu meal with my Mom and sister at one of my fave places to eat in Davis. So, I skipped class. I shouldn't have, but I did. And the meal was wonderful, and the company was even better. I had Heirloom Tomato Pomodoro Spaghetti, mmmmmmmm boy it was good. This area is know for it's tomatoes, so much so that Heinz has a plant in my town. It was nice....this is the perfect season for them... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 21:23:07 EST It's good to be me. Life is just good right now. I have things I definitely want to change and make better, including all Spark related activities...........but I want to stop and take note that things are good. There are things around me, in my family that are hard/sad, but in my day to day life, all is pretty great. Tim has a great job, I am "working" from home, I have lost weight and kept it off........and am attempting to lose more. We recently got a kitten, which just makes life great. The summer is coming ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 00:41:44 EST Sp has been there for me. SP has really been there for me over the last few years. I have been through so much, a miscarriage, loss of a job, moving, Grandfather's death, multiple health crises for both myself and my husband. Through all that SP, and of course sparkfriends were there in a way no one else was. I really feel like I owe it to myself, and to all of my sparkfriends to do my best. I am losing weight, but I haven't been a productive part of this community and I really missing that. I want to try harder, hope... Tue, 20 May 2014 00:47:51 EST Take two Highlighting my hair, so I have a bit of downtime while it processes, let's try again!!! Blog number two for the day. Hope this goes better this time. Thanks for the sweeties that commented on my blog from this morning. I was a bit frustrated when I lost my 5 paragraph blog at 7 am this morning. Oh well, it was probably just a bunch of boring nonsense anyway!!! Ha! <BR> <BR> So, all is really great here. Lost another pound. This makes eleven in just about two months. I have 5 more to go to g... Sun, 4 May 2014 22:56:47 EST Whaaaaaa? Just typed and entire blog and lost it! Not cool!!!!!! Not typing another now. All is well here, hope all is well in your worlds. I'll type one up when I get over losing this one!!!! <BR> <BR> Hugs. Sun, 4 May 2014 10:43:22 EST Quickie Just wanted to get a quick blog in this morning before work. I leave soon, so this will be short and sweet. I've been logging all calories in and burned and have been attempting to get as much water in as possible. I have lost ten pounds since the first week of March and I feel a glimmer of hope in my bones that I might be able to keep losing for awhile. Ever since I stopped my old medication and got a new one I have been struggling to even want to eat very much. This is the polar opposite of... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 09:30:11 EST Small victories Don't know how this whole spark thing works so quickly, but it does! Started tracking and exercising yesterday, and today did the same, and already I managed to loose that stubborn pound I have been working on for a few weeks!!! I could not manage to break that pound, but alas, today, I have, I feel pretty happy. I know that scale victories are really not the main way I stay motivated, however, I will take them when they come. I have 8 more pounds to get back to my weight from last December..... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 18:01:46 EST Trying to get my head back in the game. Everything has been a HUGE tornado of events for months now, and I see the dust clearing, but am afraid to believe it's really over. I must, however, start getting my head back in the healthy living game. I feel good about myself emotionally, but I know I have a lot of hard work to do if I want to feel the way I know I can physically. So today I started tracking for the first time in months. I usually won't track my food if I have eaten "bad" stuff, or feel guilty about an item or items I hav... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 19:26:00 EST Palm Sunday Palm Sunday can be a big deal for Christians. It is always the Sunday before Easter. I am celebrating (because I am lucky enough to have the day off) by going to church, out to lunch and then car shopping. I know car shopping sounds like an odd way to celebrate an important religious holiday, but as some of you know, I'm really not religious by normal standards, I just really love Jesus. So, wish me luck. We sold our "good" car to my sister two months ago because we needed the money, and have... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 11:08:24 EST Recap Well, my math is wrong, it's been just shy of 4 months, not 5 since I've been on here. And that really does make me feel a little better somehow! Strange but true. So, I won't get into any gritty details, but here is a quick rundown of the last 4 months. Grandpa passed away in the middle of December, we took two months to have the funeral. The funeral was mid February, it was hard, but a big relief at the same time. Tim and I were living on the road in his big rig, staying with Mom occasional... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 15:24:11 EST Quick catch up. Just wanted to say hello really quick. It's been a really wild couple of months and I am really looking forward to the New Year. I hope you all have had a lovely holiday. I am looking forward to reading about all of your new adventures in the upcoming year. Love you guys. Hugs. Sun, 29 Dec 2013 22:08:34 EST In Mourning A few hours after I posted my last blog my Mom called me to tell me that my Grandpa had been taken to the ER in Davis. We had the day off, unexpectedly, and rushed over there to see Grandpa, and be support to my Mom. The next few days were spent in the hospital with all of the family members that could make it here. We reminisced about the good old days and laughed, hugged and cried. It was a really great feeling having all of the family around. But slowly, each person had to get back to thei... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 11:48:48 EST Making time for me....?! So I don't know why, or how it's been almost two weeks since I've been able to blog.........OK, that's a lie, I know why and how, I just can't come to terms with what has happened in the last two weeks!!! This is really craziness over here, and I know I'm in the thick of the tornado right now, so I'm a bit overwhelmed. I'm just hoping when it's all over we're in one piece!! <BR> <BR> To start off, Thanksgiving was great. Didn't do any of the great things I said I would do, like track all my... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 02:59:00 EST Flying by Wow these last two weeks have really flown by. Tim took off this whole week also. Tried to work on Monday, finished the short drive, but injured himself and damaged the truck in the process. So we decided he needed another week to heal. He seems to be feeling better. I think his healing process will be much like mine, long and drawn out. Small progress week to week, but needing TLC for quite awhile to really get back in the full swing of things. <BR> <BR> We've been packing this week. We bo... Fri, 22 Nov 2013 21:55:28 EST A new week begins Not too much going on over here. We've been holed up all week trying to heal our injured body parts. My ankle is feeling much better, even took a nice long walk today. Tim's shoulder is getting a bit better too. One day at a time. Looking forward to a small, intimate Thanksgiving celebration spent with my Mom, sister and husband. Planning on tracking all food, and staying in calorie range. If I stay in range I will be so proud of myself. <BR> <BR> Hope you all are doing well. Have a great we... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 20:49:13 EST Hurts Tim seperated his shoulder on Friday night. He's been off of work since then. I feel really bad, he's in quite a lot of pain. He saw a chiropractor, and we ordered a muscle stimulator machine today. He'll go back to the chiropractor on Friday. We are quite the gimpy pair right now. My ankle is nowhere near being fully recovered, and now him with his shoulder...........what a sad sight!! It is odd that both of our injuries kept us from being able to work. Wonder what the message in that is? <B... Wed, 13 Nov 2013 15:58:08 EST Happenings (pics) So, blogging everyday is not necessarily possible under my current situation. I can't believe it's Sunday and I haven't been able to blog since Wednesday. Blogging really does help me sort things out and keeps me focused. But some days I just can't do it. Thursday was spent on the road with hubs. Wanted to stay in Oregon once we got there, as usual. It was quite cool and sprinkling, but just as beautiful as it could possibly be. Friday I spent with my Mom and sister in Bodega Bay and Sepastop... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 14:29:20 EST Interesting Made quite the discovery recently about my eating habits. I've been back to tracking my food daily, for the last 3 or so weeks. I haven't been consistent in this area in a really long time, and am fully convinced that this is crucial to weight loss...........I know, I know, I'm a slow learner. So, what I've learned is that many days I do not eat enough food. I know this sounds bizzare for an overweight person to say, but it is definitely true. I am eating approximately the same way I've eaten... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 21:57:10 EST Taking time to heal Decided to take this week to properly heal. I've been running around like a wild woman trying to figure my life out, and I haven't really been properly addressing the needs of my still tender ankle and knee. So, this week is about rest, water, reading, connecting with God, writing, catching up with friends via phone chats and all around regaining the strength I need for the upcoming move. I will be of no help to myself or hubs if I don't heal this ankle/knee properly, and I just can't do that... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 16:02:16 EST Nitty gritty So, did some serious self facing today. Haven't changed my weight ticker since May of this year. Which means I haven't lost any weight since May of this year. I was under the impression for quite some time that I was the same weight I'd been for the last two years give or take 5 pounds here and there. My scale wasn't working for a few months, so I had no conrete way to track my weight. I went back to my weight tracker from May, and according to what I weighed last Monday, I gained 24 pounds f... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 12:00:51 EST New life I feel instense feelings of love and excitement for my new life! Quitting my job is turning out the be the best thing I've done in years. I am swelling with feelings of excitement for my future. I feel a brand new sense of strength and priority in putting my needs first in life. I have been seeing day by day all of the things I've done in my life that have not honored me. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to say what I mean and mean what I say, and I don't want to talk/think/feel bad ab... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 20:31:39 EST The great unkown Standing at the precipice of the great unkown is me, right here, right now. For the first time in my adult life, I have no idea of what the future holds. I am moving to a place I know very little about. I am completely open about what I will do for a job, I mean COMPLETELY open. I am not even sure, at the very moment, what town, or part of the city we will be settling in. I have my ideas of areas I like better than others, but for the most part all I really know is I will be there, and Tim wi... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 11:41:57 EST So great Just took a stroll through the world of SP, and came across this on Cheryl_Anne's page. Wow, how interesting how life just brings you what you need at the exact time you need it. So happy to be learning about life and myself and others with the help of this gorgeous community. I've searched for a community I could fit into my whole adult life, and never found one, until now. I never imagined it would be an online community. Technology definitely has it's positive place in my heart. Love how i... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 10:59:43 EST Big plans Today was really nice. Spent the day shooting the breeze with my Mother and sister. Got lots of nice gifts from my Aunt; books, jewelry, art, Mikasa dish set, it was like Christmas in October. I felt really spoiled. It was very nice to spend the day with two of my favorite people. I love them so much and feel so much love and support when I'm around them. <BR> <BR> So, the plan of the day, since I don't have a job holding me back, is to give up the apartment and live on the road for a few mo... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 23:23:19 EST Beautiful people I try to be blatantly honest with myself............and by blogging, with others too. And today was hard, downright hard. Uncontrollable outbursts of deep emotions teamed with almost unbearably violent crying. Questioning life, self and God. It wasn't pretty. Not proud at all. But after some music therapy, and support from beautiful friends and family, I do feel a bit better now. <BR> <BR> I did eat TERRIBLY today, which is not good at all. I was on the road with Tim all day, didn't pre-plan... Sat, 26 Oct 2013 00:43:10 EST Aftermath OK, it's started today already. Just got a call from my ex-boss. She hasn't been to work yet, and doesn't know I quit. She was sounding tired, but almost nice. I'm really, really wondering what she is going to do when she finds out I quit. I wonder if she'll call me, or if it's all just water under the bridge. You know, I know that I did the right thing by quitting, because I don't feel bad about it at all. I feel good, really good. I am a little sad to be leaving my clients. But other than t... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 12:23:27 EST Coo-coo crazytown I quit my job today. Yeah, still can't believe it. I 'm in shock. Major shock. Shaking major shock. It feels like leaving an abusive marriage. I made the best of it for way too long, because I love what I do, but it's been bad for awhile, a long while. The straw happened yesterday when I went in to work, hobbling on my bruised, sore and weak busted ankle, because my boss asked me to. When I realized I couldn't work, DUH, I told her and she gave me the most evil look and said some snarky, cold... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 20:18:23 EST My husband says.....and smoking. So, it's just after 7:00 am. I've been up since 6:00 am. For some this is normal, or even for people like my Mom who have to be to work at 5:30 am, 6:00 am is sleeping in. But for me, well, for me this is a VERY unusual thing. So, I'm using this time awake, and alert and excited for the day's adventure to immerse myself in the positivity of SP. <BR> <BR> My husband has been saying, for atleast 6 months now. "If you really want to loose weight, you need to do Sparkpeople. That's the only thin... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 10:31:59 EST All in a day "I can't get enough freggies in the spring/summer, then when fall hits I have to force feed myself to get enough. I love vegetables, I don't know why I'm like this. I think I might need to get a little more creative with my winter veg recipes. " <BR> <BR> Quoted by soulfish80, 2 days ago <BR> <BR> And this morning was spent steaming cabbage and beets and roasting butternut squash. So take that lazy, don't wanna cook self. You can do it, you really can!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-a... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 18:42:16 EST Daily blogging With all my down/homebound hours on my hands, due to this busted ankle, I was inspired to really dig into the SP site today. I haven't done this in a really long time. It lead to hours of reading blogs and articles, taking quizes and eventually doing seated cardio and strength exercises. I can do a walk down memory lane and see all the things that have happened in the last two years that have been a hinderance to my lasting success on SP. One huge hurdle was living without internet for nearly... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 22:16:19 EST Unexpectedness For the last month or so, it's been a series of unexpected pitfalls for my health/body. The horrifying blood donation experience that took nearly a month to recover from, and now this busted ankle that looks to be atleast a full weeks worth of recovery, if not more have just about ruined this last month for me. I'm a bit bummed at the pitfalls, because this weather has me very motivated to exercise. However, I can channel this motivation into planning what it is I will do when I'm well, and i... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 13:10:56 EST Fall Fall has really snuck up on me. Time is whirling by so fast these days. I just wanted to say that all is well here. When there is peace in my home, there is peace in my heart, and all is well on the homefront. Hubby is working hard, as usual, but when he's home we always make time to snuggle and chit chat about what is on our hearts. I love this man so very much, what a blessing to be married to the best friend I've ever had. Truly awesome. <BR> <BR> Been walking, in the living room. Picking... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 00:13:51 EST Warning, diarrhea blog So, I feel a diarrhea blog on my hands. I don't mean a blog about diarrhea, just a babbling blog about life these days. It's due, it's been ruminating, and now it's time! Change of season, better get this broom out and clean up the dusty spots of my meandering soul, and share it all with you ;) <BR> <BR> So, on the 6th of this month I had my blood drawn. I will not go into great details about just how horrible that was (I was donating, so it was a large amount of blood taken) but it was bad... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 16:21:39 EST