SOSIREGIME's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SOSIREGIME SOSIREGIME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Back to working out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742570 I started with a bike ride yesterday, trying to get some practice for an upcoming trip. I've done long trips on flat areas, but yesterday did 15.4 miles on some rolling hills. That was an eye-opener. I clearly need more hill practice. After going for a couple of weeks with no exercise, this may have been a bit much. I didn't sleep very well, had a sore back. Today I will do a little cross-training to help with the soreness and recovery. <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> <em>332</em> Sun, 20 Jul 2014 08:43:57 EST Stressful day, no stress eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740368 Good day - very busy at work doing something that makes me a nervous wreck, but I managed to keep my food sanity. :) Although I didn't work out this morning, I did get a good night's sleep, and I've kept to my calorie range today. <BR> <BR> I added the new quotes app today too - that's going to be a very good motivator I think. <BR> <BR> Off to have one of my favorite desserts - toast and homemade jam. <em>253</em> Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:32:55 EST Day two and all is well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739346 Managed to get through the night with some good food and drink choices! <em>244</em> I tracked my food last night, which is something that I had been avoiding of late. I have been really successful at playing that game where if its not recorded, it didn't happen. Hope to put an end to that. I know I have to if this weight is going to come off. <BR> <BR> We have made plans for the weekend for exercise, and I plan to get back into light workouts tomorrow morning. Tue, 15 Jul 2014 12:22:11 EST Starting over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738785 Inspired by PASKALINI, I've reset my goals, and I'm declaring today a new start. I am worried about tonight as nights are my bad time, but I have recruited spousal help, and I'm feeling pretty determined. Thanks for your good wishes! Mon, 14 Jul 2014 17:00:44 EST Good enough for God http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645472 I could go all kinds of directions with a title like that. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> What I have in mind is revamping a recent goal. I said I would work out every day for 100 days, and I've discovered that I need my rest more than that. So, 6 days out of seven. I'm just getting too exhausted. And I'm not sleeping well. So, here's to being flexible and listening to my body! <BR> <BR> Y'all have a good rest of the week - I'm off for a few days to the beach where I intend to watch what I... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 15:04:29 EST If you don't like starting over, stop giving up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630741 Really. This is supposed to be a lifestyle change. I've got to do better. I've been sick with a throat infection and the residual stuff for about 2 weeks. It's like somebody gave me a license to abuse my body. I've been very bad. <BR> <BR> Bad Sosi. Time to reform. A priest once told me that the word "conversion" denotes a continual turning back toward the good. I like this definition; in my experience converting ourselves is a constant process. Time to get back on that wheel of cha... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 10:38:05 EST Other rewards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612938 When I first started using SparkPeople, I think part of my success came from learning how to reward myself without using food. Yesterday, after a week of snow and ice, the sun was out! And I was actually sunbathing on my deck. Temps were in the low 60's and will be there again today. Crazy Alabama weather! Sitting there in the sun felt so good, and made me feel so good for a while afterwards. A good reward for the workout I'd done earlier. I was thinking about other rewards I could try... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 10:51:21 EST Nighttime is the wrong time for snacking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599904 I have got to get a handle on nighttime eating. Last night, I basically screwed up a really good day. All it took was an argument and some worry over my mom's surgery, and I hoovered up a serving of pecan log, a truffle ball, and way too much red wine. Aaaaargh. <BR> <BR> I think it may be time to re-post some inspirational quotes around my kitchen. Or maybe hire someone to slap me whenever I walk in there after dinner. <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> Today will be better. Mon, 20 Jan 2014 10:12:23 EST Braced for success! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593625 I got braces last week, and that has been a big change! The pain, the change in my diet, the difficulty in sleeping -- I've just stopped working out. This is not good, especially after a 10-lb. gain since October. I am hopeful that tonight I can sleep without the sleep aids. Those just ruin my morning liveliness; I cannot get up and work out when I use those. The pain is better until I eat. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> My consumption of vegetables concerns me - I haven't been able to chew ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 13:25:44 EST Glad it's Sunday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5569999 I'm always glad when Sunday rolls around - seems like a good day to start over. I start over a lot. But that's better than stopping, right? It's been a good day, and that inspires me. I hope that this week is easier than I think it's going to be, but at least I feel strong right now. <BR> <BR> I have decided that no matter what exercise must happen this week. I'm sure desserts will be in my face a lot; working out will make me feel more in control. I've got my running shoes and worko... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 17:45:12 EST A small stumble http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557363 Had a really emotional couple of days due to some family issues. I did manage to do well at an office party yesterday, but last night I ate that piece of pecan pie that's been taunting me in the fridge. Not a huge deal - I will do better today. One of the things I hope I've learned is that I have to be forgiving to myself. Since I didn't work out yesterday either, I've changed my plans for the week - I'll get a workout in on Saturday morning, which had been my skip day. <BR> <BR> Ok, dee... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 07:10:09 EST On the other side of something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550248 Have you ever noticed that after a few days of dedicated working out and tracking, of watching what you eat, suddenly your body seems to want what you want? I mean, tonight after I worked out, it hit me that today for the first time in a long time, I had no cravings for junk food. My body wants good food. I didn't have that desire to eat mindlessly that has been bugging me for weeks. Such a relief! And such an encouragement! <BR> <BR> I do think I remember this happening before. Back... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 21:30:33 EST Let's not talk (much) about last night. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548368 I did not eat a chinese buffet last night. That's what I tracked because I feel like the amount of food I ate was outrageous and embarrassing. I found that if I choose "chinese buffet," I can get a huge calorie count without all the entering. I don't even want to think about what the real numbers might be. I'm not turning the page to look back. So, this morning, we try again. <BR> <BR> All in all it has been a good week. I've worked out, or will have after today, 5 of the 7 days - a re... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 11:22:53 EST Today is not a loss. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5544606 So. Today I didn't work out. Neighbors' generators for hours in the middle of the night. I thought getting a little more sleep was better in the long run. Do I regret that? Yes. <BR> <BR> And my husband was on the bike when I got home - so proud of him! So, I have tried to make today a good day. <BR> <BR> What did I do right today? <BR> <BR> I watched what I ate. <BR> I didn't go near those candy bowls. <BR> And when I found myself working at the file cabinets, I used the oppor... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 19:03:26 EST At least I know where square one is. :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543552 So - it's been a while. Three weeks of vacation resulted in 10 lbs. of weight gain. I've lost 5 of that. I've been tracking a little, working out not very much, and being oddly sick for about 2 weeks. I'm really bothered about the sickness - I'm usually a person who feels pretty good. The doctor can't find anything wrong with me. So. Today I have declared this to be over. Back to square one. <BR> <BR> Healthy, tracked eating. Exercising daily. Sleep. Cutting out the drinks and win... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 15:15:29 EST One year and 20+ pounds - Thank you, SparkPeople! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409687 It's my Sparkiversary! Last May, I weighed 167lbs. I was depressed, and my body had begun to hurt in ways that worried me. I was drinking almost every night and feeling pretty hopeless about ever being able to turn it around. <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed 143 pounds. <BR> This morning I woke up rested. <BR> This morning I woke up with a plan to be fit and healthy. <BR> <BR> The biggest change you might notice if you know me is my size and my energy. The biggest change I notice, you... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 13:29:17 EST Why do I feel like I need a food weekend? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408397 I had company this weekend; we went out to eat, and I have to say, I was pretty good. Ate half my portion, did not order dessert, avoided wine, etc. I managed to keep my calorie count down both days. Last night, however, was a blowout. <BR> <BR> And I planned it. <BR> And I looked forward to it. <BR> And of course I regret it now. <BR> <BR> My thinking went something like - Wow, I need a break. My weekend wasn't really a weekend. I didn't get to relax, really. I'm going to relax t... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 09:58:07 EST The slow conversion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399033 I'm trying not to be so hard on myself, but it's time to get back to it! Since my post a couple days ago, I've been doing better, but not great. (I really don't enjoy eating out any more - too many potential disasters at every place you go!) Yesterday, just because I've been sedentary for a week, I decided to use housework and yard work as my exercises; and let me tell you, I was tired! It's really amazing how quickly my body resorts to taking it easy. <em>198</em> <BR> Today is the ... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 11:09:27 EST I seem to be repeating myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5396124 So it's like that last blog entry about hating yo-yo-ing never happened. <em>40</em> Time to get serious again - I'm coming on a Spark-iversary! I clearly haven't figured out though how to deal successfully when my routine gets shaken. Last week I was knee-deep in a conference I plan each year; with very odd hours, I decided sleep and diet were most important, and I opted not to try to exercise, too. I don't think that was a bad move - the bad part was when I "rewarded" myself with s... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 09:36:34 EST Being sick sucks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313534 I've been under the weather this week. Do you work out when you are sick? Sometimes I try to, but most times I think I should just let my body try to heal. I feel mostly better today, so I think it's "back in the saddle" day. We'll see. Just had a healthy breakfast. <BR> Had sort of a blowout last night - too much wine and cake, but I felt like having a Friday. Sometimes I think having one meal a week where I just eat what I want is a good thing. So far, I haven't gotten too far of... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 10:56:05 EST Spring Break is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297069 I work at a university, and when the "kids" are away, my coworkers and I make many opportunities for poor eating by visiting local restaurants at lunch. I managed to avoid eating awfully this week, but a couple of times it was not good. I'm glad to see this week end. I feel like I need to be a part of things and be present to my colleagues and take part in the fun, and I did try to make good or at least better choices at the places we visited. I did do some advance planning. I guess I s... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 10:33:59 EST Who was that? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281063 Was that me mindlessly eating sweets last night after my husband went to bed? Did I open the freezer and dig out leftover fruitcake? Did I eat cereal? Did I eat M&M's? What is up with mindless late-night eating!? <BR> <BR> Sometimes lately, I catch myself doing this - I say catch myself, but I don't. It's almost like being in some sort of trance where I give myself permission to go crazy. I was actually justifying the health benefits of sugar to myself. And this is not a case of eat... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 11:23:07 EST No time like the present http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280193 One of the lessons I've been trying to learn is the value of living in the moment, taking time to enjoy the weather, the sounds, the sights, and all the feelings that come with living. I used to eat so fast and so distractedly - I'd consume bags of chips, boxes of cereals, sleeves of cookies, and nothing really tasted that good. I've learned on SP that eating mindfully can really change your life - I've seen it work. <BR> <BR> I still get those urges sometimes to eat a lot just for the sake... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 14:27:09 EST Back to Reality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203926 I've been working out in la-la land. Merrily accumulating huge calorie counts that were bogus! I'm perturbed. <BR> <BR> One of my holiday gifts was a gift certificate with which I purchased the Polar FT4 heart rate monitor. So today I wore it for the first time. I totally trust this thing, which is good. The bad thing is that the calories I've been adding to SP, based on my stationary bike's read-out - are TOTALLY WRONG. Like about 50% off. Part of me knew those numbers were too good ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 17:17:52 EST One week later . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192132 Eh . . . not such a great week. I gave in to some binge eating with New Year's and the disappearance of some long-term house guests. And I've got some sort of sinus thing going on -- feeling bad just makes me want to munch. However .. . <BR> Today was a great day - good food, good workout, good times. It really helped me in my workout to listen to some upbeat music. I forget sometimes what a mood changer that can be. So, onward and upward. <BR> I learned today from ~INDYGIRL about H... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 20:21:16 EST And . . . we're back. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179716 I've been on vacation, then to my folks' for the holidays. Much damage was done. However, while on vacation, I did do some running for the first time in a very long time, with no bad results. I had to give up running some years ago - it just hurt and was uncomfortable. I carry a lot of weight in my hips and thighs, and running was hard on my knees. So, this hotel had no fitness room, and I just got out and ran. The second day, I ran across this bridge in Beaufort, SC - I felt like Rocky... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 10:47:01 EST 24! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5126135 I've always liked this number because it is my birthday. Now I love it! Today, I reached my initial goal weight set on July 3!!!!!!!! I've lost 24 official pounds. What you don't know is that my weight a few weeks prior to July 3 was 3 lbs. more, so I'm actually at 27 pounds down!! While I've revised that goal downward, I have to say that this number is a real milestone for me. I'm so happy. I really never thought this could happen, and now that I've done SparkPeople for a while, it rea... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 12:11:18 EST Predictably, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119563 I have plateaued. I knew this would happen. I sort of saw it coming - I discovered I could cheat a little on the calories with no great effect. Vacation and now Halloween and working late two nights in a row -- these things are not helping. I was relatively good on vacation - proud of that; but the last few days at work have been hard. Candy is everywhere!!! And when I get home, supper's been so long ago, I'm hungry. I'm trying not to eat too much, but I've got to have something. <BR... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 21:28:22 EST Photo ID's at work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5069729 Today I had my picture taken for a photo ID at work. You can see it on my page. I have cheekbones, sort of. :) I like this picture because I know what I looked like a few months ago. I like my short hair and the light I see in my eyes. It looks like me. <BR> <BR> And maybe I'm the only one that sees it. I showed it to my friend, and he said, it's not the best picture of you. Maybe not, but it seems like the truest. That was my first thought. I feel truer to me since I started her... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 22:22:28 EST Meanness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050906 Did you ever have someone say something to you that just unraveled all your desire for any sort of successful day? Having set myself up to succeed today - time for workout scheduled, healthy food in the house, chores done yesterday -- I was not ready to be derailed. Now I just don't care about this day or these plans or anything in particular. Deflated, thrown. And the person who said it is supposed to be my best friend. <BR> <BR> How am I supposed to get back on this horse? I just fee... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 11:32:58 EST I said no. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5044764 Today I told someone no when they asked me to do something. <BR> <BR> ******************************** <BR> <BR> I'm not sure you understand what a big deal that is. Claiming my space, owning my life and what I can handle, not giving into polite pressure to add one. more. thing. to a life that feels busy enough -- this makes me happy tonight. I feel strong, and while I hate to have disappointed that person, I know this was the right decision for me. <BR> <BR> Tue, 4 Sep 2012 22:40:04 EST Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5041389 I feel better than I have in a long, long time. I can't quite believe that I've lost almost 20 pounds. Better than looking at the scale is the way that I feel on a daily basis. I feel like I've got some control over myself. I'm not scaling the heights of rigid dieting and then falling off the cliff. I'm just doing what I need to do every single day. Taking care of me. If you had told me on July 3 that my life was about to change to this degree, I would have said, "Yeah, been there, don... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 16:21:40 EST Close only counts in horseshoes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5021734 I just read an article here about how important it is to measure food and use correct portion sizes. I've noticed that as I'm becoming successful in my quest to lose weight and get fit, I've a tendency to step away from my good habits of journal-ing and keeping close track of what I eat. This is a dangerous thing. Today I'm making a new resolution to be vigilant, because I've learned so much about my eating habits from writing everything down. And I've learned where I need to be cautious.... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 11:43:03 EST Staying on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005851 Even though I'm working out more than I was, and even though I've seen some delightful weight loss, I feel like I'm getting off track a little. I visited with my family this weekend, and I did well, considering things like scalloped potatoes made with heavy whipping cream! Geez! It still felt like I messed up some; and it was a little anxiety-filled. I don't like being faced with food and made to feel like I'm being rude or weird or superior when I don't want to eat it. I'm trying to mak... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 22:26:35 EST Letting myself go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4988528 "She's really letting herself go." I hear that phrase in a Southern accent. It's usually directed at someone who has not dressed and put on makeup to go the grocery store. Someone deemed to be overweight and out of control. And it's usually whispered. <BR> <BR> Giving up control was so easy to do. I don't remember exactly when it happened, but I think it coincided with 15. Getting so focused on my worries, my stress at work or school, the people in my life made/makes me eat emotionally,... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 22:21:44 EST Hors d'oeuvres anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4981709 I have been doing this (trying to eat better, exercise, seek community here) for 19 days. It feels good, and I really like the changes I can already see and feel. I feel as if I'm making some fundamental changes in my relation to food, which has always been a problem for me. And I'm seeing exercise as more than a reason to eat. (You know, hey, I did 30 minutes on the bike - I can eat these chips.) What I'm noticing that I don't like is some real anxiety related to going out and being soc... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 13:00:47 EST Who wears the old pants in my family? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4977479 I do! So, I'm one of those people who save clothes. You know, in the hopes that I will get back into them because one day I will. I know that you know no one who does this. This has never worked --- until today! So what if I'm out of fashion?! <em>9</em> <BR> I am finding it easier each day to deal with smaller portions, after-dinner cravings, and the idea of dessert. This is, more than the pants, what I wanted from this experience. I've even started warning my mother about my nex... Thu, 19 Jul 2012 09:42:25 EST Progress and roadblocks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970226 I can't tell you how much better I feel in just 11 days here. The amount of work involved in keeping up with my food took a little adjusting to, but for the first time in a long time, I am voluntarily not cleaning my plate and going for seconds. I am not having that 2nd glass of wine. I ate half of my lunch plate today from Whole Foods -- half! This is huge for me. I have been fixated on food for so many years. A coworker and I were describing our food habits as addictions, and perhaps ... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 16:27:50 EST Fasting 12 hours http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4964430 I've been trying to be finished with dinner by 7:00 each night so as to get in a good fast overnight while I'm sleeping. I really think I've been sleeping better, but I fantasize about breakfast. <em>4</em> My diet has definitely been more healthful of late, and I think it's rubbing off on my husband. Now if could just get him to leave off the snacks after dinner - that's hard to put up with. Seeing him munch on something is not easy. Someone suggested hot tea, so I think I'll try that... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 19:52:09 EST Potlucks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4961071 Tonight we went to dinner at a friend's house - potluck. Not a disaster, but not great either. There was no getting around the table without sour cream, bread, and cheese. I did take some green beans, so there was that, but I had to sample - everyone was commenting on everyone's dishes. I felt compelled. I kept my portions really small, especially with things that were hard to identify, but gee whiz. I'm glad I ate relatively well the rest of today. And no wine tonight. I think I'll h... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 20:04:04 EST Weekends and Bored eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959455 Weekends seem easier as far as snacking goes but harder because I want to have a glass of wine or another kind of drink. Have to plan for those. Being diligent with the tracking really helps - who knew there were so many calories in boneless, skinless chicken breast? <BR> <BR> On another note, I noticed on Friday afternoon - ready to leave work, antsy - that I had a really strong urge to snack -- and I didn't! This is a big deal. :) Paying attention means a lot - I've been doing a lot ... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 15:43:46 EST Conscientious Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4956681 SparkPeople is making me really think about food, in a way that I have not in several years. It really makes a difference in that kind of mindless eating that I'm prone to. I'm thinking about adding a goal about eating without distractions, because that seems to be the next logical step. Mindful eating is hard to accomplish while reading, listening to the radio, or watching TV. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thu, 5 Jul 2012 15:02:08 EST Workout #1 - in the books http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955361 Ok - I feel better. :) Sometimes when I don't work out for a while, I really dread working out. I was also worried about my toe, but it did ok. Now, it will be harder to make excuses tomorrow. Wed, 4 Jul 2012 16:54:01 EST This is supposed to help, right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955244 So, writing about diet and exercise is supposed to help with diet and exercise. Ok. So, today is really day one, I suppose, though I did enter all my food from yesterday (yikes!). So far, I can see that just keeping track of things is going to be a big help and a big guilt inducer. I think I will try to get my husband into this too; we could both stand some portion control. <BR> <BR> You know I usually do pretty well until my folks visit or until it's a holiday or a good day (Friday!... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 14:57:10 EST