SOSIREGIME's SparkPeople Blog SOSIREGIME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 3 of a New Me? Yesterday I ate a brownie, and I have no memory of it. This is not eating mindfully, which I'm convinced is key to my doing better at weight loss. I eat emotionally, and many times, that emotion is boredom. It happens at work, cf. brownie incident. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I also screwed up a little eating crackers left in the breakroom. I really have little self control. Again, not mindful. <BR> <BR> Today has been better. I consciously and mindfully ate some licorice and stayed within... Tue, 17 Apr 2018 18:02:05 EST Morning pep talk! My lunch and dinner are packed. Food is tracked. It's going to be an awesome day! <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> More later . . . Mon, 16 Apr 2018 10:31:42 EST My Annual Blog Post So, here I am again with my annual blog post about how I've gained weight, am dissatisfied with myself, am less fit, etc. Blah, blah, blah. I bore myself, and you too! Looking back, it's sad and funny how this happens about once a year. <BR> <BR> But seriously. . . I have a goal in mind to lose 1 to 1.5 pounds per week for the next 8 months. Surely that is not unrealistic. It's long term; it's moderate, and it's doable. Right now, today, I feel so out of shape that the prospect of work... Sun, 15 Apr 2018 16:15:25 EST Stopping What Works . . . makes no sense. Notice how I show up here to blog about once a year? That's usually how long it takes me to totally screw up again. Things I love about working out: <BR> <BR> - confidence <BR> - comfort - I just feel better moving around in my body and knowing that others value what I value <BR> - strength - I really enjoy being strong and being able to do things <BR> - energy <BR> <BR> Things I love about SP: All of the above. <BR> <BR> So why do I stop? Usually it's when some event... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 11:18:04 EST Wow - it's been a while! I didn't realize it had been so long since I wrote - time flies when you are having fun, working hard, and loving life. <em>524</em> <BR> <BR> Every day (almost) I make a decision to keep going, to keep learning, to keep trying to get my eating under control. I usually fare pretty well, but then tumble one or two days a week with poor evening eating. I read a book recently that made much of learning to feel when you are satisfied and stopping eating at that point. This is a new goal ... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 15:11:30 EST Aaaaaaarrrrgh. I'm very discouraged today about my weight. I exercised like a fiend on my vacation last week. Lots of great biking - so much fun! And I still managed to gain weight. I think it might be time for a trainer. More later, maybe. I'm off to home to cook a healthful dinner. Tue, 28 Jul 2015 18:58:22 EST A better week I did much better monitoring my eating this week and staying on track. Cut back on the wine and slept better as a result. Still have to get back to working out. I hope to give you an update later this morning. Last night was a bit of blowout, but we were feeling celebratory. <BR> <BR> Plan for the next week: Alternating biking and walking and getting in a little weightlifting. Continuing to watch my eating. <BR> <BR> One thing I've noticed this week is that if I stay out of the kitc... Sat, 27 Jun 2015 09:23:57 EST Waterloo - it happens Ok - no more grandiose designs. No more diets. No more excuses. I have got to get this thing back under control. And by "thing" I mean my butt. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Seriously, I have got to lose some pounds, and I have a deadline. We are going on a biking trip this fall. I already have the pants for the colder climes. Problem? I can't get into 'em!!!! Inspiration in the form of necessity. <em>332</em> <BR> <BR> It seems like in all my time here, the only thing that has ... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 12:24:39 EST Day 74: I had to count the days I haven't been very good lately about tracking. Got to get back on track. I'm determined to do that today. <BR> <BR> Exercise has been interesting in its absence this week. I really overdid it last Sunday. I did a 45-mile bike ride the week before, so Sunday I was shooting for more. We did 50 miles on a pretty flat trail, but the headwinds! By the time we were done I had burned 2000 calories per my heart-rate monitor. Felt pretty good about that until the next day. <BR> <BR> Clearl... Sun, 3 May 2015 13:06:35 EST Day 91: Mistakes will be made So, nobody's perfect. I get that. But I was really hoping to avoid mindless eating. Yesterday - work party - doughnuts. I knew I shouldn't eat one, but I tried it anyway. And then cake, and then a cookie. This is what sugar does to me anymore. It's like I lose all inhibition when I go down that path. <BR> <BR> I've got to stay off that path! So, today, I don't feel so great. I'm blaming the sugar. And I need to work out when I get home, and I don't want to. And I feel like a bit... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 15:51:53 EST Day 95 - Really? 6 days! Good day so far. Just returned from an 11-mile ride. Here in my neighborhood that's not so easy. Lots of hills. It's really my favorite kind of exercise. We stopped on the ride at the local library to eat a snack. Dates and nuts and bananas. Really energized us for the ride home. <BR> <BR> Spring has sprung here, as they say, and the azaleas and other flowers are just gorgeous. Birds are singing and showing off. Lovely day. <BR> <BR> Hope you all are having a great Sunday! <BR> ... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 14:25:34 EST Day 96 & Day 97: Back on the horse - 8 days in! Yesterday was a sick day. I get these migraines, and I was a wreck. I did do some tracking yesterday, but no exercise. I'm not going to beat myself up. Anyway, today is a new day. <em>67</em> And I got things to do! <BR> <BR> It was interesting this week to go back and look at my exercise over the past few months. It was an eye-opener, and I realize I need to do that kind of look back more often. I discovered I've been taking weeks off at a time, almost every other week. I didn... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 09:33:37 EST Day 95: 6 days in and a surprise! Today was the weigh-out day for a work-sponsored weight loss initiative. I have been convinced that I was losing no weight based on my home scales. Today I found out I lost almost 5! I'm so happy about this - I was seriously wondering what was wrong with me. I've been pretty good lately. <BR> <BR> So, then, we had a little party (unconnected to the event) at work, and I sort of overdid it. But -- I knew what I was doing. I was not bingeing in my classic way - mindlessly and with abando... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 18:05:40 EST Day 96: 5 days in I'm feeling pretty good about today. I have a migraine (mine are never super bad), and I got up and worked out a little anyway. I actually think that helped. It was a light workout and some stretching. I'm about to head home from work, get the taxes taken care of, and have a good dinner. <BR> <BR> If you are reading this -- sorry this is so mundane! But it really helps me to blog. It makes me feel accountable to know that someone is listening to me. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I als... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 17:36:54 EST 97: 4 days in Good workout this morning - I planned for it last night and had some mint tea waiting to perk me up. The kitties and I have been in the basement watching the news and lifting a little. It's good to feel muscle tired before work. I think it helps me concentrate at my desk job. <BR> <BR> Hope you all have a good day - I intend to! More later . . . . Tue, 7 Apr 2015 07:52:17 EST Day 98: 3 days in I have decided I need an audacious goal. I keep treating my lifestyle choices as a "diet" or a temporary deprivation. I know this is wrong. So . . . <BR> <BR> 100 days - of eating better, of exercising, of making me a priority, or not listening to my food saboteurs. I was telling my husband that keeping to a healthy lifestyle would be so much easier if everyone I knew thought that I had a medical condition requiring a special diet. That's sad, but true. I want to feel protective of m... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 11:20:47 EST So clearly I've been gone a while . . . I'm not sure what happened last fall. I went on THE BEST vacation biking around Germany and Austria. Loved it! Felt so fit! <BR> <BR> Then came home and proceeded to do nothing but eat for the next 3 months. <BR> <BR> This is a good recipe, by the way, if you need one, for packing on the pounds. But still, I didn't think it was so bad. I've been doing well the last two weeks, thanks to SparkPeople and the inspiring examples set by my friends here. Been working out some, really been ... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 18:23:08 EST Breaking this plateau! Ok - I've tried exercising a lot, but my eating has not been under control, so I'm trying something new. I'm going to cut down on carbs - this has worked for me before. It's also good discipline to try something new - to adhere to the rules and to have that as a commitment and an accomplishment. This new way of eating is interesting enough that I think I can do this for a while at least! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a successful day despite eating out last night. I exercised, cleaned house, p... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 09:36:00 EST Plateau I'm irritated because my weight has been stuck for a week. I have been being more disciplined in my eating, but apparently not disciplined enough. It's tempting to think of starting a no-carb diet or something similarly harsh, but I know that's not the way to do things. <BR> <BR> I still think that nighttime is the bad time for me. I've been trying this week to make my desserts low calorie and filling. But I also still find myself thinking of eating at the end of the workday as a sort ... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 13:45:34 EST Back to working out I started with a bike ride yesterday, trying to get some practice for an upcoming trip. I've done long trips on flat areas, but yesterday did 15.4 miles on some rolling hills. That was an eye-opener. I clearly need more hill practice. After going for a couple of weeks with no exercise, this may have been a bit much. I didn't sleep very well, had a sore back. Today I will do a little cross-training to help with the soreness and recovery. <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> <em>332</em> Sun, 20 Jul 2014 08:43:57 EST Stressful day, no stress eating Good day - very busy at work doing something that makes me a nervous wreck, but I managed to keep my food sanity. :) Although I didn't work out this morning, I did get a good night's sleep, and I've kept to my calorie range today. <BR> <BR> I added the new quotes app today too - that's going to be a very good motivator I think. <BR> <BR> Off to have one of my favorite desserts - toast and homemade jam. <em>253</em> Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:32:55 EST Day two and all is well Managed to get through the night with some good food and drink choices! <em>244</em> I tracked my food last night, which is something that I had been avoiding of late. I have been really successful at playing that game where if its not recorded, it didn't happen. Hope to put an end to that. I know I have to if this weight is going to come off. <BR> <BR> We have made plans for the weekend for exercise, and I plan to get back into light workouts tomorrow morning. Tue, 15 Jul 2014 12:22:11 EST Starting over Inspired by PASKALINI, I've reset my goals, and I'm declaring today a new start. I am worried about tonight as nights are my bad time, but I have recruited spousal help, and I'm feeling pretty determined. Thanks for your good wishes! Mon, 14 Jul 2014 17:00:44 EST Good enough for God I could go all kinds of directions with a title like that. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> What I have in mind is revamping a recent goal. I said I would work out every day for 100 days, and I've discovered that I need my rest more than that. So, 6 days out of seven. I'm just getting too exhausted. And I'm not sleeping well. So, here's to being flexible and listening to my body! <BR> <BR> Y'all have a good rest of the week - I'm off for a few days to the beach where I intend to watch what I... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 15:04:29 EST If you don't like starting over, stop giving up. Really. This is supposed to be a lifestyle change. I've got to do better. I've been sick with a throat infection and the residual stuff for about 2 weeks. It's like somebody gave me a license to abuse my body. I've been very bad. <BR> <BR> Bad Sosi. Time to reform. A priest once told me that the word "conversion" denotes a continual turning back toward the good. I like this definition; in my experience converting ourselves is a constant process. Time to get back on that wheel of cha... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 10:38:05 EST Other rewards When I first started using SparkPeople, I think part of my success came from learning how to reward myself without using food. Yesterday, after a week of snow and ice, the sun was out! And I was actually sunbathing on my deck. Temps were in the low 60's and will be there again today. Crazy Alabama weather! Sitting there in the sun felt so good, and made me feel so good for a while afterwards. A good reward for the workout I'd done earlier. I was thinking about other rewards I could try... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 10:51:21 EST Nighttime is the wrong time for snacking! I have got to get a handle on nighttime eating. Last night, I basically screwed up a really good day. All it took was an argument and some worry over my mom's surgery, and I hoovered up a serving of pecan log, a truffle ball, and way too much red wine. Aaaaargh. <BR> <BR> I think it may be time to re-post some inspirational quotes around my kitchen. Or maybe hire someone to slap me whenever I walk in there after dinner. <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> Today will be better. Mon, 20 Jan 2014 10:12:23 EST Braced for success! I got braces last week, and that has been a big change! The pain, the change in my diet, the difficulty in sleeping -- I've just stopped working out. This is not good, especially after a 10-lb. gain since October. I am hopeful that tonight I can sleep without the sleep aids. Those just ruin my morning liveliness; I cannot get up and work out when I use those. The pain is better until I eat. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> My consumption of vegetables concerns me - I haven't been able to chew ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 13:25:44 EST Glad it's Sunday! I'm always glad when Sunday rolls around - seems like a good day to start over. I start over a lot. But that's better than stopping, right? It's been a good day, and that inspires me. I hope that this week is easier than I think it's going to be, but at least I feel strong right now. <BR> <BR> I have decided that no matter what exercise must happen this week. I'm sure desserts will be in my face a lot; working out will make me feel more in control. I've got my running shoes and worko... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 17:45:12 EST A small stumble Had a really emotional couple of days due to some family issues. I did manage to do well at an office party yesterday, but last night I ate that piece of pecan pie that's been taunting me in the fridge. Not a huge deal - I will do better today. One of the things I hope I've learned is that I have to be forgiving to myself. Since I didn't work out yesterday either, I've changed my plans for the week - I'll get a workout in on Saturday morning, which had been my skip day. <BR> <BR> Ok, dee... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 07:10:09 EST On the other side of something Have you ever noticed that after a few days of dedicated working out and tracking, of watching what you eat, suddenly your body seems to want what you want? I mean, tonight after I worked out, it hit me that today for the first time in a long time, I had no cravings for junk food. My body wants good food. I didn't have that desire to eat mindlessly that has been bugging me for weeks. Such a relief! And such an encouragement! <BR> <BR> I do think I remember this happening before. Back... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 21:30:33 EST Let's not talk (much) about last night. I did not eat a chinese buffet last night. That's what I tracked because I feel like the amount of food I ate was outrageous and embarrassing. I found that if I choose "chinese buffet," I can get a huge calorie count without all the entering. I don't even want to think about what the real numbers might be. I'm not turning the page to look back. So, this morning, we try again. <BR> <BR> All in all it has been a good week. I've worked out, or will have after today, 5 of the 7 days - a re... Sat, 23 Nov 2013 11:22:53 EST Today is not a loss. So. Today I didn't work out. Neighbors' generators for hours in the middle of the night. I thought getting a little more sleep was better in the long run. Do I regret that? Yes. <BR> <BR> And my husband was on the bike when I got home - so proud of him! So, I have tried to make today a good day. <BR> <BR> What did I do right today? <BR> <BR> I watched what I ate. <BR> I didn't go near those candy bowls. <BR> And when I found myself working at the file cabinets, I used the oppor... Mon, 18 Nov 2013 19:03:26 EST At least I know where square one is. :) So - it's been a while. Three weeks of vacation resulted in 10 lbs. of weight gain. I've lost 5 of that. I've been tracking a little, working out not very much, and being oddly sick for about 2 weeks. I'm really bothered about the sickness - I'm usually a person who feels pretty good. The doctor can't find anything wrong with me. So. Today I have declared this to be over. Back to square one. <BR> <BR> Healthy, tracked eating. Exercising daily. Sleep. Cutting out the drinks and win... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 15:15:29 EST One year and 20+ pounds - Thank you, SparkPeople! It's my Sparkiversary! Last May, I weighed 167lbs. I was depressed, and my body had begun to hurt in ways that worried me. I was drinking almost every night and feeling pretty hopeless about ever being able to turn it around. <BR> <BR> This morning I weighed 143 pounds. <BR> This morning I woke up rested. <BR> This morning I woke up with a plan to be fit and healthy. <BR> <BR> The biggest change you might notice if you know me is my size and my energy. The biggest change I notice, you... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 13:29:17 EST Why do I feel like I need a food weekend? I had company this weekend; we went out to eat, and I have to say, I was pretty good. Ate half my portion, did not order dessert, avoided wine, etc. I managed to keep my calorie count down both days. Last night, however, was a blowout. <BR> <BR> And I planned it. <BR> And I looked forward to it. <BR> And of course I regret it now. <BR> <BR> My thinking went something like - Wow, I need a break. My weekend wasn't really a weekend. I didn't get to relax, really. I'm going to relax t... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 09:58:07 EST The slow conversion I'm trying not to be so hard on myself, but it's time to get back to it! Since my post a couple days ago, I've been doing better, but not great. (I really don't enjoy eating out any more - too many potential disasters at every place you go!) Yesterday, just because I've been sedentary for a week, I decided to use housework and yard work as my exercises; and let me tell you, I was tired! It's really amazing how quickly my body resorts to taking it easy. <em>198</em> <BR> Today is the ... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 11:09:27 EST I seem to be repeating myself. So it's like that last blog entry about hating yo-yo-ing never happened. <em>40</em> Time to get serious again - I'm coming on a Spark-iversary! I clearly haven't figured out though how to deal successfully when my routine gets shaken. Last week I was knee-deep in a conference I plan each year; with very odd hours, I decided sleep and diet were most important, and I opted not to try to exercise, too. I don't think that was a bad move - the bad part was when I "rewarded" myself with s... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 09:36:34 EST Being sick sucks I've been under the weather this week. Do you work out when you are sick? Sometimes I try to, but most times I think I should just let my body try to heal. I feel mostly better today, so I think it's "back in the saddle" day. We'll see. Just had a healthy breakfast. <BR> Had sort of a blowout last night - too much wine and cake, but I felt like having a Friday. Sometimes I think having one meal a week where I just eat what I want is a good thing. So far, I haven't gotten too far of... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 10:56:05 EST Spring Break is over! I work at a university, and when the "kids" are away, my coworkers and I make many opportunities for poor eating by visiting local restaurants at lunch. I managed to avoid eating awfully this week, but a couple of times it was not good. I'm glad to see this week end. I feel like I need to be a part of things and be present to my colleagues and take part in the fun, and I did try to make good or at least better choices at the places we visited. I did do some advance planning. I guess I s... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 10:33:59 EST Who was that? Was that me mindlessly eating sweets last night after my husband went to bed? Did I open the freezer and dig out leftover fruitcake? Did I eat cereal? Did I eat M&M's? What is up with mindless late-night eating!? <BR> <BR> Sometimes lately, I catch myself doing this - I say catch myself, but I don't. It's almost like being in some sort of trance where I give myself permission to go crazy. I was actually justifying the health benefits of sugar to myself. And this is not a case of eat... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 11:23:07 EST No time like the present One of the lessons I've been trying to learn is the value of living in the moment, taking time to enjoy the weather, the sounds, the sights, and all the feelings that come with living. I used to eat so fast and so distractedly - I'd consume bags of chips, boxes of cereals, sleeves of cookies, and nothing really tasted that good. I've learned on SP that eating mindfully can really change your life - I've seen it work. <BR> <BR> I still get those urges sometimes to eat a lot just for the sake... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 14:27:09 EST Back to Reality I've been working out in la-la land. Merrily accumulating huge calorie counts that were bogus! I'm perturbed. <BR> <BR> One of my holiday gifts was a gift certificate with which I purchased the Polar FT4 heart rate monitor. So today I wore it for the first time. I totally trust this thing, which is good. The bad thing is that the calories I've been adding to SP, based on my stationary bike's read-out - are TOTALLY WRONG. Like about 50% off. Part of me knew those numbers were too good ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 17:17:52 EST One week later . . . Eh . . . not such a great week. I gave in to some binge eating with New Year's and the disappearance of some long-term house guests. And I've got some sort of sinus thing going on -- feeling bad just makes me want to munch. However .. . <BR> Today was a great day - good food, good workout, good times. It really helped me in my workout to listen to some upbeat music. I forget sometimes what a mood changer that can be. So, onward and upward. <BR> I learned today from ~INDYGIRL about H... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 20:21:16 EST And . . . we're back. I've been on vacation, then to my folks' for the holidays. Much damage was done. However, while on vacation, I did do some running for the first time in a very long time, with no bad results. I had to give up running some years ago - it just hurt and was uncomfortable. I carry a lot of weight in my hips and thighs, and running was hard on my knees. So, this hotel had no fitness room, and I just got out and ran. The second day, I ran across this bridge in Beaufort, SC - I felt like Rocky... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 10:47:01 EST 24! I've always liked this number because it is my birthday. Now I love it! Today, I reached my initial goal weight set on July 3!!!!!!!! I've lost 24 official pounds. What you don't know is that my weight a few weeks prior to July 3 was 3 lbs. more, so I'm actually at 27 pounds down!! While I've revised that goal downward, I have to say that this number is a real milestone for me. I'm so happy. I really never thought this could happen, and now that I've done SparkPeople for a while, it rea... Tue, 6 Nov 2012 12:11:18 EST Predictably, I have plateaued. I knew this would happen. I sort of saw it coming - I discovered I could cheat a little on the calories with no great effect. Vacation and now Halloween and working late two nights in a row -- these things are not helping. I was relatively good on vacation - proud of that; but the last few days at work have been hard. Candy is everywhere!!! And when I get home, supper's been so long ago, I'm hungry. I'm trying not to eat too much, but I've got to have something. <BR... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 21:28:22 EST Photo ID's at work Today I had my picture taken for a photo ID at work. You can see it on my page. I have cheekbones, sort of. :) I like this picture because I know what I looked like a few months ago. I like my short hair and the light I see in my eyes. It looks like me. <BR> <BR> And maybe I'm the only one that sees it. I showed it to my friend, and he said, it's not the best picture of you. Maybe not, but it seems like the truest. That was my first thought. I feel truer to me since I started her... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 22:22:28 EST Meanness Did you ever have someone say something to you that just unraveled all your desire for any sort of successful day? Having set myself up to succeed today - time for workout scheduled, healthy food in the house, chores done yesterday -- I was not ready to be derailed. Now I just don't care about this day or these plans or anything in particular. Deflated, thrown. And the person who said it is supposed to be my best friend. <BR> <BR> How am I supposed to get back on this horse? I just fee... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 11:32:58 EST I said no. Today I told someone no when they asked me to do something. <BR> <BR> ******************************** <BR> <BR> I'm not sure you understand what a big deal that is. Claiming my space, owning my life and what I can handle, not giving into polite pressure to add one. more. thing. to a life that feels busy enough -- this makes me happy tonight. I feel strong, and while I hate to have disappointed that person, I know this was the right decision for me. <BR> <BR> Tue, 4 Sep 2012 22:40:04 EST