SOFT_VAL67's SparkPeople Blog SOFT_VAL67's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community things that are and are not Well, my runny eye returns!! <BR> I had this issue with my eye watering right after returning from vacation. my doctor prescribed some antibiotic eyedrops. and after a week or more it cleared up. <BR> but it returned overnight, and into this morning. <BR> I am back to using the drops but going to try to get in to see an eye doctor this week to see what might be causing it. <BR> In other news....I got a new phone recently and it has this great....although very misleading and somewhat annoying... Tue, 25 Jul 2017 05:45:58 EST those days I havent broken my streak this week. I have walked every day since Monday and have racked up 310 minutes. and I am going to walk the next two days to make it a full week streak!! <BR> I got to the track around 715 am and a high school classmate was there walking. He told me he is really sick and is needing a liver transplant. <BR> He is trying to make some lifestyle changes to get healthier or at least ready himself for the surgery, if and when he gets it. <BR> Such a shame, he is 50 years ol... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 15:34:05 EST Sweat!!! Yippeee!!! <BR> I have worked really hard this week. and it finally paid off. I am down six pounds since last week and I take pics of myself on the bathroom scale to show myself the results. <BR> I know I can work harder. <BR> I know some of it is water weight loss, but who cares. It is OFF of my body. <BR> As of right now, I need to lose 8 pounds to get to my lowest number since 2013! <BR> I am not going to put a time limit on that loss. But I will get there. <BR> Hopefully it will be befo... Thu, 20 Jul 2017 05:52:43 EST but words will never....uh, yeah sometimes they hurt I am feeling pretty good today. Despite that yesterday someone, who i considered a friend, made a stupid comment that really made me feel bad about myself. <BR> I dont know if it was just a spur of the minute, inconsiderate, without thought comment. Or, if she really said it because it was on her mind. <BR> Either way it made me feel bad. <BR> I am happy for everyone who is successful in this journey. <BR> I have seen people lose great amounts of weight and keep it off. I have seen others gai... Mon, 17 Jul 2017 10:33:58 EST free to say no I was having some anxiety, anticipating an upcoming medical test which is against my personal beliefs and against my own mind, body and soul. <BR> I had this test once on my own decision and last year I allowed myself to undergo not one but two invasive personally embarrassing and anxiety inducing tests which were not necessary to diagnose a health issue, but to rule out an issue, to more or less satisfy one doctors "check" list. <BR> So, this week I was contacted and told it was time to repe... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 09:29:29 EST doctors/medical you cross a line you made for yourself?? The subject of this blog is medical testing that you are against having. <BR> For religious, personal beliefs. <BR> When do you give in?? <BR> When do you refuse to be pushed over a line you made for yourself? <BR> When do you KNOW what is right for you? <BR> <BR> This morning, on Facebook, I was following the comments on a post by a man I do not know. But have mutual friends with. <BR> Apparently the man had developed an infection in his foot that had gotten really bad. The doctors over the... Fri, 14 Jul 2017 07:13:36 EST stuff and things I am feeling some better today, I guess the antibiotics are getting the job done, my eye is beginning to clear up and isnt as sore. <BR> Looking forward to farmers market this weekend, gonna look for some green tomatoes and corn on the cob, maybe some green beans. <BR> Hoping to get the family together for a cookout, but work and the fact that my mother wont venture outdoors if it gets above 80 degrees, makes it hard to do. <BR> Maybe I will just go swimming and come home to the air condition... Thu, 13 Jul 2017 10:07:02 EST excuse me while i dab my eyes Antibiotics, eyedrops and lots of tissues! <BR> Seems over the last few days I have developed an eye infection of some kind. <BR> At first I just thought all the water was tears, from missing being at the beach. <em>246</em> <BR> But seems its some kind of tear duct infection. <BR> Hoping to get this cleared up soon. <BR> Havent been feeling well at all for the last two days, I am guessing side effects from the antibiotics, so I have skipped my walks and am really starting to miss them. <B... Wed, 12 Jul 2017 10:20:15 EST back to reality So, vacation is over! ""insert crying emoji here"" <BR> I gained weight. I knew I would. Which we didnt really go out to eat that much. <BR> But I did have dunkin donuts!! <BR> I live NO WHERE NEAR a dunkin or a krispy when I am around one, I like to have one. <BR> I had a sour cream and some of the raspberry donut holes. <BR> But I did walk there from the hotel, which was about a 10 minute walk, one way. and we actually walked there twice, the second time was for Baskin Robbins,... Mon, 10 Jul 2017 09:50:08 EST r and r?? just a few more days til vacation, and why are these days so hectic? <BR> tuning up, oiling up and washing the truck, cleaning it out, making sure everything is packed, getting tickets ordered and downloaded and printed and keeping up with everything. getting the dog groomed so she is ready to take to my moms and cleaning the house so i have no work to come back to. <BR> there will be enough of that with putting everything back up!! <BR> <BR> boy, a lot of work goes into trying to relax lol... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 13:33:45 EST elephant in the room I just wanted to take a minute to say Thanks, to all those who comment on my blogs. <BR> There are three or four regulars. <BR> I appreciate you taking the time to leave words of inspiration or just to tell me to suck it up Buttercup!! <BR> I know, I am a bad Spark friend, as I dont often leave comments. <BR> I try. <BR> Seems like I spend most of my Spark time logging food or reading the new Start page posts. <BR> I fail at being a good Spark friend, but I am here. <BR> I hope everyone is ha... Wed, 21 Jun 2017 10:28:49 EST its not just the Monday morning cant help its!!! The days are closing in til vacation time. <BR> I have never been one of those people who says, I am going to lose X amount of pounds by X date....especially not an "occasion" know, vacation, anniversary etc. <BR> I try...mostly in vain, to lose weight for my health. Yes, I want rid of these extra pounds, so that I also look and feel better, and can wear smaller clothes, and to not hurt in my bones from carrying the extra weight, especially as I get older. <BR> But it is a non su... Mon, 19 Jun 2017 09:37:53 EST loss and gain isnt just about weight. Some of my favorite and most inspiring quotes are song lyrics. <BR> "some things are lost, some left behind, some things are better left for someone else to find" Uncle Kracker. <BR> This is the mantra that has been playing in my head lately. <BR> While we have something happening in our life, a love, a friendship, a change of job, a move, etc, it seems like the happiest, or sometimes the most stressful event ever. <BR> Later, once it has passed, we realize it just wasnt as bad as we made it,... Wed, 7 Jun 2017 06:26:18 EST one or two less things Have been doing a little spring cleaning. Sold 5 shirts and made 35 bucks!! <BR> Have several more to sell and a pair of shorts, some camo hunting wear and winter jackets and boots, which I will wait until around Sept to try to sell those, once the nip appears in the air and hunting seasoned hunters get ready to start prepping. <BR> I am feeling more optimistic. <BR> I had a pretty decent weekend, didnt overdo it any. Lifted weights and did get a couple walks in. <BR> Just focusing more on fe... Tue, 6 Jun 2017 13:30:50 EST down, not on the scale tho!! Dont ever put your cart before the horse!! <BR> I really thought when I got on the scale this morning I would see a loss. <BR> I have worked hard all week. Stuck to my plan, stayed in my calorie range, walked as much as I could. Havent eaten bread in two weeks. No sweets. No fried foods. I have done everything right. <BR> This week was one week I can say I really counted and accounted for.... <BR> It didnt matter in the end. <BR> I am the same as I was this time last week. <BR> No loss, no ga... Thu, 1 Jun 2017 05:36:52 EST 4 or bust <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This morning when I got dressed to head to the walking track, I told myself, this morning my goal is 4 miles. Well, my feet had other plans. <BR> I should say, my left foot! <BR> As usual, the pain got to be more than I had bargained for, so I cut it short at just under 3 miles, but since I have been home I have been walking around, doing housework and such. <BR> Staying moving. <BR> I will ... Tue, 30 May 2017 16:40:41 EST one drop at at time.... My son. <img src=""> <BR> Yes I blurred out the face, just because he isnt on this site. <BR> He has been struggling lately with his weight, like so many of us do, and so he decided to nip it in the bud and get back to the gym. <BR> So proud of him. Just graduated college, and is now taking more classes working towards a Masters. He says in a few years he will be Dr. <BR> Of Social Work. <BR> As for myself, well, I... Thu, 25 May 2017 10:05:20 EST stuck in a rut...a muddy rut! Not only am I fed up with the weather. I am fed up with the weather reports! <BR> I stayed in today, fully expecting rain storms, as I read on both my weather apps, and as reported by two different weather people on the morning news. <BR> So far, a sprinkle, and no more. <BR> So, as I look at these weather apps, I see we are to go up to 70 percent chance of storms after noon. <BR> Do I chance it? <BR> Get on my walking gear, and head to the track, or sit here waiting it out? <BR> More disappo... Wed, 24 May 2017 11:41:18 EST its always raining in my world That old saying, what goes up, must come down....I really wish someone would tell that to my bathroom scale!! <BR> Once again, RAIN!! I am really starting to wonder what is going on and when and if summer is ever going to actually show up. <BR> For every one nice sunny hot day we have, we get five days of rain, and we have had flooding around here. We dont need any more rain for awhile. <BR> At least I got to walk yesterday. <BR> Will be watching the skies, the second it lets up and I get my ... Tue, 23 May 2017 08:39:17 EST my coffee failed me today I am so so sleepy today. Rain, thunder and wind have kept me indoors all day. Not a total bust, I have cleaned and done laundry and have been trying to finish up a book, but the more I read, the more my eyes roll up in my head. <BR> I took a shower to try to wake up, but it didnt work. <BR> If my hair wasnt wet I might just go to bed haha. <BR> Well, I will try to stay busy, vacuum and fold clothes should keep me busy for a few minutes. <BR> Hope all of you have a nice weekend, and try to kee... Fri, 19 May 2017 11:31:41 EST goals begin with GO! Hope everyone had a great weekend. <BR> I dont think my feet touched the outside of the house yesterday. <BR> It was a lazy Sunday at home. Saturday, was riding day. <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just a little under 7 weeks until beach vaca!!! <BR> And yes....but of course....I have started my "diet" lol.... <BR> but seriousl... Mon, 15 May 2017 09:59:11 EST the opinion you seek i read this thing on facebook the other day, i cant remember word for word, but the message was, stop sharing so much!! <BR> if you have a job interview, if you are applying for college, buying a house, going on a diet, having surgery, entering or exiting a relationship, etc, etc <BR> dont feel the need to share it with the world. <BR> most people arent going to be happy for you, most people are dealing with their own issues and dont have time for yours. <BR> i guess sp is the one place i don... Thu, 11 May 2017 07:53:41 EST i like a light schedule This has just not been my walking week! <BR> I only got to the track two times this whole week, which really gets under my skin. <BR> Sure, I work out at home, weights, etc, but to me, just doesnt feel right. <BR> Anyhoo.... <BR> on the agenda today, since my sister has to work all this week, we are supposed to take my mom out for mothers day lunch, do a little shopping and get ready for my sons college graduation tomorrow. <BR> Have not had enough sleep and or coffee to face this day yet. <... Fri, 5 May 2017 07:35:37 EST two hair ties kind of a day March May?? <BR> Today the winds are predicted to reach 18 mph. <BR> Wind is really the only thing that keeps me off the track. <BR> I can deal with heat or cold, even a little snow or rain, but wind, I just cant walk when its windy. <BR> I always check the wind before I check the precip or temp. <BR> Going to the track to see how it goes. Maybe I can get a short walk in anyway. <BR> <BR> I have been catching up on my sleep the last few days. Going to bed around 10pm, and letting ... Thu, 4 May 2017 10:06:34 EST this is how we roll!! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="h... Tue, 2 May 2017 07:37:59 EST the results are gradual but they are real So thru out my weight loss journey, I have learned, and been reminded often, that results are slow and gradual. <BR> But over time you will see results. <BR> Well, I am here to tell you that is true. Except, it also works in reverse. <BR> In November, I was going thru some very personal troubles, and while I was in a very bad place in my personal life, I was at a great place in my weight loss....could have been the fact that stress and emotional issues killed my appetite and I just wasnt eati... Sat, 29 Apr 2017 08:08:08 EST one step at a time Getting in a day of weight training, since I cannot go to the track. I will just have to settle for the stair stepper, or do an at home walk. Waiting for the glass man to come replace the windshield in the truck, the second one since August!!! <BR> The perils of living in the country I guess. Tree branches, road debris. <BR> Hopefully the man gets here early enough so that I can get in a later walk. <BR> Here is hoping the rain doesnt show up about the same time he does!! <BR> I need to walk... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 07:35:00 EST morels i am loving this warm weather! <BR> I walked 3 miles Monday and 2.4 today, only cutting it short due to the park employees cutting weeds and mowing, etc, getting things ready for the upcoming easter egg hunt this weekend. <BR> i laid out in the sun again today for about half an hour. <BR> enough to try to get some good vitamin d. <BR> and for supper, my friend gave me a ziplock baggie full of dryland fish. <BR> who knows what that is.....???? <BR> if you said wild mushrooms, aka, mountain mor... Tue, 11 Apr 2017 18:16:22 EST i wish for more of them despite being cold enough to turn on the heat on friday, the weekend turned out pretty nice. <BR> yesterday we went riding in the hills with some friends and the biggest problem was the dust. <BR> so very dry, makes you kinda wish for a little rain, but then today was sunny and high in the low 80s.... <BR> i laid out in the sun for about 20 minutes on my front porch. <BR> i love it. <BR> days like today!!! Mon, 10 Apr 2017 15:46:49 EST what remains Just realized its been awhile since I blogged. Not alot to announce. Things are pretty much the same here. <BR> Still dealing with a little bit of life stress but isnt that true with everyone?? <BR> Maybe some poor decisions on my part have contributed to the stress. I own that. I have moved on and me and Honey are working really hard to get our relationship and our life together in the best place its been in a decade. <BR> Maybe some other people whose lives arent so happy cant deal with tha... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 15:06:14 EST not a bad day. Was a nice day today, not alot of sun, but warm enough to leave jacket behind. Drove to the track and walked a little over an hour. <BR> <BR> Came home, did a little weight workout, made baked chicken for dinner and put the first notch in summer vacation planning. <BR> Having a little early buyers remorse, but hoping by June I will be over it and all goes well. <BR> Glad to have the first part done. <BR> Rain is now falling. <BR> Hope its all gone by tomorrow. Mon, 20 Mar 2017 19:55:37 EST and on that note. good news, call from the mechanic and my car is fixed and running right, he says. <BR> so, i will be going to pick it up tomorrow and see for myself. <BR> the good news is it wasnt as bad as it could have gotten, good thing we caught the issue early and it isnt going to break the bank!! <BR> hopefully this rain ends by monday and i will be able to enjoy a good long walk at the track, i have missed all week. <BR> weekend plans are pretty low key, walmart, buy fishing license, get some new dumb... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 15:56:16 EST stuck I am really looking forward to the weekend, wishing the weather would be nicer, but whateve, I am going to walmart to buy some new weights, kettlebell and my fishing license. <BR> This doesnt seem like such a big deal to those with transportation, but for me, I havent had my car in 8 days and I am about to go a little stir crazy. <BR> I am one step away from getting in the UTV and driving to town, despite having no doors and it being only 25 degrees outside!!! <BR> I want my car back, I want ... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 13:54:46 EST monday, the third. I spoke to the mechanic this morning, his bro in law will be buried on Saturday, but he is going to try to work on some cars this week, mine included. <BR> I told him to keep it until its really fixed, rather not get it back half done just to be getting it back. <BR> With the snow we got last night, I probably wouldnt be going anywhere today anyway. <BR> Tweeking and re-tweeking my menu for the day, it is a job trying to make sure I am sticking to the calorie intake, keeping the sodium and ca... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 10:41:32 EST re-living a monday..... Ramblins of the morning. <BR> Woke up to a little snow, cold, two days ago, I was sitting on my porch on my lounge chair, soaking up the vitamin d from the sun. <BR> Today this..... <img src=""> <BR> Doesnt matter that much, I cant go anywhere. I took my car to the mechanic last week, went by to check on things yesterday as I hadnt heard from him, turns out, his bro in law went into cardiac arrest, he had to drive h... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 11:02:08 EST the end of the day not the best monday of all my monday's <BR> but not the worst either. <BR> Honey is working tonight, and I am tired, going to veg on the couch and watch a movie, Mon, 13 Mar 2017 18:59:56 EST trying to get somewhere The mechanic hasnt called about my car since I dropped it off Wed morning. <BR> I hope this just means he has been pretty busy and hasnt found some terrible problem. <BR> I wonder if he has even worked on it at all because he didnt call with any kind of estimate. <BR> I am going to call about 3 and ask whats up with that. <BR> <BR> In other news, I continue to use my stair stepper since I cant get to the track, but even if I had my car, it rains. <BR> Possible snow showers this weekend. <BR... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 12:52:10 EST daydream believer Wishing I was at the walking track today. But my car is in the garage and so, I guess I will workout here on my stair stepper and lift some weights today. Give the dog a groom and bath and clean a little bit. Maybe I will go for a walk to the end of my driveway and back a few times, which is a pretty good steep hill so that I can get in my steps. <BR> The sun is shining nice today but it will soon turn to gray skies and maybe some snow. <BR> Weekend plans are to go see the new King Kong movie... Thu, 9 Mar 2017 10:52:38 EST get in line and get your number, i will be on the outside looking in.... I posted a blog yesterday, but deleted it after realizing it was way too long. i sometimes forget when to stop typing. But anyway, for those wondering, No, I didnt have the surgery. This was decided upon by both myself for the fact that I was just not feeling ready for the psychological and emotional changes one goes thru after such a major life changing surgery....I have alot of stress and depression that I havent worked thru, some recent life issues that need to be worked thru and dealt wi... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 12:50:33 EST the stress is taking a toll on me and so...... I love SP. <BR> I love the support I have gotten here over the years and even the advice that is sometimes hard to take. I love the friends I have made here and those who comment on my blogs. <BR> I love reading everyones success stories, and encouraging those who are struggling. and having those who do the same for me. <BR> . <BR> But recently I find myself focusing too much on Sp and other social media to try to work thru my thoughts. <BR> Mentally, I am draining myself. <BR> Yes, I am dep... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 14:23:51 EST whats that you say....? This ear situation has got to change!! Since Christmas I have had a middle ear infection. I have been on antibiotics for strep throat but that didnt help my ear at all. I have seen the ENT twice, had my ear cleaned out and suctioned out twice, and have been using two different ear drops for weeks now. <BR> No relief. My right ear feels like it is full of water or something. Half the time I cant hear anything because it is closed off and all I hear is ringing. <BR> Adding the drops as directe... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 18:34:40 EST when does it end? <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> As you can see..... <BR> I am once again dealing with extremely high bp and trying to decide if I am sick or just what? <BR> I checked it this morning and it was extremely high, took my bp meds, waited an hour, checked again, very little change, in both arms. <BR> I am currently taking three bp meds, i... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 12:44:13 EST the not so not so maybe so day Not all days are great days. <BR> Not all days are even good days. <BR> There are bad days, then there are really really bad days. <BR> Today was sort of in between good and not so bad, but kinda bad, but not that bad. <BR> I broke down and went off my soft/pre-op diet and had two chicken strips for lunch. <BR> After three days of nothing but protein shakes and sugar free jello and chicken broth.... <BR> I was starving!!! <BR> Then I walked an hour. <BR> Then I was feeling ok about it after m... Thu, 23 Feb 2017 16:29:56 EST trickery yesterday my great nephew turned 3. we had his party in the park and it was 4pm and everyone was wearing shorts or short sleeves. it was about 70 degrees yesterday. <BR> it has been that way since saturday and i loved it. <BR> today the rain came back and its dreary and overcast out, but not too cold. <BR> i am going to walk later today when the rain chance lessens. <BR> <BR> Scales!!! <BR> Who knows....I know I have been watching what I eat and sticking to a certain soft/nearly full liquid ... Wed, 22 Feb 2017 10:55:36 EST my feet sigh in relief So. its been awhile and I finally finally found some great new shoes!! <BR> After much searching. <BR> New Balance t610v5 trail running shoes. <BR> I went with a trail shoe as my research found that they tend to be a bit wider and the toe box is a bit wider, they land better and the soles tend to have better grip for wet surfaces. <img src=""> <img src=" Thu, 16 Feb 2017 11:16:51 EST what is your kryptonite? The search for shoes continues!! <BR> So, I ordered from zappos a pair of Asics gel venture, I have a pair, that I have had and loved and still get good wear out of since 2012!! <BR> So, I ordered a pair to replace them, and nope!! <BR> 1. They are too stiff. No give at all. <BR> 2. Right foot felt snug, left foot was like a boa constrictor had wrapped around my foot and was squeezing the life out of me. <BR> <BR> So, back they go. <BR> I have had two successes with zappos, and probably 3 fa... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 11:02:35 EST trying to catch up to that turtle Walked just shy of 3 miles today. I have slowed down. According to my Fitbit, I was doing 3.3 miles in an hour, now I am doing 3 miles in 70 minutes. <BR> I will get back into the groove. <BR> One thing is for sure, I really need to shop for some new walking shoes. <BR> <BR> Wed, 1 Feb 2017 14:43:47 EST drip drip drip The last time I visited the ENT, they gave me some cream to rub into my ear, they told me all they found was some dermal infection, like just skin inflammation, nothing to do with fluid in my ears or on my eardrum. <BR> But I can feel it there and it drains and drains, until it builds up and forms a huge hunk of some kind of dry skin or dry plug that blocks the drainage, then that breaks loose and my ear begins to drain again. <BR> At night, when I am laying on my right side, the fluid builds... Tue, 31 Jan 2017 10:23:06 EST extra cold The heart doctor gave me a good bp report. The day I went was the 20th and so far, I have not heard back from the surgeons office. <BR> But I am not going to worry about it, I have been feeling pretty good. <BR> Staying away from spicy foods, trying not to eat late in the evening and havent had any gerd that what you call them....? <BR> Anyway. <BR> My bp is staying good, the new med the heart doctor put me on back in December has been working really well and I feel pretty good.... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 09:26:08 EST today i caught myself ousside..... Today was a good day. <BR> I turned in my key, and went to the track and walked an hour. <BR> Not breathing second hand smoke for the last 2 days has been good, and I hope how soon it gets better, throat is still sore and ear is still infected, hopefully that will begin to clear up soon. <BR> Going to get my doo done tomorrow before going to my heart doctor appointment. <BR> Hoping for the best. <BR> BP has been staying pretty good and no other symptoms. <BR> Hope the weather cooperates to ge... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 19:00:56 EST