SOFT_VAL67's SparkPeople Blog SOFT_VAL67's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community i hope to be laughing on my death bed. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I got some good comments on my blog yesterday. But I felt I needed to clarify, I wasnt trying to be self depracating. I was just being honest, I dont go to the track to impress anyone, in fact, I might come across as a little bit of a rude walker. <BR> I choose to not have a walking partner, as I prefer that time to just listen to my music and my own thoughts. <BR> I have had friends walk ... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 11:07:08 EST are you here again?? It is such a beautiful, but deadly hot day. I sat on the deck for a little while, allowing my hair to dry naturally in the sun, but it was just too hot. <BR> I got out of bed early this morning and got to the track before the heat got up. <BR> I walked an extra ten minutes this morning. <BR> I loved it though. <BR> <BR> Now, school starts back in just under 3 weeks, so, I look for the hoards of walking moms to start showing up. <BR> It is a pattern. Starts around mid to late August, all ... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 15:14:51 EST my kingdom for a swim I have done so much better today than I did yesterday. <BR> I have stuck completely to my calories, fat, carbs, etc. <BR> I didnt get a very long walk, as I got a late start to the track then I got held up in traffic for so long by the time I got there it was so hot, but I did walk 25 minutes. <BR> So theres that. <BR> I feel much better about today. <BR> We are under a heat wave they are saying. Its been about 90 here all day. <BR> So its been staying indoors with the ac going full throttl... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 18:17:34 EST today stuff Blah!! <BR> I am tired, and sleepy. I have been fighting sleep since about 3pm. I guess early bedtime for me tonight. <BR> I am trying to decide what to have for supper, since my kitchen sink is clogged, and No, I dont have a dishwasher. <BR> I had one, and I took it out. I never used it, I thought it used too much energy and water. <BR> And besides I like the extra cabinet space better. <BR> However, with said clogged drain, means no dish washing tonight. <BR> or, until it is fixed. <BR> So... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 16:17:07 EST battles won, lost and still fighting. "I often dream of nights that set <BR> and watch the rising sun <BR> And I spoke to you of life and of the battles I had won <BR> a warm wind blowin' memories, makes me long for home <BR> but a cold wind blows much harder and makes me wanna roam" <BR> <BR> Everyone is fighting some kind of battle. <BR> Weight, health, relationship, job. Family, Debt. <BR> I know despair, but not total desperation. <BR> I know worry, but not total defeat. <BR> <BR> How often do we really feel defeated?? I d... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 09:44:47 EST walking sweat hair dont care Rubbed my feet down last night with Voltaren gel and took two aleves. There was no pain today. <BR> But I did get a late start to the track, still got in 45 minutes, and a good sweat worked up. <BR> Looking forward to getting some new shoes soon and cooler days ahead mean more miles on the track. <BR> Tomorrow I do hope to get another good walk and keep the streak alive, it is 4 days today. <BR> and tomorrow I will get a new doo, and color, cant wait to get rid of the frizzies and humidity ha... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 12:42:44 EST I hope my feet hold up and everything attached to them!!! Fixing the last little kettle of green beans from our patch. <BR> We didnt put out a garden, just thought we would experiement with some green beans and see how it went. <BR> We got three decent size messes of beans. <BR> I am going to look into a few tomato and pepper plants next. <BR> <BR> My feet are hurting. Not HURRRRTING, but aching. Today when I got to the track, I took those first few steps and thought there is no way I am going to finish this walk. <BR> I told myself I would be luc... Tue, 12 Jul 2016 16:31:53 EST walking==real good feel good stuff I have really enjoyed getting back to the walking track these last couple of days. I missed it, and had really forgotten just how much better I feel while walking. <BR> I will admit, not having walked much in the last couple of weeks has caught up to me and after about 20 minutes this morning, I was almost ready to throw in the towel. <BR> However, I toughed it out and ended up walking just over an hour. <BR> I hope the rain holds out and I can get in another early morning walk tomorrow. I ... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 13:24:05 EST i am awake, i have to remind myself sometimes. Dreading having to venture out today to take my cpap card to be downloaded. It is about a 20 mile drive one way, and I hate driving in rain. Which lets face it, if I dont drive in rain, I will never drive because it has rained here for days and we are supposed to get more. <BR> I have to go back to the doctor on the 18th and should have had the card downloaded before now so he can assess me and see if my pressure/etc needs changed. <BR> Other than that, I am looking forward to stopping by th... Fri, 8 Jul 2016 09:00:09 EST but i am ready for sunshine and feeling good I dont know if it is the cold/allergies, or whatever this is that has invaded my space, but I wake up every morning feeling even worse. <BR> I woke up around 230 am with my throat very sore. <BR> I am beginning to wonder if maybe its my c-pap. But I went back to sleep, and when I got back up again around 7, I felt so tired. <BR> I feel just exactly the way you feel when you are in the middle of having a cold. <BR> Tired, sleepy, lethargic. <BR> The thing is, today makes day 8 that I have bee... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 08:25:26 EST wash it all away, if i had water that is!! Up early this morning. I got up to almost no water pressure, this is disturbing on many levels. <BR> I dont know what is going on, but this has happened a few times in the last few weeks. <BR> Hopefully it restores later. <BR> I am still sick, but not as bad, each day I feel a little better. <BR> Today makes a full week, sore throat, congestion, luckily the cough hasnt been too bad this time. <BR> Second round of this since the end of May. <BR> I started taking the ester-c immune boost, hopef... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 05:54:27 EST what we leave on our journey Good and bad things can happen simultaneously! <BR> I havent been here in a few days. On Thursday I wrote about how Honey was getting to go back to work and he did on Friday. <BR> He left about 5 that morning, work hadnt even started yet when they had to call him back outside to tell him his father had died. <BR> I hated to make that phone call, but had to, I knew he would want to be there to see his dad before the coroner came to get him. <BR> Not only was he able to get back in time, but h... Tue, 5 Jul 2016 10:11:47 EST the big one!!! Havent blogged in a few days. <BR> Friday night I went to Ashland to see Jason Isbell in concert, And I loved it, still cant get over how great it was and looking forward to going to see him again soon. <BR> Went fishing on Sunday and caught two catfish, Honey caught two also, but I caught the biggest one!! <BR> We dont keep them, we just catch and release, its just for fun. <BR> Maybe one day I will keep them and have a great big fish dinner on the grill. <BR> Other than that, not much to r... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 14:20:37 EST its dim, but its a glimmer! They say it is darkest just before dawn. <BR> I dont know about that. I am rarely awake that early. <BR> But lets hope. <BR> I wont go into detail right now, but there is a light at the end of the long dark tunnel of despair my family has been facing. <BR> All I can say is, if you believe in prayer, if you believe in good vibes, or whatever it is, please send those thoughts for my family. <BR> I will tell more when I know more. <BR> I guess superstition is getting the better of me and I dont ... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 12:38:08 EST I might make an old timey one from chicken feathers!! Woke up feeling....not so good. <BR> But after an hour or so, I got ready and went to the walking track. It was a hot steamy humid morning after a big rain last night. <BR> I only walked 30 minutes, but it did make me feel better. <BR> Just trying to pinpoint what is causing this feeling. <BR> Not exactly nauseaus, no real pain. <BR> Stomach feels like one day before a stomach virus kind of feeling. <BR> I am hoping it is just that I am still adjusting to the change in dosage on some medicati... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 11:47:37 EST good thing i only made a little I hate to brag, but I make the best spagetti. <BR> So good in fact, I went back for seconds, which put me over my calories, carbs and fat for the day. <BR> Blah!!! <BR> In other exciting news. <BR> I havent done anything all day!!! <BR> Tue, 21 Jun 2016 17:52:11 EST look up look up Call your dad!! <BR> Better yet, go and see him. Take him fishing, or out to eat, or to see a ballgame. <BR> Whatever it is he is into. If he is able bodied and can go. <BR> I will be visiting my dad today at the cemetery. <BR> We had many volatile years. But some good memories as well. Time passes by too fast and you cant get it back. I would give everything in the world to go back to Feb. 4th, I would have sat around and talked to my dad longer, instead of rushing off. <BR> But whats do... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 08:39:05 EST excuses.....excuse me while I swoon..... I had to cut my walk short this morning. <BR> Only got half an hour, but that was better than the day before when I didnt walk at all. <BR> Reason 1 was my own fault, I got there after the sun had gotten high in the sky and it was already getting hot out. <BR> That didnt bother me too much, I was working up a good sweat and feeling good about getting a full hour. <BR> Reason 2 was that I got sick, I started getting too hot and got dizzy and my stomach started churning and I felt like I was go... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 09:19:13 EST good thing the exam table isnt made of leather! Where to begin. Blah, this day!! <BR> Got up at 5 am, was dreading the day too much to sleep. I had to be at one doctors office at 8, for the very simple purpose of rescheduling a test. Not like they could do this over the phone, no, I had to go in and sign papers. <BR> Got weighed there, and they very rudely informed me I have gained 2 pounds, well, thanks, its not like I wasnt feeling bad enough about it, but to have it said with a condescending smirk. <BR> That finally finished, I had t... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 15:56:35 EST demented and sad, but social!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Last night, I was feeling very discouraged. I was trying to understand the pecking order, or the food chain. <BR> How can one family be struggling, not knowing if they will be able to pay their bills, put food on the table or even if they will have a table in a few months??? <BR> And, the family right next door is thriving, going on trips to grand cities like Rome, and buying new cars, livi... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 09:20:07 EST the evening is dark and full of excuses!! Walked today. <BR> I finally had no appointments, no cough, or sore throat, and my car is finally fixed. <BR> So I got out of bed at 630, put on my walking shoes, (and clothes of course) and went to the track. <BR> I had no real time in mind, I was just telling myself if I didnt have a coughing fit I would try for a mile at least, but I ended up walking almost three miles. 50 minutes. <BR> And I wish now I had pushed myself on to finish the hour. <BR> I have missed walking, and cannot wait t... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 12:00:18 EST no donuts for me today!! I am going to TRY. I am going to TRY REALLLLLLY HARD. <BR> To stay positive, and to stay on track today. <BR> I am going to walk and I am going to just try to focus on what I can control and accomplish today. <BR> So far, I have sparked and I have had a nice healthy protein breakfast. <BR> Despite that I still havent gotten my car fixed, I will just borrow my moms until it is. <BR> I hope the rain holds off long enough tomorrow to get in a day of fishing, maybe even go this evening late right... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 10:28:42 EST one is the one. Up early this morning, cant say I slept well at all. I very badly need to go mattress shopping. <BR> That is right at the top of the list of things I need to buy when I have some money to buy it with. <BR> But I sat up late watching Roots, I wasnt going to get into that show but it just happened to grab my attention. <BR> So, here I sit, watching it sprinkle rain outside and wondering how many days in June we will see rain. <BR> It was recorded that we had rain 26 days out of 31 in May, here... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 08:31:08 EST easy as pie, who said pie!!!! I had been doing pretty good sticking to low carbs, until dinner, when I had two rolls!! <BR> I have given myself a black eye and a kick in my own pants!!! <BR> So, now to move past it. <BR> The sun has been shining the last couple of days so I have been trying to take advantage and get outside, hoping to help improve my outlook. <BR> I am not going to lie, its hard to remain positive when the outlook is so bleak. <BR> Honey hasnt had a chance to even go job hunting, his dad has recently beco... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 18:50:30 EST misery loves more miserable acts There is this lingering hacking cough, and congestion deep down in my chest. I hack and hack and yield nothing but annoyance. <BR> I probably did need antibiotics afterall, but the nuisance of having to try to see a doctor, convince them that I have more than a simple cold. <BR> Not worth the trouble for me. <BR> I have no means of transportation atm and do not like the idea of asking others to take me, spend their day doing something they probably would much rather not be doing. <BR> Hopefu... Tue, 31 May 2016 12:26:29 EST may closes Often, I write blogs, that are just exercises to myself, to be able to release pent up anger, or maybe to just be able to see the words and know that they are real. <BR> I appreciate the support. <BR> Do we say Happy Memorial Day? <BR> Its not a very happy occasion afterall. Remembering lives lost. <BR> I guess we should just be grateful to them for their sacrifice. <BR> I am just glad that we have nice weather, while I am still hacking and coughing to no avail. <BR> And this constant rin... Mon, 30 May 2016 08:26:40 EST i have been expecting the grim reaper but he hasnt shown up yet!! So, I am still sick, not as bad as I was but just now starting to get a little less yucky. <BR> Monday, my nose ran as though I had an open faucet, just poured. <BR> Tuesday I was congested and hurting all over, aches and pains to the point of laying in bed moaning and hollering like a wounded animal. <BR> Cough, hack, cough, wheezing noises I cannot even begin to describe have interferred with what little sleep I have had. <BR> But today at least I havent begged for death to come claim me. <... Wed, 25 May 2016 11:13:08 EST sick of being sick Rain has dominated the month of May. According to the local weather channel, the coverage area has seen rain 20 out of 23 days this month. <BR> Finally it let up some and yesterday it didnt rain until late evening. <BR> Then a down pour. <BR> Today the sun seems to be trying to come out and the temps might climb out of the 50s today. <BR> But no walking for me. <BR> I am sick and so is my car. <BR> Not sure what is wrong with either of us. My throat started aching Saturday evening and hasnt ... Mon, 23 May 2016 10:50:04 EST the smell of victory <img src=""> Rain stopped today!! <BR> <BR> So there are these people who walk at my track. Well, our shared track. I dont get to see them as much as I used to as they are very early walkers, and since the weather has been so dreadful, I havent been getting to walk as much. <BR> But once the heat returns I know I will see more of them, as I will also be an earlier walker. <BR> But there is this one man, he lives... Thu, 19 May 2016 12:32:18 EST ownership on a rainy day Things I have managed to do today. <BR> Get out of bed. Dress, wash my face, fix coffee. Eat oatmeal and yogurt. Check Facebook, check SP. <BR> Sit in my chair under my walking dead blanket, listening to the rain hit the a/c unit. <BR> Watch my little dog sit by the front door staring out, probably wishing, as I am, that the rain would end, so she can go outside. <BR> I know there are birds and neighbors and cars passing by that need to be barked at and warned to go away!! <BR> I have been o... Wed, 18 May 2016 10:16:36 EST i can fight this feeling!!! So I walked three times last week while the sweat rolled off my face into my eyes. <BR> Today I was wearing a hoodie!! <BR> The weather here just cannot make up its mind, but the one thing it seems to be clear on, summer is on hold. <BR> Today I am fighting hunger cravings that I just dont understand. <BR> I have eaten. <BR> Why is the food in the kitchen calling my name!! <BR> I am not giving in to cravings today. I am staying true to my plan. <BR> Mon, 16 May 2016 14:53:18 EST the rain finally stopped Good day at the track. <BR> Sweat is good for what ails ya!! <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> Wed, 11 May 2016 18:29:21 EST it is just me??? Feeling a lot better today. Woke up with that same headache and body aches, YES I do NEED a new mattress. <BR> But after about 2 hours and 2 cups of coffee, I felt alot better, and I went to the track. <BR> Walked an hour and came home to have a good protein shake and some water. <BR> So, I stopped at the only little market we have here in our town, went in to get some tomatoes and deli chicken breast. <BR> I know prices are higher, but its ridiculous. <BR> I feel bad for anyone who goes the... Tue, 10 May 2016 13:17:24 EST blue gray Such a headache today. <BR> Dont know if it has anything to do with not having any caffeine today. Trying to cut back on drinking so much coffee in the morning, so that I can get back to my routine of early morning walking. <BR> That is if the rain ever EVER lets up!! <BR> It isnt raining at this very moment, but it will start, then stop, and it has been this way for well over a week. <BR> I cant predict the weather, but I can look out and see how gloomy it is and has been. <BR> Maybe that ha... Mon, 9 May 2016 11:52:11 EST a long blog about dealing with my mom who is not dealing with her life! Today my blog is about how I spent my day yesterday. <BR> I stopped by to visit my mom and see if she needed to send for anything from the store while I went to the walking track. <BR> She told me about how Life alert people had been calling and were able to talk her into buying a device to put in her home, and they charged her 96 dollars, and was going to cost 49.99 a month. <BR> Now, I am sure life alert is a good thing to have, I am not sure if its really all they show it to be in the comm... Thu, 5 May 2016 06:23:20 EST accomplishments! What is the one thing I need to achieve today? <BR> What is the one thing I accomplish this week? <BR> What is the one thing I that is important to ME today? <BR> What can I do to remain calm?...........IAMSUNNYHOWARD..... <BR> <BR> I borrowed this from my new friend who commented on my blog yesterday. I hope she doesnt mind. I kept this in my head all day yesterday while i was out running errands. Yes, I finally put on pants and went out doors. <BR> Despite that it has rained here for abou... Wed, 4 May 2016 09:07:44 EST procrastination is making me weight Indecisive. <BR> That is me. Something as simple as making a hair appointment is a struggle for me. <BR> I am just too indecisive. Do I want to really deal with this right now? <BR> I need to get my mind out of my head!!! <BR> I need to just jump in and be spontaneous for once. I need to get back to the walking track and I need to be eating alot healthier. <BR> Going to the grocery store!!! <BR> Something I had planned to do yesterday, but the rains here have been horrible, storms, lighteni... Tue, 3 May 2016 08:48:17 EST i need to drop numbers not names Yesterday was my doctors appointment. <BR> Nothing to report. No change in weight. As expected!! I am stuck in a deep ditch and cant claw my way out. <BR> I gain and lose the same three pounds and have been doing so for a year or longer. <BR> Nothing ever changes. <BR> Walk, eat right, cut out this, cut out that, replace this with that. <BR> Still the same. <BR> My bp was good tho. That was a shock, as it is almost always high when I go to the doctor. <BR> No sun to sit in today. <BR> Overca... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 08:21:29 EST im walking on sunshine, literally!!! (not a rant). This blog is my own personal thoughts, opinions and personal experience, and I am not suggesting anyone go against their own beliefs, or doctors advice, althought, maybe it will make you listen a little closer to the things your doctors offer you in way of preventative medicines......or the lack thereof!!! <BR> <link><BR>eficiency </link> <BR> <BR> The last four days I have sat outside in the sunshine. I am happy to report this news. <BR> I have a vit... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 09:44:58 EST what is missing what is found All this food tracking is driving me nuts!!! <BR> I get my protein right, my calcium is too low. <BR> I get my fat right, my fiber is too low! <BR> I cant ever seem to get just the right amount of nutrients in food and still stay under calorie range. <BR> Tweak my menu and still end up having to tweak it again. <BR> But at least I am eating healthy. And walking once again. I walked 3.6 miles on Sunday and 3.4 today. <BR> Saturday I didnt have my tracker, but I walked at the flea market, alot... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 16:11:31 EST speak into my good ear, if you can figure out which one it is So, I have waited around two months to see the ENT. my ears are clogged or running, running or clogged. <BR> both ears, so what is up with that? <BR> well, here it is, two days til my appointment, and I think I am getting a head cold!!! <BR> I will still keep the appointment, but should I? <BR> Maybe I am not, maybe I am just tired. <BR> I have been taking my claritin and nothing. <BR> Still running clogged running clogged get it. <BR> And back to the doctor tomorrow for my bp and... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 19:03:00 EST iron woman i am not Adding iron to my diet??? <BR> I am taking the pills, but they turn my stomach into a wild adventure. and not a fun one! <BR> Any suggestions? <BR> I am tired at all the wrong times, such as when I should be working out. <BR> I need energy and I do not want the fake canned kind or the kind in pill form. <BR> Mon, 28 Mar 2016 18:41:13 EST HELLOoooooooo It is only 8 am and I am already tired. <BR> Maybe I just got out of bed a little early. <BR> Working now and dont have alot of time for SP. and dont even have alot of time for ME. <BR> <BR> I dont get to walk as much as I would like, but that will soon change once the weather does. <BR> And, I get my ears checked out. I dont know what is going on with me, but BOTH ears are constantly draining. When I get up in the morning, both ears have to be flushed. But then during the day, they buil... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 08:25:57 EST hanging in there I havent been on SP in awhile. <BR> I havent stopped, just been very busy and spend alot of time away from home in a place where I dont have internet access. <BR> But I am still here. <BR> I have walked alot more lately as the weather slowly starts to improve. <BR> I am struggling to get back into a better routine and eating habits. <BR> But I am still here. <BR> Fri, 11 Mar 2016 07:53:05 EST the lesson i learned as i watched my father die My dad died. <BR> He had been a sick man for a long time. He had gone thru surgeries, heart disease, diabetes, copd. and the thing that finally weakened him to the point he couldnt recover, osteomyelitis. His spine broke down with infection, he had a pic line for antibiotics and pain medicine since April. He had gone into the ER back in April and was put on a ventilator, where he stayed in the ICU for about a week. <BR> He had been back and forth to the hosptial for at least 3 stays since t... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 08:51:58 EST traditions that need to be changed, what is yours??? Reasons we eat on special occasions?????? <BR> This is the answer I have not found. Why is everything from Valentines chocolates to Christmas fruit cake considered tradition? <BR> We buy, and more than likely toss out, more food on Thanksgiving than most people can even afford to buy in a month. <BR> Or two!!! <BR> Today, thinking about this weekends Superbowl coming up, GOBRONCOS!!!!! <BR> I decided I am going to continue the tradition of having foods, but, I am changing things a bit. <BR> ... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 11:00:29 EST trying to zen it my way I have made a decision about a situation I blogged about recently, where I had a doctor trying to sway me in a direction I didnt want to go. <BR> Now normally, I listen to my doctor and I take any health issue seriously. But in this case, it isnt a matter of life or death and it isnt even a matter of having to make a decision right away. <BR> Physical health is important, but if the decision is causing stress, and if you truly believe in the long run you will not be better off and constantly ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 09:53:22 EST wish i had listened to the sun!!! Show of hands. <BR> How many have gone into a doctors office and left feeling ganged up on and trying to be talked into something you dont feel is right for you? <BR> This makes me feel like I was listening to an insurance pitch or a pitch from a used car salesman and not getting medical advice. <BR> We arent all medical professionals and maybe we dont know as much, but I think most adults, with the ability to think and research and make educated decisions, can decide what is best for our hea... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 19:22:55 EST wasnt too bad It was a good day, pretty good anyway. Started out super cold, so I didnt get to the track til later in the day. But had a good hour walk. <BR> Feeling pretty good this evening. <BR> I did eat a reese cup, so, yes, I did. <BR> Highlight of the day, was trying out my new shampoo. <BR> I have alot of breakage. and have been noticing alot more dry skin, and dry scalp lately, I keep the humidifier going now that we are having to use the heat more. I fear my vitamin d is very low right now. <BR> ... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 21:09:57 EST this is so uncomfortable!!! I wonder why there is such a term as comfort foods. <BR> Why do we turn to food for comfort? <BR> Shouldnt we turn to our loved ones? best friends? spirituality? <BR> I am not a religious person, but I guess I follow some sort of thought of finding inner peace and putting out good to others around me. <BR> Well, anyway, what is it with comfort foods and why do we allow ourselves a pass in colder weather? <BR> Why is it considered comforting to eat breads and thick heavy soups just because we ... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 09:45:50 EST