SOFT_VAL67's SparkPeople Blog SOFT_VAL67's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community drip drip drip no drip! There is a constant dripping sound, it is the water, snow and ice melting off the side of my house and dripping onto the air conditioning unit and the window box. <BR> I love that sound. <BR> It is soothing to me. It means that the 14 inches of snow, and inch of ice on top of that is slowly but surely leaving. <BR> We still do not have water however, and havent had water since Friday 20th. <BR> I went to Walmart that day, it was the day honey had gone to have his pins removed from his finger... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 09:49:04 EST ownership I have strayed from off path!!! <BR> I have really let go of my ownership since Christmas!!! <BR> At least then I was trying. I was sparking and holding myself accountable. But I really started slacking off. <BR> Then, slowly but inevitably I began to gain weight. A pound here, a pound there. <BR> And it has really added up. <BR> I have decided that all ends today!!! <BR> We have been snowed in pretty much for a week. I have left the house all in all, 3 times since Valentines Day. <BR> O... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 10:40:43 EST i am rambling again, but not far!! Honey goes to the doctor today and while he is there, I am going to get on their scale. Why?? Who knows!! Self abuse?? <BR> Possibly just to remind myself of what I am doing to myself. <BR> I am staying home alot more now since the weather has been so bad, and trying to save money and trying to keep my car in half way decent running order. <BR> We have 4 vehicles, 2 currently are sitting with flat tires, one leaking transmission fluid and missing. <BR> Then there is the "new" truck, which w... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 09:26:50 EST DAY ONE DO-OVER I need to lose some weight. I know this comes as no shock to anyone here. But, I have not lost a pound in so long it isnt funny. <BR> I lost and gained. And it seems, every week or two I lose and gain the same 2 or 3 pounds over and over again. <BR> I am ready to start losing again. <BR> and I am at my wits end as to how to proceed. <BR> Sitting here listening to the rain outside, and knowing there will be no walk for at least 2 or 3 days. I have resolved to get back to strength training a... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 09:51:25 EST white coat Doctor tomorrow. <BR> Weight is up. <BR> Not alot, but enough to wish I could postpone this appointment, but ,oh well. <BR> Hopefully my blood pressure wont be up. <BR> I am not holding my breath, because it is ALWAYS UP. <BR> when I have a doctors appt. <BR> I dont know why. <BR> But stress might play a role tomorrow. <BR> This new year is NOT getting off to the best start. <BR> Time to focus on health improvements and more weight loss. Mon, 5 Jan 2015 19:24:14 EST shes back I have missed SP. And I really didnt even realize it had been so long since I had sparked. I guess due to the holidays and having been busy. But just to let everyone know, I havent veered too far off track. <BR> I have continued to walk, not as much as I had been, due to cold and wind and rain, but I am walking as often as possible. <BR> I did veer somewhat off course with my eating. But have been trying to stay self aware. <BR> Have gained about 3 pounds overall and am determined not go go... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 15:34:39 EST take those old records off the shelf, and not just music records. On January 27th, save any unforseen circumstances, I am going to Charleston, WVA to see Bob Seger. <BR> Yes, I know, he is old time rock and roll, but that kinda music just soothes my soul!! <BR> So, I decided, I need a new outfit to wear. <BR> I have several shirts hanging in my closet that are still the taddest bit tight around the belly. <BR> THE MONSTER BELLY!! <BR> Why can I not lose this gut?? <BR> But I am going to focus over the next 7 weeks on my stomach. <BR> I am going to do squats... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 09:37:42 EST no break I am sorry to all my Spark friends. <BR> I promise I havent forgotten about you. and I am sorry I havent been blogging and tracking. But I have stayed on track as well as I could. <BR> Walking when the weather allows me and noticing how badly I need to focus more on toning and lifting, so the cold rainy days have at least allowed me that. <BR> I dont know really why I have neglected my Spark. <BR> I get the emails and I plan to come on and check in, but didnt realize it had been 2 weeks since... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 09:58:03 EST day one of the no sun too wet to walk drizzly dark miserable yet oddly optimistic winter. I have decided to try try try and then try some more to be optimistic and not allow nasty bad thoughts to consume me this winter. <BR> As the days are going to be long and boring and cold and wet and I know my days of walking will be fewer and farther between. <BR> Saturday I babysat and it was just way too cold to have a little one outdoors, so no walk, <BR> Yesterday I did make it to the track, but only for about 25 minutes before the rain set in, light sprinkles at first, I pushed on anot... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 11:41:19 EST optimistic with cold fingers Seen the doctor yesterday and had my vitamin d checked. along with cholesterol and some others. <BR> Should have my results tomorrow. <BR> My weight was about what I thought it would be. <BR> Disappointed that it wasnt less but it is ok. <BR> The winter has finally arrived and today it was bitter cold. <BR> I went to the track to walk and my fingers froze thru my mittens. I walked about 20 minutes until I could no longer feel them and decided to warm up in my car with the heater on. <BR> So,... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 19:45:17 EST sunshine and soul shine Today has been a much nicer better day. I knew it was going to be warm and sunny out today for possibly the last time this year. <BR> So, I woke up early, showered, fixed myself some coffee and a nice omelet with fresh mushrooms and spinach and sliced up turkey breast. <BR> I went to the park around 930 and it was still a little chilly and windy and overcast out. <BR> So, I sat in my car awhile catching up with friends on social media and then I decided to walk. <BR> I just couldnt seem to g... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 19:36:22 EST the bad horrible sucky awful dumps dealing with depression today. i walked an extra half hour, the sun was out, but it was very windy and the track was very wet and slick, so i compromised and walked around town. <BR> the seaon changing, the rain, the earlier darkness, my son moving away, friends who turn out not to be, my eating bad food choices, and just an overall feeling of being a failure in life. <BR> watching my son get this new job and move to another state and take a chance, makes me look back on my life and wonder w... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 20:54:50 EST weigh in day, weigh IN day. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today I got on the scale, and I was happy. Not OVERJOYED, but happy. The numbers are down, some and even though it is a small amount, 3 pounds since last weigh in on the 25th. It was good. <BR> A loss is a loss and that is something to be grateful for. <BR> I enjoyed a beautiful day in the park yesterday, the sun was out and I took some pics, After I walked an hour, I sat on the bench and soaked up some sun and j... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 19:59:52 EST doctors are NOT experts, they dont feel my pain!! Disappointed to learn, after all the research I have done and thinking I had educated myself in the subject, that this whole time, my doctor has been prescribing me the wrong vitamin d. <BR> Whats the big deal? <BR> Well, my body needs d3, it is the equivalent of what our own body and skin produces and what I am deficient in. <BR> D2 is the type found in plants, etc. While it is good, or better I suppose than none, it is not the kind of vitamin d I need to recover from my injuries and illnes... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 18:30:06 EST 1 pound gone is 1 pound less--apologies to my sp friends I want to apologize to SP friends, and my groups, I havent been here alot and I have fallen very far behind on all of your progresses and set backs. <BR> I find this new format a lot harder to follow, I dont see my friends feed to the right of my page as I used to and so the updates dont scroll thru. <BR> I have to go to the start page just to read your updates. <BR> I promise, as the colder weather sets in, I will be here alot more. <BR> I have been trying to get outside more and enjoy the f... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 05:36:29 EST goodbadday Feeling torn. I had a really good day. I met with a friend and had a great talk and then I went for a long, extra long, walk. <BR> The sun was out, while not really hot, it still felt good to be out there. <BR> Knowing the weather is turning much colder and we are supposed to see some snow soon. <BR> On the downside, I went over my calories today and mostly that was the result of too much bread. <BR> Which angers me for allowing myself to go there. <BR> So, while it wasnt really bad, roughly ... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 19:50:45 EST doing my best It has been 10 days since I blogged. I really havent been using SP much the last week. I have pretty much stayed on track with my food and exercise. Could defintely do alot better. But I guess I am not doing too bad. <BR> I dont really have an excuse for not blogging. <BR> I have lost a few pounds, maybe 3. I will check the scale again in about a week. <BR> I walked extra long yesterday and plan to walk again today, as the weather here is going to be dang nice. <BR> I sat outside in the sun... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 06:36:31 EST just rambling My back started hurting this afternoon, it is the kind of pain, in my lower left side over my hip that reminds me of a kidney infection. <BR> Could be where I just added magnesium? <BR> Or, it might be where I am not drinking enough water? <BR> I am trying to get in my water, never had a problem before. <BR> I am going to add some cranberry juice over the next few days and keep a watch on it to see if it gets worse or better. <BR> I used to get these kidney infections not long after my son wa... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 21:57:22 EST the scale is my arch nemesis!!! Update on the scale. <BR> It wasnt as bad as I feared. It still wasnt good news for me. I havent lost an ounce. <BR> Keep in mind, I reminded myself, that I just went on a mini vaca and had lots of creamy ooey gooey coffees and a big pretzel. and pizza!! <BR> But still, that was one day, not weeks and months worth of walking and eating healthy and staying under calories. <BR> I am more frustrated upon talking to a friend yesterday who says she has lost 22 pounds in a month by following a 1600... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 07:10:40 EST sometimes you just have to do it I know one idea here on SP is to not focus SO much on the scale. <BR> But I have let the scale go for to long. <BR> Tomorrow is weigh in day for me and I know already the numbers will not be in my favor. <BR> But I have made my peace with that. <BR> I have to get on the scale in order to get my mind back in the right place. <BR> So, I will figure out how off track I have allowed myself to go and find the right place to jump back in. Sun, 12 Oct 2014 19:29:00 EST the big d. I joined a group on Facebook that is dedicated to learning more about Vitamin D. <BR> I really have learned alot in the week or so since I have been following it. I never knew the first thing about magnesium being needed when taking vitamin d. <BR> I have to wonder why my doctor never discussed this with me? <BR> Probably because she herself didnt know either. <BR> We have this hospital in our little town, which touts itself as the hospital of the year. And they have been boasting this ti... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 09:18:29 EST not down and out, just bent a little It seems I have taken a break from SP. I hadnt posted in about a week and it really wasnt planned. <BR> I went out of town for a few days and then came home to housework and trying to catch up on bills and doing errands. <BR> Excuses, I am not really trying to make. <BR> I really just took a short unintended break. <BR> I have been focusing on my vitamin d and doing some reading, trying to find out if magnesium is something I need to add to my daily routine. <BR> Having joined a vitamin d def... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 11:22:39 EST women, of a certain age!! pics. <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is my birthday. I turned 47 years old today. I spent the morning, the same way, and in the same place as I have spent the last 3 birthdays. At the walking track, walking. <BR> I was there at... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 10:29:34 EST do you take a break sometimes? I didnt work out today. <BR> As the evening wears on, I am beginning to feel a little guilty over this. <BR> There are always going to be days when finding the extra time to workout is hard. But today wasnt one of those days. <BR> I just chose not to. <BR> I cooked and cleaned and did a few little things around the house and I feel I have eaten pretty well. <BR> Other than a little extra butter on my potato for supper, I did well. <BR> Lots of fruits and veggies. Lots of water and the righ... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 18:47:55 EST sweet 16 turns....who cares, lets dance!!! "Of all the things I still remember <BR> Summer's never looked the same <BR> The years go by and time just seems to fly <BR> But the memories remain <BR> <BR> In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain <BR> Nothing to lose but everything to gain <BR> Reflecting now on how things could've been <BR> It was worth it in the end......." Daughtry. <BR> <BR> So, September has come and is quickly on its way out. <BR> So many memories and dates to remind me this month contains. <BR> ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 11:08:55 EST and so it goes and hopefully stays gone Feeling a little better today, after 4 days on antibiotics. The coughing wasnt nearly as bad last night, I finally did sleep a few hours straight thru, and was only woken up with violent bouts of coughing twice. <BR> I still have a dry hacking cough that comes on when I get too hot. <BR> But at least my throat isnt nearly as bad as it was. <BR> I am going to try to get up and go for a walk in the early morning while its still cool outside. I hope I am not overcome with a coughing fit. <BR> So... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 15:17:32 EST flop flop, no, forget it, no relief in sight I sincerely hope none of you, not even my worst enemy, gets what I have had. I only know to call it, colditisflumonia!!! <BR> And it really sucks. <BR> It started out as a sore throat and by sore, I mean, crying, praying for death, pain beyond words sore. <BR> This lasted a total of 6 days. Only really letting up yesterday. <BR> Finally on Monday, I went to the clinic at Walmart, because shame beyond shames, my own doctor doesnt see walk-ins. <BR> After signing in and having a seat, in the ti... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 07:52:14 EST brother can you spare They say, when it rains, it pours. Well, that has literally been the case here for the last week. While I really do enjoy the cooler temps, for walking and sleeping. I dread the coming winter and I am sick of darkness and dreary days. <BR> And it has also been that way figuratively as well. <BR> After working a regular shift on Sunday, Honey, who was pretty sick from a bad cold and sore throat, went out to work anyway on Monday and about an hour later, arrived back home, with a lay off slip.... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 10:42:51 EST i have no bucket list, i dont even have a bucket I guess I have taken a short break from SP, without even really intending to. <BR> I didnt realize it had been 4 days since I last blogged. Actually have taken a short break from most social media. I went thru my FB list and unfriended about 20 more people the other day. <BR> <BR> I hardly speak to these people, I never see them post anything. If I were to run into them in the flesh, they wouldnt speak to me, some of them probably wouldnt even nod hello. <BR> I had done the same thing her... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 09:42:52 EST on this day It is this time of year. This month. September. Almost every day holds some memory, someones birth, or death, anniversary. <BR> The 10th thru the 14th especially hold special memories for me. <BR> I am not sure what date it was, probably around the 2nd of 2012 that my car window got busted out by a stray rock thrown off the weedeater of one of the city work crew. <BR> He was out there today cutting weeds while I walked. <BR> Took me back to all the days I have walked, things I have seen, p... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 10:57:04 EST early morning mind ramble I am feeling kinda bad this morning. I have been up since 4, and here at nearly 630, I am really wishing I had laid back down. <BR> Have an early morning appointment, so I just decided to stay up and get the day started. <BR> Have had my coffee and getting ready to run the sweeper thru the house, then jump in the shower. <BR> I have had the beginnings of a sore throat the last two days, but luckily I woke up this morning not feeling it. <BR> Really I think I should have slept. <BR> <BR> But ... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 06:13:01 EST mold mildew and malaise I know I am probably going to sound like a hypochondriac and maybe I am becoming one, but I have been doing some reading and I believe I have developed this neurological problem, what is causing the numbness in my foot, from exposure to black mold. Very high exposure. <BR> Here is my reason why I feel this way. <BR> I own an older mobile home and no one has lived there for some time. In June, I was staying there and stayed there for about 2 weeks, well, after I came home, the very first nigh... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 07:08:22 EST wake me up when september ends!! Here it is, September. <BR> This month holds many dates for me. Some good. Some not so good and some I just as soon forget. <BR> Well, not really. I think even the bad things that happen to us, happen for a reason and mold us and shape us. <BR> I have often said I am going to get a tattoo of just the word September. Then I wont ever be able to forget the things that pain me so deeply. And the good things too. <BR> It is a mixed bag. <BR> I havent walked in a few days. It has either raine... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 09:06:39 EST drum roll please....and the winner is..... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I still need to find a doctor to tell me what I need to do from here. <BR> Basically, I guess it is telling me I have moderate neuropathy. <BR> What is causing it? <BR> Could be one of many things I read, weight, low b12, diabetes, which I do NOT have. poor thyroid function. metabolic disorder, which I know I do have. <BR> But those would likely cause neuropathy elsewhere in my body. <BR> Poor circulation, but my c... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 09:03:14 EST just an overall pretty decent day despite one or two small complaints First, I am just going to say this, and this is just my own opinion, I do not care at all for the new format on SP. <BR> I constantly have trouble finding my friend feed and I dont like these changes, I never liked the new start page. <BR> It is getting as bad as FB to make changes when everything was working just fine. <BR> Ok, that being said, moving right along. <BR> <BR> I have been trying to add some personal touches to my home. I bought some little plastic bowls, filled them with the ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 20:44:33 EST some good gains and some great losses So far today has been pretty good. Compared to yesterday. I called to ask, after 3 weeks if there were any reports back about my foot. <BR> I was spoken to in a very rude manner by the woman at the Neurologists office. This was my own fault, I had my reservations about going there but I gave in and wanted fast results, well, lo and behold, still nothing. <BR> I called my doctors office and asked her nurse to see if they could get any news for me. And as of yesterday, they were told the tes... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 14:00:05 EST nothing new I havent been here much the last few days. <BR> I have been dealing with a flooded driveway, that will need a new drain pipe across the creek to keep from future flooding. This is my landlords issue to decide upon. <BR> I can not get to my place right now without parking across the street and walking. Not a far walk, but a nuisance all the same. <BR> I was lucky, the drain could have clogged much worse and flooded my whole yard. <BR> Also, I have been dealing with a jimminy cricket, the nice... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 10:45:40 EST on second thought Walked again today. For only 30 minutes, but it was ok. My problem wasnt my foot alone. <BR> I had other things I had to get done this evening, namely cleaning the kitchen and getting things moved to get ready to paint next week. <BR> I went to the cemetery to visit my brothers grave and had to check the mail and go to the bank. <BR> So, while I was there I went ahead and walked since the track is right there. <BR> and it was still very hot out. <BR> I really need to try next week to do morni... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 22:34:03 EST fiber filled sunday sumday. I spark and I track and I track my food!! <BR> and yet no matter what I add or change or exchange I can never get my fiber up on SP. <BR> I think when those foods were added onto sp the fiber content wasnt added. <BR> So, from now on I am going to manually add my own foods and spark from my food favorites list. It is the only way I can be sure I am tracking my fiber. <BR> I know I am eating more than 2 grams of fiber. I have been adding ground flax to alot of my meals. I dont understand wh... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 10:27:25 EST i walked in my new shoes. (review, and pics!) <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The new shoes arrived yesterday. <BR> I had hardly heard of the brand, Saucony, until I seen them online, and only had online revie... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 20:00:50 EST shoes and feet and weight and scales and coffee and such Something I learned today doing some online research. <BR> The shoes I had ordered and had to send back, due to the wrong size, wouldnt have been very good for me anyway. <BR> As I was reading about shoes that work well with orthotic inserts, I read that instead of stability shoes, which I had been focusing on, I should be wearing neutral shoes. <BR> The article said that stability shoes coupled with orthotic inserts, puts too much support on the foot from different angles and allows little t... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 14:13:09 EST do you really count?? do we really count?? Calories? <BR> Fat? <BR> Carbs? <BR> Whatever it is that you count, or spark. Do we really do it right? I am sure that most of us are off by a few calories daily. <BR> Sometimes I know for a fact I am off by 100, and some days I know that I am off by even more. <BR> Yesterday for example, I forgot to spark a sweet tea I had purchased in the supermarket and drank on the way home. <BR> Completely forgot about it. <BR> Today, I had a couple of spoonfuls of rice, and had forgot to spark it with ... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 21:33:53 EST sunday waiting for no news monday Another doctors appointment tomorrow. <BR> I had hoped to find out some answers about my foot tomorrow, but I was told that they dont read the results of the Nerve tests until after the 18th. <BR> So, here I figure I will go to my doctor tomorrow for my regular 3 month check up, blood pressure check, get my refills and then what? Go back again after the 18th so she can discuss my test results or, more than likely and this is what I expect to happen, get a phone call from her nurse, saying, "y... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 15:48:43 EST this moment When you realize that your life is spiraling out of control. Out of whose control??? Yours??? <BR> Are we ever in control of our own lives??? <BR> Arent bill collectors, doctors, parents, teachers, authority figures, children???? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I dont know why this is on my mind this morning. Sitting here in the quietness of the house, working on the bills, finally a day alone, and its raining outside, so much so that I can... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 11:50:26 EST the from head to toe blog <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Normally I pay around 80 dollars to have my hair cut and colored. <BR> Money has been a little tight lately so, I decided to do my own color. <BR> Box colors dont work real well for me, as I have hard to color gray. sssshhhh, thats our little secret!!! <BR> However, I decided to take my chance, and I think it turned out pretty good. <BR> A l... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 20:37:52 EST the dread was warranted, but im glad its over, now answers. All I can say is, if you have never had EMG or NCV tests done. Hope you dont!! <BR> I hated it, I asked the tech if it was going to hurt and that b10tch lied!!! <BR> It hurt like a cowbite, no, make that 16 cows biting your in unison for like 30 minutes!!! <BR> If you have ever used a tens unit for pain, imagine turning it up on high and times that by at least 4. <BR> Some parts of it wasnt so bad, they did the muscle tests which I had imagined would be the worst but no the nerve conduction w... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 18:00:15 EST getting my ducks and piggies in a row I am still stuck in struggle mode. <BR> I wake up daily with the best intentions and for the most part I do pretty good, but I am finding myself back to late night snacking, mindless grazing. <BR> I havent gotten on the scale in about a week. I have no desire to do that right now either. <BR> But when I woke up this morning, I knew something had to change. <BR> I have only been to the walking track once in 6 weeks. Tomorrow is my appointment with the Neurologist so I am really hoping these t... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 12:04:09 EST miss indecisive made a decision!! alert the press!!! I did it!!! <BR> I ordered a pair of shoes. <BR> This might seem like a whats the big deal moment to some of you. <BR> But I am a very indecisive person. I have been doing some reading about it, and it seems it is a very real disorder associated with anxiety. <BR> I suppose for most, the choice to buy a pair of shoes is as simple as how they look, or how they fit, or even how much they cost. <BR> For me, it is will my orthotics fit in them easily, and still allow my feet room to not be squee... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 15:31:28 EST help, anyone, hello, Bueller? Bueller???? One thing I have discovered about myself, is that I am not a traditional girl. <BR> Or the stereotypical girl I guess is a better way of putting it. <BR> I despise shoe shopping!!! <BR> So, I am coming to you, spark friends for some much needed advice. <BR> Walking/Running shoes for the overpronator (flat foot)! <BR> Brooks was recommended to me by the people that fitted me for my orthotics. <BR> I understand that they sell this brand and therefore would recommend it, but is it a good shoe? <... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 20:19:26 EST 4 pounds gone. small victories can be huge!!! I know the last few blog posts have been somewhat dark, negative nancy. But I have just been dealing with inner demons that seem to show up in the form of over indulgence and they make me feel so bad about myself and the people around me. <BR> <BR> But today I can post a happy-ish blog. <BR> I got on the scale to discover a 4 pound weight loss. Now keep in mind, that I had gained 8 pounds the last time I got on the scale, after vacation. <BR> I was a little taken aback by the 4lb loss, I s... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 09:37:49 EST