SOFT_VAL67's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SOFT%5FVAL67 SOFT_VAL67's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ 8 fingers crossed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6463427 doctor appointment tomorrow. <BR> i know the weight hasnt come down any and probably will be up several lbs since my last appt in december. <BR> nothing i can do about that now. <BR> but i am working on things in my life. i am walking again, slowly adding more minutes back to my day and since the weather has let up on freezing temps and snow, i have been back to the track as much as the dreadmill. <BR> in other news, honey has come down with a man cold which as we all, women, know, it is a m... Thu, 15 Feb 2018 13:38:10 EST 7 (days to go) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6461269 apparently sp is against me trying out the paleo or keto diets, as i have tried to change my nutritional goals to reduce carbs, but they are still suggesting foods up to 22 grams in carbs, for around 200 daily. <BR> i know some would say that is low, high, normal, typical, whatever..... <BR> but i wanted to reduce carbs but sp isnt going along with it on my tracker. <BR> i will get it figured out. <BR> im going walking, well, im going walking in a few hours, when the temps get up above 35...t... Fri, 9 Feb 2018 08:22:03 EST 6 (choices) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6460138 I am gaining weight again!! <BR> And I have no one to blame but me! I know I have been lax when it comes to counting calories or making good choices of food. <BR> I have been eating way too much junk food lately. <BR> and I guess the winter comfort foods, well, I can say that will all end today. But will it really? <BR> I can try. <BR> And I will try. <BR> I make the choice today to try. <BR> I make the choice today to stop what is bad for me. And to try to focus more on me, and my health. <... Tue, 6 Feb 2018 06:50:06 EST 5 (ideas) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6455408 sitting here listening to the dripping of the "flurries" we were supposed to get last night. Which apparently came in the form of ice and snow. <BR> Not much, just enough to make you not want to stick your head out the door. <BR> I dont know if the groundhog has stirred yet, but I sure am staying indoors awhile longer. <BR> The treadmill arrived FedEx today, and I have it laid out in the living room floor. <BR> I always hated the treadmill but now I am looking forward to putting this one to u... Wed, 24 Jan 2018 12:25:39 EST 4 (steps) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6454985 Treadmill has been ordered!! <BR> I just broke down and hit that submit order button and ordered a treadmill. <BR> I had one years ago and used it alot but nothing about it compared to walking outdoors. <BR> However, the cold weather no longer agrees with my body. <BR> I walked yesterday and the pain in my foot was too much. not to mention the wind.....I can deal with alot of things, but not walking in the cold wind. <BR> I dont plan on giving up the track and as soon as the days agree with m... Tue, 23 Jan 2018 10:28:17 EST 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6454540 So I am finally getting back into walking, not as much as I should and my fitbit pooped out on me about a week ago. <BR> I downloaded mapmywalk and I like it alot. <BR> Dont know what happened to the fitbit, I actually think its my bluetooth wont communicate with the fitbit, so I am not sure which is the issue. <BR> Anyway, I am going to walk today. That is all that really matters, people were walking long before there was all these apps to keep track of it. <BR> I am in the market for a tre... Mon, 22 Jan 2018 08:37:47 EST 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6453350 Today I am going to buy something I have had a love hate relationship with for years....a treadmill. <BR> I havent used one in about 5 years, but, the weather recently has proven too much. <BR> My body can no longer tolerate the cold and cold icy wind as it once did. <BR> And even if it could, I havent even been able to get out of my yard in a week. <BR> Snow and ice have kept me indoors and I have spent most of that time sitting on my butt watching Netflix and munching. <BR> So, after a 5 lb... Fri, 19 Jan 2018 07:34:13 EST 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448427 i dont make new years resolutions but i feel enough time has passed since the start of the year to lay down some PLANS. <BR> get back to walking is the main one <BR> i have been looking online for treadmills for sale. <BR> temps here havent gotten above 18 in over a week. some nights its gotten into the minus numbers. <BR> so needless to say i have not walked, havent really even left my house very much. <BR> second plan is to get back to increasing my protein and fiber, and reducing carbs. <B... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 09:25:51 EST on the other side http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6445018 i wanted to write one final blog of the year. and say thanks to all sp friends who commented and followed, sent goodies or private mail with words of encouragement this year. <BR> while 2017 was a much better year for me in my private personal life, it wasnt that great in my food obsessed overeaters exercised much less than i should have life. <BR> i enjoyed a reconcilation with honey after a brief split, and we enjoyed our time at the beach, going on road trips and going riding in the mts, ... Sun, 31 Dec 2017 11:15:59 EST wish santa had eaten those cookies!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6444094 Hi everyone. It has been about a month since I last checked in and blogged. <BR> The holidays werent good to me, or well, honestly, I wasnt good to myself. <BR> Over did the eating and have really slacked on exercise. <BR> I have not really walked in weeks, maybe once or twice a week for 40 minutes. <BR> I blame the cold, I blame family issues, etc <BR> but in the long run, I really have only ME to blame and I am going to take that and turn it around. <BR> I went to my regular doc appt last w... Thu, 28 Dec 2017 15:32:01 EST clawing but nails are broken and bleeding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6434809 so this is my first blog in a nearly a month. no one was really reading them anyway. <BR> things have kinda stalled for me. <BR> i was doing pretty well in october and had lost some weight, a little weight. <BR> i havent been on a scale since october <BR> and i would guess i have gained all that back plus a few. <BR> i wouldnt be surprised if i have gained 10 lbs. <BR> i just rode the wave of joy that i had lost weight right back over the top and fell really hard. <BR> i still walk but not n... Sun, 26 Nov 2017 09:29:55 EST chillin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6426435 i used to tolerate the cold weather so much better. always a hot blooded person, but it seems the last year or two, i freeze so much more. <BR> However, when it comes to sleeping, i am one person who cannot tolerate to sleep with the furnace running, kicking on and off during the night. <BR> Once I am under the warm blanket and comforter, I feel no need to have the heat on. <BR> Honey on the other hand, likes to sleep with the heat on. <BR> I am going to get the electric blanket out for him!... Mon, 30 Oct 2017 10:16:09 EST 4.4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6425460 Part 1 is done!! <BR> I got back on the scale for the first time since Oct. 7th <BR> I have cut calories, carbs, everything, walked, and worked out and walked some more. <BR> Adding more steps daily. <BR> Cut out all the good stuff...havent eaten a slice of pizza in weeks!! <BR> and did it pay off??? <BR> well, i will say, this I am happy not to be even steven today. <BR> I have lost, according to my scale, a full 4.4 pounds, in 3 weeks!! <BR> So there it is, a loss. <BR> Not what I was hopin... Fri, 27 Oct 2017 05:38:23 EST step count track spark keep going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6425286 Today my fitbit took a break, but I didnt. <BR> Put it on this morning after my bath and must have added around 1,000 steps just here doing housework, sweeping and vaccuuming, and back and forth around the house. <BR> But when I get to the track and sync it, it has 250 steps, I knew that had to be wrong and assumed as soon as I manuallysynced it again it would pick them up. <BR> Never happened, it would go up as high as about 1300 steps then drop back to 250. <BR> So, I turned it off and reli... Thu, 26 Oct 2017 12:58:38 EST really dreading the dread that will set in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6425031 friday morning will be weigh in day for me. <BR> i have a doc appt and so i know i will weigh myself here before i go there and then i will be 3 lbs higher on her scale <BR> because i always am. <BR> either way, i havent stepped on the scale since oct 7th and i have worked pretty hard the last couple of weeks, adding steps daily. counted carbs calories etc and so on. <BR> have increased and decreased all the things i needed to increase and decrease. <BR> but i will probably be back here repor... Wed, 25 Oct 2017 19:11:58 EST so should i take them again?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422890 i rarely ever throw up. but i just threw up like a drunken monkey!! <BR> i took my vitamin regimen, and within minutes started feeling nausea wave over me. then a sharp pain in my stomach and barely made it to the sink before, ralpphhhh.... <BR> here is what i took <BR> womens one a day, vitamin d3, vitamin c, zinc, vitamin b complex. <BR> yes altogether, the zinc is the only thing new to be added. <BR> i dont know if it was the vitamins, the mix, on an empty stomach or just a reaction. <BR> ... Thu, 19 Oct 2017 06:15:01 EST fitbit....i feel the burn, but not that much??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422752 any fitbit users ever wonder about the calories burned on your fitbit?? <BR> i walk 90 minutes for about 10,000 plus steps, at the track, i walk around the house, shopping, etc, and add a little more steps to my tracker daily. <BR> but at the end of the day, i have to question if i have really burned the number of calories fitbit reports. <BR> there is no way my walking a 90 minute walk burned off over 2500 calories???? <BR> i think they base it on the number of calories you input, and that i... Wed, 18 Oct 2017 15:17:27 EST melting the stress and hopefully the pounds!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422298 first morning this year that i have turned on the heat. i think it is around 39 outside. <BR> i hate this time of year and yet i love it. <BR> hate that i know it wont be long til turning on the heat will be a daily thing. and snow and mud and ice will probably keep me home some days. <BR> but i love the cooler temps allow me to wait til later in the day to go walking. when the rest of the world is also awake and i dont have to drive to the track in the dark just to beat the heat. <BR> this ... Tue, 17 Oct 2017 07:19:01 EST hold on to your hat, and your shirt! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422179 i have a comfy black and blue striped t shirt. i mostly wear it when i walk. <BR> today, was a windy day. <BR> the shirt has gotten so loose on me that today when i walked, the wind was blowing it up.....kinda like marilyn's white dress. lol. <BR> i really like that comfy shirt. <BR> but i like that im losing weight, making it hang on me even more. <BR> since the weather is turning cooler, i will still wear it, only under my hoodie. <BR> hopefully by warmer weather i will retire it as somet... Mon, 16 Oct 2017 21:04:10 EST and so it begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6421705 so, this has been a most stressful week. <BR> readers of my previous blogs will recall my mom has begun the stages of dementia and lets just say this week proved just how difficult a road my family is about to embark on. <BR> i am lost for words to describe what occurred, so i will just say, its just the beginning and i am not sure how we are going to come together on this but we have no other choice. <BR> as for me personally <BR> i am still trying <BR> still here, fighting, walking, tryin... Sun, 15 Oct 2017 11:41:28 EST its like a dragon in the esophagus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6418283 well the 50th has come and gone. <BR> it was a very good birthday. and i dont feel 50, well, maybe i do, i dont know what its supposed to "feel" like. i walked, and i have walked all this week, its been nice weather. <BR> im getting ready to go this morning to the track. the only issue going on with me right now is the return of GERD!! <BR> I had a very bad bout with it Monday night, I honestly was up from midnight til 330 am, just waiting for relief. <BR> so tuesday and yesterday was bland f... Thu, 5 Oct 2017 08:09:59 EST streakin to lose. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6416230 the good news is, my work this week paid off, and i am back down 5 lbs. i still need to lose 6 more to get back to the low number. <BR> then once that is out of the way, i will start working on getting under that number. <BR> i am hoping to see it by my next doc appt, although, i am always 3 lbs higher on her scale than at home. <BR> i am off to the walking track. <BR> gonna try to get my extra steps in today since its cooler out this morning. <BR> today, sat and sunday, good lord willing and... Fri, 29 Sep 2017 07:29:21 EST i can kick!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6415895 getting ready to head to the track. i am not going to be able to walk as long this morning as yesterday, i hope to do at least an hour. <BR> have to make a little trip to a nearby town, about 20 miles away and i absolutely hate driving but it has to be done. <BR> saturday is my birthday. <BR> i will be turning the B I G F I F T Y!! <BR> i dont even know how i am supposed to feel about this. people say wow you are fifty, you are getting up there, you are ancient, lol.....kidding <BR> but, am i... Thu, 28 Sep 2017 06:39:53 EST stepping it up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6415759 i feel pretty good about this week so far. i have gotten over 11 thousand steps on my fitbit monday and today, yesterday was around 8/ <BR> but i am trying to get a little more each day, trying. <BR> and i feel pretty good, i hope to see some progress on the scale soon, i am feeling it in my body. <BR> i cant say much about feeling it in my clothes, as i wear my spandex to the track, come home, shower and put on my loose clothes i wear around the house. <BR> as, other than the track, i go ver... Wed, 27 Sep 2017 19:22:35 EST what remains is the shadow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6415315 Today while I was walking, I got to thinking about the saying that time heals wounds. I am not sure if I believe this, in time, I believe, our memory of an event begins to fade, or we choose to just let it go. I think time makes things easier to let go and adapt. <BR> But we never really forget things. I have learned this working with the elderly, with dementia, and with my own mom recently. They are still in there, the persons memories, and who they are. Sometimes a trauma or a disease make... Tue, 26 Sep 2017 13:58:56 EST counting on it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6414939 Today has been pretty good so far. I got over 10 thousand steps in at the track today before 11 am. And now I am home working, laundry, house cleaning and such, and am hoping to push beyond 12 before days end. <BR> I try to keep a log of my best days, but I am not sure if its on my fitbit or sp. <BR> I think if I get to 13 it will be a record for me, as far as one I have kept track of, I am sure there have been days I have taken more steps than that. <BR> Anyway, it feels good to have a day t... Mon, 25 Sep 2017 14:06:41 EST the surrender of life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6412754 I find myself entering a new chapter in my life. Becoming the ONLY support person to my elderly mother, who seems to be entering the early stages of dementia. <BR> My brother has his reasons, he has a young child in school and a wife who is extremely sick and disabled. He lives right next door to her, so he is able to get there if she calls, he works around on things at the house, etc, he should, since he inherited all of the land, house, etc. <BR> But does very little in the way of support,... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 07:38:43 EST but i will eventually have to use up the creamer in the fridge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6412561 I dont recommend skipping breakfast. However, today, I skipped my coffee, wanting to get right to the track and get my walk in early, I didnt have coffee, which I usually have two cups sometimes three before my walk. <BR> Then when I came home, after running some errands, etc, I didnt eat. <BR> Now, it wasnt that I was intentionally not eating, <BR> After my walk, I bought a medium coffee at the local grocery, but didnt drink it until I got home. <BR> I just started cleaning my house, laundr... Mon, 18 Sep 2017 16:37:33 EST try try baby. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6410848 it wasnt all that bad, but it isnt good. <BR> my weigh in today that is. <BR> first time i had stoped on the scale in 12 days. just havent been able to stay on track, so yes, i gained 2 lbs. <BR> yes. <BR> i walked this morning and have watched calories, etc today, been sparking, trying. <BR> I do try. <BR> I fail often, more often than I succeed, but I dont quit. <BR> I do get tired of trying, tired of alot of stuff, feeling bad about my weight mostly. <BR> My back is still aching from the ... Wed, 13 Sep 2017 15:39:35 EST if you are going to break, break really hard!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6409055 I have taken a break from SP this week. Not intentionally, just have had alot going on with family and home life. <BR> Honey and I were involved in a very minor incident on our ATV last weekend and I injured my elbow and have had a sore back all week. Thankfully and remembering to be thankful each day that it wasnt worse and that he wasnt injured. <BR> It was brought on by too much speed, and a very rocky and rutted wet terrain. <BR> No damage done to the atv and luckily no broken bones. <B... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 13:41:18 EST numbers game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6406392 So begins the first day of the month of my birthday. <BR> 50. <BR> The last day of this month. <BR> And I dont feel so bad about it. <BR> My brother died 9 days before I turned 30, and I didnt celebrate that year. <BR> I do plan to celebrate this year though. <BR> The same way I have the last six birthdays. Walking at the track. <BR> Knock on wood, its still 29 days to go. <BR> But those are the plans. <BR> To be 50, and to be me, and to continue on with life, without worrying about the fut... Fri, 1 Sep 2017 06:08:47 EST with squinted eyes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6406176 So, I havent weighed myself. <BR> I have a doctors appt tomorrow and I know they will, so, I guess I will in the morning before I leave, so the shock, or lack thereof wont be too bad. <BR> I pretty much have an idea, it will be even steven, and if there is a loss it will be minimal. <BR> I will take even steven over a gain but, today I have had the munchies lol (no, not in a while haha).... <BR> I went to the dentist and had a good check up. <BR> I had a good healthy protein filled breakfast... Thu, 31 Aug 2017 14:31:50 EST keep on truckin on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405625 i am so slow on the track. but i am still out there, almost every day. I havent missed a day so far this week. <BR> Today I am going to TRY really hard to push on thru and increase my steps. <BR> After an hour, most days, I will have around 6 thousand steps on my fitbit. <BR> I can make up the difference to get my full 10 thru out the day doing stuff around the house, or shopping, etc. <BR> But to get a better number I am just going to have to push harder at the track. <BR> I would like to ev... Wed, 30 Aug 2017 06:35:58 EST and they are ugly creatures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405461 we have crayfish in our yard, we have tried everything <BR> going this week to buy traps and try to direct the water flow to an area where we might be able to better capture them <BR> not that it matters <BR> but for every one we get rid of that is one less to dig <BR> i hate living here <BR> i wish we had never bought this place <BR> but money isnt in the budget to move <BR> i guess i will read some online and watch some videos to see if anyone has any ideas how to get as many of these thing... Tue, 29 Aug 2017 19:22:08 EST second verse same as the first http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6403344 Good laughs of the morning. <BR> Woke up, didnt win the powerball. <BR> Woke up, didnt lose any weight!! <BR> Didnt gain any either, so Even Steven is still up to his old tricks. I am either convinced I need to buy a new scale, or, just not eat for two weeks and see if I can break the streak. <BR> Guess I will buy a new scale. <BR> But since I didnt win the powerball, that means I will have to scrape up my pennies to buy one!! <BR> And life goes on. Thu, 24 Aug 2017 06:04:55 EST when it hits you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402668 I dont know what kind of infection I have had, or virus or whatever the heck it is, but just when I thought it was safe to go back in the water..... <BR> Was feeling better, thinking finally it was about over, last night the coughing returned with a vengeance!! <BR> Was awake for at least 2 hours coughing, a dry dry cough. <BR> Then I woke up this morning, feeling really tired and achy and drained. <BR> Kinda like sleep walking feeling. <BR> I havent walked in a week and I really want to get ... Tue, 22 Aug 2017 09:18:42 EST being road kill is no way to live http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400950 A few weeks ago a friend had a yard sale, she coupons, she had totes full of stuff. New never used stuff she gets thru her couponing. <BR> I spent about 34 dollars at her yard sale, I bought Lysol bathroom cleaners, I bought body wash and shampoos and mostly, I bought about 8 boxes of Emergen C immune boost and vitamin c powder. <BR> But, I didnt get it in my system fast enough, or the bug I picked up is just way to strong. <BR> Having Laryingitis is no fun. However, it will buy you a couple ... Thu, 17 Aug 2017 11:34:07 EST two box tissue tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6400093 I havent walked at all this week, we have had rain, but I am sick anyway. Started feeling a little tingle in my throat on Sunday afternoon. Woke up yesterday with sore throat, etc, havent felt well in days. <BR> Now its my sinuses and sore throat, achy all over. <BR> Hoping it isnt anything too serious, hopefully just a cold. <BR> If my sore throat isnt better by tomorrow, I am going to the clinic. <BR> As for today, staying in, out of the rain and drinking some coffee, going to make me some... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 09:01:18 EST the hardest part http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398529 (again, i add this disclaimer, that yes, i have in the past lost a lot of weight, and yes, i know what to do, what to eat, what to not eat, etc. this blog is not meant to bring about advice on what i need to do, its just an exercise for me to express my feelings. thanks for reading)) <BR> <BR> So after yesterdays failed weigh in. I didnt go crazy and eat four pizzas and two banana splits. <BR> I kinda just let it all fall away for the day. I ate a burger for dinner. On a real bun. <BR> I ha... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 06:06:31 EST even steven go to h e double hockey sticks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398194 I added this after----(((I keep forgetting that some people dont follow me on here and that they dont realize that over the last 5 years, I have already lost 65 lbs, but I cant get beyond this wall. <BR> I am just stuck here. Like Tom Hanks on Castaway. <BR> I am stuck, to forever live in this 2 lb weight vortex until my death!! <BR> I dont weigh every day, I do weigh every week, I skip a week, I gain, I stay the same, I never lose. <BR> And in the event by some random miracle that the miracl... Thu, 10 Aug 2017 08:52:34 EST all that ruckus. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397835 Happy Wednesday everyone. <BR> I have little to report mid-week. Just wanted to check in and say I am still here, still working, still walking. Still being driven crazy by a little yapping dog who insists there are hoards of murderers and robbers in our yard. Yet they are visible only to her apparently. <BR> Started watching a docu on Netflix, but cant hear the tv over the sound of her trying to save us all. <BR> Time to shut the door and get some work done. <BR> Have a great day. Wed, 9 Aug 2017 10:10:48 EST walkless wednesday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395066 Feeling good about my decision to skip the scale this week. <BR> I have been staying on track. Death in the family has not sidetracked me this week, however, I did not get to walk this morning due to getting ready for memorial service. maybe I will get to the track tonight, but tomorrow morning definetly. <BR> Hoping everyone is doing well. <BR> <em>386</em> <em>593</em> <em>381</em> Wed, 2 Aug 2017 10:26:11 EST the tissue box is empty! i have no choice but to stop being a crybaby! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393024 First I just want to thank every person who commented on my blog from yesterday. <BR> I had myself a little pity party, and at that party, I had two string cheeses, a skinney cow truffle ice cream and a pack of nabs!! <BR> That was my "bender". <BR> I am just glad there was no pizza, chips or cookies in the house!! <BR> haha..... <BR> Anyway, pity party ended and I came back to reality. I am really overall happy that I didnt GAIN this week. <BR> But I am going to take some advice and stay of... Fri, 28 Jul 2017 08:37:42 EST how why when woe!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392580 I am officially and legally changing my name to "EVEN STEVEN STUCK"!! <BR> Personal rant ahead, proceed with caution!!! <BR> I am incensed, disappointed and perplexed!! <BR> I worked hard this week, I walked more steps per day each day, I kept track and pushed myself to get in a little more each day. <BR> Counted calories and carbs and stayed at or just under calorie range each day. <BR> And what did it get me.....? <BR> Less than half a pound on the scale!! <BR> Yeah yeah I know, we arent su... Thu, 27 Jul 2017 05:40:12 EST thisthoughtinthismoment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392334 i think today i am living proof, that simple boredom doesnt always make us overeat. <BR> or even eat. <BR> i am bored to tears. <BR> Literally. <BR> I literally have nothing to do. <BR> No one to talk to.... <BR> and no where to go. <BR> I am just here. but no one even knows it. Wed, 26 Jul 2017 14:09:22 EST things that are and are not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391727 Well, my runny eye returns!! <BR> I had this issue with my eye watering right after returning from vacation. my doctor prescribed some antibiotic eyedrops. and after a week or more it cleared up. <BR> but it returned overnight, and into this morning. <BR> I am back to using the drops but going to try to get in to see an eye doctor this week to see what might be causing it. <BR> In other news....I got a new phone recently and it has this great....although very misleading and somewhat annoying... Tue, 25 Jul 2017 05:45:58 EST those days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6390286 I havent broken my streak this week. I have walked every day since Monday and have racked up 310 minutes. and I am going to walk the next two days to make it a full week streak!! <BR> I got to the track around 715 am and a high school classmate was there walking. He told me he is really sick and is needing a liver transplant. <BR> He is trying to make some lifestyle changes to get healthier or at least ready himself for the surgery, if and when he gets it. <BR> Such a shame, he is 50 years ol... Fri, 21 Jul 2017 15:34:05 EST Sweat!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389674 Yippeee!!! <BR> I have worked really hard this week. and it finally paid off. I am down six pounds since last week and I take pics of myself on the bathroom scale to show myself the results. <BR> I know I can work harder. <BR> I know some of it is water weight loss, but who cares. It is OFF of my body. <BR> As of right now, I need to lose 8 pounds to get to my lowest number since 2013! <BR> I am not going to put a time limit on that loss. But I will get there. <BR> Hopefully it will be befo... Thu, 20 Jul 2017 05:52:43 EST but words will never....uh, yeah sometimes they hurt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388504 I am feeling pretty good today. Despite that yesterday someone, who i considered a friend, made a stupid comment that really made me feel bad about myself. <BR> I dont know if it was just a spur of the minute, inconsiderate, without thought comment. Or, if she really said it because it was on her mind. <BR> Either way it made me feel bad. <BR> I am happy for everyone who is successful in this journey. <BR> I have seen people lose great amounts of weight and keep it off. I have seen others gai... Mon, 17 Jul 2017 10:33:58 EST free to say no http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388058 I was having some anxiety, anticipating an upcoming medical test which is against my personal beliefs and against my own mind, body and soul. <BR> I had this test once on my own decision and last year I allowed myself to undergo not one but two invasive personally embarrassing and anxiety inducing tests which were not necessary to diagnose a health issue, but to rule out an issue, to more or less satisfy one doctors "check" list. <BR> So, this week I was contacted and told it was time to repe... Sun, 16 Jul 2017 09:29:29 EST