SOFT_VAL67's SparkPeople Blog SOFT_VAL67's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community hear ye hear ye, while you still can without help!!!! Ok, mini rant. Well, I wont even call it a rant, because I am not angry. I am NOT yelling. <BR> So, tomorrow, I will turn 48. <BR> And I am perfectly happy with that. Has my life turned out just as I would have wanted, probably not, well, really not. <BR> But I have a fair life. I have a roof over my head, etc etc. <BR> If I was offered the chance to go back in time would I? <BR> Of course. But not to change my age, but maybe I would have paid a little more attention in school, and gone farth... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 22:46:50 EST ONE good thing. So, I have lost 2 pounds this week. And I feel pretty good about that. <BR> I have lost 13 pounds since July. And I am walking more, eating healthier, and not obsessing about the scale. <BR> I normally weigh in on Thursday, but tomorrow is my doctors appointment and I just wanted to get an idea of progress, or the lack of. <BR> Today I went to the walking track and did 45 minutes, cutting it short due to an extreme stomach ache. <BR> Not sure what is going on, but I have just had water, coffe... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 13:17:02 EST babysteppin I am slow. <BR> I walk slower than almost anyone else at the track. Sometimes I question why this is, since I have been walking pretty regularly for almost 4 years now. <BR> But I am just a turtle. <BR> To me, I feel as though I am walking pretty fast. But people still lap me and get way out ahead of me. I guess I take babysteps too literally. <BR> But it doesnt bother me all that much. I just have to tell myself, my legs are much shorter than most of theirs. I carry alot more weight than s... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 20:20:51 EST happy i mean new year!! I always see Sept as a new year. For me, it is out with the old and in with the new, since it is my birth month. So many painful and bad memories associated with this month. But some good ones as well. <BR> So, as this month comes closer to closing, I feel it hasnt been too bad overall. <BR> I ate way too much last week and was feeling pretty down and discouraged. But I got on the scale, against my better judgment, yesterday and I havent gained. <BR> So, all the fear and worry I had built up... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 14:11:59 EST short but not sweet I forgot how much I love walking in the evenings. Now, alot of people will say that morning exercise is best. And I wont lie, there is something great about getting up out of bed super early and going walking. It was better when there werent so many people at the track. I am a selfish walker. <BR> But I really enjoy the evening walk. Today I walked morning and evening. <BR> That makes two days this week I have done so. <BR> I went over calories yesterday, but no junk food. <BR> I have done m... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 20:50:36 EST hot and steamy blog Very little exercise today. Sitting here with my back pressed against the heating pad for the first time in ages. <BR> Usually a good hot epsom salt soak and a couple of aleve works. But the back is aching overtime this evening. <BR> No muscle pulls or twists or any kind of injury. Just the everyday wear and tear I guess. <BR> I did a few overhead pulls and lateral raises and chest presses. <BR> That wasnt the cause of the back ache. <BR> I look forward to my early morning walk. I already... Tue, 15 Sep 2015 19:54:00 EST dont wake me from this dream I am so tired. But its a good kind of tired. The cooler temps today really made the difference in my walking. My desire to walk. I walked 45 minutes this morning and then another hour this evening. <BR> They have paved the walking track, partially, they have most of it finished, and it makes a lot of difference as well. No slick spots. <BR> I feel good this evening and havent snacked or gone over my calories. <BR> I wish every day could be like today. Mon, 14 Sep 2015 20:57:17 EST please allow me to re-introduce myself It has been awhile since I last blogged. My laptop went down on me for a week and I finally got that fixed. <BR> Dont like adding more apps to my phone because the battery runs thru so fast as it is. <BR> I have been walking, as much as I can. <BR> Went to the doctor on the 1st for my regular once a month blood pressure and weight check and of course, no loss!! <BR> I have no one to blame and no excuses to make. <BR> I was just eating so much. <BR> I flipping hate holidays and long weekends!... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 09:50:49 EST ohhh watch me watch me, with pics. I hate to brag, but I am getting pretty good at doing the whip nae nae!!! <BR> I wouldnt allow a video to be taken. <BR> I hide behind my closed living room door and break my legs break my <BR> <BR> It is a good exercise. I am going to change it up a little and start using a step. <BR> I did pretty good at the track today too. Added five extra minues on my walk and did 3 full miles, in addition to walkiing one of the steep streets that run adjacent to the walking track. <BR> A... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 20:02:06 EST just slipping and sliding and trying to keep trying. Feeling better. <BR> Last night I kept myself busy. Cleaning, reading, watching tv. and got in a short but good workout with the bands and dumbbells. <BR> I wasnt blue or down and I didnt snack. <BR> Today I made it to the walking track for a good hour walk. and I have felt pretty good all day. <BR> I really do believe the sugars from days ago are leaving my body and I have really improved my diet the last few days. <BR> I have gotten plenty of fresh vegetables and fruit. Back to watching an... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 18:56:27 EST i got the ate too many carbs and sugar, hating the rain, low vitamin d moody blues!! Struggling!!! <BR> <BR> Coming off of a great past two weeks, where I lost a combined 6 pounds, I have really let myself down the last few days. <BR> I hate weighing!!! Because I always celebrate any win with what????? <BR> FOOD!!! <BR> Why is this?? Why are we programmed to celebrate any event with food? <BR> From News Years to Christmas, we eat. <BR> Every holiday has a food theme. <BR> <BR> Graduate high school, lets have cake!! <BR> Get married?? Lets have cake!! <BR> Its your birthda... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 10:22:30 EST numb but not too numb Got in a really decent workout this evening. <BR> Tried my hand, or I should say my legs, at some deep squats. and tried to hold each one a little longer. <BR> I did 5 in all and the longest hold was for about 15 seconds. <BR> I dont know if that is a thing or not, lol, but I just wanted to try something different. <BR> I do squats all the time, with weights. But never really deep, holding squats. <BR> It was good. <BR> I also did some dumbbell strength workout and some cardio dance. <BR> I s... Tue, 11 Aug 2015 20:14:14 EST all work and no play...or sleep...or time.... Today my blog is about what is healthier. Sleeping in when you can, or getting up and exercising, even if you really need sleep?? <BR> I know how important sleep is to our health. <BR> This morning, even though weather reports were wrong again, I chose to sleep in. <BR> My weather app said it was going to rain, in fact it was 60 percent and higher. <BR> So, when I woke, I was just so sleepy. <BR> I decided to forgo my walk and get an extra two hours of sleep. <BR> Of course it didnt rain af... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 20:28:57 EST just nothing much blog Today it finally let up raining long enough for me to get to the track. I walked 1,6 miles and 35 minutes and worked up a good sweat on the track as it is hot and humid from the rain. <BR> Hoping the weather report is correct and the rain is moving out tonight. <BR> So, yesterday I finally got my new stove installed. <BR> I decided since its been a month to do some sort of baking to check out how well it works. <BR> So, I ended up making some corn bread muffins. <BR> and I ate two, with some ... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 14:42:52 EST everyday, a do over day I used to have a real problem with late evening snacking. Now it seems to be late afternoon. <BR> While I try to make sure what I am eating is healthy and adding protein and veggies to my day, still, I end up hungry in time for dinner and then I end up going over my calories. <BR> The only thing I can tell myself is that I am eating healthier and that is true. <BR> But I have to find a way to keep from snacking in between, whatever meal or time of day it might be. <BR> So, anyway, today I wal... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 20:54:57 EST 8 is really great!!! I have had a rather uneventful day. <BR> Mostly, I have just had a very very bad headache all day. It started very early after I woke up and lasted, well, pretty much ongoing. It has eased some. <BR> Possibly the rise in temperature. <BR> I had to go to the doctor today and was happy to see the number on the scale, for a change. <BR> Down 8 pounds since my last visit. <BR> I will accept that and work from here. <BR> Babysteps, small goals, has always been the way for me. <BR> Once I stopped s... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 20:49:04 EST 2 pounds down! Second day of a headache. Could be my mattress, I have suspected so for awhile. I wake up hurting and headache almost every morning. <BR> After being up about 10 minutes most of the time, it stops. <BR> Could be the change in the weather, which as of right now I have no flipping clue what it is going to do. <BR> Woke up, to the sound of sprinkles, so I rolled over and went back to sleep about 30 minutes, got up, clear. <BR> Got dressed, let the dog out, sprinkles. <BR> Overcast, cloudy, dark ... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 13:42:45 EST why do i need the number I am still trying to decide if I should get on the scale tomorrow or wait. <BR> I go back to the doctor on Monday and if I get on the scale tomorrow and get a bad result, I am going to obsess over it all weekend. <BR> on the other hand, I know I will get on the scale Monday morning before I go to the doctor. <BR> I just want to stay on course, I have been doing fair the last week and have been watching my calories going in and trying to get in more burn. <BR> I feel like I am beginning to los... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 20:17:27 EST thats all i know to do Another good walk this morning. <BR> Was up and down to the track beginning my walk at 7am. Still worked up a good sweat and felt really good. <BR> I am knocking on wood that the streak continues, that my foot holds up and that I can keep my head in the game. <BR> Have been watching the calorie intake well, still having the same old problem, getting the amount of vitamin d, iron, fiber and calcium in food that I eat, while also staying within calories. <BR> I guess that is why this thing of ... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 20:39:39 EST the very good walk Didnt get much sleep last night. Was up really late, and slept restlessly. <BR> So when the clock went off at 630 to get ready to walk, I just couldnt get myself up. Had about 2 hours of sleep, so I decided to get what I could and slept til 830. <BR> But I dont feel too bad about missing that walk because yesterday was a stellar day on the track. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My foot is alot better. Changing the ins... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 09:43:33 EST this ol foot of mine Have really been trying to avoid this, but if things dont change, I am going to have to make an appointment with a podiatrist. Which to me is really a waste of time. They will send me to have a new pair of custom orthotics made, which are these hard pieces of foam or plastic or whatever they are made of and they are hard and unyielding and offer support, but no spring, no comfort. <BR> I have two pairs that are in really good condition and my foot is still hurting. <BR> I have been browsing o... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 13:02:42 EST this little piggy Between rain, which it seems that is all we have had here for weeks, and heat, which seems to appear within minutes of the rain, causing steamy humidity, and now, my foot issues, I really havent been getting to walk much at all. <BR> The foot is not getting any better. <BR> I can no longer tell if its the plantar fascia, or if its ill fitting shoes, or ill fitted supports. or the fact that I try to walk daily carrying about 80 pounds more than I should be. <BR> <BR> I am not going to make a... Wed, 15 Jul 2015 20:35:29 EST the nothing much to say blog thanks to everyone who commented on my last blog. <BR> the skin lesion, which i cant really call it a lesion, its not an open wound or anything, just a little red place that is somewhat sore on my upper stomach, its healing and seems to be not as sore. <BR> i still think there is a suture in there. because it is about an inch above my gallbladder scar. <BR> time will tell i guess. <BR> i have been using antibacterial soap and neosporin ointment. <BR> so, in other news, the rain finally left t... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 22:42:10 EST doctor day weight day Well friends, it has been 2 weeks since I blogged. <BR> The reason, none really, just been a little busier lately and not getting on here that much. <BR> And probably out of shame that I have slacked so badly over the last two weeks. <BR> It started around Fathers Day. <BR> I cooked enough for an army and my dad was sick and in the hospital, so he couldnt have solid food, then by the second or third day, he was NPO and so by the time he was able to eat again it was long gone. <BR> Honey ate s... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 19:30:32 EST serenity now!!! I have eaten like a big fat hog that loves to eat!!! <BR> I cooked for Fathers Day, chicken and dumplings, cornbread, green beans, chicken casserole, chocolate cake!!!!! <BR> then my dad was in the hospital and they had put him on a liquid diet. <BR> I sent alot of it to my father in law. <BR> and we ate the rest. <BR> Only today did we finish off the last of the chicken casserole. <BR> I have walked the last couple of days but I dont think I could walk of all those calories if I walked to C... Tue, 23 Jun 2015 20:30:38 EST randomy randomness.w/pics <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> First I want to thank everyone who read and commented on last nights blog. <BR> I am sure the title was a little misleading, since the overall subject was vitamin d. and not a ghost. <BR> Today was a ... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 19:09:36 EST the not so funny ghost!!! Got my vitamin d back. <BR> Ok, here is my question for everyone. <BR> How often do you get information from your doctor that you consider wrong, or, well, if not wrong, at least uninformed?? <BR> and do you follow the doctors advice/treatment, or do you ever decide you know better?? <BR> <BR> When I broke my foot in Jan 2013, I was first diagnosed as being vitamin d deficient. <BR> I had no idea. <BR> when I was diagnosed was a few months after I broke my foot, it wasnt healing. The sports... Wed, 17 Jun 2015 18:50:31 EST the not so great but no so bad sweaty hot day. Comparing today to the last couple of successful days, I will say it ranks only about one point down. <BR> While I did go over my calories, by only a few, I ate healthy. <BR> I got my protein and drank my water and so I feel pretty good about it. <BR> I got up out of bed at just after 6 am and went to the walking track. <BR> I was really dragging. My bones didnt seem to want to go. But they did. I got my full hour in and felt pretty good about it. <BR> Plans are to get up and go in the morni... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 19:19:29 EST new hair pics, new stuff and thangs!!! Another good day. <BR> I say that as I watch 9pm approaching and knowing that this is around the time of night the night time creepy crawlers come out. <BR> Not bugs or spiders....but thoughts, and cravings. <BR> I stuck to my plan last night and didnt give in to snacking desires. <BR> and I still have calories left for the day. <BR> I always try to save some calories for my nightly glass of milk. <BR> Maybe a yogurt. <BR> <BR> So, I did my little "gotta start somewhere" workout again this e... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 21:12:08 EST getting a foothold on this mountain!!! What a workout!!!! <BR> Short, but sweet. Well, sweaty is more like it. <BR> I wasnt really sure how to track it, so its only showing 4 spark points on my tracker. <BR> But that is ok. <BR> The whole workout was only 20 minutes. But I was loving it. <BR> Cannot wait to do this again every day. <BR> Overhead dumbbell raises, side bends, arm rows....squats!!! <BR> Love me some squats with weights. and worked on the mid section some, doing some cross body side bends, I dont know what they are c... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 20:03:12 EST what was was and what will be might be. maybe. When does it end??? <BR> I had a docs appt today, had a lot of blood work done, all the hormones and all the cholesterol and all that good stuff, or bad.... <BR> and the b12 and vitamin d. <BR> Havent gotten the results back yet, might be a few days. <BR> and of course, my weight was unchanged. <BR> the victory of 4 pounds i lost, or thought i had lost was short lived because it was back when i got on the scale today. <BR> Was maybe just water weight??? <BR> haha, whatever it was, it was play... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 22:38:31 EST dinosaurs, and not just in the movies. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Dinner and a movie?? <BR> Staying in tonight to watch Jurassic Park, yet again, I can never get tired of that movie and Jeff Goldblum is just a nice added bonus!!! <BR> <BR> Coming down off the high I was on from walking and working out yesterday. <BR> Last night, NOT for the first time, I had a foot spasm. <BR> In my sleep, I have had these several times since I broke that foot and they ar... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 20:30:12 EST mama said there'd be days like this!!! Well I wasnt going to go to the walking track this evening. <BR> I went out once today and it was too hot to walk, so I came home and read awhile and ate supper and then around 7pm, I changed my mind and decided to go back to the track and I am so glad I did. <BR> I walked over 3 miles and I feel fantastic!!! <BR> It was a great walk, sweaty and heart pumping!! <BR> Burning those calories. <BR> Speaking of which, today I have stayed within my calorie range better than any day in awhile. <BR> ... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 22:16:19 EST i can see the beach from here It is getting to be that time of year. <BR> Beach time!!! <BR> Normally, right now, I would be planning it out. Booking the room, finding a swimsuit that fits. <BR> Anxiously awaiting the day we started the long 8 hour drive to the beach. <BR> But not this year. <BR> Money is too tight. and so this year, summer vacation most likely, will be spent at home, on the deck. <BR> Doing very little. Planning for next year. <BR> <BR> If there is one thing I dislike, more than most things I dislike. I... Sat, 30 May 2015 08:57:41 EST changes Today on my walk, I beat my steps and distance over yesterday. <BR> I strive only to be better than I was and work harder than myself. <BR> I dont brag, but I do share my walking stats on FB. <BR> Apparently it isnt drama filled enough for most people. Very few people seem to comment on it. <BR> But I do it, for me. <BR> and to keep reminding myself that all the crap I see posted about wraps and pills and 800 calorie soup diets are just bogus and ill fated for those who try them. <BR> And may... Thu, 28 May 2015 21:49:53 EST breaking the circle cycle The weather man doesnt always get things right, and in this case, I am glad. <BR> fell asleep last night to the sound of rain, woke up with no plans to go walking. <BR> But after being up an hour, having had my coffee and cereal, I decided to just go, take a chance. <BR> Not only did it NOT rain, but it was beautiful in the park. <BR> I could have sworn that weatherman said rain. <BR> I walked my regular hour. <BR> But today I veered off the track and did a lap around the cemetery road, which... Wed, 27 May 2015 14:44:02 EST It smells like Victory!!! Today I decided to challenge and push myself a little. <BR> I added two apps to my phone to track my time, distance, etc when I walked. <BR> One of them automatically updates daily and the other I have to remember to reset. <BR> Which I didnt. <BR> I was probably 20 minutes into my walk before I remembered. <BR> But when I checked my Fit Buddy at an hour, I realized I was close to a 5k. <BR> <BR> All the time I say, "One of these days I am going to go walk in a 5k". <BR> I never used apps or... Mon, 25 May 2015 12:12:46 EST give me a t for trying Trying...... <BR> <BR> This day has been. <BR> People do... <BR> I will.... <BR> Mon, 18 May 2015 20:37:11 EST foot update. So, after a week of foot pain, I do believe it is finally beginning to ease off. <BR> I havent walked for exercise since Wednesday. But I walked some over the weekend around the local festival. <BR> Pain was worse on Thursday evening. <BR> Applying the pain cream daily and soaking my foot in epsom salt seems to have helped. <BR> I hope to try for a Tuesday morning walk. <BR> My foot issues are nothing new. <BR> I actually have, somewhere here on SP, a journal dedicated to my left foot. <BR> I... Sun, 17 May 2015 10:23:55 EST baby steps, on a sore foot. Thanks to all those who commented on my last blog. <BR> Yesterday was just an overall depressing day. <BR> Today I do feel some what better. <BR> I got up earlier and went to the walking track, but my walk was cut short due to the terrible pain in my left ankle. <BR> I thought I might need to go back to the sports injury doctor who treated me when I broke that foot 2 years ago. <BR> It is the same foot, but the pain is different. <BR> Normally, I wait it out, to make sure it isnt just a cramp... Wed, 13 May 2015 15:56:26 EST do you ever just feel...... Do you ever look at your life and wonder what is missing? <BR> I do that every single day. More here lately. <BR> I hear people say they found, or missed, their calling in life. I dont think I ever had a calling. <BR> And if I ever did, it must have not been calling too loudly. <BR> I am pushing 48 years old and I have nothing to show for my life. <BR> I mean, yeah, i have my son. <BR> But I mean, MY LIFE. <BR> I am not going to leave behind any kind of legacy. And i know what people are s... Wed, 13 May 2015 00:03:17 EST i wish i was a loser I have walked every day this week. A streak for me. 4 days. and I feel so good. <BR> I have been eating pretty healthy as well. <BR> I have gone over my calories slightly. But overall, I am doing well. <BR> Feeling like I am getting myself back into the right routine, waking up earlier to go walk before the sun and heat get too much. <BR> However, as usual, the same old broken record I have been playing for the last year. <BR> No weight loss. <BR> In fact, I was up 2 pounds this morning. I w... Wed, 6 May 2015 15:40:27 EST trying to not go back I woke up this morning, and turned on the heat. <BR> Yesterday it was somewhat warm, but so windy that I couldnt walk. <BR> I did go today. <BR> Glad to have been able to, for the first time in a week. <BR> I dont even know what is going on with our weather, but it was the same way last year. Seemed like it took forever for spring and summer to come and stay. <BR> <BR> Well anyway. <BR> I have done well today, so far. Let me just stay on track today and get thru the evening snacking hours th... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 15:56:44 EST trying to get it back I am very depressed today. And it is only 9am!! <BR> All night last night, thru bouts of sleep, I just kept waking up with these thoughts of who has done me wrong, and the bad things that I will face when I wake up and meet each day. <BR> The weight is only a little part of that. <BR> I have exercised alot over the last couple of days and have gotten outside in the sun and fresh air. <BR> So, I dont know what has infiltrated my psyche to this point. <BR> But, I live with this constant state o... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 09:33:35 EST Trying....times. First I just want to ask, if anyone out there has any legal expertise in this area, if you are injured on the job, to the point that you have to have surgery, and be off on workers comp for several months, can your employer cancel your health insurance??? Since, technically you have not quit the job or been fired, are still considered an employee???? <BR> <BR> Yesterday, it was such a nice day. I walked an hour, and came home and cleaned house. Ate healthy all day, til supper time. <BR> We d... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 13:18:10 EST Trying (harder)! Some of you may have noticed, that each of my last few blogs have been titled, Trying. Well, I have decided to stick to this theme for awhile. <BR> It serves as a reminder to me not to give up. Trying, as I stated in the first blog of the name, has more than one meaning. <BR> Some days, trying, means, I am working it. <BR> And other days, means, it is working me. <BR> Trying today to get in an hour walk. <BR> And get some final touches done to my new porch, going to start doing some landscapi... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 09:39:57 EST Trying, day 2. Well once again, I find trying obstacles in my way. Rain. But it is ok. I am seeing reports of better weather to come for the weekend and I will get some good walking days. <BR> As for today, I will do my strength and stair stepper. <BR> So far, so good. <BR> Time to eliminate all that sugar that is still floating around thru my body. <BR> My PCOS is in full force and I look like a teenage boy with the acne. <BR> Does this ever end??? <BR> Even the meds I take dont seem to help. <BR> And it ... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 10:47:18 EST trying, has more than one meaning. Foot issues. <BR> Weather issues. <BR> Trying my patience. I have been trying to walk but so many obstacles in my way. <BR> I was so disappointed in myself when I got on the scale at the doctors office Monday. <BR> I know, <BR> I have to own it and work thru it and change it. <BR> I am trying. <BR> I am eating healthier, for awhile I wont even lie, or sugar coat it, and speaking of sugar, that is pretty much what happened to me. <BR> I went totally off track and was eating cookies and cake a... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 09:05:21 EST better Doing better. Getting to walk more often now. The next few days are going to be rain days. So, I am getting my hair doo day in. <BR> Feeling better. With each day of sunlight, I feel my spirit and mood lifting. The depression and SAD, I was experiencing during the long storm of a few weeks ago is lessening with each day. <BR> and my bones dont ache so much. <BR> Eating better. <BR> It has been over a week since I ate any "junk" food. Well, does skinney cow ice cream count?? <BR> I have been ... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 22:13:08 EST but what do i know Ok SP friends, here is the question of the day. <BR> Are you a weight loss snob???? <BR> <BR> Well, ok, maybe SNOB isnt the exact word. Expert? Queen of all Knowledge? lol, come up with your own and feel free to share. <BR> <BR> Here is the reason I ask. <BR> I often see people on Facebook discussing weight loss. And it usually involves some magic pill, or some clinic who will CURE them of their weight problem in only 30 days, or 60 or 90, whatever their insurance will pay or however much ... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 08:40:34 EST