SOFT_VAL67's SparkPeople Blog SOFT_VAL67's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community ready for the free fall I have never been a fan of roller coasters. Just like everyone, I like the thrill and fear of coming down, but its the going up that I cant stand. <BR> Same can be said of my weight. <BR> Which has been stuck on a roller coaster for about 2 years now. <BR> But its not one of them big wild twisting upside down roller coasters, its more like the little park coasters for children. <BR> The ups and downs arent all that big. <BR> In the last few weeks I have known the thrill of coming down. <BR> ... Tue, 27 Sep 2016 12:29:11 EST dont look behind me cause it aint there!!! Switched the custom orthotics out of my shoes again this morning, I had a pair here that my mom had given me, they were kinda flat and cheap looking so I didnt know if they would be any good. <BR> But I had a really good walk, turns out they are custom to go into shoes made specifically for people with diabetes. <BR> Which I dont have. <BR> But she had a couple of extra pairs of the inserts and so they seemed to really have a good feel to them. <BR> And no blisters!! <BR> Down another 3lbs th... Wed, 21 Sep 2016 14:19:40 EST lets try this for awhile The best laid plans, foiled again. <BR> Today the plan was to walk 4 miles. I took some comment advice and put my orthotics back into my shoes and at first, the first two miles were going well. <BR> Only minimal pain in the feet, but around about 2.5 my right arch started aching. Getting more sore with each step. <BR> So, I finished up at 3.1 miles, still a good walk, and now, I have a blister on the inside of my arch. <BR> My left foot, the one I was having trouble with, seems to have none... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 09:53:42 EST stuff on a monday Down another pound!!! <BR> I am celebrating this little loss. Yet.....the self critic in me says....if you hadnt had that roll with dinner the other night, or those two pieces of bread last night you might be down 2 lbs!!! <BR> I cant disagree. <BR> But, I will take the one pound loss and be happy with it. <BR> What I am unhappy with this morning, waking up, logging onto my laptop and the dang font has changed. <BR> It is smaller and I have had to increase it twice, log off, log back in, but... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 06:18:17 EST the calm friendly weekend I have been getting to walk every morning, with the exception of one day last week when I had an appt. <BR> And today, due to the rain. <BR> But yesterday was a good walk, while not as long, it was nice, because I went fishing with honey, and while he fished, I walked. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It is in a park area where there are no 4 wheelers, or loud trucks, etc. <BR> I live in a rural area in the hills of Eastern... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 07:38:57 EST hold your water please!! According to my scale, I am down 1 lb for this past week and that makes 7 since my last doc appointment on August 26. <BR> Seems unreal. <BR> But I dont get my hopes up too high, i have learned the hard way. <BR> But right now, even though its such a small amount, 1 lb is my only recent victory. <BR> I hate to make this announcement, but I am going to have to cut down on my coffee intake. <BR> I am not sure, but lately, the last 3 or 4 days, I have noticed a slightly rapid heartbeat. <BR> I a... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 06:33:18 EST chop dice steam I am happy to announce I have lost 5 pounds. <BR> I am working really hard to keep that off and lose 5 more before I go back to the doctor in two weeks. <BR> That is my goal. <BR> I am not going to fret if I dont. <BR> I have been adding more time and steps to my daily walks. <BR> And more intensity, taking the streets instead of just staying on the track. <BR> Our little town is built on a hillside and while I am not able to walk to the main top, I do add one or two good steep street climbs ... Fri, 9 Sep 2016 05:51:51 EST September I was really looking forward to September. I knew the mornings would be a little cooler and I would get to walk without dying from heat stroke. <BR> But then yesterday, my calender pops up on my phone, and I see how many appointments I have this month. <BR> I am just about tired of running. <BR> I think I have 3 doctors appts and one heart test scheduled. <BR> and no, I am not sick. I just have routine appointments, not to mention I am pretty sure I have a dentist appointment sometime this m... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 05:21:46 EST Off-Ramp!! So, I went ahead and unhooked my new cpap machine and hooked my old one back up. <BR> I have used it the last two nights. <BR> Despite the fact that my doctor ordered the new one so that they could monitor it thru wifi, I did not bother to put it online until a few nights ago when I began having trouble with it. <BR> The reason he changed my machine is that the old one was building pressure too fast and too often, I was constantly having to ramp it thru the night, waking me up. <BR> So, other... Wed, 31 Aug 2016 06:41:33 EST make my coffee triple strong please I havent blogged in a little bit. Dont know why, just been sticking to Netflix and not getting on SP much other than to track fitness and nutrition. <BR> I am doing a little better, I got my shoes back from the repair shop and walked 4 miles yesterday. <BR> Adding more fiber to my diet and trying to watch my calories. <BR> I can do better. <BR> Every meal is a learning experience, what could I have left out and what will I know to leave out next time. <BR> Trying to stay positive, but I am s... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 09:39:44 EST no walk for you shoe Well....... <img src=""> <BR> The saga continues. <BR> The search for shoes is back on! <BR> They were pretty on the webpage. The reviews were mostly good. They looked good in the box. <BR> They even looked decent when I put them on. <BR> But, that was not a happy moment. <BR> I had a feeling before I ever tried them on that they were going to be way too small. <BR> And they were. <BR> They werent WAY small, but j... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 14:59:18 EST blue sky monday There was a time when I would have gotten a letter in the mail like the one I got today, and I would have been so upset, distraught, angry, scared and worried and anxious. <BR> But not now. <BR> I am ready for a change. I am over sitting and worrying about something I have no control over. <BR> I will take whatever comes my way and I will deal with it. <BR> That thing YOU are going thru, that worrisome and scary unsure situation, believe me, it isnt as bad as you might think. <BR> Whatever t... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 11:04:56 EST and they are grape and pink!!! I did it!!!! <BR> I bite the bullet, pushed order, and ordered me a new pair of running shoes!!! <BR> I may end up sending them back if they arent wide enough because I just couldnt find a pair in wide, but I am currently wearing a regular width and we will see how it goes. <BR> Luckily I ordered from zappos and they offer free shipping and free return shipping. <BR> I have ordered from them before and never had a complaint. <BR> So, in around a week, hopefully I will get the shoes and give t... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 10:34:37 EST over or under support Over pronate, underpronate. I have read and read up on the subject. <BR> Flat feet you are more likely to overpronate??? <BR> Is this the case, because then I look for shoes made for that issue and I when I read reviews on the shoe, it is the total opposite. <BR> I dont want to end up with the shoe that does the opposite of what I need it to do. <BR> <BR> The last few weeks I have been doing some comparison shopping for some new walking shoes and have had ZERO luck. <BR> I am very choosy wh... Wed, 10 Aug 2016 10:37:35 EST which shoe shoe shoe making me blue!!!! Ok walking and running sparkers. <BR> I have broken the internet, shut down five websites and confused myself to no end!!! <BR> I cannot decide, which shoes to buy. <BR> I have researched, compared prices, read reviews, and added and removed more shoes from more shopping carts this week than I can count. <BR> This morning I put my gel inserts back into my Saucony cohesion and wore them to the track instead of the asics. <BR> So, even though I was dead set against buying Saucony again, now I a... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 11:37:00 EST dwelling on the good Philip H. <BR> I don't care what you're wearing, or how much make-up you have on or don't have on; it's just you that makes you so pretty,i know It's quite peculiar for bees and butterflies to not notice a beautiful flower like you,angel you look divine! If I were to present your picture in heaven, so many angels will hide their face in shame. <BR> <BR> This is a message I got on Facebook. It was in my filtered messages and I only just read it last night. I dont know this person, and I am ... Wed, 3 Aug 2016 05:59:55 EST and searching for a bathroom. Another day, another no dollar! <BR> Walked a very little amount this morning, due to rain, then heat, then pain in the foot. <BR> I am at my wits end about what to do over my foot. <BR> I am still trying to decide which shoes to go with, and hoping some new gel inserts will help in the meantime. <BR> Getting old!!! <BR> Started out on this new bp med the doc changed me to today. <BR> Chlorthalidone. <BR> A diuretic that I am to use in combo with my aldactone, which is also a diuretic. <BR> S... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 12:50:43 EST makes ya heart go boom boom sighhhhh Today I got good news!!!! <BR> Nothing like WHAM KABOOM, but just a good heart review. <BR> I had an appointment with the cardiologist, and he asked me a leg long list of questions, did an ekg, and then told me he wanted to do a stress test. <BR> We walked down the hallway, me answering questions about exercise, telling him I try to walk daily, when I dont have early doc appts to be at and such.... <BR> He asked me about how long I walk, I told him I try to do 3 miles every day that I walk an... Mon, 1 Aug 2016 13:52:00 EST cream cheese dreams do come true!! Well, as this day is winding down, I can say, it had its ups and its lows. <BR> First, I went straight to my doctors appt this mornng, and was happy that my blood pressure was under control and that I was actually down 8 pounds since my last visit. <BR> 4 less than the goal I had set, but I will take any weight loss and be happy for it. <BR> Afterwards, I drove to two different shoe stores, and was disappointed, but not surprised that neither of them had Brooks. <BR> But I tried on a pair of ... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 16:25:18 EST Thursday blog Just read a great article on shoe shopping and finding the perfect pair. The writer told of how she went to many stores and tried on many pairs. <BR> I dont really have that option, in the town nearest me, we have two shoe stores that sell better quality shoes. <BR> I can, and have ordered online, and probably will, but I have had to send shoes back because they didnt fit. <BR> I hate the bother of it. <BR> I type in the brand of shoe i am interested in and dozens of sites come up, and none ... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 15:46:22 EST flea flea fi fo fum humdrum. So, I got up early today, and took my dog to the vet. After the flea situation I have been dealing with the last few weeks, she started scooting on the carpet, something she never does. <BR> <BR> We have done everything under the blue sky to fight these things. This weekend we are going to try deep steam cleaning. <BR> First thing I did this morning when I got up was check her over really well, and I didnt see any fleas on her. <BR> Did find a few jumping around still in the carpet in the ... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 12:01:11 EST second time around blog First of all, this is my second blog today so no points for this one. <BR> Earlier I had posted a pretty long blog, all about how sometimes it is best to manually enter a food into the spark tracker to get the correct nutrional values, as some people enter a food, but dont enter all the info. <BR> So, I have been watching that really close and if a nutrient I am tracking isnt listed, I manually enter it, to make sure I am tracking as closely as possible. and the rest of the blog was about ho... Mon, 25 Jul 2016 11:52:27 EST i hope to be laughing on my death bed. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I got some good comments on my blog yesterday. But I felt I needed to clarify, I wasnt trying to be self depracating. I was just being honest, I dont go to the track to impress anyone, in fact, I might come across as a little bit of a rude walker. <BR> I choose to not have a walking partner, as I prefer that time to just listen to my music and my own thoughts. <BR> I have had friends walk ... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 11:07:08 EST are you here again?? It is such a beautiful, but deadly hot day. I sat on the deck for a little while, allowing my hair to dry naturally in the sun, but it was just too hot. <BR> I got out of bed early this morning and got to the track before the heat got up. <BR> I walked an extra ten minutes this morning. <BR> I loved it though. <BR> <BR> Now, school starts back in just under 3 weeks, so, I look for the hoards of walking moms to start showing up. <BR> It is a pattern. Starts around mid to late August, all ... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 15:14:51 EST my kingdom for a swim I have done so much better today than I did yesterday. <BR> I have stuck completely to my calories, fat, carbs, etc. <BR> I didnt get a very long walk, as I got a late start to the track then I got held up in traffic for so long by the time I got there it was so hot, but I did walk 25 minutes. <BR> So theres that. <BR> I feel much better about today. <BR> We are under a heat wave they are saying. Its been about 90 here all day. <BR> So its been staying indoors with the ac going full throttl... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 18:17:34 EST today stuff Blah!! <BR> I am tired, and sleepy. I have been fighting sleep since about 3pm. I guess early bedtime for me tonight. <BR> I am trying to decide what to have for supper, since my kitchen sink is clogged, and No, I dont have a dishwasher. <BR> I had one, and I took it out. I never used it, I thought it used too much energy and water. <BR> And besides I like the extra cabinet space better. <BR> However, with said clogged drain, means no dish washing tonight. <BR> or, until it is fixed. <BR> So... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 16:17:07 EST battles won, lost and still fighting. "I often dream of nights that set <BR> and watch the rising sun <BR> And I spoke to you of life and of the battles I had won <BR> a warm wind blowin' memories, makes me long for home <BR> but a cold wind blows much harder and makes me wanna roam" <BR> <BR> Everyone is fighting some kind of battle. <BR> Weight, health, relationship, job. Family, Debt. <BR> I know despair, but not total desperation. <BR> I know worry, but not total defeat. <BR> <BR> How often do we really feel defeated?? I d... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 09:44:47 EST walking sweat hair dont care Rubbed my feet down last night with Voltaren gel and took two aleves. There was no pain today. <BR> But I did get a late start to the track, still got in 45 minutes, and a good sweat worked up. <BR> Looking forward to getting some new shoes soon and cooler days ahead mean more miles on the track. <BR> Tomorrow I do hope to get another good walk and keep the streak alive, it is 4 days today. <BR> and tomorrow I will get a new doo, and color, cant wait to get rid of the frizzies and humidity ha... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 12:42:44 EST I hope my feet hold up and everything attached to them!!! Fixing the last little kettle of green beans from our patch. <BR> We didnt put out a garden, just thought we would experiement with some green beans and see how it went. <BR> We got three decent size messes of beans. <BR> I am going to look into a few tomato and pepper plants next. <BR> <BR> My feet are hurting. Not HURRRRTING, but aching. Today when I got to the track, I took those first few steps and thought there is no way I am going to finish this walk. <BR> I told myself I would be luc... Tue, 12 Jul 2016 16:31:53 EST walking==real good feel good stuff I have really enjoyed getting back to the walking track these last couple of days. I missed it, and had really forgotten just how much better I feel while walking. <BR> I will admit, not having walked much in the last couple of weeks has caught up to me and after about 20 minutes this morning, I was almost ready to throw in the towel. <BR> However, I toughed it out and ended up walking just over an hour. <BR> I hope the rain holds out and I can get in another early morning walk tomorrow. I ... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 13:24:05 EST i am awake, i have to remind myself sometimes. Dreading having to venture out today to take my cpap card to be downloaded. It is about a 20 mile drive one way, and I hate driving in rain. Which lets face it, if I dont drive in rain, I will never drive because it has rained here for days and we are supposed to get more. <BR> I have to go back to the doctor on the 18th and should have had the card downloaded before now so he can assess me and see if my pressure/etc needs changed. <BR> Other than that, I am looking forward to stopping by th... Fri, 8 Jul 2016 09:00:09 EST but i am ready for sunshine and feeling good I dont know if it is the cold/allergies, or whatever this is that has invaded my space, but I wake up every morning feeling even worse. <BR> I woke up around 230 am with my throat very sore. <BR> I am beginning to wonder if maybe its my c-pap. But I went back to sleep, and when I got back up again around 7, I felt so tired. <BR> I feel just exactly the way you feel when you are in the middle of having a cold. <BR> Tired, sleepy, lethargic. <BR> The thing is, today makes day 8 that I have bee... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 08:25:26 EST wash it all away, if i had water that is!! Up early this morning. I got up to almost no water pressure, this is disturbing on many levels. <BR> I dont know what is going on, but this has happened a few times in the last few weeks. <BR> Hopefully it restores later. <BR> I am still sick, but not as bad, each day I feel a little better. <BR> Today makes a full week, sore throat, congestion, luckily the cough hasnt been too bad this time. <BR> Second round of this since the end of May. <BR> I started taking the ester-c immune boost, hopef... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 05:54:27 EST what we leave on our journey Good and bad things can happen simultaneously! <BR> I havent been here in a few days. On Thursday I wrote about how Honey was getting to go back to work and he did on Friday. <BR> He left about 5 that morning, work hadnt even started yet when they had to call him back outside to tell him his father had died. <BR> I hated to make that phone call, but had to, I knew he would want to be there to see his dad before the coroner came to get him. <BR> Not only was he able to get back in time, but h... Tue, 5 Jul 2016 10:11:47 EST the big one!!! Havent blogged in a few days. <BR> Friday night I went to Ashland to see Jason Isbell in concert, And I loved it, still cant get over how great it was and looking forward to going to see him again soon. <BR> Went fishing on Sunday and caught two catfish, Honey caught two also, but I caught the biggest one!! <BR> We dont keep them, we just catch and release, its just for fun. <BR> Maybe one day I will keep them and have a great big fish dinner on the grill. <BR> Other than that, not much to r... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 14:20:37 EST its dim, but its a glimmer! They say it is darkest just before dawn. <BR> I dont know about that. I am rarely awake that early. <BR> But lets hope. <BR> I wont go into detail right now, but there is a light at the end of the long dark tunnel of despair my family has been facing. <BR> All I can say is, if you believe in prayer, if you believe in good vibes, or whatever it is, please send those thoughts for my family. <BR> I will tell more when I know more. <BR> I guess superstition is getting the better of me and I dont ... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 12:38:08 EST I might make an old timey one from chicken feathers!! Woke up feeling....not so good. <BR> But after an hour or so, I got ready and went to the walking track. It was a hot steamy humid morning after a big rain last night. <BR> I only walked 30 minutes, but it did make me feel better. <BR> Just trying to pinpoint what is causing this feeling. <BR> Not exactly nauseaus, no real pain. <BR> Stomach feels like one day before a stomach virus kind of feeling. <BR> I am hoping it is just that I am still adjusting to the change in dosage on some medicati... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 11:47:37 EST good thing i only made a little I hate to brag, but I make the best spagetti. <BR> So good in fact, I went back for seconds, which put me over my calories, carbs and fat for the day. <BR> Blah!!! <BR> In other exciting news. <BR> I havent done anything all day!!! <BR> Tue, 21 Jun 2016 17:52:11 EST look up look up Call your dad!! <BR> Better yet, go and see him. Take him fishing, or out to eat, or to see a ballgame. <BR> Whatever it is he is into. If he is able bodied and can go. <BR> I will be visiting my dad today at the cemetery. <BR> We had many volatile years. But some good memories as well. Time passes by too fast and you cant get it back. I would give everything in the world to go back to Feb. 4th, I would have sat around and talked to my dad longer, instead of rushing off. <BR> But whats do... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 08:39:05 EST excuses.....excuse me while I swoon..... I had to cut my walk short this morning. <BR> Only got half an hour, but that was better than the day before when I didnt walk at all. <BR> Reason 1 was my own fault, I got there after the sun had gotten high in the sky and it was already getting hot out. <BR> That didnt bother me too much, I was working up a good sweat and feeling good about getting a full hour. <BR> Reason 2 was that I got sick, I started getting too hot and got dizzy and my stomach started churning and I felt like I was go... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 09:19:13 EST good thing the exam table isnt made of leather! Where to begin. Blah, this day!! <BR> Got up at 5 am, was dreading the day too much to sleep. I had to be at one doctors office at 8, for the very simple purpose of rescheduling a test. Not like they could do this over the phone, no, I had to go in and sign papers. <BR> Got weighed there, and they very rudely informed me I have gained 2 pounds, well, thanks, its not like I wasnt feeling bad enough about it, but to have it said with a condescending smirk. <BR> That finally finished, I had t... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 15:56:35 EST demented and sad, but social!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Last night, I was feeling very discouraged. I was trying to understand the pecking order, or the food chain. <BR> How can one family be struggling, not knowing if they will be able to pay their bills, put food on the table or even if they will have a table in a few months??? <BR> And, the family right next door is thriving, going on trips to grand cities like Rome, and buying new cars, livi... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 09:20:07 EST the evening is dark and full of excuses!! Walked today. <BR> I finally had no appointments, no cough, or sore throat, and my car is finally fixed. <BR> So I got out of bed at 630, put on my walking shoes, (and clothes of course) and went to the track. <BR> I had no real time in mind, I was just telling myself if I didnt have a coughing fit I would try for a mile at least, but I ended up walking almost three miles. 50 minutes. <BR> And I wish now I had pushed myself on to finish the hour. <BR> I have missed walking, and cannot wait t... Tue, 7 Jun 2016 12:00:18 EST no donuts for me today!! I am going to TRY. I am going to TRY REALLLLLLY HARD. <BR> To stay positive, and to stay on track today. <BR> I am going to walk and I am going to just try to focus on what I can control and accomplish today. <BR> So far, I have sparked and I have had a nice healthy protein breakfast. <BR> Despite that I still havent gotten my car fixed, I will just borrow my moms until it is. <BR> I hope the rain holds off long enough tomorrow to get in a day of fishing, maybe even go this evening late right... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 10:28:42 EST one is the one. Up early this morning, cant say I slept well at all. I very badly need to go mattress shopping. <BR> That is right at the top of the list of things I need to buy when I have some money to buy it with. <BR> But I sat up late watching Roots, I wasnt going to get into that show but it just happened to grab my attention. <BR> So, here I sit, watching it sprinkle rain outside and wondering how many days in June we will see rain. <BR> It was recorded that we had rain 26 days out of 31 in May, here... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 08:31:08 EST easy as pie, who said pie!!!! I had been doing pretty good sticking to low carbs, until dinner, when I had two rolls!! <BR> I have given myself a black eye and a kick in my own pants!!! <BR> So, now to move past it. <BR> The sun has been shining the last couple of days so I have been trying to take advantage and get outside, hoping to help improve my outlook. <BR> I am not going to lie, its hard to remain positive when the outlook is so bleak. <BR> Honey hasnt had a chance to even go job hunting, his dad has recently beco... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 18:50:30 EST misery loves more miserable acts There is this lingering hacking cough, and congestion deep down in my chest. I hack and hack and yield nothing but annoyance. <BR> I probably did need antibiotics afterall, but the nuisance of having to try to see a doctor, convince them that I have more than a simple cold. <BR> Not worth the trouble for me. <BR> I have no means of transportation atm and do not like the idea of asking others to take me, spend their day doing something they probably would much rather not be doing. <BR> Hopefu... Tue, 31 May 2016 12:26:29 EST may closes Often, I write blogs, that are just exercises to myself, to be able to release pent up anger, or maybe to just be able to see the words and know that they are real. <BR> I appreciate the support. <BR> Do we say Happy Memorial Day? <BR> Its not a very happy occasion afterall. Remembering lives lost. <BR> I guess we should just be grateful to them for their sacrifice. <BR> I am just glad that we have nice weather, while I am still hacking and coughing to no avail. <BR> And this constant rin... Mon, 30 May 2016 08:26:40 EST i have been expecting the grim reaper but he hasnt shown up yet!! So, I am still sick, not as bad as I was but just now starting to get a little less yucky. <BR> Monday, my nose ran as though I had an open faucet, just poured. <BR> Tuesday I was congested and hurting all over, aches and pains to the point of laying in bed moaning and hollering like a wounded animal. <BR> Cough, hack, cough, wheezing noises I cannot even begin to describe have interferred with what little sleep I have had. <BR> But today at least I havent begged for death to come claim me. <... Wed, 25 May 2016 11:13:08 EST sick of being sick Rain has dominated the month of May. According to the local weather channel, the coverage area has seen rain 20 out of 23 days this month. <BR> Finally it let up some and yesterday it didnt rain until late evening. <BR> Then a down pour. <BR> Today the sun seems to be trying to come out and the temps might climb out of the 50s today. <BR> But no walking for me. <BR> I am sick and so is my car. <BR> Not sure what is wrong with either of us. My throat started aching Saturday evening and hasnt ... Mon, 23 May 2016 10:50:04 EST