SNOOKUMS19's SparkPeople Blog SNOOKUMS19's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community bad place Lots of stresses right now. So how do I The food is awful. I am going to Zumba. Thank God. So many stresses. I am emotionally eating like crazy.... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 15:38:18 EST day 3 One day at a time. Today was better. I got some things done and made a nice dinner. Feeling better. It is unbelievable the difference when I'm not hormonally upset. So sad. I'm trying. Today is better. I have a pinched nerve in my neck so no Zumba for a while. I'm determined to go on an hour long walk 4 times a week until I can get back to my Zumba love. One moment at a time my friends.... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 17:45:11 EST Day 2 So day 2 of blogging. I did eat better yesterday and mostly today. The day was better. My baby starts his senior year of high school tomorrow. I'm not handling it well. Perimenopaus plus extended family stress doesn't help either. Perimenipause is kicking my butt. One day at a time with it all. But I'm Sparking..... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 17:16:29 EST Done with summer!!!! Time to move forward. This summer sucked. In so many ways. My mom mentioned she hasn't heard of me sparking in a while. So here I am. Ready to get healthy. Tue, 8 Sep 2015 16:54:21 EST Yay!! I'm down 1.7 pounds! Woo Hoo! Since last Wednesday! Feeling pretty good! I'm headed to Zumba tonight. I'm happy for that. I had a pretty awesome weekend! Josh had his prom and it was wonderful to see him all dressed up handsome and with amazing friends! We went to see a scary movie yesterday which was a blast! Visited with a friend with terminal cancer at 49. We had a beautiful relaxing lunch with him on a patio and laughed and reminenced about our 25 year friendship. It was really... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 15:33:38 EST feeling more on track We had Josh's end of the year concert last night. It was awesome. I can't believe he will be a senior in the fall!!!! Lots of emotions. All good though. I'm feeling better about taking care of myself. I'm drinking my water. We are having dinner with my father inlaw tonight. I'm resting up today. I'll get some cleaning done later in the day. <BR> <BR> fat free plain greek yogurt with an orange and blueberries <BR> tuna with broccoli, tomatoes, sweet peppers 2 tbsp of olive oil and ... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 13:11:09 EST better day I went to my WW meeting this morning and that helped. I went shopping and got more healthy options for the house. I went for an hour walk this morning with mom. That was great. <BR> <BR> 1/2 cup fat free plain yogurt with orange slices for breakfast. <BR> salad with one egg, 1 slice of bacon, grilled chicken, 1/8th avocado and veggies. <BR> 1 cup soy milk for coffee. <BR> 1 activia yogurt <BR> 4 oz lowfat cheddar on broccoli and tomatoes with 2 tbsp olive oil and balsamic. <BR> grapes <... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 16:40:26 EST Not feeling it I have the best intentions but lately....ugh...still. All of my cheating is showing up on me. My hips are growing my clothes seem to be shrinking. I'm getting sad about this. We are going away in August and I have to get this together. My mood is suffering. Feeling defeated. Tue, 2 Jun 2015 13:52:52 EST 3 and 1/2 bagels... Not the way to start the day. Ugh. That seems to be my word about myself lately. I'm going to reign it back the rest of the day. I'm fighting a migraine today. Ugh. So much stress and sadness in my life lately. It won't be getting better any time soon so I need to buckle up and take care of myself. Which I definitely haven't been. Time to regroup. Again.... Going away with the hubby this weekend. Thank God. Ready to relax with him this weekend. I will drink lots of water this wee... Mon, 18 May 2015 10:18:30 EST ugh Such a bad place. Really. Lots of stress over here. So I've gained 18 pounds back of the 30 I lost...Since December...:-( This morning I woke up and ate 2 huge 2 cookies. For breakfast!!!! I need perspective and accountability. I'm back. Wed, 13 May 2015 08:30:16 EST Thursday Feeling yuck over here. I had a huge binge day on Sunday and my body is still not happy with me. Since eating so clean for 9 months now I really feel what it does to my body now when I abuse it with food. Ugh. Adam is growing up so fast. He went away to visit a friend at college for a few days. A little preview of what will be when he goes away. Ugh. It's so strange. You spend 18 years raising them and then it hurts so much to know you did it. :-( Josh is so busy. I worry about hi... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 07:48:18 EST Wow I'm up 2.6 pounds in two weeks. Ugh. That was a wake up call. I will be better. It's time. I hope life will get back to normal now that the holidays are over. I'm working on normal. It's snowing here today. Very pretty but I'm not getting much accomplished. Oh well. I'm taking my time. Mon, 12 Jan 2015 12:58:15 EST It's been a while!!!!!!1 Ugh! Huge binge tonight. I need my Sparkies! It's been way too long. I've been at my goal weight for 9 months tomorrow. Wow! I have been fantastic lately with food choices. Tonight...ugh.... I am out of most of my healthy staples and I'm fighting a stomach thing. I can tell. I weigh in tomorrow. So binging was pretty crazy. Oh well. I feel yuck!!!!! ugh. Tue, 6 Jan 2015 19:26:38 EST ugh second day of period and ugh..... choices are crazy. like a cup of chocolate chips and a cherry pastry for breakfast...ugh. I am just a mess today. I feel awful. Just awful. Tomorrow will be better but I so have to get through today. I need to get out and vote too. I will. I just need a little time. I am still perfect in my goal weight. That is good. It's just a day. Tue, 4 Nov 2014 13:28:05 EST Tough day So today wasn't easy. I met a friend for coffee and discussed her separation. It was so sad. I felt so bad for the whole family. :-( I also got an email from the company that I'm supposed to work for. I have to meet an associate again to do paperwork we did months ago. I'm feeling quite overwhelmed with this. IO want to work but I"m so nervous about it. Without any good reason really. I haven't worked outside the home in 16 years. I'm just overwhelmed. I'm trying to push forward b... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 14:38:21 EST Wednesday Feeling quiet today. I'm getting things done but slowly. I'm coming up on my one year anniversary of starting with Weight Watchers and this weight loss. It been 6 months at my goal weight now! Wow! This starts a new level of weight loss for me. 6 months has been the longest it has ever been and then I fall off the food wagon. So I will watch myself and be kind to me. I'm trying to take it one day at a time over here. Things are pretty good over all around here. Adam seems to be doi... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 11:28:31 EST Not so great I had a 2 pound weight gain!!!!! ugh. I'm not sure why. Maybe hormonal changes. perimenapous stuff. I'm trying to watch everything this week. We will see. Tue, 16 Sep 2014 09:07:54 EST Wednesday So I binged on cinnamon bread yesterday. :-( 7 slices. Ugh. So I go to Zumba this morning. Yup. I tracked all of it. I will be cleaning this afternoon. The house needs it. Our friend is getting his port put in today. Sending prayers to him that the chemo does its job quickly. Another gorgeous day here! Just beautiful! Hope my Sparkies have a great day! Wed, 10 Sep 2014 08:33:38 EST Monday Woo Hoo! Down 1.8 pounds! Yay! Now I'm just 1.6 pounds up from my ideal weight. I can do this! New goal. I'm going to window shop for a new dress for my hubby's Christmas party! That will keep me motivated to keep the weight off so I can wear it in December! Score! We told the boys last night about our friends cancer. It was very difficult on them but it is better that they know. We should know more on Thursday. The weather here is gorgeous! Hope my Sparkies are having a good Mon... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 14:05:30 EST Sunday Yesterday went well with food. Our friend will need me to go to his doctors appointments with him this week. That will be emotional. I ned to make healthy choices even if I want to binge. Joe and I are going grocery shopping today. That will help get healthy foods in the house. I jump on the scale tomorrow. I think I will be happy with the number. My food choices have been much better since I weighed in on Wednesday. We are having breakfast with my in laws this morning. I'll get mor... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 08:40:33 EST Friday So the food choices have been better since Wednesday. I will hit a Zumba class tomorrow morning. We have a lot of stress over here lately. Our amazing friend has colon cancer that is also on his liver. I brought him for his colonoscopy yesterday. Today he goes to the oncologist for the first time. We have to tell the boys tonight that their grandmother is having open heart surgery in November. She has to have a valve repaired. She is 70 but a very healthy 70. Very scary though. Also... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 09:57:48 EST ugh Up 3.4 pounds in one week! ugh. So back to basics. Greek yogurt with grapes and orange slices for breakfast. Tuna with broccoli, tomatoes, peppers and olive oil and balsamic vinegar for lunch. I'm boiling some boneless chicken breasts. I'll have some of that with broccoli, tomatoes, artichokes and sweet peppers for dinner. I'll go to Zumba tonight. Here we go. Wed, 3 Sep 2014 13:37:46 EST What a busy weekend Food choices pretty good. Not great but when I'm away its hard to be perfect. So today I need to go grocery shopping. We are out of everything healthy. I will head out soon. Life is pretty quiet here today. I'm happy about that. Adam is at college, Josh is hanging in his room. I"m catching up on some tv. I had some soup and salad for lunch. I had 2 eggs with some sautéed peppers, artichokes and tomatoes for breakfast. Yum. I will be making some coffee and soy milk soon. Josh sta... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 12:39:03 EST So not so good yet... I was doing so well today. Yogurt with berries for breakfast, cottage cheese with salad for lunch and a small piece of chicken parm with broccoli for dinner....then I remembered the chocolates....ugh. My sister in law made them for the party and left them all HERE!!!! ugh. So they weren't sent to work with Joe. :-( So I have to figure out points for all of that.... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 18:28:53 EST Now life will officially get back to normal!!!! We had my inlaws 50th wedding Anniversary party at our house yesterday. 70 people! Lots of swimming, singing, dancing...and EATING! It wasn't to bad for me because hosting a party makes eating almost impossible. Drinking as well...nobody likes a drunk hostess ;-). So today is back to healthy eating. Joe brought all of the leftover cake and desserts to work. Better them than me...:-). I have plenty of fruit and veggies in the house until I get to the market to shop some more. Even th... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 08:35:47 EST Happy Birthday to me! Yesterday was my birthday! It was a very nice day but the food choices were crazy! 6 chicken wings for lunch...shared cheesecake for dessert....6 chicken wings for glass of wine...Wow! Very fun though. Back to healthy life! I'm hitting Zumba tonight. Wed, 20 Aug 2014 08:32:36 EST Not too bad.... I actually lost .4 pounds this week. Wow! I wasn't expecting that. I do know that I need to be accountable for everything I eat. I will work on getting back to basics this week. My birthday is tomorrow and we have this party Sunday so it may be a struggle but I am ready. I'm going to Zumba soon so that will be good. Mon, 18 Aug 2014 16:48:43 EST Going to meeting Thank the Lord! I am pretty out of control....I need some accountability. I'm not feeling strong or together. I have a 50th Anniversary party at my house this Sunday. I am so stressed. That does not help my emotional eating. Ugh. So I am blogging it out. I am getting the rest of my groceries in the house that I need for healthy eating. I am starting my birthday week with healthy thoughts and actions. I am going to Zumba tonight. I am working and planting in the yard today. breathe... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 08:57:38 EST Saturday Bad day.....Bad few days!!!! Starting back to basics tomorrow. Definitely! Sat, 16 Aug 2014 20:09:08 EST Tuesday Feeling bad. Feeling off. The death of Robin Williams is hitting me. So sad. It makes me think about depression. How awful this is. It keeps a human a prisoner in their body and mind. It's hard to see on the outside. No symptoms that can be viewed by others. But inside the turmoil.... I will drink water today. I will take vitamins. I will work on me. Tue, 12 Aug 2014 08:04:34 EST Sunday Another not so great day. I'm feeling defeated lately. I'm getting stressed about a family party. I'm feeling stressed about Adam starting college. I'm feeling not in control of my eating. I weigh in tomorrow so that should put things in perspective one way or another. We were supposed to go to NYC today but unfortunately our plans changed. So I'm trying to wrap my brain around the day. I didn't get any exercise in this week...ugh. That will mess with my mind...and body. I will be ... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 08:48:09 EST blog 2 I'm feeling yuck. The weather is very ominous and dreary over here. I'm trying to be very good here with the food. I'll make a cup of tea. That will help. I have a busy night ahead of me but not until 6:45. So I have 2 hours of distracting myself. We have a lot of errand to run tomorrow so I should be happy to rest while I can. Thu, 7 Aug 2014 16:49:23 EST Trying something new I'm moving from counting points to Simply Filling on Weight Watchers. I need the feeling of volume and fullness lately. I will give this a go and see how I do. I had my 2nd day of work today! A little more stressful but that is ok. I am ready to be done with training really. I just want to get to it! I'm thrilled to have a job to start when the school year begins! Yay! Thu, 7 Aug 2014 13:34:50 EST doing better I was supposed to go to training tonight but the computers are down...So at least I can rest up for the night. Food choices not great but still on track with points. So I will rest up and eat healthy tonight. I did get quite a bit done today. So that is good. I will get some more done tonight. Tue, 5 Aug 2014 16:33:52 EST feeling yuck exhausted this morning. Not the way to start the day. I have things to get accomplished today. Just feeling so tired. Food was not good last night. Starting over today. I will drink lots of water to flush out all of the salt from last nights dinner. tired tired tired <BR> Tue, 5 Aug 2014 09:29:23 EST Feeling good I went to a family friend get together and I was thrilled! They have 4 daughters all around my age and all tall in shape and pretty. We all grew up together and I always felt...let's say...not as pretty. Well yesterday I felt awesome! I could tell the sister who is the most conscious of her appearance looking awkwardly at me...:-)..That is a good thing...:-). It was awesome to hold my own with them for an entire afternoon. Huge Score!!!! Mon, 4 Aug 2014 15:41:53 EST Yay! Down 1.4 pounds! What a score! Especially after being away for 3 days! So today is a good day! We went to the movies yesterday to see Guardians of the Galaxy! It was so fun!!! Loved it! Mon, 4 Aug 2014 11:45:13 EST home I'm so happy to be home! Josh and I went to 2 drum corp cometitions with my parents. Rutegers and the next day Allentown Pennsylvania. So a lot of driving and not so great food options but it could have been much worse. We are headed to a family friends party today. That will be nice. Hope my Sparkies are well. Sat, 2 Aug 2014 12:42:28 EST Light at the end of the tunnel... Adam is pretty much moved!!!! Yay! He is very happy with his new freedom. We are working on Josh's room now. Progress!!! My stomach is much better. Note to self...Don't run out of stomach medicine!!! Ever again!!! Drinking my water and heading to a Zumba class tonight. The weather is so gorgeous here today! Thank God!!! Wed, 30 Jul 2014 13:43:30 EST Tuesday Long day. I have so much to do. Ugh. We are in the middle of changing 3 different rooms! Adam is moving to the basement, Josh is moving to Adam's room and Josh's room will be his percussion room!!!! OMG! My brain is going to blow! Our house is trashed!!!!! Trying to breathe through it. Drinking water, eating pretty good. Say a prayer for me.... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 18:15:13 EST today is a new day Feeling better. Feeling stronger. I went to my WW meeting this morning. That always helps. I went grocery shopping and made yummy turkey meatballs for dinner. I also used that Veggetti. It makes Zuchinni into noodles and it was yum! I sautéed them up and it worked great as healthy pasta substitute. I went to Zumba despite myself and I'm feeling pretty good. I have my stomach medicine so I should feel better each day. Thanks for being here Sparkies! Mon, 28 Jul 2014 20:35:34 EST Keep checking in I'll just keep blogging until the feeling passes. Ugh. I don't want to eat but I just feel bad. I had an upset stomach earlier today. So that didn't help. I waited to long to refill the prescription. So my stomach was a mess last night. I got the medicine this morning but it was too late for my stomach . Oh well...ugh. I'm drinking my chamomile tea. So that should help. Sun, 27 Jul 2014 18:15:50 EST All out Binge First one since I started WW in November. Yuck. I feel awful. Just sick. I know the variables that brought this on. No food in the house, my inlays stopped by, I saw a friend I haven't seen in a while that for no reason of her own I feel very inferior to...oh and I am PMSing like crazy. Like crazy! I made myself a cup of tea. That should help. I had half a bag of Doritos, some chips, pretzels with Nutella and peanut butter and a bagel with healthy butter. ugh. that is a lot !!!! W... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 18:01:58 EST Thursday Tired today. I actually took a nap! I never do that! I am also starving today! I haven't felt this hungry in a while. We also don't have all of the groceries we should have in. We are shopping for food tomorrow. I've made pretty good choices for food even though I'm so hungry. That is good. Hope my Sparkies are doing well. Thu, 24 Jul 2014 16:06:35 EST Feeling better there is nothing a little Zumba can't help! :-) I got an email back from one of the managers. I will send out some paperwork to her and things should be back on track. So that is good. Josh is away at Boy Scout camp. We are headed there tonight for a parent dinner. I'm happy that he is having a good time. He deserves it. He works so hard in life. Camping is such a good get away from everything. Adam and I will run some errands for college stuff and he will work on thank you notes f... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 12:39:21 EST Wednesday Blogging. I definitely messed up my paperwork for the new job...ugh...Feeling kinda inadequate...working on it over here. I'm heading out to Zumba Toning. That should help. FYI I went to training yesterday in a new size 4 skirt and cute blouse! Yay! So I may have felt quite afraid but I looked awfully cute!!!! Yay! Score!!! Hope my Sparkies have a great day! Wed, 23 Jul 2014 10:13:12 EST It's been a while I haven't blogged in a while. So here I am. Adam graduation party went well. I just can't believe he is a high school graduate! It's been a bit emotional to say the least. I'm still wrapping my brain around it. I start my training with Weight Watchers tomorrow! I'm exited about that. Food has been ok. A lot of eating out and parties. I'm adjusting but it's messing with my brain a little. I'm glad I'm back to regular eating today. I have a lot of cleaning up to do around here. Zum... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 11:39:09 EST Thursday Feeling good! Now officially lost 32 pounds. Yay! I finished the paperwork for my Weight Watchers job! So thats good. I should start truing soon. We are having a 4th of July party here tomorrow. That should be pretty quiet and good. Hubby has Saturday and Sunday off this weekend! Woo Hoo! We will work on the food and paper products for Adam's graduation party for next weekend. I'm actually getting excited about that now! Adam is working tonight. We are hanging out watching movies... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 22:00:08 EST Thank the Lord Graduation over! Yay! It had it's trials but Adam was very happy! Food has actually gone pretty well considering. Today we went to a friends graduation party. It went well but I think I said something that may have offended someone...ugh...It's not something I should really bring up to him but I feel a bit bad. The hubby thinks he was probably so drunk that he didn't notice...but ..not sure. He will be at Adam's graduation party so that should be interesting. We went out with friends ... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 18:01:58 EST stressed out day Mom called this morning to see if I would go with her to the dr. this morning because she was worried that she was having a heart attack. She wasn't she had fallen on Saturday and the dr. thinks she was having pain from that. They did an EKG and it came back normal and she got an X-ray to check her neck and back from the fall. So a tough morning. I have some errands to run and hopefully get to Zumba tonight. Stressing about food and invitations for Adam's graduation party....ugh. I'm no... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 13:55:08 EST