SMYLESX4's SparkPeople Blog SMYLESX4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Missing in Action....but still going.... I know its been awhile since I have posted. I just want you all to know I am hanging in there had some major changes take place and I have been dealing with those changes. Still working out just not as hard core as i had been....put on a few pounds but i am getting back on track this week. <BR> <BR> I have started working two jobs...since i was unemployed for awhile need to catch up on some bills....have been going to the gym but not as regular but still at least three times a week. I do ... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 03:49:24 EST The Journey..... My Journey has been one in the making for many years. I have always wanted to have a very healthy lifestyle and be fit but life always seems to get in the way and it was never something that seemed to be something talked about as I was growing up. My brothers and sisters all played sports and outside with the other kids but I never really seen my parents take an active role in adding exercise into our lives. We did try to do family walks and even got bikes for everyone but all very short l... Mon, 9 May 2011 12:29:07 EST Why the tears??? (with pics....enjoy!) Its a Saturday morning and I decided to get up and clean and organize my closet taking out some winter stuff and things that are either too big or too small well lets just say on this journey nothing was too small but there sure was a lot that is too big and a few things i can get by with for a little while but will need belts and more to make them fit a little better. <BR> <BR> Our friends can make comments all day long about how much they can see that we have changed but we go home look in... Sat, 7 May 2011 11:26:43 EST Something just hit me....I don't know why Today as I am cleaning out my closet and looking at all the clothes that don't fit me anymore that I was wearing really not that long ago and I thought I was the bomb in them. As I was trying them on now and looking at the way they fit I had tears come to my eyes....I have come along way. <BR> What really takes us so long to realize why we have changed or even how much we have changed? I know it has taken me awhile and I love to hear that people notice. As I visited my old place of employ... Sat, 7 May 2011 10:30:03 EST Results are in for the 12 week Gym Contest!! Patiently waiting wanting to know how I did among all the other participants who entered the contest and the results finally were emailed yesterday. I did not win the overall contest for our local gym but I did win my age category!!! I was so excited...Now I will be moving on to Nationals and I am so excited about that!! I have to write an essay about my journey and go from there....wish me the best I could seriously use also comes with a free month at the local gym!!!! <BR> <BR>... Thu, 5 May 2011 07:22:00 EST Something amazing happend!! Yesterday I worked out with my trainer who truly is a wonderful guy and really makes me push myself beyond what I would do. At first I think he wasn't really sure if I was gonna do it or if he should take an easy on me but now that he has personally seen the changes he is very gun ho about it and I truly appreciate him making me feel good and giving me that added confidence!!! <BR> <BR> After I meet with him I do some more cardio and then I take an aerobics class called butts, gutts, and ca... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 09:46:31 EST I like what I see..... I look in the mirror daily and I can see the changes. At first, it didn't seem like anything was happening but then as the days have turned into months I am seeing changes and I like the changes!!! <BR> <BR> My kids are even telling me how proud they are of me!!! Wow they notice...that is something else that is truly awesome!!! <BR> <BR> The really exciting thing is that all of my workout clothes are getting big and trust me when i started they were all very fitted almost too fitted but wo... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 13:45:18 EST 12-week Gym Challenge Final Weigh in Today....... Nothing sucks more then when you have been working so hard for something and you know everything revolves around that final weight in and measurements for your results. What could possible go wrong???? In my case, it was well that lovely (or really not so lovely) female friend decided to pay me a visit the day before....ugg the things you crave and desire during that time but the blah feeling is what gets me....the lack of energy to do absolutely anything. <BR> <BR> With all that in mind ... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 13:54:48 EST How I feel about my spark friends....... I have been watching you and the results you are getting and well it encourages me to keep going. You are such a wonderful person and its been a delight being friends and just seeing how you inspire me to keep going and to make the best out of all of my lifestyle changes!!! <BR> <BR> Many things continue to happen to all of us but I know that you and I are getting so much better on our JOURNEY and its not an easy one but it has such remarkable results and well look at us.....we keep going!!... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 13:12:37 EST Monument 10k Wow!!! What a huge event with a huge amount of people!!! I was so excited for this day to finally get here and to participate. Not sure what my official time is but the last time I ran a 10k was almost 10years ago and my time was one hour and five minutes....not sure if I beat that time but I never had so much fun even though at times my foot or legs hurt it was such a great time. So many excited people of all shapes and sizes all doing the same thing I was!! I know there were many of my sp... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 16:01:23 EST Determined..... This is not about a race to go win, its not even about eating the right food when you didn't think you could. This is about a change that being on sparkpeople has brought into my life. Without going into much detail I was on my path to go visit my oldest son whom I have not seen since Christmas Eve for different reasons (usually involving transportation or work schedule). <BR> I was following my GPS system since he has moved since the last time I saw him and it told me to turn down a dirt r... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 21:07:37 EST Beautiful day for a run!!! One of my sparkfriends Julie inspired me to go for a run today. She did 10 miles the other day and I said why not its a beautiful day the sun is out I don't work let's go for a run. So I mapped out a 10 mile run and was excited about doing it. My youngest son was like Mom are you sure you can do that??? He was concerned cause he has seen me do 4mile and 5k run's but this was going to be twice as far plus some. <BR> <BR> Well I got all layered up shoes on water and protein bar and headed o... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 12:50:33 EST New month new focus! This month I am making some more healthy lifestyle changes that will help me be kinder to myself and keep some of the negative away but still keep the positive flowing in and keeping my motivation going strong. <BR> <BR> 1. First big change is I have taken the scale out of the bathroom. It is now not in my every eye view every time I go to the bathroom and take a shower so I won't constantly be wondering why its not moving or it fluctuates up and down all the time. That can be a real kille... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 14:58:43 EST A month of changes!! As I reflect over the month and visualize what I have done or changes I have made I am starting to feel like a different person. I have inspired others at work to make more of a cautious effort to better themselves and also created some healthy snacks for everyone to enjoy at work also. <BR> <BR> So as I look over my accompolishments for this month I realize several things...... <BR> <BR> 1. Food is energy and without it we can not perform so its very important to watch and keep track as h... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 21:38:33 EST The scale moved!!!! Today was the big day when the scale actually moved one pound!!! I was so excited to see that but thats just the beginning... <BR> <BR> Well, at the beginning of the month I decided I would take my measurements and well after only 20 days I am down 7.5 inches!!!! Now that is something to really celebrate!!! <BR> <BR> It does pay off even if the scale isn't moving as fast as I would like it to move I have done what many others have already talked about and shared with me is other ways to see... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 07:53:42 EST Why is the scale not changing????? Have you ever had those days where you know you have been working hard getting in your cardio and your strength training and eating the right choices when it comes to food and of course getting in all of your water......but for some reason the scale is not changing???? It is frustrating to say the least.... <BR> <BR> Changes are happening though because where I work when my regulars come in they always make me feel so good as they continue to call me skinny and say "wow you have lost a lot o... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 07:38:04 EST He wore my pants!!!! Have you ever had one of those days when you know what you want to wear and then can't find it. Well that happend to me a few days ago I had been looking all over for them cause I knew where I had set them and they were not there. I decided to change into something else that was not on my top of the list to wear. <BR> <BR> Now these jeans are the ones that are my favorite they fit in all the right spots and all you ladies know what i mean....I can breathe in them also!!! Big plus that is..... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 17:22:33 EST The little things.... As my journey continues I am learning that its the little things that make a difference. The small changes that we make and stay consistant with will help us achieve our end results whatever they might be as we all have different goals. <BR> <BR> I have noticed that when i don't get all my water I get tired I don't sweat when I workout and for me that means I am not working hard I have been doing really great on getting all of my water in and I can feel and see a difference. ... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 19:15:52 EST 14 days and counting.... So my 12 week program starts in only 14days. I am really getting good at tracking my food and getting into a routine of working out. I know that during these 12 weeks I will be pushing harder than I have been but determined to make a difference in my life and that is what I want. I know I need to make changes and I am on my way to making those changes!!! <BR> <BR> SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE!!! <BR> <BR> That is my new motto and I really keep that in mind during all that I do. I just... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 12:54:22 EST My Inspriation.... On Friday as I was handing numbers out to the individuals who were running in the 5k there was one woman who I will never forget because of the way she looked and how she was determined to sign up. I was glowing inside thinking to myself this woman has more guts and determination than I ever think I could of had. She was a large woman or what our society would say was extremely obese. As she took her number and walked away you could see she was truly set on doing it.... <BR> <BR> Fast for... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 20:41:54 EST A new year for a new me.... Ended my year with running a 4-mile resolution run....there were a few more hills than I wanted there to be but its ok I did not stop and walk there were times when I thought my legs would stop but then I thought to myself this is my race and the first one I did all year so it is a starting point and well I can only get better so I wasn't expecting to finish first I just wanted to finish. When the leaders started to pass me I could see the passion and determination in their eyes and I would ... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 08:48:01 EST OMG What am I gonna do?? Well I signed up for the 12week program at the gym....then I found out one rule that ummm yeah I am not looking forward to doing. I have to take my picture in a two piece bathing suit....(nobody should see that!) They really want to be able to see the changes that everyone makes. Ok so here is the dilemna...where am I gonna get a bathingsuit by Jan 15th that will fit my body.....that is a scarry thought. <BR> <BR> I mean I did where a tankini last year but heck the top covered the middle... Thu, 30 Dec 2010 12:05:16 EST First week of small changes for a new me.... Fast Break Goals: <BR> 1. Drink at least 8 glasses of water daily (don't drink soda) <BR> 2. Exercise for at least 30 min daily (track the calories burned) <BR> 3. Read an inspirational quote (post a message on sparkpeople daily) <BR> <BR> Rewards <BR> 1. pedicure <BR> 2. new sports bra <BR> 3. new running shoes (actually go to a running store and be properly fitted) <BR> 4. new workout clothes (don't like the baggy look anymore) <BR> 5. spa treatment <BR> <BR> Sparktime <BR> I plan on revi... Thu, 30 Dec 2010 07:23:20 EST Should I do it or not????? So as I was working out at the gym today....they have a new contest that starts the 15th of January. It is called changing your body in 12 weeks......hummm 12 weeks??? The good thing about that is it only cost $29 but it gives me special classes such as the bootcamp classes but it also puts me in competition with others!!! <BR> <BR> Now the thing with competition is....well I am IN IT TO WIN IT!!!!! I don't see it any other way. Now if i win locally that is free gym that ... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 19:05:42 EST I have made a decision........ I have made a decision and today that decision is to live my life and be happy. Just because I am content doesn't mean that I don't want to see change in my life because I most assuredly do what to see that change. It also doesn't mean that I am going to sit back in neutral and hope that it comes....not at all.... <BR> <BR> If I want change I have to actively seek for the change and do it a little at a time by noticing behaviors in me that are easy to change and find ways to make it happen... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 05:40:52 EST WE ALL HAVE DIFFICULTIES....... Through our daily struggles and challenges we have difficulties but if we make the mistake of allowing those circumstances to dictate our happiness, we risk missing out on an abundant life..... <BR> <BR> We need to learn to live consistantly from day to day and when something brings us down we need to get back up and reach for the stars again.....if we need help getting up we reach out our hands and ask for help for alone none of us will make it and we strive together to be the best we can b... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 06:57:15 EST My choice.......HAPPINESS!!!! As I have been reading daily I have been learning a lot....I have been that person who has said if i could only lose weight I would be happy....or if I was married I could be happy.... <BR> In Psalms 118 it tells us to rejoice and be glad....We are who we are right now and we need to be happy with that and as we continue to be happy and love ourselves we will see the changes that we search for and desire will come as I myself have begun to see... <BR> <BR> There is so much to be happy for an... Fri, 19 Nov 2010 06:52:15 EST DETERMINED 2 As I have started reading my daily devotionals one really gave me reason to think and ponder about know the more we want something the more we need to help someone else get there and forget about ourselves... <BR> <BR> During times of difficulty there are a few things we should always remember.... <BR> 1. STAY FULL OF JOY!! <BR> 2. GO SOW A SEED..... <BR> 3. HELP SOMEONE ELSE AND YOU WILL BE HELPED!!! <BR> <BR> Now if that is not something to think about than what Wed, 17 Nov 2010 07:29:26 EST Determined!! I am still in my first week.....but through my determination and the support and kindness of everyone on the site I know that I will be a success....I love to be challenged and I find it fun and truly looking forward to the new me that has been hiding under many layers!!! I feel good about who I am and the changes that are occuring in my life so far.....more to come....... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 07:04:59 EST