SMYLEERED's SparkPeople Blog SMYLEERED's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community It's Really Hard <em>24</em> <BR> I ought to confess and pour my heart out about all the things I ate today that weren't in my plan, but that won't make me stop. Only I can do that, with God's direction. I am weak. I am addicted. Need I say more? Wed, 1 Oct 2014 14:30:50 EST I Tried I really did but come 2 PM I got antsy and went for a couple cookies....tsk tsk. I definitely have a sugar addiction, already aware of that. I followed the rest of my food choices as chosen. <BR> <BR> Having a regular planned menu for my three meals plus a PM snack gave me the desire to keep trying. I have to continue with this program. One day down, forever to go. Mon, 29 Sep 2014 20:24:48 EST Need A Big Change I am being plagued with health issues. I truly need a 100% turnaround soon. Being away from SP doesn't help either. My loss. I tracked my food for tomorrow, that is one foot forward. <BR> <BR> I am doing something drastically wrong....gained some weight, eat less veggies and fruits, and too much sugary stuff. That has to change now. <BR> <BR> Hoping for some grace from above to make this journey. Sun, 28 Sep 2014 20:20:34 EST Getting Better It's good to be here where everyone is so supportive. Thank you to those who take time to comment here and on my SP page. It means a lot to me. <BR> <BR> Today's food was better than yesterday. Monday went to a meeting, did service, talked to another member on the phone, and put my food in the SP tracker. I am doing the best I can to keep aiming for abstinence and recovery. It will come! <BR> <BR> Hope you have a terrific evening and a nice day tomorrow. <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> <BR>... Tue, 6 May 2014 21:11:32 EST On the road to recovery -- again! It's been a while since I posted anything in SP. I admit turning to food as a last resort when I felt stressed out, which isn't the way to go. I've been attending my meetings thank God for that and I started reading the literature again. I fall by the wayside every so often. I am not abstinent, but each day is a new journey to recovery. I need to do that very badly. My husband had hand surgery recently. Food doesn't help him or me but sometimes I think that's the answer. Not! <BR> <... Mon, 5 May 2014 22:49:09 EST Happy Easter <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Wishing all my SP friends and their families a beautiful, holy and blessed Easter. Fri, 18 Apr 2014 15:02:53 EST Sniff Sniff--Smell the flowers <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am so waiting for Spring to arrive. Even if it snows tomorrow (it better not), I will still celebrate the beginning of the season we are all waiting for. <BR> <BR> Hope your day is fulfilling and that your plans for tomorrow include appreciating the new season. Wed, 19 Mar 2014 15:32:26 EST Have a Happy Day <img src=""> <BR> Mon, 17 Mar 2014 23:26:17 EST Saturday <BR> Got up late this morning.....ahhhhh good to sleep longer once in a while. Went to confession before 4 PM Mass, then to visit MIL. Had Hungarian goulash on rice with a salad and coffee for dinner at our favorite restaurant....yum it was sooo good even brought home half of it for tomorrow's lunch. <BR> <BR> That's all for my exciting day. Hope you had a lovely day! Sat, 15 Mar 2014 19:30:20 EST Eat Just Enough A whole week went by and here it is Friday, beginning of the weekend. A good thing to remember is don't stuff yourself with food other than what's on your food plan. And don't forget you only want to keep yourself alive and your body healthy. Anything over that is unnecessary. <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend! <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 14 Mar 2014 21:47:39 EST Weak but determined! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Monday rolls around quickly after a nice weekend. It's time to get serious about keeping with the program as if I haven't been up to now. I try very hard to stick with it and still manage to get on the wrong trail. That's past now, a new beginning starts with each morning. It's not easy if there's stuff that I shouldn't eat around the house. I must also be strong when I go to the store and avoid going near can... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 12:35:01 EST "Not this time" Thanks to a SP supporter who wrote in my blog yesterday for her comment and suggestion to never say never to food temptation and instead say "Not this time". I am giving that my all today. I have thought about candy already and the day is only halfway through. It's hard to believe for normal eaters I'm sure, but to those of us who have the disease, we can relate. <BR> <BR> I put my food in SP's tracker, and I want to stick to the menu!! The sun is shining brightly, I plan on going out. ... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 13:34:04 EST Candy won Saturday I will begin my abstinence all over again at day 1 and counting. Temptation was too great. Candy is always the culprit. Beginning over again I will try harder to turn to God instead of sugar. <BR> <BR> Fri, 7 Mar 2014 23:39:22 EST Shovels Ready? Sunday morning, the sky is grey, the temperature is cold but not frigid....The quiet before the storm. Last night the weather report downsized the amount of snow we're getting to possibly 3-6 inches. The heavier stuff is moving southward toward Philly, Jersey and Delaware. Whatever we get is not welcome. Most of us are tired of being cooped up in the house, others dread the shoveling, kids like it cuz they have off from school. But they'll be making it up in June when they wish they could... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 11:59:34 EST Challenges <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Ready, set, gooooooo. A brand new day, a brand new challenge. Whatever happened yesterday forget it. I am learning to commit myself to doing the best I can. Starting out with a morning ritual to give my life special meaning, a real purpose to be positive. <BR> <BR> I start out with a prayer* thanking God, my protector, for all the good things in my life, and asking for help with anything that is beyond... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 10:05:26 EST Huh? What'd you Say? I cancelled the apt I had with the family doctor Monday 3-3-14 because I heard we're in for a winter storm....oh really, what's that? I am so sick of hearing those words, it's enough to make me want to go and eat everything in sight...but I didn't. Maybe back in the day I would have, but I think I'm getting my emotions pretty much under control. I pray a lot in my weak moments. <BR> <BR> Back to the doctor, I've had a blocked right ear for almost 3 weeks during the bout with sinusitis. ... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 23:07:16 EST Walked 1.05 Miles <img src=""> <BR> Isn't he a cutie? LOL Wish he was really mine. <BR> <BR> <BR> Besides being my 7th day of no added sugary goop in my food plan, my husband took me out in this utterly cold weather and we walked Wegman's entire store. We came home with lots of, not that kind. It was boneless chicken breast, ground 80-20 beef, a big bag of oranges, roasted almonds, no fat milk, greek yogurt. <BR> <BR> I couldn't believ... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 21:57:54 EST ~~Sugar-Free Day 6~~ I am praising God, I have gone through another day, 6 in all, free of any added sugar like candy or goodies. I happily refuse all addictive foods that are not good for my health and body. I could never have done it on my own. <BR> <BR> ..I made a list (again) of all the foods that cause me to go off my program. <BR> ..I strive to keep any of those foods out of the house. <BR> ..I began journaling again. <BR> ..I am tracking my foods here in SparkPlace . <BR> ..I increased the fruits and ... Mon, 24 Feb 2014 21:45:42 EST Monday Monday <link><BR>ges/loveyourbody.jpg </link> <BR> <BR> Looking forward to a great day! Join me friends, you owe it to yourself. Mon, 24 Feb 2014 12:49:23 EST Peaceful Sunday Another 2 days without candy or sweets, that brings me to 5 days abstinent. Amen. <BR> <BR> I have been tracking food as I said I would and noticed that I am eating more vegetables and fruits than I was before. That seems to be working out well for me. It is healthier than chocolates, maybe not as palatable, but lower in calories. Better choices have left me happier and more peaceful about a lot of things. And, mind you, it's only 5 days just think what 10 days will bring. Not wanting t... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 21:59:51 EST No Sugar - Phew Day 3 without sugar. Chocolate candy is my weakness. None in the house that I know of - my husband keeps his stash hidden from me. He has no problem eating just one piece and forgetting about it. Not me, it calls to me like a ghost in the night and you know what happens if you eat just one. The END of recovery. It's so easy to give in. With this disease you cannot rely on willpower because we have none. We have tools in OA -- and need to use them even if it's midnight. It's a lot better than ... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 11:53:32 EST Blessed Be This Day The day was filled with A pluses -- I feel happy, healthy, and hopeful. It's my 2nd day of no sugar. My main goal for recovery is to refrain from added sugars and sweets in my daily life. I think recording my foods here in SP the night before (I did tomorrow's already) has been instrumental in my abstaining from sugars. I am cautious of what I put in my mouth, and have been eating mostly turkey for dinner and chicken with lots of vegetables. I can't say for sure what's keeping me from bi... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 22:03:14 EST The Sun Is Beautiful It's so nice to see the sun shining brightly. Snow in my neighborhood is piled everywhere. Our backyard is getting as high as the fence (that's where my dear husband takes it in the garbage can from the front of the house). We have no place to put the snow except in the backyard. It's a chore for him. <BR> <BR> 10 days have gone by since I started the antibiotics for a sinus infection/inner ear inflammation. Took the last caps yesterday morning. I feel almost the same as I did when... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 16:01:28 EST I Am Not Alone <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Right here in SP is a great place to share my food with all my friends. I will be truthful with the food plan I cannot fool myself so why try? It takes long for me to do it in the tracker but it is more accurate and gives all the nutritional values...I just made another big decision...the tracker it will be. <BR> <BR> So, from now on, you can all check to see if I'm doing okay. I will post the foods I intend ... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 13:38:30 EST Food Planning Did some exercises, mopped the kitchen floor, called a friend, now I'm ready for lunch. What to have is the question? <BR> <BR> I used to plan my menus on the day prior to the actual day and give it to my sponsor. I don't have a sponsor now so I just wing it, but that's not always a good idea. I really need to be better at following a stricter food plan. Maybe it would be more effective doing my planning right here in my blog. <BR> <BR> Settled! I will do that! Why didn't I thin... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 13:28:05 EST Thinking Spring : ) The icy streets are pretty bad here. The only thing to do, I reluctantly admit, is to grin and bear it. Still trying to follow my food plan. It's a bit easier because I haven't been able to go shopping with all the icy pavements and streets. God is on my side! <BR> <BR> How are you doing - food and health-wise? <BR> <BR> Keep your chin up, thinking Spring will help. Sat, 8 Feb 2014 18:35:03 EST February Blues Today was like many other days before this -- SNOWY!!!! I am totally sick of seeing it. <BR> <BR> Now now keep calm the animal who predicts the weather for the rest of the days before spring told us we are getting more of the same ---- the poor groundhog saw his shadow. No kidding, we're having more of this awful weather. Winter is not yet over...drat! <BR> <BR> Food is going pretty good, had Caesar's pizza this past Saturday. It was so good. I'm not giving everything up....that only... Mon, 3 Feb 2014 22:12:23 EST Happy Friday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The food plan is going along as well as it can considering being stuck in the house for days with this frigid weather and snow hanging around and more on the way, drat! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is doing well. Just keep up the good work, it always pays in the end. Fri, 24 Jan 2014 10:27:47 EST A Snow Bird Day! The snow came around 8 a.m. and it hasn't stopped yet. The temperatures and wind chill are well below zero. <BR> <BR> Food today was so-so, maybe because of the weather, I really don't know. I found myself grazing for more food than my regular meals. I tried to keep it low cal, but that's not the program. I needed to divert my attention so I went outside on the back porch all bundled up with ice creepers on my boots and did a little shoveling. I got some taco chips that were outdated,... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 19:04:07 EST New Stockings I am lucky to be getting 2 pairs of compression stockings next week some time after the paperwork is completed. I was measured and chose two different colors. The Medical supplemental insurance plan I have allows 4 pairs per year, not 100% paid. Talking to the sales rep, I found out how many items they provide that are being ended due to provisions in the new government healthcare law. It's pathetic. Stuff like hospital beds, wheelchairs, oxygen tanks just to name a few. Customers will... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 13:30:19 EST Need To Make Changes The doctor prescribed new compression stockings, the ones I have lost their elasticity. Also wear the brace for my left hand - carpal tunnel. I had no idea the numbness was that. With edema I must stay away from sodium, wear my stockings and elevate the legs whenever necessary. I gained 3 pounds. He wants me to take that off and more when I see him again in March. <BR> <BR> I have to make a couple changes in my lifestyle, and I will do whatever I can to make things better. <BR> <BR> Phew... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 14:37:17 EST Finally Made A Decision..... see the family doctor about the swelling in my legs and tingling in my hands. I am afraid but I think it's best to track down the cause. Tomorrow will tell what's happening. <BR> <BR> Wed, 15 Jan 2014 11:43:25 EST Tuesday <BR> How was your day? Mine was pretty good. Walked -- but overdid it, over 2,000 steps. I haven't been walking that much. The upper part of my leg above the knee was numb and swollen. I'm icing it now. <BR> <BR> Food was good today. <BR> <BR> Good night fellow SP friends. Tue, 14 Jan 2014 21:09:58 EST Beautiful Sunday No problems to write about! Yay! Surprised me also. Going to Mass today with my DH meant so much, it really made all my troubles vanish! I must go more often. <BR> <BR> Hope you all had a wonderful day. Sun, 12 Jan 2014 23:22:17 EST Candy Called To Me I slipped, but back on track the rest of the day hopefully. <BR> <BR> We got more snow -- drat! I am so sick of being cooped up with bad weather and swollen legs and bad knee. Pity party huh? I need to turn away from temptation and rely more on God's presence in my life. I will try harder. <BR> <BR> Take care SP friends. You mean a lot to me! <BR> <BR> <em>376</em> Wishing for Spring-like weather LOL! Fri, 10 Jan 2014 12:51:45 EST Thursday A sunny day at last, and not so cold. Left knee is annoying. Food plan going well, thank God. Onward we go. Hope everyone has a wonderful, Sparkful day! <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> Thu, 9 Jan 2014 14:26:12 EST Frigid Weather It's warm inside, I am no way going outside. The food plan is going well, the knee isn't. The day isn't over and I want to keep doing what I'm doing. Gotta read my OA literature, it helps me stay on track. <BR> <BR> Stay warm and have a great evening! <BR> <BR> <em>444</em> <em>26</em> Tue, 7 Jan 2014 16:56:31 EST Rain Rain Go Away <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> The 3 Kings Sunday ----- What an ugly day it was. Sleet then rain, yuk. I watched the Mass on TV. <BR> <BR> As far as food, I ate three basically balanced meals, no snacks and no sweets. Another day to thank the Lord. Giving up extra food is not my plan alone, it's His plan for me I believe. Instead of wasting time overeating, it's amazing how cutting down on unnecessary food gives me more energy t... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 00:21:45 EST NO Sugar Success! At the end of the day I realize that God had something to do with this -- not one piece of candy or sweets! <BR> <BR> What a great feeling. Onward to tomorrow, one day at a time. <BR> <BR> Sat, 4 Jan 2014 23:56:22 EST Need the Willingness I'm having a difficult time with the food plan. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ml </link> <BR> <BR> We got a big 5 lb tin of delicious chocolates from my husband's sister for Christmas, not a good thing for me. Nobody really understands that I am unable to stay away from something that beckons to my inner self. Sigh...I don't know what to do with the evil can until he eats them all. I could do it easily in a few days and get very ill afterwards, but I choos... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 12:09:21 EST A New Year <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We have a whole new year ahead to reach whatever goals we have in life. Mine is to have healthier meals, less sugar and fat and ultimately to take off some unwanted pounds. <BR> <BR> Good luck to you all!! Thu, 2 Jan 2014 10:56:32 EST Holidays and Food <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Is it always like this after a holiday? Over the past few days my husband and I indulged in a Junior's cheesecake that our daughter was so kind to gift us. It was simply wonderful; and no I did not have or see any candy canes. <BR> <BR> Our daughter is coming today for the weekend, we are having the traditional Slovak Christmas eve dinner on Saturday. <BR> <BR> How was your Christmas? Fri, 27 Dec 2013 09:16:21 EST Merry Christmas To All <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful holiday with family and what you eat and cut down on the amounts if it's questionable. You'll be thankful afterward. <BR> <BR> Mon, 23 Dec 2013 09:45:04 EST Mall Walk What can I say -- it was wonderful being out and about with the best friend in the world! Thu, 19 Dec 2013 21:55:53 EST Sunshine -- Welcome Treat Had to change my foot doctor apt because our streets are way too slippery-looking. <BR> <BR> Got lots of stuff done, finished the Christmas cards, ordered a few things for after the holiday, cleaned up the huge pile of catalogs I had on the coffee table...phew I'm tired...LOL <BR> <BR> Dinner tonight will be leftovers -- chicken soup, lemon herb chicken, scalloped potatoes along with green beans and red lettuce salad. <BR> <BR> Enjoy your day and stick to the program! Wed, 18 Dec 2013 14:23:42 EST Snowing Here Although the snow is pretty, It prevents me from going outside. I may have to cancel a much-needed foot doctor apt. <BR> <BR> I don't know how many inches we got since 3 a.m. this morning. It stopped for a while but started up again. <BR> <BR> Food hasn't gotten to me. I pray it stays that way for the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> For dinner I decided to make grilled lemon-herb chicken, fresh cauliflower, scalloped potatoes, red lettuce and grated carrots salad with Italian dressing.... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 15:21:25 EST Lots To Do The beginning of another week....oh boy am I behind in getting things ready for Christmas. Still have some cards to write out, straighten the house, cook and put the balls etc on the tree. I wish all there was to do is go to church for Christmas, have a nice dinner and relax with relatives. Soon that will all come to be. Til then I better get my butt in gear LOL. Been behaving as far as food goes. It's sunny, cold and windy here. Good day to make a pot of chicken soup. Adding that t... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 11:43:35 EST Cooped Up Feeling Snow has a way of doing exactly that -- making me stay indoors. I'm just fearful of falling on my two new knees which would be disastrous. I tried to keep busy but I found myself watching my dear husband shovel and carry snow in a trash container to the backyard where he dumped it. It took almost 4 hours. Before my surgery we used to do that together -- shovel snow, and I always enjoyed the time we had together. <BR> <BR> So, what does all this have to do with food? Plenty. Boredom ... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 21:12:07 EST A Compulsive Overeater 11:35 AM so far all is going well. I tried to play Candy Crush on Facebook but the connection just wasn't working. Oh well, I have lots of other stuff to do (besides eating). <BR> <BR> I recall when I quit or tried to quit smoking 38 yrs ago it seemed like the end of the world. I did quit and never smoked again. That was quite an accomplishment. Now as a compulsive overeater who belongs to a 12-Step Program, OA, once you lose abstinence, getting back to it seems overwhelming. For thos... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 11:46:02 EST Doing Better - Not I am following the food plan...yay! TY Derinda for inspiring me. I posted my food in the tracker. Said my prayers first thing this morning, did a few things around the house that I needed to do, watched my soap at 12, had a terrific lunch, talked to a friend about all the calls we're getting from people we don't know, now I am going to write out a few Christmas cards. So far all is well. <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> It's 10 pm not off track...ty all. <BR> <BR> Couldn't sleep. 2 a.m. h... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 13:03:14 EST