SMURFS's SparkPeople Blog SMURFS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Troubles One step forward, two steps back. I recovered from all my viral sickness from December and got back on the gym wagon for 2 weeks but now my back is injured and I can barely move. I am too young for this. I am bored and stressed and keep over eating to the point of massive stomach aches after each "meal". My calories are exceeded 2000+ each day. <BR> I suppose if I can't get back to my exercising schedule this is a good time to really focus on fixing up my eating compulsions. Healthy living i... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 22:26:33 EST Happy New Year! Happy new year everyone! 2014 here I come. This year I put a lot of effort into exercising and eating well, even though I wasn't always successful. I had a lot of ups and downs and didnt really loose much weight but I did tone up at times, and worked to build healthy habits. <BR> This year I am going to stick to it, change doesnt happen over night after all. <BR> <BR> I was off the wagon for a three weeks there, overloaded at work and sick. November and December were very tough months for me... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 13:46:39 EST Just say NO Just saying "no" to anyone including myself is one of the hardest things for me to do in my life. I have been frustrated lately with my coworkers and cannot muster the guts to tell them my opinion or just how I feel in general so I often become the door mat. Always have been. <BR> I hate confrontation and will be passive because it is the easiest way to cope. For example I was on a very full bus yesterday standing with my gym bag and work bag near the front because there was a spot for bags ... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 20:24:09 EST Over thinking things? I read the article on the main page today about making time for exercise, somethings I often think about doing but dont do. I have not exercised for 2 weeks because I have been on vacation. I have my exercise clothes, mat, shoes etc. I could go for a run, do a sit up or even a walk, but I have chosen not to. What's done is done, I am not going to beat myself up about it, I can turn over a new page any time I choose. <BR> Soon I will be back to work again, which will be very good for me sinc... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 20:55:04 EST Do we really want success? If a person really wanted to go to bed earlier at night, but continued to stay awake late, do they really want to achieve the original goal? <BR> If a person really wanted to learn french, but never spoke french, do they truly want to learn french? <BR> Same with weight loss. If I truly wanted to lose weight and get fit then I would stop binge eating, right? But I never have. <BR> So I ask myself, is this just laziness, stupidity or a fear of success? Thu, 8 Aug 2013 12:28:19 EST Vacation challenges and food pushers. Hi everyone, I am on a two week vacation from work, and for the first week I am back home at my dads house. Which is so great! Except the house is full of so many temptations, my family has ice cream, cookies, a candy jar, chocolate, chips, and they cook deep fried foods for dinner. Tonight I made a big salad and ate that with just a just 6 or so deep fried scallops and about 20 fries.. that still worked out to be about 600 calories. Then after that I had a sugar craving and ate a fun sized O... Fri, 26 Jul 2013 20:54:12 EST What is wrong with me? I am only 23, and I have been trying to get control of my weight since I have been 10. I have never been far off from my ideal weight, even when I wasnt overweight all I think I wanted was to feel in control of my eating. That's 13 years! My eating is more out of control then ever! The harder I try and the more I think about it, the worse I do. <BR> <BR> I must restart my efforts at least 3 times a year, since I give up every time. I have been on this site for 6 years! Every time I restar... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 19:56:33 EST The only thing that stands in your way of success if yourself. I have never had much self confidence in my life.. <BR> I struggle with mustering the confidence to conquer lots of things in my life. Driving, speaking french, making friends, and of course getting fit. I had the realization today that the saying is true: <BR> "The only thing that stands in your way of success if yourself". <BR> That is very true for my goals. It is my fear of failure, my excuses, my laziness that stand in my way. <BR> A person needs to MAKE time, FOLLOW THREW, CHOOSE wise... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 19:20:50 EST Progress The last two months are not going as well as I would have hoped they would. My sugar and carb cravings are out of control. I often over eat these foods (breads, cookies, chocolate, junk) throughout the day. My monthly average for April and May is 1770 calories, I have been eating at least 200+ over my max a day everyday. A lot of days I am eating over 2000, like today. <BR> I am eating over my calories because: <BR> I give into all my cravings, don't stop eating to see if I am full, <BR> ha... Fri, 24 May 2013 23:11:24 EST Sugar! Today was a bad day for sugar consumption. I ate a piece of cake at work, and a lot of mini eggs again, then I got home and had some nutella and a small lindt orange chocolate bar. My sugar cravings keep getting more and more intense and the spark people sugar challenge is not going very well. Easter is a time when my sugar intake tends to increase quickly, as is Christmas, other holidays I can handle pretty well. <BR> <BR> I just have to remember that sugar (and overeating) is not a cure f... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 20:59:55 EST And the binging continues.. This week was rough, especially with Easter coming up. The Easter treats have started at work (Cadbury mini eggs in the staff room), and I have been doing some baking of my own (bread and meringues gifts). I have been "taste testing" traditional Easter foods that were meant to be gifts.. a bread and sugar hurt my stomach sooo much since I have IBS. <BR> <BR> This week was a very low self-discipline, high calorie time for me. I am taking the Spark People "Curb your Sugar Tooth" Challenge now... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:23:16 EST Binging streak I have binged 4 days in a row this week. I have done it out of either stress, anger or worry for things that involve myself or my partner. I do it at 9-10pm with a lot of carbs. I had just had a streak of more then 2 weeks of eating in my calorie limit through thick and thin, and I noticed that I had lost some weight and was feeling better. This is sometimes when things start to go down hill for me. <BR> <BR> I would just like to remind myself of somethings: <BR> It is OK to have success i... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 09:40:31 EST Things have changed a lot since December.. In my December entry I was struggling because I was overwhelmed because of my new job, well now my shifts have been cut down a lot which creates a lot of room for boredom. I have also been notified that my job will end at the end of March because the place of business is closing. I will soon be unemployed after only be employed for a short 5 months, learning most everything from scratch, and being lulled in to a false sense of security (after 3 months of unemployment). <BR> <BR> So now I a... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 23:24:55 EST Reasons I eat when I am not hungry.. I am an emotional eater, more then I think I ever realized, my fiance jokes that I am addicted to food. I can be a healthy eater, I love fruits and veggies, and all kinds healthy grains, meat/alternatives, and dairy. I love to eat in season and cook healthy, flavorful meals but I have a problem with eating sugar and carbs to cope with my emotions. ALL emotions. A lot of the time when I over eat for emotional reasons I can't tell when I am hungry any more. <BR> Here is a list of emotions I use... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 23:12:42 EST Challenges, changes and hangups.. Last month I started a new job, I have been working days and some of the changes in my routines are creating challenges and hangups for me in my attempt to maintain a healthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> Obstacles: <BR> <BR> 1. At work there is a lot of baking and gifts of sweets in the staff room that I havent been resisting. <BR> 2. At work it is difficult to remember to bring my water bottle with me and drink so I have not been reaching my 8 glasses a day anymore, in fact i am averaging 3 glass... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 01:03:04 EST Fit bit challenge progress Well I have been working on this challenge for 10 days now and I have earned 21 dollars. <BR> I have been using pom poms to signify one dollar each and I put them in a big ol' cookie jar, it is really fun and motivational. I have three "dollars" available to earn everyday: <BR> 1 for drinking 8 glasses of water <BR> 1 for exercising <BR> 1 for eating within my calorie limit <BR> <BR> I average 2 a day, since I am usually not successful at all 3, but some days I am! I have been checking my ... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 21:22:45 EST Fitbit I have decided that I would really like to have a Fitbit One but don't want to just go out and buy something that I may not use very often. So I decided to make a project out of it and use the Fitbit as a reward. <BR> <BR> The plan is to use a jar with the picture of the Fitbit on it, and for everytime I drink 8 glasses of water, stay within my calorie limit, or exercise I put 1 dollar in my jar. I might use pompoms, with the 3 different colours, one for each type of success and that way I ... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 08:06:07 EST Need to keep going! I have tried to change my lifestyle to be more healthy for many years- probably about 10 <BR> and I am only 23.. I am only now becoming familiar with the patterns that keep developing and <BR> the reasons my progress stops. I go into funks, that I dont get out of for at least a year!! <BR> I don't really notice, I have difficulty starting but I make progress with tracking my calories, <BR> changing my eating habits, and creating new habits - like a better sleeping pattern, and creating time ... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 11:21:51 EST The No S I am using the main principle in the No S "diet" to keep myself on track. It is very straight forward and I look at it as a daily exercise in moderation. <BR> <BR> Each weekday there are no: <BR> Snacks <BR> Sweets <BR> Seconds <BR> <BR> Except you can look forward to having S's sometimes on S days- <BR> Saturday, Sunday and special days (holidays, sick days) <BR> <BR> I have been successful for two days so far. Although I am not following it exactly. If I get really hungry I will eat a ... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 07:59:55 EST I am back (and still fat)! The last time I wrote here was in 2009. Somethings have changed since then in my life. I graduated uni, went on a 2 month trip to Europe which I just finished, and moved to Quebec, where I am now moving into a new place and trying to find a job, figure out services etc. <BR> Before the move I had ups and downs in NS, times where my fiancé and I were frequenting the gym and spending time outdoors. I even completed 3 spin classes while there before moving here. <BR> <BR> On my trip to Europ... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 17:13:14 EST My life now and bad habits! Well the last few months have been pretty stressful since I started a new job 12-18 hours a week, I volunteer to run a humanitarian organization helping a refugee adjust to Halifax , and of course trying to do well in 4 courses! Then there's the traveling back and forth from Quebec to NS that my boyfriend and I do for quick visits and late night chats that I so enjoy but really regret when morning rolls around. Then there's the overall missing him, and difficulties that come with a long dista... Thu, 10 Dec 2009 18:03:23 EST