SMIDGON's SparkPeople Blog SMIDGON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community PRAYERS FOR John John is declining fast. It's just a matter of waiting for God to call him home. <BR> <BR> He is in the nursing faculty with HOSPICE. <BR> <BR> It's hard to lose a child, no matter their age. <BR> <BR> The family needs all the Love and Prayers you can give them. <BR> <BR> Larry andJANET <BR> CHRISTINE and FAMILY <BR> CELESTE and FAMILY Sun, 25 Sep 2016 08:41:09 EST DEAR JOHN "Dear Lord, help us go on!" <BR> <BR> John started to give us an uneasy feeling over the weekend. <BR> He ate good on Sunday. Monday he wouldnt eat. He became hoarse, had trouble swallowing. Would drink fluids, though. <BR> <BR> Till Monday, I tried to contact ofc. But, as is usual, not one response. If he had gotten any worse, we would have headed to the ER. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was HHC NURSE day. She checked John out, called oncology. <BR> <BR> Finally got started, now diahhra.... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 06:36:16 EST WHO CALLED ? One day while I was out, one of you sweet ladies called! <BR> <BR> I understood it was Linda. However, for the life of me, I drew a blank. Help me out. <BR> <BR> There are times when I think my allergies are bothering my eyes when they tear up. Then I realized that's not what it is. It's tears. I'll get awake in the wee hours of the morning,and I'm thinking of John. Then I'll say the Lord's Prayer to bring comfort. <BR> <BR> One time I'll go to see John and he'll rush to the ... Sun, 4 Sep 2016 15:14:35 EST JOHN John isn't doing so well ! <BR> Please forgive me if I repeat myself. <BR> At this point sometimes I do believe I am losing it! <BR> <BR> I believe I told you all about John test not being well. <BR> In case I am wrong, his tests showed his liver cancer is still there and the spots somewhat larger. There is a cluster on his abdominal wall. They couldn't tell for sure just what it is. They didn't have any reason to believe it was anything else then cancerous. <BR> <BR> Since then... Fri, 2 Sep 2016 05:05:19 EST UPDATE ON JOHN John had another set of tests this past Monday. During the night he vomited. When we took him over for his Chemo, they had already canceled it until next Tuesday. The Chemo isn't working. They are going to try another set of drugs. These can have bad side-effects. Like skin issues. <BR> <BR> The spots on his liver are still there. In fact, they are larger. There is a cluster of something on the abdominal wall. They have no reason to believe they are anything but cancerous... Thu, 25 Aug 2016 17:52:42 EST ONE QUESTION: What is the one thing that makes you feel good about yourself? <BR> <BR> Mine is my hair ! <BR> If my hair looks good, then I can basically deal with anything else. <BR> VANITY? I suppose so, but what the heck, if that is what it takes, so be it. <BR> <BR> I noticed that when I was drinking my morning coffee. I wondered how my hair would look today. If I would need to wear my wig, one of two, which perfectly match my hair color. But what about when I took the wig off? Sun, 21 Aug 2016 05:49:38 EST I don't believe it, the sun is shining, here in central Ohio ! My hair completely dried out. The little natural curl I have, showed up! <BR> I 'picked' it out this morning. The cut was good enough , and styling that it isn't the way like I wanted it, but, it'll do until I go in Friday. <BR> <BR> I prefer to go in twice a week. My arms are weak so it's impossible for me to wash, dry, and style any amount of time. I go to a chain salon that is super aforable. And, with my senior citizen discount, I can afford it. I have been going there for ... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 16:19:10 EST AN UNBELIEVEABLE DAY ! We needed the rain so bad---but, REALLY, enough, enough ! <BR> <BR> Next Monday John has the 3mo. CAT/IMAGING. Then his blood work for Chemo. That's on Tuesday. This round of Chemo is starting to wear him out. Outside of sitting on the porch, he spends much of his time in his room, napping. This is the Good week, if you can call it that. He and I are planning to go out to lunch. I hope it isn't pouring down! His hair is graying (but he is 52). But, his hair is thinning. ... Wed, 17 Aug 2016 06:48:18 EST MIXED BAG OF EVENTS! John had another treatment today! They are making him more tired. <BR> <BR> I had another blood draw yesterday. If that dr calls me again, wanting me to take more b.p meds.. I am going to unload on him. He has me on 4 different b.p. meds NOW. And, my pressure still going up and down. I am so unbelievable zoned now. I can sleep all day, and all night! <BR> <BR> I went to the bank this morning and, stopped at "Dollar Tree ". Got a few things there. Could barely make it ho... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 14:39:47 EST MUSSINGS It is so hot and dry! <BR> We are to get storms which aren't good. I HATE storms! Especially at night. <BR> I had a melt down yesterday. There's Johns Chemo today. Then Larry will have to spend a lot of time with him. He has to have his temperature taken every hour. <BR> <BR> <BR> I am getting things together for the Church's Yard Sale. <BR> <BR> It's one thing after another. <BR> <BR> You all keep safe. Tue, 12 Jul 2016 05:44:00 EST BLESSINGS GOD BLESS AMERICA, <BR> <BR> AMERICA BLESS GOD! Fri, 8 Jul 2016 06:24:47 EST things are in an uproar ! John is still undergoing Chemo. He has made his peace a d periodically talks about the road ahead. I t hurts to hear him do such, but glad he is not in denial. <BR> <BR> As for me, I have been going to the dr a good bit. A lot of blood work. The dr says I look terrific . But I'm not! He called me last Saturday afternoon. He wanted me in there past mo day morning for more blood work. Apparently he is Chec king for low sodium. It mocked FI bro.and CFS. <BR> <BR> Mor... Wed, 6 Jul 2016 14:32:46 EST JOHN John had his blood work this morning. Tomorrow morning he goes for Chemo #2.. <BR> The day after his first one he was getting tired. He has 15 more cycles to go! That takes him to the 28th of December of this year. <BR> <BR> He says he doesn't have pain. But when he walks at xs he will hold his side. I called him on it. But, he denied it. The HHC NURSE told him that he didn't have to have pain. He knows what he has that he can take. I suppose he does. <BR> <BR> Will be b... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 20:49:53 EST UPDATE ON John So far, so good with John. He went back this morning to have the pump removed. <BR> <BR> On the pile of papers they gave us, when they said the Chemo may be indefinitely, do any of you know if that means straight through without a two week break from running tests? <BR> <BR> I can't believe it means Chemo for the rest of your life every other week. Even with us reading <BR> Fri, 3 Jun 2016 11:26:52 EST guessing game Today's blog will be a 2 - part series! <BR> <BR> Someone came to the door, hubby was outside for a good amount of x. <BR> He came back in announcing someone was coming to trim our big beautiful trees. AND, they are doing it for a terrific price. I have seen how some of these yahoo's trim your trees! <BR> <BR> I said they are going to scalp our beautiful trees. O but no they wont. One oother time an outfit did, and eventually the whole tree was leveled! <BR> <BR> the next x I actually... Tue, 31 May 2016 15:07:09 EST Johns acceptance of BAD NEWS. John realizes that Chemo is his only option. <BR> <BR> He talks freely of death and Heaven. There are places he wants to see and places to eat. That is something he has control over. Whatever he wants and we possibly can do, we will see he gets what he wants. <BR> <BR> Lord, have Mercy! Sat, 21 May 2016 15:27:56 EST BAD NEWS ! The bottom fell out of our world this afternoon. <BR> <BR> John is now STAGE 4 <BR> <BR> All three suspicious spots on his liver are cancerous. <BR> <BR> He will have to have Chemo. Indefinitely. <BR> <BR> He will start June 1st.. Wed, 18 May 2016 16:41:26 EST NEWS I thank you all for your prayers. <BR> <BR> we got a call that John goes back to the oncologist next Wednesday for the result of the last testing. He has been complaining about his back hurting. Oh, Lordy, NO! <BR> <BR> please <BR> PRAY, PRAY, PRAY,!!! <BR> <BR> Fri, 13 May 2016 15:02:31 EST biopsy Johns biopsy is next week. <BR> <BR> We got a call from our youngest late afternoon yesterday Hubby's B-i -L passed away. He was near 80 (same age as hubby). He had had a stroke on tuesday. About 20yrs. Ago he had had one that left him partially paralyzed. <BR> <BR> That is the third death in hubby's family since last August. The other two were in their 50s. <BR> <BR> Today is HHC. Busy, busy, busy. Meanwhile our house remains much the same! <BR> <BR> OUR 'BABY' is 49 yrs. Old t... Tue, 3 May 2016 06:19:11 EST LORD HAVE MERCY Well, we took John to the oncologist yesterday afternoon. <BR> <BR> There was some areas, but, the oncologist felt they were scar tissue and such. He will be watching them. <BR> <BR> However, there are 3 suspicious spots on his liver! He will be having a biopsy. Then, if confirmed, he will have to have Chemo. . Surgery and Radition is NOT a option. In some cases Chemo is indefinitely. <BR> <BR> He took it quite well! For an Autistic man, you wouldn't have spotted the Autism. <BR> ... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 06:11:45 EST TODAY Yesterday when Hubby took John to the urologist. The urologist said, depending on the report today from the oncologist, then he would decide on whether to remove the Stent and not replace, or to replace it. <BR> <BR> You see, they have to be dealt with every three months! <BR> <BR> We go to the oncologist this afternoon. He wants to eat out afterwards. I did tell him, if for some reason, he is too tired to eat out; we will do it another day! <BR> <BR> Regardless which way it goes, w... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 09:57:47 EST ANOTHER ONE! WHAT IN God's name is going on? <BR> ANOTHER ONE.! <BR> <BR> A young family man belonging to our Church Gatherings was ill. Instead of getting better, he steadily got worse. This past Sunday he went to the ER.. after much testing, he was admitted to the ICC in critical condition come to find out; he has a fast growing lung cancer. <BR> <BR> Yesterday a special prayer session was called for yesterday evening. Hubby and I felt compelled to attend. He is in mid twenties (???).with a wife... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 06:42:39 EST WHAT S UP? Well, today starts Johns testing. <BR> <BR> As you know, he finished his Chemo.. <BR> <BR> Today he had his blood work drawn. <BR> This next Monday he has his colon/abdominal cavity /kidney/and pelvis area CT SCAN done. Also, they added the second CT SCAN for his chest. <BR> On Tuesday of next week he has his kidney Stent either replaced or removed completely. <BR> <BR> On Wednesday of next week he goes back to the oncologist, to find out if the Chemo. Did it's job. <BR> <BR> I am aski... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 18:08:18 EST LOOK WHAT I FOUND! All this stress is starting to take its toll on hubby and I! <BR> <BR> the signs keep rearing their ugly heads. But, that's neither here nor there. I try to outsmart everything that comes along. <BR> <BR> Anywoo, yesterday before I went down to Johns I went to "Dollar Tree ". I wanted to get a few things, plus see what new Spring articles they had out. Mostly things for my Secret Sister at Church. Also, there is also my oldest daughters ex-girlfriend. I've been helping her at Church.... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 10:03:59 EST WHOA, NELLIE We woke up to 3-4" of snow overnight! <BR> Underneath it all, ICE ! <BR> It is to be in the 20 ' s all day! <BR> <BR> John and I are staying in all day, because of our weak bones! <BR> <BR> Hugs, <BR> Lexie and Janet Sat, 9 Apr 2016 09:27:33 EST #TIBET Yesterday I went to the dr. Due to almost impossible weight bearing! <BR> They took an x-ray. I was concern because of neuropathy and because of osporsporous (???) <BR> But, it is similiar to my long - x back problems. Wear and tear of joints! I am determined NO SURGERY. So I got a call from the pharmacy saying my insurance didn't cover it. Out of pocket it would be $205.00 ! Can you believe it. I kindly told them to keep it. I opted for a topical 3 x a day. Also my allotment of no... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 08:37:06 EST TIBET We spent the morning in a legal conference call for Special Needs Trust Fund. <BR> <BR> Anyone done this? Wed, 6 Apr 2016 16:34:52 EST ONCOLOGIST This past tuesday I took John to see his oncologist. I was very upset not knowing what John and I were going to hear! He told John he had done everything he could for him at this time. <BR> <BR> He told John that at least for the x being he was done with Chemo.. <BR> The last week of April he has more blood work; an CT scan and another Oncologist appt. <BR> <BR> He said it was a massive cancer. They had their fingers crossed as to whether they had gotten it all! The surgeons had done a... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 14:35:54 EST HELP! I just lost my very important blog I just posted. <BR> <BR> Is there any way I can get it back? Mon, 28 Mar 2016 20:31:43 EST IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY! By golly, it looks like Spring. <BR> <BR> HAPPY EASTER to one and all! <BR> <BR> Hugs, <BR> Lexie and Janet Sat, 26 Mar 2016 15:51:17 EST SPRING IS HERE! First of all, HAPPY EASTER! <BR> <BR> Hubby had his colonscopy yesterday morning. <BR> He is x with Diverticulosis. Now the rest is up to hi m! <BR> <BR> I am exhausted. Going to get my hair done shortly. Slow day planned for today. This evening am going to pick up Church Meal of homemade Chicken and Dumplings for the three of us. That's it! <BR> <BR> HOPEFULLY!!! <BR> <BR> LEXIE AND JANET <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>449</em> Wed, 23 Mar 2016 09:51:08 EST AN OPEN COMMENT I have encountered a issue that I wonder if anyone else has ever! Surely I'm not the "Lone Ranger'! <BR> <BR> I became 'friends' with this wonderful person I met in the Summer of 2010. We 'bonded' from Day 1. Through thick and thin. It's hard for me to become BFF. There are just some things that are hard for me to share. It takes me awhile to trust that well. Slowly that trust developed. I was there for her through thick and thin. Through family proplems; through health issues (both... Thu, 17 Mar 2016 07:05:54 EST TODAY HAPPENINGS! what a day this has been! John had his last Chemo. His appt. Was 9a.m.. until they finished doing his blood work, and weighing him , it was 12noon before they got his Chemo. started. <BR> <BR> They hooked up his last bag at 2p.,.. We backed out our parking space at 3:05! After got home, he called and said he was so tired. I wondered if my voice sounded as tired as his. <BR> <BR> I just wanted to let you all know about today. <BR> <BR> John sees the oncologist in two weeks after his b... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 20:25:30 EST I'm back! QUESTION: <BR> Has anyone else have to reenter their password on SP? That popped up several days ago. <BR> I was reclining and too exhausted to get up and get my paper out. But, I knew I would have to do it, so I finally did this morning. So, here I am. <BR> <BR> Now for the updates! <BR> <BR> John has his last treatment next week. I probably will be having to take him. I go from x to x anyway. <BR> <BR> Then they will schedule his tests. <BR> <BR> Hubby finally got his appt. For his... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 08:58:09 EST info. Thanks to all asking if I am okay! <BR> <BR> Son is approaching the end of his treatments, then testing. He says no more surgery nor Chemo.. <BR> <BR> Hubby is ill and is convinced he too has colon cancer. Has to wait to get son in Respite Care before Che king himself out! <BR> <BR> My 12.7yr old Yorkie became ill took her to vet. MOST of her problem is aging. <BR> <BR> Hubby took care of me, now I have no one! But, I'll be okay! <BR> <BR> THANKS AGAIN. Sun, 6 Mar 2016 17:33:26 EST WONDERFUL GET-TOGETHER Well, the celebration has been over for several hours now! <BR> <BR> We had a wonderful get-together! Older daughter and her family weren't there. Younger daughter and her two daughters a ND our 'pending ' grandson - in-law were there. We had 4 assorted pizza;bread sticks;tossed salad; cake;and ice cream sandwiches. Our 11yr. Old granddaughter is a character. Not at all the timid, shy older daughter was at that age! <BR> <BR> You could tell John thoroughly had a good x. He stayed up f... Sat, 20 Feb 2016 20:12:00 EST ANOTHER BUSY DAY! Busy getting ready for John and our older daughters b.d. get-together. <BR> <BR> Our 54yr. Old won't be here, sorry to say! <BR> <BR> Our older granddaughter and her hubby were planning on being here, however, he received notice yesterday he has to be at a different city to get his Security clearance papers in order for deployment later in the year! He is an officer with the In. National Guard. <BR> <BR> This is one of those days you wonder how your going to get everything done! <BR> <B... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 06:43:25 EST WANT TO SHARE? Your weather is like??? Ours is frozen mist!!! <BR> <BR> I had intended to go with John to his Chemo. Today. But, he called his MaMa and said I better stay home and take care of Lexie. Sweet guy! <BR> <BR> His Dad stays with him after Chemo for two nights, then. He has to keep checking on him all night his temp. And BP and such. I am capable of doing that, but there is another young man sharing the apartment, and I just don't know what his caseworker and/or parents may feel about that... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 09:04:29 EST THE BOTTOM FELL OUT TODAY! Well, the bottom fell out today. HOME HEALTH CARE released John today! Said they were no longer needed. It all falls on Larry! He can't do it forever. I can't physically. No suggestions on where to get help. He is in the 'grey' area and doesn't qualify for <BR> Anything. So what do we do? For heavens if you see someone needing help. If you can't yourself, at least try to help them in some small way!!! <BR> <BR> John says no more surgeries. Now he says no more Chemo! He has two... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 16:34:35 EST HAPPENINGS TO DATE Well, I will see if I can post this x around! <BR> <BR> Things are hanging on here. Johns platelets have dropped for the past four sessions of treatments. Next tuesday, if they have fallen further (75)they will send him home. Then, he'll return the next Tuesday to see if they have come up any. They cannot risk giving it if it gets any lower. <BR> <BR> when the HOME HEALTH CARE NURSE was there this past Wednesday she said he had two more visits coming. Then she will decide if any more ... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 19:25:02 EST TROUBLE POSTING. I just wanted to post about Johns condition; plus the weather. <BR> <BR> It was rejected! <BR> <BR> Anyone else having problems? Sat, 23 Jan 2016 06:35:09 EST A OTHER DAY Just an update on LIFE! <BR> <BR> John did get his Chemo and pump today. <BR> <BR> Lexie got me up about 3a.m.. she had to go out and poo! Between then and 6a.m. I had her out 5xs. Only one more poo. Wouldn't eat or drink as usual. I had to force water down her! She has bacteria in her gut. So, she is on some meds.. <BR> <BR> I told the dr. She had been acting so weird. I was suspec ting what the vet said! Lexie is starting with dementia! Like in humans, at xs they are completel... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 19:57:34 EST OFF TO A GOOD START! LOL! I stay so tired all the time. So, Lexie and I got ready for bed early. Hubby watched TV in his bed room. I turned TV OFF at 10pm. <BR> <BR> I suddenly got awake. I heard sirens, and, Care Flight go overhead. I listened for the clock to strike. It was midnight. I laid awake until around 3am. I got awake when hubby got up at 5am. So much for the first night of the new year! <BR> <BR> I have 'p uttered ' around until lunch. <BR> <BR> Now dishes are done. I discovered my ba... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 12:55:19 EST TO ALL MY SPARK FRIENDS! HAPPY NEW YEARS, <BR> <BR> JANET Thu, 31 Dec 2015 17:48:16 EST TO ALL MY SPARK FRIENDS! MERRY CHRISTMAS to one and all. <BR> <BR> And, a blessed NEW YEAR Thu, 24 Dec 2015 17:54:47 EST A LITTLE EARLY I know we have a little bit left until Christmas. How Ever, under the circumstances, with getting ready and Chemo and all, I want to: <BR> <BR> WISH EVERYONE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS <BR> and <BR> A HAPPY NEW YEAR ! <BR> <BR> Love and hugs to everyone. <BR> Janet and Lexie Mon, 7 Dec 2015 17:27:38 EST PRAYERS <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> "PRAY WITHOUT CEASING" Fri, 4 Dec 2015 05:40:44 EST A NEW TRADITION Today, Lexie and I are starting a new tradition. <BR> <BR> "Think what a better world it would be if we all the whole world had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down on our blankets for a nap. " <BR> <BR> -Barbara Jordan- <BR> <BR> That's what we shall do, even tho Lexie is my canine companion,. <BR> Thu, 3 Dec 2015 08:32:57 EST Ever feel like your lost in a desert? To begin with, we had sleet, then light snow! <BR> <BR> Being where hubby and I are now, is a lonely place! I, for one feel like I have moved in the middle of a desert. Where no one knows either of us! The only telly calls are the Son, a d telamarkers. No one checking on us or even emailing! <BR> <BR> I know there is a lesson to be learned here. <BR> <BR> Whenever something happens to you, see what you can learn from it. You may just be surprised. Wed, 2 Dec 2015 19:32:54 EST MUSINGS I don't know what happened with the last paragraph of the previous blog. <BR> <BR> I get a different outlook on life over the holidays. <BR> <BR> I have mentioned how ones thought were long x friends. Have walked away from me. <BR> I has been said that they don't know what to say. How about a touch on the arm, a hug, or if they really know you, a smooth on the cheek? Or, a simple "I'm sorry ", "GOD BLESS YOU EVEN "I'm praying for you ". <BR> <BR> In going over my teams, I have no... Fri, 27 Nov 2015 09:07:06 EST