SMCDONALD624's SparkPeople Blog SMCDONALD624's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Well I blew it but I am back! I should be nearing my goal by now, but I find myself even bigger than when I started my diet! I fell off the wagon last june and ate my way back up and beyond! I have no excuses other than I went into blind eating mode, everything looked so good at summer bbq's and summer ice cream and I just never went back to counting calories or spark people! <BR> <BR> I feel so bad right now, but I am back and counting calories again! I just hope I can keep it up this time! I need to get this weight of... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 13:20:29 EST Finally going to the gym .. Spring is here and I finally am over the slump. am pushing myself to go to the gym, I know it may not seem a hard thing to do but for me it has been a mountain ... I am proud of myself that I could get there, I did a half hour work out both days, its not much to some but its a start. <BR> <BR> I have avoided the strength machines because to my embarrassment, I couldn't fit in half of them due to my size but that is another hurdle to get over in my self esteem, I have lost 30 lbs now so soon... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 22:03:08 EST I am losing slowly but surely It does feel good to be able to stick within my calorie range. Losing 25 lbs so far helps me to stick to an eating regime and not give up or fall of the wagon. I fell off once but gained back like a weeks worth of weight lost in just one day and i realized that it just wasn't worth it! <BR> <BR> So now I am on the straight and narrow <BR> <BR> My gym days are still few and far between but I am hoping as the weather gets better, so will I Sun, 9 Mar 2014 19:12:58 EST I finally did it! After 3 long months I finally got back to the gym! my first day back and I was really proud of myself for going.. I suffer from depression and it was a really tough winter, although its cold, I mustered up the strength and willpower and just went and it feels great to be guilt free today! <BR> <BR> I hope I can do it again tomorrow or in the least this week. it may not be a big deal for some but for me its a huge deal and I am very proud of myself for getting out there! <BR> <BR> <em>521<... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 15:42:25 EST Making Progress! Well I go to a Metabolic Clinic as I take medication that makes me gain weight... they counteracted that with a medication that helps me lose weight and its actually working! I lost 8 lbs! its nice to finally see some progress and its motivating me to stick to healthy eating more so I should see more gone as well! <BR> <BR> My spark buddy and I are really helping each other and I love being able to share our successes and frustrations... things are looking up! <em>9</em> Wed, 29 Jan 2014 18:57:24 EST Having a buddy Well I may not be totally good this year with my eating but this year I got a buddy on sparkpeople who I am conversing with everyday and reporting to .... its so nice to have someone in the same boat as me... struggling.... but we share and support each other and I think that is important. I have known this person before sparkpeople and introduced her to it ... perhaps this will help me to get and stay on track as we support each other.... we'll see... in the meantime I am enjoying connecting... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 08:42:31 EST More blahs I know I should be positive .. I know I should be exercising .... I know I should be doing a lot of things .... but .... as I look at my big butt ..... I simply can't get there .... I wish I could ... I wish I could say .... Well I feel great ... I love working out ... I love watching my new body shrink as I burn those calories.... <BR> <BR> I wish I wish .... I know wishing gets me nowhere and doing does .... well tomorrow is another day says the star procrastinator ... I am depressed yes a... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 13:02:24 EST It's been a long time Here I am ... many months since last blog post ... haven't lost weight... I am accepting that I have a food addiciton. It doesn't help that I am on medication that makes me gain weight and makes me incredibly hungry, and it doesn't help that I hate exercise and avoid it at all cost. I visited here a lot all summer and just felt guilty as I read all the inspiring stories from those who have done so well here. <BR> <BR> All I can say is that today is a new day, I am making my first goal to ha... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 14:33:18 EST Day One .. success Well .. day one on new eating/exercise plan and doing well so far ... like they say .. one day at a time ... I just hope I can keep this up instead of another failed attempt... Went to the gym .. did one hour and then ate to plan ... <BR> <BR> Yay! <BR> <BR> I also hear that going gluten free will help with irritability which will make my family much happier!! I will keep posting if nothing else :) Keeps me honest :) Tue, 5 Mar 2013 08:44:46 EST I'm BAAAAAAAACK!!!! Well it has been almost a month since I abandoned my Sparkpeople Post! <BR> <BR> I went to Florida .. or should I say .."ate my way" through Florida .. and I have to admit I enjoyed every bite full ... Then I was switching a medication that can be stressful in itself and had to watch my reactions so I decided to leave my diet alone until I got stabilized on it.. <BR> <BR> Now .. after much research as far as what type of eating is best for me .. I chose to go Primal! <BR> <BR> Primal Lif... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 08:02:10 EST Guilt, Guilt and more guilt This blog has been the hardest so far .. I was doing well on the sparkpeople program and then went to florida .. deciding I would have one last harrah on the diet front .. big mistake .. I am so sick of eating .. I am positive I gained back all the weight I lost and more .. i don't even want to get on the scale that is how bad it is ... <BR> <BR> I guess the best start is that I am back here writing again .... I will be going gluten free soon as I feel it is the best thing for me and my "bin... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 07:37:41 EST Yay! Made it to the gym! I didn't do strength training ... but I did do 10 minutes on bicycle .. 10 on treadmill and 10 on cross trainer .. so at least I put in 30 minutes <BR> <BR> I can never post a blog until I have done something I have accomplished .. and today I accomplished something instead of "I could have gone .. but didn't" <BR> <BR> Yay me! Tue, 5 Feb 2013 22:11:24 EST Too busy for gym .. or so I said My daughter and I joined a gym ... we usually go together ... today .. she had a fitness class at school .. my husband even said before I knew this "go to the gym while you have time" ..and it wasn't like he was being controlling .. he is being supportive and I said .. no I will wait for my daughter to get home and we will go together as I knew she would be disappointed.. as it turned out she was too tired after her fitness class .. so in hindsight I should have gone ... although I have to ad... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 22:25:33 EST No Guarantees ... So I am going to an italian buffet today for my step-son's 14th birthday.. I can't guarantee I will be totally good, however I will try to make good choices. Thank goodness for Antipasto and fish! <BR> <BR> I will probably wake up tomorrow with some guilt.. I am hoping it will be more of a sense of accomplishment compared to what I could have had .. Sun, 3 Feb 2013 16:53:44 EST Switching it Up at the Gym Well I finally made it to the gym today .. after many days of being sore from doing too much ... <BR> <BR> This time I did 10 minutes on the bicycle, 10 minutes on the cross trainer and 10 minutes on the treadmill <BR> <BR> Then 15 minutes of strength training .. I also programmed them for fatburning level and based on my size and age it was manageable ... It was kind of funny that I found the cross trainer settings slow however it was still difficult to do as there was more resistance .. ... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 23:37:52 EST Struggling with going to the gym My daughter and I joined a gym together .. she is 16 and I told her today that since she didn't clean her room this week then we weren't going to the gym today .. She really enjoys it and I made it clear that I was doing this because she has had all week to organize her room <BR> <BR> Being honest with myself .. I really didn't want to go anyway and used this as an excuse.. <BR> <BR> I will go tomorrow because I am adamant about meeting my weekly fitness minutes goal .. I just get disappoin... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 23:05:02 EST Addicted to Spark Games! It started innocently enough ... looking for a forum that would interest me to participate in .. and I came across the "spark games" forum ... and I enjoyed posting to games like "Actor/Movie" and words that start with "d" or "s" .. and "change one letter but not the order" ... and about 10 more other games I participate in .. <BR> <BR> Now my email is filling up with about 20 emails at a time .. as each other participant updates the games .. and whether or not I have my "15" posts points..... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 09:36:51 EST my JUST DO IT mantra! No more excuses!! I had to do the "nike" mantra .. JUST DO IT!! <BR> <BR> I can't allow myself to "think about it" .. Just do it!! <BR> <BR> And I did do it !! I went to the gym and got back on the treadmill and even tried the elliptical .. I also found out that I was setting the elliptical too high and that is why it was too much! When I set it to fat burning for my size .. it had me going at a nice leisurely pace.. something I could handle .. and as long as my heart rate was up there ..... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 16:56:26 EST Didn't go the the gym! Well yesterday I wrote about not wanting to go to the gym .. now .. I didn't go .. however I did ... <BR> Shovel the driveway, move furniture in my daughter's room .. (she being 16 needed to switch it up) ... vacuum the upstairs floor of our house ... <BR> <BR> And when I entered all of that activity in the fitness tracker .. it works out that I am more than halfway to my weekly exercise minutes goal and have surpassed my weekly calories burned!! <BR> <BR> I learned from this .. that even i... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 06:54:28 EST Keeping Motivated I recognize this feeling .. too many days in a row at the gym ... having 2 days off and never wanting to go back ... ugh ... <BR> <BR> I know the best answer is to get back on that horse .. my legs are feeling better, however I am feeling lazy .. there are multitudes of excuses going through my head .. too much snow .. it will be too cold .. I have too much housework .. I am just plain tired ... I need to get dinner ready... <BR> <BR> The list can go on and on .. I know I have to counterac... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 07:57:51 EST Shin Splints? I was on the treadmill .. and the front of my left shin was aching .. I remember that feeling from wearing high heels in my younger days ... I learned today after looking it up that its called shin splints and its from not stretching enough and doing too much before you are ready for it. <BR> <BR> I admit I was doing too much too soon .. I tried to up my walking speed because I wasn't working up a sweat .. and lo and behold I was in a lot of pain much so that I have been out of exercise... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 17:42:37 EST Gluten Sensitivity? I am over 140 lbs overweight .. and when my husband saw what I ate compared to my weight gain . He said .. something has to be wrong here ... I tested negative for metabolic syndrome and after reading about the wheatbelly diet .. am wondering if I have a gluten sensitivity .. Celiac has symptoms similar to what i have experienced .. I used to call them "Carb Comas" .. I got very tired to the point that I couldn't keep my eyes open after carbs .. as I read wheatbelly though I recognized the s... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 13:54:56 EST I would like to know what it's like ... - To enjoy exercising .. <BR> - To be able to ride on a plane without my legs aching from squishing them into a seat and having to ask .. quite embarrassingly for a seat belt extender <BR> - To be able to sit in a plastic chair without the fear of it collapsing or the embarrassment of having it collapsing <BR> - To not be leered at judgingly like I have no right to be there by thin people when I am eating at a restaurant or buffet <BR> - To be able to look in the mirror and not sigh in disgus... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 09:03:15 EST I challenged my fitness level .. I just had to write because I am so pleased to see such a difference in my fitness levels since I started working out at the gym .. I started the treadmill about 2.2 mph .. for 10 minutes.. then I upped it to 15 minutes and since last weekend I am doing 30 minutes .. <BR> <BR> In the beginning .. I was sweating up a storm .. then I stopped and the 2.2 mph became a walk in the park .. yesterday I walked for 45 minutes .. and today . instead of walking longer .. I upped my speed to 10 minutes... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 20:34:11 EST The Power of a Lemon I was sent this article on facebook and just had to log it to remind me to take this into action .. it's a great tip ... please note that it is not my own writing .. but it's the message that is most important <BR> <BR> "Amazing facts about lemons <BR> All it a frozen lemon <BR> <BR> Many professionals in restaurants and eateries are using or consuming the entire lemon and nothing is wasted. How can you use the whole lemon without waste? <BR> <BR> Simple.. place the washed lem... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 07:26:02 EST First Entry Well its my first entry here and I have been a member of sparkpeople for over a week .. a week ago Wednesday I joined a gym with my daughter and I am ACTUALLY going regularly .. I have challenged myself to exercise 180 minutes a week and so far have surpassed it .. which I am proud of ... I have also lost about 9 lbs since I last weighed in (I am sure most of it was water weight) but I am not expecting that much miraculous results in weeks coming ahead <BR> <BR> I am doing well and really en... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 14:21:52 EST