SLIMMERJESSE's SparkPeople Blog SLIMMERJESSE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Caffeine, Shingles, Food Tracking, Misc. Well, okay. I've been done with caffeine for a few months now. Even though I had only one small mug of coffee each morning, I am a caffeine-sensitive soul. While dealing with the nerve pain from Shingles over the past months, I decided (again for the millionth time) to give it the ole heave-ho. It's a struggle as I long for it daily. If I go back, I may not admit it here or else one of my SP friends probably won't talk to me ever again. (smiling) She's been a wonderful help and mentor a... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 12:30:34 EST Absurd Rationalizations, 2 OCD Behaviors, Misc. I noticed my recent thoughts on SP that are truly absurd. In one blog, I said that since the brain only uses glucose for energy, I am entitled to eat sugar to enhance my brain power. Man, I've been thinking of that ever since I wrote that and smiled when I read my pal's response that she wasn't going to let me off the hook with that thinking. (smiling) <BR> <BR> Then, a response I wrote the other day startled me. I said that, since life has deprived me of so much (mainly, the deaths/loss... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 11:46:57 EST Electrical Problem, Disneyland, I Actually Passed Another Walker, Etc. I didn't notice that a circuit of appliances weren't working until 4:15 yesterday afternoon. After problem-solving with the circuit breakers, there was no sign of life. Of course, who knows a good electrician and how easy is it to research after 5? Not. <BR> <BR> I called a friend who lives far away and he narrowed it down, so at least I knew enough as not to get bamboozled. Fortunately, I researched fast and well. Found a good person who came out last night with no extra after-hours ch... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 12:06:50 EST Hot Hot Hot I'm avoiding talking about issues today because I feel like my stuff is so trivial compared with the heavy duty stuff going down in the world. (another overnight shooting rampage, and more stuff in Germany) <BR> <BR> Even when I talk about my own topics, I try to stay on the lighter side of things. But lately, it's tough to do that. <BR> <BR> Hot weather and very uncomfortable, for sure. Wishing all a great day. Mon, 25 Jul 2016 10:49:25 EST Rewriting My Deal with Reality I heard this phrase on a Wayne Dyer segment and really feel it describes where I'm at right now. Have lost my patience with trying to fit a round peg (me) into a square hole (life). What that equates to is that I have always had a restless spirit, but have managed to fit into "normal' - yes, whatever that is. <BR> <BR> However, I really want to fly and feel that I may make a new deal with my own reality. A very different person than I was nine years ago, before the second (or third, I'v... Sun, 24 Jul 2016 14:01:07 EST Glucose & My Brain, Sympathy for those In Munich First of all, I want to extend my condolences to those affected by the ongoing tragedies in Munich, Germany. Very sad. <BR> <BR> I've read that glucose is the only source of energy that the brain uses. No wonder I've been craving sugar; I use my brain so much that it needs glucose. (smiling) How's that for a great rationalization? <BR> <BR> Wishing all a good day. Hot temps, so stay as cool as possible. Fri, 22 Jul 2016 15:03:02 EST BE OPEN TO EVERYTHING, AND ATTACHED TO NOTHING I hear this occasionally in talks that are oriented with a Buddhist-type philosophy and it makes me smile. Sometimes I can do it, but other times I am open to nothing and attached to everything. Such a creature of so many paradoxes I am! (smiling) <BR> <BR> Wishing all a wonderful day. Hot hot hot here today. Guess that's why it's called Summer. Thu, 21 Jul 2016 14:15:17 EST NOTHING BUT MEGA STRESS W/NO END IN SIGHT One of those nightmare probates is upon me where greedy, awful people are swindling me out of my fair share. Lawyer consult today indicates they are within their right and I don't have a leg to stand on. Isn't that sweet? But I'm going to get another opinion as he might be wrong. <BR> <BR> Okay, then comes my bills for all the shingles doc visits. Insurance company messed up the billing so badly that it'll take some time to unravel and resolve. <BR> <BR> Hot temps today, so it looks as ... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 21:11:54 EST Sugar/Caffeine Rebellion, Walking Speed, Nerve Pain, Salad, Etc. I've had this HUGE (I mean huger than huge) rebellion going on. It's funny that I spent my life making "mature" decisions, but have such an immature streak that makes me laugh sometimes. Aside from some stressful things going on, I just finished five months of post- shingles nerve pain. I feel entitled to do anything I want now as a reward for surviving. No kidding, it felt like I was dying. I understand all of the rational responses to this thinking and give myself a good dose of discip... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 13:34:36 EST Heartfelt Sympathy to Those in LA (USA) As I write this, news reports police being shot in Louisiana. My heart is sad once again. <BR> Sun, 17 Jul 2016 12:05:11 EST My Dilemma w/Dog Owners During My Walks I've blogged before about seeing dogs that have to walk on hot pavement with their tender little paws, others that are pulled on leashes that choke them as their owners force their pull, and other miscellaneous things. I am not a meddling type of gal, but I hate to see these things and fantasize about doing the same thing to their owner when I encounter those situations. <BR> <BR> But yesterday, I couldn't help but say something. I was sitting on a bench and a man walked by whom I've encou... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 09:46:19 EST Land of the Pokemon Go Zombies Last night I walked past a nearby park that is not usually full. I thought there was an event, but soon realized that the people who were there were milling around with their phones in front of their faces, looking for whatever you are supposed to find on that game. Had to smile; they looked just like zombies. At another park, there was a similar scenario, but some of the folks found more than they came for - human remains. Yikes! There are already stories of those playing the game who'v... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 13:27:26 EST Heartfelt Sympathy to Those in Nice and to all in France Very sorry for your losses. So very sad. Thu, 14 Jul 2016 20:04:22 EST Burned Out on Yesterday's Walk & the Downside of Early Xmas Shopping Yesterday, I was so proud of myself for the speed of my walk. But then a lady passed and started to leave me in the dust. (just like the one last week I blogged about) This time I decided to use her as a "pace car" and I was a short distance behind her my entire walk. Man, was that a workout! It wound up knocking 15 minutes off my total time. But today I'm sore and don't want to get out there. I will. Later. And slower than yesterday's pace. Sorry to say, I'm not the speedy kind and ... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 09:59:55 EST National French Fry Day, Manicure, Food Tracking I did a perfect manicure and found a top coat that lasts longer than ever before. Nails look wonderful. <BR> <BR> I have to start forcing myself to track my food. I don't know why I resist things that will help me. <BR> <BR> Don't feel like walking today. That means I especially need to do it. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a fab day. And don't do much celebrating with those French fries. (smiling) Wed, 13 Jul 2016 08:54:59 EST Birthday Dinner Tonight & Fish Tacos Tonight I'm having a birthday dinner for my son at On the Border. They have my fave fish tacos and I'm really tired of trying to behave when I go out to eat. (smiling) But I will try my best, for sure. <BR> <BR> After today, no more holidays for awhile. Meanwhile, I plan to get serious about getting rid of these remainder lbs. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a wonderful day. Mon, 11 Jul 2016 09:36:13 EST Today I Received My Africa Badge from Fitbit I've walked the entire length of Africa - 5K - and received my badge from FB. Yes, I'm proud of myself. Especially since it's been a real push to get out there during the post-shingles nerve pain these past five months. I'm feeling a lot less pain these days, aside from some flare-ups. <BR> <BR> I've rarely felt competitive, but the other day, a lady passed me while I was walking. She was much older, heavier, and wearing street clothes rather than comfortable exercise clothes. All of t... Sat, 9 Jul 2016 10:19:13 EST My Heart Goes Out to Dallas What is happening to my country? It's a war zone. <BR> <BR> Fri, 8 Jul 2016 01:13:13 EST Salt, Starch, Cheese I really have to do better with those three culprits in weight sabotage. <BR> <BR> On another topic. . . For some reason, a quote I read the other day has stuck in my noggin. To paraphrase it, if you aren't happy with the things you have, you probably won't be happy with the things you want. It was stated more eloquently, but it really speaks to a society with insatiable purchasing behaviors. This is not a judgement, just an observation. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a happy day. Wed, 6 Jul 2016 10:41:18 EST OMG....70 Hot Dogs (and Buns) in 10 Minutes?!!! The national hot dog eating contest gives me a stomachache just hearing about it. Can you imagine what all that junk does to the body? Yikes! <BR> <BR> Have a good day, friends. Tue, 5 Jul 2016 09:17:20 EST USA Birthday Barbecue, A Sad Anniversary, Misc. Today's barbecue will be a test to my willpower, of which I've had little of late. (smiling) Actually, not as bad as it sounds, but I've always loved hot dogs. Yes, those little devils filled will nothing nutritious. And grilled with mustard and sauerkraut are what I could live on if I didn't know better. But I do. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the sixth year since my dear cousin departed. I wish I could say time heals all wounds. Far from my first loss in life, she was the proverbial stra... Mon, 4 Jul 2016 13:20:33 EST Arm Muscles Have Turned to Jello & Happy Canada Day During these past months of post-shingles nerve pain, my poor arm muscles have turned to mush. I have to start building them back up, along with my immune system. <BR> <BR> I'm still trying to figure out how Canada produces so many nice people. I mean, really nice people. In fact, on a radio show called Travels with Rick Steves, last weekend he had a guest on who always takes his myriad vacations to different locales in Canada. This guy raved about how nice people are there, and says the... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 10:04:47 EST "You Won't See Yourself Coming or Going" I've never understood what this means; maybe someone out there can explain it to me. I've read this phrase regarding a clothing item, shoes, purse, etc. <BR> <BR> I think I might succumb to caffeine again. It feels like I deserve one small mug of coffee for making it through these first six months of the year with so much pain going on. I'm tired of the tug-of-war and seem to be heading toward the dark side with the caffeine decision. Sad, but true. Weak, for sure. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow... Thu, 30 Jun 2016 10:12:40 EST Aftermath of Donut Caper, Expensive Habits, Packed Heating Pad Away, & Misc. A couple of weeks ago, after months of no sugar, I was at a social function of sorts and had a humongous donut. That weekend, I thwarted temptation, but once I open that sugar door, it is a huge struggle to maintain "sobriety." It's been a sugar-drenched two weeks since then although I did ward off having more donuts. I found a gourmet bar of chocolate and remembered the articles about how chocolate eaters live longer than non-eaters of chocolate. Of course, I'm going to live a lonnnnnng ... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 13:11:07 EST Checking In w/Various Topics It's so easy to let go of blogging, just as I did with tracking food. My bad. (smiling) But blogging does, indeed, keep me accountable. I list topics in my head that I want to cover, and then get lazy about writing about them. <BR> <BR> Heat is here, big time. <BR> <BR> I just made an appointment in August with a nutritionist. I've always wanted to go to one. I hope I don't cancel as I hate all things medical. <BR> <BR> THE GREAT NEWS? This is my 3rd pain free day - after 5 month... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 12:16:07 EST Baggy clothes, Kids Dying in Hot Cars, Nerve Pain, Misc. When I added the new pic on SP that I had taken at the movies this past weekend, I noticed that I tend to wear larger sizes that are baggy even when I could easily go with smaller ones. For one thing, it's a habit to buy the bigger styles. And for another, sheer comfort. But it's a good visual for me to keep in mind. A huge advantage of posing with a huge statue is that I look so much smaller. (smiling) <BR> <BR> How in the world do you "forget" your child and leave him/her in a hot vehi... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 09:32:15 EST My Donut Caper It started on Friday morning. I was walking along and ready to cross the street, when a friend drove by and motioned me to stop over at his house. So I turned left and he got out of his work truck with a huge box as his work crew was meeting early and he bought donuts for them. He showed me his new backyard that he did, his new birds, and then offered me a donut. <BR> <BR> Okay, I've been off added sugar for months. I've been in pain for over four months now and have an attitude that I d... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 08:51:13 EST TO GRANDPA ON FATHER'S DAY Thank you and miss you. Love you so much. <BR> <BR> Heatwave has arrived and I'm off to a movie with a friend. <BR> <BR> Will write about my terrible donut caper in tomorrow's blog. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a happy, healthy day. Sun, 19 Jun 2016 12:03:04 EST Heatwave Coming, Earthquake Insurance, Misc. Wow, if you've ever had the lunch specials at Red Lobster, they have the most AMAZING shrimp tacos. Really, mega-delish. <BR> <BR> Okay, so tomorrow is supposed to bring a big heatwave and we're into a five-year drought which means trouble as we head into fire season. But you really can't sit and worry as we all know how useless and stressful that is. <BR> <BR> After last week's big earthquake that woke me up in the middle of the night, I've been sleeping in my clothes - just in case. I ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 12:27:33 EST Shingles and Suicide Yesterday, a healthcare provider casually mentioned the correlation between suicide and shingles nerve pain. That there are a high number of suicides resulting from nerve pain. I researched it upon arriving home and found it interesting. <BR> <BR> Not that I've contemplated self-destruction, but over these four months of nerve pain, I've felt like I've been a baby. That maybe I should/could be tougher and it's not as bad as I think. After reading how others have reacted to their shingles... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 09:13:03 EST When News Coverage Turns Into Maudlin Entertainment I understand covering the facts of a nightmarish event, like the one in Orlando on Sunday, but hearing the footage of the gunshots, seeing the dead bodies, etc. days later is when it crosses the line, in my opinion. <BR> <BR> That's why I limit my news and information intake. I can only take so much violence, which is very little. <BR> <BR> Again, my heartfelt sympathy for family and friends, as well as those departed and in the hospital from the massacre. <BR> <BR> On the health front,... Tue, 14 Jun 2016 12:48:04 EST Rearranged My Day Yesterday I just wasn't in the mood to go out yesterday with a heavy heart from the Orlando tragedy. I didn't plan to feel that way, it just happened. I'll go another time, no biggie. <BR> <BR> Doing well with less sugar, no caffeine, and less nerve pain from shingles. Feeling very thankful as pain is no fun. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a good day. Mon, 13 Jun 2016 09:59:37 EST Heartbreaking News Right Now from Orlando- Largest Mass Shooting in U.S. History I'm in tears over this breaking news; 50 dead and 53 wounded by what they are calling a "ideological motivated" (how politically correct!) shooter. <BR> <BR> Going to light my special candle. I can't stand how violent this country has become. <BR> <BR> Deepest sympathy to all in Orlando. Sun, 12 Jun 2016 10:49:46 EST I BROUGHT CARROTS W/ME TO THE COUNTY FAIR LAST NIGHT (and didn't eat them) Okay, just a few years ago, I sparked here in a blog about how worried I was about going to the County Fair that night and all of the "tempting" food that would be wafting me in its direction. Fast forward a few years, and I wasn't a bit worried when I planned the evening at the fair last night. <BR> <BR> First of all, I no longer crave yucky stuff. Don't get me wrong, I can (and do sometimes) have dalliances, but I knew I wasn't going to have a tug-of-war with the nutrition good angel sit... Sat, 11 Jun 2016 13:13:14 EST Shakin' All Over - A Rude Awakening at 1 a.m. Yikes! If an earthquake isn't scary enough during daylight hours, having a strong one wake you up out of your sleep is a super-frightening event. <BR> <BR> It was tough getting back to sleep because you always wonder if there are more on the way. I think I am going to start going to bed in my regular clothes again, as I do whenever I think there will be an earthquake. That way, I won't have to run outside in pj's. (smiling) <BR> <BR> Scary, for sure. My stomach has been hurting since t... Fri, 10 Jun 2016 08:50:13 EST What's Up with Me I wanted to pop in and say hello to all of you; every time I think I'm going to consistently blog, I wind up not doing so. Honestly, I'm going through another "going to take a break from SP" mentality. It happens every so often when I just get sick of caring about all this. <BR> <BR> I'd started (after four months of Shingles nerve pain) to feel better and a couple of things happened to set me back. I pushed myself with too much physical activity and my body rebelled. It seems that muscl... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 10:12:30 EST In Memory of My Uncle Sal (Korea) My grandmother heard a knock at her door one day and nearly passed out when she opened it. There stood my Uncle Sal in his new Navy uniform to surprise her. What was so surprising? <BR> <BR> Well, he was just 16 and forged his mother's signature in order to join. Off to Korea went her youngest of nine children and her heart was broken from that point on. <BR> <BR> To my Uncle Sal and all of those who gave everything, words of gratitude are hardly sufficient. Deep in my heart, I've had a... Mon, 30 May 2016 12:45:01 EST My Dearly-Departed Cousin's Birthday & New Things for Her Memorial Garden I just returned with some embellishments to the little memorial garden I've set aside over these years in memory of my dear cousin who was like a sister to me. She's been gone six years now, and although far from my first loss in life, she was the proverbial straw that has changed me in many ways. <BR> <BR> I guess it's like an elastic band and you keep stretching with each loss and trauma until, one day without warning, it snaps. Not that I'm a raving lunatic (smiling), but so many change... Sun, 29 May 2016 11:55:45 EST I "Think" I'm Feeling Better After three months of constant nerve pain from shingles (dastardly!), it has not been a linear healing progression. That is, one day, you might feel a bit better only to revert back into the land of bigtime pain. <BR> <BR> However, in the last few days, I noticed a significant drop in pain level and I am hoping like crazy that this is the sign of this awful stuff leaving town for good. I can deal with intermittent relapses of pain if that's what will remain for awhile. <BR> <BR> I am so... Sat, 28 May 2016 11:28:26 EST Fitbit Lawsuit - Another Perspective (mine) I am not a person who will sue a company because its device is inaccurate. I learned long ago that my FB is not perfect; a friend and I spent the day at Disneyland last year. He tracked steps with his phone and I tracked with my FB. Dear little FB was way off. But it didn't occur to me to run to file a lawsuit against the company. <BR> <BR> That said, in the news are claims of people suing FB over inaccurate sleep and heart monitoring. When I buy a device, I figure it's a ballpark esti... Thu, 26 May 2016 09:06:15 EST Doggy shoes, Dog Owners, Diabetes Debate w/Friend, Pain Meds, Misc. The other day, as I was driving along, I had to do a double-take. There was a service dog wearing shoes! No kidding. They looked like functional, rather than fashionable, shoes. Has anyone encountered this before? Just curious. <BR> <BR> As for dog owners when I'm taking my daily walks, I never interfere in others' business. But sometimes it kills me to see some of the things pet owners do with their dogs. For example, pull their leashes repeatedly while the lovely animal is choking. ... Sun, 22 May 2016 12:43:47 EST Serotonin- Maybe A Horror Hormone, Not a Happy Hormone I blogged this before, from pharmacist Ben Fuchs' Critical Health News daily blog. I think it's so interesting (and misunderstood) that I'm blogging about it again. <BR> <BR> "If you watch the cartoonish commercials on TV about depression and anti-depressants, you would think that that the molecule known as serotonin is a biochemical of bliss and if you’re feeling crappy, you can just take a medicine that bumps up its effects and voilà, you’ll be happy! On the other hand, if you go to webs... Wed, 18 May 2016 11:18:59 EST Cracked Myself Up w/Yesterday's Blog After writing yesterday about my lifelong avoidance of drugs, alcohol, and meds, I had to laugh. It's too bad I didn't think the same way about the two additional poisons that have taken me forever to conquer - sugar and caffeine. Not that I've overcome those addictions, but doing far better than ever before, so that will have to suffice for now. <BR> <BR> I guess I'll have to accept this pain as a way of life as I spoke too soon yesterday. I was elated for 4-5 hours of its absence, but i... Tue, 17 May 2016 10:06:21 EST FEELING SO THANKFUL FOR PAIN RELIEF I am so happy to feel significantly less pain today (first time in three months). And glad that these meds are low dosage and non-addictive. As I've said many times, I am not a pill taker, so it gives me heebie-geebies when I have to put stuff in my body. This has been a lifelong thing with me and that's why I never did alcohol or drugs. Just one of my quirks. (smiling) (one of many) <BR> <BR> Been researching my butt off to find all possible info about shingles. Sometimes ignorance is... Mon, 16 May 2016 10:10:36 EST Reducing Stress & Weight With Posture (Ben Fuchs Blog at Critical Health News) Ben Fuchs is a pharmacist who writes on all sorts of health-related topics. I thought this was a good one and wanted to share. <BR> <BR> In an article that was published in October of 2010 in the journal “Psychological Science”, collaborating researchers from Harvard and Columbia Universities found that humans and animals can up-regulate (i.e. stimulate) the production of healing chemicals by intentionally assuming open, wide, spread out expansive positions and postures. For instance, holdi... Sun, 15 May 2016 11:56:11 EST Sugar Coated (documentary on Netflix) Yet another film about that demon poison - sugar. It does contain some interesting new info, as well as reminders about the stuff we already know. Yikes! I've been doing much better with sugar intake, but still have a way to go. <BR> <BR> As a person who stays as far away from meds as possible, I returned to the doc yesterday after three months of severe shingles nerve pain and practically begged for help. I have a low dosage of something that I am going to research later today. I'm p... Sat, 14 May 2016 10:48:09 EST Headed Back to Doc's This Morning Ordinarily not a pill taker, I need some help with this constant and intense pain from shingles. Rash has been long gone, but nerve pain is beyond belief in three places with some numbness and vibration. Some days it's unbearable. <BR> <BR> BUT, compared with what some of my SP friends are going through, it's do-able. Sending all of you positive energy and hugs with wishes to get well soon. <BR> <BR> Have a lucky Friday the 13th today. Fri, 13 May 2016 09:32:42 EST Thinking of Starting a SP Shingles Healing Team But maybe I'll wind up be a team of one. (smiling) I'm currently trying to form a shingles support group, and that will take some time as I don't think there are that many people out there. BTW, it is no longer an "over 60" malady. <BR> <BR> I've decided to, starting tomorrow, walk less. I find that when I'm tired, I have worse pain flare-ups. So I'll cut down to one walk a day rather than two. <BR> <BR> Hope all are well and having a good day. Wed, 11 May 2016 15:00:31 EST Prescription Thugs (documentary on Netflix) This is an interesting film about how we as a nation are held hostage by big pharma. We have 5 percent of the world's population, but use 75 percent of its prescription drugs. In the past decade, big pharma has made $711 BILLION. Yes, the medical profession is big business; that's nothing new. <BR> <BR> The producer focuses on his own family's use of prescription drugs. Check it out if you have interest in this topic. <BR> <BR> I've researched that I'm in the 5 percent category of those... Tue, 10 May 2016 09:45:04 EST Overweight mothers give birth to fat babies In the news today was this study out of Britain of the correlate between overweight mothers giving birth to fat babies - some of them (the babies) had as much fat around their abdomen as some adults in their 50's. <BR> <BR> The scientists noted that this was the first time they found a direct correlation between obesity starting in the womb as a result of its mother's eating habits. <BR> <BR> Not sure if the radio report was correct, but it also mentioned that women who drank diet drinks ... Mon, 9 May 2016 17:26:45 EST