SLIMMERJESSE's SparkPeople Blog SLIMMERJESSE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Lessons from the Gorillas and Pandas I love them, among other animals. When I go to the zoo, I can't help but notice that they eat the same things every day and are quite content to eat to live. <BR> <BR> Realizing that I am neither a gorilla nor panda, I DO not have to live to eat any longer. One of the biggest changes in these six years has been the change of eating to live - perspective has changed. Sure, I enjoy food, but I no longer have to have the divine cuisine choices to select daily. I'm very satisfied to stick wi... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 18:44:21 EST FORGOT TO EAT BREAKFAST THIS MORNING Wow, that never happens! Maybe it's the heat, but I'm really not that hungry and am currently enjoying a nice, big, green smoothie as I type this. <BR> <BR> Hope all are happy, healthy and enjoying this July 8 day. Big hug. Tue, 8 Jul 2014 15:35:50 EST Summer Has Hit Full-Force and Books I Read Today July Fry has hit in San Diego. Very hot. Will be until around mid-October. I guess that's because it's summertime. Not that there are seasons here. Unless you go to the nearby mountains for snow in winter. <BR> <BR> Read two short books today, both free ebook downloads from Amazon. One was about the Atkins Diet, which was not that interesting or informative. And one was about Walking for Health. Very basic and glad it was short. (and free) <BR> <BR> I don't do well with a/c as it g... Sun, 6 Jul 2014 23:36:18 EST Independence Day and Ketogenic Diet Vitals (ebook) I felt compelled to post a happier blog for today, but really had to vent in the last one. For those who asked, I believe he was in his late 20's. <BR> <BR> Having always been a "free spirit" type of gal, I've appreciated and have never taken for granted my freedom. And have felt lifelong gratitude for those who serve/d to defend it. <BR> We are lucky ducks, but I fear this freedom is in big-time jeopardy for many reasons. Enjoy it while I have it, I guess. <BR> <BR> Got the book "Keto... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 12:47:10 EST My Neighbor's Young Adult Son Was Murdered Yesterday I'm still in shock and still trying to wrap my mind around the news I just got a few hours ago. I have no details yet, but have known this young man since he was a toddler. Very sad and disturbing. <BR> <BR> I will post a happier blog later in the day as I know this is supposed to be a holiday with lots of happy stuff going on. But just had to vent through a blog. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a fun, safe 4th. Fri, 4 Jul 2014 03:18:42 EST Woohoo. Holding Our Own at Half Time at World Cup. Not normally a soccer fan, but have to admit that I'm pretty jazzed that we're in the World Cup. Have taken time from my day today and it's half-time with no score. Holding our own. Proud of this U.S. team. Woohoo. <BR> <BR> (NOW INTO EXTRA TIME, AND PERHAPS, PENALTY KICKS. U.S. HAS NEVER MADE IT TO THE PENALY KICKS POINT.) <BR> <BR> Oh well, it was a team to be proud of nonetheless - 2-1. Tue, 1 Jul 2014 16:58:02 EST Welcoming July & Happy Canada Day Once again, I can't believe we are into the second half of this year already. Wishing my Canadian spark friends a Happy Canada Day. (Why are you all such happy, nice people? No kidding. Every Canadian I've ever met has been such a nice human being.) Tue, 1 Jul 2014 08:17:02 EST Will Work Hard to Make the 2nd Half of This Year Better than the First Half Well, this year has been a humdinger, for sure. Not only the month of pneumonia (third time in 18 months), but the death of my dear friend a few weeks ago. And, of course, the bumps in the road that are also a part of my own life. <BR> <BR> So, I'm working hard to build my immune system back up to its former healthy and robust state. Hoping that no one else dies this year. And will tackle these other challenges one at a time. <BR> <BR> My dear cousin (in black top in SP photo) passed ... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 00:30:07 EST Laughter Yoga - I Did It Before Knowing What it Was! (smiling) I thought it was just me going around the bend, sitting here and doing all kinds of laughing - over nothing. Then I recently discovered there's a name for it - laughter yoga. What a relief, I'm not completely nuts! (just partially) Wed, 25 Jun 2014 14:15:51 EST Relief and Closure This is not an emotional closure of the loss of my cousin, but a legal closure that has been a dark cloud hovering over my head for over 3 years. <BR> <BR> I recently blogged about a deadbeat attorney who has dragged my cousin's (in black shirt in SP photo) very small estate out for over three years in order to keep milking her fees. <BR> <BR> Of late, due to an item in the estate, the AG's office has had to okay it. I've been in-touch with them recently to try to expedite finality. <BR>... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 16:56:43 EST Not My Circus, Not My Monkeys I found this Polish proverb in a book I downloaded free on Kindle and started reading this weekend - "WTF to OMG - A frazzled female's guide..." <BR> <BR> This proverb sticks in my head due to some issues and reminding myself to give back responsibility to those I've taken on myself. Not a martyr or perpetual caretaker of others, I do have a couple of people I've recently blogged about. They are eating poorly and are suffering severe health consequences. I've kinda taken it as my mission ... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 15:40:53 EST Fitbit Weirdness Whenever I forget to wear my fitbit, I feel as though my day's walking didn't count! (smiling) Will I ever be able to live without counting my steps? I don't know. It gets to be part of the fun to see how many steps for the day. But if this little device ever goes away, I don't want to feel that walking is not beneficial without tracking. Know what I mean? I've become dependent on it to establish value to the activity when the activity alone has value. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a happy da... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 09:21:20 EST Smaller Portions. Eating Slowly. Even after all these years of a healthier lifestyle, I still have a hard time remembering to do these two things. <BR> <BR> Off to the fair and concert I go today. Wishing all a happy day. Thu, 19 Jun 2014 08:20:34 EST Pea Sprouts and New Market I recently discovered a large Asian supermarket and the size of its produce department is amazing. In fact, it'll take me several visits to look at all the unique fruit and veggies from far and wide. Things I've never heard of; fascinating. <BR> <BR> I bought a container of pea sprouts. I've a lifelong dislike of peas, but figured the sprouts would make a good snack. Turns out, they are delish and I've researched them only to find that they are loaded with good attributes for a healthy b... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 09:24:44 EST Tony Gwynn - Such a Wonderful, Talented, Kind, Caring San Diegan - RIP Hall of Famer, Tony Gwynn (Padres hitter), passed away in the early morning hours today. Have known him and his family for decades and he was a rare human being. A great role model for kids (and adults), and an all-around great person. He is missed already. Gone too soon at 54. <BR> <BR> RIP, Mr. Padre. We love you. Mon, 16 Jun 2014 13:37:28 EST Never Saw Even a Photo of My Bio Dad It's a long story and tmi for a social website. All I know about the mystery man is that he looked like Robert Redford and was funny as h. (of course, he would be since he was of Irish ancestry. smiling) I'm not sure I look like Robert Redford (smiling), but I've always been told that I'm funny as h. <BR> <BR> But I did have a few wonderful father figures, my primary one being my dear grandfather. To this day, I choose male friends with the primary attribute of kindness since that was hi... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 12:21:26 EST The Moon is Big, Bright, Bold and Beautiful - and Orange! Anyone been enjoying the full moon? It's been gorgeous. I can feel it before I see it. Really does effect me. <BR> <BR> Have a fun day! <BR> <BR> (There won't be another full moon on a Friday the 13th until 35 years from now!) Sat, 14 Jun 2014 00:49:06 EST 6 LBS OF CHERRIES IN 3 DAYS What can I say? I found an amazing deal and they are in season. I love them so much and have trouble with moderation for some things like this. (smiling) They are (were) huge, plump and juicy. Life is, I mean was, literally a bowl of cherries. <BR> <BR> Have a happy day, friends. Thu, 12 Jun 2014 14:16:01 EST Trivialities of Life Sometimes life leaves me speechless. I feel silly blogging about my daily trivial details when so much is going on that is life-changing for others. Last week, a good friend passed away (another one of many recent ones) and there are others struggling with terrible pain/illnesses. <BR> <BR> So, how can I write about small things compared to that? I know it's all part of life, but I hate being self-absorbed. <BR> <BR> I will try to get back to blogging a few times a week although it's har... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 09:42:10 EST 1st Weigh-In Since January or February So I knew the day would come, since the beginning of the year not weighing myself, when I'd have to step on that scale. Prior to this past six years, I never even owned a scale. Didn't need one. <BR> <BR> Suddenly, a bunch of factors packed on added pounds and I found myself overweight for the first time in my life. I've hated it, but truth be told, I haven't been that dedicated in losing. I've lost enough to be back in my regular size, with a bit more on top, but since I became the pla... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 11:56:22 EST Remembering Those Brave Souls On D-Day Honestly, I can't imagine being that brave. I never forget, and honor them in a number of ways throughout the year. <BR> <BR> It's really tough to write about my own stuff right now. Everything seems so trivial compared to the loss of a dear friend and the effect on his family and friends. <BR> <BR> Again, I thank you for your kind responses to my blog about this recent loss. My heart is broken, but I've kept my commitment to not eat my way through the pain. <BR> <BR> Big hug and have a... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 09:34:46 EST My Friend.... He's Gone! Passed away at 1:15 this morning. <BR> <BR> Thanks to all of you for your kind responses to my last blog. <BR> <BR> I've promised myself not to eat my sadness. <BR> <BR> Big hugs to all of you. Cherish the day - it's all we have. Thu, 5 Jun 2014 09:54:10 EST I'm Crying; My Friend is Dying In January (or sometime thereabouts), I blogged about the shock of learning that a special friend who was always robust and healthy was diagnosed with cancer. Supposedly, it was one of the easiest to treat. Esophagus. <BR> <BR> Well, today he has been admitted to hospice and can't talk or get out of bed. His mom just passed in Dec from breast cancer. At 43, he had so much of his life ahead of him with his only son whom he's so attached to. <BR> <BR> I'm at a loss for words, but just h... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 21:15:32 EST Watching Male Friends Get Sicker from Poor Eating. Very Sad. Two of my male friends worry me. Over the course of my being on this site for 5.5 years, I've tried to provide info and support in an unobtrusive way. However, their eating is really starting to make them very ill. <BR> <BR> It's sad to stand by and feel helpless. Their diets make me look like a health goddess. (smiling) Seriously, they eat nothing but fast food. Again, I try to help, but I'm truly afraid that the they are both getting sicker and more frequently. <BR> <BR> I wish I c... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 10:36:50 EST Hand Hygiene Hard to believe how many walk out of public restrooms without washing hands. Yikes! Mon, 2 Jun 2014 09:00:56 EST Heat Illness/Semi-Sunstroke - Be very Careful. It Hits W/O Warning. I usually know better than this, but it was one of those things. Was out doing a rare burst of weeding activity under the morning semi-cloud covering. Before I knew it, though, the sun was raying down hard on me. I thought, gee, I'm not feeling so good. Maybe I'd better go inside. Barely made it in w/o passing out. Drank tons. Laid down with dizziness. Kicked myself for letting my good judgment go on vacay. (smiling) <BR> <BR> Kinda feeling better now. But still have a way to go. ... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 17:14:56 EST My Fitness Minutes Typo (6810) I was having trouble inputting fitness minutes with the computer screen freezing as I tried to input my fitness minutes. Before I knew it, there were 6810 fitness minutes displayed. Tried to delete it, but in case it shows up on the weekly boards, I'm posting that this is an obvious typo. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a fun, happy day. Fri, 30 May 2014 09:17:36 EST Happy Birthday to My Dearly-Departed Cousin (More like a Sister) In Photo - black top In this spark photo, she is in a black top and this was three years into cancer having spread all over her body. It's been almost 4 years that she's been gone, and due to having lost so many in recent years (12), as well as my own personal life challenges, it has really changed me in many ways. Letting go has never been my strong suit. <BR> <BR> On this birthday, I am keeping my promise to her to focus on the happy times, of which there were many. I was so lucky to have had her; she was ... Thu, 29 May 2014 14:04:45 EST Cherishing the Memories of Our Fallen Heroes Never forgotten and with lifelong gratitude. My heart aches for all those we've lost. Mon, 26 May 2014 00:15:11 EST WHATTA SCARY FIERY WEEK THAT WAS! At one point, there were nine monster fires blazing simultaneously throughout San Diego County this past week. Thankfully, I wound up not having to evacuate. Looks like the pyromaniacs were out in all their non-glory. Winds were wickedly swirling the flames and the drought dryness was fueling them big-time. <BR> <BR> Exhaling with relief and gratitude for the heroes who put their lives on the line during these dangerous times. Wish I could report that I didn't eat my emotions. (smiling... Sun, 18 May 2014 12:22:26 EST Hoping for a Less Stressful Day The wind is quiet right now, but it's early morning and it usually whips up in a couple of hours. That is not good for these huge fires that are burning throughout the County. <BR> <BR> Very dry conditions from drought, record high temps, and the high winds have contributed to these monster fires. All school districts are closed today. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a good day. <BR> <BR> Thu, 15 May 2014 09:04:33 EST 7 Fires Now Burning In San Diego - I'm packing just in case of evacuation I've never posted 3 blogs in one day in the 5.5 years on SP. <BR> <BR> Winds picked up this morning and there are now 7 fires burning. I've begun packing in case of evacuation. <BR> <BR> After my spark friend's goodbye email this morning (and bad health news), I found out that a friend I'd recently blogged about is not going to make it. <BR> <BR> Then, record high temps and fires galore. It's pretty bad. <BR> <BR> Wed, 14 May 2014 19:58:23 EST A Goodbye Goodie from a Precious Sparkfriend It is a very sad day as I just received a goodbye goodie from a dear spark friend who has been a huge inspiration. I know this is a virtual space, but still reality of sorts. <BR> <BR> This friend has terrible personal news and I just am so sad to see yet another good person suffer. Why don't the scoundrels get this news instead of wonderful folks? <BR> <BR> I will miss her so much. Thank you for the spark time we had together. I hope she keeps in-touch as I've sent her my email address... Wed, 14 May 2014 10:37:14 EST Wind's Subsided, Fire is Still Being Fought Nearby, Wills Sick Again Yesterday was a humdinger. Willie is sick again. That's a huge stressor of mine, and then there's the rest of life that presents challenges. Exhausting. <BR> <BR> If the wind stays away, there's a good chance the firefighters can get this nearby fire under control. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a happy day. Wed, 14 May 2014 00:42:27 EST Fire in San Diego Not Far from Me I've had a stomachache all day due to the fire that is spreading due to wind condition. I've had fires in my life, including jumping from a third floor burning building w/o a net. As well as throwing my then-baby out the window. And in 2007, near-evacuation. So, this brings up scary stuff. Tue, 13 May 2014 19:35:55 EST Checking In To Say Hi Hello, Sparkfriends! Just a note to connect with a brief update. <BR> <BR> Cats are doing great (this week). As mentioned in recent blogs, instead of worrying about impending possible kidney problems, I'm going to enjoy them a day at a time and stay in the present. <BR> <BR> I've been hiking and exercising a lot. Making up for my April lung infection. Working on building my immune system back up. <BR> <BR> Hot weather predicted for this week. So far, higher than normal temps and lot... Mon, 12 May 2014 12:20:43 EST Cinco de Meow Me and my furry boys wish all of you a happy day. Mon, 5 May 2014 12:54:46 EST My Fur Baby is Doing So Well My baby, Prince William, is doing so much better. Hoping it's not the start of kidney disease which will make him sick sporadically, I'll just enjoy one day at a time. <BR> <BR> Plus, thrilled to have my good health back. I never take it for granted. <BR> <BR> Have a good week, friends. Sun, 4 May 2014 17:25:02 EST Heat Wave and William's First Vet Visit Extreme temps and a/c are upon us with record-breaking heat for this time of year. NOT comfortable but, yes, it beats shoveling snow. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, Wills took his first trip to the new vet I've wanted to use for a long time after researching her thoroughly. She's very highly-respected, and pretty close to me. <BR> <BR> William was such a good boy. The staff was friendly. The doc gave him a thorough exam and took the time to discuss things with me. I like her a lot. This pla... Thu, 1 May 2014 09:37:16 EST April Has Been A Humdinger (and NOT in a good way) Pneumonia, credit card fraud, and today my fur baby (the one who is never sick) goes to the vet after a very difficult 24 hours of strange physical symptoms. Yes, I'm stressed as I tend to get with trips to the vet. <BR> <BR> Wishing all a good day. Wed, 30 Apr 2014 09:45:08 EST Hope the Pyromaniacs Don't Come Out to Play Today Very windy day (called Santa Ana), and coupled with a multi-year, severe drought, if we have a fire now it could be catastrophic. We've had our share and several years ago I almost had to evacuate; I was the next town that was going to be ordered out. <BR> <BR> Keeping all of you who are in the path of that nasty storm in my thoughts and sending positive energy your way. Tue, 29 Apr 2014 13:55:15 EST Happy Birthday to my beloved Grandfather You left me many years ago, <BR> But have been missed every day. <BR> My father figure for first five years, <BR> You were my role model for <BR> Kindness and unconditional love. <BR> <BR> Deep in my heart will <BR> You always be. <BR> With unending love, <BR> Happy Birthday, dear grandpa. Thu, 24 Apr 2014 15:54:04 EST 3rd Credit Card Replacement Arrived by UPS Yesterday afternoon, my good buddy UPS driver pulled up and delivered the large envelope holding the third credit card replacement in two months. I told him about my saga and he said that he was delivering a lot of these envelopes that afternoon. <BR> <BR> When I activated the card, the credit card rep put me through a battery of security questions to make sure it was me. I told him that if I have any more trouble, I'm going to freeze the account pending further consideration on what to ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 09:26:04 EST Friends Losing Their Battle, My health, Credit Card Drama I'm so happy to be feeling so much better and have never been one to take good health for granted. Now it's a matter of regaining my strength and endurance that has been lost while helping my lungs to heal. Soooo thankful for the ability to breathe well. <BR> <BR> A couple of months ago, I wrote about a friend whose mom was battling Stage 4 of some gnarly form of cancer and how he himself was diagnosed with advanced stage throat cancer despite being a strapping, healthy guy. Well, she jus... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 09:20:58 EST Credit Card Fraud. Anyone Have Any Thoughts On What's Going on Here? I thought someone out there might have an idea or info about this. About a month ago, I noticed a pending authorization on my credit card from Walmart. It was for $0, but still a pending authorization, as though a charge was going to come in. I called and got my card changed, which is very inconvenient. <BR> <BR> Here I am with new card, and this morning, there are two pending authorizations from Walmart. Still for $0, but this is making me crazy. I DON'T EVEN SHOP THERE! I called the ... Sat, 19 Apr 2014 10:25:18 EST Eggs Not Dairy, Peanuts Not Nuts? Yesterday, at the pharmacy, when I was picking up my meds, the pharmacist instructed not to eat dairy "like cheese, milk, eggs." I've heard that eggs are not dairy, even though many people put them into that category. <BR> <BR> Also heard that peanuts are really in the bean family. Guess I'll research it more sometime - when I feel better. <BR> <BR> Big hugs, spark friends. Wed, 16 Apr 2014 17:58:50 EST Back to Urgent Care Today One week later, and I'm not doing well with this respiratory infection. Let's see if they helped me today after this visit. Just got in. I've gotta kick this before it becomes pneumonia again. Tue, 15 Apr 2014 20:23:46 EST Life Without Cheese Almost identical blog as yesterday's about caffeine. Yes, I am - WAS - a cheese addict and since being sick, find that I can live without it. <BR> <BR> I won't totally eliminate, but it'll be significantly less intake and my body will love me for it. (smiling) I feel a lot better without it clogging up my innards. (vessels, veins, arteries) Sun, 13 Apr 2014 18:29:28 EST Life Without Caffeine Spark friends who've known me for some time know that I've tried numerous times to give up caffeine. Even though I've always imbibed a small mug of coffee daily, the effects of caffeine are yucky for me. But I persisted. Even after my last posting about giving it up, I went back. For some reason, it was a habit/addiction that I couldn't let go of. <BR> <BR> In the past week, since getting another respiratory infection, I went through the head-splitting migraines of caffeine detox. The k... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 19:37:58 EST Thought I'd Missed Joe Cross (Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead) While eating lunch, I noticed an ad in the paper regarding a book discussion with Joe Cross for his new book "Reboot with Joe" - a juicing diet. For those who know Joe from his film, "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead," he has influenced many to start juicing. I know that I never would have started juicing, and then making green smoothies, if I hadn't seen that film on Netflix. <BR> <BR> I saw that it was to take place on Thursday night and was so disappointed to realize that, yes, it's Friday.... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 16:31:37 EST