SKILILY34's SparkPeople Blog SKILILY34's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Resigned to fall Where I live, fall is definitely in the air even though the tomatoes aren't ripe yet and I need at least another month of heat if my fantasies of home grown corn were to come true. But, today I was sort of resigned to it. There are lots of things that will still need to be done to get the garden ready for next year and prepare the harvest for freezing and then when the snow comes, a bunch of marshy paths in the woods open up for cross country skiing and off leash dog walking. <BR> <BR> I ... Sun, 29 Aug 2010 14:43:59 EST Eating to be nice Although I have not yet managed to squeeze back in to the healthy range for my BMI, I am pretty close and interestingly that makes me one of the thinner people around where I live. <BR> <BR> The other night some really nice friends of ours had us over to play board games. They are fairly heavy people and made an amazing array of snacks for us - chicken wings, 3 different kinds of stuffed pocket things, baked mozarella, shrimp ring, chips and guacamole. I wasn't hungry at all, but I ate pro... Sun, 8 Aug 2010 10:33:01 EST tracking and ice cream Too funny - after a couple months hiatus, I'm back to tracking, and once again, I'm blown away by how useful it is. That's why it made me laugh to realize my last blog entry was also about tracking. Oh well, I guess I'm a big fan of tracking. <BR> <BR> Today I had three ice cream cones for breakfast. Normally that would make me feel like there's no point to even trying to have a healthy food day, but by tracking, I realized that it wasn't a huge diet disaster. The cones are only 20 calor... Mon, 2 Aug 2010 15:41:25 EST tracking and soup Tracking is so awsome! Every time I do it for a day it helps me so much, even when I go over my calories. This is my third day tracking and I'm over, within, over, but today the thing that pushed me over was a single scoop of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. 520 calories!!! So now I know that when my office mates go out for a treat, I'll get a freezie instead. Still not as healthy as a piece of fruit, but way better than ice cream. <BR> <BR> I was also feeling extremely bottomless... Tue, 20 Apr 2010 22:44:33 EST Great morning Great morning this morning. Went for a very small jog. Small because am training my dog not to pull on leash and he can only handle so much. Beautiful morning for jogging though, and I feel good because all the time I was feeling guilty for not exercising, I was still learning. For example, in the Spark tips, someone suggested eating dark chocolate before cardio. I tried it and it seemed good. It's a good idea for me, since if I think I have no energy then I won't, but if I know I just ... Tue, 6 Apr 2010 09:22:59 EST Not really Sparking For me following SP is tracking my food and exercising and doing weight training. So in that sense I haven't been sparking for a while. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to quit playing computer games though. In fact, I have quit playing computer games, and if I can go one year clean then I am rewarding myself with a yoga retreat. So I have been accumulating SP points by doing stuff as an alternative to computer games. <BR> <BR> I'm managing to stay in the 150s, and my husband started doing yoga with... Sun, 21 Mar 2010 12:45:18 EST Sparkpeople's three great gifts to me Well, I'm back after a bit of a hiatus. I'm not going to get much sympathy but my hubby and I have been worn out from too many vacations. We just got back from Vancouver where we saw some of the Olympics but mostly enjoyed the city and its wonderful restaurants. I don't think I'll ever maintain a healthy diet on vacation, but I was pleased to find that I have more or less maintained my weight loss despite letting go of many of my good habits. When I saw that I hadn't gained everything bac... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 21:24:50 EST December 27th measurements Well, having today as my measurement day didn't spur me on to exercising greatness. Most of my measurements were around the same, waist went up, hips went down, which makes me think it has something to do with the measuring tape. <BR> <BR> Crunches were the same but I managed 17 pushups. Hubby and I are going to do the hundred pushup challenge starting tomorrow and maybe we'll actually succeed. <BR> <BR> We got Cesar Millan's dog book for Christmas. It calls for a lot more exercise that ... Sun, 27 Dec 2009 12:01:58 EST Better is pretty damn good When I started SP I started tracking my food, I learned a ton about what I was eating and my husband and I both lost weight without suffering or deprivation. Over the last month I haven't been tracking as much, I haven't been weight training regularly and I haven't been jogging. Surfing around the message boards and blogs, I realized I was writing a lot about falling off the wagon where other people where being a lot more positive and holding themselves to a much higher standard. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 13 Dec 2009 21:58:41 EST So many excuses I'm pigging out during the holiday season, and I don't think it's just because I'm being faced with temptation. I think the biggest reason is that my husband and I aren't on track for home cooking. <BR> <BR> We took an awesome trip to China at the beginning of November but then we came back and were jet-lagged so it was hard to cook and we let ourselves eat out more because we were 'recovering'. Then work was busy because we had to play catch up from our vacation, so we still never got on ... Sun, 6 Dec 2009 22:49:06 EST December 27th it is. I'm going to re-measure everything December 27th. That will give me a month to do my strength training so I can do lots of push ups. Sat, 28 Nov 2009 00:34:18 EST Off the wagon, but waiting for the next one I didn't end up tracking this week, and I'm quite sure I ended up overeating. I also haven't started exercising again yet. <BR> <BR> Two nights ago I was going to eat some chocolate even though I didn't really want any. Usually when I eat something as mood eating I think of it as being kind to myself - I'm feeling a little down, so I want a treat. I thought the issue was just getting away from thinking of food as a treat. But the other night, I had a brief flash of the thought I'm neve... Thu, 26 Nov 2009 22:29:13 EST Reprieve! Well, after about a month off SP, I'm ready to get back on track and I don't think too much damage has been done. We went to China which was fabulous, and totally pigged out but I think that was okay because there aren't a lot of desserts there, and a lot of the main courses are fairly healthy. There was this one amazing pumpkin dish, and lots of tofu. The noodle soups were the best though. <BR> <BR> Then we came back to overwhelming jet lag and bad colds, so I have been pigging out, but ... Fri, 20 Nov 2009 14:13:43 EST I'm going to go back up! I don't have a scale, so I don't really know how much weight I've lost, but I fit into clothes that I haven't fit into for a while so I'm definitely losing inches. <BR> <BR> The problem is, I'm suffering a case of the Octobers. Work is stressful, the days are getting shorter, we have a big trip coming up and I'm insatiable. Last night I had 2 sandwiches for an after dessert snack. The chips and salsa at work isn't working - this morning I had 2 servings and I'm sure I'm going to snack at ... Fri, 23 Oct 2009 15:57:02 EST My trailer trash shorts! I have this pair of cut off jean shorts that I have worn every Canada Day in my hometown that I can remember. I'm not sure exactly how long I've had them, but at least 10 years and probably more like 15. <BR> <BR> Today my husband made a ridiculous fire in our woodstove, so I put on the shorts and they actually fit again! Don't get me wrong, I've been wearing them when they don't fit, I just had to wear long t-shirts and not do up all the buttons. I wanted to get back to where I was when... Mon, 19 Oct 2009 22:05:03 EST Hmm - a single trouble goal I'm supposed to post about a single trouble goal that's setting me back. I know I've started slacking off on my nutrition tracking so maybe I'll start there. <BR> <BR> We have a lot of snacks at work. I usually indulge even though my co-workers try to be good about bringing in fruit and veggie trays as well as chips and dip. The other day a co-worker brought in a dessert and I had a piece about 1/4 the size I normally would have. Even then I could feel the sugar hitting me. So I guess I... Sat, 17 Oct 2009 12:30:52 EST Well truthfully, This blog entry is just to get me some more spark points. But, I guess if it gets me posting, that's something. <BR> <BR> I am at the point where I realize I really miss exercising, but I'm not sure I'm at the point where I'm going to start up again. We have a bit of snow now, so I'm thinking of trading the outdoor runs for the treadmill. But I love running outside so much and snow shouldn't be here yet. <BR> <BR> Anyways, I guess I'll try the treadmill tomorrow. I still have to walk th... Tue, 13 Oct 2009 22:11:40 EST Tight jeans with muffin top Well, I ran out of clean laundry, and came across a pair of too-tight jeans I thought I had given away. Just to see, I tried them on and was able to do them up easily, with a muffin top over top. When I bought them, I was able to do them up using all my strength and then in addition to the fat, I think some organs were hanging over the top too. It was a great feeling, because the rest of my clothes I can't really remember how tight they were. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I dropped a log on my toe.... Sun, 11 Oct 2009 13:42:40 EST Rewards After a few days of overeating but not thinking too much of it because I'm not over eating by that much I realized I have to get serious about staying in my calorie range. SP had yet another article about rewards, and I happened to have a gardening catalogue that I was waiting to browse. I decided that I can have $25 for each day that I stay in my calorie range to spend on gardening supplies. <BR> <BR> Well, yesterday was the first day. I ate my healthy food, then we were going next door ... Sun, 4 Oct 2009 22:53:52 EST By Jove I think I've got it I had a super busy week this week, after a pretty busy month. I would have been completely justified in laying off the exercise but I didn't want to! On Wednesday I had to go into work early to catch up, but instead of skipping, I got up at 4:30 so that I could jog before going in! Because I felt like it! I actually enjoy my morning run now! I only got about 5 hours of sleep last night so I was feeling pretty crappy this morning and it was raining, but I went on a shorter route and just ... Fri, 2 Oct 2009 20:34:35 EST Maple syrup and pecans equals no I decided to make a special breakfast today. I was okay with something more extravagant than cereal but we were away and not tracking for the past few days so I wanted to get back on track. I made a french toast recipe with tofu, 3/4 cup of maple syrup and 3/4 cup of pecans (per 2 servings). We ate it, it was good, and then I went to enter it into the recipe calculator. 900 calories and 40 grams of fat per serving!!!! Pecans are evil, and maple syrup is ridiculous! I can't believe how m... Sun, 27 Sep 2009 13:17:09 EST An interesting journey Well, this is definitely an interesting journey for me. After seeing some results, I have either plateaued or am backtracking a bit, but on the other hand, I keep coming to this site for advice and I realize my bad days now would have been good days before. For example, Friday and Saturday I didn't do my cardio. I felt bad, but I did 10 minutes of hula hooping each day to make up for it. So really I did more cardio than I would have before SP. <BR> <BR> Also, usually I give up challenge... Sun, 20 Sep 2009 12:43:07 EST Keeping on I'm having a hard time staying on track at work. Tons of coffee and often there are snacks. I've been bringing in healthy ones, but they don't curb the temptation of other ones. <BR> <BR> But, I put a little motivational picture on the office fridge, and today I tracked even though I wasn't going to. So I guess I'm still fighting the fight. Maybe I'll go for a jog tomorrow, since I didn't go today. Fri, 18 Sep 2009 22:57:38 EST Sleep issues Well, things have been going medium well, but I've sort of decided not to track food on days when I'm busy. <BR> <BR> Last two days was pigging out on french bread and cheese because not getting enough sleep. Husband snores. With not enough sleep stopped exercising and started eating more. <BR> <BR> So, I guess the good news is, I learned the importance of getting a good night's sleep. Wed, 16 Sep 2009 20:26:29 EST Thursday, September 10, 09 Things seem to be going well. Am keeping up with the jogging but missed strength training today. There's still time to do it, so maybe I will. <BR> <BR> I'm trying a not worrying technique that is going really well. I'm very pleased about it. Part of my research into how to stop worrying has helped with the SP. One worrying tip is to only deal with today and not worry about the future. When I have trouble visualizing myself tracking forever I think "well, I'll track my food today" and ... Thu, 10 Sep 2009 21:14:50 EST Sunday, Sept. 6, 09 Played computer games all day today. It made me anxious and unhappy. So I'm off computer games for September, then will probably play a whole bunch in November until I can resolve to quit for that month too. <BR> <BR> Not doing very well with the menu planning or grocery shopping. I did learn a lot about protein vs. fat content of various nuts, legumes and vegetables though. Also made hummus and replaced half the oil with water and it was very good. <BR> <BR> I guess doing these blog en... Mon, 7 Sep 2009 00:07:20 EST Thursday, September 3, 09 Well, what to say. On the plus side have been exercising, on the minus side seem to keep going over despite planning healthy snacks and am always way over on my fat and struggling to get protein. Eggs, tofu and nuts just seem to bring in the fat. I guess vegetables are the answer. <BR> <BR> People have complimented me on my weight loss, which is positive, but also makes me feel guilty for not doing as well as I was a month ago. <BR> <BR> Also realized that it is sort of dangerous mentali... Thu, 3 Sep 2009 23:46:03 EST Sunday, August 30, 09 Well, not much to report. I guess I've noticed that I eat less and exercise more because of SP, even though I'm going over my calories pretty regularly. On Friday I was under, until friends came over with for boardgames, then the wine and chips and dip put me over. But I know before SP I thought it would be a real struggle to get to 2500 calories a day. Now 2500 calories a day is a bad day for me so I think that's progress. <BR> <BR> I'm starting back at work tomorrow, so hopefully the ... Sun, 30 Aug 2009 20:54:37 EST Thursday, August 29, 09 Well, yesterday after posting that I was in my range, I ate another bag of gummy bears and went about 700 calories over. But today I ate the last of the gummy bears and was quite a bit lower than usual. Crazy Plates has an awesome pea soup recipe that is low in calories and high in protein. Thu, 27 Aug 2009 22:42:40 EST Wednesday, August 26, 09 Well, started off with gummy bears again, then added a chocolate bar. Should be able to salvage the day thanks to Crazy Plates pea soup for supper. Also, chopped wood today, which supplemented my half-hearted jog this morning. <BR> <BR> I think I need an attitude adjustment. So far I've been coasting - just tracking and learning lots but still afraid to diet. I'm wondering if I need to aim a little higher. Anyways, am starting work again on Monday, so maybe will work on getting into a w... Wed, 26 Aug 2009 20:33:44 EST Tuesday, August 25, 09 Well, we did it! We pulled off the wedding of the century (at least in our eyes). And I managed to diet in the weeks leading up to the wedding without caring how far I got on the actual wedding date. With SP I seem to be able to count calories without spiraling into despair, self-loathing and feelings of failure (as with other diets before I got smart and gave them up). <BR> <BR> So today was totally treat day, but I still managed to stay in my calories. Protein too low and fat too high ... Tue, 25 Aug 2009 22:11:10 EST Sunday, August 16, 09 Well, not much to say today. Went a tiny bit over my calories. Today is my last day of housewifery. Tomorrow we leave to get married. Sun, 16 Aug 2009 19:31:25 EST Treat mentality Today is Saturday and I had cherry pie for breakfast. I guess I haven't done that in a while, so it probably won't kill me to record it and see what that does to the rest of my day, but I'm trying to get over the idea that I have to eat a bunch of calories to celebrate it being the weekend. I think I would like to change my thinking about the weekend in other ways too. For example, I think I should be able to sit around and do nothing. That would be fine, except sitting around is actually... Sat, 15 Aug 2009 16:35:56 EST Friday, August 14th, 09 Today I am pretty pleased because I did all my exercise. I did my strength training even though I was a little bit leery about my shoulder and I was happy that everything was fine. I did leave out the shoulder exercise though. Then I couldn't face the thought of going outside and dealing with the insects so I did 2 of the SP videos, the cardio kickboxing and the skipping. I really enjoyed both but holy man did the skipping ever get my heart rate up! I'm going to try that one again and if... Fri, 14 Aug 2009 23:28:22 EST Shoulder!!!! Yesterday I got a call to go see the physiotherapist who had a cancellation. I told her about the shoulder pain I had had for 10 years. It wasn't incapacitating, and I just assumed everyone has shoulder pain these days. The only reason I mentioned it was because it had been spreading to my elbow. <BR> <BR> Well, the physiotherapist noticed I had a bump in my back that my shoulder blade had to move over whenever I moved my arm. She said it might be a rib that had popped out of its little ... Thu, 13 Aug 2009 16:23:04 EST Wednesday August 12, 09 Well, the excitement is wearing off a bit and entering things is more of a chore. My bf just joined and he is really excited so that is helping me a lot right now. I really didn't feel like jogging this morning so I went for a walk instead. I ended up getting chased by bugs so ran part of the way anyways. Maybe there's something good about mosquitoes after all. <BR> <BR> Am working really hard on trying to visualize how this can be a lifelong thing for me. I am definitely learning a ton... Wed, 12 Aug 2009 10:58:45 EST Monday, August 10, 09 Went to the doctor today but didn't get weighed, so have a few more days to get back on track. Am still over calories but getting better. I blame the boil water order on right now. <BR> <BR> My attitude seems to be back to slow-and-steady from want-major-results-now so that's good. Also, did all my exercises which is v. important even though had terrible sleep last night. I really think this is a program I could maintain indefinitely with the right attitutde. Mon, 10 Aug 2009 23:09:59 EST Sunday August 9, 09 Fiance joined SP today. Thought it might be weird to lose anonymity but it is great having him on there so far - we really support each other. <BR> <BR> Finally got back in my calorie range despite being invited out for brunch so learned that lesson hopefully. Unfortunately ate chocolate when was a bit under for calories. Didn't really want it and ended up going over fat and under protein. Should have had bean dip instead! <BR> <BR> Realized that losing 4 lbs while positive actually set... Sun, 9 Aug 2009 23:18:19 EST Saturday, later in the day Aargh. Well, at least the day started off well. In the evening though we went out for supper to a friend's place and although it would have been very possible for me to eat a moderate amount, I totally pigged out. Why??? <BR> <BR> Oh well, I guess that's what I have to figure out. Partly I didn't want to feel like I was being better than everyone else by not eating as much. I guess I'll have to wrap my brain around that one. Sat, 8 Aug 2009 23:11:00 EST Saturday, August 8, 09 Got up at 7 this morning, went for a run, did all my strength training and stretched, then had a healthy breakfast. Whew! I'm learning damage control and that all is not lost by one setback. Sat, 8 Aug 2009 11:46:36 EST Friday, August 7, 09 Am so annoyed. After 2 days being over calories, was just under today until agreed to have high calorie tequila paralyzer bf offered me. Reason I said yes is b/c we planned to drink earlier and both needed a night to kick up our heels a little. But we tried canoeing together with the dog and that made us both really grouchy so the by the time we got to the tequila it just made everything worse which I knew it would. Now in addition to being extra grouchy, I went over my calories again. H... Sat, 8 Aug 2009 00:16:02 EST Thursday August 6, 09 Yesterday and the day before I was quite a bit over, but after grocery shopping yesterday, it wasn't very hard to stay on track today even with cookies and doritos again. I hope that I'm not miscalculating my calories. Monday I have a doctor's appointment so I'll get weighed. If I've gone down again I'll be thrilled. Have to get back to my exercise too. Here I go... Thu, 6 Aug 2009 22:41:30 EST Tuesday, August something, 09 Well, I'm just back from a 4 day weekend at my parents. I weighed myself the first morning there since I knew I had been doing well and I was 4 lbs down! Now I can live in denial about how much I gained during the visit until my next time on a scale. <BR> <BR> I didn't eat very well at my parents. I never try to because they buy such great groceries - things like expensive cheeses that I could never have in the house. But, I found it really easy to say no to stuff, and since they both wa... Tue, 4 Aug 2009 15:33:02 EST Wednesday, July 29, 09 Well, what to say. Have been craving not so much a particular food but that really full feeling. This stage is familiar to me and I think it means my body is trying to fight off losing weight. Yesterday gave in quite a bit but my high calories are still lower than what my regular calories used to be so that's something. This weekend will be weighing myself again. Hopefully will have some motivation there. <BR> <BR> But - am back doing cardio, strength and stretching, which is probably m... Wed, 29 Jul 2009 16:45:56 EST Tuesday, July 28, 09 Saturday I managed to just stay in my calorie range despite 5 shots of tequila (maybe I shouldn't be posting that...). Sunday I was at the low end despite being hungover and cranky, and Monday I was at the low end despite eating chocolate and Doritos! It's amazing. I seriously could never successfully diet before and now it's not a problem to push away half my plate of pasta. I'm very excited. <BR> <BR> I missed a cardio day, a strength day and have missed a few days of stretching though... Tue, 28 Jul 2009 13:09:30 EST Sunday, July 26, 09 I can't believe it - I'm actually eating within my calorie range. I never thought I could lose weight other than by exercising but by tracking my nutrition, I've really learned a lot and I'm actually not suffering that much keeping my calories down. It's very exciting. I'm lucky to be off work right now, so I have a lot of time to devote to this stuff but hopefully I will be able to get enough of a routine down that I can carry my good habits into work when I start. <BR> <BR> I really nev... Mon, 27 Jul 2009 00:21:17 EST Friday, July 24, 09 Well, I'm seriously losing steam. I went to my parents house where they have a scale and it really depressed me that I hadn't lost any weight. Then for some reason all of a sudden my stomach seems huge. I have been eating less and exercising more than I normally do, but I guess the changes are so small that things are going to happen very gradually. I think I have to stay focussed on action successes and not result successes. I guess if I started losing a pound a month two years ago I wo... Fri, 24 Jul 2009 10:06:45 EST Tuesday, July 21st, 09 Well, I'm a day late, because I'm visiting my parents. Yesterday was actually a good day calorie-wise. Having a healthy, fruit-filled breakfast really helps. And, I squeezed in my 10 mins of stretching before bed, so I still have a perfect record for that. Wed, 22 Jul 2009 10:41:45 EST Monday, July 20, 09 Well, today was pretty tough. I've been high on my calories the last three days but I'm doing a lot of cardio. I have to eat more fruit and keep up on my grocery shopping. Still 100% for my weight training and stretching so that's good. I'm getting myself a reward when I visit my parents this week so I'm looking forward to that. Mon, 20 Jul 2009 23:57:05 EST Sunday, July 19, 09 Well, yesterday was mixed. I was getting pretty frustrated for not seeing results, but I posted my frustration on the message boards and got a lot of encouragement was reminded to focus on my accomplishments which was really helpful. My calories were over, and we even ordered KFC which I haven't done in as long as I can remember, over 6 years anyways. But we went canoeing twice, and the second time we got caught in a pretty strong headwind on the way home so I definitely burned some extra ... Mon, 20 Jul 2009 09:31:48 EST