SIZE8NOTSOMUCH's SparkPeople Blog SIZE8NOTSOMUCH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Thoughts Funny, I was reading a SP post yesterday that talked about the scale can be your enemy... Not for me. I have found that when I go a week, or even a month, or sometimes SEVERAL months not weighing myself, I find that I am in self sabotage mode. So, for me, I need to weight myself every (or almost every) day. It keeps me accountable. Now, that's not to say some days (like today) I don't get on the scale and see I am up 1.5 pounds.. Wait, how can I be up a pound and a half. I was within my ... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 08:55:04 EST Random thoughts for a Friday. So, what I want to know is why you can't lose 10 pounds in a week? Okay, okay, I know the reason, but honestly, don't we all feel like that should happen. "I'm going on a diet, I'll be thin by Saturday"... While in reality we didn't gain all the weight in a week, we aren't going to lose it that way either. <BR> You know, I was feeling a little blue yesterday thinking this wasn't moving as quickly as I wanted it to. And (sadly) I do step on the scale almost every day, it is, FOR ME, the w... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 12:02:29 EST It's time to get real I'm done. That's it, I have had it. No, no not trying to eat better, or get more (or any) exercise. I'm done thinking when I get to XX I will be in a perfect place. I am done thinking I am so heavy that I CAN'T. I CAN. I DO. <BR> <BR> I look at amazing people like Tracy31502 (Tracy), Bobcatgirl76 (Jan-Marie), Steph-Knee (Steph), MamaOwls, and so many others who are in the battle, much more articulate than I am do great things. You know what, I too can (and do) do great things. I am... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 07:39:19 EST Day 14 Well, its fairly sunny out, which always makes me feel better... And I don't have totals for me today. I'm having dinner with my VERY best friend tonight. I don't get to see her often, her life, my life, 60 miles in between... Her Dad recently had a stroke, so her Mom has moved in with her (God bless her, her Mom's 92), but a glass of wine, and lots of conversation is on tap. As of right now, I still have 650 calories for dinner tonight (and I've already put in my wine), so I think I may b... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 12:50:42 EST Day 13 (but not really) So, after day 12, me and my wicked awesome husband (and two GREAT dogs), went to VT for a weeks vacation. It was great. A little walking, a little eating (okay, a little MORE than a little), we volunteered at meals on wheels for Thanksgiving day, overall a very happy, relaxing, rewarding vacation. Just what I needed. Our problem, wait, edit, MY problem, is no computer, and no will power. So, I ate (see above), and yes, I did gain, but I am back to work now (working on me as well as my jo... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 08:25:50 EST Day 12 You know, last night, I'm getting ready for bed and realized, I didn't post! I meant to, I had a great food day, felt good all day, and was happy with my Thursday. <BR> I am equally happy with how my Friday is going, except for 2 things, both right now out of my control. <BR> 1) I can't log into my work. Having issues with security, so I am waiting for the "Help" desk to call me back. And I am guessing a lot of you (okay, ANYONE) who reads this, is shaking their head. We'll see when they... Fri, 16 Nov 2012 07:51:03 EST Day 11 Wow, what a crazy day. Traffic was a bear this morning, had a call with a client (went okay), got into the office w/ 10 minutes to spare before a cc w/ a client, and now, here I am, FINALLY able to log into SP track my 'stuff' for the day, see where I am, and where I am going. Ahh, a moment for me. I like that, although at 2:30 in the afternoon, I should have had a lot more "me" moments (but that's just me). <BR> Anyway, here goes. <BR> <BR> 1208 calories <BR> <BR> 2 1/2 square (had bre... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 14:34:35 EST Day 10 It's funny, I just read about how blogging helps you, and I am not sure that it does, but I need a place to get it out there, so maybe it does... we'll see. After getting on the scale this morning, I'm not sure. BUT what I am sure of is that I did not eat 7000 calories MORE than the day before, and going to out lunch and dinner did have it's pitfalls, I did not gain the 2 pounds my scale said I did. AND when I get on the scale tomorrow, I am guessing the salt will be out of my system. So,... Tue, 13 Nov 2012 08:21:07 EST Day 9 Well, I'll be honest, a little concerned, going out for LUNCH AND DINNER today. BUT, I have already gone on line as I know where dinner is, have picked out a soup and a "lighter side" dinner, which will cause 350 calories, so I think I am okay. Just waiting for my boss to let me know where dinner is, but thinking soup and salad (dressing on the side), and I maybe okay with that too, (or sushi which is always good, and safe for me). <BR> <BR> I won't get my walk in today, or probably my 10,... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 08:30:07 EST Day 8 Got another walk in today, and yesterday my BFF (my husband), and my girls (doggies) went for a hike, all be it short, we were out in the fresh are, it was great... <BR> Weighed/measured my food <BR> Had Breakfast (and didn't have a second breakfast at the in-laws much to the disappointment of my MIL) <BR> <BR> Went for my walk <BR> <BR> I can not I can not. <BR> <BR> 1230 calories, 3 square (including home made Beef Stew w/ lots of Veggies), and 1 snack. <BR> <BR> Down 5 (and happy about... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 15:41:09 EST Day 7 Got in a walk yesterday, 3 miles, felt good, but gee whiz it was cold. Made it before the snow though, that's good. We got about 3 inches, so not so bad. <BR> <BR> Weighted/ measured my food <BR> Had breakfast <BR> <BR> Will do my 10 minutes today <BR> <BR> I can, not I can not. <BR> <BR> 1211 calories, 3 square, 3 snacks <BR> <BR> Down 6 <BR> <BR> I am working to do a good job today. I am not focusing on a goal that is in the future, TODAY is my future. <BR> Thu, 8 Nov 2012 11:02:44 EST Day 6 I was 1/2 way to NY and my meeting was cancelled... Had already figured out my food, and honestly, THAT was the first thing that went through my head... But, I worked it out, of course I did, why wouldn't I? Okay, SO many reasons... Anyway, I'm home, and I'm happy. My husband was thrilled, I didn't call him, but just came home, a nice surprise! <BR> <BR> Weighted/measured my food <BR> Had breakfast <BR> Hope to get my walk in before the snow:) <BR> <BR> I can, NOT I can't. <BR> <BR> 1210... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 07:48:03 EST Day 5 Will be traveling today, spending WAY to many hours in a car, will walk when I get to the hotel. <BR> <BR> Weighted/measured my food <BR> <BR> Had breakfast <BR> <BR> I can do, not I can't do <BR> <BR> 1228 calories, 3 square 3 snacks <BR> <BR> Down 4.5 <BR> <BR> Deep breath, I am doing this, and I am going to be smart, and I am going to do this, and I am going to be smart, and I AM GOING TO DO THIS. <BR> Tue, 6 Nov 2012 09:04:54 EST Day 4 Will try and walk 20 minutes, but will definitely get my 10 in today. <BR> <BR> Weighted/measured my food <BR> <BR> Had breakfast <BR> <BR> I can do, not I can't do <BR> <BR> 1205 Calories, 3 square 3 snacks. <BR> <BR> Down 3 <BR> <BR> I'm actually really pleased, went north this weekend, and came home the same. This is often my downfall, AND I KNOW IT, so I tried to be a little smarter... <BR> <BR> Journey... Mon, 5 Nov 2012 08:01:26 EST Day 3 Walked 2 miles (18 mm) <BR> Weighted/measured my food <BR> Had breakfast (all be it late) <BR> I can do, not I can't do <BR> 1202 calories 3 square 1 snack AND I went out to dinner (Indian) <BR> <BR> down 3 Thu, 1 Nov 2012 13:06:23 EST Day 2 Walked a lot for work (around the building, and at lunch time, maybe 20 minutes) <BR> Weighted/measured my food <BR> <BR> Had Breakfast <BR> <BR> I CAN DO, not I can't do. <BR> <BR> 1250 calories 3 square 3 snacks. <BR> <BR> down 1 1/2 Wed, 31 Oct 2012 15:22:30 EST Day 1 I did 10 minutes today, from a cut out from my WW magazine. <BR> <BR> Weighted my food <BR> <BR> Had Breakfast <BR> <BR> I CAN do, NOT I can't do. <BR> <BR> 1201 calories 3 snacks 3 squares. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 30 Oct 2012 12:09:10 EST Time to write, I think It's been a while since I have put the nails to the keyboard, but thought, Hmmm, what better day than today. I have been thinking about this for a while and although I do feel desperate, I haven't jumped off a ledge, eating an entire cake, or stopped at Ben and Jerry's so maybe I'm not too bad!!! (That's funny stuff, I don't care who you are). <BR> <BR> I have been in a bit of a rut, and actually have gained 10 pounds, which for some reasons always goes on much easier than coming off, Gee,... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 10:32:48 EST I don't know what I look like As I wrote the "title" for this, I was feeling a little silly, but thought, this is where I should write what I think. If folks read it, great, if they don't, I will feel better having written it. <BR> If I were to categorize myself here at SP, I would say I am a freak. I log on in the morning, spin my wheel, post what I am going to be having for my meals, drive around the site, read blogs, maybe take a look at a couple message posts, go out to the recipe area, and I stay logged on ALMOST a... Thu, 10 May 2012 09:09:10 EST Random thoughts... So I have looked at a couple of message board posts, 1) how to eat 1200 calories a day, 2) you know you're getting fit when... 3) Is strength Training really necessary for weight loss and then today's "The Weekly Spark" Ward off Winter Weight Gain... <BR> I know that this journey is about losing weight, but it is also about education. Some of it comes from The Spark folks, but mostly from people, just like me, trying to find their way. I love that. I love getting idea's on how to eat 120... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 08:43:25 EST Rome was not built in a day!!! I was very sad yesterday. I thought I had been doing really good things, and I got on the scale and I was up 2 pounds... OH MY, what could have happened. I am going to throw in the towel, I can't keep doing this to myself, I am just going to be obese for the rest of my life... That's it, the world is over... <BR> WAIT JUST ONE MINUTE... <BR> I didn't gain my weight in a week, what makes me think that I will lose it in a week? 2 days in a row at the gym, hmmm, I don't think so <BR> Look t... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 08:25:53 EST Time to start writing again Well, It's been almost a year, and I haven't written much. I come on to SP almost daily, and track what I am eating, log any time I am moving, but I got on the scale this morning, and it showed 213... I am so disappointed in myself. Last August I was down to 196. Now, when I think back to 196, that was 41 pounds lost, that was firmly in Onelander... But, what did I do. Nothing. I started forgetting all the things I have learned. I need to take this back. I have entered Goals for myself... Tue, 17 Jan 2012 09:04:12 EST 3 Years.... Wow, I was just looking at my page today, and realized that Friday I will have been part of SP for 3 years. How lucky am I???? <BR> I know I don't write much any more, but I do come almost daily and track my calories and fitness. I read up on my friends and I smile. <BR> I had a Dr. appointment today, she's thrilled with my progress, the scale going down and not up! (me too for that matter). I have found I love to walk, listen to my music, wave at people in my town that I don't know, ... Tue, 19 Jul 2011 13:36:17 EST Slow and steady I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders... THANK YOU to all of my SP friends. Although I have not written in a while, I have been coming here daily and tracking my calories, my fitness, and my doing a daily "brain" check. Don't worry, my brain is still there. <BR> A few months ago I took the tracker off my page. I was very discouraged, the scale wasn't moving, I felt "gray". I didn't feel like my sun was shining. This time though, I didn't give up. I stopp... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 08:21:57 EST I am relieved that Lent starts tomorrow I actually felt a little funny writing the title for this blog. I mean NO disrespect to anyone who might happen upon me and see my title. <BR> <BR> I love being Catholic, I love what it stands for, what it means to me, even the Nuns!!! And I know I shouldn't use the sacrifice that was made for me be a "booster" but it is. If you have read any of my ramblings, then you know, I've been stuck, and it's a self induced stuck. I don't know why (of course I do), but I am using my Lenten oblig... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 09:12:47 EST Following the leader.... A to Z Survey This was on Becky's blog and I thought I can do this, share a little of "me".... <BR> <BR> Happy Reading! <BR> <BR> A to Z SURVEY <BR> <BR> A. Age: Nifty at 50 <BR> <BR> B. Bed size: King (his, hers, and the dogs ) <BR> <BR> C. Chore you dislike: vacuuming the stairs <BR> <BR> D. Dogs: 2 English Springer Spaniel sisters Acadia and Denali. <BR> <BR> E. Essential start to your day: Kiss my husband good morning <BR> <BR> F. Favorite color: Blue!!! <BR> <BR> G. Gold or silver: Whi... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 11:43:28 EST Half way through February... Oh we had a great vacation, no TV, no internet, no cell phones.... it was great. I even had a "spa" day which was wonderful. We got snow most days, but an inch or two, although a couple of days was 7 or 8 inches. As much as I don't like snow, I LOVE to shovel, strange, even before I knew (or more like it) thought about the fact I was burning calories... So, I was even able to get in some good calorie burning on vacation. Now, with no internet, I was concerned that I would come back 10 pou... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 09:03:30 EST The sun is out, and that makes me happy I do honestly think that my scale (and me) like it when the sun comes out. Everything just seems better. I personally am still going through a rough streak, I have lost and gained the same 4 pounds many times in January. I am past beating myself up over it, and dwelling on the past does not make moving in the future any different. I will say (with the sun shining), that before SP I would have given in, caved, said I must be meant to weight this much (isn't it amazing how we almost convin... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 08:39:07 EST I am so proud of me... Well, it's Thursday, and yes, it snowed again. They say at the airport in Boston we have had 60.3 inches of snow, so far this year, we aren't through January yet, and the average for the whole season (December 1 - March 30) is 42 inches. We are less than 3 inches away from being Top Ten all time, Oh (repeat after me, spring is right around the corner, spring is right around the corner). <BR> <BR> Now, you maybe saying, and why is snow making her so proud... No, that's not the reason, the... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 10:18:22 EST It's as much about how you feel as how you look! You know, I have been taking a look around me (in SP World), and looking at some of the blogs and home pages of folks who have done such a great job, and have come so far. And as I sit here losing and gaining the same 5 pounds for the last month I keep thinking about things that these amazing folks have said. <BR> Yes, it's hard work, we (I) know that. <BR> No, you can't have pizza every night (I know that too). <BR> Yes, you have to WANT to do this. You can't be afraid of what the outco... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 09:42:16 EST What a beautiful Thursday Well, we got about 18 inches of snow, when all is said and done. I'll be going out in a few minutes to dig out my car. My husband already did the driveway, and I'm sure he's thinking when he gets home, he'll do it, but being outside for a while will be nice. It is a beautiful sunny day. I may not love winter, but for some sick reason, I really enjoy shoveling... I don't know, but I do, and I might as well go and do something I like to! I did go for a walk on Sunday and had to wear my wor... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 12:26:38 EST A period or state of little or no growth or decline That is the definition of a plateau. You know, when you work really hard and the scale doesn't change? That is NOT what was happening to me, I just got lazy. It's fine, I would say, I'm only going over my daily total a little, it will be fine. <BR> <BR> You know what? It wasn't fine. I stopped losing, I started feeling bad, I started to think about why me, why poor, poor me. Well you silly girl, (okay, old lady), if you want to lose weight you have learned the math, 3500 calories = 1... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 08:28:16 EST Is it today yet? Well, I have decided that I love Christmas cookies, and all the good things that come with Christmas, Ravioli, Beef Tenderloin, "snacking", and let us not forget peanuts, peanut butter, walnuts, cashews, almonds, okay, you get the picture. <BR> I need to rewire my brain, remember why I log on to SP every day, and enter what I am eating. I can't worry about "disappointing" those that might choose to peak. I am giving myself 90 days. (more or less), on April 1, I will repost my progress bar.... Tue, 28 Dec 2010 12:55:16 EST So much to be Thankful for Short, sweet, and to the point. <BR> <BR> I am very blessed. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends, and I do include my SP friends in that Amazing heading. So many people go without, or have not, or are struck with such personal devastation, that yes, I am very blessed. <BR> <BR> I am more than a little disappointed in myself. I was planning on being a "oner" for my 50th Birthday and that did not happen. And then I think I gave up a little. I didn't stop tracking (completely) wh... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 08:24:57 EST My soul is good I know, it's been so long, but thought I would put nails to keyboard and write a few lines... I have been crazy busy the last couple of weeks, but have been REALLY good about logging my food into SP. You know, after the friends I have made, I would say that is the number one thing that has kept me on track. I actually will sit down sometimes and try to guess at what the calories are in this or that, then I am so excited to log on and see how I am doing. Now, what I try to do is enter my b... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 08:37:08 EST Traveling fool! Well, it's been a while, so I thought I really need to put nails to keyboard and send off a note to myself!!! <BR> I left Monday for another trip to New York, and have pretty much been sick the whole trip, and all I can think about is the fact I haven't worked out but one day, and have eaten 500~ calories a day which most have come back (sorry, I know way to much information)... <BR> But, today I feel better, I had a bagel for breakfast, and though long and hard about it, but I really wante... Thu, 7 Oct 2010 15:23:35 EST 5 weeks 1 day, I am such a silly girl! No, I am. I'm going along living my life, thinking, ya, I can do this weight thing, no big deal. Look how far I have come? I can do this, I don't need to record food, or write what I am thinking, it will be fine. WRONG! I know, and if you look at some of my previous posts, you would think I have it under control. I don't. <BR> So, here is a brief recap of the last two weeks... FOOD! Okay, that was brief. The shocker is when I got on the scale Sunday night wh... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 08:26:12 EST I'm back and I'm happy! Deep breath's. I was really concerned last week being away, and then going away with my husband for the long weekend. I "know" the right things to do, and sometimes I even do them. And of course I am thinking, I will gain back all the weight I have lost over the last 4 months in 10 days, I know I will... I know I will... Then Sunday night, I am lying in bed, and I thought, you know, I wasn't the most perfect loser girl, but I did get up at 5 and go to the gym at the hotel, and I did watch ... Thu, 9 Sep 2010 08:39:30 EST Ohhhh, You know, as in Zero!!! Well, I wasn't sure if I would be able to get any Spark's time this week, but before I go and pack, I wanted to drop a quick note... I am now officially part of the Oh club... As in Zero, as in 2Zero8... I have been stuck at 210 for a while now, and there is nothing wrong with being "stuck" 24 pounds lighter than when the journey started, but I got frustrated, we all do. I say to myself (and you say to me) You are doing all the right things, you are eating well, you are moving your butt, and... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 08:12:25 EST Finally Friday!! Well, it's been a heck of a week, and I don't feel great about where I am (better than the 24 pounds ago I was though)... And I know I need to keep remembering this. It is not a marathon, this is the rest of my life. <BR> I was hoping that this week would prove to be more positive as far as the scale goes, and it wasn't and I MUST be okay with that. I am not going to lose 24 pounds a week, and if I think I am, then I need to get a new mind set! <BR> I am off for my business trip next we... Fri, 27 Aug 2010 09:47:37 EST Day one... again And a fine Tuesday morning it is... Well, it's raining, I don't walk in the rain:( <BR> BUT, after feeling blue last week, and many kind words and a great post this morning about someone else who was feeling discouraged as their scale hadn't moved, it really did make me realize it's about what I am eating, when I am moving, and what I am drinking. I tend to be very (read VERY) logical. Look it takes 3500 calories to gain a pound, it ALSO takes 3500 calories to LOSE a pound. If I am not th... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 08:52:34 EST Monday, Monday... The Momma Cass song... Okay, I am walking away from the ledge... I haven't lost a pound in 2 weeks, now, it's not like I don't know why, I am eating like I used to eat, and thinking, it's okay, it's only for a day, but a day for 14 keeps the scale from moving. And I really can't say I am eating like I used to, because I am not. I am making much more healthier choices, MOST of the time, but it is those times that I am not which is keeping the scale from moving. I want to scream. Now, I know I have work in front ... Mon, 16 Aug 2010 09:53:47 EST It is all about the choices Remember a couple of days ago, when I said, it was my decision to have fried clams, and cake? Well, that proved itself when I got on my Thursday morning weight in, and only lost 1/2 a pound. Now, this being said, I am still not upset that I ate what I ate. BUT, I must remember it's about what goes in, and what is coming out. If I say in my head "I want to lose 6 more pounds in the next 18 days" THEN I must do something that will cause this to happen, and eating clams and cake is not the s... Thu, 12 Aug 2010 08:00:16 EST The power of positive thinking! Okay, so, I have said it before, and I will write it again. It is not all about the number on the scale. The reason I say this, yup, it says I have gained a pound from last week. It could have something to do with the fact I had fried clams twice this weekend, or maybe it was because I had an amazing piece of Chocolate and Banana moose cake, but I am not sure (ya right)... It's okay, this is part of living my life. I measure, but am not a slave to it, I watch portion size, but am not a sl... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 10:48:01 EST I feel good You know, I want to sing when I write I feel good, like the song. I haven't lost anything this week, but, that's okay. I feel good in my skin today. It is now almost to the point on Thursday mornings I can't wait to get on the scale so I can say, yup, or, not so yup! It's not like I don't get on that thing every day, but this is "the" day. I actually am not surprised that I haven't moved, I truly believe I am getting used to what I am eating (better), how I am moving (getting off the cou... Thu, 5 Aug 2010 14:59:09 EST YIPPEE!!! One Goal Down, a lifetime to go <em>67</em> <BR> Yup, I did it, I have met goal 1! AND I went past it. Now, I joined Sparks a couple 3 years ago (more or less), and I would go through periods of recording my food, and reading a little, and ya, it's fine. Then, this past April I went to the Dr. and yes, I am fine, my heart, my blood, all my tests came back great, even my blood pressure, but the bottom line is, I am obese! Now, I have had my Dr. for 26 years, we have grown up together if you will. And pretty much this ... Fri, 30 Jul 2010 09:30:48 EST Thursday.... Ahhh Scale day Now, don't think I am not getting on the scale almost every day, because I do, but "Thursday" has become my weight in day. I am not sure why I picked Thursday. Maybe because it's far enough away from the weekend, so if I "slipped" I have a few days to fix the wrongs of the world, but truly, isn't life about slipping? It's more about eating what you KNOW is right, and listening to how you feel. Don't get me wrong, I am a huge fan of eating Pasta (you know, I still just want to call it Maca... Thu, 29 Jul 2010 08:01:10 EST Deep Breath, a marathon not a sprint! I know, I haven't written in WELL over a week, and I do know what that means to me, personally, deep down inside, "Don't be surprised if the scale doesn't move", and you will never believe what happened this morning when I got on the scale, IT DIDN'T MOVE! Now, truly, I am not surprised by this, and I knew it was going to happen, I haven't walked in a week, and although I am paying attention to what goes in my mouth, it's not like I said no to the Oatmeal Raisin cookie last night (okay that ... Tue, 27 Jul 2010 08:20:53 EST Really, 20 pounds? Are you kidding me! Yup, 20 pounds, I am 3 pounds away from my first "short term" goal of 211, which is what I weighed on my wedding day. And I know what people say, you want to look at your pictures as see a perfect "you", I do. I don't care that I weighed 211. When I look at my pictures I see a woman and a man who are so totally happy and in love, and for me, that matters. <BR> I am hopeful to hit the 211 within the next week, but as I am traveling for the next 7 days, I don't know how realistic that is. B... Thu, 15 Jul 2010 10:41:12 EST I got new sneakers:) So, I think I have so much to share this morning... First, for those of you who sent me some tunes for walking, THANK YOU. I must say I think the part that surprised me the most was "someone is reading my blog?" I think of this as a place to unload my brain. So, thank you for actually reading me, if you are! That's SO cool! Anyway, so I bought some new sneak's today (from Amazon great price and the one's I like) because..... 215.5 215 was my next goal for my "what are we going to nice to... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 09:32:02 EST