SISSYB3's SparkPeople Blog SISSYB3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community inspiration Just read a great article here on Sparkpeople,<BR>tion_articles.asp?id=2070 <BR> called "Interested or Committed; Only one spells success." That really hit home! I've been exercising pretty consistently, although not logging my weight lifting because the exercises are not here on the site, but at a gym! I've had a good streak signing in...BUT, I haven't tracked my food or addressed the stress eating that has me stuck at a weight that isn't good for ... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 10:07:16 EST Update It's been too long since I was a regular on this site and it's something I regret. I miss my Spark friends, their stories, and the inspiration and motivation found here. Part of me fears I won't be able to make the changes that I need to make to get and stay healthy...I'm over 60, I'm on an estrogen blocker to prevent a reoccurrence of cancer and I've tried and failed at losing and keeping the weight off so many times that it's difficult to begin again. But I read a blog and I love this...."I... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 21:10:07 EST Thankful for Sparkpeople! Yesterday a coworker suggested we join a weight loss group starting at work. It would require driving from one site to another and probable missed meetings regularly because of a very busy work schedule. And here we have a community of great support, inspiration and tools to achieve the goals we long for. And it's open 24/7! <BR> I haven't been back here till now because I've been struggling and slipping backwards, rather than moving in the healthy direction that I want. I can list a multitu... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 11:27:40 EST A small victory dance Today's my last day of week 2 on the South Beach diet. It's certainly altered my cravings and given me more energy. Tomorrow I'll be adding either a grain serving or a fruit. I'm feeling a bit like Eve in the garden of Eden, afraid to taste that apple. I'm worried that the cravings will return. <BR> <BR> We all need to figure out what works for us to create a healthy lifestyle. And it's so true that I have little confidence in myself being able to make all of those small choices that add up... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 19:46:36 EST Surfacing! I'd like to say that I've been stuck here in neutral, but the truth is that I found a couple of new pounds above my all time top weight. How depressing that was. I can't tell you how many times I came to write a blog asking for encouragement, and then didn't write it because I didn't feel like I really deserved it. How silly that sounds when I see it in writing. But I was tired of my excuses and I was embarrassed to trot them out here once challenges, work stress and all of th... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 18:32:56 EST Rewards I sent myself a goodie today and boy did it feel strange. I wanted to thank my friends here at Sparkpeople and that is a pleasure! But rewarding myself feels so foreign, so odd! I'm glad I did it...and plan to do it again. <BR> I decided that I needed a reward for sticking with it, despite slow results, feeling ill and feeling a bit down. I wanted to applaud myelf for keeping on, even when I'm not perfect. I cheered myself on, just as I would one of you, my good friends. <BR> How such a simp... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 17:51:38 EST Feeling sick. Hi Spark Friends, <BR> Too much feels like too much around here lately. Back to work this past week and my art show coming up with so much left to do before it opens, and I'm sick! Bill got the sore throat/ chest cold first and I got it yesterday. Instead of taking my Dad on the outing we planned, I slept most of the day. We had to cancel our painting class here at our studio today. It's just frustrating. And I haven't caught up with my wonderful Spark friends since we got back from our trip.... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 10:13:27 EST Maine update! Hi Spark Friends! <BR> It's hard to believe that it's been over 3 weeks that we were away, painting and teaching in Maine. It was a wonderful trip, and I worked most every day on paintings for my upcoming show. We painted on location for the whole teaching week and good parts of the two weeks that preceded it. Our friends did come for a visit and went everyday about their vacation as Bill & I continued our painting. Then we'd assemble for time on the beach in front of our cottage or on the po... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 18:31:18 EST Another assignment, Excuses! Hi Spark Friends, <BR> Today's assignment is on excuses I make to avoid exercise and to counter each one. But I have to admit that I'm like the girl with the curl in the middle of my forehead! When I'm good, I'm very very good and when I'm bad, I'm horrid! <BR> I'm in a good place right now, thanks to the encouragement of my Spark friends...You know who you are! Thanks from the bottom of my heart! And my husband has been supporting me to the max. This morning we did the Bollywood video toget... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 09:24:44 EST Keeping it Up Hello Spark friends! <BR> It's been about 3 weeks since I've been back to doing my videos and tracking my food. The video coaching session this morning was on different ways to evaluate progress when the scale seems stubborn. This was timely for me, because if calories in and calories out worked perfectly, I should be down several more pounds. But I do feel good. Self esteem up; I'm following through on a lifestyle that I know is good for me. Crazy schedule that in the past might derail me; I... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 09:18:51 EST Quick & easy meal ideas This is my assignment today, so here goes! Quesadilla with black beans, peppers, mushrooms, onions, light cheese. Whole wheat Pita pizzas. <BR> spaghetti with soy crumbles. eggplant roll ups, Amy's entrees. That's about all I can think of before I'm off to teach my workshop. Anyone else have ideas for qick and easy healthy lunches and dinners? Have a great weekend Spark friends! It's a great weekend to be painting outdoors! Renee <em>220</em> Sat, 18 Aug 2012 06:55:36 EST Reluctant, but Excited! I've joined Spark Coach to get my mojo working and I love it. Finally, I'm able to get out of bed in the morning and get my first video workout in before the crazy day begins. Week one, accomplished. I say the first workout, visualizing the day soon when the second workout follows later in the day. I've done this before and I will do it again, with a little help from my Spark friends:)! I do almost always follow the morning workout with either one or two walks with my personal trainer, Buddy... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 07:46:32 EST Out of Touch Hi Spark friends, <BR> <BR> It's been a challenging week starting with the ceiling in our entryway coming down from a slow unseen leak in the bathroom above, and then a lightning storm that killed our DSL modem. Who knew I was so addicted to Sparks and the internet? I was in major withdrawal! My Sparks streaks broken...Starting over! <BR> <BR> I got through it; and have kept up with my exercise, and not eating after 8, I didn't keep track of my food. It only just occured to me as I'm writ... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 08:03:19 EST Birthday Wish Hi Everyone! <BR> I want to keep up the blogging whether it's big or little progress! Yesterday's weigh in was not much of a celebration...I had a 2 ounce loss! But it's understandable to me and I'm just keeping on going forward. <BR> <BR> I'm still fighting that summer cold that started almost 2 weeks ago and it's been pretty miserable. Thank Heaven's today it feels like it's beginning to lose its grip! I've had sore throat, coughing and congestion and haven't been doing as much walking.... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 14:56:49 EST Feed a Cold? I think not! But I'm sitting here coughing and sniffling on a beautiful June day! YUCK! My husband had it and I was hoping to dodge the bullet. Strangely enough, he got it right after reading the short story, "Frank Sinatra Catches a Cold" for an assignment in a writing class that he's taking! Peculiar coincidence, don't you think? I told him that if he's that suggestible, would he please read stories about millionaires in the making? <em>30</em> <BR> We have so many plans and I want to feel... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 10:10:58 EST Even Keel Hi Spark Friends! <BR> Hope you're all enjoying a beautiful Sunday. It's sunny here and the garden is lovely and I'm getting a slow start today. <BR> I did have a lovely walk with Bill & Buddy and made time to do a meditation. <BR> I've increased the length and frequency of our walks this week, which was good! <BR> <BR> But I haven't been good at all at setting actual goals and keeping track of them, although I have made tracking my food an established habit and I am increasing the exerci... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 12:44:16 EST Slow, but sure! Another week completed tracking my food. If the truth be known, I'm a bit disappointed that in these first weeks I haven't lost more...3 weeks, down 3& a half pounds. In the good old days when I was younger, I would lose 4 to 6 pounds in the first week, and I weighed quite a bit less than I do now. Such a good argument for those of you out there in your 20's & thirties who are learning to make better & healthier choices that you can live with for the long haul. Good for you! And good for a... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 09:16:20 EST Checking in Hi Spark friends! <BR> Just checking in here to report on some progress. This is the end of week 2 of tracking everything that went into my mouth...the good, the bad and the ugly! I've made a whole lot more better choices than bad! I made a vegetarian taco salad today and quartered an avocado rather than creating a bowl of guacamole that would have been a tempting excuse to eat a whole avocado myself! (too much of a good thing!) <BR> <BR> I've walked Buddy everyday for 25 to45 minutes and g... Sun, 27 May 2012 18:00:04 EST Progress Hi there Spark friends! <BR> Just checking in with all of you to celebrate a bit of progress. Yesterday marked a full week of writing down and tracking my food for one week. It was such an essential part of my success the first time around and it feels good to feel back on track. Just like the first time round, the scale didn't move like I had hoped it would after a week, but it moved a little and I feel much better. (Not that I don't know that there are other ways to measure progress!) So I... Mon, 21 May 2012 09:50:42 EST One Step Forward... Hi Spark Friends. <BR> Just about ready for bed but I want to check in. I've continued my exercise bike, walking Buddy and have gotten in about 6 hours of gardening in the last 2 days. I raked and built a low stone wall,which I'm feeling in my back. But it looks good and I feel like I accomplished something. <BR> So you can imagine my surprise and disappointment this morning when I got on the scale and it registered a 3 pound gain. <BR> It feels like a setback and it's plagued me all day lon... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 23:16:35 EST Progress This past week I added 15 minutes (which turned into 20 minutes) of stationary bike time in front of the TV.(5x's this week) The weather here has been unusually warm, so walking Buddy every day and garden work has been a pleasure. <BR> The scale hasn't moved, but I feel so much better that I'm happy to continue. So this week, I'll do the exercise bike, walk and do my very best to drink water. <BR> For some reason, this very basic goal has eluded me. I drink tea, but getting what seems to me ... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 19:28:03 EST Oh Spring! Here in Moscow we've had an unusally mild winter, but the landscape is really looking bare bones. My heart lifts at the sight and sound of returning birds...robins, red winged black birds and morning doves. <BR> <img src=""> Here's a painting I'm working on. It's the very first very large painting that I've done since I started my work at the gallery/studio. It's exciting to be painting big again! I called this one "Anticipating Spring".... Sun, 11 Mar 2012 10:32:33 EST I love SparkPeople I'm feeling grateful for my Sparkfriends tonight! I feel like, slowly but surely, I'm getting back on track. I'm doing the January challenge and that feels good. And some good sense is kicking in...I realize that I can build up to the most challenging version of the exercises instead of overdoing things from the start! I don't have to do things perfectly and I don't have to do them all at once. <BR> Doing the challenge has gotten me out and walking with our friend Buddy more frequently. It'... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 19:04:45 EST Time to Reboot! "Though no one can go back in time and make a brand-new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand-new ending." <BR> <BR> —Anonymous <BR> <BR> I've been trying to explain to myself and think of how to explain to my Spark friends that the 18 pounds I lost found me again. It's been difficult. And as many times as I've vowed to get back on track with the vision and singleness of purpose that I had for more than half of last year, I've failed. But I've been here in the background, checki... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 19:05:58 EST Snow Day! I feel like a kid today. It's snowing...and although I'm generally a curmudgeon about snowfall and wasn't happy to think it would be falling before the leaves have dropped from the trees, I'm actually really enjoying the day, <BR> We just returned from walking Buddy and the snow on the bushes that still had leaves of pink and green was incredible. I was so sorry I forgot the camera. You'll have to use your imagination! <BR> Buddy loves it too. Back and forth sniffing to catch a scent, he woul... Sat, 29 Oct 2011 12:14:11 EST Just Glad to be back! It's a beautiful Sunday morning here in Pennsylvania and we'll be heading out soon to walk Buddy. But it's been lovely too to sit here and begin to catch up with my Spark friends. I had a hectic reentry week after our Maine trip, teaching classes several nights, hosting First Friday at the gallery and then doing a painting demonstration yesterday at the library. But I was prepared more than not and managed to get in quite a bit of exercise and did track my food most days. It wasn't perfect, ... Sun, 9 Oct 2011 10:20:58 EST Hanging on? I don't know whether to say that I've been hanging on by my toenails, or to confess that I've lost my way almost completely. This spring and summer have been extaordinarily stressful and the end is not in sight. <BR> <BR> But I have things to celebrate here and such a deep longing to get back on track with my eating and my exercise. Actually, I can report that my new and oh so dear Buddy Rufus has kept me walking most every day. What a blessing he is! And the rare times that I have squeezed... Sun, 7 Aug 2011 19:59:23 EST Day 2 Just checking in with my Spark friends. I got my exercise video in early today and then a nice walk with Bill & Buddy. 5 more days of video exercise till I get to order my new DVD! <BR> <BR> What a difference it makes to get that video done first thing! It sets me up for the day. <BR> Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend! Sun, 29 May 2011 20:18:33 EST Accentuate the positive I feel so good today, despite the nagging worries, because I took care of myself and rebooted my favorite bootcamp. That felt so good that I tracked my food and am writing this blog. Just as those impulses that take us down the road we don't want to go down again snowball, so it seems the good ones do too. <BR> But these steps wouldn't have been taken without the inspiration and acceptance and encouragement from my Sparks friends. How thankful I am to have you all in my life. <BR> My goal i... Sat, 28 May 2011 13:46:45 EST Home I sent a message last evening to one of my Spark friends about being "off the rails" and too embarrassed to share that with all of you. I can tell you about the stress that's triggered the old habits, but that gets me into a terrible loop in my head that judges my behavior and leaves me feeling worse than I've been feeling with all of the things in my life that have been making life miserable. <BR> <BR> I made the time this morning to meditate and the first message back from the universe is... Mon, 23 May 2011 10:18:03 EST I'm back! Isn't it something when your best laid plans and intentions are turned upside down by real life? My "I know what I want to do" resolutions were postponed while I had to go to Florida again. This time I helped my father sort through his house and decide what he wanted to bring north and then pack everything and drive him back with me. It's been a tough challenge ending with two days driving 12 hour shifts. <BR> <BR> To my Sparks friends in Georgia, the Carolinas and Virginia...what beautiful... Mon, 2 May 2011 12:05:23 EST I know what I want to do! This blog was almost titled, "what I need to do", but that puts the motivation outside myself and I want it here, inside this mind and body. Setting the bar low in order to inch my way back into my program has given me limited success. It's been close enough to my old habits that it's too easy to backslide. I feel like I'm hanging in here by my fingernails! <BR> <BR> Emotionally, our 4 legged friends Buddy and Pongo have helped me regain my optimism, as well as my daily walks. So that's in ... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 11:18:35 EST Challenges It's a sunny wintery day here in Northeastern PA. We just got back from a lovely walk at our favorite farm, the one where they're making maple syrup right now. The sunshine promises that spring is coming, despite the chilly wind and the snow that remains in the fields. <BR> <BR> My personal spring seems to be just as long in coming. I've been struggling and losing the fight in eating healhfully this past week. I've been trying both to put the brakes on as well as understand why I feel compel... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 14:06:15 EST Spring Thaw What a difference a month can make. It's early days here, but spring is coming. We have incredible amounts of work to do in our yard and garden. The seed pods we left for the birds look bedraggled and we've lost evergreens that we planted just last year. But the pond is thawed and our fish are swimming. We're looking for the wonderful mud puppy newts in our pond. We see them best at night with the flashlight. They look prehistoric and beautiful. <BR> Tonight the moon is supposed to be amazin... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 20:12:23 EST New Walking Pal <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We welcome "Buddy Rufus", formerly Dale, to our family. He spent more than half of his short life at a place called Animal Care Sanctuary. Even though they're an amazing facility who cares for these deserving animals all their lives if they can't find homes, these beautiful dogs, cats, & horses long for their own people and forever homes. Please con... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 17:50:05 EST The Sound between the Notes Dealing with the loss of my dear canine companion has made me realize how difficult it is for me to just stay with an emotion. I've slipped several times with food and my exercise program has been partly derailed. <BR> Painfully and slowly, I'm working on restablishing my healthy routines without the help of my personal trainer, Honey the dog. It sure isn't easy. This morning I walked with my girlfriend and her dog without Honey for the first time. What a hole in my life. My first instinct i... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 12:31:17 EST New Goals I need and want to step back and restablish my healthy routines. I feel like a juggler who has been dropping the balls! I've tried several days to just pick up where I left off, but it hasn't been working. One day I track the food, another I get a little exercise in, but I've been too sad to walk much without my dear friend Honey the dog. I haven't had the energy to do much except go to work. So I'm readjusting my expectations to rebuild my good habits and routines. I began today with trackin... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 21:29:50 EST Sad Sad Day <img src="">Today was the day we realized that our dear heart Honey needed her rest. She blessed our lives each and every day we were lucky enough to have her with us. She had no more energy to fight and it was time to let go. We're heartbroken, but glad that she isn't suffering. What a great gift and blessing she's been to us. We're shocked at the speed of her decline and in awe at the strength of her warrior constitution. She apparently... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 12:27:22 EST Another Day With everything that's been happening, exhaustion has been setting in and both Bill & I have just been feeling unwell. The good news is that I haven't been eating in response to the stress. But I haven't had the energy to get my exercise in. I managed to lose my pedometer yesterday and since Monday was only averaging 4-7000 steps. I've been missing videos this week. So I'd like to get back on track. Mornings work best for me on the days I don't have to show up at work early. So my goal is to ... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 21:48:14 EST Good Day I stayed home from work today and Honey and I had a good day. Despite her not feeling well, we got in 2 short walks in the 40 degree sunshine. The wonderful friend who accompanied me to Florida came by with chicken, 2 roasts of beef and cheese for her good friend Honey, and flowers and salad for us. Honey & I walk with Sara and her dog Chessie as often as we can.We've had wonderful support from our friends at home and here at Sparks. We're doing the best that we can, and "get by with a little... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 19:55:47 EST Difficult news Today the vet told us that Honey has cancer that has spread to her lungs. There's a small chance that it could be a fungal infection, but further tests are needed after we get the results from her blood tests. Please hold us in your thoughts...she's such an important part of our family. <BR> Thanks dear friends! <BR> <em>247</em> Renee Mon, 14 Feb 2011 17:50:08 EST Tough day, tough week. My best pal Honey the dog seems still seems to be sick. I feel so helpless when she seems to be suffering and there's not much I can do. We'll take her to the vets tomorrow morning and I pray she'll soon be on the mend. It's making me crazy...this after everything else that's been going on. <BR> <BR> Getting back to work has been challenging. Three late nights, new classes, and hosting a big company event. Things have gone well, but it feels like just one thing after another. And this comi... Sun, 13 Feb 2011 20:45:41 EST Transformation What I really love about SparkPeople is that it gives us the tools for a slow and wonderful transformation in our lives. <BR> <BR> Problems arise when we get stuck in looking at ourselves through our old attitudes. It sucks us back into old habits and unhealthy behaviors. <BR> <BR> Our Spark friends help give us a new perspective. They give us credit for showing up here and checking in. They help us see the small changes that gather momentum to create a bigger success. They offer good sugg... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 10:11:54 EST Good News & Challenges Our dog Honey's cough was getting worse and had Bill & I pretty worried. A trip to the vet Friday revealed that our tender flower has tonsilitus! Ididn't even know that dogs had tonsils! The antibiotics seem already to be working and she seems more herself again. I can't express how happy we are...having an older dog makes us especially concerned, and she was one sick puppy! <BR> <BR> I'm slowly getting back to my program, although this past weekend I've made some poor food choices. But as a... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 22:30:42 EST I'm Back! I can't say how much I missed all of my Spark friends, but you were with me in spirit in Florida this last 2 weeks when I had no computer access. In this stressful time, when historically I would have gained weight, I had a modest loss. <BR> <BR> I was able to be there and care for both my Dad and stepmother for the last 2 weeks and I'm so glad that I was able to get time from work and make the trip.They both continue to have big health challenges, although my Dad has made extraordinary pro... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 09:02:43 EST Unexpected Journey I'm feeling anxious tonight. My Dad is back in the hospital 1200 miles away from us and his wife is in too. After a seemingly remarkable recovery from a burst appendix with peritonitis, he passed out this AM. He was able to call 911 when he came to, but apparently there's internal bleeding going on. We've had an ice storm here today, but I'm booked on a flight tomorrow to go to see them in the Florida hospital. There are so many things I don't know...I don't know whether they'll be able to r... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 20:06:07 EST Time to Step it Up or Give it Up! I've been adding and subtracting the same 3 pounds since the week before Christmas. I've continued to track my food, but let a week go by without the bootcamp videos because I wanted a new and different challenge. Please Coach Nicole, a new 28 day challenge! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I've been feeling disappointment in myself for knowing what needs to be done and doing it... not whole heartedly. I'm tracking the food, but making bad choices at least one evening a week. I let the videos slide. In ... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 14:44:55 EST Checking In I'm not quite sure where the last week went, but it's gone. I've "been workin' my way back to Sparks..." Almost down to my pre holiday weigh, celebrating the loss of 18 inches and recording my food & exercise. I finished my 28 day boot camp and have been cruising the challenges to find a new workout that incorporates strength training. I haven't found anything new yet, so I think tomorrow I'll start the New You bootcamp again and repeat the 28 day again when I'm finished with that. I would ... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 18:55:10 EST Taking Stock The party is over. Our last holiday social event was last night and it was a great gathering. The food and the bubbly was wonderful. After 3 challenging weeks of holiday, it's time to take stock and move forward ... savoring all of the great gifts and blessings we've been given. <BR> <BR> In the taking stock department, I did pretty well the first 2 weeks, but started to unravel this past week. There's been food in the house that I normally wouldn't have due to the goodness of a houseguest ... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 17:26:26 EST A Fine Whine I'm wondering whether I should taste this whine in the privacy of my neglected journal, or to share it with my friends here on Sparks. I haven't pressed the post blog entry yet, so we'll see. <BR> I've frittered away two lovely days off, reading an OK book and feeling grumpy and disgruntled. In this hap-happiest season of all, I often feel like the grinch. I don't like myself when I can't find my gratitude for the great blessings in my life. But I find this season of relentless visiting and ... Mon, 27 Dec 2010 12:14:04 EST