SINGERGIRL1981's SparkPeople Blog SINGERGIRL1981's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My nicknames Blog Challenge day 3~ What are your nicknames? <BR> <BR> I had a few nicknames growing up. My brothers called me sissy because they couldn't say Tiffany. My dad's family called me Tiffy. (Which I absolutely hated!!!) When I got older my brothers could actually say my name but chose to call me Tiff instead. I don't really go by that and I don't like it but they still call me that. So does my best friend and some people at work even though I have repeatedly told them I prefer Tiffany. The best... Wed, 13 Apr 2011 22:34:55 EST Favorite song Blog Challenge day 2-What is your favorite song? <BR> <BR> My favorite song is God Bless the Broken Road by Rascal Flatts. It is the song I sang to my husband for our first dance at our wedding. <BR> We both had very differently rough lives before we made it to each other. My husband, Tony, had never heard the song before and quoted it almost word for word when we were talking one night. It is a very special song to me. <img src=""> <BR... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 21:58:53 EST 67 day blog challenge. That will help me blog! What is your ALL TIME favorite picture of yourself? Why? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is probably one of my favorite pictures of me. It was my kindergarten picture. I'm not sure why I love it so much but I know at that point in my life all was good. I had one little brother, my parents were married and not fighting... not that I remember anyway.... <BR> <BR> I haven't been blogging lately. When I was on a blogging challenge before ... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 22:57:07 EST I can't use other people's crazy as an excuse to give up on myself! I need to recommit. There... I said it! You knew I needed to and I did too. <BR> I have had a terrible month and a half or so. Both in my personal and professional lives. I've went right back to dealing with things they way I always did... by making bad choices and emotionally eating! I set goals for myself and think about how I am failing AS I am shoveling food into my mouth! The negativity that I feel from people in my life that I thought were my close friends continually crushes me like ... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 15:04:39 EST Where have I been this month? There is a lot on my heart! Where have I been? I was on sparkpeople everyday for almost 3 months and then this month I disappeared! There are a number of factors to this but I am trying not to use them as an excuse. That is not what I want to do by blogging but I do want to vent! <BR> First, my dj/karaoke company came to an end on Saturday. It was planned. I have known it was going to happen for about a month. When the day came I had mixed emotions. I was sad, because I had been singing with my partner since I was 21. ... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 14:37:42 EST It has almost been a week Wow. I have really been slacking on my blogs! I have logged in everyday, spun the wheel and looked at a few things every day. I have tracked at least some of my food if not all, every day. But, I feel like I could do better. Sometimes when there is so much drama in my life it is hard to focus on me. I 've had to deal with my mother in law and her lack of responsibility and the breaking up of my dj company that I have owned for the last 3 years (read my last blog for more info on that mess) ... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 22:25:02 EST Holy Tornado! The last few days have just been nuts. Let's break it down so maybe I can sort through it and make sense of it all. <BR> First of all, The house Tony's mom lives in is being sold. Now usually this wouldn't be a problem, but she is trying to get custody of Tony's oldest son, Joshua. She knew that the house would possibly sell but didn't manage to look for anything else in the time that she had. Now she has to find somewhere else by April 1st. This could actually hurt her chances of actually ge... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 22:45:45 EST Another end, another beginning! Well, another month has gone by. Time moves to fast these days! Weeks go by, my daycare kids grow up and before you know it I'll be 30. Today is day 59 of my personal challenge. I can't believe how fast the last 41 days have gone. I am realizing that I have not done enough! I have exercised enough!!! 1-2 days a week is not enough if I want to actually loose weight at this! I have a plan though! More days of exercise class (2-3 days a week), when I get down another 10 pounds I can get a gym m... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 15:14:04 EST I dont even think I am capable of making sense of anything anymore For the first time in my adult life I am not obsessed about getting pregnant this moment in time. I have my eyes on the prize... the weight loss prize. I am focussed on loosing weight. My mind is always full of my calories that I am eating, what I have left, will I get my exercise in today? I am sure I am just boring as hell to my friends these days..... I am thinking about losing my next 10 pounds so that I can get my gym membership reward, signing up for my zumba class starting in March, go... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 23:27:14 EST Finding my exercise groove.... I was hanging out online today and was researching zumba... my new favorite workout. I found out that the place that my friend Kelly and I go now not only has class Wed when I go but also Mondays! Another night that I don't work! I talked to my friend Kelly and we are going to start going on Mondays too. I am so addicted to zumba! The place we go now is only a $1 per class. I am trying to up my workouts per week so that I can up my weight loss a little more. <BR> Also, I decided that I am ... Sat, 26 Feb 2011 19:17:49 EST Nothing to report Nothing amazing happened today. I made monster cookies with the kids for friendly monster week. We made them from a monster cookie recipe from sparkpeople, which is cool. We also made cookie monster puppets. So cute! <BR> I am so tired today so I apologize for the mini blog. I may have exciting things to discuss tomorrow I hope! <BR> off to bed! Thu, 24 Feb 2011 21:43:38 EST A beautiful dress in my future At the end of my personal 100 day challenge is My 30th birthday. Also, 2 days later is the wedding of my friends that live in Chicago. They are getting married in Des Moines, Ia which is about 2 1/2 hours away from us. We dont see our "chicago people" very often so it will be fun to reveal my loss. My goal is to be around 250 by the time of my birthday/the wedding. I will need a very cute dress to wear for the wedding and a cute outfit for my birthday outing... Yay! Shopping. Oh wait.... No..... Wed, 23 Feb 2011 15:00:43 EST a day to forget.... <BR> Today was nothing special. I had 4 daycare kids for most of the day, I worked at the thrift store and I came home to one kid still here with my husband. It happens on occasion. We ran to the store together and then hit a drive thru on the way home. Originally we were planning on going to applebees for their 550 calorie meals. (very yummy by the way) but since we had a kid and had to pick up some stuff up at the store we opted for the easy out. The nice thing was that I track my calories... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 22:21:48 EST another quote of the day. Today's quote is: <BR> "If we defend our habits, we have no intentions of quitting them" (unknown) <BR> <BR> It makes sense if you think about it. My example of this usually involves a f'real resees milkshake from kwik star. It has 600+ calories. I will beg my husband to walk to kwik star and get me one when I've had a bad day. Now, I always track it... but I use that as my crutch. I always "defend" my need for this really yummy but high calorie treat. One excuse or another... I had a ba... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 14:57:55 EST A few words can change the way you see something..... <BR> Yesterday I spent a lot of time at the computer looking up motivational quotes again. I put them each on a cardstock paper and started to number them for my next personal challenge. I am on day 67 (counting down from 100) of my first personal challenge. I have the number up on my cupboard and underneath that is the quote that is written on the back of the day before. The paper underneath that is the stages of hunger. <BR> <img src=" Sun, 20 Feb 2011 15:06:47 EST Thinking about how I met my husband today. <img src=""> <BR> This picture was taken in late 2009. <BR> <BR> Sometimes when I sit back and think about how I met my husband it amazes me that it ever turned out this way. It makes me think of the story of how things started. <BR> It all started with a rained out band concert. I am in a summer municipal band. We were scheduled to have an out of town concert in a nearby city. My friends and I carpooled, all smashed into my friend Amy'... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 00:00:46 EST A string of hard days! I have had a really hard couple of days. My food intake has been "if-y" My stress level has been really high which makes me mean and angry. Not so much to my daycare kids, I have quite a bit of patience for them. But my husband pushes my buttons on purpose because he thinks I'm "cute" when I am mad. That is annoying! This week has been a low sleep week. I had a new daycare friend start this week and she comes much earlier than my other kids. I haven't adjusted to the new schedule yet so I am ... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 23:06:35 EST A long day! Wow! Today is going to be a long work day. <BR> Wednesdays and Thursdays are usually rough for me. This week I had my new daycare friend start. She is full time and comes at 6:45am. Today I have kids until 5:30. We are actually taking our 5:30 kid with us to set up for a karaoke show that starts at 6. My husband and I are running a show for the clients at the thrift store I work at for a late Valentine's day party. We will be there until about 7:30, tear down and then go run actual karaoke at... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 15:06:41 EST Done with my picture blog! Yep... No more blogs titled 30 days in pictures.... <BR> But I am still going to put up some pictures. You will get tired of seeing my smiling face lol! <BR> <BR> Sometimes when I feel like I am not in control in my life I make drastic changes in my appearance! Once I pierced my nose because I felt out of control. I used to dye my hair crazy colors. This is a picture of how long my hair was the week after my wedding in September. <BR> <img src=" Tue, 15 Feb 2011 15:14:20 EST 30 days in pictures day 30! I made it and didnt miss a day! Day 30 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is my husband and I last year in February running a karaoke show. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is me Feb 3rd this year. I decided to take a full length picture. <BR> <BR> Today is the last day of my pre-determined photo blogs. I am not sure what I will find to occupy my time next ... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 20:05:07 EST 30 days in pictures day 29 Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> These are the pictures from our housewarming party in September of 2009. We got really drunk, put on dress up clothes from my daycare tubs and went to the bar. I remember how crazy I used to be. It makes me smile, but I know how far I've come by looking at them. I used to be an alco... Sun, 13 Feb 2011 13:58:37 EST 30 days in pictures day 28 Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of <BR> <BR> I have sooo many fears! It is hard to find the pictures to show them. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is a dying star. I am completely afraid of death. It scares me so much to think of what is out there outside of the life I know. I have a giant fear and anxiety for large change in my life... what bigger change is death? I know God exists but I still fear the unknown. <BR> ... Sat, 12 Feb 2011 14:56:33 EST 30 days in pictures day 27 Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member <BR> <BR> The pictures of this blog are of me and my husband. I have put so many wedding pics up on my blogs. These are honeymoon pics. We drove to the Minneapolis/St. Paul area <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This was taken at the mall of america in the underground aquarium. Tony loves fish and he really enjoyed it! I had been there before and knew he would love it. <BR> <BR> <img src="htt... Fri, 11 Feb 2011 23:25:55 EST 30 days in pictures day 26 Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you <BR> <BR> I have a lot of things that mean a lot to me! <BR> <BR> One material thing that means a lot to me is my wedding ring! When I look at it I know how much my wonderful husband loves me! He tells me that so many times a day! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Many Non-material things mean a lot to me too. <BR> First of all.... my husband means SOOO much to me! <BR> <img src="http... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 14:56:01 EST 30 days in pictures day 25 Day 25 - A picture of your favorite super hero and why <BR> <BR> I dont really have a favorite superhero but I suppose I would say Spiderman. That is the only one that I actually watched the movies that were made about them! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 9 Feb 2011 14:41:24 EST 30 days in pictures day 24 Day 24 - A picture of what I would find in your bag <BR> <BR> Well first, here is my bag <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Now here is what you would find, if it was cleaned out lol! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I have a black music note baby sock coin purse, a package of tissues that I got for my wedding in Sept that has a "T" on it. The item on the bottom right is a sponge on one side ... Tue, 8 Feb 2011 14:28:42 EST 30 days in pictures day 23 Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book; why is it your favorite? <BR> <BR> I dont really have a favorite book. I have favorite authors though. <BR> <BR> I read a lot of Ann Rule. Right now I am reading The stranger beside me, The Ted Bundy story. She writes true crime. They are very well written and take you through each crime, the police investigation, and court information. Very awesome! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I also ... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 14:59:44 EST 30 days in pictures day 22 Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at <BR> <BR> I wish I was better at being confident... or at least "faking" enough confidence so that people didn't approach me as someone they see as of "lesser" value than themselves and feel the need to walk all over me! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I wish I was better at motivating myself. I have a hard time making myself wanting to do the things I know I should in order to l... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 16:31:35 EST 30 days in pictures day 21 Day 21 – A picture of an exercise you can’t do, but would like to try (and then try it if you want to) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I can't do pilates. I have too much stomach and I am not flexible enough. It is too tough! <BR> Someday...... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 20:16:11 EST 30 days in pictures day 20 Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel <BR> Since I am doing this at midnight but I haven't gone to sleep yet it is still considered today right :) <BR> I didn't really miss a blog technically. <BR> <BR> Anyway. I have always wanted to go to New York. I will get there someday! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 5 Feb 2011 01:06:20 EST 30 days in pictures day 19 Day 19 - A picture of your nicknames you have; why do you have them. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yeah, I hate the nickname Tiffy, but my daycare kids have a hard time saying Tiffany. I asked my mom once why she named me such a hard name to say. She laughed at me... she said, " I didn't really know you would spend your life with kids that can't say your name" That was pretty funny. <BR> When my brother started to talk he called me sissy.... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 10:35:47 EST 30 days in pictures day 18 Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity, and the reasons why it is the biggest <BR> <BR> <BR> Insecurities..... It is hard to look into yourself and find that you have more insecurities than not about every aspect of your life and body. That is me. I am insecure about almost everything. <BR> <BR> It starts with my body of course. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My husband tells me that he loves my body but every thing he says just... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 14:35:44 EST 30 days in pictures day 17 Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The TV show Heavy (on A & E) that premiered recently, teamed with the new show I Used To Be Fat (on mtv) <img src=""> together have had a huge impact on my life. While watching the first episode of Heavy one Monday night I was so motivated that I took things from each weigh... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 14:23:16 EST 30 days in pictures day 16 Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you <BR> <BR> I am inspired by a lot of different people on this weight loss journey! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> First off, I am inspired by Bob from biggest loser. He not only helps the contestants loose weight but helps them with their emotional baggage! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The same with Jillian Michaels! Love them and the biggest l... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 22:48:17 EST 30 days in pictures day 15- half way there :) Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die <BR> <BR> There are a lot of personal and professional goals that I want to accomplish before I die. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My biggest dream is to audition for Broadway! Or just sing on broadway. I would never move there but I would love to know if I could do it. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> But even making it to New Yor... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 11:56:59 EST 30 days in pictures day 14 Day 14 – A picture of you now <BR> <BR> Well. This one is a little harder. I have been putting pics of me now up all the time. So, instead... I am going to change it up. I am going to put past pictures of me up and then a few more of me now so you can see. There isn't a lot of difference. My weight has ballooned up and down for the past few years for one reason or another. <BR> <BR> Every story has a beginning..... so here is mine. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 29 Jan 2011 16:55:38 EST 30 days in pictures day 13 Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist <BR> <BR> I am such a music minded person that this is incredibly hard to narrow down. <BR> <BR> Jewel is my number #1 favorite singer! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Pink is one of my favorite singers too! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I also love Kelly Clarkson and Reba McEntire! It was almost a dream come true when they sang toget... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 14:06:36 EST 30 days in pictures day 12 Day 12 – A picture that defines you <BR> <BR> I am a wearer of many hats so there are many pictures that I will find to show that defines me. <BR> <BR> I am a daughter and granddaughter. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am a sister. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am an aunt. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I am a wife. <... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 14:58:35 EST 30 days in pictures day 11 Day 11 - A picture of your IPOD or other music playing device on shuffle, and then list the first 10 songs that play. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is what shows up when I randomize my playlist: <BR> 1.Soulmate -Natasha Bedingfield <BR> 2. Born Free-Kid Rock <BR> 3.For the first time-The Script <BR> 4.Just by being you (Halo & Wings)- Steel Magnolia <BR> 5.Superman tonight-Bon Jovi <BR> 6.We belong-Pat Benetar <BR> 7. Funhouse... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 14:32:07 EST 30 days in pictures day 10 Day 10 - A picture of your closest friend <BR> <BR> I have a group of close friends so this will be another full blog :) <BR> <BR> This is a picture of me and 2 of my best friends from high school, April and Nettie <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is a picture of my husband Tony and I and my oldest friend Jessica. We have been friends since the 3rd grade. We both moved to the same town that year in apartments directly across from each... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 13:21:27 EST 30 days in pictures day 9 Day 09 – A picture that motivates you to do more <BR> <BR> There are things in my life that motivate me to do everything I can to do more of everything! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My daycare kids inspire and motivate me to be a good care giver and to teach them everything I can with the time we have together! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Babies and kids at the store and restaurant... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 23:17:58 EST 30 days in pictures day 8 Day 08 - A picture of your favorite color <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> Sun, 23 Jan 2011 21:53:55 EST 30 days in pictures day 7 <BR> Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item <BR> <BR> My Most Treasured item is my husband Tony! <BR> Here is our love story! <BR> <BR> We met in the Summer of 2009 and fell in love at karaoke! <BR> This is a picture of us djing a wedding in October 2010. He was already a part of my business by then. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> We moved in together right away. I was head over heels in love. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 20:07:48 EST 30 days in pictures day 6 Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day <BR> <BR> I suppose if I had to pick one person it would have to be Queen Latifa. She is comfortable in her skin and plays the best roles in musicals! Those are two things I long for. To just be comfortable with who I am and get to play the great musical roles! Her voice is amazing <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> However it would be really cool to be Jessica Alba too.... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 00:12:51 EST 30 days in pictures day 5 Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> <BR> I have a lot of favorite animals. When I go to the zoo these are the ones I really search out to see. <BR> <BR> My absolute favorite animals are penguins! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I love cats. They are so loving even when people may not be! I really miss the cats I had in my first marriage. He wanted to keep them when I left and then less that 6 months later he took them to the ... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 14:08:21 EST 30 days in pictures day 4 Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Heavy on A&E <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I used to be fat on MTV <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Ruby on Style Network <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Biggest Loser!!!! <BR> <img src=" Wed, 19 Jan 2011 16:04:28 EST 30 days in pictures day 3 Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> This one is going to be a long one! <BR> Today I started my period. I really thought I was pregnant this time. My inspiration for weight loss is just that, getting pregnant and actually delivering a baby. If you read my day one you would know I lost a baby last year around 8-12 weeks along. I have a baby at my in home daycare that is a few weeks younger than my baby would have been. Today she started eating rice cereal. I fed her an... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 13:59:05 EST 30 days in pictures day 2 <BR> Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest <BR> Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day <BR> Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item <BR> Day 08 - A picture of your favorite color <BR> Day 09 – A picture that motivates you to do more <BR... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 14:04:11 EST 30 days in pictures day 1 I saw this on a blog and thought it would be fun and help me to blog everyday! <BR> <BR> Day 01 - A RECENT picture of yourself with at least 15 facts about YOU. <BR> Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest <BR> Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a d... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 17:29:05 EST 1-11-11 In the last few days I have realized or actually had it thrown at me like a fireball, that 10 of my friends are pregnant, and at least 4 have had babies in the last couple of months. Now, I am having "symptoms" but I am worried that it is just hopefulness. I dont think I can handle another letdown. I am soooo tired of being the one that is passed by, time after time. It is hard not to be bitter and hurt. In the last few months I have been on both Metformin and Progesterone. I really really wa... Tue, 11 Jan 2011 23:33:18 EST