SINGERA9's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SINGERA9 SINGERA9's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 24 - Tired? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433253 Today's been a good day so far. I re-read Chris Powell's book last night, and feel pretty good about switching things up on Sunday. I have my eating plan all written down; now I just need to work on a grocery list. I got in my 30 minute walk at lunchtime, even though I'm a bit tired and dragging. <BR> <BR> I've been struggling with my energy levels for the last couple of days - I even have dark circles under my eyes. I've been getting enough sleep, and I've slowed down (but not stopped) my ... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 14:46:57 EST Day 23 - Going to try a new approach! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432146 Wow! I cannot believe how good I feel. I have finally gotten to that point in exercising where I just feel amazing when I'm done and I can't wait for the next workout. I LOVE that feeling. I also feel really good about the food choices I'm making. <BR> <BR> However, because of my pesky little thyroid, the scale just isn't moving as quickly as it should be (given that I'm almost 100 lbs. overweight), so I think it's time to re-think the plan. I've been eating clean (and loving it!) for three... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 17:17:12 EST Day 22 - Fearless Warrior http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430697 Today is one of those days where the motivation is so strong. I've been doing a lot of "fake it till you make it" over the last couple of weeks because I had to in order to get started again. I was tired of gaining back more of the weight that I thought I had lost forever. I was tired of making excuses. I was tired of my clothes not fitting well, and worrying what I was going to wear next week or the week after as my size increased week after week. <BR> <BR> I have decided that I will be a ... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 14:03:35 EST Day 21 - Weigh-in Results (Week 3) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429635 I lost exactly 1 lb. last week, so that brings the total to 5 lbs. gone in 3 weeks. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I am thrilled with my results so far! I can definitely feel more room in my clothing, and I'm really looking forward to next week's monthly measurements. I'll be sure to post them here for accountability. <BR> <BR> I took a nice 30 minute walk at lunchtime today. I had to stay inside because it was raining outside, but I had a good walk anyway! It's amazing how much a walk can cle... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 17:11:15 EST Days 19 and 20 - Accountability http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5428666 It's Sunday! Time to report in on the progress I made towards my weekly goals this week. They were: <BR> <BR> 1. 100 oz water daily <BR> Progress report: I had 100 oz. of water 2 days this week, but I did have more water every day this week than I did last week. <BR> 2, 30 minutes of walking x 7 days <BR> Progress report: Missed Tuesday. Was exhausted and chose to take the day off. However, did get a lot of activity in this weekend. <BR> 3. Elliptical workout x 3 days <BR> Progress re... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 21:14:38 EST Day 18 - Integrity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426552 I'm feeling great today! I had a really good workout on the elliptical last night. I made it all 30 minutes, and I pushed myself to do intervals the entire time (minus warmup and cool down). My legs were rubbery when I got off, but I felt that wonderful exercise "high"when I was done! <BR> <em>46</em> <BR> While I was exercising, I watched Extreme Weight Loss from the DVR. I just love Chris Powell. He's so energetic and motivating and honest and genuine. It seems like what you see is what... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 14:24:31 EST Day 17 - Letting Go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425502 Over the last couple of days, I've been struggling with some very negative self-talk, both in my head and the spoken word. My inner dialogue has been focused on how much I've lost over the last year by gaining back 20 of the 38 pounds I lost last year. You can't work out like you used to, you can't fit in the clothes you bought last year, you have "cankles" again, and on and on and on. I've said some horrible things about myself, too, to friends and family, about my failure and my poor self... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 15:12:40 EST Days 15 and 16 - Frustrated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424597 I have been fighting some negative feelings over the last couple of days as far as my weight loss efforts and exercise goals are going so far. It's like this fight between my logical brain (slow and steady wins the race) and my desire to be *there* already. Over the last year of eating poorly and not exercising, I have lost so much stamina. I used to be able to do 60 minutes of intervals on the elliptical last year at this time. Today, I barely made 20 minutes. Ugh. I am so mad at myself. <B... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 21:03:28 EST Day 14 - Weigh-in results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422069 Weigh-in for today: 202.4, down 1.2 lbs this week. I didn't reach my goal, but I'm not unhappy with the progress, especially given the fact that I didn't get to work out like I had planned to last week. <BR> <BR> My weekly goals are: <BR> 1. 100 oz water daily <BR> 2, 30 minutes of walking x 7 days <BR> 3. Elliptical workout x 3 days <BR> 4. Bicycle ride x 2 days <BR> 5. Try one new recipe this week <BR> 6. Try one new stress management technique this week <BR> <BR> My motivation is defini... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:02:49 EST Day 13 - The "emergency" exercise plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422060 On Saturday night, I wrote about focus, and finding activities that I can do during super crazy weeks like last week. I have some ideas, and I'm going to put them to the test next time things go haywire. <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise in the morning BEFORE work. This one's hard for me. I'm not a morning person. I'll have to really plan ahead to make this one happen. <BR> 2. Exercise at my desk while on telephone meetings. Stand up, do squats, march in place, any subtle movement that gets me out of th... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 15:56:22 EST Day 12 - Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420347 I'm just barely gonna finish this post on time to qualify for today, but I have a couple of minutes to spare. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a lot about focus today. How do I stay focused on my goals, and not get sidetracked? How do I focus on healthy choices, when there are so many unhealthy ones? Today was a great day! After I walked two of the three dogs at a new (to me) greenway in town, I took the third one (senior) out for a 15 minute walk. So, for the day, I got 60 minutes of exercise ... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 00:58:11 EST Days 8 through 11 - A Crazy Week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419696 Well, I had really hoped to make the time every day to get out here and post. This, however, was one darn crazy week at work and at home, so it didn't happen. <BR> <BR> What did happen? Well, I slogged through it! I got through the end of the sugar hangover, and I feel fantastic. I'm having no cravings whatsoever. I'm meeting all of my goals as far as my diet goes (to clarify, I'm using the word diet in the actual meaning of the word - the foods I'm eating - not "I'm on a diet"). I'm doing ... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 10:25:18 EST Days 6 and 7 - Homemade Pizza and Weigh-in results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414319 Oh man - I was so stiff and sore yesterday morning when I woke up. My first bike ride in over 10 years took its toll on me, including the fact that I could hardly sit down. I took two of the dogs for a 30 minute walk around the neighborhood. The first 5-7 minutes were tough and I didn't think I was going to make it. I'm glad that I kept at it, though, because by the end of the walk, I was feeling really good. Then, I took the third dog for a short walk, which was a good cool down for me, and... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 12:12:19 EST Day 5 - Bikes, Bugs and Jello http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5412697 Today, I bought a bike! When I woke up this morning, I had no idea that I would buy a bike today, or that I would even be interested in riding. But, as the DH and I were wandering around Academy Sports to kill some time, I saw the bikes and walked out of the store half an hour later the proud owner of a new bike. I haven't ridden in about 10 years, so "rusty" is about the nicest term I can use to describe my skills. Thank goodness it's true what they say - you really don't forget how to ride ... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 21:14:01 EST Day 4 - The sugar hangover http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411652 Day 4! Woohoo!! Feeling awesome!!! <BR> <BR> Ok, no, not really, but I *want* to be feeling awesome. This is the hardest part of breaking the sugar cycle, days 4-7. But, I know what's on the other side, and by Monday, I should be feeling just fine! I got in a nice 30 minute walk outside around the parking lot at my workplace today, and that felt great. I'm also planning to get back on my new-to-me elliptical tonight and get in another 30 minutes of exercise. I really struggled through it ye... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 15:43:53 EST Day 3 - Freedom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5411069 I always love the 4th of July. It's a great day to pause and think about what an amazing country I live in and to honor and remember the men and women who've sacrificed it all to ensure our ongoing freedom. Thank you to all who continue to defend the United States! <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> It's quite the juxtaposition of ideas to be celebrating my freedom, and yet obsessing over how UN-free I feel. I know that's not a real word, but it struck me that way when I was working out ... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 23:40:22 EST Days 1 and 2 - Fake it till you make it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5409725 WOOHOO!!! I'm back! I'm excited! I'm eating well and watching the pounds drop! All my clothes are too big! I can't wait for my daily workout! I love my new muscle tone and definition! <BR> <BR> So, I don't really feel this way. Yet. YET. Y.E.T.!!!! But, I will feel this way. I know it. I'm going to keep telling myself this, and working to make it happen because only I can. No one else can do this for me but me. <BR> <BR> This past year has been so difficult - in every way. I wish I had ma... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 14:15:40 EST Being Honest with Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5386893 I'm back. Again. As I was updating my Start page, my Goals, my Trackers, I kept looking for way to erase the past, to make it look like this is my first attempt to lose the weight and get healthy. Same goes for my SparkPage. I want a clean slate. <BR> <BR> But, I guess what it all comes down to is that the person sitting behind this keyboard is the result of choices. Call them good, call them bad... it doesn't matter. They are choices. They are also in the past. I can't fix or change them. ... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 11:54:22 EST A Confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259011 Here's how the original script is written: <BR> <BR> Well, here we go again. I knew you couldn't do it, Colleen. I knew you couldn't lose the weight. I knew you would make poor choices again, that you would put the weight back on, that you would stop exercising. I knew it. You are such a failure. Now you have to re-lose weight and inches you fought to lose last year just to get back to where you were, not to mention making additional progress. Why even bother? Why not sit at home on the ... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 16:38:33 EST The first six months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5014445 Wow! It's hard to believe that six months ago, I took the first baby step and decided to do something, anything, to get control of my health and lose the excess weight. In some ways, I hardly recognize the woman I was six months ago, not just physically, but emotionally, spiritually and mentally. <BR> <BR> My accomplishments to date: <BR> 1. I have lost 38.1 lbs. I have to count the .1 because of this silly plateau I'm currently enduring. Every little bit matters. <BR> 2. I have 6,281 fit... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 23:42:23 EST It's laugh or cry... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005933 Dearest Plateau, <BR> <BR> Look, babe, we gotta talk. Over the last 5 weeks, you have plagued my every waking (and sometimes sleeping) thought. I have doubted myself, sabotaged myself, rebelled, whined, overcompensated, overreacted, obsessed, pouted, and engaged in all kinds of escapist activities just to get away from you. But you, persistent plateau, have been true to your nature. I must ask, are you in some kind of conspiracy with my scale? Did you two strike some kind of bargain while I ... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 23:22:21 EST 25% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905045 As of this week's weigh in, I'm officially 25% of the way to my overall weight loss goal. I've lost 27 pounds of the 108 I originally set out to lose. <BR> <BR> I feel a lot of things right now: <BR> 1. Pride <BR> 2. Sore (especially my abs from my new workout DVD) <BR> 3. Happy <BR> 4. Motivated <BR> 5. Introspective <BR> 6. Overwhelmed <BR> 7. Scared <BR> <BR> Scared? Why would I be scared at celebrating such a milestone along this important journey? Because, like almost every dieter I kn... Wed, 30 May 2012 22:37:27 EST Why am I fat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4877770 I'm at the point in my weight loss journey where the excitement at the progression of weight coming off is overcome by the reality of what I'm actually doing. This, of course, isn't my first endeavor to lose weight, nor even my most successful (though it's getting close to that). I'm changing my life. 51% of me is scared to death of that, and 49% of me is exhilarated. I have made huge changes to the way I eat, the way I exercise, the way I think about food. Up until this point, the momentum ... Sat, 12 May 2012 00:02:40 EST There, but for the grace of God, go I http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4864002 This evening, I decided to break with my normal walking route. I drove to a different part of town, which was close to where I needed to be for a 7:15 appointment. I knew that close to my appointment was a really nice walking trail with some hills and a pretty view. I was so excited! Tonight was the night I was going to start incorporating jogging, or at least lifting my feet higher than walking, into my daily workout. I had about 40 minutes to complete my workout, so I got right to it. Walk,... Thu, 3 May 2012 00:19:43 EST Enjoying the moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855243 It's very few times in my life when I've stopped to just enjoy the moment. Most of the time, I'm thinking about yesterday, planning for tomorrow, or just slogging through until I can get to the next thing on the list. <BR> <BR> Recently, though, I've been finding myself consciously looking around at my surroundings and appreciating the moment for what it is, good, bad or otherwise. It may sound dumb, but I have to credit that new habit to my new exercise program. When I'm working out, on th... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 17:25:04 EST