SIMPLYPATTI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SIMPLYPATTI SIMPLYPATTI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Being wrong never felt so right! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5693142 I posted last time that I had gained all this weight back and I was feeling horrible and all that work was for nothing! Well, as the week went on last week I still felt back physically weighed in again on Thursday because I could not get my rings on my fingers and my shoes were tight. I had gained even more weight. Well I talked it over with my hubby because i was looking at a 16 pound gain over a two week span. That was crazy. I knew I had not been doing all I could to get healthy but t... Mon, 12 May 2014 07:47:23 EST Even though I messed it all up, I am still not stopping. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5690319 So I went and gained all the weight I had lost back. I am trying so hard to not go right back to failure mode. Where I give up and say that I should not even try because I cannot ever do this. I will not give in to the ugly voice in my head that says I am destined to stay this big. <BR> Here is the plan for getting back on track (and how I am doing so far): <BR> <BR> 1. I have to, have to, have to track my food. I get so lost in the day and mindlessly munch. The tracker makes me stop... Thu, 8 May 2014 08:08:52 EST Happy Birthday to me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649864 Today is my birthday, it has started with a bang. Animals sick, hubby sick, cleaning all that associated mess. Cooking my own birthday meal due to hubby being sick. Getting ready to go pick up my own birthday cake. Wow. This year has to have an upswing soon. I am exhausted. Mon, 17 Mar 2014 11:16:42 EST Wow 2014 can bite me already. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642145 This has been a rough start to a new year. Jan 7th I fell off of the back porch and tore my right petellar tendon in my knee. Got well from that and two days after the all clear to regular activity, I got H1N1 flu. I am just now feeling like a human again, even though I am still on meds and an inhaler. It is March people. I have spent the better part of this year on the couch sick! Good news. I am not any heavier than when I first got injured. I consider this a major accomplishment. ... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 11:54:47 EST The three most honest paragraphs of my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627200 I have been challenged to write the three most honest paragraphs of my life for a fitness group I am in on Facebook. Here we go. <BR> I am afraid to lose weight because I was raped. I have been gaining weight slowly ever since that happened. It has been too long ago, I am ashamed to admit how long it has been since it happened. Since I started blogging I came to the realization that I was not even calling it rape. I called it "that night" or "the attack". I was assaulted. I was violat... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 09:44:51 EST plans and commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581597 So I went and bought three sport bras. Big step here. Removing excuses. "Oh I would do that but it hurts." Well not now. These puppies are on lock down. Not moving a bit. Not the most flattering look, but it will get the job done and that is what matters. Hubby and I have discussed getting outside for walks together, after mother nature is finished with her arctic blast. Not walking in below zero. I have not yet reached that level of exercise nirvana. <em>425</em> Sat, 4 Jan 2014 07:49:31 EST Working for my goals in 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577143 We are all looking forward to a new year, looking for the fresh start and the begining of a time to make resolutions. I do not make resolutions, I make goals. I make a plan, a to do list, this is what works best for me. I like this quote. <BR> "Hope smiles from the threshold of the year to come, <BR> Whispering 'it will be happier'..." <BR> &#8213; Alfred Tennyson <BR> This is a good way to look at things. I hope you all have a prosperous New Year. I wish nothing but the best for all my... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 21:16:42 EST Planning the work and working the plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573731 I am getting ready for the post holiday return to a regular routine. Do I think I have been successful in weight loss this holiday break? Not really. Do I think I gained any weight back? I hope not but I am also not weighing in until after the New year. I know that my weight has probably fluctuated all through the month and I feel that by weighing myself I will only make myself feel bad. Also as this is the first year since my mom passed away, I needed to deal with that and if I push to... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 11:19:51 EST Merry Christmas Baby! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571631 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l704604355.jpg"> Wed, 25 Dec 2013 12:54:50 EST Hope you had a Cool Yule!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570380 We celebrate Yule here in our house. We welcome the return of the sun after the longest night of winter and we burn the Yule Log. We sing carols and drink the wassail. Gifts are given and love expressed. We share the stories of the year thus far and remember those that are only with us in spirit. They are kept alive through our stories and memories. When you ask someone to describe somebody, "Tell me about Joe" They do not give you a physical description. "Well he was about 6'4" blond... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 09:40:44 EST Whew tis the season to be hectic! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568540 Man is it crazy right now, presents to finish, and wrap - cards to mail, like today! So much to do. Trying to fit healthy eating in this schedule is presenting a challenge and I find myself resorting to old habits of fast food. Going to make a healthy lunch my priority today. I figure one healthy meal at a time to help me find my way. <BR> <BR> Here is a picture of the tree we built on the wall. Me and My 13 yr old son!! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l6691648... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 08:12:36 EST Finished with the decorations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566891 So we finally got the house completely decorated and it is looking good! Kids were great! I made this awesome tree for the wall with my son and the power tools! Here it is in all it's Yuletide glory!! <BR> Or not since I cannot get the photo to load, oh well it is late and I will get it going tomorrow. Tue, 17 Dec 2013 23:20:23 EST Relaxation and memories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565457 I think these two items need to go together better for me this year. This is the first Christmas without my mom. I need to relax and allow myself to feel whatever it is comes through. Acknowledge that feeling and let it go. Don't fight what my brain or body is trying to do, if I need to take a quick minute and have a cry, that is ok. I did yesterday after we put up the tree. I decorated this year with all of the ornaments that my mom passed down to me. Some are from her childhood. We ... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 08:32:21 EST Why I am trying! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564064 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1969672967.jpg"> <BR> These guys are why I try - they are why I get up everyday and stay motivated to succeed. I will be healthier, I will be strong and I will meet my physical goals. Sat, 14 Dec 2013 08:34:22 EST Holiday cookies without guilt! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5563447 We are in holiday cookie making land this week and I will not allow guilt to sabotage me into overindulging or being miserable. I will have a few cookies and adjust what I eat for the difference. If this is truly to be a lifestyle change, I will need to adjust to life. There will be cookies and I can eat my fill, or I can have a few and give the rest as gifts. That is the plan this year. Bake like we always do, but they go away! I own my own business so instead of buying corporate gifts... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 09:18:19 EST Winter breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562748 I am sitting here with my daughter and contemplating my breakfast choices. I am planning on a warm bowl of Irish Oatmeal with brown sugar and raisins and dates. She had Greek yogurt with granola. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1236560042.jpg"> Thu, 12 Dec 2013 09:02:47 EST Home is where the leg rests http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561917 Had a good time with my daughter yesterday in the park. We hiked for 5 miles and her school group learned a lot about the Cuyahoga Valley Watershed. I got home and was sore but expected a little bit of soreness because I hiked 5 miles in the snow and ice. But as I warmed up I realized that this was not just some soreness. I did some damage. My knee was swollen and aching - so I applied RICE and watched some TV while making snowflakes with the kids. Took motrin and propped it up in my be... Wed, 11 Dec 2013 08:16:04 EST Hiking for the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561100 Today I will spend in the Cuyahoga Valley National Park with my daughter and her class. We are part of a 4 day outdoor education program. I will hike at least 5 miles and it is not warm here in Ohio. But I will bundle up and make the best of it. My lunch and snack will be all organic and vegetarian. I am looking forward to sharing this adventure with my little one. Today's picture is of snack so I will post a pic of my lunch and snack later. Tue, 10 Dec 2013 08:09:20 EST Best Part of Winter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560295 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l455043279.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am not a winter loving kind of gal. I do not like to be cold. I am a fan of snow if I do not have to be in it. I like to sled ride for about 15 minutes. I like to hike in the freezing cold about that long. I do not like warming up my car or scraping off the ice. Why do I live in Ohio? Four words. I love my husband. He loves it here so I put up with it. But truly I would be happier down south or on an isl... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 08:10:42 EST Best part of the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5559700 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1708946068.jpg"> <BR> In the mornings, Belladonna crawls up next to Taylor and snuggles. She does it every time she get the chance. <BR> <BR> Sun, 8 Dec 2013 11:09:56 EST To Do List http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558953 Today's item is a to do list picture. I have so many to do lists, I have a daily reminder list, a list of 100 things I want to do each year. I have a winter, spring, summer and fall bucket list each season is made new on the first day of that season. I have project to do lists and a list of books I want to read each year. I also have a fitness to do list. I have fitness goals for each week, month and a yearly goal as well. So what to post, what to post? <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Sat, 7 Dec 2013 09:57:38 EST DIY forever! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5558223 Today's picture is of something homemade. Now what to do what to do?? I am a passionate DIY'er. I love making things with my hands, gardening, painting. I skipped home ec and took shop in high school. Love Love love power tools! I also like to paint as in making art, the background photo on my page is a family tree I painted and then had everyone put their names on felt leaves to add to the tree. So I am not sure what to post. I think it will be my last completed project. I have sev... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 08:52:13 EST Winter Beauty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557405 Today's photo was supposed to be of winter beauty which makes me think of snow. We have none right now. So this is last March. And I know it will be back this weekend. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1163784877.jpg"> Thu, 5 Dec 2013 08:10:12 EST Morning madness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557400 The picture for the fourth of December is supposed to be a morning pic. I can only laugh as I realize that I did not take one because my morning was nuts yesterday. Here is one of my favorite morning pics. It is my big dog Belladonna watching the sun rise. She sat out there and watched it the whole time. Once it was up she came to the door and barked to get in. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l46918114.jpg"> Thu, 5 Dec 2013 08:07:45 EST Day 3 Tradition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555876 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1584722585.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Day 2 was a picture of tradition. Our holiday lighting festival has been a tradition in our hometown for decades. We welcomed Santa went to the town square and sang carols as a community and light candles to show our unity. Now it is so important to show we are united. Our politicians want to keep us apart so we do not look at what they are doing. We need to stand together, to help each other and love one ano... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 11:04:12 EST Day 2 restart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554843 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l13822179.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is for the picture of the day I am trying to keep track of and to motivate me to get out more with the family. We spent hours outside yesterday with the parade and walking around looking at the lights. Hubby asked if I wanted to just drive and look at the lights and I said no let's park the car get out and enjoy them. Mon, 2 Dec 2013 08:09:15 EST December 1 sounds like a good place to restart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554013 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1043309875.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am uploading this image and I am tracking this for December. I did not do gang busters in November, lost 10 pounds overall, did not gain any back. But I was not as consistent as I need to be to make this change forever. So It is a reboot time. I do not have Instagram, but I will post my photos here and my goal for December is to lose another 10 pounds and to be outside and active at least 3 times per week. ... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 09:33:07 EST Day 17 - TGIT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550488 Last day of school for the children. They are glad! I am too - I am blessed with really good ones, and I enjoy their company and miss them when we are apart. I look forward to school breaks. Heading in the cold today to the office. Got a ton done yesterday here at home, all the home office work, all 8 loads of laundry. More cleaning. Taylor went to the dentist and got an extraction like a trooper! Not really sure what my plan is for fitness today. I may just play on the wii fit with t... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 07:43:23 EST Day 16 - playing hooky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549714 So I am not really playing hooky from work, but it felt good to write that. I am a small business owner so I do not ever really take a day off during the week. I am working from home today with reports, year end analysis, etc. I have to pick up kids today and take them to dentist appointments. I have pre holiday housework to get done and want to try to stay active as possible today. I have a timer that I set when I am going to be on the PC a lot for work. It is set for 30 to 60 minutes ... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 08:20:53 EST Day 15 - Baby it's cold outside! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549067 Yesterday, had a great day with the kids, we super cleaned the house as we watched a Doctor Who marathon and the 50th anniversary is on the DVR. We would watch a show and then I told them ok now we have to get up and move that same amount of time! So 30 minutes of show equals 30 minutes of moving. We did this all day. It was great - Got the ceiling fan taken apart and deep cleaned and put back together, moved all the furniture in the house and cleaned under the pieces. Dusted all the cei... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 12:07:07 EST Day 14 - Back in the saddle again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5548322 Wow - I got hit with a doozy of a sinus thing but I am breathing through my nose again and back on line and getting on track. Had a good breakfast, and have a fun day planned with the kiddos. Sat, 23 Nov 2013 10:07:54 EST Day 13 - Ugh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5546675 I feel like I got hit in the head with a hammer. Seriously clogged sinuses. Had a headache since yesterday. Well the benadryl did not work last night, other than clogging me more. I am going to try the Mucinex today and see if it helps. Thu, 21 Nov 2013 07:14:49 EST DAY 12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545884 I am glad I posted yesterday. I think it will help me in the long run. I am a work in progress and I know that I can only succeed if I know all of the when, where, how and whys of this journey. I cannot figure how to be who I want to be if I don't know who I am now. Wed, 20 Nov 2013 07:59:53 EST Day 11 - Trigger warning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5545014 I think it is time I had a good honest talk with myself. I was sexually assaulted in 1990. I was 18 and at a friend's birthday party. I had too much to drink and wanted to go lay down and sleep it off. I was assaulted by a friend. Someone I had known for 2 years. Someone who sang in church choir with me. Someone I trusted. Now when this happened, I told no one. I blamed myself, I shouldn't have worn that skirt, or drank that much or went and laid down alone, etc, etc. It took me 10 ... Tue, 19 Nov 2013 08:18:10 EST Day 10 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5543345 Missed a few days there - got it back together, I am not proud of the way I hopped off the calorie wagon and ran screaming in the fast food train, but I know what my triggers were and where to go from here. I waited too long to go grocery shopping, and then when there was nothing quick to fix for dinners or really enough things to plan a balanced meal, I just went the fast food route. I also did not plan my lunches at all. Now I have went shopping, meals are planned, and cupboards are full... Sun, 17 Nov 2013 10:14:59 EST Day 9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539885 Calculated calories after yesterday, I was way over, but I am still writing it down. I think that helps even if I do not get the best choices through out the day. Going shopping this weekend to get fresh veggies back in the house. All canned or frozen right now. Want fruit. all out of frozen fruit too which I add to cereal in the am. I can do this, I can make permanent changes. Small goal right now is 42 pounds by my 42 birthday. I can do it. I can Wed, 13 Nov 2013 08:10:51 EST Day 8 - think I am getting this figured out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538999 I am going to post in the morning to discuss the previous day, I just think it is the best time for me to blog. At night it is so hectic with wanting to spend time with the kids, after homework, dinner and all that. No time to spend sitting at the PC. So yeah that is the plan. Went over calories yesterday, I know exactly what happened. Our business was robbed Sunday, $500 worth of items stolen. I stressed out and ate. I caught myself and took a walk, but I had already done the damage. ... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 08:38:28 EST Day 7 - one week down!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537254 So the plan for today is to keep moving. I have a ton of household chores that will keep me on my feet most of the day. I had another non scale victory today - when faced with the large raspberry danish that Robin purchased at the craft fair yesterday - I opted for tuna (really wanted tuna) for my breakfast instead. Much better choice and turns out that the danish was not so great anyway! Yee haa! Sun, 10 Nov 2013 10:56:18 EST Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537251 Ran around all day yesterday - had a non scale victory - we were running around getting errands done, working at the shop and helping at a craft fair and I did not pack any lunch, did not see an effective way of packing for 5 of us and not knowing exactly where I would be come lunch time. So when we were faced with the what to eat for lunch decision - I vetoed Burger King and opted for Subway. Choices are much better for lunch there than anywhere else. Sun, 10 Nov 2013 10:53:40 EST Day 5 - http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5537235 Well that was not successful - lol I know this is a process of creating a habit! I will keep it up. Sun, 10 Nov 2013 10:36:37 EST Day 4 - trying to get it done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535595 So I am trying to keep this consistently updated daily for myself. I think it should be the last thing I do online before shutting down the pc at night. Going to try this for Friday's Day 5 post and see how that works. Fri, 8 Nov 2013 08:51:22 EST Day 3 feeling alive again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533861 Flu is still making me a little weak, but I am not as bad as yesterday. Last night was much better also. Weighed myself yesterday and it said I was down 7 pounds. Total shock! Hope it is not just from being sick. Wed, 6 Nov 2013 11:34:22 EST Day two TKO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533860 I was laid low Tuesday by the flu - came out of nowhere Monday night. Slept for 10 hours - never sleep that long but the body must have needed it. Got the Nyquil and the Sudafed working there magic to get me back on my feet. Wed, 6 Nov 2013 11:32:58 EST Day 1 of a consistency streak http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531612 I am starting to keep track of the days I log on to SP to help encourage consistency. If I let myself get complacent the weight is going to creep back and no more will be gone. Going to pack a lunch today so the fast food does not call my name and getting offline now to eat breakfast. Mon, 4 Nov 2013 07:49:20 EST Raspberry picking is a serious workout! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5479871 Went berry picking with the family today and feeling it - up and down and moving through the fields will give you a nice workout. Can't wait to make wholesome jams and desserts from the fresh berries. Sun, 8 Sep 2013 20:37:39 EST So I biked 5 miles! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478495 Tuesday! I biked 5 miles with the family! I am so thrilled beyond belief and I am also my own enemy because I have been battling with overeating ever since I did the ride. I am not wanting success? Do I feel I do not deserve it? Do I think that since I am more active I can eat more? I need to do soul searching and figure it out, but for now I am still logging food, good, bad or ugly. I also joined a challenge off sparkpeople called the Get Moving challenge. I get daily emails with ide... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 10:14:29 EST Added another 1/2 mile to the ride yesterday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5422120 Despite a muscle strain in my right arm, which in the past would have put my on the injured list immediately, I added .5 mile to my weekly ride. I am looking forward to getting to ride farther and farther every day!! Mon, 15 Jul 2013 16:56:54 EST Hope you had a great weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414105 I did! Hung out with some of my friends, went to the West Side Market, had a great time showing my city, Cleveland, off to my friends! Had a great early dinner at Grumpy's - one of the local joints that are doing food right! Haddock was delish and not deep fried so yea! Spent Sunday getting ready for the concert we are doing in August. Sang for hours and made some nice music together. I love singing and it just brings a joy to my heart. Had to be reminded to stop and eat. That was a fi... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 09:30:49 EST Happy Independence day!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410983 Hooray for Freedom!! Hope everyone has had a great day and enjoyed time with friends and family. We have had a great day and a good time. Exercised with the kids again today and it was just a fun time, no worries about working out. Also excited about my food intake today. I stuck to the plan and did not go over my limit on anything! I loved everything I had to eat today and did not feel like I missed out on anything! Grilled steak, baked potato, corn on the cobb. What is not to love! ... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 21:47:31 EST Despite some really stressful events today went well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5410102 My hubby's godfather is in the hospital, work was crazy busy and we had a lunch celebration planned for my daughter. I did not eat through my feelings. I had a bottle of diet soda. I have not buried my feelings in ice cream, I took a 10 minute walk to clear my head. My daughter requested Chipotle for lunch - we went and I got the tacos. No sour cream, no cheese. Still delicious and not blowing my calorie budget sky high. All in all feeling successful at the end of a long day. Wed, 3 Jul 2013 22:51:04 EST