SHYDANDELIONS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SHYDANDELIONS SHYDANDELIONS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ SparkPeople Hiatus: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5680516 I haven't been on SparkPeople for the last few weeks or so. I really wish that I was committed to losing weigh, but I'm not. However, my doctor recently brought up my weight and said that he wants me to lose a 'few' pounds. I don't really know if I'm capable of it -- I'm just so overwhelmed and depressed that losing weight doesn't seem like a priority. Before you suggest antidepressants, realize that I respond poorly to them. I start taking Celexa towards the end of January, when I came back ... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 20:47:43 EST Personal Victories: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634571 Yesterday was a HUGE day in my world. I went for a walk (running every so often). This is huge because I haven't been able to exercise because my anxiety went through the roof at the thought of leaving my house. I won't lie and say that I wasn't anxious (I was) but it felt good. I chose a terrible time to go for a walk. The private school in my neighborhood let out around the time that I went, so there were tons of kids walking to their houses and parents golf-carting to pick their kids up. I... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 17:18:47 EST Morning Revamp! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633417 I feel as though today is going to be THAT day for me. That day where I decide to be healthier and stop making excuses. Why do I feel this way? This morning my dog woke me up barking. He refused to shush for a good hour and a half. As soon as he shushed, the cat started screaming because he wanted outside (he isn't allowed outside, but he thinks he is). I had plans to sleep in and relax but my animals obviously didn't want to oblige me. I tried to sleep but it is a little hard to get rest whe... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 12:00:40 EST BLC 21: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622334 A couple of years ago (2012) I participated in a BLC -- it was a great tool for me. Getting to know people in similar situations to myself was comforting; I felt like I could conquer all of my weight and then some! Unfortunately, after losing 50 pounds, I hit a massive road block. No longer was I content with counting calories and working out; I wanted to micromanage everything. I would spend days counting every single morsel that went into my mouth. I bought a food scale and tried to compute... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 13:46:44 EST Hello, again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594935 It feels surreal to be back at my starting weight. When I was dieting/working out I vaguely knew it was a possibility. There's a girl at work who dropped almost one hundred pounds, just to gain it all back (and then some). I'd always sworn to myself that I would at least maintain my weight. Hah. It's easy to pretend like you're maintaining your weight whenever the weight slowly creeps back on. Now I am back at my starting weight, a little more than ashamed at what I've let happen. <BR> <BR>... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 16:03:20 EST