SHORTSLADY's SparkPeople Blog SHORTSLADY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Been a while but Hi! Guess what - I put on a size 14 and yes I wore a size 20 hanging off me. Yep, I started a size squeezing into 20 and believe me I squeezed. I had no problem with the size 14 that fits comfortably. I weigh less here at home but the doctors office adds five pounds, so I chalk that up to clothes and shoes. <BR> <BR> Divorcing him hurts a great deal. Instead of talking to me and confiding his emotions and sharing his thoughts has left me tossed aside. He decided to cheat, he decided to smoke... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 15:30:16 EST Just FYI I am loving my apartment and it has a few flaws like the downstairs lady knows where I am and when I flush - ROFL but that is apartment living. She has been so nice and I like the gal across the hall too. <BR> <BR> My cat was given some cat food in which I tossed into the ben and mixed it up before I let her try it and now I am picking through her food and getting HERS out. She will not eat unless I do. So off to the store and I will donate this MIX back to somewhere. I am sure there is a ki... Mon, 7 May 2012 12:21:19 EST not much on my weight but I think I can save a little face.... I have weighed in at 185 lbs without my back brace!!! Yeah me! <BR> <BR> I been trying to relax since I have messed up my back when I feel off the couch sleeping the first night I moved into here. I have been having mixed emotions and well to tell you the truth...I still cry over HIM.... he hates me so much and all I did was to say... your not allowed to tear me down! your not allowed to be mean! and today my daughter wants to spend time with me - only I am going to my best-est friend in the... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 19:37:49 EST Little this and that I am in my apartment - it is upstairs and things are starting to look like a place I can call home. I got what I needed, which when the time comes I will explain that. I thought I wanted to post a blog of my first night in here but my issue was trying to pluck at the tiny keyboard on my phone was not an answer I wanted to deal with. <BR> <BR> The Lady that let me make payments held a couch and other items that I really do need. I am very grateful that I can not say I never thought I could m... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 15:36:28 EST Wish me Luck... I am hoping to sign for my apartment tomorrow. I have to figure out my medication purchasing, and renew most of them. I need my home address to complete an item that I am looking forward for. I saw on TV where a guy shot his wife who was living at her mothers and then turned the gun on him. I am frightened. He looks to others like a charmer and I am a lier. He even states how I am lower than the dirt below a horse's hoof and denies it like I am making things up. He swings moods and he forces ... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 22:50:39 EST Make up makes a difference! I'm still working on finding me a apartment. I've have in knots trying to find a space for me. I have not said a word to HIM but he had my daughter tell me that I have mail. My Angel went over there and collected it. I'm waiting for the minute he gets served the divorce papers. I know once he gets those he's going to do something. I am guessing since when I broke up with him many years ago, that is what he did. I'm still in the shelter and I know I am being protected here but in the back of m... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 17:37:12 EST I think I missed a day.. I am busy. Today I turned into DHS the book of how much TP do you pull off the roll? Kinda booklet for DHS ( department of Human Services). I hope to get some type of food stamps and help so I can get into housing. I feel like the life train is running faster than what I can keep up with. I have to many dice tossed out to keep track of at a craps table but I have hopes for this one place. I would be happy there than the other places that I have seen. I hope I am not judging those looks like a... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 23:18:43 EST Day 3 - Start the paper flow I still am not having a good day, He started calling and I started shaking. My daughter called and told me what he did to the kitchen. I never thought about her because she was in on the abuse until last night. <BR> <BR> I started working on paperwork to find a place to move into... I have hopes for this one apartment but I dunno. I hope and pray that I do get it. <BR> <BR> So I breathe and take each moment one at a time. Mon, 27 Feb 2012 08:18:05 EST Day 2 The river flows Today I woke up stiff as a board all over including my fingers. So exhausted that I missed my 1am meds. I mean I slept hard. Today I cried most of the time and I am going to make this short but I can not tell you all how things are going because I am a mess inside. Still saying I cannot believe he was not at my side in the hospital the three times I was in and yet telling me the night before a major surgery. I can not believe that is has turned into hating so much because I can not work. and ... Sat, 25 Feb 2012 00:50:53 EST Day 1 - Took the Leap Of Faith As some have been reading, I have a controlling, mean, demizer, and I could continue but I want to move on. So my weight is 196 again but I have been stressed out so my BP was 168/108 at on time! he always yelled and tried to make me feel so low and I'd cry and be so emotional drained by the time it hit 3pm. <BR> <BR> So here is what has been happening, I have been packing up the most I could get and got a storage unit and even tho I just had head & lower fusion on my back plus the blood clo... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 22:22:28 EST Hold your breath and Pray! I am on a great role of packing and my Bestest friend and I talked, she was thinking what I was thinking. then end of the month I should be at the womens shelter. but something must be done before I go and well the BIG one will happen tomorrow. HE will sign some documents saying what I have packed and taken was with his permissoin and What is still here (ex:Christmas stuff and things in storage that can wait until I get a place of my own, like my kitty, Saddie! This will be interesting to see... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 20:29:23 EST Just want to say.. Thank you for everyone that is supporting me in here. I did as our founder has done and in Paint I created my own pictured Goal board. So I will keep that with me no matter where I end up. I wanted to share that I am almost ready to go into the women's shelter and Rod is still being very Volger and mean to me. It's like he forgot how to "talk" to me. And my grown Young Adults are playing his games, my daughter is still very mad at me and when I cracked a comment my Grandfather always told me ... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 14:41:26 EST I forgotted something speacial happen to me last week My Haven sent Angel took me out for a fun time at the hair salon, I'm sorry to report there will not be any more critters hiding in my brows - I mean yuck but my hair looks awesome and She gifted me this look in the mirror gift for each day I can grin and feel a bit more happier. Thanks to my Angel Cynthia!!!! <BR> <BR> Still no answers from him and I am working a tad at a time to pack! to get out of here. Meanwhile he has taken off to go be with his big brother so they can "have fun". Not m... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 16:30:36 EST Hanging in There I am the library waiting on a friend to work on her taxes. Kevin took off on me even when I asked him to take me to quilting and then picking me up after it. This morning he comes in saying I have other things to do, like take his friends infant to the doctors, which ok if that needs to be done fine but he should have told me he had plans. So crying in my bed this morning Jane texts, you wanna go quilting and boom, we both was getting ready and headed over there until 3pm. Jane is working on ... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 16:19:32 EST hello Sparklers =] I thought that was a cute title. Ok I am managing my weight at the same pounds as last week.... so I now need to adjust something but I am afraid to do that because of the meds I am on for my Seizure disorder, head and back. Sigh So I accept the same weight as a sign of well at least I did not gain more =] I wish I could lose the 145 lb guy that still yells at me everyday over really nothing. I think he has a habit and loves it! it's called Kick the dog! I accecidently (ok spell check is not ... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 09:05:57 EST ok he removed me from his facebook I woke up today with a good mood only to have HIM remove me as his wife in facebook. I think he's trying to hurt me in every way he can. God help me to continue to be stronger. He wants me to just leave and O yeah keep paying on crap. well I am not going to do that....he makes almost five time than I do with me on Disability. I am going to see a lawyer today and see what they have to say. I am so exhausted already I just need a nap before I go. He keeps threatening me and yells all the time. ... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 12:02:06 EST I'm in desprate trouble and I don't know what to do I have been with him since high school. I did break up with him because I did not want to marry shot gun. We were engaged and planned to married after college, only to have my son come in the wrong order of the plans. So we did I graduated in my Junior year and here I sit unable to work and him screaming at me that he's contacting ADAM and he's going to have my horse sold (no I do not ride him yet, it is a goal to heal and then ride him) Killer is my husband has been riding him and my daughte... Wed, 25 Jan 2012 22:11:54 EST wipe out.... Okay after all that I am going through and been treated. Something happens to my husband, he woke up running for the toilet and was having a discussion with the Toilet Bowl God.... I mean he was in there forever. I brought him water and petmo and helped him be comfortable on the couch. I check in on him and I did some refills and watched him become a four year old whining kid. Now you guys are probably saying WHY? he does not help you nor was he by my side in the is because I ... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 20:12:54 EST Great Night.... I am still here with Cynthia. I finally got to sort though some papers that I had piling up and I well this should tell you HOW tall the pile was, my Doggies certificates and his Last bill of his life was in there. I had a dream last night and he was there for me to hold and he just kissed the snort out of me. Then when I had to give him back it was our Vet, who just passed last Thursday that I returned my pup to. I woke you happy. I woke up with both socks knocked off and my leg, it looks gr... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 09:10:25 EST Yeppie I here I am at my Greatest best est BFF home for the weekend, no stress from THEM back at the house. <BR> <BR> So I am going to have a sweet weekend =] About time I need this. No condescending, demeaning, or really poor attitude til Tuesday! Write more later Fri, 13 Jan 2012 17:46:20 EST Do not touch! OK today was the worst day ever! I mean everything to touched, spoke to and just looked at it blew up in my face. I lost my Primary Doctor cause he messed up the QTY of a prescription that helps me to not puke after I eat cause of the YEAR he wrote on the script. He refuses to fix it! Well, I still have my blood clot and I'm am hurting so bad I mean I'd rather have triplets. <BR> <BR> I am THANKFUL for my Bestest Friend, I truly would not know what to do! PS got a Chocolate Basket and tried ... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 21:01:13 EST Fun with Martha yesterday I was taken out of this house, I had my appointment to check to see why my vision was blurry with dark spots but they are chalking is up to my INR being 5.8 and so the blood flow was not normal in my eyes. things in the eye problem has calmed done since my INR is getting to the numbers they want. Those who don't know I have blood clots from ankle to hip on left and knee on right leg. It happen after my second surgery last month. <BR> <BR> So Martha took me out to get new glasses, ... Sat, 7 Jan 2012 13:47:50 EST Well I did it Today was nobody tell me anything and nobody giving a dam - look I am not trying to have a sorry me thing but I sure don't like be treated like a lower than dirt, not worth the air I breathe either. I get talked to like I am always wrong and of coarse, everything is my fault. <BR> <BR> I have a cat, when she was a kitten I called her Saddie and everyone else calls her Baby Girl, now Saddie kisses me and wakes me when I have bad dreams and she holds my hand and I in turn rub her ears and pet ... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 16:45:03 EST To much to deal with but I hope to breathe through it all Ok where have I been - read on then you sill know <BR> <BR> Had First Surgery Occipital Nerve Rectomy things seamed to go well there - I even had a funkier haircut to even out the buzzed spot, yes it was so visual. I tried to take it easy and thought I was doing great - in fact I have only had two Migraines since this surgery but they were so intense it was lose my last three days meals. I never do well with antistatic anyways so my eating was so minimal and I am on Zofran just to keep thing... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 13:09:11 EST My Pet Story, <img src="">Dunkin Powder Donut was born in September of 2000. He was a small little guy with a very fast tongue that thawp'd you while you walked by. He loved to give kisses whether you wanted to be bathed or not. He enjoyed cuddles, sleeping, beggin at Papa's feet for Popcorn, gave the chippy's a run for their money, and got taunted by a certain squirrel that knew Dunkin height restrictions. He was a Maltese to others but my baby! My li... Sun, 20 Nov 2011 09:33:38 EST October 7, 2011 Dunkin I have a stressful, I mean bad news to share. I had a little buddie, my Dunkin Powder Donut Baby Numkins Woofer Munson pass away last night within hours of learning he had cancer that he shown no signs of until this past week. Doc an I thought it was his usual allergic reaction to the pollen this time of year. but when he stopped eating, I panic'd and somehow knew in the back of my mind, he was in a bad way. i kept telling him your only 11, I kept saying please do not leave me. I'll write mor... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 13:32:41 EST Get to the Point The phrase of the day from the famous shorty. Today he wants to get kitty food at a large store. At first, walking through the parking lot, I was holding his arm, like he was my Knight and I was his Queen. Then when we got in there I held the side of the cart. In front of everyone that was around, he turns, stops, grabs my arm and says your slowing me down. At this moment in time I froze and no words could fling from my mouth. He states Get to the point! and I could only ask and what is your... Tue, 4 Oct 2011 19:29:26 EST Tuesday September 20, 2011 Well where have I been. I promise a long story will be shorten up. I am at the library trying to keep cool as this annoying guy taps and makes noise - grumbles in head. My daughter's horse got out twice. well cut off the long raspberry vines and turn on the hot wire - duh, nobody is listening to me about that. the van still has a flat so going anyway, not to mention the gas it is lacking....I am stuck. <BR> <BR> I have been quilting and making progress and need to figure out why I am being s... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 15:54:40 EST Tuesday Spetember 13, 2011 Well guys my blog must have gotten closed instead of posting so here is the jist of waht it said. <BR> <BR> Monday was great to go to bed, I wok up 6:59 bright eyes and ready for the day. I had Physical Therapy for a long time than usual. I was kind of stiff from the activity I did yesterday, go figure. My son is home and he yells and calls me names instead of talking to me, and lets see. Oo my cat fell into my soapie tub while I was in it and she sank. So I am worried about her. She not hap... Wed, 14 Sep 2011 14:42:14 EST Monday September 12th Doing ok as far as what I have been doing. I worked on my FlyLady CJ and I feel I have a great place to print it off and get FLYing (Finally Loving Yourself) I and excited but in the back of my mind I really am afraid that I will back peddle here. So I really want this and I just need to boot camp myself! for Spark and Flying! I am still reading the Spark Book and Reflections. <BR> <BR> Quilting was not touched yesterday, I think I needed a break or something. I did attack the carpet where m... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 10:06:08 EST A bit more, what my Phrase of the Day I keep saying "A bit More" on things like picking up around the house, quilting my Aunt's top, Logging in my Food that goes over and needs to come down on my Calories. It;s kinda like saying babysteps and I'll get there but somehow I say A Bit More! <BR> <BR> I went ot a friends house to quilt for the past two days, I find it hard to concentrate there. At least I figured that out yesterday with all my mistakes I kept doing. I think I ripped more than sew'd. lol But I need to get out of the h... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 09:54:35 EST September 06, 2011 Wow really it has been this long - lots to say and do but for now lets just say I am looking at losing my weight now because my meds have changed to allow me to do it - my anti seize med would not let me lose the weight - so let's begin, again! Tue, 6 Sep 2011 21:28:48 EST Feb 28, 2011 Losing Great Grand almost Lost myself - Quilting Retreat Interesting things to write about. First, I have a happier hubby lately... I take it, don;t get me wrong. Just he's I dunno. Second, My daughter is not moving out, so that is going better between us - it was touch and go between us that I just let it go. I had to just back off and say fly away girl. But then she has just wanted to be home and realized being outin the big world means she has to PAY for things - lol. Third the boy, his girlfriend has dumped him, I think she regrets it and has c... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 11:29:10 EST Sweet New Year be Nice =] I am at the farm with my Dad.... Not with him, he choose to stay back there and be with his friend, that guys partner, his brother, my daughter and her boyfriend. He didn't even want to call me, he told our daughter to text me and she told him no way, do it yourself. So he called and was like.... your wasting my time attitude. That is what it felt like to me. <BR> <BR> Dad and I watched the ball dropped and then went to bed.... but that is OK.... I love my Dad and I want as much time as I c... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 13:18:37 EST I am home I've been home since Friday and I'm loving it =] My Dad, my dog Dunkin and I are chilling and having a great time , I think. Yes I have been hitting the bathroom HARD with cleaning and I only have the tub to do - we all know that takes a day or so in itself - lol. I wanna get the carpets vacummed and I wanna get the kitchen cleaned up too. We are excepting guest over on Christmas Day =] <BR> <BR> Rod has called me once - yelling at me over a ER bill for his daughter, saying I should have not... Wed, 22 Dec 2010 09:27:59 EST okay I'm losing starting to think that I can do this... was simple really but I have to control myself better. I weighed in at 195...I want more - lol <BR> <BR> Hubby is well, his usual Kick the Dog, only he says I do nothing except sit on couch all day, actually one day I was outside for the entire day moving tree Stumps and roots and filling in holes and just because I didn't do what he wanted, like a puppet on a string, I still did nothing...I can not change what he thinks or does but I can keep on keepi... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 15:30:47 EST OK here I am Today I have a few issues. Health, I hope i am not coming down with my daughter's illness, yuck. Second, I'm trying to get the android apps from this site to my phone. I got the recipe one but the other one is not working - grumbles. <BR> <BR> Home: the boy is very RUDE TODAY. I hate being told to "shut up" and talked to like he does. Daughter is recovering from her bout that docs don't know exactly what she had. Hubby will come home grumpy, has a test from work and he can be nasty after tho... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 12:29:04 EST Life is a trial but I keep breathing Let's just say I have a lot to type with little time. I hate my meds for keeping me FAT and yet I need them for seizure control, what do you do? <BR> <BR> My daughter is sick and I spent last night in the ER so I am nursing my back and her. <BR> <BR> I had an RF done on my nerves to cut them to stop Migraines, so far I get up and don't know what to do since I can function somewhat. now if it lasts I'll be very happy =] <BR> <BR> ok I have to get and get things done, bye Mon, 6 Dec 2010 14:15:07 EST 3:30am Yet another fun filled evening that I can not lay on my back from the pressure and spasms. I refuse to swallow what I know will knock me out - maybe I should so I can get some rest but I see the new doctor in the late afternoon. So I will wait until then and keep trying to lay down. <BR> <BR> Family: Hubby came home and yelling all over the place, it was so typical of him to be this way. frankly I'm sick of having to do what he wants me to do when he wants me to and how he wants it done. I g... Tue, 14 Sep 2010 03:52:21 EST Ruff Nite Well I tried to go to bed four times. Each time my lower back cramped up and the pressure was so intense that both my legs hurt so bad no matter what I did. I felt like my knees and ankles were stiff and shooting pain right out of them. I turned to each side and used pillow under and all sorts of directions to relief my back. Finally I got a crack and figured out what to do to get some rest. <BR> Then I woke up with a migriane in my right eye back threw my neck and down my shoulder - com... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 15:12:32 EST Re Start my Spark Today I sat down and shown my MIL this website, I have been seriously thinking about losing weight and getting myself back on track. Well AGAIN <BR> <BR> My head is aching and I refuse to take anything for it. My tummy needed Petmo after I ate, I'm still having hinney issues, grrrr and my Back slipped while I was mopping but hey, what am I to do? <BR> <BR> D & T came over yesterday and HE got my dishwasher working again and my Laundry room light working again - Doing Laundry in the dark SUC... Mon, 6 Sep 2010 14:42:07 EST Looking to improve... My weight has gotten out of control. So I'm going start again, only have have no scale but I know what I weigh - lol and I don't wanna go over 200 and I need to be back down to 135 would be good - lol Sat, 13 Feb 2010 14:36:53 EST 01182009 Today we went to Lansing to help a friends MOM with her frozen water pipes... it was a long ride and alot of cars in the ditch and one upside down and one on it's side but I trust my hubby on his driving. I had fun there talking with her and what not. When I got home - my right eye hurts....grrrrrr <BR> <BR> So no church today but I made it last week, was nice =] ty for taking me. <BR> <BR> Well I have no water to the barn - it froze and while filling a bucket in the tub - I broke the cold ... Mon, 19 Jan 2009 00:51:02 EST January 1st 2009 Blog to share my good points of the day with my fellow Sparklers. <BR> <BR> I got wonderful gift cards from my Foster Mom, Bonnie - Thank You =] so Hubby gathered us up and drove to Grand Rapids and enjoyed a meal at Russ'. I even had a pie... yumm but I was so full i couldn't eat it all... poor pie had to be eaten by my son. <BR> <BR> When we left we went to Menards and the family did the usual, act like I'm crazy and treat me like crap...Why can't I enjoy looking at this or that - why can... Fri, 2 Jan 2009 02:09:19 EST