SHOES17's SparkPeople Blog SHOES17's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Does it make a difference... <BR> <BR> This blog will be all over the place because that is my current state. I have been struggling for a long time. I felt myself sinking and suddenly realized I had forgot how to swim. Since my bout with the stroke like thingy three years ago I sometimes feel like I wake up having to start all over. <BR> <BR> I left Sparks kind of suddenly. I am not sure why. I think part of it had to do with the fact that it made it ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 00:35:13 EST 11 grams to much FAT Shemomedjamo In desperation to get my calories in for the day. I finished it off with Milk. I went over my fat limit by 11.Looking back over my diet the way to fix the problem is to switch to skim milk. I borrowed Milk from my mom and if I had looked before I leaped I would have realized the amount of fat I was adding. Milk is my best friend. It is sweet for the sweet tooth and it provides the protein I need without the fat, if I... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 00:36:15 EST HERE I am I weighed in at 237 today. A weight which tickled me pink on 4/13/12 the day I renewed my wedding vows. Those are the vows I chose to keep. Weight ..well not so much. Tue, 24 Feb 2015 00:42:03 EST I came here poor I left here rich Life in a nut shell with pieces of my life missing. <BR> We have now been without a toilet or bathtub for nearly a month. Overall life has been good. I have continued to exercise as much as possible to take care of the stress. My weight is dropping and I am maintaining my clothes size despite the fact that I should be doing more strength training. I miss everyone here but I am slightly overwhelmed. We now know the source of the water problems WE ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 07:12:30 EST Where I have been <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Meet Faye My Emergency Foster- Was scheduled for gas chamber Friday am. <BR> Arrived tonight in Florida. Currently sleeping with her new mom in her furever home. More to come. I am 18 minutes late with my stats. (It was worth it) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Meet Dolly Excuse number 2. We were at the vet last night after... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 00:26:23 EST Shemomedjamo (Georgian) Meaning I accidentally ate the whole thing. This is probably the reason we should never drink or eat directly from the carton, bag or box. This is also the reason I should divide things I intend to share before actually indulging! A Special thanks to Happy for introducing me to this word. What's your word??? <em>9</em> <em>4</em> <em>20</em> <em>40</em> <em>29</em> <em>28</em> <em>39</em> <em>192</em> <em>15</em> <em>46</em> OR <em>15</e... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 00:18:37 EST BE Encouraged <em>9</em> <em>30</em> <em>4</em> <em>33</em> <em>198</em> <em>213</em> <em>194</em> <em>277</em> <em>368</em> <em>492</em> <em>34</em> <em>357</em> <em>414</em> <em>355</em> Be encouraged!! <em>30</em> <em>4</em> <em>33</em> <em>198</em> <em>213</em> <em>194</em> <em>277</em> <em>368</em> <em>492</em> <em>34</em> <em>357</em> <em>414</em> <em>355</em> Be encouraged!! <em>30</em> <em>4</em> <em>33</em> <em... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 22:41:29 EST Today I watched an advertisement Part One & Two ? Answered I was foxed into watching an advertisement I had avoided for years. It is always on my Aol mail. The Five Food you should never eat. I was looking up why soy was bad for you on Sparks and up it came. It didn't take me long to figure out what I had done, but I decided I would finally listen to the whole thing. The five foods they list are Orange Juice from Concentrate, Whole Wheat Bread, Genetically Altered soy, Genetically Altered Corn, and Margar... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 00:04:00 EST Note to a friend ~ I found myself reading through a friend's blogs tonight, because I needed encouragement. We are still Sparks friends. However, if you look through our Sparks logs it will appear that suddenly our connection just disappeared. That tends to happen as we travel through Sparks. We keep moving and sometimes we forget to look back. Despite the lost of this connection not a day as gone by that I haven't thought of her in some way. She has brought me such hope and light. I h... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 03:13:55 EST A special Shout out!! <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> <em>215</em> A Very special Shout out for Kayslynn! You may have noticed you have seen more of me this week. Kayslynn tried to help me with my font last week. I have had ... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 15:35:35 EST My life <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 4 Aug 2013 05:12:20 EST Being more My dear and long time friend Silver has taken over a Sparks team. The group is small but close. The original leader died a while back and the team became private for a brief time. Silver has opened it up for everyone to enjoy. The group is a spiritual one. We read each others blogs and there is a chat tread for support. I feel sure she will continue sharing uplifting thoughts and support her team mates. Come join us in our journey. Inspire and be inspir... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 00:13:00 EST I am here I havent really been here in a long time. Recently I realized how much Sparks means to me. I have taken for grant it being a leader and a team mate. They say you dont miss something until it is gone. It is true. I apologize to those that I have let down. If you are out there barely hanging on, dont give up. We all get lost at times and at one point or another we all get forgotten. Our actions negative and positive impact others. Sometimes it takes tough love! Th... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 23:07:37 EST Smile Just Smile now Thu, 18 Jul 2013 23:59:26 EST Catgeni Cat Genie 102- Someone said I was being tested. Well I have faith and I will not be broken tonight! I had just gotten the bed made and the hallway cleaned. I was ready to go get the new scoop free box when I heard it. The dreaded three beeps from the Cat Genie. In three years I have only heard them once and I was able to fix it in a couple of hours. I dropped what I was doing and off I went armed with all the cleaning tools from the kitchen sink and a wooden chop stick. I love a reason to rep... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 02:01:12 EST It was almost like a SONG well Songs I went to the YMCA today. When I usually go there I seek out my favorite trainer. We went to high school together and he doesn't seem to judge me despite the 100 extra pounds. However, today was different. I didn't have my I pod i.g my armor that says, "go away."I was in the shame mode. I was also in the I don't want to be here mode. So that meant the upstairs track. Then I saw the elliptical. I haven't been fit enough to ride it ... Thu, 30 May 2013 21:36:54 EST Sizing it up! Well here I am playing the size game! A couple of weeks ago I was able to easily into a 16. Today I am sitting here in a 20w. I am not sure exactly what is happening. My weight has been flipping back and forth in a seven pound range. I just don't understand. I wore one outfit that I wore in a real heavy phase today. It just made me kind of down that it kind of fit. I guess what I forget is it has a drawstring and is big in the legs. It is time to get rid ... Wed, 29 May 2013 23:08:26 EST How do you eat over 13,250 calories in one day I was so excited. I have had a rough week. Today I was back on task. Excited to see the results of the day and wanting to make sure I was honest. I typed in the food and hit review. Imagine my shock when I saw the results. <BR> <BR> Calories 13,250 <BR> carbs 742 <BR> fat 1,021 <BR> protein 548 <BR> <BR> The guilty little miscalculation, <BR> <BR> Planters Creamy Peanut Butter, 125 tbsp 11,875 500 1,000 500 Mon, 6 May 2013 20:29:07 EST water and a smile I am trying to get back on track. I am sitting here downing a seltzer water mixed with a Special K protein pack. It is interesting. I don't drink soda and ...well the list of things I dont drink is definitely longer than the things I do. I think I like water, seltzer water and a rare black coffee best. Skim milk is fairly good it packs the protein minus the fat. <BR> <BR> <BR> Okay I didnt feel at all like smiling, however a friend suggest... Mon, 6 May 2013 17:45:17 EST The walk Tonight I went with mom to the local cancer walk. My mom and I did the mile fun walk. My mom had a total hip surgery in October. Everyone was shocked as she made it in 28 minutes. We all are grateful and we are blessed. Thanks to God for everything we have been given <BR> <BR> <BR> Tonight we walked in honor of cancer research and of Tiffany's parents who were in a very bad wreck this week. Please join us in prayer or sending posi... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 22:37:38 EST Accomplishments!! <BR> Looking at the big picture. Yes I have. Yes I can! And Yes I will! <BR> <BR> Someone ask me yesterday how much weight I had lost. I started to say a little over 50 pounds. Then I really thought about it and found myself having to correct my answer. I have lost a little over 60 pounds. Actually I have lost 62 pounds. I am amazed! I have lost 62 pounds! I am comfortable in my body. I just hope I am not to comfortable. There is s... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 11:51:53 EST The downward ride Part two Lol When I was thinking of the downward ride I was thinking of weight going down. Although we are losing weight and have so many positive there will be times we hit bumps. Sometimes weigh lost is an uphill battle. However, I too agree the important thing is to be consistent with good habits we have formed. Once we learn the tricks that work for us as individuals we can use that as a framework. There still will be straightaways and bumps but ... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 08:52:43 EST The Ride downward We have all been on a roller coaster of some kind at one time or another. I always end up feeling sick. When I reach the ground I swear I will never do it again but I do. My thought is maybe we need to realize we can control our own coasters. Find your strength this week. Prepare your weight for the downhill this week! You can!! <BR> <BR> <BR> I wrote this blip in a team message board. I am always afraid of the downhill. Change impacts us good and bad. Now I am like WOW !... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 00:31:31 EST Sparks Coach I really loved my trial. The structure was amazing. It gave me a sense of direction that I needed. In addition to reminding me of good habits that had become sloppy, it also gave me some new springboards. I have decided to leave it off at this point because Spring gives me a chance to get out and moving! If you haven't tried it ... do! Mon, 8 Apr 2013 21:03:25 EST Please Help I respect your opinion and I need your advise I am on day eight of my seven day trial. I not sure why this has happened. I am trying to decide if the benefits are worth the price. I know it will give me more Spark points, but what exactly are the really benefits? Today it gave me a new way to spice up my exercise. I have known along that was the thing to do but I haven't gotten back there since I was sick. Will this be what pushes me forward? Will it make Sparks easier by putt... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 21:22:54 EST Easter - Every morning is Easter from now on...the past is over and gone! <img src=""> My walking Buddy Chloe and myself taking goofy pictures. <BR> <img src=""> My other walking Buddy Keeper <BR> <img src=""> Our Family Easter Photo <BR> <BR> I am really excited Easter represents a new beginning. <BR> <BR> I am excited about weigh in this week. <BR> <BR> It felt great to have the ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 23:55:53 EST I feel the need, the need to streak. I have been a wheel addict when it comes to Sparks. I dont know what is but I love spinning the wheels. I have been to Sparks everyday this year. The things I do when here changes from day to day. I usually try to log my food, log my exercise, huddle, read all the blogs I have subscribed to, and post to chat tread for team lemon. Spinning the wheel and giving goodies is just something that has just always happened. I have never had to think... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 06:20:51 EST Part of the picture from Back to the future... <img src=""> Aug 2007 <BR> <img src="">2010 I am in the picture. <BR> <img src="">Nov 2011 <img src=""> Dec 2011 <BR> <img src=""> April 13, 2012 <img src="">June 20... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 22:33:02 EST Back to the Future Back to the 80s Recently I have been looking at the large picture. Usually I try keep my glasses off and access where I am in the process from a very close distance. I have had a lot of lost, the fact is I tend to walk in a cloak of darkness. Since my birthday I have kinda been in a closed circle. Things have been at a standstill. I know I keep saying that, but it really is true. I still have a Christmas tree in my living room. (Picture enclosed)... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 22:54:53 EST Who becomes your mirror? This morning I woke only to read the most amazing blog! The person writing it described what I would call mirror examination fear. The point we reach when we are afraid to look into the mirror, because it might actual answer the question, Am I alright? <BR> <BR> This week I was at the gym when I saw the trainer out of the corner of my eye watching me. He is someone I have known since 5th grade, probably even longer. All of a sudden I wo... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 07:11:01 EST A title I am entitled I have seen lots of good ideas Weight Watchers, Liquid Diets, Sugar Detox exercise and many more... <BR> And they are great for some people. I tried Weight Watchers and I even lost 30 pounds using it in the past! Then they changed to the point system and it failed me. I failed it! I manage to stay in my point range and even with adjustments I started gaining again. I probably could love a liquid diet and really enjoy it! Sugar Detox wo... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 23:55:49 EST Measure up How did you measure your success today?? <em>192</em> <em>7</em> <em>301</em> <em>362</em> <em>292</em> <em>388</em> <BR> <BR> <em>192</em> I started out this morning looking at the scales. They can be such a comfort. They also can be a coach reminding me to kick it into gear. <BR> <BR> However, I have found other ways to measure my successes. I have really started looking at icons. <BR> <BR> <em>347</em> Every time I spin the wheel I... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 23:52:03 EST ARE you ready to Give UP?? <em>227</em> <BR> <BR> When you least expect it something will happen and you will realize there are all forms of progress around you. I have been in the dumps since November. On my Birthday I weighed 200. Today I weighed 211. I have been fighting fluid for about three weeks now. Today was my moms birthday and she wanted to go shopping. I was less than excited, but it was her birthday. We dashed through the Womens section... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 23:19:26 EST What to do... <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> <em>250</em> What can I do to help motivate you today? You deserve a cheerleader. <em>306</em> <em>194</em> <em>68</em> <em>374</em> <em>292</em> <BR> <BR> I am here praying and wishing the very best for you today. This is our journey. Let's define it and make it awesome. <em>381</e... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 17:09:15 EST More There is a commercial not even sure what is about, but the bottom line is more is better. <BR> <BR> I always worry about not giving enough. I seem to keep struggling to give more. However, there is always someone that seems to do more. Today I realized that maybe more isn't always the answer. To much of anything can become overwhelming. Sometimes it is the little unexpected things that make a difference. <BR> <BR> I look at my Facebook ... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 03:06:07 EST Ramble WOW! I felt so alone. I woke up feeling like my wagon had ran off without me. I think I found it at the bottom of the hill. Now I am going to rebuild it. <BR> <BR> I gave up peanut butter and cookies for Lent. ( Both of these became a real problem around Christmas time. ) I usually try to give up three things for Lent. However, this year I got stuck on the second and never found a third. I knew the third should be cake, but I just coul... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 10:25:42 EST What will you give up I decided to give up Cookies, and Peanut butter for Lent. Thu, 14 Feb 2013 03:54:24 EST Finding a purpose and a blessing <img src=""> <BR> <BR> “An early-morning walk is a blessing for the whole day.” <BR> &#8213; Henry David Thoreau <BR> <BR> Yesterday as walked I saw a little girl playing with a pink balloon. She let go and up it went. As I walked it traveled with me. I wondered if it had a purpose. <em>179</em> <BR> <BR> May each of you find a blessing and a purpose today and everyday. <em>88</em> Sun, 10 Feb 2013 14:58:48 EST Are you ready? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My babies continue to motivate me. They are like the postal service. Through rain and sleet we have moved it. I started by taking them on set walks and now when I am not motivated they remind me we need to do this~ Thu, 7 Feb 2013 19:05:40 EST Happy Birthday ~ I miss you ~ <em>39</em> <em>46</em> <em>39</em> <em>46</em> <em>43</em> <em>30</em> <img src=""> Fri, 1 Feb 2013 22:33:02 EST My encouragement has paws! We started out for our early morning 1/4 and the girls took off! They ran the whole way! I can't wait to see what happens on the afternoon mile! The lab is 17 and the collie is 6.5 years! Wow talk about inspiration! The file is to large! I will have to re-size it! Then you can see them! Thu, 31 Jan 2013 09:45:33 EST My encouragement has paws! We started out for our early morning 1/4 and the girls took off! They ran the whole way! I can't wait to see what happens on the afternoon mile! The lab is 17 and the collie is 6.5 years! Wow talk about inspiration! The file is to large! I will have to re-size it! Then you can see them! Thu, 31 Jan 2013 09:45:33 EST Sometimes we need a little dressing! We are on a journey. Sometimes our journey takes an unexpected turn and we lose our way. Then suddenly for whatever the reason we regain our direction and continue. It doesn't seem to be any one thing in particular that redirects us. In fact, there is nothing anyone can do and there are no words that can change what has happened to us. Something inside us just has to spark again and motivates us to continue. This something has to come from within u... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 06:34:36 EST Back Tracking I spent this morning back tracking. I have been walking minimum of a mile a day for as long as I can remember. Most days it is three miles a day and then make ups. ( After all I promise you and me three miles a day and I have been faithful.) Some times I have even walked as much 12 and 13 miles a day to make it up!! However, along about the end of the November I just stopped tracking my fitness on Sparks. I have absolutely n... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 06:25:58 EST Here I am... <BR> Subject: Want to know Me? <BR> <BR> <BR> Getting To Know you...requires information <BR> <BR> Change all the answers so that they apply to you. <BR> <BR> Have fun and be truthful! <BR> <BR> 1. What color are your socks right now? What socks? <BR> <BR> 2. What are you listening to right now? Cats <BR> <BR> 3.What was the last thing you ate? Naked Juice <BR> <BR> 4. Can you drive a stick shift? I sure do! <BR> <BR> 5. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My mom ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 20:48:30 EST Simply SPASTASTIC Made me think! One of my good friends is a counselor. A large portion of her work includes helping children with attachment issues and fears. She uses unique techniques to reach her clients such has incorporating therapy dogs into their sessions. She is really super kewl! I often think of her when I see the advertisements for A Dog With a Blog. <BR> <BR> <BR> Not to long ago she was talking about how people who have lost a lot of weight are the really the absolute worst... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:29:03 EST The Goodie This morning I received a goodie. I LOVE goodies! However, this goodie and its message touched me. <BR> <BR> First, let me tell you as I checked my email I left all the goodies unopened on purpose, because I knew I am totally exhausted. I am the typed person that has always dreamed of having people over for the holidays, but this year was the first time I actually did it! Now I am physically and mentally in need of recovery. Pictures ... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 06:40:03 EST A little Good news.. Headline News can be simply defined as report of recent occurrences. Tv and newspapers report from these occurrences from a distance. While other mediums like music, books and movies remind us that news is personal. Regardless of whether the news is a headline or simply the recent occurrences in your own life, it is personal and it is important. <BR> <BR> The dialog and songs below are constant reminders for me that all news is personal to someone and we shouldn't forget tha... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 09:45:53 EST Paws to enjoy Enjoy the season. (Paws) to enjoy the sights, sounds, and smells of the season. Everyday is a gift that is why we call it the present. <BR> <BR> Meggie ( Golden Chow) is very sick. She is no longer eating and isnt able to see or hear. Warm thoughts and prayers are most appreciated. <BR> <BR> May God be with yall. Hugs and paws~ Mary, Meggie, Chloe and the Cats! <BR> Tue, 11 Dec 2012 22:31:36 EST A few days away and a little off track The internal clutter removal took a backseat for a couple days. I ended up decorating the outside and power washing the sidewalk. The wreaths are hung and manager scene planted. Pictures to come. I also took a couple days away from logging food. <BR> <BR> I have spent a lot of time with Meggie and Chloe. Meggie is 19 and isn't doing very well. She is having trouble walking and is now refusing her snacks part of the time. I am thinking a vet visit in the morning. <BR> <BR... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 22:30:05 EST