SHINNINGSTARR's SparkPeople Blog SHINNINGSTARR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Good things in my life I need to appreciate more the good things in my life, so here is a list of things I am so grateful for: <BR> <BR> 1. My wonderful daughter <BR> 2. My husband who is there when I need him <BR> 3. My little dog who loves me unconditionally <BR> 4. Living in a place that is so easy on my body <BR> 5. Going on medicare in September and saving $1,000 a month in medical costs <BR> 6. Being physically strong enough to enjoy playing tennis <BR> 7. My dear tennis friends <BR> 8. SparkPeopl... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 19:08:44 EST Still not better I have been struggling all year. As I mentioned in my post in May, my docs made a mistake with my meds when a new drug they prescribed was binding with my thyroid medication and making it unavailable to my body to absorb. In May they changed the timing of taking the new medication, but I still wasn't feeling better. No word from the docs except to keep on waiting till the end of August for a new blood test. <BR> <BR> Last week I had blood drawn anyway because it is just so impossible fo... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 14:45:23 EST Out of Touch I am not recovering as fast as I had hoped from my medication mix-up. I am not sure if I am depressed or my blood levels are off. I am getting a new test in a few weeks. <BR> <BR> As a result, I am not even getting on the computer to check out my dear SparkFriends. So sorry. <BR> <BR> Mon, 28 May 2012 11:23:45 EST Drug interactions not good I have been feeling worse and worse for the past few months. My SparkFriends can see that I have not even been here bloging and supporting our team. I just found out that in January my doctor prescribed Welcoll (for high cholesterol that comes from being hypothyroid). He and the pharmacy failed to tell me to separate my thyroid dose and Welcoll dose by at least 5 hours since the Welcoll with block the absorption of the thyroid. We all know what happened next. I started feeling worse and ... Wed, 2 May 2012 17:34:46 EST 5 more days in the "Land of the Thin". <BR> I am sounding like a broken record. I am so unhappy right now with myself. I am exercising a lot, but seem to be eating too much because I am not loosing weight. I just spent another 5 days is the world of the "Thin". My husband and his motorcycle friends went to Death Valley. I drove down in a car with the wife of one of his friends. That is a 10 hour drive down (split into two days) and a 10 hour drive home (split into two days) and one day there. During that 5 day time this wo... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 19:51:08 EST In the wrong world I have just spent two weeks in the world of the thin and fabulous and feel like a toad. <BR> <BR> My husband and I went skiing for a few days with fellow ski club members. We all share a common kitchen and food. I had no control over my eating and didn't want to make a fuss about my "separate" food. They could all eat pasta, bread, liquor, etc. You get the idea. I did avoid the liquor because of my Atrial Fibrillation at high altitude (liquor is a trigger). It was more difficult to ... Fri, 23 Mar 2012 12:24:01 EST Getting Ready for Christmas <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My daughter and her new husband are not going to be with us this Christmas. Only once before in her life have we been apart at Christmas and we all hated it so much we made extra effort to always be together on the holidays. <BR> <BR> Now that she is married, we must share her with her new family. <BR> <BR> We are celebrating tonight after work. It will be short, but fun. <BR> <BR> Now, while the pie coo... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 14:07:30 EST I have escaped! To my Spark Friends, I am back. <BR> <BR> I was so diligent in loosing weight for so long (for me) in preparation of my daughter's wedding. I lost almost all the weight I had gained during 2010 when I was so ill. <BR> <BR> It seams I really fell off the wagon just before and since the wedding. I know that this is common, but I am so disappointed in myself for wasting all that effort. I was nowhere near an acceptable weight and needed to continue my efforts. I did continue to exercise... Fri, 16 Dec 2011 15:21:23 EST Heading Home: Three more days on the road with TEMPTATIONS OK. I am now heading home. Three more day s on the road. I must be diligent. I put away my scale this morning to leave here at out condo. I hope to arrive home with the same weight. I have been adding 3 pounds to my weight here because I think this scale measures light. Wish me luck and strength. <BR> <BR> Tue, 21 Jun 2011 12:49:23 EST Road Trip Temptations My husband, my dog and I are on a three week road trip. The food challenges are enormous as you all know. I are really trying to make good choices. Breakfast at McDonalds = granola yogurt and fruit. Lunch at Wendy's = grilled chicken sandwich w/ no mayonnaise but lots of lettuce and tomatoes. Dinner at Golden Corral.....that was a disaster. I made turkey sandwiches with an apple for lunch the other day. That was good. I bought some REAL food at a grocery store and put it in the ice ch... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 20:10:37 EST 1600+ dinner on Memorial Day OMG.. Usually when I go off my diet, I don't track my food. I did for yesterday and boy was I shocked. What seemed so innocent was so very bad. <BR> <BR> 2 margaritas <BR> 2 hot dogs (only one with a bun) <BR> Chili on the hot dogs <BR> and worst of all.....lots of Ruffles. <BR> <BR> OK, now back to work today. <BR> <BR> I fruit, yogurt and 1/2 cup granola for breakfast. Now I am off to get some exercise. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>260</em> Tue, 31 May 2011 13:05:23 EST Scared to look I was so happy yesterday when I reached the bench-mark of loosing ten pounds. THEN.....last night we went out to dinner with friends from out of town. I was determined to do well, but my appetite got the best of me. Good thing...I did not drink. Bad thing...I ate the whole thing. I didn't want to get depressed so I am waiting a week to weigh again and confirm my loss. <BR> <BR> I was determined to be good today and get lots of exercise, but my friend got hurt on the tennis court and I ... Fri, 27 May 2011 19:01:30 EST It is a good day I am so happy to finally be making slow progress with loosing weight. I still must be diligent. Even the slightest mistake and it shows up on the scales. I still am amazed that it takes not eating 3,300 calories to loose a pound, but if I splurge and eat an extra 500 calories, an extra pound shows up the next morning. I guess that is why I shouldn't weigh myself every day....Oh ya, I should eat the extra 500 calories too. <BR> <BR> Progress is progress and I like my new direction. <... Wed, 25 May 2011 10:49:09 EST I know what the problem is........ As I was in the shower this morning, I took time to read the label on my <BR> shampoo bottle. I am in shock! The shampoo I use in the shower that runs <BR> down my entire body says "for extra volume and body"! Seriously, why have <BR> I not noticed this before? Now I understand why I am so "full-figured!" <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I am going to start using "Dawn" dish soap. It says right on the <BR> label "dissolves fat that is otherwise difficult to remove." It pays to <BR> read the warning ... Thu, 19 May 2011 12:49:23 EST One day at a time Every day is a challenge and I feel like every day I fail at the end of the day. I must get back to doing some kind of activity right after dinner so I stop eating. I exercise in the morning so I am pretty tired the rest of the day and by evening I am shot. I need to find something to distract myself from eating. I usually say...go to bed early, but then I wake up at 2 or 3 and face the same problem. If I want this so bad, why do I keep making decisions that drive me away from my goal... Tue, 10 May 2011 10:52:13 EST My Mother of the Bride Dress <BR> Here is my dress being worn by some beautiful thin model. It will look just as good on me! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 7 May 2011 19:15:50 EST Mother of the Bride Dress I am pleased that I finally started loosing weight again. I am so scared that I can not keep this going. I know that 1 or 2 pounds lost a month is good.... Especially in comparison to GAINING 1 or 2 pounds. I just want more. <BR> <BR> The dress I ordered to wear in my daughter's wedding in November arrived. I ordered it one size smaller than I wear right now. I should have just not ordered it. I now feel so much pressure and am depressed. I tried it on. Of course it was too tight. ... Sat, 7 May 2011 11:59:32 EST Renewing my vows I, ShinningStarr, do solomly swear to treat myself as a priority. I promise to be kind to myself. I promise not to say bad things about myself in my head. I promise to eat properly so that I can achieve happiness in my life. <BR> <BR> I am good. <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> I am strong. <em>23</em> <BR> <BR> I am capable. <em>208</em> <BR> <BR> I am worth the trouble. <em>90</em> <BR> <BR> <em>141</em> Thu, 21 Apr 2011 01:52:58 EST I Knew I Felt Bad I kept telling my doctors that I felt bad and they said it was just me and not my thyroid levels because my blood tests showed me as hyperthyroid. This time when I had my blood test, I waited to take my thyroid replacement hormone pill until after my blood was drawn. What a difference. Normal TSH as you all know is .4-4.5. I tested at 29.7. My doctor called today and told me to double my dosage of thyroid replacement pills. I always felt my dosage was too low and that my blood tests were... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 01:44:57 EST Wedding Dress Shopping Now for the FUN blog. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went wedding dress shopping with my daughter. On the way to the first shop she asked me if I thought her Dad (my husband) would mind if she asked us both to walk her down the isle. I had secretly wanted this for so long. I was so very happy. I am sure my husband would have no problem with this. He is a very modern guy and realizes that our relationship is very close. <BR> <BR> The woman who runs the first wedding dress shop was not there w... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 16:18:10 EST I love your comments It means so much to me to have you all respond to my blog. It really does help me keep it all in perspective. <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I can feel your "Spark Hugs" over the inter-net. <BR> <BR> <em>141</em> Thu, 24 Mar 2011 14:50:05 EST Coming Back I have been in a bit of a emotional slump lately. Too tired. Even my sister is calling and I don't call back. It just seems that anything personal is too hard. I have been skiing twice and was very disappointed in my ability to ski. What with the elevation, cold and general weakness, I was unsteady and slow to react in a sport the requires strength and quickness to perform safely. I believe that is what sent me over the edge to my current state of sadness. I love to ski, it is the clos... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 12:04:30 EST Not a good day yesterday! I know I shouldn't complain when I am on vacation, but here goes. I have become a bit obsessive about getting exercise every day. My husband and I are taking a 10 day vacation skiing at lake Tahoe. We got here fine on Tuesday. Wednesday I took the day off while my husband skied. I need to acclimate to the altitude because of my asthma and atrial-fibrillation. (Want to avoid those emergency room visits). Yesterday was my first day of skiing since last year when I had my second emergency... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 11:30:01 EST A Superbowl Promise to Myself I promise to myself that I will be kind to me today. <BR> <em>220</em> <BR> I promise to myself that I will try to make good food choices at the party today. <BR> <em>45</em> <BR> I promise myself that I will forgive myself for any "mistakes" I make today. <BR> <em>480</em> <BR> I promise myself to have fun even if I am not eating. <BR> <BR> <em>281</em> Sun, 6 Feb 2011 13:53:36 EST Wedding Planning The wedding plans are going great. I had lunch today with my daughter after receiving an email that she was upset and crying about the arrangements. She is very worried about the financial stress this is on my husband and I who are both retired. We have told her the money is hers no matter what she spends it on. We hope any excess funds from what we have set aside will go toward their first home together. She had a plan where they could still have all the family and have close to half th... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 01:54:28 EST Is that Hope on the horizon? I am almost afraid to say it, but I am feeling a lot better since going off the medication that was making my muscles sore and weak. The second good thing is that I was able to pick up my thyroid replacement medication that I wanted to change to. It was only $6.12. How cool is that? I can't wait to start taking it tomorrow. My friend that takes this medication said it would take a few weeks to feel like my old self, but any improvement is good. <BR> <BR> I am down 4 pounds from my hig... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 19:26:51 EST Thank You For Your Support Thank you dear Spark Friends for your support. <BR> <BR> After many phone calls and chasing down my test results I got the lab to re-send them to my doctors. The doctor I saw yesterday called last night around 8:PM and said that she got the tests and had re-thought my medications. She agreed to put me on a drug that I wanted to try instead of Levothyroxine or Synthroid. She is getting the dosage and will call the RX in today or tomorrow. I wanted to try this different medication becaus... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 12:51:24 EST Doctors Disappointment I had my much awaited doctor appointment today. Several days before this appointment I called the office to ask them to make sure they had ALL my blood tests. When I arrived today, they only had a small portion of the doctor ordered test results. The office staff tried for quite a while to get the results but couldn't get them from the lab. The blood was drawn on 1/8 and results sent to them 1/10. As a result, my visit was unsatisfying since they did not have my levels for TSH, T4, th... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 21:20:23 EST Hospital and Insurance Billing Problems I just finished spending 4 hours on the phone between the hospital and insurance company from one of my emergency room visits in April last year. The hospital is trying to bill me the difference between the full cash uninsured amount and the allowed amount from my insurance company. This bill was paid in full back in April and now I am being billed over $2,200. The insurance company said this is called "back billing" and it is not legal for the hospital to bill me for this and I can't get ... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 18:31:56 EST Blood Test Today I just had a blood test done today. I am having my T3 tested as well as all the other markers. I wrote the test onto the blood order myself. I am wanting to get my medications changed and I wanted to see what was going on there to convince my docs that I really do feel bad. Two weeks to my doctor's visit. <BR> <BR> <em>141</em> Sat, 8 Jan 2011 12:29:01 EST No New Year's Resolution My gift to myself..... No New Year's Resolution. Instead, I am making a wish for myself for 2011. <em>499</em> <BR> <BR> I want to be myself again. I want energy again. I want my body and mind back. <em>403</em> <BR> <BR> My recovery from Thyroid issues is going very slowly. I am tired and depressed most of the time. I am forcing myself to get lots of exercise, but I feel good only when the endorphins are running. After that I am back to being overly tired. I think that is why ... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 21:44:53 EST Good News Last night my daughter's boyfriend came over to ask my husband and me for her hand in marriage. He was so nervous. She loves him very much and was hoping that he would ask her. He said the sweetest thing. He said he loved her more than he has ever loved before and that he couldn't imagine spending the rest of his life without her. He proposed to her this evening at sunset at one of their special places. I don't know too many details yet, but it must have been great. <em>337</em> <BR>... Thu, 23 Dec 2010 23:44:22 EST 5 hints on how to look good in a photo-Re-do With the holiday season so close at hand, I know we will all find ourselves in front of a camera and wanting to look our best. Here is a repeat of a blog I posted earlier this year as a refresher. <BR> <BR> <em>446</em> <em>445</em> <em>460</em> <em>444</em> <BR> <BR> I know that those of us who struggle with our weight just hate it when someone takes out a camera. I have a few suggestions that may help..... <BR> <BR> 1. Pull your shoulders back and gently suck your stomac... Thu, 16 Dec 2010 22:54:49 EST Every Morning Every morning I wake up with the clear eyed intention of eating right for just that day. I often make it to dinner time and consistently fail after that. I know that the evenings are my most stressful time and I can't get out of the house because it is dark and I can't escape the stresses in the house. These are all excuses. I know I look for comfort and energy in food. I will sit there so tired I can't read and look for food to build me up. We all know how that goes! <BR> <BR> So, o... Thu, 16 Dec 2010 11:19:59 EST I just slipped a little! I did fine with breakfast, but got too hungry before lunch and ate too much. I have now had almost all the calories I get for the day. I hope to redeem myself a little with a USTA tennis match tonight. I will run around a lot and skip dinner after. Off to bed early again to save eating time! <BR> <BR> I must make it through today. <em>234</em> Fri, 10 Dec 2010 18:16:32 EST Still tired and eating too much Well, after all my new enlightenments about my sister, I am still eating like there is no tomorrow. It is like I think the world is running out of food and I need to eat it all before it is gone. This is NOT GOOD. <BR> <BR> I know my chemistry is still very messed up and the docs are trying to get me straightened out, but I MUST stop eating every thing I think about. So, here is my commitment for tomorrow morning... <BR> <BR> I will take my medicine (still on 8 different RX) and eat a ... Thu, 9 Dec 2010 00:44:45 EST I am glad I made that blog entry I have spent today thinking about what I wrote in my last blog and was so glad that I had discovered these feelings and to get them off my chest without just calling my sister and yelling at her. She will never know what her actions have cost me. I do not believe she meant to hurt me. I think it was all selfishly done to build herself up and to, in some weird way, protect herself and her family. All that stuff happened so long ago. She would just say "get over it". Actually, she would ... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 19:58:06 EST I had an epiphany yesterday! I had an epiphany yesterday! <BR> <BR> I know that we all look for the reason why we struggle with our weight while others have it so easy. As always, I was thinking about this yesterday and had an epiphany. I love my sister dearly, but she was 2 1/2 years older than me and when we were growing up we both thought a lot about our weight. She had a weight problem. I now look back at our childhood pictures and see that I did not have a weight problem. Being older, my sister was our fearle... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 12:22:46 EST Lost Entry I just wrote this nice long blog entry and when I clicked the button to "Post Blog Entry" it failed and my message was lost. I am not up to re-writing it now even if I could remember all I said. I will try again later. Next time I will copy the text before I "post" just in case. <BR> <BR> Hope all of you are well out there and enjoying holiday season. <BR> <BR> <em>141</em> Fri, 3 Dec 2010 14:29:31 EST I am back now I have been gone, busy and out of control for a couple of weeks now. I am coming back. I miss my Spark People time and support. <BR> <BR> I was sick for Thanksgiving and therefore missed a trip to my family gathering where our daughter and her boyfriend were. I spent the entire day on the sofa sleeping, blowing my nose and taking Airborne. There was no food in the house so my husband went to the store and picked up a roasted Turkey Breast, potatoes, canned cranberry sauce, peas and a p... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 21:40:47 EST Now comes the hard part! I have been on my new renewed effort program for 5 days. I have lost 4 pounds. (You don't see it on my chart because I gained 15 pounds since my second surgery in June and I need to loose all that to have it start showing) Now it is going to get hard. The weight will start coming off slower and I will start to get bored with my food. This is always when I fail. I am determined to see this through this time. <BR> <BR> I am planning turkey tacos tonight. My husband will get a tortill... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 19:58:39 EST Totally confused, but still determined I went to see my GP toady and came out more informed and more confused. It seems I am hypo-thyroid even though I am so tired and achy. Apparently, one of the heart medications I am taking is responsible for making me achy and tired beyond the other two I take for my heart that make me sleepy, weak and tired. She adjusted my medications again and I start over trying to feel better. <BR> <BR> This is HARD! <BR> <BR> I am also starting anew my commitment to loosing weight. Even though I ... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 21:12:24 EST Coming out of the dark I am coming out of the dark. <BR> <BR> I have been very down lately. Mostly because I am so tired and because I keep gaining weight even though I think I am eating right. I went to the endocrinologist last week and received another blow. Instead of my blood testing hypo-thyroid that would explain how I feel and what is happening and offering a solution, I tested hyper-thyroid and my doctor reduced my thyroid replacement hormone. This really sent me into a tail-spin. He explained that ... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 13:39:46 EST Too pooped to pop! Boy am I tired. It just keeps getting worse each day. Tomorrow I go to the endocrinologist and get my body scan and blood test results. I know the body scan came out OK, but am hoping for help with blood test results. I am so very tired all the time. I played tennis for a couple of hours today and can now hardly keep my eyes open. I used to be able to play 3 to 4 hours with no problem. <BR> <BR> Yawnnnnnnnnnnn. I am going to bed. <em>102</em> Tue, 2 Nov 2010 20:49:05 EST Every day is a new start It seems life I am getting farther into each day before I blow it somehow. Last night I made it to 6:30. Then we went to the Olive Garden for dinner. I haven't been there in 12 years. I ordered well with the Pasta e Fagioli soup and salad. OK.... Then they brought the bread sticks. I had three. I checked out the calories on the nutrition guide and found that each stick has only a little over 100 calories each. That gave me an extra 350 calories. But oh so yummy. <BR> <BR> So, toda... Sat, 30 Oct 2010 12:16:10 EST I must be getting better! My insurance company has provided me with an personal advice nurse via telephone since I was going through so much this year with my thyroid cancer and heart problem with Atrial Fibrillation. I must be sounding much better, because she has suggested that maybe I don't need her any more. This has been such a nice program. Good job Blue Shield. But........I must be getting better! I will miss my phone buddy, but know that I still have my spark friends to see me through. <BR> <BR> <em>18... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 20:17:26 EST I am starting to understand To all my dear Spark Friends who have responded to my cry for support last week: <BR> <BR> I don't know how I could go through all this without you. I am starting to think that my expectations have been a bit high. I thought that as soon as my surgeries were healed, my medications started and getting lots of exercise that I would be not only back to normal, but a little better because I would not be hypo-thyroid any more. That is not the case and I am so grateful the hear from all of yo... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 12:17:23 EST I am getting scared now I am post surgery (once in March and Once in June) and post radioactive iodine treatment. I have gained 15 pounds since my second surgery. I am going to get my first blood test post RAI treatment this week. I hope the doc will up my levopthyroxine. I desperately need some help. I am tired and getting fatter each day. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Sat, 23 Oct 2010 20:26:57 EST Tired of being tired. I am not doing too well. I am so tired. I am keeping up on getting exercise, but when I get home I crash for the rest of the day an nothing is getting done. That makes me feel bad about myself. I am tired of being tired and fat. I know I must eat less and move more. I drink my water. I don't know what else to do. I guess it is in God's hands. <BR> <BR> Wed, 20 Oct 2010 01:31:10 EST Now, back to eating right! I gained a lot of weight while I was on the low iodine diet. I lost a lot of strength while in isolation and am struggling to get my fitness back. <em>315</em> <BR> <BR> I need to get back to eating right. <em>267</em> I started again today. I am 7 pounds up from when I started my new goal weight loss. Up 15 from my recent low a year ago. I am determined to get back on track. <em>258</em> <BR> <BR> I CAN DO THIS! <BR> <em>249</em> Mon, 11 Oct 2010 22:44:54 EST