SHINING_ON's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SHINING%5FON SHINING_ON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Commuter Biking Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6413252 I currently weigh over 300 lbs and I'm very out of shape. But for 2 years, I've wanted to start using non-automobile transit to get to and from work/school. This summer, I finally embarked on the walk+bus combo after learning that walking 2.2 miles a day one way wasn't something I could do easily or efficiently. So, for a couple months now I have been walking to school(+bus) a couple days a week. Because of where I live and leaving after dark, doing the same trip home isn't safe -- especially... Wed, 20 Sep 2017 15:57:39 EST No time for fear. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402816 I'm realizing that fear is a huge barrier in my life. I mean, this isn't really a huge revolution: fear holds all of us back at some time or another. Yet, somehow I've let fear stop me from way too many things lately. It stops today. Here are the things I'm going to stop letting fear (including fear of PAIN) keep me from: <BR> <BR> 1. Exercising regularly. <BR> <BR> 2. Biking to and from school. <BR> <BR> 3. Finishing my PhD. <BR> <BR> 4. Embracing new things, people, activities, habits,... Tue, 22 Aug 2017 17:19:08 EST I haven't updated in a while but that doesn't mean I haven't been sparking. :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6353933 So, April has been a good -- but rough -- month for me. My PhD defense is looming (mid-summer) and I'm working around the clock on that. But I've been finding more and more ways to incorporate daily workouts into my life (I'm back to swimming laps! <em>237</em> ). <BR> <BR> Most importantly, my SO and I have found that we love taking evening walks together with my (well, now our) dog. It's just so wonderful to be able to walk again. Anyone with mobility issues knows what I'm talking about.... Wed, 26 Apr 2017 16:55:35 EST Virtual Journey Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6334352 Okay, so I didn't meet my 4,500 steps yesterday. I petered out at 2,397. I'm trying not to beat myself up out how abysmally low that is. I also realized that I grossly underestimated the total number of steps it would take me to do this journey (18,000) because of my Fitbit. <BR> <BR> But today is a new day! And I'd hit 1,900 steps by 10AM which is AWESOME. I'm going to work harder to "journey" in short bursts of a few hundred steps or so at a time... and if I need to add a day or days to m... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 11:49:16 EST Update and... A Virtual Journey! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333928 It's been a while since I updated, but I wanted to say that I'm still following my prescribed diet. My losses have really slacked (only about 10 lbs in the last 3 months) but I attribute that largely to the fact that first I stopped being to walk without assistance (crutches) and then to the surgery I had to have to finally repair my leg (yay!). I had to have, among other things, a core about the size of my pinkie drilled across my tibia (the big bone that makes up our shins). I have to be ca... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 15:15:16 EST Why I will re-commit to myself every day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306299 Beginning yesterday, I’m back on crutches. Before that, I was walking with a walking stick for several days to keep weight off the left foot. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/eec647e8-1dc8-4b4e-a78c-858e35e9c89b.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Dec 2014, I broke my fibula and completely destroyed my ankle. By the grace of a good surgeon, I was sort-of reassembled. High and even medium impact activities (including walking) were always hard, and my old love – hiking – had been shelved for ... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 14:57:34 EST Rewriting negative self-talk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6286578 I like to think I'm not a terribly negative person as a rule. I tend to find hidden silver linings, look on the sunnier side of life, annoy others with my endless optimism. <BR> <BR> That is, where anything not concerning myself is concerned. <BR> <BR> I'm very negative about myself, unfortunately. I lack confidence. I don't believe in myself. I tell myself I can't do things all the time. <BR> <BR> Now, despite this, I've still managed to do some pretty cool things. My lack of confidence ... Wed, 28 Dec 2016 16:45:32 EST Exhaustion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275405 Soo... the first two days of the diet overhaul went well in the sense that I stuck to my plan well. My significant other has been very encouraging. In fact, when I was sort of "slipping" a bit last night (mentally, I mean) he handed me an apple so I wouldn't be tempted to go hunt for a snack on my own. It was incredibly sweet and wonderful of him. He has his own hopes/dreams for health, and I think together we're going to one day make an unstoppable team. One step at a time. <BR> <BR> Anyway... Fri, 2 Dec 2016 16:48:58 EST Diet Overhaul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6274928 I will have to write more on my experiences when I have more time and if people are interested, here's the skinny (don't I wish! har har). <BR> <BR> I met with a physician, a behaviorist, and a dietitian Tuesday evening as part of my enrollment in the medical weight loss program. Yay! First hurdle overcome and I was deemed eligible to be in the program at all. Whew. I was also scored for binge eating, and they said that I am *NOT* a binge eater. Second whew. <BR> <BR> I did have to drudge... Thu, 1 Dec 2016 16:02:14 EST And another new record... but not a good one! Ugh. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6273826 I missed my weigh-in yesterday, so I did it this morning: 344.0 <BR> <BR> Umm... well, that sucks. I was supposed to be losing weight and here I am gaining it. Now 344 is my highest weight yet. Sigh. When I first started paying attention to myself it was 337. That's a 7 lb gain overall. I'm struggling not to feel superbly disappointed in myself or beat myself up. <BR> <BR> I know I could rationalize at least some of the gain. I'm not eating on a true diet yet, and while I've been "good" I h... Tue, 29 Nov 2016 11:26:12 EST Brief Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6272298 I have a computer program running in the background (for my research) and I'm sipping black tea (not coffee! oh my!). I'm also AWAKE by 7am... it's as if I'm a whole new person today, hah! <BR> <BR> It's been a busy rollercoaster of the past two weeks, and I frankly have no clue where it even went. I don't even feel I have work to show for it. But that's another issue entirely. I figured it was high time I did a little update to say where I'm at, if for no other reason than my own posterity.... Sat, 26 Nov 2016 08:47:48 EST Fear of hunger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264893 Have you ever 'gone hungry'? I'm not talking for a meal -- or even a day. I'm talking about the constant, stabbing hunger that takes over your brain after, in my experience, 48 hours or without substantial food. Maybe, like me, you were a child who grew up in neglect (if so, I'm so incredibly sorry. I know your pain.). Maybe you grew up in a family who couldn't afford regular meals (Again, I'm so sorry.). Maybe you got lost in the woods once, or decided to go on some crazy 300-calorie diet, o... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 16:52:00 EST "If and When were planted, and Nothing grew." http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6260952 ~ Proverb <BR> <BR> I'm a horrible procrastinator. Simply terrible. It's really quite amazing I've accomplished as much in life as I have. It's sickening to think that, if I've done as much as I have while constantly fighting against myself... well, how much could I have done if I hadn't been fighting procrastination at every turn? <BR> <BR> I know that the roots from which my procrastination often grow are Fear, Anxiety, and Perfection. I'm afraid of failing. I'm anxious of the unknown. I ... Wed, 2 Nov 2016 14:21:59 EST Medical Weight Management Program http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259799 Today, I went to my GP for a routine mini-physical and prescription check-in. I left enrolled in a medical weight management program (dum dum dummmmmm...). <BR> <BR> It's not a surgery program or even a medication-based program, FYI. As a PhD student affiliated with a major national hospital, I guess you could consider this a perk. Still, there's a small part of me that feels I've failed myself somehow that I have been brought to this level. <BR> <BR> Backstory: I've had clinically high ins... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 12:18:45 EST Finally, forward momentum! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259489 Today was day two swimming at the Y. I finally renewed my membership, and to my great delight my SO decided to join with me. :) Swimming has been my favorite form of exercise for over a year now because of my ankle and back issues. It helps that I'm a water baby and swam competitively in high school. I still love everything from diving to laps to just active treading. I'd love to try a water aerobics class. <BR> <BR> When I fell off the wagon in January, I was up to 32 laps (a half mile) sw... Sun, 30 Oct 2016 22:13:54 EST Goodbye, Fat. Hello, Muscle. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6258517 I make so many excuses to stay immobile. "My leg hurts too badly" or "I can't put any weight down". "I don't have a Y membership" or "I'm just too tired/stressed/depressed/(fill in the blank)". <BR> <BR> It stops here. Today. Now. <BR> <BR> I will not weigh 340+ lbs next week. <BR> <BR> I will not have spent another week sitting on my bum because I can think of a billion reasons not to get up. <BR> <BR> I will not let life keep passing me by while I sit back on my desk chair, couch, or ... Fri, 28 Oct 2016 16:53:15 EST Day...? of the Reset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6250499 Haha, my, my how time flies! <BR> <BR> I think it's been about 2 weeks since I hit reset. So, here's an update: in short, I've partially reached several goals but haven't reached any of them fully... and that's okay. I mean, ultimately, it's not but I can't break months' of bad habits in 2 weeks, and I did bite off a lot. Here's what I can tell you: <BR> <BR> <em>194</em> I really need to make this my primary focus. I'm definitely not drinking enough water yet. I can honestly say it's im... Wed, 12 Oct 2016 14:21:07 EST Day 2 of the Reset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239723 So, I didn't meet any of my goals yesterday in full. But, you know what? I was closer to meeting them than if I hadn't tried at all. So, I'm counting it as a partial win. And as Anne Shirley said: "[Today] is a new day, fresh with no mistakes in it." Okay, so the day is nearly half over... but you get the point. <BR> <BR> <em>194</em> 1... Well, I drank more water than I had been. I think I had close to 2 L yesterday. Hahaha. And I did cut back on coffee and replace with black tea. <BR> ... Wed, 21 Sep 2016 14:32:18 EST Back to Basics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239166 Wow, I really can't seem to stay focused on my health lately. It's almost kind of pathetic. I make so many excuses... too many excuses. Those excuses end today. I could tell you how I'm too busy or I'm in too much pain; I could excuse myself for making so many excuses. But what would that accomplish? Very little. I need to forgive myself for making excuses -- and then stop. <BR> <BR> So, here it is. I'm going back to basics. I've done this before and I can do it again. I deserve to treat mys... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 15:17:11 EST Waxing philosophical late at night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6192727 I apologize in advance if I get a bit "heady" in this post. I'm laying here with a killer headache and monstrous body pain (per usual) and thinking about how to change my body and my life. <BR> <BR> I was thinking about habits. We are all here on spark to try to launch new, improved habits -- eat better, exercise more, drink more water, sleep better, and generally focus on our health and bodies. Do all the things "good" for us. Just like everyone on spark, I want to build these good habits ... Fri, 1 Jul 2016 00:30:54 EST Fallen off the wagon, and run over by it... again and again. ;) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168227 I can't possibly condense the nearly two years I've been gone from spark into a single blog entry so I won't even try. But, I will list my biggest hurdles/stressors, and tell you all what I plan to do about them: <BR> <BR> - Partial spinal fusion: I'm essentially recovered from this surgery July 2014. I continue to have pain but I think that strengthening and flexibility exercises are likely to help tremendously. They can't hurt, eh? ;) <BR> <BR> - Broken left leg, winter 2015: I've not ful... Sun, 22 May 2016 16:01:14 EST 502 days and counting... Here's the custom walking program! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742779 As I wrote yesterday, since walking is the ONLY sanctioned form of exercise after my spinal fusion for the next 3+ months, I've come up with a custom 12-week walking program. <BR> <BR> It would be far too easy just to feel defeated and do nothing, as I did after my ankle reconstruction. The hard lesson I learned from that was that you MUST keep fighting for this goal, no matter what! There is no such thing as waiting until you're "allowed" to exercise. Last time, I wasn't creative and I didn... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 14:49:55 EST 503 days to goal. New, custom walking program! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742161 In the last 3 days, I haven't done much to work toward my goal, I admit. I was feeling ashamed, but I need to turn that shame into motivation. So, I've not done much -- okay. I can't go back in time and change that. What I can do is work with increased fervor beginning today to help compensate for those 3 days I lost. <BR> <BR> I've been feeling like an invalid. I've been wallowing in that, frankly. It's hard. I'm in a lot of pain. I'm healing, but the recovery process is soooo slow. It's ha... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 14:55:22 EST 506 days to goal... Plus a long-overdue update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740238 December 4, 2015. It's the day I've chosen, with my dear friend, as my goal date. I would like to reach my goal weight by this date. Nay-- I WILL reach my goal weight by this date! That's 506 days from today. <BR> <BR> Why the sudden update? Apparently, it takes a surgery to bring me back to Spark, hah. Not that I wasn't finding success without spark; remember, success comes from within! I had returned to my previous low weight of 278lbs on my own. Not only that, but I was at my lowest inche... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 16:45:51 EST Self-designed, semi-flexible diet. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599302 I am still recovering from influenza, so my activity has been waning since Thursday. However, I've taken this opportunity to think closely about my diet. In general, I've been thinking a lot about my diet lately. This goes along with what I was trying last month with the detox diet, trying to eat clean, etc. Although I temporarily lost some weight on the detox diet, it was short-lived. I don't think it was fat, but I'm okay with that. <BR> <BR> So, one of the things I know about myself is... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 19:21:04 EST Detox Diets - And long time, no post. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557707 So, this post is going to be part update, part commentary on a detox diet I'm doing with a friend. <BR> <BR> WHERE have I been? Sadly, ill. I've been having kidney issues again, starting with a stone and subsequent infection, followed by lots of follow-up tests. I had hoped at least this part of my ill health was behind me, but it's not. I've also been busy with my PhD program, of course, relationship issues, and just trying to remain healthy. There's been so much, I don't really know how to... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 15:06:09 EST BLC19, WUB #1 - 1 day late, but not especially short. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5460238 I began writing this yesterday, but got too distracted and subsumed with my life. Such is usually the case with me. :| <BR> <BR> I have to admit, despite the energy surrounding BLC19 (I love it!!!), some things going on in my personal life have made it really hard for me not only to stick to my goals but to let myself feel awash in all the enthusiasm. I won't go into them here, but I'll just say that they are the sorts of things that can totally derail me. They are issues I haven't faced for... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 18:53:25 EST BLC19, WUB #0 (Hee hee) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5453188 Yes, it's Week 0, i.e., the start of BLC Season 19. You can't imagine, seriously, how excited I am for this. During the build up, I didn't think I was overly thrilled, but now that it's actually taking off, I'm so stoked. I can't wait to see what this season has in store for myself, my body, and my team. <BR> <BR> That said, I need to lay a few ground rules for myself this BLC. I've been, frankly, slacking of late. Not in a horrific way, but I've just lost my gusto. Some of it is chronic pai... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 18:44:21 EST Announcing BLC 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437614 Are you ready for the next BLC? I sure am! Sign-ups are now open for season 19, which will run for 8 weeks from Sunday August 11 - Sunday October 6. The link to the sign up form is at the bottom of this page, but be sure to look over the rules before signing up. Hope to see you soon! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>228</em> <em>228</em> <em>228</em> <em>228</em> <em>228</em> <BR> ------BLC 19 Rules------- <BR> <BR> <em>208</em> Duration <BR> ------------------------------------- <BR> B... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 16:45:02 EST Living the GSD Lifestyle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433367 Why do I procrastinate? This is something I've been considering for some time, not only as it pertains to my health goals but also other personal goals. Why does it take me so long to accomplish even simple, little goals? In fact, it sometimes seems like the smaller goals are the ones that I am most prone to shove to the back burner. <BR> <BR> I can think of several generic reasons why I procrastinate. Often, it has to do with FEAR. Fear of failure or perhaps fear of the unknown. I don't lik... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 17:10:25 EST Final WUB, BLC #18 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399224 BLC season 18 is coming to a close today. I'm not sad, however. As I look back on Season 18, I'm able to appreciate the changes, big and small, that I have made in my life. I'm ready to keep embracing life - and BLC season 19. :D <BR> <BR> So, I lost no weight (well, 0.3 lbs) this season. However, I did over 2800 minutes of cardio in 10 weeks. That was an average of 280 minutes per week. That's pretty fantastic, and it's certainly the highest I've ever been, probably in my life. These are ch... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 14:46:44 EST UPDATE: 101 Things in 1001 Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399208 It's been a while since I updated this list, and there have been small changes and rearrangements. However, the general sentiment remains the same! Changes have been only to 1) challenge myself more or 2) because they were for something I wouldn't be able to afford to do in the time frame allotted. <BR> <BR> I'm currently 8% to goal with 907 days remaining. Gotta get a move on! <BR> <BR> I track my progress with the Day Zero Project. You can follow my progress here, if you want: <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 14:22:29 EST Short WUB #9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5391399 This has to be really brief, as I'm under the gun with a deadline for school and also really, really exhausted. However, I haven't updated in a while and I know I'm long overdue! <BR> <BR> First off, I'm so pleased to say that I did 365 minutes of cardio this week. Well over my goal, yay me. A lot of it was gardening again. My front yard is done, and I really need to put up before and after photos. <BR> <BR> We were supposed to run our 5Ks this week, and I had my PT tape my feet for it spec... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 00:14:07 EST To BLCers, With Love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383887 Dear BLCers, <BR> <BR> As you all know, our motivation challenge this week was to write a blog/letter to those who inspire us on our journey. Well, my friends, the person(s) who inspire me to keep going are YOU. Yes, truly. You probably don't realize it, but it's coming on here several times a week and checking on how this team is doing that keeps me going. You all continue to inspire me, endlessly. <BR> <BR> HeatherHunter, because she never gives up. <BR> <BR> AlphaEve, because she keeps ... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 22:33:17 EST BLC18 WUB #7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5377252 Well, kids, I'm a day late... which seems to be the story of my life right now. On top of that, I'm utterly EXHAUSTED and struggling to stay awake to write this. So, I'm afraid I'll have to keep it short this week. I don't even have time for a full recap at this moment, but suffice it to say I'm a bit behind, feeling overwhelmed in my professional and personal life, and I am eager to get back on track after getting a FULL night of rest!!! <BR> <BR> So, one of our challenges this week was to ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 21:37:21 EST Insert Witty Blog Title Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369364 Yup, the title says it all. This blog post is going to be an amalgam of things racing through my brain right now, in an effort just to "get it all out there" so I can focus on what's really important to me: getting stuff done. <BR> <BR> So, I've been doing pretty well fitness-wise lately. For over a year, I've been pretty consistent with only minor waxes and wanes, and I love it. I really feel that I've changed my life. I honestly can't imagine backsliding now, and for that I'm incredibly pr... Mon, 27 May 2013 13:48:04 EST BLC WUB #6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368897 Week 6 was rougher than previous weeks. At least, it felt that way. Part of it was that I have been very, very, VERY engrossed with work. Another part of it is that I'm still feeling disheartened. But the biggest part has been the foot pain I've been having. <BR> <BR> What was good about this week? A lot, actually, which is why it sucks that I feel that it was so blasé. A lot of really nice things did happen. I cooked a lot of great meals in batch at the beginning of the week (Pindi Chana (c... Mon, 27 May 2013 00:15:30 EST BLC18 WUB #5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5361164 Other than my frustration and tears over the numbers on the scale that I blogged about yesterday, this week has been pretty good overall. Including the gardening I did, <em>54</em> I had 452 minutes of cardio this week, which is up from 399 last week. <em>54</em> Furthermore, that includes my taking both Thursday and Friday off from cardio to recover so I would feel good for kickball on Saturday!! In the cardio department, I feel like I'm kicking butt. I just wish the scale would catch u... Sun, 19 May 2013 14:07:43 EST I love you, I forgive you, I think you're great. No.Matter.What. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360502 My whole life has been a struggle. I don't say that in a whiny tone, and it's not a complaint, but it is a fact. I have struggled for as long as I can remember. As a child, I fought to keep my family intact and to help raise my younger brother and sister to be intelligent, ethical, honest adults. I fought to make life feel more normal for my siblings, and to be a "family" when one of my parents fought really, really hard to antagonize me/us and to tear us apart with their cruelty. I fought to... Sat, 18 May 2013 20:05:58 EST BLC18 WUB #4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354585 I am so behind this week/weekend. The one really positive thing I have to report is that... *drumroll please*... <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> I exercised for 399 minutes this week (cardio only in tally). <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> That makes me sooooo happy. The other thing I am especially proud of this week is that kickball has officially started for me as of Saturday. Although this was technically our third weekend playing, I missed the first 2 weekends because I was super sick. Then, the next... Mon, 13 May 2013 00:11:07 EST Obese Runners, Help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5351407 How do you contain your, erm, flab? I am finding nothing more disconcerting than my belly flopping as I run. I need to know how to keep it in check! Sorry for the TMI, but I'm in serious need here. <BR> <BR> Once upon a time, in an earlier life... I was a sprinter. I was a pretty quick one, too. In just 5 days, I'm coming up on my one-year anniversary: down 43 lbs, 2 pants sizes, 3 top sizes. I have also undergone so many more intangible and immeasurable transformations like the ability to w... Thu, 9 May 2013 21:15:19 EST Mid-Week Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350022 I have had a lot on my mind this week, so before I forget any of it I thought I would post a blog entry. That way, my WUB won't be too horridly massive. ;) <BR> <BR> So, what's been on my mind...? Well, my weight, mostly. I'm really frustrated by the water weight. I'm bouncing around between 272 and 276 from one day to the next. Just before BLC18 started, I weighed in at 268.7. I haven't gained fat - but that is my only consolation. I can't seem to shed what I'm presuming is water, though. <... Wed, 8 May 2013 15:46:54 EST BLC18 Week 3 WUB http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346795 Wow, what a weird week. Nothing went according to plan. It all began on Monday when I was overcome with incredible fatigue and soreness from working in the garden last Sunday. It set my whole week off with a negative tone. <BR> <BR> Now, does that mean I won't work in my garden anymore or work that hard again? HECK no! It just means that I need to be prepared to be fatigued, sore, and inflamed. And I can do that. :) <BR> <BR> This week, one of our challenges was to try something new, to go... Sun, 5 May 2013 23:28:52 EST Day in the Life of My Belly #2 (day late) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346676 I've been without my laptop all weekend, which has made it a little difficult for me to keep up with our nutrition challenge this week. However, I did remember to snap a photo of my breakfast yesterday half-way through. Plus, since I eat the same things every day, Lunch and Dinner were pretty easy to account for! <BR> <BR> Here is my daily food blog for yesterday (Saturday) -- <BR> <BR> <em>271</em> BREAKFAST: <BR> egg + cheese omelet, tomato (404 calories) <BR> <img src="http://photos-... Sun, 5 May 2013 21:32:21 EST Day in the Life of My Belly #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5343385 Our nutrition challenge this week for BLC18 is to blog our food diary twice. Well, here's post #1! I apologize in advance that it will be in a state of incompletion, but I'll update it tonight with calorie counts and the missing photos. <BR> <BR> Note that this is a pretty representative day. I tend to make all my meals in advance (other than breakfasts), so the rice and bean dish and the pasta dish were made in advance on the weekend. Also note that I usually only do stevia in coffee, but ... Thu, 2 May 2013 14:53:05 EST Monday Monday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339596 I don't know if it's my soreness or what, but today feels really "off". And it shouldn't. Things this week have been going really, really well so far. I guess it must be exhaustion? That's all I can think to attribute my strange feelings to... <BR> <BR> It all started, I think, yesterday. I worked in the garden (my cardio for Sunday). At the time, I felt great. I had overslept and awakened feeling lethargic and like I couldn't - or wouldn't - DO anything all day. I talked myself out of it. I... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 14:24:51 EST BLC18 WUB #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337840 Well, gang, Week 2 is drawing to a close. It's been both an exhilarating and a disappointing week. I guess I'll get the bad news out of the way so we can quickly get to the good stuff. <BR> <BR> So, earlier this week my weight jumped - and I mean JUMPED - enormously. I went from 268.7 to 275.9 in less than 48 hours. This has never happened to me before. OK, the good news is... it ain't fat. The bad news is I'm retaining water, and I am not sure why exactly. I've been upping my water intake ... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 00:14:56 EST New Plan of Attack (Diet) -- Calorie Cycling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335590 I spent a lot more time on this subject yesterday in my other blog, but I wanted to give a brief update here. <BR> <BR> For the full blog entry, see: <BR> <link>http://mythriftygenotype.wordpress.c<BR>om/2013/04/24/where-has-the-time-gone/ </link> <BR> <BR> So, my diet needs an overhaul again. I used to calorie and carb cycle successfully, but I've slacked off - or gotten busy, depending on your view of life - these past several months. It's time to reattack my diet and see if I can spur ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 18:49:29 EST BLC18 Visual Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334783 This was a visual motivator I made for BLC17, and every piece of it still rings as true today as it did 2 months ago. I created a motivator that I could view daily, and it sits on my desktop with the filename: WATCH ME TODAY! I watch my slideshow several times a week, but will try to resume looking at it daily. I also have weekly goal worksheets that I work on everyday, which help me focus on my goals, weight loss and otherwise. <BR> <BR> Since I haven't found a way to make a slideshow that... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 00:06:28 EST BLC18 WUB #1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331141 Well, kids, it's the end of Week 1. It was a crazy busy week for this girl. I survived - and passed! - my PhD proposal. This was HUGE! Over 6 months of preparation, reading, and writing culminated in a few short hours of my thesis proposal in front of my committee. Such a weight has now been lifted from me, and I am so grateful to finally have some time to myself (and my health!) again. <BR> <BR> So, what am I proud of from Week 1? That I didn't gain weight, despite all the stress and crummy... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 23:30:51 EST