SHENELLCOLLIER's SparkPeople Blog SHENELLCOLLIER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Good for me! I did a slow jog for a mile around my neighborhood. It felt good! <BR> Sat, 16 Dec 2017 19:00:48 EST Restart! Restarting again! I could look at it negatively, but I choose to do otherwise. I won't quit. Despite setbacks, I am determined to lose this weight. It's just not me. I feel trapped inside of my body. My spirit is one of a person who is active but the physical has weighed me down for over ten years now. I will get back to the person I really am. To restart is another chance and I am taking it. Sun, 26 Nov 2017 18:15:13 EST Standstill still... I am still at a standstill but I won't give up. I managed to walk 2 days last week. They were good walks. I just need to repeat this every week until I can become consistent which has been a problem for me. Realistically, I need to get in 5 days to really see some changes. Minor medical issues had me down a bit but I can't use them as a crutch. I want to reach my goal weight before I reach 50 and that gives me 3.5 years so it is very doable. As usual, I press on... Wed, 11 Oct 2017 20:57:20 EST ? I didn't really know what to title this entry. I am at a standstill ...neither gaining nor losing but have 100lbs to lose. I need a jolt of enthusiasm to get myself back into action. Sadly, I acknowledge that my own lack of enthusiasm is getting me absolutely nowhere. Have you ever been in that space where you know exactly what you need to do but lack the follow through to do it? Well that is where I am. Still not giving up though. I press on... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 17:37:46 EST Thank yous Just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for encouraging me. I won't give up! Have a happy New Year's. Mon, 2 Jan 2017 13:51:23 EST Random Thoughts I'm deviating from my walk today...going bowling with my son and I may play basketball with him later in the afternoon. I'm trying to vary my activity so I won't get bored. Still working on trying to find some consistency in my diet --that is a work in progress. I want to make better progress with my health this upcoming year. Wish me luck! Sat, 24 Dec 2016 09:05:04 EST POISE I run an academic mentoring program for middle to high school age students. It is called POISE. One meaning for the term is "maintaining balance." I've reminded myself that this is what I need to do to be successful. My teaching job is demanding but I have to keep things in perspective. I've got to make my daily walks to get back healthy. I am determined to make my health a priority. My son is a great motivator as well. He continually reminds me that I'm slacking when I make excuses not... Sun, 27 Nov 2016 18:35:48 EST So far so Good I've been off for Thanksgiving break from teaching. I have had good days exercising. Four of five days I did a walk/run for at least 45 minutes. I keep telling myself to just be consistent...keep at it everyday. That is the challenge. My life will get busy again starting Monday but I have to make my health my priority. Sat, 26 Nov 2016 10:04:38 EST A dose of positivity I read Runner's World each month and it never fails to give me a jolt of motivation. I want to return to the reality of being a runner like I use to be back in my twenties (now 45). Today, I got on the scale after a long absence and found out that I have lost at least 5lbs. I was delighted to say the least. Later on I managed to walk a 1/2 mile and trot a full mile. It was encouraging for me because I can really see myself taking baby steps back to the runner I use to be despite my battl... Sun, 20 Nov 2016 18:34:07 EST I won't give up! I've been a member of Spark People for about five years. Over this time, I've rejoiced with others at their accomplishments. I've also had moments of success as well but in general I've struggled to make any real progress. I struggle with issues related to being Bipolar but I refuse to let the illness win. I'm going to keep on until I find that magic recipe to success that helps me stay motivated and consistent to keeping my goals. I used to be a good athlete back in my twenties before I ... Sat, 30 Jul 2016 10:42:47 EST Finding Balance I teach so this is my last week of summer break. I had minimum success trying to get back into a workout routine. I basically got up and walked the track in the mornings when I managed to get up on time. Now, I have to reverse the workouts to the evenings. I hope to find success. I'm going to try and do a "dry" run this week to see how it goes. Until next time... Sun, 24 Jul 2016 18:15:45 EST Reluctant Will I think I have finally resolved to eating right. I feel as if I wasted a whole summer exercising with no results because my eating habits were very bad. This past weekend I managed to eat healthy in moderation with no excessive sweets. I feel good about it. I hope to continue down this road taking small steps day by day. It is a battle! Mon, 18 Jul 2016 12:06:05 EST Battles Win Wars I recognize that I am in a war to lose this weight. Each week I battle all types of obstacles trying to get back healthy. The latest battle is depression. It is a sneaky, ugly little enemy that creeps its way into your psyche and wears at your determination and motivation. I must overcome this enemy and win this battle if I am to ever win the eventual weight loss war. Today, I will attempt to do a workout that I have been intending to do for over two weeks. The battle of the mind is con... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 09:57:09 EST Message from on High I heard a message on faith at church today. It helped me realize that I have more control over my weight situation than I have been originally contemplating. I have been making excuses that my life is too busy to get the exercise time and days in that I need to lose the weight. Today my eyes were opened and I see that all those things that I was using as an excuse to not work out are just not that important. I need to get my health and fitness back. I've let obstacles prevent me from star... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 19:52:40 EST Reality Bites I have come to the resolution that I've been in denial about my weight. I'm at my heaviest ever (263lb). I have been living in the past...refusing to really see all the weight that I have gained and remembering when I was a fit person and high school coach. Those days are gone and I must face reality. <BR> <BR> I realize that I have to take things one day at a time to be successful. I can't rush through this battle. So here's to finally living in reality. <BR> <BR> Shenell Sun, 27 Sep 2015 19:11:07 EST Resolutions I did not make any resolutions, but I did vow to make some changes in my diet. I'm going to try and go with chicken and fish mainly and turkey based meats. We'll see how the month goes. Sat, 3 Jan 2015 09:50:55 EST It's good! Walking has always saved me so to speak. When I was young, I had to walk everywhere I went because my family had no transportation...we were very poor. I learned so many lessons from those school, to work, to friend's homes...everywhere. I really did not realize the value walking would have for me over 20 years later. At over 100 pounds overweight, I often wonder how I got here. As a child, I often ran many places and as a teenager, I competed in cross country and track. I co... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 11:05:40 EST Lifestyle Changes... Like it or not, I realized back in December that I have to make some lifestyle changes or I might end up with diabetes or worse. During the month of January, I vowed to stay away from processed sugar...and I did it. I only ate naturally sweet foods (mainly fruit). My challenge this month is to at least walk a mile for 5-6 days of the week and slowly add to the mileage each month. I've been doing good so far this week. <BR> <BR> I realized that I got to make my health a priority if I am ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 05:19:09 EST Dr. Oz and O I am watching Dr. Oz's show...I originally was tuned in because I thought there was going to be this big revelation about how to quickly lose weight...wrong! Instead, as normal, he gave very sound advice about losing weight. Sure, I heard it all before, but this time he made mention of getting your measurements done...waist, weight, cholesterol, blood pressure. I know all my measurements are not good. It has really opened my eyes. I must get back in shape or my chances for being around fo... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 16:00:17 EST December! Normally December can be a hectic month. I vow to take it slowly. Today, I will go for a walk in my neighborhood with my son or either take him to the park in order to enjoy the peace and beauty of God's! Sun, 1 Dec 2013 08:37:41 EST December! Normally December can be a hectic month. I vow to take it slowly. Today, I will go for a walk in my neighborhood with my son or either take him to the park in order to enjoy the peace and beauty of God's! Sun, 1 Dec 2013 08:37:41 EST Miss You! I miss making the blog entries...the new format threw me off for a while. I finally got things figured out...I think. Be encouraged spark family. Mon, 25 Nov 2013 05:24:03 EST Encouragement Helps I just checked my sparkmail for once in about 3 months. I had an encouraging email. I needed it. I stand at my highest lifetime weight and have been pretty bummed about it over the past couple of weeks. However, I have decided that I WILL NOT GIVE UP! I'm going to fight for my health and previous fitness state. I will return to running 5ks and 10ks. I just have to take it one step at a time. Thanks for the support Spark family! Sun, 6 Oct 2013 19:08:52 EST Finally I worked out and counted calories...I must be consistent...but I at least I have a good start. <BR> Sat, 21 Sep 2013 21:54:02 EST "Weighing" Options I've got to incorporate the workouts into my daily routine. I have pretty much got the weekends covered. I walk on Saturdays and Sundays. Now, I got to add a minimum of 3 more days into the mix throughout the week to shed some of these pounds. Got to develop a routine that makes walking a priority throughout my busy life. <BR> <BR> I will tackle one issue at a time. Right now, I've got to get the walks in...counting calories is a must as well, but I'll focus more on that when I get the w... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 05:13:35 EST Balance Needed My brother pointed out to me a couple of weeks of go that I had no balance in my life...basically I work too much. I fiercely denied it, but he was right. I am at my heaviest weight 241lbs ...I logged on to spark 2 years ago vowing to lose the weight that is burdening me. I have had only brief moments of success losing 10 here or 5 there, but regaining it back plus a little more. <BR> <BR> However, I am not totally discouraged. I realize that my 'have to be busy' lifestyle is to blame.... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 06:35:21 EST In mourning... My mom passed away 2 weeks ago. Obviously, her death had an effect on me. I told her years ago that I was going to lose all this weight I had gained. Well, now I fully understand that life is too short to be living it unhealthy. <BR> <BR> I've been training for a 5k run/walk with my colleagues. It feels good to get back into the act of running and just exercising period. I know my mom is proud. Fri, 12 Apr 2013 13:18:25 EST Bicycle Theory Well when one learns to ride a bicycle, one tends to fall off quite alot. Well, my weight loss journey has been similar. I have fallen off many times and today I am getting back up to try again. The thing about that I refuse to quit. I know there is an athlete somewhere inside this body and I am going to do my best to make her manifest. <BR> <BR> Also, the old theory goes, once you learn to ride a bike, you never forget. I use to be an avid 5k runner and gym rat...I will return... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 05:27:23 EST Back to the business... Back on track today with exercise and tracking gets in the way sometimes and derails our workout efforts...Over the past three weeks I took my students on a field trip, celebrated my birthday, celebrated V-day, and help take care of my mom who is going through chemotherapy. Needless to say working out took a backseat. <BR> <BR> Now with all the celebrating over, I can just concentrate on focusing on mom and getting my health together... <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 12:29:52 EST A Birthday and A Curse My birthday is the first of this month and I coordinate an Annual Dance at our school during this month AND we celebrate Valentine's day...AND I either gain weight or fall off the wagon with my workout routines. <BR> <BR> As I said, a birthday and a curse. Same thing happened last year. I vowed, I wouldn't fall into the trap this year. I was a little least I did get a few workouts in over the past two weeks. <BR> <BR> I hope to get back into the full swing of my workouts... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:15:19 EST Missed Boot Camp... I missed boot camp today...I am taking my 6,7,8 graders to Atlanta to hear their legislators speak on Monday so I was late getting home from work because I was finalizing field trip documents, etc. <BR> <BR> I really hate that I missed boot camp. I was looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> I do plan to get up in the morning and do spin and kardio kick...that should more than make up for my day off. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 20:33:37 EST No doubles today Didn't double up on workouts today...I did manage to do spin it was an ok day. Thu, 24 Jan 2013 20:09:53 EST Off Day... Today is good old day off from the gym. It is well deserved, I have been working hard. Bonus...I was under my calorie range today...go me! Wed, 23 Jan 2013 20:29:38 EST Standstill I feel like I am at a standstill. The scale hasn't moved down in 2 weeks. The inches seem to be dropping and that is what really counts because I want to get back into all the clothes I have in 4 closets and get rid of the bigger sizes. <BR> <BR> Patience, I must have patience. It took 5 years to gain it, it will take a while to lose it properly. <BR> <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:47:15 EST Stuck! Well, today is Monday. My weigh in day. I am stuck on 236 for the 2nd week. I realize that if I deviate from my diet...even a bit...the scale won't move regardless of how much exercise I do. I really think my medication is holding me back from losing the 1-2lbs I need to make weekly progress. I will not give up! <BR> <BR> On the bright side, the scale didn't go up. I am also getting in better physical shape. I am not having side stitches during aerobics so I feel that I am making physi... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 08:23:31 EST Friendship Counts! I have connected with three friends on Sparkpeople this year. It has really made a difference in my motivation level. Checking in with friends helps me to make it through the week. Also, it's funny how you have so much in common with a person that you have not physically met. <BR> <BR> As far as fitness and nutrition goes...I feel as if I am doing good...I am headed to a month of going to workouts 5-6 days a week. I feel my body tightening up even though the scale is barely moving. I ... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 12:17:07 EST A Balancing Act Well, got my marathon workouts in, spin, and kardiokick. However, I went over my calorie zone by 400 calories. <BR> <BR> This weight loss effort must be a balancing act if I am to be successful. <BR> <BR> Got to get my eating under control. Sat, 19 Jan 2013 19:02:09 EST Crashed! After 4 days of double workouts, I crashed...literally. I ordered a pizza and crashed out on the sofa and had some blissful sleep. I don't regret my choices. Heck I needed some comfort. <BR> <BR> However, today, I am back on the stick so to speak. I've eaten right and have 1,000 calories saved for dinner. I am doing kardiokick and spinning class after I leave work. <BR> <BR> It's going to be a lovely day. Thu, 17 Jan 2013 14:08:48 EST No Pain, No Gain...Really Must I really be this sore after working out. It hurts so good. I feel as if I am back in the game as far as getting my health and fitness level together. Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:41:33 EST Great Weekend! I had a great weekend, physically. I took advantage of the classes offered at the gym. I did yoga, spin, and cardio kick. I feel good. Even if the scale doesn't move this week, I know that I am doing good because I feel good. Sun, 13 Jan 2013 20:49:24 EST Feeling Good today... I did 30 min. of yoga, 55 of spin class, and 55 turbokick aerobics. I feel great! So great, I'm going to take me a little afternoon nap :). <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 13:51:12 EST Spin Class Took my second spin class. Vastly different results. The first time, I left after 20 minutes because the seat was killing my butt. Today, the seat still hurt and was very uncomfortable, but I managed to stay focused on the instructor and I made it through the class until the end. <BR> <BR> Go me! <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:11:40 EST My friend the scale... Today, the scale was my friend. Over the last three weeks, I have lost a healthy 4.5 lbs. I was delighted to step off the scale today. Focusing on staying within my calorie range has really made a difference. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 19:58:40 EST Rest Day... After 5 consecutive days of aerobics and strength training, I took a day off. My muscles are sore and I am tired. So, I took a nap after work today. I'll be back on the stick so to speak tomorrow. Tue, 8 Jan 2013 20:14:23 EST The Ugly Truth... Faced with the ugly truth, I really looked at myself in the gym mirror and I was disgusted. I am FAT! I hate this new reality. For the past 5 years, I have been progressively gaining weight. Now 50lbs later, I really see the damage that has been caused. I admit, I don't like it one bit. <BR> See, I was an athlete from child until around age 36. Even though my illness and medication is part blame for the weight gain, I too take responsibility for letting myself go. <BR> <BR> I vow to m... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 07:12:50 EST The Pain... Oh the pain of working body is sore! However, I am not going to skip aerobics today. If I stay consistent, maybe the pain will go away and the pounds as well. I lost 1lb within two days...good for me...must stick to the plan and be consistent. This is my year to be victorious. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on. Sun, 6 Jan 2013 13:12:15 EST Feeeling Good! Well, I am two full weeks into being consistent with my workouts. The big test is coming up. I am heading back to work Monday. Can I keep it up? Tune in... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 19:28:09 EST Husband Frustration I must say that I got extremely frustrated last night. My husband and I were having a discussion about fitness. He asked me if I had lost any weight last week. I told him I lost 1 lb. Instead of congrats, he started going on about what I needed to do to lose more weight. I got immediately defensive because I am trying to do things right this year and make small changes each week in hopes that I will obtain my goal weight by next New Year's. <BR> <BR> My husband thinks that I am not se... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 07:03:42 EST Good Gym Day I had a good day at the gym. Looking forward to many more. <BR> <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 20:12:17 EST Determination Today is New Year's Day. I have my misgivings about establishing new resolutions. Last year, I became a bit more fitter even though I ended up gaining a total of 2 more lbs by the end of the year. <BR> <BR> Well this year, I am taking a new approach. I want to return to running 5k races so I must get my fitness level back to that baseline point. I will have to take it one day at a time. Junk food is my enemy! I must resolve to go cold turkey and stop buying it when I am at the grocery... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 07:10:09 EST