SHENELLCOLLIER's SparkPeople Blog SHENELLCOLLIER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Reality Bites I have come to the resolution that I've been in denial about my weight. I'm at my heaviest ever (263lb). I have been living in the past...refusing to really see all the weight that I have gained and remembering when I was a fit person and high school coach. Those days are gone and I must face reality. <BR> <BR> I realize that I have to take things one day at a time to be successful. I can't rush through this battle. So here's to finally living in reality. <BR> <BR> Shenell Sun, 27 Sep 2015 19:11:07 EST Resolutions I did not make any resolutions, but I did vow to make some changes in my diet. I'm going to try and go with chicken and fish mainly and turkey based meats. We'll see how the month goes. Sat, 3 Jan 2015 09:50:55 EST It's good! Walking has always saved me so to speak. When I was young, I had to walk everywhere I went because my family had no transportation...we were very poor. I learned so many lessons from those school, to work, to friend's homes...everywhere. I really did not realize the value walking would have for me over 20 years later. At over 100 pounds overweight, I often wonder how I got here. As a child, I often ran many places and as a teenager, I competed in cross country and track. I co... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 11:05:40 EST Lifestyle Changes... Like it or not, I realized back in December that I have to make some lifestyle changes or I might end up with diabetes or worse. During the month of January, I vowed to stay away from processed sugar...and I did it. I only ate naturally sweet foods (mainly fruit). My challenge this month is to at least walk a mile for 5-6 days of the week and slowly add to the mileage each month. I've been doing good so far this week. <BR> <BR> I realized that I got to make my health a priority if I am ... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 05:19:09 EST Dr. Oz and O I am watching Dr. Oz's show...I originally was tuned in because I thought there was going to be this big revelation about how to quickly lose weight...wrong! Instead, as normal, he gave very sound advice about losing weight. Sure, I heard it all before, but this time he made mention of getting your measurements done...waist, weight, cholesterol, blood pressure. I know all my measurements are not good. It has really opened my eyes. I must get back in shape or my chances for being around fo... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 16:00:17 EST December! Normally December can be a hectic month. I vow to take it slowly. Today, I will go for a walk in my neighborhood with my son or either take him to the park in order to enjoy the peace and beauty of God's! Sun, 1 Dec 2013 08:37:41 EST December! Normally December can be a hectic month. I vow to take it slowly. Today, I will go for a walk in my neighborhood with my son or either take him to the park in order to enjoy the peace and beauty of God's! Sun, 1 Dec 2013 08:37:41 EST Miss You! I miss making the blog entries...the new format threw me off for a while. I finally got things figured out...I think. Be encouraged spark family. Mon, 25 Nov 2013 05:24:03 EST Encouragement Helps I just checked my sparkmail for once in about 3 months. I had an encouraging email. I needed it. I stand at my highest lifetime weight and have been pretty bummed about it over the past couple of weeks. However, I have decided that I WILL NOT GIVE UP! I'm going to fight for my health and previous fitness state. I will return to running 5ks and 10ks. I just have to take it one step at a time. Thanks for the support Spark family! Sun, 6 Oct 2013 19:08:52 EST Finally I worked out and counted calories...I must be consistent...but I at least I have a good start. <BR> Sat, 21 Sep 2013 21:54:02 EST "Weighing" Options I've got to incorporate the workouts into my daily routine. I have pretty much got the weekends covered. I walk on Saturdays and Sundays. Now, I got to add a minimum of 3 more days into the mix throughout the week to shed some of these pounds. Got to develop a routine that makes walking a priority throughout my busy life. <BR> <BR> I will tackle one issue at a time. Right now, I've got to get the walks in...counting calories is a must as well, but I'll focus more on that when I get the w... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 05:13:35 EST Balance Needed My brother pointed out to me a couple of weeks of go that I had no balance in my life...basically I work too much. I fiercely denied it, but he was right. I am at my heaviest weight 241lbs ...I logged on to spark 2 years ago vowing to lose the weight that is burdening me. I have had only brief moments of success losing 10 here or 5 there, but regaining it back plus a little more. <BR> <BR> However, I am not totally discouraged. I realize that my 'have to be busy' lifestyle is to blame.... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 06:35:21 EST In mourning... My mom passed away 2 weeks ago. Obviously, her death had an effect on me. I told her years ago that I was going to lose all this weight I had gained. Well, now I fully understand that life is too short to be living it unhealthy. <BR> <BR> I've been training for a 5k run/walk with my colleagues. It feels good to get back into the act of running and just exercising period. I know my mom is proud. Fri, 12 Apr 2013 13:18:25 EST Bicycle Theory Well when one learns to ride a bicycle, one tends to fall off quite alot. Well, my weight loss journey has been similar. I have fallen off many times and today I am getting back up to try again. The thing about that I refuse to quit. I know there is an athlete somewhere inside this body and I am going to do my best to make her manifest. <BR> <BR> Also, the old theory goes, once you learn to ride a bike, you never forget. I use to be an avid 5k runner and gym rat...I will return... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 05:27:23 EST Back to the business... Back on track today with exercise and tracking gets in the way sometimes and derails our workout efforts...Over the past three weeks I took my students on a field trip, celebrated my birthday, celebrated V-day, and help take care of my mom who is going through chemotherapy. Needless to say working out took a backseat. <BR> <BR> Now with all the celebrating over, I can just concentrate on focusing on mom and getting my health together... <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 12:29:52 EST A Birthday and A Curse My birthday is the first of this month and I coordinate an Annual Dance at our school during this month AND we celebrate Valentine's day...AND I either gain weight or fall off the wagon with my workout routines. <BR> <BR> As I said, a birthday and a curse. Same thing happened last year. I vowed, I wouldn't fall into the trap this year. I was a little least I did get a few workouts in over the past two weeks. <BR> <BR> I hope to get back into the full swing of my workouts... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:15:19 EST Missed Boot Camp... I missed boot camp today...I am taking my 6,7,8 graders to Atlanta to hear their legislators speak on Monday so I was late getting home from work because I was finalizing field trip documents, etc. <BR> <BR> I really hate that I missed boot camp. I was looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> I do plan to get up in the morning and do spin and kardio kick...that should more than make up for my day off. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 20:33:37 EST No doubles today Didn't double up on workouts today...I did manage to do spin it was an ok day. Thu, 24 Jan 2013 20:09:53 EST Off Day... Today is good old day off from the gym. It is well deserved, I have been working hard. Bonus...I was under my calorie range today...go me! Wed, 23 Jan 2013 20:29:38 EST Standstill I feel like I am at a standstill. The scale hasn't moved down in 2 weeks. The inches seem to be dropping and that is what really counts because I want to get back into all the clothes I have in 4 closets and get rid of the bigger sizes. <BR> <BR> Patience, I must have patience. It took 5 years to gain it, it will take a while to lose it properly. <BR> <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:47:15 EST Stuck! Well, today is Monday. My weigh in day. I am stuck on 236 for the 2nd week. I realize that if I deviate from my diet...even a bit...the scale won't move regardless of how much exercise I do. I really think my medication is holding me back from losing the 1-2lbs I need to make weekly progress. I will not give up! <BR> <BR> On the bright side, the scale didn't go up. I am also getting in better physical shape. I am not having side stitches during aerobics so I feel that I am making physi... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 08:23:31 EST Friendship Counts! I have connected with three friends on Sparkpeople this year. It has really made a difference in my motivation level. Checking in with friends helps me to make it through the week. Also, it's funny how you have so much in common with a person that you have not physically met. <BR> <BR> As far as fitness and nutrition goes...I feel as if I am doing good...I am headed to a month of going to workouts 5-6 days a week. I feel my body tightening up even though the scale is barely moving. I ... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 12:17:07 EST A Balancing Act Well, got my marathon workouts in, spin, and kardiokick. However, I went over my calorie zone by 400 calories. <BR> <BR> This weight loss effort must be a balancing act if I am to be successful. <BR> <BR> Got to get my eating under control. Sat, 19 Jan 2013 19:02:09 EST Crashed! After 4 days of double workouts, I crashed...literally. I ordered a pizza and crashed out on the sofa and had some blissful sleep. I don't regret my choices. Heck I needed some comfort. <BR> <BR> However, today, I am back on the stick so to speak. I've eaten right and have 1,000 calories saved for dinner. I am doing kardiokick and spinning class after I leave work. <BR> <BR> It's going to be a lovely day. Thu, 17 Jan 2013 14:08:48 EST No Pain, No Gain...Really Must I really be this sore after working out. It hurts so good. I feel as if I am back in the game as far as getting my health and fitness level together. Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:41:33 EST Great Weekend! I had a great weekend, physically. I took advantage of the classes offered at the gym. I did yoga, spin, and cardio kick. I feel good. Even if the scale doesn't move this week, I know that I am doing good because I feel good. Sun, 13 Jan 2013 20:49:24 EST Feeling Good today... I did 30 min. of yoga, 55 of spin class, and 55 turbokick aerobics. I feel great! So great, I'm going to take me a little afternoon nap :). <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 13:51:12 EST Spin Class Took my second spin class. Vastly different results. The first time, I left after 20 minutes because the seat was killing my butt. Today, the seat still hurt and was very uncomfortable, but I managed to stay focused on the instructor and I made it through the class until the end. <BR> <BR> Go me! <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:11:40 EST My friend the scale... Today, the scale was my friend. Over the last three weeks, I have lost a healthy 4.5 lbs. I was delighted to step off the scale today. Focusing on staying within my calorie range has really made a difference. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 19:58:40 EST Rest Day... After 5 consecutive days of aerobics and strength training, I took a day off. My muscles are sore and I am tired. So, I took a nap after work today. I'll be back on the stick so to speak tomorrow. Tue, 8 Jan 2013 20:14:23 EST The Ugly Truth... Faced with the ugly truth, I really looked at myself in the gym mirror and I was disgusted. I am FAT! I hate this new reality. For the past 5 years, I have been progressively gaining weight. Now 50lbs later, I really see the damage that has been caused. I admit, I don't like it one bit. <BR> See, I was an athlete from child until around age 36. Even though my illness and medication is part blame for the weight gain, I too take responsibility for letting myself go. <BR> <BR> I vow to m... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 07:12:50 EST The Pain... Oh the pain of working body is sore! However, I am not going to skip aerobics today. If I stay consistent, maybe the pain will go away and the pounds as well. I lost 1lb within two days...good for me...must stick to the plan and be consistent. This is my year to be victorious. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on. Sun, 6 Jan 2013 13:12:15 EST Feeeling Good! Well, I am two full weeks into being consistent with my workouts. The big test is coming up. I am heading back to work Monday. Can I keep it up? Tune in... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 19:28:09 EST Husband Frustration I must say that I got extremely frustrated last night. My husband and I were having a discussion about fitness. He asked me if I had lost any weight last week. I told him I lost 1 lb. Instead of congrats, he started going on about what I needed to do to lose more weight. I got immediately defensive because I am trying to do things right this year and make small changes each week in hopes that I will obtain my goal weight by next New Year's. <BR> <BR> My husband thinks that I am not se... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 07:03:42 EST Good Gym Day I had a good day at the gym. Looking forward to many more. <BR> <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 20:12:17 EST Determination Today is New Year's Day. I have my misgivings about establishing new resolutions. Last year, I became a bit more fitter even though I ended up gaining a total of 2 more lbs by the end of the year. <BR> <BR> Well this year, I am taking a new approach. I want to return to running 5k races so I must get my fitness level back to that baseline point. I will have to take it one day at a time. Junk food is my enemy! I must resolve to go cold turkey and stop buying it when I am at the grocery... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 07:10:09 EST The Buy In Joining the YMCA has been a good move for me. My entire family has bought into getting healthy. My son always goes to the gym with me and my husband goes regularly as well. I feel good about the upcoming year and regaining my fitness back. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 15:55:10 EST YMCA Joined the Y a few days ago and worked out Friday and Saturday. Feels good to be back in the swing of things. My son gets to go with me and he works out in the youth center. It's a win, win, for both of us. I know I will be successful with this workout system because it is fun for me and my son. My husband is suppose to join us soon...I'm not waiting on it <BR> <BR> I press on... Sun, 23 Dec 2012 18:29:23 EST Okay effort... I ate o.k. today...tomorrow must be a bit better if I am to accomplish my goals. <BR> <BR> I press on.., Mon, 10 Dec 2012 20:02:24 EST Good Day! Had a good day. My eating habits are my enemy. I am managing to find time to workout, now I must focus on my eating. I have got to get my calories down to a good level to see a drop in weight. I must take it one day at a time. <BR> <BR> I press on... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 18:33:40 EST Family Time! I had a good day today. I walked 2 miles with my husband and played ball in the yard with my son. <BR> <BR> I press on... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 20:06:06 EST My Anniversary My anniversary is tomorrow. We began celebrating today. We had a good time. I did not exercise today, but I plan on finishing the week out with my 3 mile walks. Feeling pretty good. Fri, 7 Dec 2012 23:20:18 EST Feeling good... I walked a little over 2 miles and played tennis with my son for 30 minutes. It felt really great! I am making progress and slowing down my hectic schedule. Yeah me! Thu, 6 Dec 2012 18:32:12 EST Back on track...I think I feel as if I am finally back on track with my health and nutrition. As I've stated before, my commitment to my job was overshadowing my commitment to my health. This month I am learning to slow down my career life and ramp it up with my health. <BR> <BR> So far this week I have worked out twice and plan to get 3 more days in before next Monday. I am going cold-turkey on the excessive hours at work. I have vowed to leave work at work and head to the track each day afterward. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 05:49:39 EST Analyze Today, I going to take a close look at what I am eating. I must stay within my calorie zone to be successful. Self-discipline in eating is a must. I want to be successful so I must heed the advice I give young people everyday. I don't want to be sitting her in November 2013 saying the same things again. I must get control over the 'bad' eating habits. Sun, 25 Nov 2012 06:01:57 EST Sad Commentary Almost an entire year later and what do I have to show for it...? I have been on a roller coaster...up and down and up and down. I am at the same weight as I started. I have to look at the positives. Well, I do work out more...even if it is just 2 days a week. That is better than what I was doing a year ago. I can bend over without struggling to get back up (lol). <BR> <BR> self-discipline when it comes to eating. This has been my downfall. Today, I am going to start... Sat, 24 Nov 2012 05:06:58 EST The Obvious... Obviously, my efforts to become fit and eat right are constantly derailed by my need to fulfull my obligations at work. Obviously, I have the wrong focus. My son is a positive influence on me. He wants to go outside everyday, but I put him on hold because of 'work.' This weekend, I made a conscious effort to put my son and my health first. We went to the park and track on Saturday and Sunday mornings and stayed 2 hours. I walked 3 miles both days and my son practiced kicking his footbal... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 12:57:50 EST The Gym My husband has suggested that I join the YMCA so that I can take advantage of the Aerobic classes. I must admit that I really am disappointed at myself...I seem to achieve whatever I set goals for, but weight loss has been difficult. I have been yo-yoing up and down since March. When I had success, I was tracking on Sparkpeople everyday. I must return to what works and stop using my job as an excuse. <BR> <BR> As usual, I press on... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 19:43:00 EST Wellness Coach I had a heart to heart with my wellness coach about a week and a half ago. Got to get things into perspective. Today I am cleansing my stomach. Absolutely no junk food and I will get an hour of workout time in. Balancing my job and community service commitments is very hard during school time. But I must get it through my head that my health comes first. <BR> <BR> To know better is to do better. <BR> <BR> I press on... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 12:24:52 EST Minimal Effort My workout efforts at best can be described as minimal. I managed only 1 last week. I have hit rock bottom. I offer no excuses. My job seems to override my health. I have got to correct this. Mon, 27 Aug 2012 05:05:23 EST