SHELLYED's SparkPeople Blog SHELLYED's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Renewed Motivation Starting my new healthy lifestyle again today. I have gained back all of the weight I lost since moving to Chicago. It seemed like people didn't care as much about appearance compared to Dallas, and it is true, they are less vain, but that is a good thing I think. However, that does not mean I have a pass to be unhealthy. <BR> <BR> I suddenly recalled how I stayed motivated when I lost weight the last time. I did not see the whole weight loss at once, but set small 5 pound weight loss go... Wed, 7 Jun 2017 07:09:25 EST Day 2! : ) My first day back on my "healthy lifestyle change" went well! I feel really good, actually. I did the first day on Couch to 5k on the treadmill, telling myself I've done it before and there is nothing wrong with having to build my stamina again. In a way, because I have been here before, I know that I CAN do this. Many years ago when I did the Couch to 5k, I was skeptical because I did not think I could be a runner. That uncertainty is gone - I know I can. I wanted it to be challenging,... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 05:46:00 EST Here We Go (Again)! : ) Can't believe it has been 536 days since I last logged in to Sparkpeople! Once again, here I go! I am not discouraged from gaining weight again, I have real obstacles in my way. I developed bone spurs the side of the bottom of my big toe, and it really hurt to run. This started in March 2015. I went to the podiatrist who informed me of this, and the cause was osteoarthritis. He said it was advanced in my toe joint (it seems so silly to have arthritis in a toe joint!), prescribed arthrit... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 04:13:08 EST It's Summer! Flowers, warmth and happiness! It seems to me that people who weigh a "normal" weight say they go up and down maybe 5 or 10 pounds. I wish I could say that about myself, but I go up and down about 20-25 pounds at a time. That doesn't seem normal? I guess I must eat really well and exercise to get to my goal weight, and once there, perhaps I start bingeing BECAUSE it seems okay then? <BR> <BR> I know what happened this year, however. I have never been in such a horrible winter as last winter. We moved to Chicago from... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 09:07:59 EST Just Weird Stuff Nursing slight knee pain, I think caused by lack of stability so I wore my Brooks instead of Saucony's and my feet definitely felt more stable. I'm sitting here now with an ice pack around my knee, and will apply heat tonight before bed. I am incredibly paranoid that when I get older, I could be one of so many people that tell me they used to run but had to quit because of their knees. That has always been my most feared running injury, so even though it is not that bad at all, I am going to ... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 08:04:03 EST I Want To Run!!! I am SO READY to start running again! The temperature in Chicago has warmed up and it is so, so nice to be outside, but for now all I can do is walk the dog. Perhaps I (and my dog as well) should be thankful for even that! <BR> <BR> Two weeks after gallbladder surgery (yes, it was laparoscopic!) I was told I could start "walking", so four weeks later I think running is still out of the question. I still get a bit of pain. I cant sleep on my right side which is the normal way I sleep. <B... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 10:20:53 EST Low Fat Diets, Not Just For Kids:) The weirdest thing happened to me and I hope I can help someone else. <BR> <BR> For the past 4-5 days I've been having stomach aches that won't go away. I can't even imagine how many Motrin I took, but I do know how many laxatives. 14. And 3 gas x. My stomach was hugely bloated like I'd never seen and I would not wear anything that did not have elastic. Where I would have tried to button something across my stomach (which I would have been unsuccessful) was pretty much the place it hurt the... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 20:12:44 EST Here We Go! : ) Try, try again. I think never giving up is the key, everyone slides once in awhile. Besides, who wants to hang out with someone who is perfect all the time? : ) I certainly don't. I would want to accidentally close her head in my trunk. (I actually saw someone do that on accident to someone else!) <BR> <BR> I have a ton of excuses, but that's all they are - excuses. Polar vortex and couldn't run outside, took steroids that are weight gaining, but if I'm truthful, I just ate way too much... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 16:11:51 EST Try again, once more. It has been snowy and icy outside for what seems like months and I haven't been running. I but the bullet and ran a short distance on the dreadmill this morning and couldn't decide if it was so awful because I haven't been running or it was just super boring. I started the pilot episode of Lost on my run and thought that would help, but it hasn't drawn me in yet. <BR> <BR> I've also been hungry all, all, all of the time! Not sure if it matters too much if you are eating healthy things yet it... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 07:11:10 EST All Out Thanksgiving! How did everyone do over Thanksgiving? Me? Not so well. Two Thanksgiving meals, but at least one was completely prepared by me and I used several Spark People recipes that turned out to be very good! I didn't dare tell my husband that he was eating healthy dishes - for some reason that is a big turn off for him! He's a runner and very lean, but so weird that eating healthy turns him off. <BR> <BR> Then we flew to Texas to spend time with his family and that's when things got so very hor... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 07:09:18 EST A New Food Challenge I Had! I had a completely new food challenge last night that I hadn't encountered in the past. When I go to a restaurant, I can choose my meal and ask for this on the side or substitutions. Meals with friends or extended family, you can kind of choose what you want to eat as well - skip this or that. <BR> <BR> I went to a gala last night and there were NO food choices, everything was already plated, and there was one item on each plate for each course (3 courses). The first was a salad, and al... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 09:01:26 EST Divulging Something Private I've decided to share something here that I never tell people "in real life". Only my husband and my doctors know. I have Bipolar 2 disorder, and for anyone who is not familiar with what that means, I mostly get very depressed and every great, great once in awhile manic, but it's not the mania you read about or see on television. It's a mild version of that. It's called "hypomania" instead of mania. <BR> <BR> I know everyone has their reasons for gaining weight, but that is mine. It see... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 10:14:10 EST Two Pounds in Two Days! No, I normally don't weigh that often, I weigh once a week, but on Wednesday when I 'started over", I wanted to track that, and then Fridays are my normal weigh day. was hard to see 136 on the scale. I know, concentrate on my victories, but even when you lose weight, does anyone still feel bad about the number anyway when you've had a weight gain? It's hard not to think about how I would feel losing two pounds if I hadn't gained 9 pounds. BUT - onward and upward! : ) Staying p... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 08:06:44 EST Start Again - I Will Never Give Up! : ) Started program AGAIN! Maybe the idea is to never give up. I went for almost two years and only "backslid" for a day at a time. What was the difference in motivation and willpower that time compared to these last 10-15 pounds? Ugh! <BR> <BR> I can say EXACTLY when I got back on track - 1:30 pm today. I went to the doctor and got a B-12 shot hoping that would up my energy. I already take vitamins and my blood test came back with good numbers in B-12. I am skeptical of the shots but I w... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 01:50:10 EST Insight into my Habits - My Bad Ones I ate terribly for three days. I didn't binge, just made very poor food choices. I felt so awful and terrible about it, so I tried something new for a change. This time, instead of waiting a week to weigh, I went ahead and weighed myself so I could see the ugly truth right away and then get back on track right then instead of giving up for the week or dreading the scale until it was time to weigh. <BR> <BR> It totally motivated me, but I had gained way more than I had thought. How is i... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 10:00:46 EST Running Now A Bit Challenging Since it's now colder in the early mornings in Chicago, I've run into a problem, but it's not what you think. I ran when it was 53 degrees in a tank top and shorts before the sun came up on Saturday and haven't run since (I plan to this morning though)). <BR> <BR> I moved to Chicago in January, and running has become a bit of a challenge that I need to figure out somehow. I actually PREFER to run when it is cold. I don't get hot and seem to run faster for some reason, but I have exercise... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 05:28:51 EST After Consideration, A Goal Met. : ) I've been doing endurance and speed training to finish a 10k in less than 60 minutes which will end in November. I had decided today I would see how I had improved in a 5 k. <BR> <BR> I'm so torn! My first 5k in September 2011 was finished a bit over 43 minutes, and I'm sad to say that no, none of that was walking. ; ) So TODAY I finished at 33:08. Good if you consider 10 minutes faster than 2 years ago, had a hysterectomy in April, but goal was 33 minutes or BETTER. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 19:09:44 EST Thyroid Problem? Never Saw That Coming I've been feeling pretty awful for awhile - overwhelming fatigue, achy like I have the flu but I know I don't, just all of these strange symptoms so I went to the doctor today. He's pretty convinced I have a thyroid problem but I must get a blood test to confirm it. It doesn't fit my idea of what someone who has a thyroid condition would be if they had low metabolism - being overweight and unable to take any off. It doesn't make sense to me, but I must admit, the symptoms are textbook aside... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 04:06:04 EST Running Faster - So I Won't Always Be a Turtle? I always thought I was somehow defected, I couldn't get any faster when I ran. My husband, who is an incredibly fast runner (average sub 7 minute pace in 10k's which to me, is really fast!), said I should "be using your long legs to your advantage" when I run. For two years, I've been a really slow runner, and at times embarrassingly so but...running is better than NOT running! <BR> <BR> I started a program called something like Sub 60 Minute 10k in July on Runkeeper. It lasts until the b... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 07:29:24 EST One Pound to Goal! After starting this journey two years ago at 195, I am one pound away to my goal - 125. I actually reached that goal two weeks ago, although it was 125.7 (does that count, with the 0.7?), but had a hysterectomy the next day, wasn't in control of what I ate for a week, and gained six pounds! I weighed today, and 5 are now gone, so one is left. <BR> <BR> It's been quite a journey. Lots of ups and downs. Life definitely gets in the way and I had to figure out how to maintain a healthy lifes... Thu, 2 May 2013 10:10:40 EST Goal Weight - For Just A Week! I was so excited last week - I had finally gotten down to my goal weight of 125, although it was 125.7. Still, 0.7 or not, it was 125! <BR> <BR> The next day, I was on a liquid and laxatives diet (blah!), and the day after, major surgery (hysterectomy, laproscopy). When I was released from the hospital, I was in control of what I ate for breakfast and lunch as they were yogurt and a Lean Cuisine - nothing to cook, but had absolutely no control what I ate for dinner. I was supposed to do... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:50:49 EST A Couch Potato's Dream! I went to my doctor with all of my weird symptoms after intense cardio and found I have exercise induced asthma - caused by allergies which would be, I assume, exercise! But there's daily medication for it and I'm hopeful it will work. <BR> <BR> The interesting thing is...when I found I was allergic to mites (dust) which they suspected was causing asthma, doctors were so strongly suggesting to do this and that to avoid as much contact with dust as possible - get plastic covers for your pi... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 07:24:00 EST Allergic to Exercise? This is like the strangest thing ever, but it's been happening for quite some time and if ANYONE has ANY suggestions, please tell me because I'm desperate! <BR> <BR> When I do intense cardio, I get this huge allergy attack. I ran the Shamrock Shuffle 8k on Sunday, and I still have these horrible allergies - this will be the third day. Nothing works to stop them, I've tried everything. Cold medicine, regular Allegra, Allegra-D, Clariton-D, asthma inhalers, both Symbicort and the emergenc... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 08:43:51 EST The Shamrock Shuffle! After moving to Chicago in January and not keeping up my running regimen, and before that back in Dallas, getting ready to move to Chicago and skipping running so often, I was really worried about how I would do in the Shamrock Shuffle 8k. I had assigned myself to the slowest corral - K, because when I did run, I only ran 3 miles instead of my regular five, and I had no idea how I would do those last two miles. <BR> <BR> It took *forever* for the last group of people to get the start line... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 18:56:34 EST Weight Loss, But Disappointed I lost a pound and a half this week. I know I should be happy about that and that my weight is going down and not up and especially that I haven't plateau'ed, but when you work so hard all week you have certain expectations when you wake up on your "weigh day" to see how much you've lost. My clothes were fitting so much better, or some of them seemed so much bigger, I really thought I had lost more. The contestants on the Biggest Loser display the exact reactions that I am feeling when the... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 10:54:21 EST "So You're Feeling Too Fat To Be Photographed?" A photographer wrote this (not copyrighted) and it was something that totally changed my perspective of having my picture taken. I thought I would share it in case it helps anyone else on our road to weight loss. I regret not having any pictures of myself for years of my life. After reading this, I am no longer so concerned that I look perfect in every picture that people see of me! <BR> <BR> <BR> Listen. I hear you. You’re a few pounds heavier than you like (or a 100lbs heavier than you ... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 04:53:53 EST Big Weight Loss This Week! I got stressed out when I found out we were moving to Chicago and got off my normal eating habits and stopped running regularly. I gained 10 pounds and felt pretty bad about it. <BR> <BR> Last week I fully committed myself to going back to my regular routine when I was losing weight, less than that perhaps, and got back into my normal running schedule. I've lost some distance and speed, but I can still run a 5k at least. <BR> <BR> Today was the first time I weighed since getting back on... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 06:23:45 EST Running With Asthma I've had a cough that's been slowly progressive since I started running in July, and finally went to the doctor about a month ago. He sent me to a pulmonologist who diagnosed me with cough variant asthma, which I'd never heard of before he told me about it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I ran my usual five miles at the lake after using the "rescue inhaler" before my run, and oh my gosh! I can't believe what a huge difference it made! That was the most enjoyable and easy five miles I've ever had! ... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 04:57:25 EST Great Run This Morning! : ) I've been running outside since Christmas instead of on the treadmill, and like it so much better! Because it's so cold early in the morning when I leave the house ro run (around 6am), I don't get hot and sweaty, and I find the cold actually makes me run faster. This morning it was about 30 degrees outside. I think I would prefer that to say, 80 degrees. I've been running since last July, and that was on a treadmill, so I haven't experienced the hot Texas summer heat yet. As long as I ke... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 22:35:56 EST Finally Cleared for Running! : ) After having sinus surgery 2 weeks ago, my ENT finally gave me clearance to start running again today at my appointment! I'm a little nervous about it, how will my endurance have held up after not running for so long? I've missed it though, I lose more weight when I exercise, of course, than when I don't. I'd like to start running outside instead of on the boring treadmill, but it might be too cold, even if I buy new winter running gear. <BR> <BR> I'm also going to start going to a "boo... Thu, 1 Dec 2011 04:02:11 EST I Ran My First 5K! And Won a Medal! I just finished running my first 5k - the Dallas SMILE Walk and Run, and am so amazed that after training for two months with Couch to 5k I was able to finish it and run the whole way! <BR> <BR> I started out a little shaky. I was at the front of the pack when the buzzer started for the 5k and 10k'ers, so my pace was with the fastest runners, and quickly my breath got all out of whack and I realized I was running WAY too fast. I slowed down (by a LOT), and of course people kept on passing... Sat, 10 Sep 2011 12:43:02 EST C25K W8D1 I completed C25K W8D1, and I'm not going to lie, it was hard. But so was Week 7. But still, the hardest week for me for some reason was Week 4. I remember, during that week at the end of the runs, actually thinking "this is the hardest thing I've EVER done!" haha! I'm not sure what made Week 4 so hard for me. I used Week 7 to build up running for 25 minutes at my full speed. The first day I ran for 13 minutes at my full speed, then 17, then 22, then 25 (there are 4 days of running at 25... Thu, 25 Aug 2011 16:27:00 EST What Happened I've been reading "The Spark" and have been very motivated, been exercising every day, eating right, but an event in my life has really crushed me. Someone very close to me, in a long, drawn out way called me "fat and lazy" and said he "questioned his love for me". How can a person not be upset over that? I'm not an emotional eater, in fact, I've completely lost my appetite and have been eating the best I can. The most I've been able to eat since Sunday when it happened was 850 calories, ... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 02:17:25 EST An Incredible Thing Happened! As I was running on the treadmill this afternoon, a song that I don't remember putting on my "exercise playlist" started playing. "I Believe I Can Fly" by R. Kelly, I think. I haven't heard that in years! At first it inspired me incredibly, I was on my last day of my first week of Couch to 5k program, and I was thinking "YES! I can DO this! I can see this, I can believe this, it will happen!", but then everything I've been reading and doing lately all came together. <BR> <BR> I just sta... Fri, 15 Jul 2011 16:22:13 EST First Day at C25K! I just finished my first workout for Couch to 5K, and I feel great! I must admit, I didn't feel so great during the workout, it was hard, but when I was done, I felt a great sense of accomplishment. I know I can complete this program in 9 weeks and be able to run a 5k! I only burned 200 calories in 30 minutes (what? what?), but, that's 200 calories that were on me before that are no longer there, so that's only good news. And! The calories burned only goes up from here! In a way I'm gla... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 16:27:18 EST Weight Gain I gained 4.4 pounds this week, but I had OB/GYN surgery yesterday. As recently as yesterday. I weighed 166 with my jeans and shoes on, and today I weigh 170 and after eating only crackers and a bit of chicken pot pie yesterday? It's GOT to be the surgery. Hopefully it will fall off in a few weeks like it did when I had foot surgery on July 9th. And thank God I'm now done with surgeries! I had put off taking care of myself, and can't believe I let everything get so out of control. I was... Fri, 13 Aug 2010 05:22:42 EST Weight Loss This Week Somehow, I lost 4.8 pounds this week! It's very strange, I didn't change anything about what I did or how I did it from previous weeks when once I had actually gained a pound! I think it's a slow and steady race, not a fast sprint, and I can't count on the scale to accurately measure how well I'm doing on my "lifestyle change". I've never lost more than 2 pounds in one week before, so this is quite shocking to me. I had to get off the scale, and jump on it again, then grab another scale ... Fri, 30 Jul 2010 03:48:41 EST In a Better Place Mentally Wow! After reaching out to SparkMembers for support, I received so many encouraging words! The people are here are truly inspiring and great! <BR> <BR> I'm in a better place mentally. I realized had I not been watching my weight and counting every morsel of food that went into my mouth, I may have gained 5 pounds instead of 1.5 pounds last week. One SparkMember is a nurse and informed me anesthesia from my surgery can cause weight gain, and I know the medication that I was taking for a f... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 03:44:16 EST Weigh Day - Very Disappointed and Discouraged After eating a 1200 calorie diet all week along, save last Friday for my surgery when I had red beans and rice and a hamburger for the entire day, I gained 1.4 pounds. How is that even possible? <BR> <BR> I think my psychiatrist putting me on Saphris, an anti-psychotic (his most recent effort of trying to fix my insomnia) , has seriously screwed with my metablism,, and I'm no longer taking it starting tonight. I've considered that gaining weight as being part of my less than optimal activi... Sat, 17 Jul 2010 00:20:52 EST Low Cal Pizza! I made this great pizza tonight that had so few calories I was able to eat half of a whole pizza! I used 2% milk shredded cheese and turkey pepperoni. 1/2 of the pizza was only 600 calories. My husband even liked the pizza and I told him how healthy it was and he said "why did you have to ruin it?" haha! He is so ANTI health food, he won't eat any vegetable besides corn! But he also runs 5-7 miles 5 days a week, is 6 foot tall and weighs around 170, so he doesn't have to count calories ... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 20:39:21 EST But I don't WANT more Fat In My Diet! Since joining SP, I've been running the analysis on what I eat everyday when the day is done, and see that I have been struggling with getting enough "fat" in my meals. It seems so wrong that I would consciously put that statistic in my food, as I work hard to cook good, lean meals. Everything I buy at the store is low fat if it's available. Today I had 18g of fat, but it doesn't seem like I had too little. I just cook lean, and isn't that good for my husband too? <BR> <BR> I've been coo... Sun, 11 Jul 2010 19:46:43 EST Foot Surgery Down, Let the Healing for C25K begin! I had my foot surgery yesterday, and I didn't eat or drink anything from Thursday night until about 4:00-4:30p Friday. I was in true starvation mode, so I went off my diet. I think surgery is not quite such a bad reason for deviating from your caloric intake, I mean, how often does the average person have surgery? For me, it's pretty darned rare. I didn't go over 2000 calories which is "supposedly" the calories I need to just maintain my weight, so maybe it's not quite as bad as I think, ... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 12:18:23 EST Today's Weigh In - +0.3 I gained 0.3 pounds today! On one hand, I got a new scale that measures by .2 pounds instead of .5 pounds, so that could be contributing. I don't think so though. Also, maybe sleep is more important than I thought, some mornings this week I got maybe 2.5 hours of sleep, I'm really having a rough time falling and staying asleep. <BR> <BR> What's disheartening is I did not go over 1200 calories except 3 times, once at 1205, and twice at 1400 calories, the rest were like 1150 each day. I ca... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 06:47:40 EST Woke Up At 12:30a (for the day I think) Ugh! Not sleeping sucks! And to make it worse, I always wake up hungry. I popped some popcorn, 100 calories, and that seems to have done the trick. I'm going to a psychiatrist for my sleeping problem, but this is what caused me to gain 70 pounds to begin with: medication for sleeping and anxiety. <BR> <BR> The weird thing is, I usually don't feel tired during the day when I wake up this early, I'm just bored for hours until it's time to start getting ready for school. <BR> <BR> I do ... Tue, 6 Jul 2010 03:55:59 EST My Food Goals What has been working for me, how I've lost 25.5 pounds before joining SparkPeople, is eating 1200 calories per day. I eat 300 calories for breakfast, 300 calories for lunch, and 600 calories for dinner. <BR> <BR> Of course, I can't keep this up every day without going nuts! I allow myself 1 night out where I can have anything I want (excluding dessert). Even though I don't allow myself to worry about calories for that meal, I somehow still manage to stay under 2000 calories on Friday nig... Mon, 5 Jul 2010 07:10:33 EST