SHELLS514's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SHELLS514 SHELLS514's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I joined a challenge.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827054 ...and tomorrow will be my first weigh in to start it. <em>40</em> <em>192</em> I don't want to weigh; to face the facts of my behavior; but I know joining this challenge will hold me accountable so I will do it. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I saw that the others were logging in their weight on the challenge and I just can't do that. I know it seems silly; it's not like it matters and I know that but my weight has always been such a secret thing. To post it to what feels like the wo... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 15:30:14 EST Disneyland Proposal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815640 <em>337</em> The baby of our family Lindsay got engaged a couple weeks ago in Disneyland! She and her fiancée Ben have been together for 6 years so we figured it was about time even though they are just 24. She is the most precious, lovely daughter ever and we are so happy for her! They set the date for October 17th; a fall wedding here in WA state will be beautiful! <BR> <BR> I love this picture of her pointing out her ring totally calm on Splash Mountain while Ben is screaming and han... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 15:53:15 EST My Fortune Cookie! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794743 Ok, I was bad and ate Chinese food on the run yesterday...I know better but I did it anyway. BUT, the meal ended with a welcome little note from my fortune cookie. I actually said out loud...I need a good message! What did it say? <BR> <BR> <em>344</em> Focus on your long term goal ~ good things will soon happen. <em>334</em> . <BR> <BR> I like that! I need to keep my goal of getting healthy and making it to my goal weight down the road but in the meantime I need to quit using the ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 15:09:48 EST Make Over Step 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783040 Ok, here is a before and after with my new haircut. Nothing too dramatic but it feels much better! Opted to color it myself rather than pay $60 so that's on the agenda for today. Hope it turns out! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l24146659.jpg"> Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:03:08 EST I Need a Makeover! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781091 Decided to bite the bullet and get my hair cut and colored tomorrow. It is getting too long; I can't do a thing with it anymore and it looks washed out! When I have a bad hair day; which has been EVERY day now for weeks on end I find my self-confidence waning. Is that weird? <BR> <BR> Here's wishing you a great hair day! <em>334</em> Tue, 16 Sep 2014 15:45:07 EST Trying to Make a Come Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771996 I have been fighting to get back on the wagon for some time now. Been beating myself up for my lack of control and not keeping my eye on the prize which is better health and feeling better about myself. But my BFF Kim once again has been there for me and with her wise advice I am feeling better today about climbing back up on that wagon. Thank you Kim; you are always there for me and it means so much! <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I've been guilty of being a Spark-lurker, <em>198</em> sn... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:15:24 EST 52 Tomorrow~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694277 How can that be? How can I be turning 52; it just sounds so strange because in my head I have the numbers backwards...25 is more like it! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> As I reflect on another year that has passed I realize that though I complain of aches and pains I really am pretty healthy considering that I have so much weight to lose. I am so grateful for that. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I have high hopes that I will use my birthday tomorrow as a new beginning to do better before my nex... Tue, 13 May 2014 15:37:46 EST Have a Wonderful Mother's Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692110 Wishing you all a Happy Mother's Day! <BR> <BR> Here is a pic of the best things I have ever done in my entire life! <BR> My babies who are now almost 28 and 24; where does the time go? They are such a blessing and I'm grateful for them every day! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1119122095.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And the whole family taken last year: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1855530253.jpg"> Sat, 10 May 2014 17:32:41 EST Going out tonight!... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691108 <em>339</em> Tonight I am going to see The Oakridge Boys at our little renovated theater just 10 miles from home with my husband, sister and brother in law. <em>334</em> I'm not a big country fan but I do like select groups but I know these guys will be great; I'm ready for a fun time! And we got 3rd row seats! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> We are so blessed to have this little theater so close and I'm always so surprised at the big names they book there; it is one of the best things to... Fri, 9 May 2014 08:33:01 EST Productive Weekend... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687283 Boy am I beat but glad I got in plenty of exercise! Despite it raining here, er...I should say pouring buckets the hubs and I got outside and started landscaping the bank in our front yard. A project we started 2 summers ago! Here are some pics of a work in progress; it's coming along nicely, can't wait to add the bark and rocks to finish it up! <BR> <BR> Before: <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1349234597.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l20... Sun, 4 May 2014 15:17:29 EST Does this Mean I'm a Hoarder? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673199 So, I decided it was time to go through some clothes and get rid of some...you know, to make room for some new ones, right! <em>224</em> Now, I am self-conscious so I always wear an over shirt plus it looks a little nicer for work so that's an excuse too. I tackled my closet and found plenty to donate then hit my 'tank top' drawer. <em>2</em> I knew it was pretty stuffed but to my amazement I pulled out...I can hardly believe this...38 Tank Tops! <em>198</em> Several I forgot I e... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 23:45:49 EST Just some pics... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670588 I couldn't resist taking a few pictures around the yard as it is so pretty here on the coast of Washington state today. I love the flowers and pretty colors popping up everywhere. <BR> <BR> My husband loves bleeding hearts so I picked this up for him a couple years ago; it's doing good! <BR> <em>224</em> <em>8</em> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l783721791.jpg"> <BR> These are my dads tulips. He planted them in this planter he made from a log. He passed i... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 15:58:05 EST Reflecting on this Beautiful Spring Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666630 Isn't springtime lovely; it's all things new and fresh and beautiful! I love this time of year; it is so rejuvenating. Have you done some spring cleaning? It sure sets me in motion; funny how I can spend hours of exercise via reorganizing and cleaning yet can't get on the darn treadmill! I guess it's all good. Soon it will warm up and we will be busy with our little garden and greenhouse. I am already looking forward to fresh vegetables and the canning season. I'm working on resetting... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 15:22:39 EST A Window for ME...No Excuses... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651681 So, the hubs leaves tomorrow night for a trip to visit family for a few days. I elected not to go for a couple reasons; one of course being the usual "I'll go someday when I lose weight" and the other I don't speak Spanish and there will be lots of that going on and laughing with people I don't know so it doesn't sound like much fun to me plus it will save $$. I'm grateful he wanted me to go anyway and doesn't see me the way I see myself. <em>202</em> He's proud of me regardless and I k... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 15:29:45 EST It Sounds Like Nothing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640581 BUT, for me it is a huge deal. <em>334</em> I have been fighting with all my might to stop the cravings for sweets. I mean I have been like...attacked...seriously out of control. It is confusing; I have no idea why that was happening. I've always over-indulged in sweets; duh.. <em>198</em> it's part of why I am here in the first place but this craziness was just different. <BR> <BR> BUT, <em>104</em> I made it through yesterday without giving in; and not only did I 'make' it th... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 15:35:53 EST Fighting Hard to Get it Together! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636206 Ok, I am trying again. <em>198</em> I was in the slump of the century I think! <em>40</em> During that slumpy time I realized a lot of things as to why I was in that frame of mind....DUH Ralph! <em>189</em> I had stopped doing everything and I know better! Stopped water; stopped tracking; stopped shopping and cooking properly; stopped preparing; just didn't care. <em>39</em> I started not caring because I wasn't feeling good. When I get into that stage of headaches and just ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 15:31:02 EST Didn't Leave the House! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619655 So we finally got snow here on the coast of WA state. Only about 4 - 5 inches but enough that we just don't go out in it unless we need too. We aren't used to snow here or driving in it much for that matter, so there are always lots of people in the ditch etc. <em>198</em> Better to just stay out of harms way! So this turned into a completely indoor weekend and I got lots of stuff done I had been putting off including heavy duty housecleaning. Made a decision that we have too much stu... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 18:09:31 EST Day 2...Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615138 I am desperately trying to get back in the swing of things. I had gotten so far off track; wasted away the entire month of January and started the new month with a weekend of eating like it was my last meal! <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>24</em> Geez, I need to get a grip! <em>198</em> But, but!...it is day 2 of a new challenge I am in and so far so good...down .8 since yesterday so tracking, drinking good ol water and moving more is already moving that number finally downward! I... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 15:53:30 EST Busy, Busy, Busy....But it's Fun Busy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612488 So been a busy few days; haven't had a lot of time to Spark and I really need too! Today was my hubby's birthday so had family over and lots of food. I didn't over-indulge..yay! Tomorrow the fam is all headed over to my sons for his Superbowl party; so more food but some fun too! Go Seahawks! Thursday night was a date night; Styx came to our local little renovated theater so we wouldn't miss that! Had row 4 seats and midway through they let the crowd come up to the stage; we made our ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 21:19:37 EST Chicken Piccata Recipe - A MUST TRY! Omg...so much yumness~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608363 <em>4</em> You simply MUST try this Spark recipe..it is DIVINE! <em>4</em> <BR> You Must! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-de<BR>tail.asp?recipe=869064 <BR> <BR> I made mine with chicken pounded thin and replaced the onions with mushrooms and served over a cup of angel hair pasta with some steamed broccoli on the side. This is also fantastic with pork tenderloin, again pounded thin. Don't wait to try this! <BR> <BR> Tue, 28 Jan 2014 15:24:22 EST Impromptu Weekend Getaway... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606535 Yesterday morning we woke up to an unusually warm, bright sunny day, absolutely gorgeous. <em>67</em> So we are sitting in our recliners and about 9:00am the hubs says "it's so beautiful out, why don't we go to Cannon Beach (Oregon) for the day, about a 2 hour drive. <em>345</em> It has such charm; it is one of our most favorite places on the planet. We got ready in 30 minutes and headed out the door, grabbed some warm clothes just in case, a cup of coffee and shoes to walk on the bea... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 20:16:47 EST A Shakin My Head... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596407 So, I've been struggling the last few days but finally had a decent day today. I was within my calorie range though more than I like to do. My husband always beats me home, get's home a couple hours earlier than I. He is a manager at our local Walmart (yeah, I don't know how he does it!), but working there means he runs into good deals now and then and brings them home. This is what today's prize was: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l863416251.jpg"> <BR> <BR... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 22:14:17 EST Just Sayin... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594914 This emoticon kinda scares me <em>81</em> I mean...kinda ick right?! <BR> <BR> Wed, 15 Jan 2014 15:41:04 EST I Hope They Aren't Stuck Like This! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593733 So, I was looking at a picture of myself...ick, such a traumatizing thing to do! <em>198</em> Seriously, I hate pics of me, it is simply depressing. But I realized that one thing I really, really want that only losing weight will help with, besides the chin, stomach, hips, legs, everything else is that I want my arms to hang straight! <em>104</em> Ok, not up like that but down! <BR> <BR> You know, how the arms kinda bow out around the body from the shoulder down and around?? (I am ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 15:36:16 EST Migraines...Why?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588667 Ugh, as I write this I am dealing with a 4th migraine headache since Monday and I had 2 on Monday, morning and night! <em>198</em> While I am prone to migraines and have a prescription for them, I didn't have one all through the insane eating through the holidays but since restarting my plan on Monday, BOOM! <em>40</em> I don't get it, its like my body is in full panic mode because it isn't getting pure junk, idk. But it is frustrating. <em>234</em> When I don't feel good you know ... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 22:55:17 EST Some Quotes for Me I Want to Share With YOU... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585825 I love these and they are important to remember every day! <BR> <BR> I am not telling you that its going to be EASY, I'm telling you that it is going to be WORTH it. - Yes, so worth it! <BR> <BR> Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try. - So let's continue to try! <BR> <BR> TODAY just get up and GO, because yesterday you said TOMORROW. - How true is this! <BR> <BR> Getting up from a fall can make you stronger than you had never fallen. - Really think on this one, it has... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 15:26:16 EST Sunshine!!! Oh Happy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582207 I live in the Pacific Northwest about 30 miles from the coast in the state of Washington. <em>257</em> I just have to say it is cold today but breathtakingly beautiful! Clear skies earlier and sun, sun, sun! <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I LOVE days like this, it energizes me and motivates me. <em>353</em> <em>356</em> <em>354</em> I was just thinking how perfect the timing is as tomorrow I am starting my official structured RESTART plan! <em>224</em> I've been counting the days an... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 19:17:10 EST I Have Sleep Apnea...Might You? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581456 I really hate to admit that I have sleep apnea, but it is my hope that this short blog might help someone out there in Sparkland. 14 months ago I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and had to get a CPAP machine. Ugh, I hate that I need one, seriously do but I know I desperately need it. <BR> <BR> Before I started CPAP therapy I was so exhausted I knew something was wrong. I would wake up every morning with horrible headaches that I later learned was oxygen deprivation. Luckily my hubby saw... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 01:00:21 EST Learning Something New Every Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580168 This cold, rainy weather has been the pitts lately. Arthritus is wreaking havoc and the aches and pains associated with it at times are too much. I roll out of bed in the mornings and usually hobble around the first half hour until I 'warm up', limp throughout the day with a bum knee and reheat my heat pad all day at work for my lower back and neck. It makes me feel much older than the 51 that I am.. But I was reminded by a dear Spark friend that its all about our persective and how we lo... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 23:42:19 EST I NEED to Remember!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575161 This picture is of me and my husband just a couple months ago. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l650946629.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When I think of that day I remember how empowered I felt; I had reached a weight that allowed me to parasail, PARASAIL! <em>104</em> <em>248</em> I've blogged about this before but this was a serious ginormous fear especially at my weight. But this blog is about remembering that just by losing some weight, I was feeling a little better about ... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 23:58:16 EST Merry Christmas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571240 I just wanted to say Merry Christmas and blessings in the coming New Year to all my wonderful friends in Sparkland; those I've gotten to know and everyone out there seeking a change for better health as well. I am looking forward to what the new year brings; I intend to make it MY year; the year I have been waiting for; the year I become healthier and happier. I owe it to myself and to my wonderful family. We celebrated Christmas early due to my kids' work schedules; here are a couple pics... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 17:49:14 EST Got it on the Mind... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568809 Well, I haven't been doing my best with the weight loss; actually, I haven't really tried at all for some time now BUT yet it never leaves my mind. This is super big for me, as odd as it sounds to say. I realize that while I used to turn to food for comfort; mostly now I am just giving into the temptations of the holidays and I think that will be a much easier habit to break; I see progress with the comfort food eating machine I was. I am actually looking forward to when I start my new pl... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 16:00:12 EST Sad news.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564613 I found out yesterday that my cousin passed away very unexpectedly, She was healthy, fit, full of life and the same age as me, 51. We don't yet know what happened to her; it is such a shock. My best friend from high school died following complications from surgery just last August, she too was 51. It scares me; I worry that because of my weight something could happen to me and it would be my fault. I carry guilt pondering that because of what it would do to my family. These losses reall... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 01:55:53 EST Tomorrow is a month? What? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561693 Wow, just realized that tomorrow makes an entire month since I blogged which in turn is probably just about how long it's been since I've truly done anything like I need to for weight loss success. <em>198</em> I'm not sure why I have let myself veer off course for so long especially after not all that long ago I was experiencing some wonderful things because of the weight I had lost. It tells me that this will be a long journey for me; still with lots of things to 'fix'. I do feel confid... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 22:50:52 EST No Time for Me.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538741 The past couple weeks are a blur, seems I had something I had to do, be at, take care of right after work, on the weekend, every single minute dictated by everyone else and it went on and on. <em>24</em> That meant no time for what I wanted to do and needed to do like buy healthy groceries, cook, relax, SPARK! I ate on the run,whatever was easy and fast, I didn't even want it but it served it's purpose, darn that we have to eat sometimes anyway! <em>4</em> But I noticed that since I wa... Mon, 11 Nov 2013 23:05:58 EST Fear Resurfaced... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535926 So one of my good friends and I get together for dinner for our birthdays every year. It was my turn to treat so my friend chose to try a new little restaurant in town (that I didn't even know existed). As I was driving there I realized I didn't know what the seating was like there and real fear came about. <em>40</em> I mean even though this is a wonderful friend, the fear was of being embarrassed hit and suddenly I was stressed. She is a tiny person, like maybe 110 pounds and I've al... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 15:23:12 EST I, Am, Worth, It... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530322 So today is a stormy one here on the WA state coast, but now the sun is peeking out~ <em>67</em> I decided it was a good day to go through my closets and prepare some donations. My heart always turns to those less fortunate this time of year and we like to donate clothes, shoes, blankets, coats..we always seem to have an abundance by years end and it feels good to pass them on to someone in need. This year I was pleased to have quite a few pants and tops especially that are now a littl... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 19:48:54 EST Afraid to Weigh In... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529380 Oh my, I really was so very afraid to get on the scales this morning. I have been struggling to get back to my pre-vacation mode and the last 2 days before my weigh in this morning I had been getting into stupid candy! <em>198</em> I am disappointed I did that but was reminded by a great friend (Kim!) to not beat myself up over it, which is my usual behavior so I really worked on that negative self-dialogue. And low and behold I was blessed with a 1.6 loss! <em>104</em> Wow!! Really... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 15:12:51 EST I Can Feel It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525704 Yes I do, I feel the Spark coming back! <em>244</em> <em>224</em> It has taken me a full week after returning from a vacation and facing the dreaded vacation weight gain to get my mindset turned around, but I think I have! <em>521</em> I have already lost some and the more I get back into my normal, regular routine, the more I find myself excited to be back Sparking! I was sad to have to remove my 30 pounds marker on my page but I want it BACK! <em>303</em> I know I will! So ... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 15:32:53 EST I AM BACK! Here I come! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523204 So, I went on my much anticipated, long planned out fabulous vacation and it wall all I thought it would be and more. <em>298</em> I went with a bit more self-confidence having lost over 30 pounds! <em>244</em> That enabled me to go through with a dream I’ve had for years, to go on a helicopter ride of the beautiful island of Kauai. A couple days later I was amazed as I found myself signing up for parasailing! Please understand…this is NOT me, not at all!! Without losing weight I ... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 13:28:17 EST I have NO IDEA what happened! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5516615 Ok, so I've lost about 33 - 35 pounds, I am so excited about that but I have a bucket load to go. I met a big goal that as planned for over 2 years and so I am excited about that BUT this morning I did something so totally out of my comfort zone, I mean WAAAAaAYYY out. <em>40</em> I went Parasailing! <em>215</em> <em>47</em> YES, parasailing, wow can't really believe I even wrote that word let alone did that, especially with so far to go on my journey! My husband and I are celebrati... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 02:22:35 EST Blogging on Vacation! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5512700 Hello everyone! Ok, so I've whined and complained and whined some more about our 30th anniversry vacation to beautiful Hawaii. I was in a panic as I was right on the borderline to meet the weight requirement for a private tour on a helicopter (a teeny one!) on Kauai with my DH. I had stressed that I would ruin it for us, and worried and on an on. Well, as it turned out it was all for NOTHING! Yesterday, we took the tour, I made it with a little to spare. It was so exhilirating to see my ... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 22:16:27 EST Ok, I know This is Silly... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508916 I’ve been working extra hard this past month trying to reach a goal for a special trip with my husband. <em>218</em> We leave on Friday, it’s finally here after much planning! I’ve had success each week, some weeks great, others good but always a loss. <em>224</em> Then I get down to my final week, so, so close to my goal and my scales go bonkers on me, numbers flying all over the place, just…won’t….work.. So, I bought a new Weight Watchers scale <em>192</em> ….It shows I weigh 3 p... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 11:48:11 EST Ten Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501544 So, I have 10 days to lose 8 pounds <em>198</em> <em>192</em> <em>198</em> ...hmm, well that was my plan anyway. <em>20</em> I have a specific goal number I wanted to reach before we leave for our long planned vacation to celebrate our 30th anniversary. <em>129</em> I seriously doubt that goal will be met but I will keep tracking, chugging the water and exercising all I can and be willing to settle for 5 but no less! Ugh, I hope I can do this! <em>198</em> Tue, 1 Oct 2013 15:19:27 EST Here's to Hiking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496152 I’ve lost I think a bit over 30 pounds since starting Spark exactly 3 months from tomorrow! <em>244</em> I am just starting to notice some changes in my clothes. I own 2 pair of jeans, I refuse to buy any more until I go down a size. These jeans (that I am wearing right this minute) 3 months ago were getting to be too tight, so tight I wouldn’t even dry them. Now I dry them and within an hour I find myself hiking them up at the waist. <em>9</em> This funny little mannerism I have dev... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 18:21:18 EST Giving ME a Pat on the Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5492384 Just got home from a family celebration, ended up at a Mexican Restaurant. <em>198</em> I took the time before leaving to research ideas of what would be a healthy option. I decided on Carne Asada (grilled skirt steak), exchanged the refried beans with pinto beans, gave my DH my rice and tortillas, ate just 2 chips and kept myself occupied drinking water and coffee. It was great feeling having power over food and self-control as plates of massive calories swirled all around me... <em>40<... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 00:16:15 EST Fantastic Weigh In!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491191 Exciting morning for me! Finally a little milestone with a 3.2 loss! <em>244</em> This also put me into a new decade and we all know how awesome that is! <em>104</em> Now if I can just keep up this pace for the next 3 weeks I will be on track for where I want to be for our anniversary trip. <em>129</em> I can see it is within reach but I will really have to push hard. But, this loss today is motivating and I am feeling encouraged. Much of my success this week and all along real... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 13:55:29 EST Life is Short... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488465 I have let life pass me by, wasted so much precious time. I have let my weight hinder me in every way and it has taken not only from me, but from my family and I have guilt because of it. I lived all my teen years in an abusive household under the wrath of an evil step-father. To this day my mind plays tricks on me, it tells me I am ugly, I am bad, I will never be anything, never accomplish anything, not worth anything and for too long I have believed it. But I am starting to see somethin... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 16:06:33 EST Great Way to Start My Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486320 So, this morning I found a shirt in my closet I didn't even know I had. It was mixed in with my winter clothes and I don't even remember buying it! <em>246</em> I had probably stashed it away because it was too small maybe, who knows? But, I instantly tried it on and it fit! It is a bit more fitted style than I usually wear due to being self-conscious but I am fairly comfortable in it so that means I am just maybe, finally starting to see a difference. <em>244</em> But, the best par... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 15:01:49 EST Feeling Grateful :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482182 Since starting Spark on June 26th I have lost 25+ pounds! <em>244</em> Looking back on this last 10 weeks or so I can say I have come to realize that it really hasn't been all that hard. I've complained along the way as I've wobbled up and down a few pounds here and there, but I am constantly losing overall and learning every step of the way. <em>224</em> I have come to realize the biggest part of my success this time (after trying everything through the years) has been the support and ... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 23:43:19 EST