SHELLS514's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SHELLS514 SHELLS514's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Happy Mother's Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925576 Wishing all my Spark friends a wonderful Mothers Day. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I am blessed with two wonderful children and am thankful for them each and every day, they are truly my treasures <em>129</em> <BR> <BR> My little curly tops: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1411225378.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just a few years later: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1288342567.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My handsome son Dane, our 6'6" gentle giant~ <BR> <img sr... Sun, 10 May 2015 01:03:30 EST To Celebrate... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919432 ...my return to my old job after 2 loooooong months, I got my hair done. Decided to add blond streaks, I think I like it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1426983969.jpg"> Wed, 29 Apr 2015 00:58:31 EST Wonderful Day, Full of Priceless Memories... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918809 Today was wedding dress shopping with my beautiful daughter Lindsay and it was a wonderful day. Weather was perfect, 75 and sunny, gorgeous. She tried on 15 dresses and lucky number 7 was the stand out by far. <BR> <BR> This is the beautiful gown she chose. I think it is absolutely gorgeous but of course it is so much prettier in person. I couldn't be more proud of this girl, she is an amazing person and daughter, precious in every way. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 23:14:33 EST Excited for Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918487 In just a few minutes I will head out to pick up my daughter, mother and sister for my beautiful daughter's bridal shop appointments! Finally the day has come that we get to see her try on wedding dresses! <em>336</em> <BR> <BR> I know this is a memory making day so I will be snapping lots of pictures all along the way and doing whatever I can to make it special for her. It feels a little bittersweet too, a letting go of sorts but I can't be more happy for her! <em>26</em> Mon, 27 Apr 2015 11:15:39 EST These Last 2 Months Have Been Rough... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917243 BUT! I received a phone call yesterday that changed everything! Feb. 20th I was let go from my job, cost reduction. I was devastated...I felt I was in a state of denial that it happened. I couldn't let it go, checked my phone a hundred times a day, every day waiting, waiting, hoping, hoping. Then suddenly, the call. <BR> <BR> The mill manager called and said they found they could not do without admin help in the mill and offered my old job back, permanently. Same great pay and benefi... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 23:39:11 EST Ask Me Why It's a Good Day?!.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911912 ...Because I realized my jeans were getting a little baggy so I went to my closet where I have a myriad of sizes and hesitantly pulled out a couple. So excited to find that I fit in the next size down and easily too! <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> It put a little pep in my step the rest of the day! <em>224</em> Wed, 15 Apr 2015 17:46:39 EST Another nice day so... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905354 <em>185</em> I am going to get out there and pressure wash the deck and concrete slab in the back yard. then getting the hubs to help bring up the patio table and chairs! Yay! <BR> <BR> I also have several pots to spray paint some pretty colors to get ready to add flowers <em>184</em> and I really, really want to work more on getting our shed organized. This type of thing really is good for me on en emotional level. I can forget about all the what if's in my life right now and hav... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 13:16:56 EST It's a Nice Day So... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897171 the hubs and I got some work done outside! It felt good to get in that fresh air! It is sunny but still has that bit of chill in the air, perfect for yard work. If it's too hot I am worthless outside, I move like a slug! <BR> <BR> We moved around some plants, it seems to be what we do for some unknown reason <em>198</em> and got some seeds started in the greenhouse. <em>376</em> The radishes are already sprouted which is exciting! We tried a new planting technique, made a 'glue'... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 20:06:17 EST I Set a Mini Goal...and.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5884277 I did it! I am a beginner to exercise so any time I get on the treadmill is victorious. <em>104</em> But this morning I realized I was starting to challenge myself as I went along, to push myself just a little further, a little faster <em>313</em> and as I did so I found I wanted to reach that certain number by a certain number of minutes and I did it, I beat myself by 3 minutes the last time! <em>208</em> <BR> <BR> It's just a small victory in the big world of exercise but I lov... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 13:42:50 EST One Point... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872056 I reached the first 'mini' goal I had set for myself yesterday! <em>224</em> <BR> I made it by just one point but wow, such an incredible motivator! Who knew! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> It simply felt wonderful to see that number appear unexpectedly...just one little point can make such a difference in our psyche! It kept me on track all weekend and I am already looking forward to my challenge weigh in on Thursday. <em>192</em> <BR> <BR> I am so glad to be back, on track and doing ... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 20:22:18 EST Weekend Rut! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863079 So there we were...Saturday night at 5:00pm. My hubs in the recliner sound asleep, me in my subsequent recliner about to crash myself. <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> I sat there pondering this 'situation'. <em>24</em> Then it hit me... it was ONLY 5:00, it was time to get moving and do something and not just sit there like a lump! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> So I woke my husband up and said; let's get ready and go out! <BR> <BR> And that we did! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 15:33:17 EST Today is Weigh Day.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860374 ...and I was very happy with my progress. Down another 3.3. This is very encouraging of course but I realized a few things thinking back on this past week. <BR> <BR> 1) I rarely felt hungry <BR> 2) I had good size portions when I felt I needed it; but just of the right foods <BR> 3) I ate out once <BR> 4) I had cake at a birthday party (and chips!) <BR> <BR> It proved to me that 'dieting' isn't really all that difficult if you are mindful; that it doesn't have to be sacrifice and deprivat... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 15:25:20 EST Forgot My Lunch Today But.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855164 ...it turned into a bit of a victory! I left my Lasagna Lean Cuisine on my kitchen table! Drat! I have been craving pasta! <em>4</em> What would I do? If I let myself get too hungry it will throw me off! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> But then I remembered..it was Thursday! At work we have a little group lunch on Thursdays where we take turns bringing in lunch for the 7 of us. Yay! I will have food! <em>224</em> Wait <em>40</em> I will have food~ but what kind of food? <em>15</... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 16:08:09 EST Ugh...Calories Add Up SO Quickly!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851113 I ate 418 calories for breakfast! Considering I want to keep between 1200 - 1500 a day that is a huge amount. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I was appalled when I tracked up what my little healthy breakfast ended up being! <em>198</em> I had a multigrain English muffin with an egg, 1 piece of turkey bacon, half of a 2% American cheese slice, 6 oz Honey Greek Yogurt and a tiny sprinkling of blueberries and raspberries. Healthy right?! And in the right proportions too. <BR> <BR> It shows ... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 14:11:22 EST What I am Thinking at This Very Moment... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849117 I am thinking that I am so happy and grateful that I have had a good week weight loss wise; that I am getting my groove back; that I feel hopeful again, finally after what felt like forever. It feels good to begin to care about me again. <BR> <BR> That's it...in a nutshell; happy dance. <em>354</em> <BR> <BR> Thu, 8 Jan 2015 00:31:58 EST 2015 is here..Is it 'the' Year?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844023 So, I joined the Biggest Loser Challenge on December 14th and since then....I have gained a couple pounds. Not horrible, but I could be discouraged about it. However, I have decided to give myself a break; a pardon so to speak. The holidays are the hardest time of the year so smooth sailing must be ahead, right? Well, I know it can be if I keep my focus and eye on the prize. I have such great support and friends here and I know I will need each of you to stay the course; you are so appre... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 15:33:42 EST I joined a challenge.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827054 ...and tomorrow will be my first weigh in to start it. <em>40</em> <em>192</em> I don't want to weigh; to face the facts of my behavior; but I know joining this challenge will hold me accountable so I will do it. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I saw that the others were logging in their weight on the challenge and I just can't do that. I know it seems silly; it's not like it matters and I know that but my weight has always been such a secret thing. To post it to what feels like the wo... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 15:30:14 EST Disneyland Proposal! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815640 <em>337</em> The baby of our family Lindsay got engaged a couple weeks ago in Disneyland! She and her fiancée Ben have been together for 6 years so we figured it was about time even though they are just 24. She is the most precious, lovely daughter ever and we are so happy for her! They set the date for October 17th; a fall wedding here in WA state will be beautiful! <BR> <BR> I love this picture of her pointing out her ring totally calm on Splash Mountain while Ben is screaming and han... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 15:53:15 EST My Fortune Cookie! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794743 Ok, I was bad and ate Chinese food on the run yesterday...I know better but I did it anyway. BUT, the meal ended with a welcome little note from my fortune cookie. I actually said out loud...I need a good message! What did it say? <BR> <BR> <em>344</em> Focus on your long term goal ~ good things will soon happen. <em>334</em> . <BR> <BR> I like that! I need to keep my goal of getting healthy and making it to my goal weight down the road but in the meantime I need to quit using the ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 15:09:48 EST Make Over Step 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783040 Ok, here is a before and after with my new haircut. Nothing too dramatic but it feels much better! Opted to color it myself rather than pay $60 so that's on the agenda for today. Hope it turns out! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l24146659.jpg"> Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:03:08 EST I Need a Makeover! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781091 Decided to bite the bullet and get my hair cut and colored tomorrow. It is getting too long; I can't do a thing with it anymore and it looks washed out! When I have a bad hair day; which has been EVERY day now for weeks on end I find my self-confidence waning. Is that weird? <BR> <BR> Here's wishing you a great hair day! <em>334</em> Tue, 16 Sep 2014 15:45:07 EST Trying to Make a Come Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771996 I have been fighting to get back on the wagon for some time now. Been beating myself up for my lack of control and not keeping my eye on the prize which is better health and feeling better about myself. But my BFF Kim once again has been there for me and with her wise advice I am feeling better today about climbing back up on that wagon. Thank you Kim; you are always there for me and it means so much! <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I've been guilty of being a Spark-lurker, <em>198</em> sn... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:15:24 EST 52 Tomorrow~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694277 How can that be? How can I be turning 52; it just sounds so strange because in my head I have the numbers backwards...25 is more like it! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> As I reflect on another year that has passed I realize that though I complain of aches and pains I really am pretty healthy considering that I have so much weight to lose. I am so grateful for that. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I have high hopes that I will use my birthday tomorrow as a new beginning to do better before my nex... Tue, 13 May 2014 15:37:46 EST Have a Wonderful Mother's Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692110 Wishing you all a Happy Mother's Day! <BR> <BR> Here is a pic of the best things I have ever done in my entire life! <BR> My babies who are now almost 28 and 24; where does the time go? They are such a blessing and I'm grateful for them every day! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1119122095.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And the whole family taken last year: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1855530253.jpg"> Sat, 10 May 2014 17:32:41 EST Going out tonight!... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691108 <em>339</em> Tonight I am going to see The Oakridge Boys at our little renovated theater just 10 miles from home with my husband, sister and brother in law. <em>334</em> I'm not a big country fan but I do like select groups but I know these guys will be great; I'm ready for a fun time! And we got 3rd row seats! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> We are so blessed to have this little theater so close and I'm always so surprised at the big names they book there; it is one of the best things to... Fri, 9 May 2014 08:33:01 EST Productive Weekend... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687283 Boy am I beat but glad I got in plenty of exercise! Despite it raining here, er...I should say pouring buckets the hubs and I got outside and started landscaping the bank in our front yard. A project we started 2 summers ago! Here are some pics of a work in progress; it's coming along nicely, can't wait to add the bark and rocks to finish it up! <BR> <BR> Before: <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1349234597.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l20... Sun, 4 May 2014 15:17:29 EST Does this Mean I'm a Hoarder? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673199 So, I decided it was time to go through some clothes and get rid of some...you know, to make room for some new ones, right! <em>224</em> Now, I am self-conscious so I always wear an over shirt plus it looks a little nicer for work so that's an excuse too. I tackled my closet and found plenty to donate then hit my 'tank top' drawer. <em>2</em> I knew it was pretty stuffed but to my amazement I pulled out...I can hardly believe this...38 Tank Tops! <em>198</em> Several I forgot I e... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 23:45:49 EST Just some pics... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670588 I couldn't resist taking a few pictures around the yard as it is so pretty here on the coast of Washington state today. I love the flowers and pretty colors popping up everywhere. <BR> <BR> My husband loves bleeding hearts so I picked this up for him a couple years ago; it's doing good! <BR> <em>224</em> <em>8</em> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l783721791.jpg"> <BR> These are my dads tulips. He planted them in this planter he made from a log. He passed i... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 15:58:05 EST Reflecting on this Beautiful Spring Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666630 Isn't springtime lovely; it's all things new and fresh and beautiful! I love this time of year; it is so rejuvenating. Have you done some spring cleaning? It sure sets me in motion; funny how I can spend hours of exercise via reorganizing and cleaning yet can't get on the darn treadmill! I guess it's all good. Soon it will warm up and we will be busy with our little garden and greenhouse. I am already looking forward to fresh vegetables and the canning season. I'm working on resetting... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 15:22:39 EST A Window for ME...No Excuses... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651681 So, the hubs leaves tomorrow night for a trip to visit family for a few days. I elected not to go for a couple reasons; one of course being the usual "I'll go someday when I lose weight" and the other I don't speak Spanish and there will be lots of that going on and laughing with people I don't know so it doesn't sound like much fun to me plus it will save $$. I'm grateful he wanted me to go anyway and doesn't see me the way I see myself. <em>202</em> He's proud of me regardless and I k... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 15:29:45 EST It Sounds Like Nothing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640581 BUT, for me it is a huge deal. <em>334</em> I have been fighting with all my might to stop the cravings for sweets. I mean I have been like...attacked...seriously out of control. It is confusing; I have no idea why that was happening. I've always over-indulged in sweets; duh.. <em>198</em> it's part of why I am here in the first place but this craziness was just different. <BR> <BR> BUT, <em>104</em> I made it through yesterday without giving in; and not only did I 'make' it th... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 15:35:53 EST Fighting Hard to Get it Together! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636206 Ok, I am trying again. <em>198</em> I was in the slump of the century I think! <em>40</em> During that slumpy time I realized a lot of things as to why I was in that frame of mind....DUH Ralph! <em>189</em> I had stopped doing everything and I know better! Stopped water; stopped tracking; stopped shopping and cooking properly; stopped preparing; just didn't care. <em>39</em> I started not caring because I wasn't feeling good. When I get into that stage of headaches and just ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 15:31:02 EST Didn't Leave the House! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619655 So we finally got snow here on the coast of WA state. Only about 4 - 5 inches but enough that we just don't go out in it unless we need too. We aren't used to snow here or driving in it much for that matter, so there are always lots of people in the ditch etc. <em>198</em> Better to just stay out of harms way! So this turned into a completely indoor weekend and I got lots of stuff done I had been putting off including heavy duty housecleaning. Made a decision that we have too much stu... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 18:09:31 EST Day 2...Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615138 I am desperately trying to get back in the swing of things. I had gotten so far off track; wasted away the entire month of January and started the new month with a weekend of eating like it was my last meal! <em>4</em> <em>29</em> <em>24</em> Geez, I need to get a grip! <em>198</em> But, but!...it is day 2 of a new challenge I am in and so far so good...down .8 since yesterday so tracking, drinking good ol water and moving more is already moving that number finally downward! I... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 15:53:30 EST Busy, Busy, Busy....But it's Fun Busy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612488 So been a busy few days; haven't had a lot of time to Spark and I really need too! Today was my hubby's birthday so had family over and lots of food. I didn't over-indulge..yay! Tomorrow the fam is all headed over to my sons for his Superbowl party; so more food but some fun too! Go Seahawks! Thursday night was a date night; Styx came to our local little renovated theater so we wouldn't miss that! Had row 4 seats and midway through they let the crowd come up to the stage; we made our ... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 21:19:37 EST Chicken Piccata Recipe - A MUST TRY! Omg...so much yumness~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608363 <em>4</em> You simply MUST try this Spark recipe..it is DIVINE! <em>4</em> <BR> You Must! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-de<BR>tail.asp?recipe=869064 <BR> <BR> I made mine with chicken pounded thin and replaced the onions with mushrooms and served over a cup of angel hair pasta with some steamed broccoli on the side. This is also fantastic with pork tenderloin, again pounded thin. Don't wait to try this! <BR> <BR> Tue, 28 Jan 2014 15:24:22 EST Impromptu Weekend Getaway... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5606535 Yesterday morning we woke up to an unusually warm, bright sunny day, absolutely gorgeous. <em>67</em> So we are sitting in our recliners and about 9:00am the hubs says "it's so beautiful out, why don't we go to Cannon Beach (Oregon) for the day, about a 2 hour drive. <em>345</em> It has such charm; it is one of our most favorite places on the planet. We got ready in 30 minutes and headed out the door, grabbed some warm clothes just in case, a cup of coffee and shoes to walk on the bea... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 20:16:47 EST A Shakin My Head... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596407 So, I've been struggling the last few days but finally had a decent day today. I was within my calorie range though more than I like to do. My husband always beats me home, get's home a couple hours earlier than I. He is a manager at our local Walmart (yeah, I don't know how he does it!), but working there means he runs into good deals now and then and brings them home. This is what today's prize was: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l863416251.jpg"> <BR> <BR... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 22:14:17 EST Just Sayin... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594914 This emoticon kinda scares me <em>81</em> I mean...kinda ick right?! <BR> <BR> Wed, 15 Jan 2014 15:41:04 EST I Hope They Aren't Stuck Like This! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593733 So, I was looking at a picture of myself...ick, such a traumatizing thing to do! <em>198</em> Seriously, I hate pics of me, it is simply depressing. But I realized that one thing I really, really want that only losing weight will help with, besides the chin, stomach, hips, legs, everything else is that I want my arms to hang straight! <em>104</em> Ok, not up like that but down! <BR> <BR> You know, how the arms kinda bow out around the body from the shoulder down and around?? (I am ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 15:36:16 EST Migraines...Why?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588667 Ugh, as I write this I am dealing with a 4th migraine headache since Monday and I had 2 on Monday, morning and night! <em>198</em> While I am prone to migraines and have a prescription for them, I didn't have one all through the insane eating through the holidays but since restarting my plan on Monday, BOOM! <em>40</em> I don't get it, its like my body is in full panic mode because it isn't getting pure junk, idk. But it is frustrating. <em>234</em> When I don't feel good you know ... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 22:55:17 EST Some Quotes for Me I Want to Share With YOU... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585825 I love these and they are important to remember every day! <BR> <BR> I am not telling you that its going to be EASY, I'm telling you that it is going to be WORTH it. - Yes, so worth it! <BR> <BR> Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try. - So let's continue to try! <BR> <BR> TODAY just get up and GO, because yesterday you said TOMORROW. - How true is this! <BR> <BR> Getting up from a fall can make you stronger than you had never fallen. - Really think on this one, it has... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 15:26:16 EST Sunshine!!! Oh Happy Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5582207 I live in the Pacific Northwest about 30 miles from the coast in the state of Washington. <em>257</em> I just have to say it is cold today but breathtakingly beautiful! Clear skies earlier and sun, sun, sun! <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I LOVE days like this, it energizes me and motivates me. <em>353</em> <em>356</em> <em>354</em> I was just thinking how perfect the timing is as tomorrow I am starting my official structured RESTART plan! <em>224</em> I've been counting the days an... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 19:17:10 EST I Have Sleep Apnea...Might You? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581456 I really hate to admit that I have sleep apnea, but it is my hope that this short blog might help someone out there in Sparkland. 14 months ago I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and had to get a CPAP machine. Ugh, I hate that I need one, seriously do but I know I desperately need it. <BR> <BR> Before I started CPAP therapy I was so exhausted I knew something was wrong. I would wake up every morning with horrible headaches that I later learned was oxygen deprivation. Luckily my hubby saw... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 01:00:21 EST Learning Something New Every Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5580168 This cold, rainy weather has been the pitts lately. Arthritus is wreaking havoc and the aches and pains associated with it at times are too much. I roll out of bed in the mornings and usually hobble around the first half hour until I 'warm up', limp throughout the day with a bum knee and reheat my heat pad all day at work for my lower back and neck. It makes me feel much older than the 51 that I am.. But I was reminded by a dear Spark friend that its all about our persective and how we lo... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 23:42:19 EST I NEED to Remember!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5575161 This picture is of me and my husband just a couple months ago. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l650946629.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When I think of that day I remember how empowered I felt; I had reached a weight that allowed me to parasail, PARASAIL! <em>104</em> <em>248</em> I've blogged about this before but this was a serious ginormous fear especially at my weight. But this blog is about remembering that just by losing some weight, I was feeling a little better about ... Sun, 29 Dec 2013 23:58:16 EST Merry Christmas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571240 I just wanted to say Merry Christmas and blessings in the coming New Year to all my wonderful friends in Sparkland; those I've gotten to know and everyone out there seeking a change for better health as well. I am looking forward to what the new year brings; I intend to make it MY year; the year I have been waiting for; the year I become healthier and happier. I owe it to myself and to my wonderful family. We celebrated Christmas early due to my kids' work schedules; here are a couple pics... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 17:49:14 EST Got it on the Mind... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568809 Well, I haven't been doing my best with the weight loss; actually, I haven't really tried at all for some time now BUT yet it never leaves my mind. This is super big for me, as odd as it sounds to say. I realize that while I used to turn to food for comfort; mostly now I am just giving into the temptations of the holidays and I think that will be a much easier habit to break; I see progress with the comfort food eating machine I was. I am actually looking forward to when I start my new pl... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 16:00:12 EST Sad news.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564613 I found out yesterday that my cousin passed away very unexpectedly, She was healthy, fit, full of life and the same age as me, 51. We don't yet know what happened to her; it is such a shock. My best friend from high school died following complications from surgery just last August, she too was 51. It scares me; I worry that because of my weight something could happen to me and it would be my fault. I carry guilt pondering that because of what it would do to my family. These losses reall... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 01:55:53 EST Tomorrow is a month? What? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561693 Wow, just realized that tomorrow makes an entire month since I blogged which in turn is probably just about how long it's been since I've truly done anything like I need to for weight loss success. <em>198</em> I'm not sure why I have let myself veer off course for so long especially after not all that long ago I was experiencing some wonderful things because of the weight I had lost. It tells me that this will be a long journey for me; still with lots of things to 'fix'. I do feel confid... Tue, 10 Dec 2013 22:50:52 EST