SHELLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SHELLE13 SHELLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A Renewed Start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670196 Isn't it crazy how pictures can just jump you back into action?! I meet up with some of my friends on Saturday and they wanted pictures. I am not fond of pictures, I am always cringing when I see myself. And, I had come from Zumba, my hair was a mess and I forgot to bring a regular bra, so had to wear my sports bra under my change of clothes. All around, I was not keen on taking this photo. <BR> <BR> Well....I was right. It stinks. I think I look terrible and this dress used to be a little ... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 00:28:02 EST Learning to trust the process and ditching my unproductive thoughts! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5665407 Over the last week, we have had earthquakes pretty regularly here. I am very fearful of them and I have been on edge, not really eating and sleep has been terrible. I am extremely grateful that things have settled down a bit, for the time being. Not eating properly and no sleep has actually put me up in weight by about 5lbs! I am one pound away from my highest weight. Not exactly thrilled about that. <BR> <BR> But, it made me realize a few things. There is a lot in my life that I still want... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 00:54:11 EST I hear you, loud and clear, Universe! =) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621889 It's so crazy how things happen sometimes. <BR> <BR> I have had such a chaotic year last year, it's been a wild ride. My weight fluctuated up and down the same 2-3 pounds and I wasn't really getting anywhere. As of 2014, I have gotten down about 8 pounds and this week is the week I could potentially get past that mark, since I haven't been below 222 since July. <BR> <BR> I have been struggling, but I have been asking the Universe..."Please help me to help myself. I give you permission to ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 02:06:48 EST Believing In YOU is the First Step! February goals! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613337 I have struggled. I exercise. I blog. I read about health. I watch programs about weight loss. I am studying to become a Group Exercise Instructor. But, I struggle. My biggest battle is what is at the end of my fork. Or so I thought. <BR> <BR> I think that my biggest struggle is believing in myself. Believing that I can do this. Believing that I am able, capable and worthy. I know I have touched on this before, but never really realized that this is what is at the root of it for me. <BR> ... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 19:28:49 EST Frustrated....I think I am Up Again. Ugh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605101 I am beyond frustrated at this moment. This blog will be short because I am headed out to the gym to do a Virtual 5k, then I have my WW weigh in this morning. I am frustrated because I just got on my home scale and am up 5 lbs! In one week! And, I exercised Over 7.5 hours this week! <BR> <BR> Why I think I am up: <BR> 1) My food hasn't been great and I am floating between Simply Filling (no tracking) and Points (tracking). I think I slipped back into diet mode and am overeating. <BR> 2) Y... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 09:32:06 EST Fear is a Liar! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600812 I have struggled quite a bit over the last year(s). <BR> <BR> I have gone from super motivated to falling so far off the wagon that I can't even see the wagon anymore. Weight loss has been a life long struggle for me and something I will have to continue working on for the rest of my life. I get that now. <BR> <BR> I don't need to buy another program, DVD, membership, book, subscription, equipment, etc. I have SP, I have a WW membership, I have a Fitbit and I have a gym membership with 3 ... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 02:35:16 EST Lack of Routine = Up and Down Same 5 lbs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595945 I have been struggling lately. I moved back with family in August, had quit a job that was making me miserable and I was being treated unfairly due to my gender. I thought that these were good moves, personally, and they would make me happy. <BR> <BR> And they have. To a point. Moving into a household that is not yours takes some adjusting. Finding a new job has proven more difficult than I thought too. So, I don't have much spending money and I am in a city I am not accustomed too. There a... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 12:55:13 EST My New Years Reality Check...Picture! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5579690 I have been struggling with my weight for years. I do good, then I have a set back. Since 2010, I have calculated that I have lost 93 pounds and gained 113. So, I am floating up and down the same 20 pounds or so. I don't want to do that anymore. <BR> <BR> On New Years Eve, I ate really well! I decided to do the SFT from WW this time and it is working out well. I walked 4 miles, took my niece and nephew to a movie (didn't eat anything there) and even survived the NYE dinner. My friend was so... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 16:07:43 EST Enduring a Set-Back: Stupid Comments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566158 I did great on Saturday, down -2.8. Went to Zumba, was feeling good. Made it to Sunday PiYo (Pilates Yoga) and then was supposed to go to breakfast afterwards with friends. I did fine at breakfast with my food...However... <BR> <BR> There was a friend of a friend that came along with us. I have met him before and normally he is fairly nice. He does have questionable comments about others from time to time, but I only see him once and again, so I don't really pay much attention. While at brea... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 01:26:46 EST Weight Loss is an EVERYDAY thing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550734 I had a great loss on Saturday. Very excited! Worried that I might have put it back on already. Weekends are such a difficult time for me, not to mention it's just about that time of the month for me to so my chocolate cravings are going beserk! <BR> <BR> I have tracked everything though...I am out of balance with my Points Plus right now...I need to get 26 exercise points before Saturday...which is doable. But, I also have Thanksgiving within that time frame. Thanksgiving isn't as difficul... Tue, 26 Nov 2013 12:42:20 EST Day 47: Stopping the Weight Gain Train! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5541043 On Saturday, I had my WI and I was down 2.4! I was elated! <BR> <BR> What did I do? My brain said, "I got this!" and I subconsciously gave myself permission to eat with a little "indulgence." Hello! That's not how you lost the 2.4 silly! Well, thank goodness I tracked my calories...Since Saturday, I have been averaging around 2200 calories. I had one day with a less than 1600 count. But, that isn't going to get my weight down. On top of that, I have not gone to the gym much this week. <BR>... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 11:33:55 EST Day 56: Redefining My Why... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533434 Last night I thought to myself...Why am I doing this? What do I want? Why am I still struggling at weight loss? What is really going on? <BR> <BR> I am doing this because I want to be healthy. I want to be a healthy person, at a healthy weight and help others find their health again too. I am struggling because I have allowed myself to maintain old eating patterns, when I am faced with emotions. I know what to do, but I don't do it. <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> Well...the answer sounds sill... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 23:46:03 EST Day 60: The Bounce Back...I'm Possible http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529766 The last few days have been difficult. I've bounced right back into old habits and now its time to bounce back to my new ones. <BR> <BR> I did so well most of this week, to ruin it over the last two days disappoints me. I allowed myself to eat without thinking first, and I just popped back into old eating patterns. Tomorrow is a new day and I will make better choices. This week has been difficult emotionally, financially and I am feeling myself fall back into a slight depression. I can't le... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 01:57:51 EST Day 67, Count Down to New Years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524324 There are 67 days left of 2013. Yesterday was the first day of my challenge. I had a great breakfast, healthy snack and lunch. . . I did pretty well for going out to eat at a Mexican restaurant. I was still full at dinner... so dinner was simply a light yogurt. <BR> <BR> But...I did it! I didn't eat at night in front of the TV! I made it last night within my calories/PP, and I am very proud of myself! I turned down Cheetos, Tortilla Chips, Ice Cream AND Frozen Yogurt! Wowsers! Today was a b... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 00:59:41 EST Why is Night time so difficult?! The Spark Solution.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5522763 I have been struggling...today I did very, very well! I had 1744 calories for the day and was done eating. Then...then, the evening munchies started. I didn't want to give in, but I did. I had Cheetos, Nutty Bar and two hot dogs wrapped in corn tortillas! Ugh! This put me way over. <BR> <BR> So why did I do it?! I am stressed. That is no excuse. I think it's because I am so used to that. Plus, I was in front of the TV. I think I need to start eating my meals at the table so that way of eati... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 00:10:24 EST Crossroads! Don't ya hate em?! And them love em?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507986 I am looking for work. I am not sure which direction to take. I am registered with two temp agencies, have a possible part-time job that wouldn't start until December and bills are stacking up, but the money is dwindling. <BR> <BR> What to do?! This is a great and challenging time! I can do anything, which is amazing! I can do anything, which is also a bit daunting because I feel a little directionless. I think I want to do a couple of things, but right now...the bills keep coming and it is... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:53:07 EST The Cart Before the Horse! We have the lives we create...back to the drawing board! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500970 So...the strangest thing has happened...I think I really want to teach Zumba! <BR> <BR> I feel a little awkward though because I am 221 lbs! I have been dancing since I was 2.5 years old and I am now 35. So, I know I can do it. Also, I have taught dance to babies, elementary school kids and teenagers. I know I have the ability and know-how, but I am very insecure about my body. <BR> <BR> I did sign up for the Group Instructor Certification through ACE (American Council on Exercise)...but ... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 02:55:42 EST Making Changes to Live the Life I Always Imagined! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482629 I have been gone for a bit...some things have changed. In the last three weeks, I gave notice at my job without one to replace it, I moved back in with family and I spent a week in Costa Rica! <BR> <BR> I have been unhappy with my job for a while...it is time to start something new. I know logically, it was not the smartest decision, but emotionally, spiritually, and taking in the happiness factor, it was the best decision for me. Doors are opening now...it's amazing! <BR> <BR> Also, I re... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 11:17:50 EST Note to Self: Stop Beating Me Up and Then Bringing Me Candy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442286 I have been struggling. Not with exercise, surprisingly...I have gone almost 6 weeks of being active 5 days a week! Go Gym Pact! (It's an App I highly recommend if you're serious about getting and staying active). <BR> <BR> Nope, not the exercise. It's the food. Any seasoned dieter will tell you that its always the food. One M&M at a time, a cupcake here, some chips there, well...I "deserved" this bowl of cereal, I did go to the gym! How many times have I told myself I deserved something? H... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 12:38:03 EST Learning to Run, Breathe and Keep Binges at Bay! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430566 I said back in May that I wanted to start running. I did want to, I always have. I never got around to it. There was always someone telling me that I couldn't/shouldn't do it. However, this time around, that person was me! I have let my mind get the best of me and this morning when I woke up and checked FB, two of my friends has already gotten runs in. And, one of them was on vacation in THAILAND! What the heck is my excuse? <BR> <BR> So, I got up, threw my hair in a pony tail and drove (I ... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 12:12:14 EST Binge and "Future Self" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5418897 My biggest problem with food is that I allow my emotions to conduct my eating at times. I have been making a huge effort to not eat based on emotion, but on hunger. I actually dropped 5 lbs this week and made it 4 days without a binge...until last night. Now, last night was not my typical binge, it was small (in comparison). I got home around 9:30p and was feeling great, happy even! I put the food off, put the food off...I had brought food home (all of my rice, all of my beans and a taco) fro... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 12:30:14 EST Fat, Anger, Acceptance and Change...Why am I still fat after 26 years? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413364 I have been thinking a lot lately about what is propelling my weight. Recently, I have gone up and am now 6 pounds away from my highest weight. Needless to say, it is discouraging. But, rather than throw in the towel, I have been thinking about WHY. Why am I heavy? Why am I eating? Why has it been 26 years and I am still struggling? What is actually going on here? <BR> <BR> I was thinking about my past. I have said things I didn't mean, have been very defensive and always putting myself dow... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 15:22:07 EST Intuition (Spidey Senses), the Rational Mind and Weight Loss - Where are we going wrong?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392269 I just finished reading a really good book that deals with the causes of being overweight, and not necessarily food. It was called "You are WHY you eat." If you are struggling, I would highly recommend this book. <BR> <BR> One thing I really picked up throughout the book is that often, those of us who are overweight (or obese like me), tend to distrust our intuition, or as the book calls it, our Spidey Senses. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l645767494.jpg"> <BR> Whe... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 16:40:35 EST Brain Wiring...Does the old (fat) wiring every really go away??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385852 My leader made a really good connection this week...about brain wiring. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1786254736.jpg"> <BR> We have this old wiring that has patterns that helped us get to the weight we are at. This wiring is our old patterns, the unhealthy patterns that may cause us to overeat, to say we will start tomorrow, to throw in the towel because we already screwed up. <BR> <BR> Then, we have this other wiring. This new wiring that we are trying to learn.... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:59:43 EST Interesting Week in Vegas for Work...Eating Difficult! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5383018 I have spent the last week in Vegas for work. I am super tired, just drove home and got here about 8pm. I need to put myself to bed shortly. <BR> <BR> Well...lastSunday, I went and got my food to eat clean all week and forgot I had to go to Vegas! Argh! Well, I packed a cooler with chicken, veggies and fruit before I left for Vegas. I have to say, overall I thought I did pretty well. Unofficially, my scale showed 223.5 before I left. Tomorrow I have my official WW weigh in so you will know ... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 01:39:28 EST Terrible Day Yesterday...Considering Moving to Clean-Eating (Feedback pls!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363414 I was almost back on track for 3 days in a row...and yesterday just was terrible! I had a very bad binge day, of which I have not binged like that in about a year. I am frustrated with my job, it's not what I want to be doing, but I have bills and student loans to re-pay. My boss is a micromanger and has litterally told me that "micromanaging works." He has never worked for any one else in his life and doesn't understand the problems that mm causes. Anyhow, it was a rough day and after spendi... Tue, 21 May 2013 12:13:31 EST 35 + 2 Days! Still struggling with weight and men, ugh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357353 I turned 35 on Monday. I was a little worried about it...I never had an issue with 20 or 30, but the years with a "5" in it always seem to wig me out. 25 was tough, now looking back on it...I kinda feel like what was I thinking?! <BR> <BR> But...at the same time...25 was hard for the same reasons that 35 was hard this year. I am not where I thought I would be in life. Yes, I did let go of the "planning" ideals when I hit 30 and just let things happen. But the two things that were frustratin... Wed, 15 May 2013 11:35:33 EST 13 days to 35! And..Biggest Loser Auditions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340703 I thought I would be able to drop about 10 pounds before my birthday....I am about 2 pounds down. I turn 35 in 13 days and that means that I will have been trying to lose weight for 26 years now! Ugh! I really hate that it has been this long and I am still trying to work my way through this. <BR> <BR> So, I tried out for Biggest Loser last year and didn't get a call back. I had people staring me down and telling me I wasn't fat enough for the show. Of course, it wasn't the show people, but ... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 12:02:33 EST 28 Days to 35! My Challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324699 A whole lot has been going on...the one consistent thing in my life has been my weight. Although, it ideally would be going down, I have gotten on the up 5, down 5 roller coaster and it's time to get off this thing. <BR> <BR> My birthday is in 28 days. I was thinking on the plane today and a little tonight...there are changes I know I can make to get me healthier by my 35th birthday. I would LOVE to be in Onderland, but I know 16 lbs in 28 days is unrealistic. However, about 10 pounds in 28... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 02:02:27 EST Happy Friday SP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5320739 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1063952690.jpg"> <BR> Have a great weekend and be sure to eat healthy and work out! ;) Fri, 12 Apr 2013 11:24:10 EST My Suit of Armor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319549 I've been struggling...for about 26 years! I am about to turn 35 next month and I am frustrated that I am STILL dealing with my weight challenges. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1923513994.jpg"> <BR> You would have thought I would have gotten it by now. Well, unfortunately, weight loss isn't that easy! As many of us find out. It isn't our bellies we need to get right, it's our brains. Our thinking, followed by our actions (or lack thereof) is what our weight is dete... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 11:09:22 EST What You Eat in Private, You Wear in Public http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308299 I just saw the movie Flight this weekend and thought it was done brilliantly! As I am watching this movie, I am see this character, little by little, give in to his weakness. Over and over again. Even though it is not doing him any good...D'oh! I do that?! But with food! Oi! <BR> <BR> I started to think about my life. The one thing I have battled with since I was 9, is my weight. I can't ever seem to get a consistent grasp on it for a long period of time. I have given in to my weakness (foo... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 00:13:32 EST Could my big bum have gotten that way cause I "feel" too much? ?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303868 Today I listened to a webinar about weight loss. The premise was that there are people that feel too much, and without changing their diet, gain weight as a result. Now, I know this sounds so silly to those of us that are lifelong dieters...but, when I stopped to really think about it...there might actually be something to it. <BR> <BR> Apparently, there are chemical changes that do happen in the body that cause the it to gain weight during times of heavy emotion. I won't go into too much d... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 00:14:23 EST Death by Doritos, Nacho Cheesier! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301524 Yesterday, my eating wasn't great, but it wasn't terrible. Today...today was another story. I took in over 3,000 calories! That is an all-time high for me. Most of it was in Doritos and a personal size gluten free pizza. Yes, those people that think gluten free will help them lose weight are soooo on the wrong path. My little (yes, it was little) pizza cost me 800 calories after I figured out how to calculate since it was from a mom and pop place. <BR> <BR> Anyways...correlation to the food... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 02:24:52 EST Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291721 So...I really thought that song said "Time may change me, but I can't change time" and "Turn and face the strange." In reality it is "Time may change me, but I can't trace time" and "Turn and face the strain." I'm a dork! I wasn't born in the Google age, so for those of you like me...we improvised to what we thought we heard! I think I like my lyrics better! J/K! LOL! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l878125371.jpg"> <BR> Anyways...so big, huge changes. I am moving this... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 22:24:03 EST Tap, Tap, Do Over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284721 Well...I was flying high on Saturday. For the first time in a really long time, I felt happy. I have a new place to move to next week and although I love my apartment, the safety issue is a bit too much. I am moving to a safer neighborhood. And, I had received a job offer, but declined as the money wasn't very good but more importantly, it wasn't a fit for me. And...I had finished three rounds of interviews for another place and was offered a position (with great growth potential), we had dis... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 01:31:01 EST Feeling Better! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271081 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l311992661.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am finally feeling better! We hiked Griffith Park this morning and had a lovely view from the top. It was difficult today...I can tell I haven't been to the gym in a week. It's amazing how much harder things are when you stop exercising! Now that I got rid of that crazy cold, I am back on track to going to the gym and getting exercise! <BR> <BR> There is a lot of change in motion in my life right now. I need to... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 12:27:28 EST Light Bulb ON! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261708 It has been a crazy two weeks to say the least! <BR> <BR> I am not going to get into details, but I will say that I have felt pretty much every emotion a person can feel. The only thing that is clear in my life as I write this, is that I want to make peace with my body. I want her to be healthy and loved. I don't want to trash her, treat her terribly or feed her crude anymore. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I want to start to go sugar free (meaning no candy, cookies, ice cream, etc) until my 35th birt... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 04:06:54 EST Running & Worry... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247226 I have been wanting to become a runner since...well, since I can remember. I think it's because it has always been something I have never been able to do, even when I was thinner. I do struggle with my breathing, but there are professional athletes that have the same challenges, but succeed. I have been thinking about this more and more...for too many years, I have listened to people who have discouraged me from even trying. I am not sure why I listen, but I think it has something to do with ... Tue, 12 Feb 2013 02:08:27 EST Stress, Decisions and Sugary Conversation Hearts! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244513 Stress is a very strange thing. I don't think our ancestors ever had this amount of stress in their lives because the world has never moved as fast as it does today. We are constantly getting info thrown at us, interrupting us every moment of the day in the overly connected world. We carry this little device around with us that delivers calls, emails, text messages, instant messages, location markers, reminders, calendars and the list goes on. This week, I was on overload. I am a little disap... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 22:30:51 EST Frustrated. Overwhelmed. Angry. Lost. Bitten. WL...Still on the Wagon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236847 To say this past year has been difficult is an understatement. There are so many moving pieces in my life right now and I guess that is difficult for me, in and of itself. I am usually the one who is stable, knows what she wants and has direction. <BR> <BR> As of late...I feel very unstable financially, my job is also unstable which is causing the financial instability, I don't know what I want and I feel for the first time in my life... I don't have any direction. It's a very odd place for... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 09:30:51 EST Interesting Dream Last Night.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5231640 I had a really strange dream last night. I dreamt that I was at what seemed like a zoo. We were looking through the glass into a animal habitat with lots of water and these wooden structures with four sides and minimal wood. Looking up, I saw that there were people there, hanging on for dear life onto these wooden structures. They looked very frightened. I looked down below the water level, through the glass, to see large alligators! Tons of them! I saw the gators circling the wooden structu... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 11:51:44 EST Tomorrow's Gonna Hurt! Poor body of mine... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223881 So...this was me today! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1032785715.jpg"> <BR> I have been reading this blog by Katie called Runs for Cookies. She was the one who started the 10 person relay with people who have lost 100lbs or more and even included Ada from BL. Today was her birthday. She decided to do a virtual 5k and anyone could have signed up on her website. You would do the 5k on your own, around the neighborhood, at your gym, etc. <BR> <BR> Well...I signed up a... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 01:31:55 EST Bummed... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220220 Yep...the picture about sums it up. It's exactly how I feel right now. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l196972379.jpg"> <BR> Just found out that one of the jobs I interviewed for last week chose to go with another candidate. I get why they did, as they had a specific background that they were searching for. It was not my background. But, it doesn't change the fact that I feel sad about it. And bummed. And...that I have to continue working in my current job, which is j... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 13:41:28 EST Stressed and Overwhelmed...Chocolate?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218617 The two words above are always followed by the third word (chocolate) in my brain. It's been my go-to for the last 34 years. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l538906443.jpg"> <BR> However, I am happy to say, I have not ate these feelings. Though, it has been super trying! Not having that in my house has helped a lot. <BR> <BR> I am stressed about my job, not knowing what is happening with the two interviews I had last week, yet still trying to balance the jobs I have... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 12:41:09 EST The Elephant Who Wanted to be a Butterfly.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205957 I recently read a short story about an elephant that wanted to be a butterfly. The basic story was that everyone told the elephant that he could never be a butterfly because he was an elephant. He believed everyone for a while, but one day decided he wasn't going to listen to what everyone else was saying. He decided that he was going to do what he wanted to do...So, he found a way to become a butterfly! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1142273198.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I h... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 00:00:40 EST Work....I may not be in the right place?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194938 I am a medical sales rep for an independent company, with no benefits at all. I have had ups and downs with work, especially over the last two years. We lost a major line (due to a buyout) about a year and a half ago, but we were able to still keep a guarantee (minimum amount of pay, due to no benefits) and our gas card. Well, we got our gas card taken away in September last year and in November, they pulled our guarantee. Now I am on commission only. We were supposed to get paid on the 5th, ... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 12:14:24 EST To the New Year! Welcome 2013! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180461 "The past should be the past. It can destroy the future. Live life for what tomorrow has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away." <BR> <BR> "Every time you subtract NEGATIVE from your life, you make room for more POSITIVE." <BR> <BR> "The PAST is where you learned the lesson. The FUTURE is where you apply the lesson." <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l300397782.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This year, my New Years Resolution is going to be simple...it's going to be ... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 01:23:40 EST Day 17: Site Seeing Across CA, Stepping Away from the Calories! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172209 Well...it has been an interesting week to say the least. I have to go to WW to weigh in tomorrow, as I missed last week. My friend who is British, but has been living in Australia has come to visit. She asked if she could stay with me while here and I said yes. Again, still learning how to say No. <BR> <BR> We have gone all over since Friday...Solvang, Hearst Castle, San Francisco, Alcatraz, Hollywood, Disneyland (I opted out here due to work, but drove her to and fro), San Diego yesterday,... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 16:27:26 EST Day 4 , 5 & 6: Cookie Monster, Cookie Monster Returns, Bloater, Results of my Actions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5160735 If you have been following me, you know that I tend to "forget" to blog when I am not doing something I should be doing. It is a silly pattern of mine, and yes, it is childish. I don't mean to, but I am trying to work on it. Which...is why I am posting today. <BR> <BR> Day 4 was Thursday....Thursday I was emotional. Unhappy again back at my old job and on commission only now, so stressed about finances. What did I do? I had good intentions and put gym clothes on in the morning...Well, I ende... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 02:25:08 EST