SHELEEN1's SparkPeople Blog SHELEEN1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Then And Now... My eldest daughter wanted to show a friend of hers how I looked, so my youngest daughter took a photograph to send... <BR> This was me about a year ago after I had already lost some weight (with my middle daughter)... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Me with my ex-husband, eldest daughter and my son (I'm the blonde lol) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And,... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 18:16:03 EST Weigh-In Two pounds lost... and I feel a bit disappointed actually. Whilst not trying, and eating in a normal way and having treats, I was losing a pound a week - this last week I have really tried hard, and lost just a pound extra. Funnily, I got on the scales on Friday, and it registered a 3lb weight loss - three days later and I'd gained a pound lol. <BR> I'm walking 2 miles a day now at an absolute minimum, and realise that I do need to do other exercise to tone up and strengthen my muscles... but... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 15:33:51 EST Weigh-In Another one down - just the one pound again... and, again, I'm happy with that. This week, I experimented with eating 'normally'... well, as normally as I can with my intolerance towards so many foods lol. <BR> I had cous-cous with tomato-infused oil and a dairy-free butter substitute, crisps, chocolate (only small pieces), burgers, pizza, chilli-dogs, and I even had small amounts of bread! I wanted to find out if it would be easy to maintain my weight when I reached my goal. I have managed t... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 17:58:40 EST Weigh-In Just one pound down again this week - but I am still okay with that :) <BR> A huge part of me still wants to drop at least 5 pounds a week, but I know that, realistically, at my current weight it's just not sustainable. I would say that 'slow and easy wins the race'... but it's NOT easy. It's damn hard not to eat pizza every day lol. <BR> Weighing in at 164 pounds today is okay :) Mon, 6 Jun 2016 07:04:59 EST Motivate, Don't Hesitate! Last week, I could have had support - but I chose not to reach out. If I ever want someone to tell me to 'buck up!' or 'Don't you dare eat that rubbish!'... well, then I call my eldest daughter. Last week I didn't want someone telling me "NO!!", so I didn't phone her... and that led to regrets. She telephoned me today, and that made me realise that I SHOULD have contacted her when I felt my willpower weakening... she'd have given me the boost and resolve to carry on with the RIGHT path. <BR> ... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 08:54:53 EST Weigh-In Well, this last week has seen me drop another 2 pounds. <BR> I know it would have been a LOT more if my eating habits were better - but two pounds is a success in my book :) <BR> <BR> I have decided to change the way I shop... <BR> No more buying things to eat that I know I shouldn't - especially with my dietary intolerances. <BR> Tonight I had bread AND milk... not good at all. I am now bloated, burping, gurgling, and spending way too much time on the toilet! <BR> I am going to fill my cupb... Sun, 29 May 2016 17:31:43 EST Busy Busy Busy...! I have had a pretty good week :) <BR> Wednesday I visited with a friend, Thursday I went to Exbury Gardens and walked (slowly) for over three hours around the beautiful gardens and woodland <link> </link> <BR> Friday I had a wonderful shopping trip with my future daughter-in-law (she's French, and incredibly chic), my son, and my lovely mum. Today, I have done some gardening and went out on a motorcycle ride with my darling husband. What was fun about today was that I have... Sat, 28 May 2016 17:12:53 EST Weigh-In... I weighed myself a day early... I couldn't bear to wait another day to see if I had gained again - but it's good news! I have lost - just a little - but it's another small step towards my goal, so I am incredibly happy. <BR> I am now 11 stones and 13 pounds - which is 167 pounds in total. Seeing the scales start flashing with the number '11' was such a brilliant feeling - I can barely wait to see the number getting lower again :) Sun, 22 May 2016 16:58:12 EST A Stupid Way Of Thinking... My poor little Yorkie isn't well - it's already cost a fortune in vets fees, and we're no closer to finding out what's wrong really. It's a game of "Wait & See"... which is why I believe I'm feeling down. <BR> However, feeling down is one thing - but the my train of thought today has been ludicrous! I mean, I've been a complete idiot... selfish, stupid - and completely OTT. <BR> It started with Barkley McScruffles (my doggie) and just got increasingly daft when I went shopping. There was a de... Sat, 21 May 2016 15:51:09 EST The Herb Garden ... The herb garden... and the rest of the garden too - from overgrown and wild to a bit more tamed :) <BR> The garden was bare except for the lilacs when we moved in... so the first thing to add was the fish pond, followed by the decking, swing seat and the sheds, and then my summer house - all built by my darling hubby (with a little help from me). <BR> <img src=""> <img src=" Mon, 16 May 2016 15:46:43 EST Weigh-In So... Between Monday and Friday last week, I gained 6 pounds - not good at all. Between Friday and today, I lost 3 of those pounds - so I gained a total of 3 pounds. Still not good - but at least I did have that weigh-in at the doctors which has made me realise the weight-gain and allowed me to do something about it. It's amazing how a 6 pound gain can make the gardening seem so much more appealing lol. <BR> I am hoping to post some garden photographs in the next few days - I just have to fin... Mon, 16 May 2016 14:42:49 EST HERBS!!! I have a herb garden! It's not finished yet - I have to wait for the Moroccan mint, dill, parsley and sage plants to arrive - but everything else is planted, and I'm so happy. I have tomatoes, runner beans, rhubarb, bell peppers, and strawberries growing too - with organic slug repellent and natural pet repellent scattered all over the bed too :) <BR> The herbs are going to be fantastic - I already have a huge rosemary bush in the corner of my garden that is used almost every day, but in my h... Sun, 15 May 2016 13:19:36 EST Hard Work! To help combat my low feelings after a 6 pound weight gain, I decided to mow the lawn. Well, that's how the afternoon started... After about 6 hours, my garden is looking quite tidy - I pulled up weeds, cut back bushes - even pulled up a small tree trunk! I have also cooked 3 dinners, cleaned the kitchen, and sorted the washing. <BR> All-in-all I probably spent about four hours doing the gardening, and am hoping that by next week I'll have given myself a bigger push towards losing that extra ... Fri, 13 May 2016 14:22:36 EST ARGH!!! I had to go for my annual review for both my diabetes and asthma at the doctors today. Part of the health-check was a quick jump on the scales... something I usually dread, but I wasn't worried at all today - until I actually saw the needle rising way too high. <BR> According to the doctors scales, I had gained 6 pounds - since MONDAY! Surely there was some kind of mistake? As soon as I got home, I got on my own scales - maybe they would be more honest and accurate? Yes, they were - VERY hone... Fri, 13 May 2016 07:25:26 EST A Special Day This Saturday past, I did something I haven't done in about seven years... I went for a pillion ride on hubby's motorbike. <BR> What made this day extra-special was actually not being able to squeeze into my leather jacket. Hubby is VERY strict on proper biking gear - leathers, tough gloves, boots, decent helmet - and so I had to get all the gear on. But maybe you've just read back on what I have written, to make sure I really did write that I was "NOT... able to squeeze into my leather jack... Mon, 9 May 2016 21:52:12 EST Weigh-In... I decided that from now on, I would be weighing myself wearing 'normal' clothes instead of just a lightweight nightgown - after all, I wouldn't wear a flimsy nightdress for every day wear! <BR> So... today my weight (fully clothed) is 170 pounds. <BR> Because of my bad choices during the last week, all the efforts made walking the dog and trying to keep active were a waste of time - though if I hadn't gone out, imagine the weight gain I could have had! <BR> Today is a new day... <BR> I put m... Mon, 9 May 2016 12:50:58 EST Before The Weigh-In... I have had a very bad week... <BR> I've been in terrible pain, which has meant that I have limited any exercise to just walking the dog each day... and I have made terrible choices with my eating habits. <BR> My meals have included: <BR> hotdogs <BR> burgers (WITH cheese) <BR> Huge panini sandwiches <BR> chips (the fried kind from the UK) <BR> crisps <BR> sun dried tomatoes in oil <BR> stuffed olives <BR> rolls and sandwiches filled with sandwich spread or cheese <BR> pizza <BR> garlic bread ... Sun, 8 May 2016 21:04:32 EST I Am... I am overweight, fat, wobbly, rotund, saggy, wrinkly, overtly rubenesque, curvy, and may have more rolls than the local bakery... but one thing I am NOT any more, is obese. <BR> According to my BMI, I am now just one pound under the weight I need to categorise myself as obese - so now I am just overweight... and here's hoping within the next 6 months or so, I will be able to get into the 'normal' range :) Tue, 3 May 2016 10:31:12 EST Weigh-In... I am having a 'low' day... feeling very 'bleugh'. <BR> My weigh-in was a good one - though I have no idea how or why - once again I have been quite indiscriminate about my eating habits last week - maybe if I'd had a gain it would jolt me into healthier choices. Still, I should be ecstatic over losing a whopping 5lbs... so why I have got 'the blahs'? <BR> Mon, 2 May 2016 08:03:37 EST 48 Hours... In the past 48 hours, we have had almost every weather known... <BR> Brilliant sunshine, snow, rain, thunder, sleet, hail, frost, fog, mist... <BR> How very English lol <BR> <BR> I have still walked the dog every day - the poor wee thing has been frozen, soaked, heated up... and still he wags his tail when the collar and lead come out :) <BR> <BR> Today was a special treat day for me - unexpectedly. My darling husband has painted the kitchen, and hung a gorgeous chandelier in the bedroom. T... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 15:41:51 EST Weigh-In... I lost 3 pounds last week... <BR> The scale actually read a 4 pound weight loss, but it was early in the morning, and I was dehydrated... so I discounted one pound. <BR> I have enjoyed a week of picking, eating almost whatever I wanted and not doing much exercise - so I think I can say that I have been very lucky to have shown a loss at all. <BR> I do want to try harder... but that kind of fell apart when my daughter bought a pizza whilst she was visiting today... Still, I only had one slice... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 17:14:44 EST I'm All Behind... ... and I mean, I'm all behind in getting things done today - not that my backside has grown out of proportion lol. <BR> I have been out visiting my dearest friend - and snacking a lot too... and haven't managed to walk the dog, prepare dinner for tomorrow or tidy the house. <BR> Looks like it will be a long night for me. <BR> I can't sleep if the kitchen is a mess - it's like the washing up and cleaning are calling to me as I lie in bed - and so it just has to be done! <BR> Best walk the do... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 14:18:48 EST A Wet & Grey Day... Poor Barkley had a walk in the rain today - the same usual distance took us twice as long. I kept telling him it was for his benefit and not mine - but we both knew that wasn't quite the whole truth :) <BR> I actually quite like the rain - it's just the soggy feet as I walk through the park that I find uncomfortable. The grass had not long been cut, so the wet grass cuttings stuck to my shoes and were flipped up onto my legs... which could have been worse - at least it wasn't too muddy as wel... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 13:10:00 EST Little Pickers... I've said it before and I'll say it again - <BR> "Little pickers have big knickers!" <BR> <BR> I picked and picked all day Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday... and managed to gain 2 pounds. Ah, well - can't put back the clock. I have been picking today too - but not as much. <BR> I actually feel pretty good. Today I tried on one of my goal dresses to see how far I needed to go to fit into it... and I'm still wearing it now because it fits! <BR> <BR> Clothing is a pain... <BR> Why can't all the... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 11:36:24 EST Disturbed Sleep... The past few days, I have really pushed myself - from cleaning and clearing, to walking those extra few paces. I cook and clean, take trips to the shops, and unnecessary journeys up and down the stairs... <BR> It all sounds incredibly good - but I can't seem to wind down at the end of the day! <BR> My sleep pattern is now so bad, I'm considering a visit to see the doctor. My tinnitus is also playing up rather badly, and this doesn't help toward a restful night either. <BR> I've tried all the... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 20:50:50 EST A Letter To My Body... Dear Body, <BR> We've been through a lot, you and I - had so many ups and downs, that's it's hard to know how to begin writing this letter to you. <BR> I should start with an apology... <BR> I'm sorry I have put you through so much. You have been amazing - through pregnancy and childbirth, fighting illness and heartbreak... and in return, I mistreated you. <BR> Let me start from the very beginning... <BR> I resented you when I was a child - you were fat and had 'cutsie' little nicknames from ... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 00:23:49 EST BMI A bitter-sweet post today, concerning the dreaded BMI calculator. <BR> Three months ago, my BMI was over 40 - I hate to think what it was before then! I have been 'clinically morbidly obese' a couple of times before - and with a BMI over 40, was classed as 'morbidly obese'. <BR> Today, I had my BMI measured again, and was so happy to see that it had reduced substantially... 32.7. That's the sweet bit... the bitter part is that I am still obese. I have between 15-17 pounds more to lose before... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 23:51:21 EST Work = Exercise = Pounds Lost (I Hope) The past two days, I worked over 14 hours in changing and sorting rooms in my home... The main objective was for me to get my dining room back (it's been a craft-room for over a year), but that sort of hasn't worked out yet lol <BR> I'm getting rid of a lot of items - clutter, things I haven't room for, charity shop items to give away - and all of these items are currently stacked up against one wall of the dining room - but at least it's the only room in the house that needs to be sorted - o... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 21:40:32 EST My Achy Breaky... Body... lol For well over a year now, my craft room has been taking over my old dining room... and what used to be the craft room is a spare bedroom. This is now changing... <BR> I have spent all day trying to sort out the crafting items, and getting the craft room back upstairs to the spare room. The spare bed is folded up under my own bed (poking out - it really doesn't fit! lol) and I ache from all the carrying and lifting I have had to do up and down the stairs (eight drawer units, each with four dra... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 13:03:53 EST Jealousy... Late last night, I found myself chatting to an old friend who was having a really hard time. It ended up with me going to meet her at 3.30am to bring her back to mine for a coffee and a chat. Many years ago, this friend and I were 'The Fat Ladies' together - I lost a lot of weight, and she remained much the same. A few years ago, she managed to lose all her weight, and I was so proud of her. Before last night, I hadn't seen her for a couple of years... and was shocked by how thin she had beco... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 19:40:25 EST Weigh-In... I lost 5lbs last week - quite surprising, again! <BR> I celebrated with a trip to the local town centre to buy lots of ingredients for risotto, and to meet up with two of my children. Then I came home and had a bit of a chow-down :( <BR> Still, I HAVE had a bit more exercise today, so it'll be fine I expect :) <BR> I'm now at the stage where I find it hardest - that 185lb point where my body likes to stay... but I'm ready!!! :) Mon, 11 Apr 2016 14:33:40 EST Getting Into A Rythm I think I'm finally getting used to this lifestyle change malarky :) <BR> I did get tempted this evening by my own hand-made veggie pizza, and had half a slice - regretfully, I might add, because the small amount of cheese has already started giving me 'tummy grumbles'. BUT... although I wanted to sit and eat about four slices, I knew I couldn't and simply made myself a coffee, had a drink of fizzy water too... and enjoyed others eating my creations and liking them a lot :) <BR> I've managed ... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 15:26:00 EST Admission... I have an admission... <BR> My name is Sheleen, and I am a feeder. <BR> It's absolutely true - I think it's part of my Jewish heritage lol <BR> People visit, I feed them. <BR> Someone cries, I feed them. <BR> People laugh, I feed them. <BR> Someone is unwell, I feed them. <BR> Watching a film? Let's have some food too. <BR> Listening to music? Nearly a party then... food time! <BR> People are happy, I feed them. <BR> People are sad, I feed them. <BR> Out shopping...? It's the only time I won'... Sat, 9 Apr 2016 13:12:30 EST Busy Busy Busy...! Just had my hair done, did some shopping, cooking three different dinners right now... THEN I am picking up my mum and niece and we're going to the hospital to see the new twins. After I get home, I'll still have to take the dog for a walk and tidy up... I'll be sweating off pounds at this rate! lol Thu, 7 Apr 2016 12:10:06 EST Twins !!! :) My daughter had her twin girls this morning - mum and babies doing very well, though mum is very, very tired :) <BR> I'm pretty exhausted myself, staying awake all hours waiting for news... but so happy now the wee girls are born and everything is okay. <BR> Wed, 6 Apr 2016 10:22:04 EST Replacements, Alternatives, & Substitutions :) I was looking through some ideas of how to replace unhealthy or high-fat and high-sugar foods with something more healthy, and not much appealed to me really - so I thought I'd list a few of my 'alternatives'... <BR> <BR> Cheesecake... Oh, how cheesecake can be missed - but here's my alternative: <BR> Get some low-fat/low-sugar digestive biscuits, and spread one with a teaspoon or so of Philadelphia Extra Light. Top with sliced fresh fruit - a strawberry or a bit of banana... mini cheesecake... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 10:43:35 EST All On Tenterhooks! My daughter has been on the labour ward for almost four hours now... and she is sat up in bed calmly knitting lol. No signs of the twins wanting to see the world outside of mummy's belly yet :) <BR> I so want to get out, walk the dog... do something! But with huge blisters and no plasters, I'm stuck for now... though I did do 10 minutes jogging on the trampoline - I can't believe that uses up less than 50 calories! I am so shattered from those ten minutes - but I guess it's what exercises you... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 10:25:44 EST Weigh-In... I actually forgot to weigh myself this morning - such a turnaround from my scale-obsessed self a few weeks ago lol. <BR> I expected to have maintained my weight, or maybe have gained 1 or 2 pounds... but I am so shocked that I lost FIVE pounds last week! <BR> Not that I am allowing a five pound weight loss to excuse my pizza-binge on Saturday - I'm hoping I can stave off that craving for at least another month... I actually think that the walking every day - although just under a mile only - ... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 08:57:37 EST Blisters! "An ounce of prevention is better than a pound of cure" my Nan used to tell me, and how I wished I had remembered those words sooner. Yesterday I wore my new boots for our family trek in the New Forest, and although I wore good thick socks too, I knew before I even started off walking that I would get blisters - and I have. My Nan's voice was in my head half way round the walk with those wise words ringing in my ears... "Too late!" I thought to myself. Today my heels are red raw and painful, ... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 08:29:33 EST As Predicted.... Exactly as I said I would yesterday, today I am feeling up-beat, positive and am looking forward lol. <BR> I knew I would - and I think a walk in the New Forest helped a lot too - and a little gardening. It's just started to thunder here, and I love that deep rumbling sound (when it's not my belly lol). The rain is gently falling on the windows, the dog is tired from his walk and is curled up by the fireplace, and the three twenty-something's I have in the house are chatting and laughing. It'... Sun, 3 Apr 2016 13:33:11 EST Oh, Dear! I gave in... I phoned up Petrony's Pizza and drove there to collect a medium deep pan cheese and pizza and a pack of twister sticks - it was soooo good. BUT then the inevitable happened - half of it rushed to go down and the other half raced to come up again. It was not a pleasant sight. In fact, it was not a pleasant feeling at all! Driving there to collect my meal, I already had pangs of doubt... this was gluten and lactose - my body just doesn't like those things! This next bit may be a bi... Sat, 2 Apr 2016 13:39:35 EST Bored!!! I am bored... <BR> I have walked the dog, filled the freezer (again) with loads of home-made meals, done any housework that needs to be done desperately, and am now sat here with my i-pod blaring out (neighbours are just getting what they give out lol). <BR> So... what now? I could exercise some more - but to be honest, my pain threshold is very low right now and my back pain won't allow me to do that. I guess there's always another sort of the wardrobe...? A trip into the attic to find all t... Sat, 2 Apr 2016 09:53:37 EST Dog Is Okay :) Barkley McScruffles had his trip to see the vet today - and he's okay, thank goodness :) <BR> Apparently, he suffers from colic, poor wee boy - but it's not serious. I'll just have to gently rub his belly and keep him calm when he gets a bit off colour with a gurgly belly. <BR> I was a bit worried, I'll admit - but I seem to have coped with the usual hazards of being stressed or worried. I haven't over-eaten (though I have been 'picking' a lot today), and kept myself busy with cooking, and wa... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 15:53:30 EST Mooli! I have finally discovered a place where I can buy fresh mooli (think it's also known as daikon or Asian radish...?). I was on (yet another) shopping trip with my mum and niece, and as we went to The Marlands shopping centre in Southampton (to stop at Fredericks Chocolate Shop - such a test of willpower for me!) I took a quick look at the Fruit'n'Veg stall near the entrance... There it was - Mooli! Two large for just £1 - though I was disappointed that the leaves had been cut off, as I love th... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 19:54:23 EST A HUGE Thank you :) I am always so heartened by the comments left on blog entries I have made. The blog post previous to this one is one in point - so many fantastic suggestions, words of encouragement - and of course, always the motivational words. Please read these words, and take them as a deep and personal thank you to all of you :) Thu, 31 Mar 2016 19:36:25 EST Just A Dream...? Every night, I feel the urge to exercise, and promise myself (as I drift off to sleep) that as well as walking the dog every day, I will bounce for half an hour on my mini trampoline... I dream about the satisfaction I would get from becoming fitter, the rush I would get after exercising... <BR> And then I wake up in the morning full of aches and pains, and try my damndest to get up and get ready to take the dog out. Dreams of mini-trampoline jogging fade away... and I never get around to sta... Wed, 30 Mar 2016 08:20:23 EST Poor Little Doggy... Hubby and I went for a walk along the shoreline today... stony and hard going, we walked approximately 1.75 miles. Our poor little Yorkshire Terrier, Barkley McScruffles, was so worn out by the end, he slept on the back seat of the car and couldn't even muster enough energy to get out of the car when we got home. <BR> Now it's time for a quick shopping trip to get my dinner for tonight - baked courgettes with red onion and sweet tomatoes, with a citrus dressing... gonna be gorgeous! Tue, 29 Mar 2016 10:04:33 EST Weigh-In Well, a 3lb weight loss this week - more than I expected, to be honest. I have 'upped' my calorie intake, but it's been one helluva busy week :) so I guess that's evened out the 'calories vs exercise' ... <BR> I actually wore a pair of jeans outside on Friday - and shocked my daughter who said I looked amazing :) I still have to regain the confidence I used to have - but I'm hoping that will come with success. <BR> I have noticed a strange change in my viewing habits on the television... the... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 08:44:44 EST Little Pickers... I have been 'picking'... I made some gorgeous veggie fajita mix for my family, and couldn't help myself from eating as I was making the food. I kept on with that little mantra: <BR> "Little pickers wear big knickers"... <BR> ... BUT it didn't help. I figured that I have had a busy enough week to have a little pick lol. It's actually made me feel a bit better - I'm not beating myself up for a few mouthfuls of fajita filling - it's not often, and the only down side was that I became a little il... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 07:17:13 EST Tired! What a few days I have had! Of course there was the scan on Tuesday - lots of extra walking :) then I had a Wednesday shopping day, Thursday I went to see my pregnant daughter again for her birthday... and then today I have been shopping for a few hours with daughters and grandchildren. I have still managed to walk the dog every day - I figured out I am walking nearly 0.9 miles with the dog every day. I thought Barkley would 'cry off' on Thursdays walk as it was raining - but he just loved ... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 12:54:22 EST