SHELEEN1's SparkPeople Blog SHELEEN1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Weigh-In Another 2 pounds down this week - that final goal is in sight - and then the really hard work begins... maintaining :) <BR> I have a consultation with a doctor on Monday to see if I can get surgery for excess skin removal and breast augmentation on the NHS... it's not looking good though and I think I'll not be eligible for surgery. I will fight on and keep asking - as it really is affecting my mood and my health in general. It just angers me that if I had gastric surgery (bypass or banding),... Fri, 14 Oct 2016 13:42:54 EST Oops! Yesterday, I fell in the street... and after seeing the doctor today, have been told that I have actually cracked my 4th 5th and 6th ribs, caused trauma to my lung lining, have probably chipped the bone in my elbow and shoulder, and have bruising too - all on my right side. That's the bad news - but every cloud has a silver lining, right? <BR> The doctor told me that I must avoid housework, bending over, sudden movement, lifting anything - especially using my right hand, being sick and sneezi... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 17:58:43 EST Weigh-In I gained this week... just one of those things I guess - I've not really changed my eating or exercise habits, so I suppose my weight increase is just down to bodily fluctuations :) <BR> I am a bit peeved about it though - I am nearly back up into the 'overweight' category - and I do know that shouldn't bother me, but it really does. <BR> A few days ago, mentioned to my daughter and hubby that I thought my belly was beginning to protrude a bit - a woman notices every little change, after all... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 18:56:11 EST Weigh-In I only managed a 1lb weight drop this week - I'm pretty sure that these last 12 pounds I have to lose are going to be the hardest ever! <BR> I'm trying to stay positive after my disappointing news from my visit with the doctor this week - I just am fed up with my own selfish attitude, and also a bit angry at myself for never feeling happy with what I have achieved and the body I am left with. <BR> Soon enough, my mood will change for the better, and I'll be back to being more positive - I hop... Sat, 24 Sep 2016 18:31:32 EST :P Blah Day My doctors appointment did NOT go well today. <BR> I was informed that 'tummy tucks' and 'breast augmentation' as well as 'thigh lifts' are cosmetic procedures, and therefore are not available on the NHS. <BR> I told the doctor that I knew of 3 people who had all of the above procedures, and she did waver a little bit, saying that she would investigate avenues to see what she could do for me - but she didn't hold out much hope for any success. Then she told me that if I had lost my weight thr... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 20:30:32 EST I'm There!!! I have reached my weight loss goal... I still can't believe it! <BR> I am now aiming to lose an extra 10lbs, and then will come the REALLY hard bit - maintaining the final goal weight. I'm actually quite scared and worried. It's always in the back of my mind that I'll fail massively and become very overweight again. Since two years ago, I have managed to go from just over 300lbs to 137lbs - something I thought I would never achieve in all honesty. I think my willpower really kicked in round a... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 09:47:06 EST Weigh-In Another week passes, and another weigh-in is here. I haven't been myself lately, and it all came to a head last week when I felt dizzy and really unwell. The problem is a rather personal one - although we do joke about it at home. I had become quite seriously anaemic due to ...ahem... haemorrhoids. Yes, the dreaded piles were playing up and it was not pleasant in the least. Still, I am recovering now and feeling a little more up-beat ... though I am still very tired and quite weak. <BR> Right... Sat, 20 Aug 2016 17:42:56 EST Weigh-In This week has been really difficult for me. I feel lazy and tired, and have had to push myself every day to keep on track. The hard work and effort have paid off though, with a 3 pound weight loss. I just wish it was all a bit easier lol Sat, 13 Aug 2016 11:37:24 EST Some People... I have reached that stage in my weight loss where a lot of people are saying "Oh, you don't really want to lose any more weight do you?". Well, actually, I DO want to lose more. I want to reach a healthy 'normal' BMI and feel like I don't have to worry about gaining a couple of pounds on those fluctuating weeks. <BR> My BMI still classes me as overweight - and I have little muscle tone, so I do really need to have a 'normal' range BMI. I want - and NEED - to feel really good about myself, and... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 10:40:08 EST Weigh-In This week is EXACTLY the same as last week... <BR> No loss, and no gain. <BR> I have been trying to keep up a walking regime - but in the heat we have here it's not easy lol. (I HATE the heat!) <BR> I've been pottering in the garden, and trying to walk two miles a day - it's jut that everything seems to be a struggle at the moment. Maybe a kick up the backside will work wonders? lol <BR> <BR> Here's hoping next week will see a drop - though I do know that it is ME that has to make the eff... Sat, 6 Aug 2016 12:20:28 EST Weigh-In I weighed myself on Sunday, and discovered that after a week of exercise and moderation, I lost.... <BR> NOTHING! <BR> Actually, throughout the week, after a weigh-in at the doctors surgery, I found I had actually gained a whopping 7 pounds! Thankfully that extra 7 pounds seemed to vanish three days later on my weigh-in... but I have no idea why or how the weight went on, nor how it disappeared again lol <BR> I am actually 1lb heavier than the previous week - but didn't record that extra poun... Wed, 3 Aug 2016 17:01:44 EST Weigh-In I am ecstatic! I have finally reached the stage where, when I stand on my scales, the first number that comes up is a 10... now, it may be in the high-ten's - but it's still a ten :) <BR> I do believe that a lot of this weight loss has to do with the hot weather - I just suffer so badly and lose my appetite for anything stodgy or dense and heavy. I also drink a lot more water. <BR> Unfortunately, I also exercise less - but I guess the appetite and lack of exercise kind of off-set each other a... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 10:56:18 EST Too hot! I don't cope with hot weather very well - apart from hating the feeling of being hot and sticky, my fibromyalgia plays up - even affecting my eyesight! <BR> It's a quarter to four in the morning here, and I have just finished a 2 mile walk with the dog - I really don't think either of us will cope with a walk in the afternoon when the temperature will be in the high 20's. It was quite refreshing tonight though - and so beautifully quiet :) <BR> The moon now has the most amazing orange-y hue, ... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 22:49:12 EST Weigh-In OMGness... just weighed myself a bit early, and have discovered that I dropped 3 pounds this week! I'm a very happy bunny - I just wish I knew what I had done to deserve this weight loss :D I was better at exercising and healthy eating the previous week, and lost no weight at all! I don't know about what men go through... but women's bodies are downright weird when it comes to weight-loss lol. <BR> <BR> I tried on a pair of jeans I bought in the sales that had previously been too small, and ... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 19:11:03 EST Never Take A Short-Cut There aren't any true short-cuts to losing weight and maintaining a healthy lifestyle... <BR> When you're out walking, never cut a corner and take the shortest route - enjoy the extra bit of walking (and maybe the scenery too!) <BR> Cook a healthy meal for yourself (and your family) instead of buying pre-made... you'll make it healthier, more nutritious, and it will taste better! <BR> Never rush a meal... take time to savour every bite and take your time - this way, you'll be able to gauge w... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 16:54:07 EST Weigh-In At my weigh-in this week (Monday) I showed no weight loss at all... but then, I didn't gain either :) <BR> I'm in a good place right now, emotionally - I feel able to cope with this lifestyle and don't feel I am missing out on anything - I know that will change, as we all have 'ups' and 'downs'.... but right now, I am enjoying the feeling :) <BR> <BR> Hope everyone is having a wonderful week - it's pub-night for me... I walk a round tip of just over 3 miles and only drink coffee - but the at... Wed, 13 Jul 2016 09:46:44 EST Sabotage! I have just sat on my backside and gorged on over 2800 calories of RUBBISH! <BR> Why? <BR> I have no idea... <BR> It's self-sabotage, and I already feel awful and angry at myself for doing it. <BR> If I had telephoned my eldest daughter, she may have talked me out of it... but our relationship is a little strained at the moment. Not that I can use that as an excuse - there is NO excuse. Tomorrow I shall have to pick myself up, dust myself off... and try twice as hard to lose the three pounds ... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 17:22:42 EST Update Life here has been a bit hectic - and so I have had less time to blog and update my weight at SP. <BR> The last two weeks have seen me drop just one pound per week - but at least it's still going in the right direction. <BR> I'm still walking every day, and still having a few hiccups too lol. <BR> Unfortunately, there has been some stress within the family, and this hasn't helped with bad eating and dietary habits - but I am still tying to pull it all together. <BR> The EU referendum has cau... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 07:04:35 EST Then And Now... My eldest daughter wanted to show a friend of hers how I looked, so my youngest daughter took a photograph to send... <BR> This was me about a year ago after I had already lost some weight (with my middle daughter)... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Me with my ex-husband, eldest daughter and my son (I'm the blonde lol) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And,... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 18:16:03 EST Weigh-In Two pounds lost... and I feel a bit disappointed actually. Whilst not trying, and eating in a normal way and having treats, I was losing a pound a week - this last week I have really tried hard, and lost just a pound extra. Funnily, I got on the scales on Friday, and it registered a 3lb weight loss - three days later and I'd gained a pound lol. <BR> I'm walking 2 miles a day now at an absolute minimum, and realise that I do need to do other exercise to tone up and strengthen my muscles... but... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 15:33:51 EST Weigh-In Another one down - just the one pound again... and, again, I'm happy with that. This week, I experimented with eating 'normally'... well, as normally as I can with my intolerance towards so many foods lol. <BR> I had cous-cous with tomato-infused oil and a dairy-free butter substitute, crisps, chocolate (only small pieces), burgers, pizza, chilli-dogs, and I even had small amounts of bread! I wanted to find out if it would be easy to maintain my weight when I reached my goal. I have managed t... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 17:58:40 EST Weigh-In Just one pound down again this week - but I am still okay with that :) <BR> A huge part of me still wants to drop at least 5 pounds a week, but I know that, realistically, at my current weight it's just not sustainable. I would say that 'slow and easy wins the race'... but it's NOT easy. It's damn hard not to eat pizza every day lol. <BR> Weighing in at 164 pounds today is okay :) Mon, 6 Jun 2016 07:04:59 EST Motivate, Don't Hesitate! Last week, I could have had support - but I chose not to reach out. If I ever want someone to tell me to 'buck up!' or 'Don't you dare eat that rubbish!'... well, then I call my eldest daughter. Last week I didn't want someone telling me "NO!!", so I didn't phone her... and that led to regrets. She telephoned me today, and that made me realise that I SHOULD have contacted her when I felt my willpower weakening... she'd have given me the boost and resolve to carry on with the RIGHT path. <BR> ... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 08:54:53 EST Weigh-In Well, this last week has seen me drop another 2 pounds. <BR> I know it would have been a LOT more if my eating habits were better - but two pounds is a success in my book :) <BR> <BR> I have decided to change the way I shop... <BR> No more buying things to eat that I know I shouldn't - especially with my dietary intolerances. <BR> Tonight I had bread AND milk... not good at all. I am now bloated, burping, gurgling, and spending way too much time on the toilet! <BR> I am going to fill my cupb... Sun, 29 May 2016 17:31:43 EST Busy Busy Busy...! I have had a pretty good week :) <BR> Wednesday I visited with a friend, Thursday I went to Exbury Gardens and walked (slowly) for over three hours around the beautiful gardens and woodland <link> </link> <BR> Friday I had a wonderful shopping trip with my future daughter-in-law (she's French, and incredibly chic), my son, and my lovely mum. Today, I have done some gardening and went out on a motorcycle ride with my darling husband. What was fun about today was that I have... Sat, 28 May 2016 17:12:53 EST Weigh-In... I weighed myself a day early... I couldn't bear to wait another day to see if I had gained again - but it's good news! I have lost - just a little - but it's another small step towards my goal, so I am incredibly happy. <BR> I am now 11 stones and 13 pounds - which is 167 pounds in total. Seeing the scales start flashing with the number '11' was such a brilliant feeling - I can barely wait to see the number getting lower again :) Sun, 22 May 2016 16:58:12 EST A Stupid Way Of Thinking... My poor little Yorkie isn't well - it's already cost a fortune in vets fees, and we're no closer to finding out what's wrong really. It's a game of "Wait & See"... which is why I believe I'm feeling down. <BR> However, feeling down is one thing - but the my train of thought today has been ludicrous! I mean, I've been a complete idiot... selfish, stupid - and completely OTT. <BR> It started with Barkley McScruffles (my doggie) and just got increasingly daft when I went shopping. There was a de... Sat, 21 May 2016 15:51:09 EST The Herb Garden ... The herb garden... and the rest of the garden too - from overgrown and wild to a bit more tamed :) <BR> The garden was bare except for the lilacs when we moved in... so the first thing to add was the fish pond, followed by the decking, swing seat and the sheds, and then my summer house - all built by my darling hubby (with a little help from me). <BR> <img src=""> <img src=" Mon, 16 May 2016 15:46:43 EST Weigh-In So... Between Monday and Friday last week, I gained 6 pounds - not good at all. Between Friday and today, I lost 3 of those pounds - so I gained a total of 3 pounds. Still not good - but at least I did have that weigh-in at the doctors which has made me realise the weight-gain and allowed me to do something about it. It's amazing how a 6 pound gain can make the gardening seem so much more appealing lol. <BR> I am hoping to post some garden photographs in the next few days - I just have to fin... Mon, 16 May 2016 14:42:49 EST HERBS!!! I have a herb garden! It's not finished yet - I have to wait for the Moroccan mint, dill, parsley and sage plants to arrive - but everything else is planted, and I'm so happy. I have tomatoes, runner beans, rhubarb, bell peppers, and strawberries growing too - with organic slug repellent and natural pet repellent scattered all over the bed too :) <BR> The herbs are going to be fantastic - I already have a huge rosemary bush in the corner of my garden that is used almost every day, but in my h... Sun, 15 May 2016 13:19:36 EST Hard Work! To help combat my low feelings after a 6 pound weight gain, I decided to mow the lawn. Well, that's how the afternoon started... After about 6 hours, my garden is looking quite tidy - I pulled up weeds, cut back bushes - even pulled up a small tree trunk! I have also cooked 3 dinners, cleaned the kitchen, and sorted the washing. <BR> All-in-all I probably spent about four hours doing the gardening, and am hoping that by next week I'll have given myself a bigger push towards losing that extra ... Fri, 13 May 2016 14:22:36 EST ARGH!!! I had to go for my annual review for both my diabetes and asthma at the doctors today. Part of the health-check was a quick jump on the scales... something I usually dread, but I wasn't worried at all today - until I actually saw the needle rising way too high. <BR> According to the doctors scales, I had gained 6 pounds - since MONDAY! Surely there was some kind of mistake? As soon as I got home, I got on my own scales - maybe they would be more honest and accurate? Yes, they were - VERY hone... Fri, 13 May 2016 07:25:26 EST A Special Day This Saturday past, I did something I haven't done in about seven years... I went for a pillion ride on hubby's motorbike. <BR> What made this day extra-special was actually not being able to squeeze into my leather jacket. Hubby is VERY strict on proper biking gear - leathers, tough gloves, boots, decent helmet - and so I had to get all the gear on. But maybe you've just read back on what I have written, to make sure I really did write that I was "NOT... able to squeeze into my leather jack... Mon, 9 May 2016 21:52:12 EST Weigh-In... I decided that from now on, I would be weighing myself wearing 'normal' clothes instead of just a lightweight nightgown - after all, I wouldn't wear a flimsy nightdress for every day wear! <BR> So... today my weight (fully clothed) is 170 pounds. <BR> Because of my bad choices during the last week, all the efforts made walking the dog and trying to keep active were a waste of time - though if I hadn't gone out, imagine the weight gain I could have had! <BR> Today is a new day... <BR> I put m... Mon, 9 May 2016 12:50:58 EST Before The Weigh-In... I have had a very bad week... <BR> I've been in terrible pain, which has meant that I have limited any exercise to just walking the dog each day... and I have made terrible choices with my eating habits. <BR> My meals have included: <BR> hotdogs <BR> burgers (WITH cheese) <BR> Huge panini sandwiches <BR> chips (the fried kind from the UK) <BR> crisps <BR> sun dried tomatoes in oil <BR> stuffed olives <BR> rolls and sandwiches filled with sandwich spread or cheese <BR> pizza <BR> garlic bread ... Sun, 8 May 2016 21:04:32 EST I Am... I am overweight, fat, wobbly, rotund, saggy, wrinkly, overtly rubenesque, curvy, and may have more rolls than the local bakery... but one thing I am NOT any more, is obese. <BR> According to my BMI, I am now just one pound under the weight I need to categorise myself as obese - so now I am just overweight... and here's hoping within the next 6 months or so, I will be able to get into the 'normal' range :) Tue, 3 May 2016 10:31:12 EST Weigh-In... I am having a 'low' day... feeling very 'bleugh'. <BR> My weigh-in was a good one - though I have no idea how or why - once again I have been quite indiscriminate about my eating habits last week - maybe if I'd had a gain it would jolt me into healthier choices. Still, I should be ecstatic over losing a whopping 5lbs... so why I have got 'the blahs'? <BR> Mon, 2 May 2016 08:03:37 EST 48 Hours... In the past 48 hours, we have had almost every weather known... <BR> Brilliant sunshine, snow, rain, thunder, sleet, hail, frost, fog, mist... <BR> How very English lol <BR> <BR> I have still walked the dog every day - the poor wee thing has been frozen, soaked, heated up... and still he wags his tail when the collar and lead come out :) <BR> <BR> Today was a special treat day for me - unexpectedly. My darling husband has painted the kitchen, and hung a gorgeous chandelier in the bedroom. T... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 15:41:51 EST Weigh-In... I lost 3 pounds last week... <BR> The scale actually read a 4 pound weight loss, but it was early in the morning, and I was dehydrated... so I discounted one pound. <BR> I have enjoyed a week of picking, eating almost whatever I wanted and not doing much exercise - so I think I can say that I have been very lucky to have shown a loss at all. <BR> I do want to try harder... but that kind of fell apart when my daughter bought a pizza whilst she was visiting today... Still, I only had one slice... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 17:14:44 EST I'm All Behind... ... and I mean, I'm all behind in getting things done today - not that my backside has grown out of proportion lol. <BR> I have been out visiting my dearest friend - and snacking a lot too... and haven't managed to walk the dog, prepare dinner for tomorrow or tidy the house. <BR> Looks like it will be a long night for me. <BR> I can't sleep if the kitchen is a mess - it's like the washing up and cleaning are calling to me as I lie in bed - and so it just has to be done! <BR> Best walk the do... Sun, 24 Apr 2016 14:18:48 EST A Wet & Grey Day... Poor Barkley had a walk in the rain today - the same usual distance took us twice as long. I kept telling him it was for his benefit and not mine - but we both knew that wasn't quite the whole truth :) <BR> I actually quite like the rain - it's just the soggy feet as I walk through the park that I find uncomfortable. The grass had not long been cut, so the wet grass cuttings stuck to my shoes and were flipped up onto my legs... which could have been worse - at least it wasn't too muddy as wel... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 13:10:00 EST Little Pickers... I've said it before and I'll say it again - <BR> "Little pickers have big knickers!" <BR> <BR> I picked and picked all day Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday... and managed to gain 2 pounds. Ah, well - can't put back the clock. I have been picking today too - but not as much. <BR> I actually feel pretty good. Today I tried on one of my goal dresses to see how far I needed to go to fit into it... and I'm still wearing it now because it fits! <BR> <BR> Clothing is a pain... <BR> Why can't all the... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 11:36:24 EST Disturbed Sleep... The past few days, I have really pushed myself - from cleaning and clearing, to walking those extra few paces. I cook and clean, take trips to the shops, and unnecessary journeys up and down the stairs... <BR> It all sounds incredibly good - but I can't seem to wind down at the end of the day! <BR> My sleep pattern is now so bad, I'm considering a visit to see the doctor. My tinnitus is also playing up rather badly, and this doesn't help toward a restful night either. <BR> I've tried all the... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 20:50:50 EST A Letter To My Body... Dear Body, <BR> We've been through a lot, you and I - had so many ups and downs, that's it's hard to know how to begin writing this letter to you. <BR> I should start with an apology... <BR> I'm sorry I have put you through so much. You have been amazing - through pregnancy and childbirth, fighting illness and heartbreak... and in return, I mistreated you. <BR> Let me start from the very beginning... <BR> I resented you when I was a child - you were fat and had 'cutsie' little nicknames from ... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 00:23:49 EST BMI A bitter-sweet post today, concerning the dreaded BMI calculator. <BR> Three months ago, my BMI was over 40 - I hate to think what it was before then! I have been 'clinically morbidly obese' a couple of times before - and with a BMI over 40, was classed as 'morbidly obese'. <BR> Today, I had my BMI measured again, and was so happy to see that it had reduced substantially... 32.7. That's the sweet bit... the bitter part is that I am still obese. I have between 15-17 pounds more to lose before... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 23:51:21 EST Work = Exercise = Pounds Lost (I Hope) The past two days, I worked over 14 hours in changing and sorting rooms in my home... The main objective was for me to get my dining room back (it's been a craft-room for over a year), but that sort of hasn't worked out yet lol <BR> I'm getting rid of a lot of items - clutter, things I haven't room for, charity shop items to give away - and all of these items are currently stacked up against one wall of the dining room - but at least it's the only room in the house that needs to be sorted - o... Fri, 15 Apr 2016 21:40:32 EST My Achy Breaky... Body... lol For well over a year now, my craft room has been taking over my old dining room... and what used to be the craft room is a spare bedroom. This is now changing... <BR> I have spent all day trying to sort out the crafting items, and getting the craft room back upstairs to the spare room. The spare bed is folded up under my own bed (poking out - it really doesn't fit! lol) and I ache from all the carrying and lifting I have had to do up and down the stairs (eight drawer units, each with four dra... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 13:03:53 EST Jealousy... Late last night, I found myself chatting to an old friend who was having a really hard time. It ended up with me going to meet her at 3.30am to bring her back to mine for a coffee and a chat. Many years ago, this friend and I were 'The Fat Ladies' together - I lost a lot of weight, and she remained much the same. A few years ago, she managed to lose all her weight, and I was so proud of her. Before last night, I hadn't seen her for a couple of years... and was shocked by how thin she had beco... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 19:40:25 EST Weigh-In... I lost 5lbs last week - quite surprising, again! <BR> I celebrated with a trip to the local town centre to buy lots of ingredients for risotto, and to meet up with two of my children. Then I came home and had a bit of a chow-down :( <BR> Still, I HAVE had a bit more exercise today, so it'll be fine I expect :) <BR> I'm now at the stage where I find it hardest - that 185lb point where my body likes to stay... but I'm ready!!! :) Mon, 11 Apr 2016 14:33:40 EST Getting Into A Rythm I think I'm finally getting used to this lifestyle change malarky :) <BR> I did get tempted this evening by my own hand-made veggie pizza, and had half a slice - regretfully, I might add, because the small amount of cheese has already started giving me 'tummy grumbles'. BUT... although I wanted to sit and eat about four slices, I knew I couldn't and simply made myself a coffee, had a drink of fizzy water too... and enjoyed others eating my creations and liking them a lot :) <BR> I've managed ... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 15:26:00 EST