SHARBEAR100's SparkPeople Blog SHARBEAR100's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A wet swimsuit clinging to your body leaves no prisoners.... I just had the most wonderful vacation I've had in years. I go with some friends every year to Mexico and then typically other friends or family join us. The people make the difference in how good an experience it is, and this year was great. <BR> <BR> I didn't work myself into a frenzy trying to get in shape before hand, but I did work on it. When I left, my tummy was still too big and while clothes can help hide that (or so I like to believe), a wet swimsuit clinging to your body leav... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 13:07:12 EST Why am I so fickle? After a few good days of eating healthy and within range, and having good workouts, I declare that this is "easy" and I can do this forever! Then the week wears on - not enough sleep, a workout that leaves me way more sore and tired than I expected, feeling hungrier each day.... Blah! <BR> <BR> I'm not sure what happened. I had a great workout on the treadmill Wednesday night, no too hard, not too easy. And I decided to wait and do strength training the next night because I didn't wan... Fri, 9 May 2014 15:32:41 EST What Changed? This is the time of year when I usually start really pushing myself too hard trying to get in shape for my vacation. I've actually only reached my goal once, 3 year ago, but it kiiiiiilled me! Even the years I don't make it, I end up feeling burned out and after my vacation my whole wellness plan falls apart. Which is why I usually need to begin again the next year! <BR> <BR> But this year? I'm really happy with where I'm at, even though I'm nowhere near my goal at this time. I'm sure I... Wed, 7 May 2014 18:08:17 EST It's not about how I feel right now... I was thinking about writing this blog yesterday. Today I'm wishing I would actually pay attention to the things I already know! <BR> <BR> I can't tell you how many times I've derailed myself by pushing too far too fast in my exercise sessions. After I lapse for a few weeks, or more likely, few months, I need to start slow again and build up my activity level and intensity over time. I'm not young any more and my punishment for charging ahead isn't just a few days of soreness. Sometime... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 16:13:02 EST However has the human race survived? I'm in the middle of my annual push to get in shape for the summer. That should be a bit depressing, since I shouldn't need an annual push! This past year was a particularly bad slide in the wrong direction. I have a lot of really good reasons for some of it, but certainly not all of it. Every year as I'm in full swing of my healthy routine, I marvel at how easy it can be. Sure there are days when I slip, don't do all that I can, or just plain throw it out the window for the day. But t... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 18:21:39 EST I'm such a dodo bird I've been having the hardest time getting my nutrition under control, and kicking my exercise into high gear. I'm counting down to my vacation and haven't made much progress. I've been concentrating more on strength training than I have in the past, and I've come to really love it! I'm definately seeing great changes in my body from this, but it isn't helping with the fat reduction. <BR> <BR> But my back is giving me a heck of a time in trying to get going on the treadmill again. The tre... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 13:29:08 EST Random thoughts & Fit2Fat2Fit My brain won't kick into gear. Sure it's working fine for doing things like Sparking, playing on the internet, texting, non-work anything! But when I look down at the papers in front of me and try to complete the next task, I find that my fingers are taking me away to things I'd rather do, and there seems to be a wall in my head separating my ability to concentrate on work from my ability to act on it. It's going to be a loooong nine years until I can retire! <BR> <BR> I've started trac... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 16:12:14 EST Whew - I think I can start again now. I think I can start concentrating a little bit on me again! Not to be selfish, but my family has been going through a really rough time with my Mom and during the initial 3 weeks there were only 2 days that I didn't spend almost every free minute with her. In addition I was constantly texting, emailing, calling, worrying and visiting with various doctors, facilities and family members during this time. Thank God everything happened during a slow time at work and everyone was extremely unde... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 20:03:43 EST What a relief! I'm days away from my vacation, so you'd think I'd be diligent in eating right and working out to be in the best shape I can be, wouldn't you? Not <BR> <BR> I was doing so good Wednesday. Only ate a little bit of ice cream at my Mom's house. We had gone grocery shopping and you know how the top gets a bit soft on the way home from the store so its so easy to scape some off the top? Well, I couldn't resist doing that before I put it away in the freezer. I even thought about actually putt... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 13:44:58 EST Kind of sad, kind of exciting My office is moving to a new location at the end of the week. We've been in this space for 10 years. It's a big, beautiful space. For the last 6 years our little team of 10 have been at this location all alone. Everyone on the rest of the floor either left for other firms or were moved to the other local offices of the new company when our company was purchased by another. It's been really nice here all alone, and like I said, our space is big and beautiful, so it will be hard to leave. ... Wed, 15 May 2013 13:29:39 EST Can't stand it any more! I thought I'd go without weighing myself for a while since my scale conked out on me. It's been gone for about 2 weeks and I thought I'd let it go a while looking for physical changes instead of looking at a scale. But I'm analytical. I love my numbers. One of the reasons I love my heart rate monitor so much. I set the number of calories I want to burn for each cardio workout and whether my legs fly on that treadmill light as air, or feel like lead weights, I keep going until I burn thos... Mon, 13 May 2013 20:53:01 EST Back on the Merry-Go-Round I'm always creating little blogs in my head but I never actually write them down. I'm not sure why, except I don't really think they're very interesting. And thinking them through seems to be enough for me most of the time. But I love to read everyone elses blogs, so here goes. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm doing what I always do this time of year - working hard to get in the best shape I can before my big vacation. I usually go to Mexico with friends around this time of year. It's great in... Thu, 9 May 2013 16:48:40 EST Scale isn't working - good or bad thing? There has been a scale in our bathroom at work for years. Someone who no longer works here didn't take it with her when she left. I'm so used to using it, that I still step on it every time I walk past it! Ha, ha. It just says "error". Now our office is moving in a couple weeks and I don't know if there is room for one at the new building, and we'll be sharing a restroom with other companies on our floor. My company has the whole floor where we are now, so it wasn't strange to have it h... Thu, 2 May 2013 20:33:10 EST Feeling great! I wish I could figure out what makes me feel so great one day, and so awful another day. I'd bottle it and take it every day. Of course I'm happy because the sun is shining outside my window at work, I'm taking a day off to make this a 3 day weekend, and day light savings time is going to kick in Sunday morning. I could do a happy dance for any one of those! But I also have lot's of energy and feel great! I'll just have to go with it I guess. <em>30</em> Thu, 7 Mar 2013 16:38:06 EST I need daylight savings time and sunshine. I spin the wheel every day, and log my breakfast, and usually my lunch, and then I get stuck. My eating plan falls apart and I don't even bother to track it. I've been reading articles and blogs and enjoying being part of Sparkpeople, so the points I make doing these things makes it look like I'm achieving something. But I'm not. I'm getting close to moving to the next level, and I'll feel like a total fraud when I get there. <BR> <BR> I've been in such a funk that I can't make myself ... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 20:02:41 EST A Laugh on the Way to Work I work in downtown Portland, which can be a very interesting place in a good and bad way. This morning I was a couple blocks from my office when I saw a fire truck stopped in the street with lights flashing. Not an unusual sight in this part of town, but of course I looked over as I drove by. I saw 3 firemen dressed in full fire fighting gear quickly walking toward their truck. Then I noticed that the one in the lead was carrying 3 big boxes of VooDoo Donuts! This is a fairly famous donu... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 17:04:58 EST Off to a good start! When I "fall off the wagon", the hardest part of getting back on is just starting. It's more mental than physical - but I certainly pay for it physically with stiffness and sore muscles. <BR> <BR> December was a really hard month, just killer at work, with holidays on top of that. I don't want to dream my life away, but I do dream of how the holidays will be after I retire. 10 years!!! Too long. But my Mom probably won't still be with us by then, so I can't really wish it to come any ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 14:45:28 EST Baby Steps I hate to say this, but I'm starting the new year heavier than I've been in 3 years. I feel like I should feel depressed or sad about it, but I don't. I haven't gained a lot of weight, but it's a lot for me. I've also let my fitness level slide, and slide and slide. This has been going on since August. I've got plenty of reasons and excuses for the slide, but the fact is I was just lazy. <BR> <BR> I'm not upset about this, though, because I know it's only temporary, and I know what I ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 16:21:39 EST Lesson learned the hard way. I think I've finally learned my lesson and I'm going to listen to my body from now on. Recently I hurt my back, which sidelined my fitness for a while. Then I picked it back up going full steam ahead and pulled a muscle in my left calf and had to sit out even longer! Ugh! <BR> <BR> I can see how it happened. I had been following a running program, but actually put it in writing in a running calendar that I keep on line at the beginning of February. My goals were reasonable and realisti... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 19:23:44 EST Started out weak - ended Strong! Strange day yesterday. I was tired and had a slight headache all day. There is a scale in the restroom at work and I can't resist getting on it every time I go in there. This has actually helped me understand how much my weight can fluctuate during the day, and day to day, so I don't freak out when I don't like what it says. Usually my weight drops throughout most of the day though, and yesterday it was higher every time I got on it! I was obviously retaining water rapidly. Something was wr... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 14:13:20 EST Only Monday - Already Way Too Tired I need to stop "trying" to get to bed by 11:00 each night and just do it! I really NEED to make this my priority over everything else. The funny thing is that if I wasn't tired all the time, I'm sure everything else would fall into place and be so much easier. Of course I'm not usually this tired already on Monday. I wasn't home much yesterday, so all my necessary Sunday evening chores got done much later than usual. Not a good way to start a week. <BR> <BR> So this is my #1 goal - ligh... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 20:22:54 EST Vacation and stubbornness are big incentives I'm resisting the VooDoo Donuts sitting on the counter in our back room at work. We have a new complex manager and when he visited this morning he brought some donuts - from locally famous VooDoo Donuts. They have a location only a couple of blocks from our office, but I've never been there. It's a local icon, and when I drive past I often see a long line of people outside the door waiting for their turn to go in. They make a lot of unusual flavors which is what makes them so fun. The good ... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 17:07:41 EST Sidelined the last 4 days I woke up Thursday morning with a pain on the lower left side of my back. I thought I must have slept on it at a bad angle and it would work itself out throughout the day. No such luck. The pain got worse and worse until the muscles on the whole left side of my back were in a knot. It has slowly gotten better to the point that I almost forget about it at times today, until I move too quickly or turn the wrong way. I had to miss my strength core workout for last week and two cardio sessions o... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:38:59 EST Need to do more "Doctor, it hurts for days after I do one legged squats and wide legged squats with a dumbbell. " In a kind world the answer to that would be: "Then don't do them". But in Sparkworld, the answer is: "Then you haven't been doing them often enough and you need to do more." <BR> <BR> As I stiffly stand up from my desk at work to go home for my arm and abs workout tonight, I'm wondering if I really want my entire body to hurt tomorrow! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>320</em> Wed, 1 Feb 2012 20:51:34 EST Daily calorie goal I'm mostly in maintenance now, but want to slowly drop a pound at a time until I'm happy with the result. At this time that could be 1 - 4 more pounds. So, I set my goal at the end of December to lose 1 pound by the end of January, and I succeeded! <BR> <BR> I admit that sometimes I just want to lose the weight and get it over with, but I consider this my maintenance, so nothing is ever going to end anyway. This way my calories will slowly increase to where they belong to maintain, and I'll... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 17:11:27 EST Incentive to do housework... I'm finding it very hard to get myself to do strength training. I don't dislike it. I want to do it. It's just getting myself started that seems to be hard. Cardio is fun and exciting. I have a heart rate monitor and a program I'm following. I look forward to doing it. Strength - is hard work. <BR> <BR> I do dislike housework. I dream of having a maid, ready at my beck and call to just take care of the things I don't want to do around my house - which is just about everything! Everyone proba... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 15:44:33 EST I blame the dry cleaner When I dressed for work this morning, I put on a navy skirt I haven't worn in a few weeks that was fresh from the dry cleaner. I've been wearing navy pants when I want to wear that color. So I stepped into the skirt and pulled it up. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> What happened? <BR> <BR> I haven't gained any weight. Really. <BR> <BR> Really! <BR> <BR> I blame it on the dry cleaner. They must have shrunk my skirt! I have the exact same skirt in black that I wear very often. I tend to wea... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 15:54:02 EST Strength Training Goals - Getting them set up I've been trying to consciously enjoy having no aches, pain or sore muscles today - knowing that's about to end tonight! I find it so easy to stick to my cardio plan, and so hard to make myself do the strength training. But since my goal is more to gain muscle than to lose weight at this point, I need to find a way to overcome that! Since I do my strength training in front of a TV watching shows I've recorded and enjoy, you'd think it would be so pleasant I'd be working out all the time. <... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 19:42:29 EST I feel so good! I did good yesterday! Ate within my calories, got on the treadmill for 45 minutes, packed breakfast and lunch for work today, and got to bed by 11:00 (which is the hardest part for me). I feel so good today! I won't get home until late tonight, but I'm going to try to fit in a little abs and arms work and be in bed by 11:00. What am I going to do if I really start getting (almost) enough sleep every night? I'll have so much energy! <BR> <em>334</em> Wed, 26 Oct 2011 13:37:23 EST Cutting back isn't failure It's disheartening how quickly my fitness can move backwards. Yes, it's completely my fault. I haven't been motivated, I've gained weight, and I'm losing strength. Wah, wah, wah.... <BR> <BR> I've been thinking a lot about my goals, and my lifestyle journey going forward. I realize that I had burned out getting to where I wanted to be, and then I didn't know how to continue. I couldn't keep going as hard, and anything less seemed like failure. <BR> <BR> I read an interesting comment ... Tue, 25 Oct 2011 15:56:03 EST So glad it's Friday! I get a great big D for my efforts yesterday. Probably even an F, except that I was doing great up until I went grocery shopping right after work, and I was hungry. My will power did not prevail during that trip, or when I got home. I did my usual trick of buying a banana at the store and eating it on the way home, but I also bought other "goodies" that immediately went in my mouth once I got home. I ended up leaving work very late and a banana just didn't cut it. <BR> <BR> To make mat... Fri, 14 Oct 2011 12:54:38 EST Everything would be better if.... I got enough sleep. I know we hear and say things like this all the time - If I was thinner, if I was younger, if he/she would just do this, if I was blond, if I was taller, if I were a man/woman (OK, probably not too many men want to be women),... <BR> <BR> Of course "everything" would not be better. Some things would be better, and some things would be worse. There's always a trade off. So that's my struggle with sleep. My daily struggle. Every weekday morning when my alarm goes of... Thu, 13 Oct 2011 17:16:32 EST Been Slacking - mostly I pretty much burned out.... <BR> <BR> Every year I get very inspired and energetic around February in anticipation of a vacation to a sunny place in May or June. This year I joined a gym with a friend and, being influenced by her, ended up hiring a personal trainer for 6 months. I also bought my first heart rate monitor. It has a built in fitness program that really inspired me and had me working hard. The results were great. I hit my goal weight and got a lot stronger. But I was so... Wed, 12 Oct 2011 19:44:54 EST So now I have to... Tomorrow I'm going to get fitted for a new pair of running shoes! <BR> <BR> I've known I needed to do this for months. You'd think my toes going numb over and over while I'm jogging would get me moving on this. You'd think my never being able to complete a workout without stopping over and over to get the circulation flowing again would make me stop procrastinating. You'd think the pain I endure every time would make me boycott jogging until I got this done. I guess my feet are tougher ... Fri, 5 Aug 2011 18:38:28 EST Getting excited... I think next Tuesday is the last session with my personal trainer. I'm so excited! Not that I won't miss her - I will. Not that I don't think the workouts are awesome - they are. Not that I want to slack on strength training - I won't. But I've been doing this for 6 months! Between having to see her on Tuesday nights, seeing my Mom every Wednesday and Sunday night - minimum (holidays, birthdays, family gatherings, etc. can add to that), and doing cardio with a friend at the gym every Fr... Wed, 3 Aug 2011 20:14:59 EST Good Run I had a good run last night. I decided to take it easy(er) and jog without any intervals. But then I wasn't burning as many calories, so I just had to jog longer. I increased my time by 10 minutes, for a continuous 45 minutes! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> Amazing for me. <BR> <BR> Ended up not being easier, but it sure made me happy. My legs actually feel good today, but I am so dreading seeing my trainer tonight. She doesn't listen when I tell her to go easy on my legs. I feel we... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 17:22:03 EST Building My Legs As I write this, my legs ache, but considerably less than yesterday. Thank goodness! I have to admit this has been hard, and painful - but good, and great, and even joyous. The last 6 months I went from walking at a fairly sedate pace, to pushing myself to first walk faster, then to jog in intervals for just a minute at a time. Then 2 minutes, 5, 10, and up to 35. My legs have hurt off and on the entire time. When I get tired of the discomfort, I just remind myself that I'm "building my... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 17:14:16 EST I'm doing it again! I'm doing it again! I need a kick in the behind to get me going. It's been pretty typical of me to work out a bunch and watch what I eat from January until my big vacation, usually in April or May, (June this year) and then slack off. Not stop completely, but slack off. It's always worked well for me in the past, until the last few years. <BR> <BR> I started noticing that after my annual frenzy to get in shape, I'd lose a couple pounds and get to my normal vacation weight, but my body ... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 17:47:57 EST I Need A Plan - Strength Training I am doing so well with my cardio plan. I've been meaning to blog about it, but time just flies and I haven't done it yet. I got a Polar heart rate monitor three months ago, and I LOVE it! It has a built in STAR Training Program that I am using and I'm amazed at my progress. I thought about doing the Couch to 5K program, but quite frankly, I thought it was too ambitious for my level of fitness. <BR> <BR> The heart rate training has been a great experience though. My weak legs have been the ... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 17:27:02 EST Sooo, I can have a hot body, or a hot face.... OK, I exaggerate - I've never had a "hot" body or face. But, my dilemma is the same. <BR> <BR> I'm happy with my weight, but very unhappy with the fat around my middle. The more I reduce the fat around my middle, the more my face deflates. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> My legs look better than they've ever looked, from all my work at trying to become a jogger. <em>312</em> <BR> <BR> My body is getting stronger from my strength training. <em>344</em> <BR> <BR> And, I'm wearing a small... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 19:36:45 EST Curses - to whoever invented pantyhose - or maybe blessings?? Things have been going so smoothly that I haven't really known what to blog about. Of course the real test will be next Tuesday when my PT measures my body fat. I don't really want to lose more than a couple more pounds overall, but I still need to lose quite a bit of fat. I've done a lot of reading on how to accomplish this and I think it's working (fingers crossed). <BR> <BR> It is sad though, that I can't selectively lose fat from my "muffin top". I understand that my belly really i... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 18:35:24 EST Crazy, huh? I think this is addiction. I don't have any other explanation. On Tuesday my personal trainer had me do an exercise I hadn't done before. Nothing fancy - stand with legs wide apart, hold a 10 lb weight, do a squat, back straight, touching one end of the weight to the floor. Two sets of these. Not bad at all. But - since I haven't done exercises targeted to these muscles before, I really, really felt it the next 2 days. <BR> <BR> So Wednesday is my rest day, cardio Thursday, really tou... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 17:35:27 EST Foam Roller I'm going to buy a foam roller tonight. It's been in the back of my mind for a few weeks, but now I just need to do it. I've radically increased the amount of cardio I do, working on a program of walking and running with the idea that I may actually become a runner someday, and the quadriceps on my left leg have bothered me ever since. (Strength training on top of that hasn't helped either). I'm pretty sure I favor one leg over the other, but I keep changing my mind about which one is the... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 17:13:33 EST Good week, looking forward to even better! What a week. I sure pushed the exercise hard - the nutrition, not so much. To update from last Thursday: I met my friend and I was good. I ate 1/2 a hamburger and drank water. That's it! I didn't get home until after 8:00, the time I usually like to be finished with my exercise for the day, but I "suited up" and got on my treadmill. I had a great workout and then had enough calories left to drink my protein drink and eat a little more so I wouldn't be hungry when I went to bed. (OK, I ... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 18:58:55 EST Ranting / Frustrated I started a new cardio program less than 2 weeks ago. It's helping me develop my leg strength and stamina, and increase the amount of time I can jog. OK, calling what I'm doing jogging is kind of a joke, because I'm barely getting started on this. But that's the point, I'm just getting started and want to keep going. <BR> <BR> So here it is, Thursday, and I have my workout time all planned out through the weekend. I'm pumped, I'm excited, I'm psyched, I'm... you get the idea. And then a f... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 17:20:07 EST Looking forward... Wow, I'm feeling good today. Of course, I rested on Saturday, so I've only worked out once since then. I'm pretty sure by Wednesday I'll be feeling very tired and stiff, again. <em>41</em> It's all part of the process. <BR> <BR> This morning I wore a suit I bought about 3 years ago. When I bought it I was thinner than I had been in a while, and it fit pretty snugly. Of course, my intention at the time was to lose a little more weight so it would fit well. It's a winter suit (the colors)... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 14:09:30 EST Mixed Emotions - Skinny Fat I have lots of jumbled thoughts these days that I'm not sure how to even express. I feel very alone with some of my issues because I know that most people won't relate to them. But this blog is for me. <BR> <BR> One issue everyone here can relate to is that my body is shrinking out of my clothes. I've never had this experience before! I'm also watching my face look older as I lose weight. All I can say is gravity, gravity, gravity. <BR> <BR> So now I have to deal with the fact that... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 15:13:35 EST Listening to my positive side... As usual, my impression of what I see in the mirror changes with each glance. Sometimes I see how my legs and arms are looking more toned, and sometimes I just see how wide my thighs and belly are. When I see the negatives though, the positive side of me kicks in and says, "Hey, wait a minute! Look at it as how far you've come instead of how far you have to go!" <BR> <BR> I don't really have a "goal" weight, or a target date to be "in shape". I'm doing this for the long run, not to meet ... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 17:11:25 EST Some days are easy, some days are hard, some days are...... I was all fired up to do my cardio on the treadmill tonight. I've been incorporating intervals of running for 2 minutes between the walking. So far I only do this 5 times during my workout, but I increased the speed of the running the last time, and it felt fantastic. Maybe even easier than running at the slower speed. I was feeling so good about this tonight that I was thinking of increasing the number of times I ran to 6 - or more. <BR> <BR> Apparently my body had other ideas. Every... Thu, 3 Mar 2011 01:18:18 EST Sagging and bagging, lumps and plumps... I feel like I'm making progress, and it feels really great. I'm excited to keep going and see how far I can push myself. But sometimes when I look in the mirror and see the sagging, and bagging, and lumps and plumps, it's a little discouraging. I think menopause and age have wrecked havoc with my body. Of course I contributed greatly with my laziness and over eating, but I've never looked this bad at the weight I'm at right now. I sometimes wonder if it's even reasonable to expect to get my ... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 20:03:03 EST