SHANTRA's SparkPeople Blog SHANTRA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Changing to a morning person? Piriformis sufferers? No matter how I look at it, the only solution to my fitting in exercise and everything else I do is to get up at 5:00 a.m. and workout before work, showering and changing at the gym. Any tips for someone that has trouble getting out of bed? <BR> <BR> Also, anyone out there got piriformis syndrome and can tell me what it is like? I suspect I have it and I can't even do a water class without pain.. I am SO tired of it. I want to get significant weight off and get back to ballet godamnit! <B... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 11:16:51 EST Fat to Fit Day One Yep.. back there again for round.. well.. I can't remember how many okay? What is important is I am here. With gym bag packed, with food tracked and with new workout shoes on. I can do this. One day at a time. <BR> <BR> Tonight the plan is deep water exercise and walking 3 times round the parking ramp.. and doing the stairs.. it's a start. Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:37:32 EST Don't be weak be STRONG! That is my message for today. I left some encouragement for another Sparker who is struggling and now I want to share it out there in case someone else can benefit. <BR> <BR> Knuckle down and DO this thing. Replace 'I can't' with 'I CAN', replace 'I am trying' with 'I am DOING'. Replace 'maybe if I lose this weight' to 'when I am at goal weight'. Visualize, visualize, visualize who and what you want to be and make it happen! <BR> <BR> Be your own Cheerleader and your own personal Coach,... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 11:58:46 EST 1,345 lb Man and Obese Children What do the two have in common? A lot. Let's face it, if you are bedridden and on oxygen and the King of your country, in this case Saudi Arabia, has to send in helicopters and cranes to get you to hospital, who is at fault? Somebody is shopping for this person and providing them with food. And that somebody has been doing it for a long time in this 17-18 year olds life. You don't get to 1,345 lb in one year. <BR> <BR> The same with children, unless they have a medical condition causing... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 14:29:17 EST Sparkpeople need to start a Revolution!! <em>267</em> <em>371</em> <em>368</em> <BR> <BR> A Veggie Revolution! This came to me tonight as I was eating my yummy stir fry veg, guidelines say that half of our plate should be vegetables. Tell me when was the last time you went to a restaurant and got half a plate of vegetables? Yeah... thought so. <BR> <BR> A number of fast food restaurants are now producing healthier items on their menu's, I see some restaurants following suit and adding nutritional info to some of their ... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 19:46:10 EST Morbid Obesity From Failure to Winning Anyone who has followed my blogs and my hiccuping progress the last few years knows that I have not made any real progress for a LONG time. And I mean like.. YEARS. <BR> <BR> Like so many people who have been or are long term obese I have had some determination, I have lost a ton of weight, I have put it back on. I have been going to 'start again next week' or 'tomorrow' or 'later' and all of those have turned to weeks and years. <BR> <BR> I have been through the cyclic 'carbo loading'.... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 10:01:31 EST Water Classes are TOUGH If anyone out there has been considering doing a water aerobics or similar but think it is for wimps.. OMG.. think again! <BR> <BR> I have been doing regular water aerobics because I just can't exercise any other way, I am just too heavy for my body. So I took to a class. Last night I tried another, deep water exercise and dabbled in another.. EZ Swimmer. They are TOUGH! Please try it if you are struggling with exercise as I am right now. I promise it will give you a great workout both ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 10:35:12 EST Nothing like it!! I am well on track again and it is the greatest feeling in the world!!! I know I am doing everything right and I know my attitude is right.. failure is not an option! <BR> <BR> I still can't do the things I was doing, but I am doing water aerobics and plan to move up from there. <BR> <BR> I tried some coconut macaroon ice cream for a treat at the weekend and the fattiness in it made me feel really sick for hours! I did eat a creme filled long john that did not make me feel like that.. but... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 12:57:20 EST WOW I made concious healthy choice! GO ME!!!! <em>277</em> <BR> <BR> Had taken a little nap after being up very early cleaning. Felt thirsty so reached for a bottle of water out of the fridge. Thought 'mm ice cream, have plenty of points, want something sweet'. So I reached in the freezer and got out the box of cones, not the light type. I pulled one out and paused, I thought, hang on, let's check how many points it is BEFORE I eat it. <BR> <BR> My first stunning discovery as I put the calculations into my Weight Watch... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 14:05:13 EST Reinventing ME Part One I haven't been in a great place. But those of you who have left messages and gifts, don't think I have not appreciated it. I have. But I felt like I had nothing to offer. I definitely have no inspiration left for others right now. Unless it is the fact that my weight probably stopped me doing the things I was enjoying so much. <BR> <BR> Turns out I have spinal arthritis and of course weight loss will help with that. But that wasn't the cause of my issues. I believe I did do a lot of i... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 21:37:36 EST When the going gets tough! I am so sorry to those who have missed me posting my ballet blogs and have been wondering where the heck I went. <BR> <BR> Injury. I now know that for years since I broke my spine I have been dealing with back joint problems, sometimes my sacroiliac on one side or the other seizes and other joints come into play too. The result is pain similar to that with a slipped disc.. but it isn't the disc.. although one of those might be involved too. <BR> <BR> I have been having physiotherapy on my... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 12:11:11 EST The 55 year old 273 lb Ballerina Yes! Weight is down very nicely again and I have been doing all four workouts a week. Two hours swimming and three hours ballet a week. I am very proud of that, but we have snow tonight so it looks like I will miss my ballet class tonight. <BR> <BR> I have been in a GREAT deal of pain. My back and hip joints have hurt terribly but I have pushed myself to carry on and I am glad I have. I had a terribly painful shoulder blade after a swimming session but the next one helped it. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 18:31:06 EST The 55 year old 277lb Ballerina - Scales DON'T rule <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Got back from Ballet Class a little while ago.. finally.. for those who wanted them ballet photos! Frankly it isn't easy putting myself out there, doing class with so much weight isn't easy either. I guess what I can look forward to is it getting progressively easier as my weight drops.. <BR> <BR> speaking of which.. <BR> <BR> How much do the scales rule you? Do they dictate how successful or happy you feel ea... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:52:59 EST The 55 year old 277 lb Ballerina - This is WHO I am So this is what a lifestyle means. Let's look for a moment at the old me and the way I was eating when I wasn't 'on a diet'. <BR> <BR> Breakfast would be sugary cereal, mid morning, a trip to the vending machine or a dip into my desk drawer for whatever was there.. and the problem was that I would buy things that were supposed to be 'healthy' like nuts and then eat the whole bag during the day (NOT a single serving) so not so healthy after all. I didn't count anything. Lunchtime I might... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 20:07:19 EST The 55 year old 278lb Ballerina - Inspiration <em>357</em> The mind is a very powerful thing. I have seen this in numerous books lately and it really is true. <BR> <BR> If I look back over the many times I have lost sometimes huge amounts of weight.. 90lbs the last time.. and put it all back on again and I think about why I ultimately failed to keep it off or reach goal, I can trace it back to my mind. <BR> <BR> I have heard 'it's a lifestyle change' many times, but I know that I didn't really understand what that meant. It start... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 10:19:30 EST The 55 Year old 278lb Ballerina Frustrated <em>355</em> Ballet was really tough last night and it was frustrating. The main target of my frustration is my weight. You will see that I have added my age into the title of my blog, I do think it will be significant to people that I am actually doing ballet at this age and size, but it isn't my age holding me back from doing things in class. There are people in our class I think are older than me but they are all average sized or slimmer and they can do it all. <BR> <BR> The reality ... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 09:32:45 EST The 278lb Ballerina tastes real change <em>488</em> <em>491</em> <em>258</em> <em>267</em> <BR> <BR> Saturday morning was really rushed for me and I will be straight up, I went to McDonalds for breakfast and had two sausage muffins and two hash browns. Yeah bad but that was breakfast and lunch and needed to sustain me until dinner. The thing was.. I used to just LOVE those sandwiches and hash browns, but I found myself looking at the second one in my hand and saying.. actually this is pretty disgusting. It seemed e... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:16:44 EST The 278lb Ballerina - still SO far behind! I am rapidly becoming the water baby I was when I was a kid. I can remember being in the ocean on holidays for hours and hours swimming and mostly pretending. I might be a mermaid, or perhaps the girlfriend of the Man from Atlantis or maybe Aqua Marina for those who remember Stingray. I am feeling at home in the water again. <BR> <BR> Last night I achieved a personal best. It was all breast stroke because freestyle just makes me out of breath so fast and what I want to do is build up sta... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 11:14:10 EST The 278 lb Ballerina - Back in the Swim <em>237</em> Yes, you will have noticed that I put on a few pounds over Christmas and my birthday, in fact it was higher than shown here but by January 4 I was back within 3lbs of my 5% weight. <BR> <BR> One of the best things I did was go back to Weight Watchers on my birthday and that was when I got introduced to the new 360 program and I LOVE it! I bought the kit and I am so happy I did, the Handbook is awesome. For once this is interactive and private to yourself and it is one of the... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:12:28 EST The 275 lb Ballerina - The BIG meeting! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> First of all above is my new kitty Prince Nickolai. He is an F2 Bengal meaning his Grandfather is an Asian Leopard Cat, he came to me from Colorado yesterday to be a companion to his Uncle Mowgli, Mowgli's Dad is Nickolai's Grandad. I have been really busy getting all this together in the past week. <BR> <BR> Next, those of you who follow the blog often will note I have put on a little weight. I don't think th... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 15:04:46 EST The 272.8 lbs Ballerina - Just Don't Quit! <em>237</em> Okay, so swimming is a fantastic exercise and very compatible with ballet and I signed up for Masters swimming ALL winter.. but OHHHHHHH.. do I really have to spell out just how unappealing it is to think about being out in the freezing cold and knowing that once I get in to the Y all I have to look forward to is getting into freezing cold water?? <BR> <BR> When something like illness stops you when you have got your rhythm going.. whether it be for tracking your food or for e... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 11:46:07 EST The 272.8 lb Ballerina - Please Vote for Me <em>355</em> I am doing a bit of shameless self promotion here and asking for some help. <BR> <BR> This Ballerina series of blogs is intended to really motivate others to go outside of their comfort zone and follow their dreams, even if those dreams seem impossible. It doesn't have to be Ballet although I am really delighted to have inspired some other adults to go and learn or return to it. It could be anything that is seemingly out of reach at the weight and age you are now, but some... Fri, 7 Dec 2012 09:50:25 EST The 272.8 lbs Ballerina - Private Lesson So my first class back after illness turned out to be a private lesson! No one else turned up, I am guessing it is the time of year.. so I had Robert all to myself for a whole hour! <BR> <BR> That wasn't all. My leotard was a tad small but last night it fit me perfectly! I wore my new black tights with it and my ballet skirt and I felt and looked good! Well at least from the front and back, when I look at myself sideways I can't believe the sheer width of my tummy area.. it's horrendous.... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 13:01:04 EST The 272.8lbs Ballerina WOW it's been over a month since I blogged? I did hit a bad patch when things just were not coming together and then I got sick. To be honest I think I was ill for a while, my stomach just wasn't right at all and finally at the beginning of Thanksgiving Week I got sick as a dog. I ended up in hospital Thanksgiving evening and I had lost 12 lbs in 4 days! <BR> <BR> So there was the illness and also our Fall break at the ballet school so nothing to report on the ballet front. <BR> <BR> Now... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 10:15:51 EST The 278.2 lbs Ballerina - WOW now the fun really starts! <em>355</em> Okay so today I might have to declare myself just a little bit nuts, or a lot? You see I do have a dream.. a goal. But just like the dream and goal of actually starting ballet seemed distant so did my next dream and goal.. until last night. <BR> <BR> Foolishly, perhaps.. or not.. I arranged to have a meeting last night with the Rockford Dance Company School Coordinator and Prima Ballerina Brittany. Once again it was a small incident that sparked the meeting. Any of you who... Tue, 30 Oct 2012 10:36:16 EST The 278.2 lbs Ballerina - the past week <em>67</em> <em>333</em> The end of this week brought a wonderful reward. 2.6lbs lost, my 10lbs star FINALLY and 12lbs lost total. <BR> <BR> During the week was a mix. I went to ballet class on Monday and now I am really getting the hang of the barre exercises I was finally able to put a little expression into what I was doing. But ballet didn't happen on Wednesday.. I felt utterly exhausted, I have to remember that the swimming and ballet is asking a LOT of my 54 year old body. ... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 13:06:58 EST The 281 lb Ballerina - Latest <em>355</em> <em>237</em> First of all, to everyone commenting on my blogs THANK YOU! I am sorry I have not replied yet but I will catch up with all of you. The more comments the more I hope this blog will get out there and reach others who might find some inspiration in it. Like the person now doing STEP.. you go girl! That made me cry. <BR> <BR> Next.. sorry I have been MIA for over a week! I have not got photos to show you yet and need to get that done.. but neither of my leotard... Fri, 19 Oct 2012 10:30:58 EST The 284lb Ballerina Part Two <em>355</em> This morning I am still the 284lb Ballerina according to Weight Watchers scales yesterday morning. In fairness, I was in the pool at 7:00 a.m. for an hour long Masters Team workout and it was the first Saturday of the month team breakfast.. and I ate a pretty big one! It probably affected the scales but I was able to go to class and tell my ballet story which I hope inspired someone. I tracked every single point yesterday and will again today. I am in control. <BR> <BR> So... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 12:08:01 EST The 284lb Ballerina <em>355</em> I did it. And I am feeling very emotional tonight, at some point I think I will cry. <BR> <BR> If you read my blog before this one then you know what was happening tonight. The thing was, I didn't just make it all the way through an entire one and a half hour class.. I got praise! <BR> <BR> Oh sure.. I modified things some, I stretched on the lower barre and I didn't do full plies at this weight.. neither did I do any high jumping.. but the rest of it.. I did it. <BR> <B... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 00:01:25 EST Me and Ballet.. Oh God what have I done? Me and ballet go back a very long way. I would say I started dancing ballet at around age seven. I can't remember how I discovered it, but I do remember reading about Anna Pavlova who was my idol, even though she was long gone. Russia and the Marinsky Theatre became magical places for me and somehow I got hold of some books with pictures in. I wanted to go and learn but I don't know if Mum and Dad just didn't have the money right then or whether it was because I was overweight and they fe... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 10:02:27 EST WORD.. on Swimsuits and wasted decades So first off I recommend you read my blog September 29, 2012 which also happened to be my daughters 34th Birthday! OMG. If you don't read that further references to my journey to athlete and dancer might not make as much sense or be half as much fun! <BR> <BR> Now.. I can see some people who read that blog thinking.. yeah that is all very well but I can't even go swimming I just can't let anyone see me in a swimsuit. Sigh.. I am SO with you. So let me share with you my journey to swimsui... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 18:37:25 EST What the hell do I put here? Seriously.. just how many snippy titles can you come up with that will make people read your blog? I don't know what to call this. <BR> <BR> I am on the road to becoming an athlete and a dancer and anybody looking at me right now would probably say.. yeah right. I weigh almost 300lbs and I am 54 years old and that is about as far from an Athlete and Dancer as it is possible for me to imagine. But something happened... <BR> <BR> We watched the Ironman in Hawaii, a competition my husband w... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 23:29:16 EST Words of Encouragement Well what a week I have had. To be honest with you all I totally didn't even try to control food, not for the last couple of weeks probably. Like my WW leader said.. I say all the right things but I don't get results. <BR> <BR> But the problems from being so overweight are mounting. <BR> <BR> I found a great article online about how to get yourself ready for a weight loss program and what really jumped out at me was the one about your body image. Seeing yourself as you really are. It su... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 08:48:35 EST I want to be like my Robin Robin is the beautiful chocolate white parti cocker spaniel you can see on my Spark Page. He is 3 years old and has been a beautiful light in my life since November 2011. <BR> <BR> But the beautiful spaniel you see there didn't always look like that. You see, Robin was born in a puppy mill in Missouri and became a puppy mill stud dog. <BR> <BR> Robin lived those first few years in appalling conditions. When he came in his entire body was covered in inches of ginger blonde hair, that incl... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 11:58:49 EST No Promises, No Disappointment No promises I then don't keep that means. I have been in a really long rut with no signs of getting out of it. I have not been controlling food well. I don't exercise much anymore because I found exercising makes my back and hip joints hurt, they hurt less the less I do. So I know what the answer to that is.. to lose weight so that it gets easier. <BR> <BR> I don't know.. for the longest time it has been like trying to swim uphill through treacle or climb an impossibly steep mountain I d... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 12:22:28 EST Change is not just for Presidents <em>34</em> <em>33</em> <em>237</em> <BR> <BR> For as long as I have been at Weight Watchers and it has been a long time and several different classes in two countries, they have talked of it being a lifestyle change. Thing is.. I never understood it really. What is a lifestyle change? And how do I get one? Because time and again I have tried the lifestyle change and it didn't work. I have tried tons of diets from 6 years of age and they didn't work. I was always searching for that... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 12:24:15 EST WOW Really Reliable Huh? Yep that is me, last time I blogged a loonnngggg time ago I said I would be back Thursday.. was I? NO. <em>2</em> <BR> <BR> But as you can see I have been making progress. My WW leader had me emailing her my points and it has really helped habits to stick. Quite a few things have changed for me. <BR> <BR> I have learned how to eat out and go over the top, but still balance my diet. Gone are the days when I would spoil it all on one meal and then not pick up weight loss again for weeks... Sat, 13 Nov 2010 14:39:24 EST Out of Touch Seriously out of touch with everything and everyone here, I guess I just needed some time to have some positive stuff to write. <BR> <BR> I got really sick and tired of my weight going up and down and finally got together with my WW leader on it, well let me tell you, she has been a gem. She looked over my tracker and gave me ideas and suggestions and then as I slipped back again this week she is having me email her my points tracker every day. <BR> <BR> So what is the secret to get me out... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 13:06:28 EST Time to take stock and make a plan Yep time to take action, because although overall I might be eating healthier I am truly fed up. I am looking at almost an entire year being stuck around the same weight, up some, down some, why? <BR> <BR> The answer has to be not trying hard enough. Not getting enough exercise and although I did achieve quite a bit with bike riding etc through spring.. everything has fallen by the wayside and I am left feeling fed up, <BR> <BR> I think part of the problem is goal setting and I really n... Wed, 1 Sep 2010 11:31:55 EST Okay so.... <em>319</em> Today I am feeling just fan dabby dozzie! Yeah.. don't ask it was on some TV show when I was a kid. But I would like you my readers and friends out there to remind me I am feeling this way anytime I post negative. Because today I feel good. Today I feel in control. I won 25 spark points, yay. Eating is in a great pattern I am sustaining well and it is healthy! I feel confident of a good loss on the scales tomorrow night at WW. <BR> <BR> So wassup? Do you ever ask yours... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 09:33:16 EST In the Groove Yep I know I have been neglecting my blogging but I have so much else going on! Which is good right? Squeaky and Goldie got adopted YIPPEEEE and Delilah joined the houshold.. boy is she a beauty. <BR> <BR> So I seem to have found my groove here. Breakfast is cereal or a turkey sausage bowl and toast. Snacks are one fruit and cheese and one fruit and nut per day mid morning and mid afternoon. Lunch is a sandwich made from whole wheat bread with meat and a cheese slice, a mixed salad and ... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 12:29:47 EST Still in it to win it Hi everyone, wow, been away a while but wanted everyone to know I am back with the program here. <BR> <BR> Biking fell by the wayside as the heat and humidity have been so high here and I just can't breathe in this weather. Haven't been doing other exercise BUT I have tackled staying up in the mornings and I am on top of all the housework YAYYY. <BR> <BR> The other big change in my life was that salt and sugar is now banned. And yes.. it is possible to do it. I was in the habit of sand... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 10:03:02 EST This is it! And OT for Cat Lovers Yes I have been MIA a while and I thank those that dropped by wondering where the heck I got to. Well.. where I got to was allowing other things to throw me off track because I was out of routine. But I still lost a little weight! <BR> <BR> Week before last I was called to a new foster home to assess a cat that they were not quite sure what was wrong they had for 7 days. This was a cat in bad trouble. He was bone thin, a large framed Bengal that only weighed 5lbs. He was very dehydrated... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 07:06:57 EST Time to regroup, time for a new attack First of all I hope everyone had a fantastic 4th. We visited some relatives in the afternoon and planned to bike downtown to see the parade and fireworks. Well first of all there was a rain storm and then as we were getting close on time James discovered I had a flat tire. So we agreed it was Karma and decided to watch the fireworks on TV and we got Mexican in for dinner. Driving down to see the fireworks we have kind of done that once and it is a nightmare to park and then to get out of ... Mon, 5 Jul 2010 11:03:28 EST Really?? It is this easy?? I was thinking about the dinner I had the other night and the aftermath of it and the light bulb moments hitting me after. <BR> <BR> How many times in my life have I let a dinner like that or some other kind of, what you might call, non diet food ruin everything I have worked so hard for? I am just kicking myself right now for being so dumb. <BR> <BR> We have all been there haven't we? We eat something and others keep making comments like, 'should you be eating that?' or 'Oh you are not g... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 10:04:03 EST OOOOO Am I BAD! I was really lucky to get a gift card from a wonderful person for Red Lobster.. I asked for that one because it is a bit expensive for us but we LOVE it. <BR> <BR> So can I say that I learned a few things. <BR> <BR> We didn't need a starter. It was fun to share one but we truly didn't need it. <BR> <BR> The cheese biscuits really are gorgeous and worth the calories BUT.. I really don't need fries too.. I couldn't eat them all.. WHAT? Nope.. couldn't eat them all. <BR> <BR> That a plate ... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 13:03:44 EST 15 Pound Reflections <em>264</em> I am giving myself a little trophy here. This 15lbs loss is significant to me, it has been a long time coming. I had lost 18lbs right before Christmas and had lost it pretty easily and I allowed Christmas to totally mess me up and this time I couldn't get it back. It has taken ever since then to get myself back together and then get to this point, I had to work hard at it and I guess it means that much more to me because of it. <BR> <BR> There are some things I have noticed... Sat, 19 Jun 2010 09:16:18 EST Letting Go, Moving Forward That is the message for me today. <BR> <BR> One thing I did achieve was standing up for myself with my DH. I had some chocolate as some of you know and I had forgotten all about it.. my DH brought it up, asked me how I could eat it with all those calories. I told him sometimes women just need chocolate and dark chocolate is full of good stuff like iron and antioxidants and he asked if that was my excuse. I said no but if I was going to eat chocolate it was a wiser choice than milk. I a... Wed, 16 Jun 2010 07:27:55 EST A good and bad weekend and yet another NEW bike! <em>311</em> <em>217</em> <em>240</em> <em>338</em> <BR> <BR> This was my weekend. First I did a shift at the Animal Shelter. I started first thing in the morning and found there was no one there for dogs so I tried to do both. The lowest point of my day was when a family came up to me asking for a band aid. I felt terrible. I had not been in the kennel at the time. A 2 year old had stuck his hand through the bars I guess and somehow got a bite on his knuckle, 3 tiny little punctu... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 10:45:25 EST What's the Recipe today Jim? <em>45</em> <em>265</em> <em>289</em> <em>491</em> <em>267</em> <em>258</em> <em>210</em> <em>485</em> <em>284</em> <BR> <BR> The title of todays blog comes from a radio show back in the 1960's in England. The D.J. was Jimmy Young and he used to do a recipe section on his show. My first boyfriend and I decided we wanted to try one of the recipes and we started it while Mom was out. We were about 11 I think. The recipe called for a baking tin and water and marmalade as I recall.... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 09:54:48 EST