SHANSHE's SparkPeople Blog SHANSHE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community January 8, 2016 So, my goals for 2016 are still rolling around in my head and the only thing that is abundantly clear to me is that I am going to have to make ONE of them goals to do a daily/weekly review, accounting, moderating of my "goals" to make sure I'm still striving towards them, that I keep them in the forefront of my mind! Perhaps, a daily or weekly babystep goal list too that will lead me to my bigger/higher goals? <BR> <BR> So, while I'm thinking about the things I want in my life, I am going to... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 11:12:37 EST Where I was a year ago (1-16-15)... Where I am now (1-6-16) This is part of my blog from January 16, 2015: <BR> <BR> ~ My husband passed away on 12-22-14 <BR> ~ I think I was in a mid-life crises before this happened and I think it's still in full swing. I am more confused about who I am now and what I believe than I ever was as a teenager. <BR> ~ It's time for me to take charge of my life and make it what I know it can be. <BR> ~ I don't know how to begin. <BR> ~ Blogging has been a huge help to me in the past. <BR> ~ I feel like I've lost part... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 12:01:58 EST 8-5-15: 1st Day - Again/Week 1 Goals Weigh-in: 315 (was 325 1-16-15, not sure how I lost, but glad I did <em>30</em> ) <BR> <BR> Plan 8-5-15 thru 8-12-15: <BR> <BR> 1. Track my water intake <BR> 2. Walk around neighborhood circle (Time it to see how long it takes) <BR> 3. Pay more attention to what I am eating - THINK about it <BR> 4. Weigh in again next week <BR> 5, Lose 50 pounds by January 31, 2016 (10 pounds/month approx.) <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> In my "memories" and timehop, I have been finding where I li... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 12:29:18 EST Fellow Sparker in Need of Help! Please go to this link, read and help if you can. Thanks so much!! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>n_ids=10100703797193221&fb_action_type<BR>s=og.shares&fb_ref=16_fb_px&fb_source=<BR>other_multiline&action_object_map=%5B6<BR>66797360086444%5D&action_type_map=%5B%<BR>22og.shares%22%5D&action_ref_map=%5B%2216_fb_px%22%5D </link> <BR> <BR> ALSO... here is a link to her blog her on spark: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 18:41:49 EST It really HAS been awhile, hasn't it? I haven't been here in a really long time... <BR> <BR> ~ My husband passed away on 12-22-14 <BR> ~ I think I was in a mid-life crises before this happened and I think it's still in full swing. I am more confused about who I am now and what I believe than I ever was as a teenager. <BR> ~ It's time for me to take charge of my life and make it what I know it can be. <BR> ~ I don't know how to begin. <BR> ~ Blogging has been a huge help to me in the past. <BR> ~ I feel like I've lost part of me,... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 23:08:09 EST Mindset <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have made alot of changes in about one month's time. On the BL Lime Summer Challenge, during the last week (about a month ago), we had a "word" challenge. We were to think of a positive/uplifting word and post it, and what made us think of that word, then share how it changed your day the next day. Well, between reading the words of others and my own, it was like all of a sudden I was awakened from my slumber. I... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 13:03:03 EST Routine and Jobs Well, I have done everything I can do in order to start substitute teaching. All we are waiting on now is my background check to come back. I've turned in all the papers, I've even gotten my Statement of Eligibility to teach back in the mail and turned in, etc... Gotten in the training, and once the background check comes back, I SHOULD be added to the list right away! I am a little impatient as I am excited to get started! :) <BR> <BR> I was reminded of another job I had heard about before,... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 13:08:41 EST Morning Routine Update... My morning routine is not quite going as planned... I am not beating myself up, just trying to think of way to tweak it to work better, OR to do something differently so that I actually DO it! I get through getting up, getting dressed, working out and eating breakfast. That is where it all falls apart. I sit down to eat and drink coffee and instead of spending time with God, I end up getting on the computer instead. I tell myself I will only be a minute and that turns in to two hours or more.... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 10:49:06 EST I NEED a Routine! :) Well, as some of you know, I have been getting up earlier to get in some kind of routine. So far, I am getting up BY 5:30, immediately getting dressed, fixing the coffee pot and then doing my WATP video to walk one mile. Then, I get my cup of coffee, sit down and that's it. By the time I catch up on spark and facebook, I am sleepy and ready to go back to sleep! So, I have been taking a nap the last three days. I haven't really been eating breakfast and am wondering if that is part of my probl... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 13:26:09 EST Tortellini Tuesday! I got this recipe from a friend who shared it on FB, here's the recipe: <BR> 1 bag of frozen tortellini <BR> 1 small bag of fresh spinach <BR> 2 cans of italian style diced tomatoes <BR> 1 box or 4 cups or vegetable broth <BR> 1 block of cream cheese <BR> put all ingredients in crockpot, chunking up the cream cheese. Cook on low for 5-6 hrs <BR> <BR> I bought cheese tortellini, doubled the recipe, used one large bag of spinach, instead of two small bags AND I added 2 14 oz. package of polish... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 14:00:54 EST Layers of Behavioral Change I saw this posted on FB, by "Jay", he was on BL, season 11. Whether you like him or like BL or not, you can gain something from this! It made PERFECT sense to me! Now to implement it! <BR> Shan <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Identity-Based Habits <BR> <BR> Change is hard. You've probably noticed that. We all want to become better people—stronger and healthier, more creative and more skilled, a better friend or fam... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 22:42:34 EST Life is about to get busier... As some of you know and others may NOT know, I have my BA of Arts in P-5 education. In an earlier blog during the challenge on "words" I mentioned that I had not been as dedicated to finding a teaching job as I should/needed to be. That translated to not being dedicated to ME, and my dream! The school year has already started here and to my knowledge all teaching positions have been filled. It might seem that I would be "out of luck" so to speak until next year. However, God showed me a plan!... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 08:31:07 EST Final Word... (for this challenge) Well, I did not make my list of priorities or how I was going to DETERMINE to meet them today like I planned... BUT, I FORGIVE myself for it and am moving on! I do know that I want my TOP priority to be God, so, I just have to start putting Him first! First, before sleeping in, before computer (e-mail, facebook and spark), before my phone... YES, I just admitted I am addicted to my phone, lol! This means, I need to go to bed earlier than I am tonight and get up in time to spend time with Him.... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 23:55:58 EST Forgiveness Today, I thought about the word dedication and made plans to show my dedication to myself tomorrow (Wednesday) by making a list of priorities and then making a game plan to start working on being dedicated to myself and my priorities. <BR> <BR> The word I thought of tonight was "forgiveness". Yesterday, someone left a link to a blog about forgiveness and then today someone posted on the chat thread about forgiveness AND, I saw a post on facebook about not being able to go back and fix mistak... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 23:07:01 EST Uplifting (positive) Words for Week ITC <BR> Week 10 <BR> <BR> At night as you are getting ready for bed choose an uplifiting word for the following day. Then write a post or blog about any events that occurred that made you think of that word. Leaders make a thread for your members to post their words on. Post or blog on 3 separate days to earn the ITC point <BR> <BR> <BR> Bonus: Revisit your word "post" and tell us how it changed your day or your mood. Did it make a difference? Post the revisit to earn one Bonus point. <BR... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 18:58:56 EST Kids! Yesterday I was chatting with a friend and I asked her why we sometimes have bouts of worry for our kids that seem to come up suddenly and almost unexplained. She thought that it might be fear and that it usually had something to do with US more than our kids. I think she could be right, but figuring out that fear seems difficult. Like it was the night before my DAUGHTERS court date and I was terribly worried about my SON. So much so, I could not sleep, I texted him and he said he was ok and ... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 09:10:52 EST Howdy! ;) Well, since I posted a Lime blogging challenge, I must blog, LOL! <BR> <BR> My daughter is finally away from one person who was dragging her down, now to get her to choose to stay away from some others... it's babysteps, I guess! She has court Monday. Her court appointed lawyer was trying to get her charges amended to a misdemeanor instead of the felony, so we should find out Monday if she succeeded. I surely hope so. However, she is technically jobless and homeless. She is staying at a frie... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 10:12:54 EST Goals Re-Visited... I had goals in mind, but I never wrote them down or posted them at the beginning of the Summer Challenge... <BR> <BR> #1 - As challenge leader, participate in ALL challenges. Life has been stressful and crazy as well as my normal computer getting torn up, and my printer also got dropped and no longer works. Needless to say, I have barely managed to POST the challenges, much less actually DO them. <BR> ~ Try to create a routine to check in on spark every day again so that I can keep myself aw... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 12:26:11 EST Looking for the Positives... Well, in the midst of all the craziness, some good news has emerged... The day my daughter got out of jail, she was supposed to go to work, well, she called in because she was "tired" etc... and got fired. A day or two later, I asked her to THINK about going in and apologizing and asking for her job back. She was VERY opposed to doing so, but I told her just think about it! A few days later, she decided she wanted to do that very thing. So, Monday, she went in to apologize and ask and it did ... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 13:17:07 EST Mind Ramblings It's un-telling what will end up in this blog, as I have no clear idea of what I want to talk about, but feel a blog is in order, <BR> <BR> We'll start with my daughter. Those of you on Limes know she spent a night in jail. I don't want to go into the whole ordeal of the "story" behind it all, but suffice it to say, she shared pot with a 17 year old (who will soon be 18) and now has been charged with "Unlawful transaction with a minor in the 2nd degree - Class D Felony". The irony of it all,... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:37:32 EST Wow... It's Been Awhile (since I blogged)! I've been here on spark, helping lead the Lime team and checking in with friends from time to time, but I just have not felt up to blogging... <BR> <BR> It would impossible to update you all on EVERYTHING... but a few highlights since I last blogged. <BR> <BR> On January 18th, John (my husband) had to have his left leg amputated mid-thigh down. Life has been crazy since... adjusting, etc... <BR> <BR> I'm still working at Dollar General Market. <BR> <BR> Jarod my son 21, is doing well, sti... Tue, 4 Jun 2013 01:17:00 EST Goal Setting I read the blog I wrote last year with my 2012 goals and I did not meet any of them, really! The only goal I met in 2012 was meeting Susie face to face! While that was a worthy goal and a great one met, the other ones were important for my health as well and I did not meet them. Soooo, I'm making it as simple as possible, because I want to meet some this year, so babysteps is the way! Below are my goals, I will re-evaluate once I meet them and add more. I will also try updating at least once... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:00:59 EST Ways I have Found to Reduce Stress 1. Talking - I have found that talking to someone about the stresses in my life often help me to "hear" myself and realize that they are not as bad as I thought. You have to be careful WHO you talk to though, because some people might make you feel worse about your situation! I try to talk to positive, Christian people who almost always point me to God and prayer. <BR> <BR> 2. Blogging/Journaling - I guess in some ways it's the sameas the 1st one, especially on here when we get feedback from... Wed, 19 Dec 2012 22:37:49 EST Pre-LTC Challenge Blog My goals for this challenge... <BR> <BR> 1. Check in on the team at least once/day!!! - This is just part of being a good leader, checking on my team and letting them KNOW I am there. In the past few challenges, I have slacked on daily presence. <BR> <BR> 2. Get back up to 8 or more cups/water/day! - I have just been slacking on drinking all my water. By the end of this challenge I want to be consistently drinking my 8 cups/day without even thinking! <BR> <BR> 3. Get back in to regular exe... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 23:05:30 EST Road Trip (Part 3 of Part 2) Final Auditon Thu, 29 Nov 2012 14:44:09 EST Road Trip (Part 2 of Part 2) Nadia and Reese trying out for Johnny the Mustache Part 1 Thu, 29 Nov 2012 13:55:24 EST Re~Living my Road Trip One Stop at a Time! (Part 1 of Part 2) OK, well, there will not be as many pics this time, but I had fun still! <BR> <BR> Let's see, I ended with bedtime at Jann's in the last blog and I slept sooo good! I was surprised, but I had not been sleeping that well at home being so excited about the trip, so I guess I had wore myself out enough to sleep finally!! Plus, she had that memory foam on the bed and even Bekah said she slept well! :) <BR> <BR> I woke up and started getting up about the time Jann was coming to wake me up, lol!... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 13:34:34 EST Re~Living my Road Trip One Stop at a Time! (Part 1) Wednesday, November 7, 2012: <BR> <BR> I was sooo excited to leave on my trip! Tired from work, this gal was bright eyed and bushy tailed and ready to go! I had to wait until 8:30 for the pharmacy to open, so that I could be sure I had enough meds for my trip and that morning was the soonest they could fill them! So, Bekah and I got ready, put the last minute things in our suit cases, put them in the car and went to mom's to get my "birthday money" so I would have it for the trip and then vi... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 10:42:27 EST :( ~ My Trip is Over ~ :/ I have mixed emotions about my trip being over... I miss the excitement of being gone and doing new things for the first time, YET... I guess it would have gotten old had I stayed gone longer? Maybe not, lol! I know it was difficult to come home and what I came home to made me want to turn back around and leave! The house was simply filthy! It wasn't perfect when I left, but it wasn't nasty, ya know? <BR> <BR> Anyway... the rest of my time with Susie was just perfect and the first wave of sa... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 18:55:57 EST Quick Blog I have had an awesome and amazing trip so far. God's hand has been protecting me, I have been alert, etc... <BR> <BR> I am at Susie's, we stayed up until 1 in the morning chatting and re-connecting and just bonding again, this time, in person!!!! I LOVED it! She is just as amazing as I thought she would be and we are both huggers! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My time at Jann's and Aunt Ni's were awesome and great times as well! <BR> <BR> I really have just enjoyed my time away fully! I am o... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 12:16:21 EST Getting More Accomplished... Keeping the Panic at Bay!! Today, I went shopping and bought a pair of black sweatpants ($6.97) and two long sleeve tops ($7.97/ea.) - I love Wal-Mart, lol!!! I also bought a jacket/coat and a pair of gloves! I thought about buying a sweatshirt, but they were wider than they were long and I thought they were kind of ugly. I just put on the sweatpants and they feel really good, I think they will work well on my trip and well, you will probably see the tops later in pics. I also bought all my snacks, so other than draggi... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 19:15:12 EST Panic Much?? I admit it... as excited as I am, I still feel a little panicky about my trip due to feeling un-prepared. I have been accomplishing a little bit each day towards going, but it feels like it's not enough and now that I have my work schedule, it feels like I am in even MORE of a crunch!!! <BR> <BR> My daily list is not working too well for me, it seems to basically just make me MORE nervous and overwhelmed. I wonder if my perfectionism is kicking in here wanting it to be a perfect trip, etc...... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 13:45:49 EST Adjusting List... probably boring to you... :) Wednesday, October 31, 2012: <BR> <BR> ~ Clean kitchen - Partially DONE (letting Jonah finish it) <BR> ~ Make appointment with cousin to have hair cut - TRYING to get schedules aligned <BR> ~ Church - DONE <BR> ~ For some reason I slept alot, I think excitement kept me up late Tues. night and then i crashed yesterday... not sure how to "fix" that... <BR> <BR> ______________________ <BR> Thursday, November 1, 2012: <BR> <BR> <BR> ~ Put away the mountain of clean laundry and sort current... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 12:01:44 EST !!!!!~!!!!!~EXCITEMENT~!!!!!~!!!!! No, this is not me, but i thought it was a funny pic that came up when I searched images for the word "excited". <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am sooo excited about my trip! As of now, it is about 6 days away! The only problem is when I get this excited, wait... have I ever been this excited??? I cannot say! I don't think so though! Anyway, when I get excited, I have a tendency to run in circles, and THINK about what needs done so... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 02:00:03 EST Failures/Road Trip Plans :) I have alot of rambling thoughts tumbling around in my mind and nobody to talk to about it, so I might as well blog. <BR> <BR> First off, I have failed in walking/exercising 10 min./day, failed in Bible study and prayer and failed in upping my water intake.... <BR> <BR> YET, I am still going on my trip and I am going by myself. I am selfish, I want some one on one time with the people I am going to visit and I need some time to myself, time to focus on me, get motivated and come back refres... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 11:48:51 EST Lime Week 1 Challenge ITC & Bonus The Fall Theme is about change. Let's get back to (or continue!) a healthy eating and lifestyle. <BR> <BR> Week 1 <BR> Start by looking at things that might be holding you back from reaching your goals. Make a list of 5 of things that might be holding you back or share 5 things that might have held you back in the past. <BR> <BR> 1. Feeling unworthy of GOOD things <BR> 2. Letting my feelings and emotions dictate my choices <BR> 3. Being too strict or setting too high expectations for mys... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 19:23:35 EST weekend menu planning ~ lime challenge SATURDAY: <BR> <BR> Breakfast: <BR> 1 boiled egg <BR> <BR> Snack: <BR> banana or apple and maybe one piece of string cheese <BR> <BR> Lunch: <BR> Refreshments at a Jamberry Nails party <BR> <BR> Supper: <BR> Grilled or Baked Chicken <BR> vegetable medley steamed <BR> baked potato <BR> <BR> SUNDAY: <BR> <BR> Breakfast: <BR> 1 boiled egg <BR> <BR> Lunch: <BR> 1 cup Shells & Cheddar with Tuna <BR> <BR> Supper: <BR> 2 - bbq pork sandwiches <BR> <BR> Snack: <BR> banana or apple and maybe... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 22:59:06 EST Sleepy/Coffee/Motivation/List Well, it is 11am and I want to sleep <em>102</em> . I got up about 9am, but I think the problem is that we are out of coffee and have no money to get any for a week or two. I have been sleeping a lot it seems, so am trying to stay awake. <BR> <BR> I DO actually have things I need to get done on my last day off this week. I know I have two main goals, but that does not mean that I cannot get other stuff done too. The only problem is... I am not feeling really motivated today! I want to sleep... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 12:23:16 EST Reflection on The LIME ~ "Turn Up the Heat" Summer Challenge <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, this is a hard one. I never really posted or made any goals for the Summer Challenge because I figured I would fail anyway with the state of mind I was in, etc... However, I never planned to get so far behind on spark and miss 3 or more weigh-ins, etc.... I almost did not do this blog, BUT, am trying to finish out the challenge better than when I started and part of that is doing the challenges as best I can!... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 20:07:41 EST Overcoming <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That (the picture above) is what my afternoon/evening has been like! One roadblock after another! As you know, my mom and I planned on walking this afternoon. Turns out, we mis-communicated, as I thought I was going over right after work, doing a load of laundry, going for a walk and then coming home. SHE thought I meant later in the evening... (not sure how much later, but on up in the evening). So, I get off work... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 00:41:36 EST New Motivation! :) Well, the only goal I've had the last week or so (since my last blogs) was to spend time with God praying and reading His word. Some days were more involved than others and I missed this past Saturday (yesterday), but I am still taking baby steps to get to where I need to be in that department and I may never be totally where I need to be, but as long as I am trying and progressing... I should be happy with that! That will continue to be my #1 goal! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 00:59:28 EST Weak but Strong I was right, that blog helped me immensely, not just getting it out of my system, but the people that came and supported me, gave me advice and new ways of looking at things! Thank-you ALL so very much! <BR> <BR> After writing the blog Sunday night, I e-mailed a "new" friend. I've known who she was for years, but we became more intimate friends when I went on the Emmaus Walk in late April. She writes devotions and I get one weekly and well she came to mind and I reached out to her. I will ju... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 21:34:13 EST ?What's Up With Me? That is something I also would like to know. I can start by telling you that I have ZERO motivation for ANYTHING. Everything I should, could, would and even feel that I WANT to do... I have no motivation or gumption to make myself do. Like, I want to be in right relationship with God and for me... that means I should read the bible and pray daily. Yes, there is more to it, but that is a big part of it. I mean, any relationship we have dies if there is no communication, right? Marriage, childr... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 01:13:24 EST Limes BL Spring Challenge Reflection... I am late in posting this because I simply am a procrastinator in every sense of the word!!! Plus, this will not be real positive, so... <BR> <BR> As I look back on this challenge, I have not accomplished much at all! My eating has been all over the place all challenge long. My exercise, has been what I do while working - (no exercise outside of work) and my weight has yo-yo'd. Well duh, right? <BR> <BR> I thought about sitting the next challenge out, but as leader, that is kind of hard to ... Thu, 24 May 2012 10:37:25 EST Ramblings This blog has no real purpose, other than to just blog. I am a little bored, and nobody to really talk to, so why not blog? That way I get to talk, LOL! <BR> <BR> This past Thursday, my aunt called me and asked me to meet her at Dollar General (yes, my workplace). I got there and she told me she had $100 to buy me some stuff, so I did not have to buy it and so that it would last awhile. We got toothpaste, mouthwash, deodorant, shampoo, body wash, toilet paper, cleaners, laundry detergent, et... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 00:00:52 EST Gratitude... This week, we are supposed to write a Gratitude/Thankful blog and I started a blog that got interrupted the other day, but it was kind of negative, at least the part I got out of my system, lol! :) However, when things are stressful and not the best, sometimes, it is better to concentrate on the positive things in life anyway! So, I have no idea how long my list will be or how detailed it will be, but here goes... <BR> <BR> 1. Jesus, my Lord & Savior - without Him I would be lost and have no... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 22:16:28 EST I Should Blog... So, here I am, not sure what will come out though, so be prepared for a ramble! :) <BR> <BR> Umm, our trip to IN kinda knocked us off our feet financially and things are hard to get back under control, plus they are cutting hours at work and that is stressing me out even more and making it harder to get things back under control. <BR> <BR> Family disruptions are causing me to end this blog now. <BR> Hugs to all, <BR> Shan Mon, 9 Apr 2012 14:22:00 EST Lime ~Bring Your Spring On~ Goals I am a bit pressed for time right now as I have to be at work at 5am tomorrow morning, I am hungry and have not had supper yet and need to get to bed SOON! :) However, I wanted to get my goals posted so I meet all the facets of the Pre-LTC!! <BR> <BR> Ok here goes: <BR> <BR> 1. Get back to drinking AT LEAST 8 cups/water/day or more, even if I have to work up to it. <BR> <BR> 2. Now that I am getting plenty more exercise at work, but my body is surely getting used to it, (even if I STAY sor... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 21:29:58 EST Reflection of Week 1 Letter <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4634727 </link> <BR> <BR> The link above is to my first letter I wrote myself to re-read here. I still feel like many of the members new and old still do better than I do and are better examples, BUT, I am working on it. <BR> <BR> The plan was to take one habit/week and work on it. I think I started out doing ok with that to an extent. Then I started a new job and going from not working except as needed here and t... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 18:23:10 EST LTC - Week 6 ~ Hitting the Wall what is it that pushes you over the hump when working out. <BR> <BR> Some people call it hitting the wall…you’re working out, your pushing yourself to what you think is your limit, but you want to go just a little further in your workout. What is it that pushes you to go further? <BR> <BR> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <BR> <BR> Well, to be honest, I have not been REGULARLY exercising for quite some time. I get a few minutes in here and there when doing something that pushes me beyond what I normal... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 11:05:29 EST