SHAKINGTHETREE's SparkPeople Blog SHAKINGTHETREE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Crazy past two weeks... Well - I'm officially 40. :) So far, so good! <BR> <BR> My schedule has been off the rails lately. I've been on vacation... back and forth to NYC - twice! - and also took a little jaunt to the beach, as well. Crazy! I need a vacation from my vacation, and the pile of stuff waiting for me on my desk isn't helping matters. <BR> <BR> The good news is that even though exercise has been almost completely absent, I managed to not lose control of how I ate. Fortunately, in the city, there's ... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 15:19:29 EST R.I.P., bluetooth headphones My trusty bluetooth headphones - the ones I did several rounds of P90X with, the ones I wore during my entire summer training for a half-marathon - finally died this week. They just refuse to hold a charge. :( <BR> <BR> I've had them for 2.5 years. I guess I can't really complain about that, especially since I sweated all over them, wore them in all kinds of conditions (blistering heat... sheeting rain...), mashed them up all kinds of ways in various bags, and generally just abused the he... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 13:24:49 EST Do YOU, boo! So I went for a run last night - nothing insane, just Couch to 5k, week 1 - and I wore my old shoes. <BR> <BR> And by old shoes, I mean OLD. They're Adidas Supernova Cushion 6... and Adidas is currently on version 8 or 9 of this shoe, I think. So, yeah - they're old. I also sort of buck conventional thinking in that I don't like to wear socks with my running shoes. Can't tell you how I've been hollered at over the years to wear socks when I run. AND, get this - I did NOT put my orthot... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 09:41:56 EST Regrouping. Okay, so... today, my foot feels better. A tad bit stiff, maybe, but not the pain I was dealing with in the morning yesterday. <BR> <BR> Last night, I had a lot of time to myself to do some thinking. I was at the theatre, sewing more costumes for a show... and sewing is a great "passive activity" for me in that it doesn't require a lot of brain power but is something good to do when I have heavy thinking to do. Working with my spinning wheel is the same way... it's repetitive and relati... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 09:59:49 EST Maybe this is a test of character. Well, last night, I took my first run in a very long time. <BR> <BR> The run itself went great. It felt SO DAGGONE GOOD to be back out and running again, even though most of it was walking. I did Couch to 5k, Week 1, Day 1. <BR> <BR> Today, however, is a different story. Friends, I am really, really hurting. I lay in bed this morning and fantasized about cutting off my foot. <BR> <BR> I don't know why. I've been walking with no problems... did three miles with zero pain on Friday. ... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 10:35:11 EST Recap This weekend... not the greatest. Right on schedule, my period started, and it took all the energy out of me - and I mean ALL OF IT. No workouts, and although I didn't go completely off the rails with eating, it wasn't as great as it could have been. <BR> <BR> It wasn't a complete wash, however. I got taxes done, and I am very pleased at the amount of the return - so much so that I'm going to turn a lot of that money around and put it back into the house. Unbelievably, it'll be seven y... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 10:34:49 EST Not bad - not bad at all :) So yesterday, I attempted plyo. It's the first time since last year... I have been, up until recently, under strict orders for no leapy-jumpy stuff while my foot does its thing. My foot felt good yesterday, so I attempted plyo - sometimes modified, but mostly real-deal . <BR> <BR> It went well. It went REALLY well. And although my foot was a little sore this morning, it wasn't the same kind of soreness AND a little stretching resolved it almost immediately. <BR> <BR> Friends... <BR> <B... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 11:16:20 EST Unexpected treasures Wilmington gets a bad rap. And not all of it is underserved - violence is at an all-time high with no end in sight. (Though I do take issue with Newsweek dubbing it "Murdertown, USA" - that's not helping matters.) The city government is in chaos, with its idiot mayor at the head of the issues. It's not a political thing - this man is truly DUMB. <BR> <BR> Still, most months of the year, I like working in Wilmington. It's crappy and gross in the winter months, but during the spring, summ... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 10:38:19 EST Hanging in! So I promised myself yesterday that even though I was in a poopy mood, I would do at least fifteen minutes of my planned kickboxing workout - and I ended up doing the whole hour, and feeling pretty good about it. I guess I know myself pretty well. :) <BR> <BR> I didn't do the strength training - but here's the deal: I have a 2 mile walk and shoulders/arms scheduled for today. I will do the walk at lunch - no problem there. It's cold and a little breezy but sunny and definitely won't be ... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 10:15:29 EST THE COLD Cold weather really robs me of my mojo. We're having a bit of a cold snap - March felt more like April, and April - at least at first - seems to feel more like March. We had snow flurries this morning, and it made me want to punch the sky. <BR> <BR> I got my walk in yesterday before the change in the weather - yay! - but I came home and basically passed out instead of doing the weight training I had scheduled. I'm thinking it must be PMS; I fell asleep sometime between 8:30-9pm yesterday,... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 09:46:54 EST Apple Watch! Well, my beloved, trusty heart rate monitor - the one I wore during P90X, the one I trained with for 5ks and the Beat the Blerch half marathon - finally crapped out. Replacing batteries did nothing, resetting it did nothing - it will just NOT pick up my heartbeat anymore. <BR> <BR> The timing was kind of good, however, because I've been kicking around the idea of getting an Apple Watch, anyway - and I just got a nice bonus at work, too, so it really worked out great. I've been wanting some... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 11:28:32 EST WELL HELLO APRIL AND THUS BEGINS THE MONTH-LONG 40TH BIRTHDAYPALOOZA JUBILEE EXTRAVAGANZA!!! <BR> <BR> I'm having an amazing day, and I've really got nothing to add. :) <BR> <BR> Happy Friday, everyone! Fri, 1 Apr 2016 10:41:05 EST Oh hormones... I know that I must be entering the PMS Zone because just about everything is making me cry. <BR> <BR> I got my performance appraisals from my boss and my supervisor, and I'm happy to report that I got pretty great marks all around - so I expect my review this afternoon to go well. Tomorrow is April 1 - my last remaining days in my 30s begin tomorrow, and I'm ridiculously excited about turning 40. I'm happy with the progress I am making on an internal level. I'm finally healing from injuri... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 10:03:20 EST Coasting for the rest of the week :) Boss is GONE until next week!! WOO HOO!!! <BR> <BR> This means I can get away from my desk a little more and walk. My foot is feeling pretty good, even after putting it through the paces yesterday with kickboxing - even so, I'm going to be conservative with my walk today and only go 1.75 miles. I also have weight training scheduled for tonight - so my plan is to come home, throw laundry in, get my workout done while my laundry goes, have myself a nice little protein shake for dinner, and ... Wed, 30 Mar 2016 09:40:01 EST Well, that explains a lot I felt so crappy yesterday because it appears that I'm fighting something - and I'm thinking it's just a cold. I went to bed last night with aches, chills, and a sore throat, and I slept like a ROCK for a solid nine hours - which is very, very unlike me. Seven hours is my standard. <BR> <BR> Today, I've brought my workout clothes to work with me, and I plan to get a little kickboxing done during lunch. Boss missed his morning doc appointment, and so he rescheduled it for 11:30... so I'm g... Tue, 29 Mar 2016 09:32:23 EST Good advice I'm not what you'd call a religious person, by any means. I'm extremely spiritual, but for my own spiritual practices, I don't adhere to organized religions. I feel it is a very personalized experience, different for each one of us, and once human beings get involved with it and try to make/enforce rules, claiming it is the "will of (insert deity here)," things get awfully dangerous. This is why the earth and nature based faiths/philosophies appeal to me. They are well-suited to the solo ... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 13:17:48 EST Little by little The weather right now is very mild, so I took another walk last night, and I took my dog, Hannah, with me. My dog is truly my bestie - and generally speaking, if you don't like my dog (or my dog doesn't like you!), chances are, you and I are not going to get along. Thankfully, Hannah gets along with just about everyone. She's so goofy and affable. <BR> <BR> Last night, we took a walk through North East, Maryland. (Yes, the town is called North East.) It's a cute little town that has so... Fri, 25 Mar 2016 09:51:28 EST Any step towards success will give you success So, lately, I've been listening to Shaun T's "Trust & Believe" podcasts. This may sound weird, but it's seriously one of the most positive things in my life right now. Of course, he addresses things like physical fitness and nutrition... but more importantly (maybe most importantly), he addresses the psychological and emotional components of what it means to live a healthy, positive life. <BR> <BR> If you do not already listen to this podcast, I highly recommend it. It comes out weekly,... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 10:42:13 EST Getting real So... pull up a chair and get comfy, because this is going to be a long one. <BR> <BR> I have a history of disordered eating. <BR> <BR> It's mostly binge/purge behavior, but I have also had bouts where I have actually been afraid to eat food. My relationship with food has been fraught since high school. <BR> <BR> I know I am not alone and that many of us have issues with food (or we wouldn't be here, right?). My complicated relationship with food has manifested itself in different wa... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 11:34:22 EST Ushering in the new Well... we had our last show yesterday, and it went extremely well. <BR> <BR> Here's a picture of me in the show. (For reference, the show is _Sunday in the Park with George_ by James Lapine/Stephen Sondheim. It explains the cut-out people/objects. It's a weird show.) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Anyway, we had to take the whole set apart yesterday after the show... and since there were only fourteen peop... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 09:52:22 EST Oh, for CRYING OUT LOUD. Snow in the forecast? Are you f'ing serious?!?! <BR> <BR> HHHHHHH. <BR> <BR> I know it's spring and everything, but come ON already...!! <BR> <BR> *~*~*~*~* <BR> <BR> Everything is kicking my posterior at the moment. The end is in sight; after Sunday afternoon, life is going to get SO much easier on me as far as time is concerned. This is good; I've been far too busy for my own liking, and I have housekeeping to do, both in the literal sense and in the figurative sense. <BR> <BR> Ye... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 15:54:18 EST Weather... Characteristic for March, the weather is unpredictable - nobody knows from day to day how exactly to dress for it. You might freeze in the morning, but you might also get too hot that same afternoon. Layering is the order of the moment. <BR> <BR> Today is rather bleak, and my mood is kind of reflecting that, I think. It's been damp and dreary and cool these past few days, and it's sapping me of my energy and will. Not helping is the fact that it is tech week and we're in rehearsals every... Tue, 15 Mar 2016 10:20:46 EST Not such a great weekend... ...I totally bailed on my workouts and my eating was not wonderful, either. I wasn't feeling well at all. But at least I got some housework done - I started work on the kitchen, which is sorely in need of a declutter and a deep-clean. Made a good dent in that. <BR> <BR> Still feeling kind of blah and ick today, but I'm going to try to make the best of things and at least get my eating under control. I think I went off the rails over the weekend because I was tired and just not feeling gr... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 11:37:42 EST Being tested like CRAZY this week I was awoken at about 3am by a migraine, and I'm still trying to shake it. I have my office as dark as I can get it, but even staring at the computer monitor is painful. This will be a short blog. <BR> <BR> I haven't had a migraine in a very long time. I'm wondering if this came about by some combination of my period and also not eating enough yesterday. I hydrated a lot and I got my workout in yesterday afternoon, but almost immediately after, my period began in earnest. I tried to mak... Fri, 11 Mar 2016 09:15:12 EST The best-laid plans... ...occasionally get derailed. But that's okay, because Plan B is in effect!! <BR> <BR> I was going to wake up STUPIDLY early today (like, 4am) to work out before my EPAT treatment today, but I instead opted to sleep... because: (a) sleep is important; and (b) I forgot that my boss is going to be in NYC for the entire afternoon, and so I can grab a workout at work! I have P90X Kenpo loaded on my iPad, so I'm going to do that workout this afternoon and just switch my Monday workout to barre... Thu, 10 Mar 2016 10:26:15 EST Please weigh in on standing desks! One more quick note... I am in the market for a standing desk (or, more appropriately, a converter for my work desk). <BR> <BR> Does anyone out there have a standing desk? What do you think of it? How did you adapt to it (I assume it takes time)? <BR> <BR> Please leave me your comments below! I'd love to hear your opinions and solutions. <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> Wed, 9 Mar 2016 10:27:22 EST Planning ahead, and making it work I have to get up ridiculously early tomorrow morning so that I can work out and get that done before heading to my third EPAT appointment with the podiatrist... which is scheduled for 7am. This means I will have to get up around 4am in order to get animals dealt with by 4:30, work out from 4:30-5:30, get showered, fed, and put together for work, and be out the door by 6:30 to get to the doc by 7. <BR> <BR> Oy. <BR> <BR> Thankfully, I'll be able to get an early bedtime tonight. I have choi... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 09:46:43 EST Blogging on a Saturday? Whaaaat..?? I almost never blog on a Saturday! <BR> <BR> Had a few minutes, though, and wanted to make a quick note because I had a little bit of an epiphany. <BR> <BR> It's easy to look at all the hardbodies and "fitspo" and get motivated to work out. <BR> <BR> It's also easy to look at those same images and feel intimidated. <BR> <BR> I want to share with you guys today that I have lately been inspired by people whom many would not necessarily initially think of as inspirational. <BR> <BR> I'm tal... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 20:09:26 EST Short blog today I had meant to say a bunch of things today, but they've all kind of escaped me. Oops. <BR> <BR> I worked out this morning - again, HEAVILY modified because my foot is still healing up and I do not want to risk a re-injury, but I did it! It felt good. <BR> <BR> Actually, it didn't feel good - it felt hard! But hard is good, and it felt good to dig deep. <BR> <BR> *~*~*~* <BR> <BR> It's now FREEZING outside, and I'm hoping it's winter's last gasp before finally giving way to spring. W... Thu, 3 Mar 2016 09:37:52 EST Happy March! One of the things I started doing a while back is changing up the look of my Spark page every month. It's something I look forward to - plus it reminds me that I have New Month's Resolutions to take care of! <BR> <BR> This winter was very disappointing in a lot of ways... not the least of which is dealing with injury. However, I'm getting that addressed by a team of professionals now, so I'm hopeful that I'm going to be back to my old self very, very soon. My bedroom looks like a physical... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 10:04:32 EST Friday Funk I'm still doing a good job of taking care of myself, but I have been presented with some extra challenges in the last few days. <BR> <BR> Because of legal reasons, I can't go into much detail... but all I can say is that a close friend is going through some bad times, and the tune is too familiar. Divorce, addiction, and a series of bad decisions has landed this person in a whole lot of hot water, and the ripple effect it is having is wide and affects many. Those closer to it are affected ... Fri, 26 Feb 2016 11:52:49 EST Day 15 Crazy busy, but still managing to be very good about taking care of myself. Lately, every time I am facing a decision about what to do or what to eat, I'm finding myself getting into the habit of asking the question: "Is this a loving and caring decision for myself?" It's a nice little mantra to have, and it's great because it's really helping me get to the heart of being true to myself. <BR> <BR> This morning, I had my second EPAT for my plantar fasciitis, and it went really well. I als... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 10:14:30 EST Day 10 - NON-FITNESS HAPPYDANCE POST YOU GUYS YOU GUYS YOU GUYS <BR> <BR> So I'm a big Mel Brooks fan, and I have been for a very, VERY long time, ever since Dad introduced my brother and I to "Blazing Saddles." Yes, I was ten years old at the time, and no, it probably wasn't my father's most shining moment as a parent. However, I'm glad he did it - because he actually used it as a teachable moment as part of a discussion about racism. Whether you care for Mel Brooks's humor or not, that film does make a lot of good points ab... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 10:39:42 EST Days 8 and 9 Norovirus!! It's everywhere!!! <BR> <BR> I had to leave work early yesterday. Embarrassing and a little TMI, let's just say that it hit me like a sack of bricks yesterday morning... and I didn't quite make it to the bathroom in time. It was that sudden, and that violent. <BR> <BR> Stay safe, folks - eat right, get enough sleep, and wash your hands!!! <BR> <BR> Soooo Day 8 was a bit of a wash. <BR> <BR> *~*~*~*~* <BR> <BR> Today is Day 8 of my Lenten Self-Care Challenge, and lately I... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 11:00:24 EST Day 7 - Chasing Bliss Somehow, somewhere along the way, we were taught that it was foolish or even selfish to pursue the little things that make our weird little hearts happy in favor of saving our time and energy for Big Important Life Stuff. <BR> <BR> Yes, being gainfully employed - hopefully in a career - is important. So are relationships. So is family. <BR> <BR> I'm not suggesting that we pursue things at the EXPENSE of our employment, our relationships, or our families... but how often do we put aside do... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 15:45:38 EST Day 3 - The Power of No Sometimes, the most loving thing you can do for yourself is say "no." <BR> <BR> This is not a new concept. As a matter of fact, in his newsletter yesterday, Tony Horton talked about the benefits of saying "no" to people. He even goes so far as to differentiate between the good type of "no" (declining things that put us out of balance) and the bad type of "no" (which is said in response to a fear of failure). <BR> <BR> I'm not really all that fearful of failure. I fail all the time. I'm ... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 13:17:41 EST Day 2 - Stay Flexible Sometimes, we have to search for the lessons... <BR> <BR> ...and then some days, the lessons just FIND you. <BR> <BR> So I spent about an hour yesterday carefully crafting a workout schedule for myself... planning around rehearsals and shows, making sure I get exercise on each day for the next five months. <BR> <BR> It is at this point I'd like to quote John Lennon: <BR> <BR> "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." <BR> <BR> Well... remember when I said I was ... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 09:35:04 EST Day 1 - Getting rid of the junk, and planning Today starts my 40-day Lent challenge! <BR> <BR> I read something yesterday that caused me to think... I won't get into the details, but basically it made me think about how well (or not well) I've been loving myself. It made me think about how much of myself I was sacrificing for other people - loving other people at the expense of loving myself. So... <BR> <BR> I've decided to take it a step further and make the focus on removing distractions and concentrating on self-care for the next ... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 09:42:09 EST Fastnacht Day!! Happy Fat Tuesday, everyone!! <BR> <BR> Believe it or not, I do participate in Lent. To participate in such a uniquely Christian thing may seem weird on the outside (I am a Jew who is a practicing pagan/Wiccan), but I do think that discipline and self-control are important things to practice. If you train yourself to abstain from (or participate in) certain things under a controlled circumstance - like Lent, where a lot of other people are doing it with you and so the energy around you is... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 11:40:12 EST GLITTER So I don't know if I mentioned that I'm playing a stripper in "Gypsy," but I am. It's fun... and I am still picking glitter out of my teeth. :) <BR> <BR> It's also potentially a very vulnerable experience because I've got a lot of exposed skin. <BR> <BR> One of the great things about burlesque, however, is that it's actually very empowering - it's women embracing their power through sensuality/sexuality. I did burlesque a few years back, and one of the most important lessons I took away ... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 12:24:42 EST Enough is enough OK, so a while back, I got an alarm clock that simulates a sunrise/sunset. I bought it in a moment of desperation, and I'm happy to report that it has completely revolutionized the way I wake up and the way I fall asleep. Wake-ups are gentle on the nerves and placid as the light starts at barely nothing and blooms over the course of 30 minutes until finally culminating in the audible alarm that fades in (my current sound is birdsong and it is heavenly - no harsh beeps or buzzes!). Falling ... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 10:12:54 EST TECH WEEK Well... the show opens this week... <BR> <BR> It's a complicated, expensive show ("Gypsy" - in case you're curious), and there's a lot that still needs to be done. I have done my part (even made my own costume) - and so now, I'm going to see if there's anything else I can help with. <BR> <BR> I must say, I'm pleased with how well my costume turned out. :) It's skimpy, and I'd like to look a little better in it... but I am pleasantly surprised by it. Hopefully it will produce the desire... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 10:40:27 EST Busy-ness The combination of being busy and being tired is leaving my defenses down. I didn't have a real great day eating-wise yesterday. I didn't eat anything garbage-y, which is good - and I didn't go completely off the rails - but I did go outside my calories yesterday. It's a rare slip-up, and I'm just going to acknowledge what it is, and move on. It's not going to kill me as long as I don't make a habit of it! <BR> <BR> *~*~*~*~* <BR> <BR> So I had the day off yesterday to attend to medical... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 10:29:37 EST Sleepless in Delaware Bolted awake at 3am and have been awake since. <BR> <BR> I'm just grateful that I have a rehearsal tonight which finishes early-ish - around 8:30, which gets me home by 9. My plan is to get the workday done (all my meals are planned out - yay!), go to rehearsal, get home and work out, shower and then hopefully drift off to sleep. Usually working out calms my nerves and gets all the feely-good hormones going, and the shower will be the icing on the cake... so, hopefully, a restful night. I... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 10:19:52 EST Seriously, winter, GO AWAY Every time we let the dog out to do her business, it's a big dramafest because she doesn't know where to pee or poop. (She's a Great Dane. That gives you an idea of the amount of snow we're dealing with.) <BR> <BR> I nearly fell on my caboose leaving my house this morning - despite having salted the walkway. <BR> <BR> The massive piles of snow combined with rush hour traffic made getting into the city today a lengthy, tiresome, irksome experience. <BR> <BR> It's cold and my skin is itchy... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 10:50:35 EST Keep on truckin' I'm kind of amazed that I actually worked out this morning. Between yesterday's shoveling extravaganza and these dumb pills making my entire body ache, I really wasn't sure how I'd do... but I did it anyway. So - go, me! <BR> <BR> *~*~*~* <BR> <BR> I have been on Sparkpeople for FIVE YEARS. Five years! Last week was my "Sparkaversary." <BR> <BR> I've come an awful long way in five years... A lot of life has happened, and I've had a lot of personal ups and downs, but I've been pretty... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 14:28:18 EST Lemons into lemonade! A snow angel came with a snowblower this morning and unearthed my car! I had no choice but to pay it forward. Spent 2 hours digging my neighbors out, and we turned it into a party... because why not, right? We all pitched in and dug each other out... it was really remarkable. Since I live in an end unit, I told everyone to pile their snow in my side yard. I brought beer out for everyone, and after we were done - SHOTS! Bonus: cardio and back/arms/legs/parts-I-didn't-know-I-had got a REA... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 18:36:52 EST Well... at least my pants fit better Two doses into my antiviral medication and it's already kicking my @ss. <BR> <BR> I am lethargic, my body aches, my head feels swishy, and all I want to do is sleep... <BR> <BR> ...but it appears to maybe be working. The redness around the blisters is almost entirely gone. <BR> <BR> And honestly, I'd rather suffer with this stupid medication for a week than suffer the pain and potential long-term repercussions of shingles. Shingles is nothing to play around with. <BR> <BR> *~*~*~*~* <BR... Fri, 22 Jan 2016 10:32:32 EST Mystery Blistery Woke up this morning to weird blisters on my leg. Bizarre, right? Watery blisters, not very big, a little red. <BR> <BR> In an abundance of caution, I went to the urgent care center. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> LOL. "Urgent." <BR> <BR> Sooo I went to the MedExpress up the road. I waited FOR.EV.ER... only to be told by the doctor that he didn't know what it was. They're treating it like shingles... w... Thu, 21 Jan 2016 14:43:11 EST Doing it for the cookies? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So, first thing upon waking up this morning, I logged into Sparkpeople and checked in. <BR> <BR> I came upon someone's blog entry that has left me scratching my head all morning. <BR> <BR> She posited the question: "What makes YOU read a blog?" And then she went on to say how she was frustrated that she only got seven or eight likes/comments on her blogs. She couldn't understand why h... 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