SHAKER_MAKER's SparkPeople Blog SHAKER_MAKER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community One week done So at this stage I'm a Sparkpeople veteran, and yet I've never reached my goal. However, in the past year I've reached a level of body acceptance and appreciation, and even love, for myself that I never thought I would. <BR> <BR> I want to lose ten pounds still, and weigh 130. That is my goal. But it's not my only goal. I want to develop a healthier attitude to food, and once and for all I want to get fit. <BR> <BR> So I'm taking things one day at a time. This week I had two goals, to exe... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 13:57:40 EST MAJOR SUCCESSSS!!!! AHHHH IM SO EXCITED AS I WRITE THIS. <BR> <BR> OK. Let me explain. I've never been able to run. I've always wanted to but thought I never could. My fitness levels were horrendous, I could barely walk up the stairs without getting out of breath. <BR> <BR> Occasionally these past six years I've attempted to start running, but always gave up almost immediately or one week in. <BR> <BR> So five weeks ago I got the couch to 5k app by Active. Every running day I'd look at the interval workout an... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 07:34:15 EST A blog of extremes So it's been over a month since I last wrote anything. Since then I've really worked on my fitness and I'm very proud of myself! I started the Couch to 5K programme and I'm now on week 4. It's been hard some days, and unexpectedly easy other days. I can't believe I was able to run five whole minutes without stopping this week! That was huge for me, I was so impressed with myself :) <BR> <BR> On the other hand, my eating habits have become worse. I've gotten a lot of takeaways in the past mon... Fri, 31 May 2013 17:35:39 EST Effective work out? Well, my eating's been pretty healthy. I may have had too much pasta today but I had a great breakfast and some fruit and a light lunch. And treated myself to a low cal hot chocolate. <BR> <BR> I did end up eating a chinese takeaway on saturday, it was soooo delicious... But maybe next weekend I can cut down some more on my fast food intake. It's so difficult when your boyfriend is sitting beside you munching away on the tastiest looking pizza slice ever! <BR> <BR> But I should be proud, I'... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 15:48:27 EST One Small Success Since I last posted here I've gone to the gym twice and did strength training once, another one of which I'm gonna do after I post this. <BR> <BR> I've been eating really well, AND! Here's the big news, <BR> <BR> Every weekend my boyfriend comes over and we get a pizza and a side order of taco fries. So every weekend I'd say to myself "I'll start all over tomorrow" and go ahead and eat a whole portion of taco fries and six slices of a large pizza, all in all over 2,000 calories (I know beca... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 09:25:45 EST Feeling slightly better today.. I'm studying from home today and I got up early so I got a big bulk of my work done, i ate a healthy breakfast and a healthy (ish) lunch (there was a doughnut included). <BR> <BR> I'm gonna get into my workout clothes now and do some strength training for the first time in about a year. And I may even go for a run.. we'll see. <BR> <BR> I think I have the wrong attitude to all this, I should be looking forward to working out cus I always enjoy it and always feel so much better afterwards.... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 09:42:19 EST Dieting and counting calories doesn't work for me :( This old recurring motif... <BR> <BR> I'm about 136 pounds right now. I've been in the mid 30s for nearly half a year. I honestly don't know what to do, dieting and counting calories does not work for me, I can't do it and I'm worried that I'll never look at my body and appreciate it for what it is. <BR> <BR> I'm not fat, I used to be. I lost that weight and I've been exercising (well.. today was my first day at the gym in a long time). But I lost the weight when I wasn't on diets. I gaine... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 15:33:22 EST The problem with sparkpeople... Everytime I've lost weight it's been because I wasn't trying. When I use the tracker I freak out and start over eating. I don' understand. I weigh about 135 pounds right now, only 15 pounds to go til my target weight, but at the rate I'm going it'll be another four years till I steadily get there myself. <BR> <BR> I get too frustrated :( I'm gonna go to the gym tomorrow. I love going to the gym. The problem is with my food. If I say I'm gonna watch what I eat or even track what I eat I over ... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 14:30:55 EST Finally, gym! My student card arrived so now I can once and for all start going to the gym. I have my gear all ready and now I just need to prepare my lunch for tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure whether to use the food tracker or not, I lost all my weight this summer when I wasn't using it. I think it stresses me out and I end up eating to help that, ironically. I think I'll just go with my eating when I'm hungry policy that I was doing throughout the past few months. I think I'll just make sure to pack a... Sun, 14 Oct 2012 13:44:08 EST Slipping..! Ok so I started back to college and I haven't been preparing lunches to bring in with me so I end up eating lots and lots of chocolate to keep me going.. and sandwiches.. It's bad.. <BR> <BR> I think in the past two weeks I've gained some weight. Noooo :( <BR> <BR> Hopefully by the end of this month my student card will be flipping working and I'll be able to start at the gym! <BR> <BR> Tonight I'm going to prepare my lunch and snacks for tomorrow and do out my plan of action for losing t... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 13:44:22 EST No exercise for me! It's been two days since I had minor surgery and I've been advised not to exercise or do anything strenuous for the next 3-4 weeks, so that fairly scuppers my plans for getting back to the gym. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I haven't felt like eating much so I may still lose some weight but I don't really mind if that doesn't happen, I'm happy enough just getting better first. I'm not gonna be gaining much, if at all, and I'm pretty delighted with my current weight so it's all good. <BR> <... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 13:45:14 EST September shtuff Ok so I've joined a challenge to lose one pound for the next ten weeks. It's an achievable goal! My other goals are to eat only when I'm hungry and eat healthy foods, and start going back to the gym/playing sports by the end of the month. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling very happy! Sat, 8 Sep 2012 16:15:02 EST I'm baaaaaack! After a summer of walking through Spain for a month and interrailing around Europe for another few weeks it seems that I've lost my binge eating habits, which means the pounds are literally falling off me, I was so shocked when I stepped on the scale last week and it read 135. 135?! Is that a joke?!? <BR> <BR> I'm so happy because I'm heading back to college in two weeks and I'm starting back at the gym and playing football (of the gaelic kind, go on the GAA!) so I'm so motivated not only to... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 13:55:14 EST Letter to myself Dear Georgia <BR> <BR> I know how you're feeling. You're completely exhausted right now and you feel so overwhelmed that you just want to give in and never have to think about loosing weight again. You want to be able to eat what you like and not feel guilty, you want to curl up under your covers and smother yourself in chocolate. <BR> <BR> You look in the mirror and some days you think you're ok. You have nice legs, you know. They look good in tights. Other days, however, you look in the m... Sun, 15 May 2011 14:44:38 EST Well that was a failure So much for continuous blogging. <BR> <BR> Back up to 152. I really don't know how to do this properly. Or do this at all. I can never sustain momentum for more than a day, I just eat. <BR> <BR> Alright, back to the small things. My problem areas are <BR> <BR> 1 Lack of Sleep <BR> <BR> 2 Comfort eating in the evening <BR> <BR> 3 Complete lack of exercise <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> So the three things I'm gonna try do for the next seven days are <BR> <BR> <BR> 1 Be in bed by 1030 <BR> <BR... Sat, 14 May 2011 08:36:12 EST Day 12 - Loosing momentum Time for a revamp. <BR> <BR> Didnt blog yesterday, I went out and drank some wine. And came back and ate a lot. It's alright, I'm not gonna beat myself up about it, I'm not perfect. And I'm still willing to stick with this so that's all I need. <BR> <BR> Today is another day, so I'm going to track all my food. I've a feeling I could end up going out drinking tonight as well. I'm gonna plan for it. Hello tracker! <BR> <BR> Back to concentrating on one meal at a time. Sat, 30 Apr 2011 08:43:53 EST Day 10 - how time flies! Alright, so what do I have to report today.. <BR> <BR> Out and about in other's houses I find it hard to limit myself in what I eat. Not limit, just be aware of what I eat. So I suppose that's good to take into consideration! <BR> <BR> I think I'll leave my tracking for today. I know I didnt go over, so I'm alright. I'll track it all tomorrow again. Thu, 28 Apr 2011 18:07:54 EST Day 9 - Time to introduce... Tracking! Proper tracking. Ive gone over a week of continuous blogging and it's made me take more note of what I'm eating. So now I'm going to track everything just to see what I actually eat these days. <BR> <BR> I am feeling really settled into a routine now, perhaps this is the time when I won't sabotage myself any longer, because I've realised that to strive for complete perfection isn't healthy, it's all about progress. And I'm making progress all the time :) <BR> <BR> There are no dea... Wed, 27 Apr 2011 09:03:43 EST Day 8 I have only one goal for today <BR> <BR> <BR> To be in bed at 1030. <BR> <BR> Seriously, I've been going to bed at 3am for the past week. I am destroyed. I also ate more last night because I was up that late. It's alright though, I'm just gonna eat as normal today. One day does not make or break my efforts :) <BR> <BR> I'm actually thrilled with myself this week, I've had minor slip-ups which before would have totally depressed me and set me back on a binge, but now I just take them in as... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 10:10:07 EST Day 7 - Success? Stepped on the scales today.. <BR> <BR> <BR> 149, HELL YEAH! <BR> <BR> That's three pounds. yessssssah. I'm currently in bed after eating ridiculously today. Funnily enough, I only ate when I was hungry. Guys, it's been a week since I've binged. What is going on?!? <BR> <BR> So, yeah. Happy days! <BR> <BR> <BR> Continuous blogging appears to be working. Mon, 25 Apr 2011 20:55:20 EST Day Six - A Serious Celebration Last night, let me tell you. <BR> <BR> I got home late, after midnight, again. I was slightly hungry, and usually I would be more than happy to just stuff myself at times like that. I went over to the kitchen, opened the presses, opened the fridge... and walked away and went to bed. <BR> <BR> I was lying in bed then and I was waiting for the feeling of overwhelming craving for bingeing to come over me. It didn't! All I felt was a calmness in the knowledge that I was doing well and the fact... Sun, 24 Apr 2011 07:02:38 EST Day Five - Only Progress to Report :) Well, what can I say. My recent strategies appear to be working a treat! What I'm doing is concentrating on one meal at a time so I don't feel overwhelmed by a whole day or the whole journey. <BR> <BR> Last night I didn't binge AGAIN!! I got home really late, 3am, and I was hungry, so I had two slices of bread. Usually I would have had about 8 slices, with like 3 big bowls of cereal. I feel very... fulfilled :) <BR> <BR> Today is a lovely sunny day, I'm having a healthy dinner early on. I ... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 08:56:48 EST Day Four - Day three was hectic!! Didn't get a chance to blog yesterday. I had a lovely day, however, which surprisingly wasn't hindered by the fact that I ate a huge amount. Well, I didn't binge! But I just ate a lot of sweet things. <BR> <BR> I learnt a lot from yesterday. I should take some popcorn or something up with me when I visit my boyfriend's family's house. Breaking the day down into meals really really really helps me focus! Aaaand that one day does not make or break my efforts, nor is overeating the end of the ... Fri, 22 Apr 2011 08:11:13 EST Day two - a celebration I have something very important to announce to you all <BR> <BR> Last night was the first night I haven't binged in I'd say six months <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I have a new tactic for myself. I'm breaking the day down into completely manageable chunks, as in concentrating just on having a good breakfast. Then after breakfast, concentrating just on having a good lunch etc. Which meant, when I got home hungry last night, I had already gone the whole day without bingeing. So all that was ... Wed, 20 Apr 2011 07:21:01 EST Day One of Continuous Blogging I'm gonna stay active on Sparkpeople, the days I do are the easier days. <BR> <BR> So today I woke up slightly hungover and wondering how I was gonna get through this day without slipping. I felt overwhelmed and worried that I'd slip. Then it struck me that the only thing I had to concentrate on was having a good breakfast, and that after breakfast I could think about lunch, then after that dinner. I didn't need to think of it all at once! It was such a revelation to me! <BR> <BR> I feel r... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 08:35:44 EST Refusing to be perfect From now on I'm refusing to be a perfectionist. I get caught up in negative thinking if I make one small slip, even if I've gone consecutive days without falling. I promise to stop beating myself up about everything I do wrong, or everything I don't do right. <BR> <BR> Today I started out alright, I waited til I was hungry and then I ate bread with jam. I thoroughly enjoyed it, it felt great to put pleasure back into my food. But then I binged a half an hour later and stuffed lots of muesli ... Mon, 18 Apr 2011 09:21:30 EST moderation and motivation It seems like I have neither. <BR> What happens is, I go through two days of doing well, then I just give up. It's happened for over a year. I'm beginning to wonder will I ever loose weight. <BR> <BR> Like, seriously. I just don't know how to get over it. I cant do this. I actually cant. Sun, 17 Apr 2011 09:09:53 EST Things I want to look my best for - motivation I'm going to put this list around my house. All over the place. :) <BR> <BR> <BR> 1 Graduation <BR> <BR> 2 My birthday <BR> <BR> 3 Post-exams celebrations <BR> <BR> 4 Holiday with my friends <BR> <BR> 5 Holiday with my boyfriend <BR> <BR> 6 Med Ball <BR> <BR> 7 Restarting college <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm happy knowing that I have time to reach my goals by these dates. <BR> <BR> 1 and 2 = less than 140 pounds <BR> <BR> 3 and 4 = less than 130 pounds <BR> <BR> 5, 6 and 7 = 12... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 21:34:35 EST My stumble tonight has me better prepared for tomorrow I got hungry, so instead of going to sleep the instinctive me rose up out of bed and went down stairs to eat. And eat. And eat. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I will drink water in between mouthfuls to fill up. I will bring water around with me for the whole day and I won't waste my calories on stuffing myself when I'm not hungry. :) <BR> <BR> Continuous learning. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I may also exercise. Wed, 6 Apr 2011 20:29:42 EST REWARDS Right, so far I've stuck to my meal plans today :) <BR> <BR> I've finally come up with rewards for myself. I really wanted these for ages but didn't feel I deserved them. I think they're great rewards because I'll be able to flaunt them without feeling like I should cover up. I will be proud of my body and want to show it off, so..... <BR> <BR> drum roll <BR> <BR> <BR> 140 pounds - small tattoo on my foot of a passion fruit flower <BR> <BR> 130 pounds - this tattooed here http://www.flic... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 13:02:27 EST Meal plans and house keeping Yeah, it's time to make some meal plans, I can't seem to stick to good eating habits. Slid off the old exercise wagon at the weekend. I'll jump back on later tonight. In an hour, to be exact. Yeah, it's official. I am sick of overeating and not feeling my best. <BR> <BR> I now weigh 151 pounds. <BR> I was 139 when I joined. <BR> I want to be 120. <BR> I'll settle for 130 for now. <BR> <BR> Official goal date for 140 - 14th of May <BR> Official goal date for 130 - 18th of June <BR> Officia... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 14:04:59 EST Did well for two days, then Actually, I'm not gonna beat myself up about this most recent binge, because I immediately tracked everything after, and I had been doing so well these past two days. And I'm going to continue to do well :) <BR> <BR> Today was my second day of the 30day shred, and honestly I felt fitter already. I wasn't about to pass out this time! Both today and yesterday I felt like overeating at lunch and stopped myself. <BR> <BR> Tonight I almost made it without bingeing. I don't think I'll be hungry... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 20:08:12 EST About to pass out! Just put on my Jillian Michaels DVD for the first time in I'd say half a year. Holy flip!!! I had to stop, that's how unfit I've gotten, I nearly passed out. I'll put it back on later this evening. I will. <BR> <BR> So, I've been successfully tracking everything for a good few days now. It's astonishing the amount of food I eat. Truly. No wonder I weigh 150 right now. I could have sworn that the last time I checked I was 145. God damn it. <BR> <BR> So, yeah. Both goals accomplished today! T... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 08:01:25 EST not tracking today Had about half a bag of peanut m n ms for breakfast and just ate three sausage rolls with a bit of relish. I think that's all i'll have today, I'm not particularly hungry. I'll be drinking a bit later on, so I figure that the fact that I've recorded what I ate here is alright for today. Tomorrow I'll track in the tracker. I'm really fed up of feeling disgusting after gorging, so ... Yeah. <BR> <BR> On the bright side, it's a lovely day out. Fri, 25 Mar 2011 11:35:21 EST Still tracking Tracked all my food. Unfortunately, I caved into temptation and bought sweets. I'll keep tracking, though, because it's quite unsettling to see just how much I actually eat. <BR> <BR> I think I need to plan my meals better, and drink more water. I'll keep a bottle beside me tomorrow. Especially in the evenings and see how that goes. <BR> <BR> Feeling surprisingly positive, seeing as I kept to my one and only goal of tracking. Thu, 24 Mar 2011 15:47:52 EST Keeping to my goal of tracking This is my third day of tracking all my food fully. Earlier on today I had a lovely little success, I walked to the shop with the intention of buying sweets and chocolate, but then turned around and walked home without them. Little triumph. <BR> <BR> Then tonight I, of course, pigged out. But its alright, I've tracked it all, so we'll see what I can do tomorrow. Tracking is my only goal right now. Wed, 23 Mar 2011 19:44:13 EST I feel smothered Something clearly isn't working for me. <BR> I have no motivation.. I want to be skinny and healthy.. I just amn't bothered doing the work. <BR> Tomorrow's Monday, and I know that I'm truly sick of stuffing myself and excusing it by saying that I'll start again tomorrow. <BR> I want to be completely happy in myself. I wan to feel great all the time. <BR> <BR> I know my problem areas. I know my limitations. I feel the urge to tackle these. I feel the urge to overcome these. I can't do this... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 22:32:51 EST Decided to give myself until monday Here's my plan for the weekend. <BR> Track all food, but eat what I like. So far, I've eaten a lot. And I've only been up a half an hour. This way I'm actually looking forward to starting a nice healthy eating plan on monday. Sat, 19 Mar 2011 10:13:01 EST Lovely sunny day So today I'm going to track all my food. I'm feeling quite content. I like being back an active on Sparkpeople. I'll actually blog more at the end of the day.. Fri, 18 Mar 2011 10:52:03 EST Oops Here's the thing <BR> <BR> I'm actually going to a movie premiere with my boyfriend who had a small part in it tomorrow. Have I bothered tracking my food or loosing weight? Of course not. <BR> So, once again, I'm back! I probably won't track properly tomorrow, no doubt I shall be consuming copious amounts of alcohol. So the next day I'll track it all. <BR> <BR> Mon, 14 Mar 2011 17:17:17 EST Day two Yesterday I tracked my breakfast and lunch successfully. <BR> My problem area is the evening times. Or if I go a tiny bit over my calorie allowance. Then I pig out and binge. I've binge eaten every night for the past two years. <BR> <BR> So my goals for today are to <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise <BR> <BR> 2. Track ALL food <BR> <BR> 3. Read articles on binge eating. <BR> <BR> <BR> Feeling kind of positive about this.. Sat, 12 Mar 2011 08:13:45 EST Here goes Fast break starts tomorrow. <BR> This time I shall really make the effort. <BR> <BR> Fast break goals <BR> <BR> 1. To exercise at least three days in the next seven. <BR> <BR> 2. To track at least one meal every day <BR> <BR> 3. To read a motivational article every day Thu, 10 Mar 2011 14:29:53 EST Made it I feel like bingeing <BR> But I won't <BR> <BR> I'm gonna go down to the kitchen and fill up a bottle of water. <BR> Then I'm going to go to bed, having tracked my food successfully for today. <BR> <BR> So that I'll wake up tomorrow and be on day two of a roll. Tue, 1 Mar 2011 17:15:18 EST Once again.. Alright. <BR> I've had enough. I've been invited to a premier of a movie and I want to loose weight for it. Not only that, I should have lost this weight about a year ago. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of being slightly overweight, of not being able to wear what I want, of having a strange relationship with food, I'm tired of being tired and unenthusiastic about food, and I'm tired of having to restart every single time. I'm tired of expecting to restart, expecting to binge, expecting to fail. <BR> ... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 19:47:51 EST tracking From today I'm going to track everything I eat. That's the one and only thing I'm going to commit to, so as not to overwhelm myself once again. Track! Sun, 30 Jan 2011 12:41:09 EST Not gonna let myself go again Ok, so I was on holidays and havnt been doing as well as I could have, particularly last night so tonight I have three goals. <BR> <BR> ONE - look at a motivational sparkpage <BR> <BR> TWO - Track everyyyything eaten <BR> <BR> THREE - Some sort of exercise <BR> <BR> :) Tue, 4 Jan 2011 03:31:03 EST New Year's Resolution Now! Starting from now I'm going to track everything I eat. That's the only thing that works. It's been over a year since I joined and I'm still the same weight. I'm actually heavier than I was when I joined, so I'm clearly doing something not quite right, but I can do this, thousands of others have and I'm no different, I CAN! <BR> <BR> I'm not drinking tomorrow night, I've gone off the drink so that should be easier. I find when I drink I go off track. From now on I track everything. Also gett... Thu, 30 Dec 2010 16:29:29 EST Finding the balance Goals for tomorrow - <BR> <BR> 1. Fully enjoy every bit of food I eat. Meaning, only eating when I'm hungry and stopping when I'm full <BR> <BR> 2. Walk. Probably a slow one because of the snow <BR> <BR> 3. Stick to my study plan. Big exams coming up in June to determine where I can go to college and what I can do. Starting to panic that I haven't done anything. <BR> <BR> 4. Twenty minutes or less online. I'm spending hours.. <BR> <BR> 5. Bed before 1030 <BR> <BR> :) Tue, 21 Dec 2010 14:04:45 EST New outlook, maybe? As funny as it sounds, I've only just realised that it's all a choice. <BR> <BR> I can choose to sit here for the rest of the festive season and stuff myself, saying it'll change in January, or I can go for a stroll right now. Time to stop procrastinating, really. <BR> <BR> Boom! Mon, 20 Dec 2010 14:40:08 EST 11 pounds gone Finally, absolute continuous breakthrough. Sun, 10 Oct 2010 10:01:31 EST