SHADOWDANCES's SparkPeople Blog SHADOWDANCES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Food Intolerances I just noticed on publishing my previous post that I haven't posted about my Ig-G test! I posted about it somewhere else, so I thought I had. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to get into the science or controversy here, but I don't feel right not giving at least a little background. So, there's a test that is said to measure "food intolerance," also called "delayed food allergies." Essentially, this is the basis of the current "gluten intolerance" craze. A blood test comes back with a scale of numbe... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 20:59:40 EST Hypothyroid, Ho! My functional medicine doctor handed me a binder today of what appears to be going on with me. I got super excited the second I saw it, 'cause according to regular doctors I'm "normal" via my labs. <BR> <BR> "Normal" range, maybe. "Healthy" range, not so much. <BR> <BR> Thankfully, I have no critical range problem. I have a host of other possible conditions, though, and my heart attack risk is pretty high according to bloodwork. Added to a family history of heart attacks and high blood pres... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 20:16:28 EST Functional Medicine I've been seeing a chiropractor for a over a month now, and I feel AWESOME. I started jogging last week and it didn't hurt! Well, my knees didn't like it and my ankle freaked out the second day (and of course the muscles are a different matter), but my pelvis didn't hurt! No grinding of pelvic bones during or after! Hurray! I get shoe orthotics on Monday to continue correcting my inch of too-tall left hip. <BR> <BR> Today was my first visit to the functional medicine chiro in the practi... Wed, 7 May 2014 14:38:59 EST New Start It's been a little over a year since I really tuned in to improving my strength. Up until about five weeks ago, my net weight change for the year was 12 pounds. Then, inexplicably, I gained nine pounds in two and a half weeks. This apparently happens every spring, whether it's the sunshine or the allergy meds or some unknown psychological factor. It appears to start about two weeks after I begin exercising in earnest, but I don't know if that's a causative link or simply because I start e... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 18:24:36 EST Avoidance For the last few weeks, I've been studiously avoiding pretty much everything. I've stubbornly refused to think about food, exercise, my health; about household projects, our upcoming move and everything that goes into it; about everything but the few things for my son I can fit into a day. <BR> <BR> See, I wrote this list on my Journey of 1000 Groans blog. It was a list - a thought process, really - of all the things that were constantly going through my head. I thought that by posting it... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 23:16:01 EST Clean-Up Side Effect Since finishing up my month with no fast food, I've had it a couple of times. Arby's, Chick fil A, Wendy's...always sparingly. Yesterday, due to various scheduling issues and routine changes, I had it twice. Chick fil A for lunch and Panda Express for dinner. By the time I went to bed, I was in agony. <BR> <BR> I've experienced this phenomenon with sugar and caffeine. Stop eating it and the body stops remembering how to process it efficiently. We build up tolerances to food every day, ... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 13:23:33 EST Progress Line As of this morning, I've reached the smallest number I've seen since being pregnant. This is the number I tend to hit at the end of the summer...after walking consistently for three months. So yay for that! <BR> <BR> But bigger yay: Any shedding of pounds I do from here on out is NEW. It's straight-up, forward-motion progress! <BR> <BR> I have 15 pounds to go until I achieve my pre-pregnancy weight (second major goal). 7 more until I hit 20 pounds dropped (next stepped goal). I get to ... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 14:41:13 EST The Sun'll Come Out Tomorrow... ...or it won't, and I'll supplement its goodness. Either way, we're in for a Vitamin D boost! <BR> <BR> I went to the doctor on Friday to get checked for anemia. My last period knocked me flat, and ever since then I've been feeling really light-headed. I nicked myself while shaving and oozed for 20 minutes. Not a lot, but definitely long enough to be seriously concerned. <BR> <BR> Today, my lab results came back. No anemia. Huh?? I was positive. My doctor is running more labs to che... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 01:32:38 EST 2 Weeks We are now two weeks done with 2014 - 50 more to go! Hee. <BR> <BR> I've got 22 weeks to my Onederland goal. Right now, I'm not feeling the excitement. Part of this is because it's January, the light is all messed up, and here in Colorado it doesn't match the weather (most of the time). I want it to be spring already! :) <BR> <BR> But part of it is also the weight issue. I've been trying to mentally prepare myself for adding pounds as I gain muscle. This is good weight gain, of cours... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 13:14:24 EST Big Goal It's officially 2014 here. Happy New Year! <em>408</em> <BR> <BR> In honor of our newly birthed year, with the explosions of fireworks sounding the charge, I'm doing something I've never done before. I'm officially setting a giant, difficult, long-term goal. <BR> <BR> By June 21st, I will be in Onederland! <BR> <BR> I set these goals tentatively most years, whenever I want to envision a happier future. Then I set micro-goals to step my way there. Unfortunately, those micro-goals n... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 02:36:14 EST Jingle Bell Buff: Step One Before I begin, there's something I need to say to my body so it knows I'm serious. <BR> <BR> Dear Body, <BR> <BR> I am so sorry that I've held you responsible for my unhappiness and feelings of worthlessness for the last 10 years. It wasn't your fault. You were beautiful, strong, capable, and awesome. I should never have let someone else, no matter how much I loved them, define your - and our - worth for me. <BR> <BR> Thank you for doing everything you could to make the situation bette... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 18:40:09 EST Jingle Bell Buff, Redux I love my idea (and the name) for this challenge. I really do. Unfortunately, as the weeks went by, it has become more and more clear that my goals are...well, not the right goals for me right now. Not only do I keep getting hurt, but it prompts me to get impatient with recovering from those injuries. There are five and a half weeks left of this year (what?!?). I start my massage therapy schooling the first week in January. I have about six weeks before my life gets busy, and before my ... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 17:57:40 EST Taking Stock I've been really slacking on my Jingle Bell Buff. Wait; that's the wrong way to look at it. <BR> <BR> I've been supporting my spiritual/emotional growth this month, as well as growing momentum in my writing career. This has left less time to exercise. <BR> <BR> That is the way to look at it. <BR> <BR> One of my spiritual things was earning my level 1 Reiki certification. It's something I've been wanting to do for 13 years. It scared me. Coming from a science-heavy family of skeptics... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 17:19:54 EST 10 Down! Today, the scale told me I weigh 236.4 pounds. <BR> <BR> I have officially worked off 10 pounds. <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> More than the weight decrease itself, I'm psyched because I hit my first goal. Every other year since I had my son, I've aimed for losing my pregnancy weight. This year, because I gained 10 pounds last holiday season when my grandmother passed away, I decided my first goal was going to be to get rid of those 10 pounds. It may be, collectively, that I've g... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 14:56:48 EST I'm an Author! Like science fiction? Check out my new ebook! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s-Colonies-ebook/dp/B00GFSQF4G/ref=pd_<BR>rhf_gw_p_tnr_1 </link> <BR> <BR> My blog silence is directly related to this announcement. :) Hopefully now I will have more time to devote to things like setting fitness goals and, you know, following through on them... Hee. Tue, 5 Nov 2013 05:00:43 EST Jingle Bell Buff Yes, it sounds like I'm going naked for Christmas. What I really mean is muscles, but the naked part works, too...I guess. I need a new focus to keep me motivated, new goals, new...something. My anxiety has gotten the better of me, and though I finally made it to the doctor for tests, I feel like I'm drifting. I need more in my life so that anxiety doesn't fill in the gaps. I decided it would be nice to surprise my parents with a holiday portrait of all their kids together, now we're all... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 17:18:52 EST September Recap and October Goals Whoops! I completely forgot to update my goals on the first! :O <BR> <BR> My main goal this month is to calm the heck down. I got a part-time job, which is an AWESOME thing right now. We really need the money, but more than that, I no longer have to worry that nobody will ever employ me. Woohoo! As with anything new, there's a lot of anxiety that goes with getting a job. I haven't worked in a year and a half, so there's that. And I hate using a cash register, and while I doubt I'll ha... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 23:53:44 EST New Growth The weather finally cooled off...and then some. Here in the north Denver area, it's been flooding. A lot. My sister hasn't been able to go to work. The brother's university had to evacuate one of the dorms because the lower level flooded. Something like 15 dams overflowed, various smaller towns in the area can't get in their cars, others have flooded homes, an overpass collapsed, and a mountain road was sheered in half from a wall of water crashing through the canyon. It's a lot of wate... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 00:43:20 EST ...I'm Sorry, Could You Repeat That? So, I don't feel like I've done much in the last month, fitness-wise. I danced somewhat consistently, but that isn't the sustained, difficult workout it could be (mostly, I do it for stress reduction and to increase range of motion). I had good intentions that didn't go anywhere. The scale said so. And I had my crappy day on Thursday, where I felt hopelessly fat. Yet every time I put my pants on, I wondered - is my c-section pouch smaller? It looked smaller. Sometimes, it felt smaller.... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 15:22:02 EST Bad Day - Big Rant My sister dyed my hair a couple days ago. It's temporarily quite red. I like that it's quite red. And yet...somehow, rather than making me feel better about myself, it's made me feel worse. This is partially, I think, because I've been looking in the mirror more. It's also because in the process of taking pictures, I was confronted with proof of how big I am. "The angle was bad," I told myself. Because it was. Never mind that some of the pictures were very pretty. Those were the ones... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 13:46:49 EST September Goals Wow. I haven't made a blog entry for almost a month! Probably mostly because I stopped focusing on fitness and health all month. : / This month, I really want to push. Not to make up for it, just because I think my body is ready for it after a month of rest. :) (Except my left foot/ankle. I need to find a podiatrist to get it checked out. A year and a half of recurring pain is bad.) <BR> <BR> Because I did practically nothing last month, my numbers are all the same: <BR> <BR> Weight:... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 14:14:19 EST TAs I just have to pop in really quick and crow. <BR> <BR> It's taken me two months of mindful use, but I FINALLY have control over my transverse abdominis muscle! Really, it's taken me three years of starting and stopping and starting again, but I've only really been focused for the last two months. <BR> <BR> The TA muscle is the deep abdominal muscle that lays across the top of the pelvis. It's the one that suffers the most during a cesarean, as the doctors have to dig and yank and pull a... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 01:30:52 EST August Goals July threw me for a...I don't even know what to call it. It was certainly more than a loop. For a lot of it, I felt like I was going crazy because nothing made sense. I didn't have energy to deal with anything, and yet more things kept piling on. Every time I feel like I make a little headway and have a second to rest, more shows up. I really hope this doesn't continue through August, but I've stopped trying to anticipate anything. <BR> <BR> What I need to do is take care of me, pull ba... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 13:10:14 EST More New Program Took myself on a nice walk this afternoon. It was hot, but not ungodly so, and breezy. Lovely all around, really. :) I sat in the grass and meditated. I don't know when the last time was that I just sat in the grass and enjoyed being still. I REALLY needed it. I've been feeling really overwhelmed for the last month or more, and I was reaching a point where, when the hormones ran high, I kind of felt like I was going crazy. Not literally, just...I dunno. Like nothing was making sense a... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 18:17:22 EST New Program Technically, I'm still on hiatus. But I've been really, not slacking. Slacking implies lack of importance or impetus. What I lack is time and energy. Every day, I feel like I have to choose between exercise and writing. All summer, I chose exercise and my writing fell behind. For the last two weeks (since sleep deprivation set in and life has been all exhaustion, all the time), I've chosen writing. While it hasn't moved me forward a ton, it HAS helped me deal with a lot o... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 17:54:38 EST Hiatus I've been lax in posting. The last two weeks have been a blur of sleep deprivation and stress, and we're finally coming out of it. I think. Hopefully... <BR> <BR> I have become addicted to stupid, inane Facebook games. Again. I have too much to do with my life to waste it dinking around doing nothing, and not even enjoying the process. So I've decided to take an internet hiatus so I can reset my daily routine. Well, as much as one can nowadays, when all of our bills and banking and wh... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 17:24:15 EST Journey of 1000 Groans Back in 2010, I found myself overwhelmed by nesting energy. I had no way to actually nest, in the normal sense, for a variety of reasons. Instead, I created my Journey of 1000 Groans - a challenge for myself to create a year of productivity. With it, I blew through all my homework early. I learned a great deal about myself. I made good choices and gave my struggles and triumphs a voice. While it wasn't as productive as I had hoped - I lost several months to post-partum depression, exhau... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 17:11:05 EST Changes Took measure this morning, though I didn't get the chance to weigh myself. Results: <BR> <BR> 6/3 <BR> Weighed: 243.4 <BR> Measured: 49 - 40 - 51.5 <BR> Goal Weight: 239.4 <BR> Goal Measurement: 48.5 - 39.5 - 50.5 (should have been 51 - don't know why it wasn't) <BR> <BR> 7/2 <BR> Weigh: 239.4 (on 6/24) <BR> Measure: 48.7 - 39.5 - 51 <BR> <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> I'm SO EXCITED! Technically, my bust circumference didn't decrease as much as I had hoped, but I measured myself unofficiall... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 14:30:11 EST July Goals Huh. Going back to look at my June goals, I actually hit most of them! Go me! :D <BR> <BR> Now that we're adjusted and settled, it's time to move forward. <BR> <BR> July Goals: <BR> <BR> - Complete 28-Day Bootcamp DVD <BR> - Work off 6 pounds or 1/2 an inch <BR> - Complete one installment of 60 minutes of daily movement <BR> - Complete two weeks of introductory ab work for c-sections <BR> - Begin Killer Abs DVD <BR> - Make two new, healthy recipes a week <BR> - Publish first novella! <BR... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 02:09:29 EST Back on Track I'm not sure if I had food poisoning from eating raw cookie dough (as many times as I've eaten it in my life, I highly doubt this was the case), from drinking from a bottle that sat with curdled milk, or if I had a wicked stomach bug. Either way - OUCH. Worst stomach cramps ever, and I've had my fair share! They brought me to the verge of passing out many times. Better after day 1, at which point it merely felt like my stomach was cooking something unseemly. I've been worried about dehyd... Fri, 28 Jun 2013 03:02:23 EST The Real Installment 4 I have three pounds to go to hit my first weight goal. Woohoo! <BR> <BR> This first ten pounds is the part I know I can do. I've done it twice before. ;) It's the next ten pounds - even four - that I'm worried about. But I'm pretty sure I've figured out why, and I BELIEVE this time will be different. <BR> <BR> I'm restarting installment 4 because last week went all messy on me. <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 239.4 <BR> <BR> Pounds Shed Goal: 4 (Aim: 235.4) <BR> (That number scares the... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 17:05:37 EST Hard Week Nothing went as planned over the last week. I had a major falling out with a friend from high school, which tends to happen every two or three years. It's a karmic circle with her that we can't seem to break. I tried to convince her we needed to sit down together and hash it out for once because nothing I change will make a difference until we're both involved. But no luck. I have a really hard time believing the cycle is broken. I don't know why I always invite her back in...yes, I do.... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 12:24:31 EST Installment 4 This might be my final 30-minute installment. I will see how I'm doing at the end, but I'm hoping to bump it up to 60 minutes for the next installment. It will entirely depend on my energy level, though. :) <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 244.3 <BR> <BR> Pounds Shed Goal: 4 (Aim: 240.3) <BR> Inches Worked Off Goal: .25 (for a monthly total of .5) <BR> <BR> Condition: Very sleepy today. Lower joints ache. Head getting all icky again now that sagebrush has started pollinating. Clenching jaw... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 17:32:38 EST Installment 3 Complete! Today marks the beginning of Installment 4 of my 30-minutes of extra daily movement challenge. I only measure myself once a month, just as I only weigh myself once a week. Otherwise, I get a little obsessed and that leads to depression over lack of change. That was really brought home over the last week, when my husband asked if I was going to weigh myself when he weighed himself, and it wasn't my day. I thereafter weighed myself four times, and the result? Really bummed. <BR> <BR> My ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 17:20:35 EST Weekly Check-In Food: We found the box of pots and pans, so making food was easier. I made smoothies for breakfast almost every day - yahoo! Reflux still isn't having fun, but I feel like my system is getting evened out. As a result of the smoothies, I got a lot more fruits and veggies (spinach, really) in my diet! Still a lot of mac 'n cheese and pizza, which will be my goal to cut back on over the next week or two. We went out for Father's Day, where I undoubtedly ate too many fries, and we splurged ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 16:53:48 EST Weekly Check-In Food: With very little money and not all of our kitchen tools (still missing saucepans and skillets), we were stuck with less than good food choices. Mostly we ate pasta in a variety of forms. I added broccoli one night, but didn't think to cook it with the pasta until it was too late. So the broccoli was mostly raw, which I find icky, and I'm not supposed to eat it raw, anyway (it contains high levels of goitrogens, likely to exacerbate my thyroid problem). Hubby ate it all, instead, so ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 13:48:08 EST Yay Me! Today was supposed to be a rest day were I to follow the 28-Day Bootcamp dvd's program to the letter. Except I went on a 2.5-mile walk (part of it was definitely a hike, uphill, pushing a 40-pound toddler in a big, non-jogging stroller) yesterday and was so exhausted, I couldn't do yesterday's workout. I told myself I would do it today. The dvd even says, right there before you open the calendar - "If you are tired or sore, rest." <BR> <BR> Except tonight rolled around, and the toddler d... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 01:52:53 EST 28-Day Bootcamp, For Real I did actually start Coach Nicole's 28-Day Bootcamp. <em>244</em> I'm proud of myself for starting, as that seems to be the hardest part for me. That, and continuing past the two-week mark. I need to remember that when the time comes! <BR> <BR> Day 1, without half an hour of exercise beforehand, was a good workout and not too strenuous. I was still sweating a lot by the end, though! Day 2, which I just completed, is a combo of cardio and strength. It has a lot of knee movement like... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 03:29:37 EST Begin Installment 3 Whew! Last night's exercise wiped me out. I never remember just how exhausted I am, or how much sleep I need, for the first couple of weeks I start exercising. That is good to know for this month! <BR> <BR> I realized as I was measuring that this is the wrong week to do it. I should have done it a week ago to avoid monthly water retention. But still - so excited! I managed to maintain my weight across three one-way road trips, moving, vacation, and heap loads of stress. Woohoo! <BR> ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 14:51:56 EST Building Routine As I sit here with a sheen of exercise-induced sweat drying on me (I've always enjoyed that feeling, at least so long as it's from actual movement and not just the heat! It proves to me that I did a good job at pushing my body), I'm trying to come up with a way to change a scene I'm working on in an upcoming novella. It's a boring scene. I don't want to have to change it. I don't want to have to work through the blahs to find a creative, stronger solution. I've been struggling with it - ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 01:40:19 EST 28-Day Bootcamp Hubby and I decided to finally get around to starting the 28-Day Bootcamp program. Today would be a good day for it, 'cause we'd be done at the end of the month. <BR> <BR> Except I forgot about it, and went to the fitness room instead. There, I discovered most of the equipment doesn't work as it should (treadmill wouldn't go below a 2.6 incline, which my knees couldn't handle, the bike seat wouldn't lower, etc. etc.). They have a ski machine, though. It has a glute buster, arm buster, ... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 00:28:42 EST June Goals Holy wow. I can't believe it's June already! We took a vacation from the in-laws to Colorado for two weeks starting on 4/20. The in-laws asked us to stay another week because my mother-in-law was on iv antibiotics at home as well as a drain in her hip and a variety of other things. During that week, my husband applied to a job at his old company. A couple days later, they hired him. Then we tried to drive back to Phoenix to get our belongings, only to have the brake pads give out and a ... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 15:48:56 EST 3-Month Goals Thinking in 3-month blocks really seems to work for me. I get REALLY antsy for the last couple of weeks, but it really helps me move through the weeks of hard slog where I seem to be standing still. <BR> <BR> By August 1st, I aim to: <BR> <BR> - Celebrate my 3rd anniversary of c-section delivery by releasing the angst, stress, self-hate, and self-slandering of my womanhood, along with all my pregnancy pounds <BR> (This goal is INCREDIBLY lofty, and may not actually be feasible given the st... Wed, 1 May 2013 20:04:58 EST May Goals April was a hard month. We took a trip to visit my sister to get over some of it, and go back home on Monday. As such, I completed my second 2-week stretch (which I see now I forgot to update after) and then put the challenge on hold while we're out of town. <BR> <BR> I worked off a pound or so, and had really gotten into exercising as stress relief and a way to feel better about myself. Unfortunately, since I haven't gotten to do much of it here, I think I've gained back the weight. My ... Wed, 1 May 2013 19:49:38 EST 2-Week Check-In Yesterday was the last day of my 2-week endeavor to add an extra 30 minutes of movement to each day. I missed one day the first week because I was too sleepy and decided to give myself extra sleep instead (my exercise time had no choice but to be at night). I missed another day this weekend because my in-laws took over the space and the time slot without warning or apology. (In fact, I was told it was "totally okay to exercise around us.") I started a new meditative practice called Chakra... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 15:53:39 EST Sacrifices for the Greater Good Sometime last week, I decided to make a few sacrifices for the greater good. MY greater good, that is. Primarily, soda pop. <BR> <BR> When I was little, we were allowed to have 7Up when we were sick, and other clear varieties on special occasions. My parents also allowed us one glass of Cherry Coke on the annual trip to a special restaurant, and one awesome bottle of root beer at Chili's on the rare occasions we went there. My grandparents had a wet bar installed when I was five, and the... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 17:53:29 EST Muscles I have decided to believe that my problem shedding pounds last summer was due to a lack of muscle mass. Maybe it was, maybe it wasn't. What I know for certain is that I walked 3 - 5 days and 6 - 12 miles every week, starting from nothing, and didn't shed a single pound. I lost inches, and maybe the muscle gain directly coincided with the fat burned. I dunno. All I know is that my weight didn't start changing until right before we moved, when I had been going to Curves (albeit inconsisten... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 14:21:24 EST 2-Week Goal I'm setting a new, short-term goal for myself. <BR> <BR> For the next 2 weeks, I will exercise 30 minutes every day. <BR> <BR> Some days, it will be longer - all the classes I want to take are at least 55 minutes. Longer is better, of course. But on the days I don't want to move, I still have to get up and do something for 30 minutes. Dancing, cycling, a trip to the zoo, strength training, a dvd, whatever - changing it up is a good thing! But 30 minutes is non-negotiable. <BR> <BR> M... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 03:39:25 EST Barre Sculpting I made it to my first class at the studio I fell in love with the instant I found it. I was the biggest person there by probably 80 pounds. That...wasn't so fun. I kept reminding myself that I have to start somewhere, though. I will never have the body I want if I let my size determine my attitude. So I did my best. <BR> <BR> Barre sculpting kicked my butt. It kicked it HARD. <BR> <BR> This was expected, of course - I haven't done any strength training since September, and had only ju... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 18:29:06 EST Taking Risks Months and months ago, when we first got to Phoenix, I discovered the one thing I've been looking for my whole adult life. Phoenix has adult dance classes. For fun. There's one studio, in particular, that made me so incredibly excited that I immediately purchased my first unlimited month. Except then I went insane trying to deal with living with the in-laws, and I never made it. <BR> <BR> I've been making excuses since I got back. Some of them are actually legitimate reasons - since I s... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 14:36:19 EST