SHACKMAN's SparkPeople Blog SHACKMAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New year, new me! <img src=""> <BR> So I have been gone for quite a while and yet I have made some very good changes in my life. Baby steps, slow and steady, however I get to my goal it will happen. Tue, 31 Jan 2017 21:53:46 EST I "Get" The Spark I have read the Spark People book before but recently got the abridged version from the library on CD to listen to while commuting. It really gave me a boost to know that most of the suggestions from the book I am working on or already have incorporated into my life. One of the biggest things that stuck out for me is to be prepared, and I will set aside time daily to get things ready for the gym, and for planning and preparing meals. <BR> <BR> I have been a member of SP since 071904 and I ... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 14:45:48 EST Baring my belly and happy New year! I watched the Dr. Oz show today and it was all about woman and belly fat. This was very relevant for me as it is my one major issue with my body, and it was inspiring to see all the woman showing their bellies on national television. I don't think I am quite ready to do that, but I can not hide the fact that my belly looks like I am ready to give birth. I also have a distorted view of my belly, and I know a picture would help me realize just how big it is. So here goes, my belly in it's f... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 23:06:42 EST LIfe Is Simply Amazing! Last night, I attended a Celebration of Life for a young woman (36) who attended our church, who passed away from cancer last month. She had been battling cancer for 8 years, yet every time I saw her, she wore a big smile on her face. She displayed the light and love of God. She never complained, and always lived her life to the fullest. At the end of the service, people released butterflies and it was so uplifting and inspirational. I know she would not want us to mourn, or waste one mi... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 10:52:35 EST The weight loss countdown begins and random thoughts from weekend I have started a weight loss goal countdown ticker on FB to keep me motivated to continue with my fitness program. I have it set for my 43 birthday next February, so that gives me a year to reach my goal. <BR> <BR> I got the call that I have been accepted to participate in the study on depression. I start on Wednesday and it will be interesting to see if I lost any more weight this past week. I also got invited to attend a women’s retreat with 40 women from our small church this Friday th... Mon, 31 Jan 2011 10:35:37 EST Squash the ANTs In the book I am reading "Change your brain, change your life" Dr. Amen talks about how to get rid of automatic negative thoughts (ANTs). As a person who experiences depression and anxiety, this is a life changing exercise. <BR> <BR> 1. When I notice a negative thought, I will write it down in my journal. <BR> <BR> 2. I will rewrite the thought in a positive or productive way. <BR> <BR> 3. I will recognize and squash the ANTs as much as possible!! <BR> <BR> Making a plan to take care ... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 16:30:51 EST Sound of Sunshine Day 2 of the Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred and I am feeling good! <BR> <BR> Going to put on some tunes (Michael Franti and Spearhead) and dance while I take the ornaments off of the Christmas tree. <BR> <BR> Tue, 11 Jan 2011 13:48:43 EST Happy New Year 2011! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So this is me, starting again. I am not happy with where I am in life, so I will change to make myself happy. Sun, 9 Jan 2011 12:32:36 EST Holy Frijoles! OMG Happy Cinco De Mayo! One of the first that I have not celebrated drinking a huge margarita! I have gained some of the weight I lost back and cutting down on drinking my calories, so I drank water all day. I am very proud that I have finished my paper and project for my Psychology class and currently getting an A! After the semester is over, I am going to be working hard on my health and fitness so watch out Hot Tamales! Wed, 5 May 2010 22:47:30 EST Oh My Gawd! There are a lot of reasons why I have become and stayed a Spark People member. First and foremost because this is the coolest 'health and fitness' site I have ever seen! Secondly, the support here from real people is AMAZING! I love that people I know have reached their goals and stayed on to cheer on the rest of us! I know that we will all reach our goals and have made some great friends along the way! Tue, 4 May 2010 19:42:02 EST Feeling good and great news! I got great news today, the results of my biopsy came back and they results were negative. They got everything, thank God and I was able to shower today which was so great. Looks like I am going to have a six inch scar, but I am happy to be alive. <BR> <BR> I have my first algebra test on Friday and we get the topics for our papers in Psychology class tomorrow. I feel really good with my schedule, just looking forward to being able to exercise again! Wed, 3 Feb 2010 19:22:34 EST "Laissez Les Bon Temps Roulez" This past week has been good and busy. I am trying to work my schedule and make sure I dedicate enough time for school/studying, time for myself and also spend time with my family and friends. My schedule is not perfect, but it will have to work for now. <BR> <BR> I had a mole with atypical cells removed today which required sutures, and my doctor said no exercise for two weeks. I can still walk and have been parking in the last row of the parking lot at school. I am disappointed that ... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 23:42:28 EST 2010 Goals 1) Simplify my life! <BR> Clean out closets, organize everything and don't take on more than I can handle. <BR> <BR> 2) Create a workable schedule (and stick with it) <BR> <BR> 3) Keep my eye on the goal <em>208</em> <BR> Focus on school and getting my degree and getting healthy <BR> <BR> 4) Set aside special time for family <BR> <BR> 5) Continue to ask the Lord for guidance, patience and make sure each day that I am doing His will. Study my bible daily and reflect on each message. <... Wed, 30 Dec 2009 21:24:52 EST Yes, it is tough!! I have been working with a wonderful trainer at the Y for about a month now. I really appreciate everything she is doing and part of what is motivating me is that I don't want to let her down. She made a comment that when I go back to do my 6 week follow up with her, it will be close to her birthday. How cool would it be if I could make a lot of progress by her birthday as part of a way to thank her for all she has done? Yes, the exercise can be tough, but that is what I need to do to rea... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 19:55:31 EST Updated POA and where I am in my program This is me, short and simple <BR> <BR> Username: Shackman <BR> <BR> Starting weight: 230 <BR> Current weight: 216 <BR> Interim weight goal: 180 <BR> Goal weight: 140 <BR> <BR> Miscellaneous Goal: To have a healthy, long life <BR> <BR> First name: Susan <BR> <BR> Age: the big 40 <BR> <BR> Birthdate: February 22 <BR> <BR> Address: 12811 Covington Trl <BR> Austin, TX 78727 <BR> <BR> Marital Status: married for 3, together for 8 years. <BR> <BR> Children: 2, daughter 17 and son 3.5 <BR> ... Sat, 8 Aug 2009 12:03:28 EST Updated POA - March 18, 2009 1. Nutrition. Plan my meals daily and commit to my meal plan. Post EVERYTHING on my nutrition tracker or write it in my food journal. Measure food and stay within ranges. Eat more vegetables and fruit, whole foods. <BR> <BR> 2. H2O. 80 oz. minimum, more if I am spending time outdoors. NO soda! <BR> <BR> 3. Exercise. Do at least 30-60 minutes of cardio exercise a day, every day! Alternate Strength training with cardio every other day. <BR> <BR> 4. Validation. Size 16 casual pants. I can ... Wed, 18 Mar 2009 13:04:04 EST I love my friends, my family and myself One thing I am working on while on my journey to getting healthy is my self-esteem that was damaged after years of being told I was no good, worthless, would never make anything of my self, stupid etc. I really do not believe that I am any of those things any more and I realize that I am a really good and caring person. <BR> <BR> I tell myself I am a good friend, mother, wife and a woman who deserves to be healthy and happy with her life. For the most part, I am happy with my life and ju... Mon, 16 Feb 2009 17:36:45 EST I am so excited! I finally weighed in today and I have lost 9 pounds since September! I was surprised, and excited that even though I got off track a little during the holidays that I did not gain weight. Now I need to keep working my program and keep moving forward. Thu, 12 Feb 2009 14:15:20 EST I am in control - of choices I make. No one can make these choices for me. <BR> <BR> - of how I let others actions affect my emotions. <BR> <BR> - of my journey to live a healthier, happier life. <BR> <BR> I won't reach my goal of "Fit by 40" and I am coming to terms with that. My therapy is going well and I have had a few good revelations that are helping me to deal with the past and start to move forward. Overall, I am happy with my life and just need to take things one day at a time. Fri, 6 Feb 2009 13:05:46 EST Susan's POA updated - December 2008 and a lesson learned I was doing so well with exercising and eating healthy. Then my schedule got hectic with holiday plans and family visit, son's birthday and I got off track. It is scary how quickly I got off track. I am back on track, and I have learned a good lesson. No matter what is going on in my life, I need to make time for myself. I feel better when I exercise and now I have to work extra hard to get that energy back! It is worth it to me to work hard, I deserve to feel good about myself and to l... Wed, 17 Dec 2008 18:00:31 EST My Thanksgiving plan First I will give thanks for all the blessings in my life. <BR> <BR> Craft activity with the children <BR> <BR> The dinner <BR> Smoked tukey with pepper <BR> Cornbread dressing (Spark Recipe) <BR> Cranberry dressing (my recipe - use less sugar and natural orange juice) <BR> Sweet potato pone' (my recipe - use less sugar and more spices) <BR> Steamed asparagus and garlic <BR> Zucchini bake <BR> Whole wheat dinner rolls <BR> Pumpkin pie - use less sugar and more spices <BR> Apple pie - use ... Thu, 20 Nov 2008 21:18:46 EST Susan's POA updated - November 2008 1. Nutrition. Plan my meals daily and commit to my meal plan. Post EVERYTHING on my nutrition tracker or write it in my food journal. Measure food and stay within ranges. <BR> <BR> 2. H2O. 80 oz. minimum, more if I am spending time outdoors. NO soda! <BR> <BR> 3. Exercise. Do at least 30-60 minutes of cardio exercise a day, every day! Alternate Strength training with cardio every other day. <BR> <BR> 4. Validation. Size 16 casual pants. I can pull them on but not button or zip them. No... Thu, 20 Nov 2008 21:06:48 EST Moving forward I had a good weekend and got a lot done. DH took me out on a date Saturday evening. We went to dinner and then glow golf and bowling and got a chance to talk. I let him know how I feel and I think it helped. I have made a deal with him that within a year I will either find a better job or go back to school part time while I work. I am going to see a counselor so I can work through some things. The most important thing to me right now is taking care of myself so that I can be a healthy woma... Mon, 17 Nov 2008 13:50:09 EST I am strong, I am invincible, I am WOMAN I am not giving up and letting myself get off track. DH and I are fighting--he wants me to quit my job and go back to school, or stay home with DS again and go to school. The thing is I like my job and have been looking for another job and we also need both our incomes to make ends meet. I also think part of the problem is that I am exercising and trying to get healthy and make myself feel better and that makes him insecure somehow. Anyway, I am going to suggest to DH we go see a counselor to... Wed, 12 Nov 2008 17:23:12 EST November already? I am motivated and getting more consistant with exercising every day. I feel driven to do more exercise and want to be strong and healthy. I owe it to myself and my family to make good choices and stick with them. THIS TIME I will not get distracted by obstacles, and will keep moving forward. I have so much to look forward to, family visits in December and January and my 40th birthday/Mardi Gras celebration in Lafayette, LA in February!! Wed, 5 Nov 2008 11:45:17 EST Susan's POA - October 1, 2008 Updated <BR> <BR> 1. Nutrition. Plan my meals daily and commit to my meal plan. Post EVERYTHING on my nutrition tracker or write it in my food journal <BR> <BR> 2. H2O. 64 oz. minimum, more if I am spending time outdoors. NO soda! <BR> <BR> 3. Exercise. Renewed my membership to the YMCA and signed up for swimming lessons which start in November. Do at least 30 minutes of exercise a day, every day! Go to the gym right after work every day! <BR> <BR> 4. Validation. Size 16 casual pants. ... Thu, 2 Oct 2008 15:52:49 EST Susan’s POA - September 11, 2008 <BR> 1. Nutrition. Plan my meals daily and commit to my meal plan. Post EVERYTHING on my nutrtion tracker or write it in my food journal <BR> <BR> 2. H2O. 64 oz. minimum, more if I am spending time outdoors. NO soda! <BR> <BR> 3. Exercise. Re-join the YMCA and sign up for swimming lessons. Do at least 30 minutes of exercise a day, every day! <BR> <BR> 4. Validation. Size 16 casual pants. I can pull them on but not button or zip them. No more too tight clothes! Thu, 11 Sep 2008 13:09:53 EST I am too young to look and feel this old :( I took a really good look at myself in the mirror. I am going to be 40 (someday) and I really feel that I am looking older than that. In my mind I am in my early 20's but my body tells me something different. When I wake in the morning I feel tired and achy and I want my body to match my mind. <BR> <BR> I have been gaining weight for months even with eating right and exercising and though it is frustrating, I can not quit. I need to stick with my program and with Spark People no matter h... Mon, 28 Jul 2008 17:28:52 EST Happy Monday!! I am a receptionist and part of my job is to greet customers/employees as they enter the building. I know Monday is not everyones favorite day of the week, but I try to keep a postive outlook. <BR> <BR> Monday is the start of the work week for me, the 'top of the week'. Monday is a time to reflect on all that I got accomplished over the weekend, remember the fun and also a time to set goals for the week. <BR> <BR> This week my goals are to take a walk every day at lunch, give my all to my... Mon, 7 Apr 2008 13:41:20 EST Happy Spring! After two weekends of Spring cleaning, it looks as if I have not done anything. I measured myself today and I have gone up an inch and a half in two places. Do I get discouraged? Do I run to the pantry? NO!! <BR> <BR> I am in this for the long term. A co-worker commented that it looks as if I have lost weight. That was such a nice compliment!! I feel like I have lost weight and more importantly I feel healthier. <BR> <BR> Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:49:12 EST Portable tracking and snacking I have not had time to track my food and exercise online, so I got a calorie counting book, a pocket folder and a notebook to help me keep track. I printed out the nutrition sheets and will write down everything I eat, and all the exercise I do. It would be nice to have a laptop that I could take everywhere, but this will work for now. I will still try to track my food and exercise online, but now I have a backup plan!! <BR> <BR> For some reason, I feel like snacking today. I pre-measure... Wed, 6 Feb 2008 13:37:58 EST Sick family and I am an apple : ( Tim and Robert have fevers, and while that stresses me out, I am going to make a plan on how to deal with this. I will NOT overeat, and use food as a crutch. I worked out at the gym last night and completed the circuit and did 45 minutes on the elliptical trainer. I felt great after, and want to continue feeling great every day. <BR> <BR> I read an article on obesity here and I know that I am obese. I also found out that my shape is an apple which is very unhealthy. Being obese can lead... Fri, 25 Jan 2008 11:06:59 EST Happy Birthday Tim Tim's surprise party went well and I did well on my portions. It will be great when I get to the point where I don't have to actually think about what I am eating and can naturally just make the right choices. I do notice that I am not craving as much and my appetite is getting back under control. <BR> <BR> I have been measuring my food and trying to track everything I eat. I am going to print out some sheets for the weekend when it is hard for me to log on so I will be prepared. <BR> ... Wed, 9 Jan 2008 13:48:23 EST Weekend worries I have been doing so well for over a week and now I am worried about the weekend. I am hosting a surprise b-day party for DH and there will be a lot of good food and cake. I plan on preparing some healthy food and will try to linit my intake of the not so healthy offerings. <BR> <BR> Fri, 4 Jan 2008 12:47:44 EST New Beginnings (again) I am ready to admit that I have let myself get off track. I can't remember the last time I have stepped on a scale or tracked my food or exercise. This is not where I want to be. I never totally gave up, just stopped trying so hard for a while. I will not make excuses, or get angry with myself. I am a grown woman, and I know what I have to do. <BR> <BR> I will start slow, and drink 8 glasses of water every day for the next week. I will exercise at least three days this week. I will ... Fri, 23 Mar 2007 23:19:53 EST