SERENITY_76's SparkPeople Blog SERENITY_76's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New Year, Big Birthday! So today I turn the big 4-0. I think I'm supposed to freak out or something, maybe hide out like my sister did. Instead I feel excited, even invigorated. This is going to be a very exciting year for me. I have been gaining instead of losing weight, but I really feel like that's about to change! I start Nursing school next week. I finally applied this summer, and was accepted at Washington State University. So, in a class of young twenty-somethings, I am going to rock the nursing program at WS... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 12:58:37 EST Stress reaction... So my husband and I decided this tax return we were going to get the step-parent adoption done finally. We have been married almost four years and we have been wanting to get it done for awhile but couldn't afford it. This was very stressful for me because it meant that I had to deal with the sperm donor, even if it was through the lawyer. I maintained my weight through this but it really opened my eyes as to how I deal with stress. The emotional and financial stress of this whole process jus... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 23:27:52 EST sigh... I really would like to be sleeping right now. I am totally exhausted and feel like a moo cow. The last few years have been such a struggle with myself that I am just worn out. I want to be active, I want to feel better and look better, I just can't seem to stop feeling like crud. I was up very late last night talking with my husband. We both have put on so much weight that it is ridiculous! With busy work schedules, school schedules, and my kids...I just don't have any energy to take care of... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 12:09:40 EST Another Reason I love my husband! So my husband and I were recently discussing our health. We are both VERY overweight and we both have put a lot on over the last 5 years since we were officially dating. When were had started dating I was on a good run, dropped down to 193 from my all time high of 270+ (I wouldn't get on scale after I reached that number!). We are both feeling down about our weights and it of course affects everything we do everyday. I told my hubby in passing that I wish I weighed as much as some survivalis... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 22:02:25 EST Again and again Admittedly I do not read many people's blogs on here. I read the titles and that usually tells you what it's going to be about. Same as mine. I seem to always be falling back to the same point over and over. I have no excuse for eating the way I do right now. I'm not in school this quarter. I still have to get my work hours in and take care of my family and repair a house and two cars that seem to never stop needing repairs. Did I mention a fairly large drop in income? I sure with some part o... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 15:08:18 EST Finally! I finally had a drop...only a pound, but holy cow! Finally! I started hauling hay this week so even though some of the things I ate the last few days were the healthiest, I lost. I just needed that one little teeny number drop to motivate me! I feel much better now...I will o kick some butt! <em>23</em> Tue, 24 Jul 2012 10:08:12 EST Staycation Day 4 of my 5 day staycation...I've cleaned and stacked and haven't rested much. I don't know that it was much of a vacation. I feel sometimes like I'm doing all this for nothing, I never seem to make a dent, and while I know my family appreciates me, they expect it from me and don't really realize that sometimes I want to be taken care of too! Maybe I'll go on strike! Sun, 22 Jul 2012 12:30:52 EST uhhhg... Why do we do this to ourselves? Since my wedding 2 years ago I have gained about 40 to 45 lbs...that's a lot! now there was a knee injury in there which has greatly slowed my ability to do a lot of exercise, but holy cow! Maybe I could staple my mouth shut and only leave a hole to eat through a straw?!? I guess I can only learn from the past and look forward, but it's hard when your past is weighing you down, literally! Fri, 20 Jul 2012 11:03:35 EST How many Rock Bottoms are there? Every morning I wake up I have the best of intentions. I'm going to make it through the day, I'm going to stay on my eating plan. Those good intentions may last as long as lunch time most days. I recently hot "rock bottom" AGAIN. I keep wondering how many times I can hit the bottom, break through it to find a cave of despair only to hit that bottom as well! I was so excited when I broke the 200lb mark, I was in love and I was down to 193lbs for the 1st time in sooooo many years! First I went... Sat, 10 Sep 2011 22:49:40 EST what the heck? So after a stressful weekend...and stress eating...I came home to loud wild children and a lot of work. I was sooo tired yesterday and didn't want to do anything...but alas I did it anyway. I got very grumpy about it too. I tried to go to bed early but couldn't sleep! My husband was gaming...the boys were wrestling with the dog...grrrr. Eventually everything is quiet and still I cannot sleep. Rich asks if I want to watch a movie and we go to get a little snack which ended up being nachos. NOT... Mon, 9 Aug 2010 13:33:23 EST tired grrr...I fell off the wagon...big time. A year ago I was considerably lighter and healthier. I know I had a lot of stresses, but how could I let myself get this far from my goal again? I moved 3 times in the last year with a new relationship, buying a house and finally getting married last month. When I am stressed...I eat....carbs...and a lot of them. When I eat carbs...I feel sick. When I feel sick, I eat carbs to comfort myself. A vicious cycle that I cannot seem to break. Where did my wil... Sun, 8 Aug 2010 13:08:58 EST Sooo Close So apparently some light finally came on in my head last week. I had the flu several weeks back...then everyone else got it, so my exercise and nutrition just weren't what they should have been. I finally got back on track and started taking my vitamins including a vitamin D supplement that has REALLY helped. I started getting out and playing with the horses, walking them, and getting the kids outside. I started classes at one of my gyms that really increased my confidence and my energy leve... Thu, 19 Mar 2009 10:55:21 EST last minute motivation! Well...It's close to the end of the year now...and I have not reached my twenty pound goal. The first TOPS meeting of the year we set our goal for the year and if we meet that goal we receive $10.00. It has to be a minimum of 10lbs. I decided to go for 20lbs to really motivate myself. I went back and forth all year...and I did put on a lot of muscle this summer doing 40 tons of hay(80 if you count re-stacking!). But now...I'm so close. I've been back on lean proteins and salads and low sodium... Mon, 8 Dec 2008 11:07:46 EST