SERAPHGYRL's SparkPeople Blog SERAPHGYRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Oh Snap! Sometimes... <BR> <BR> I had the day off yesterday to go to the eye doctor. My cornea is looking great again and I got 2 more stitches removed to help work on my eyesight. I may still need to wear a contact lens. I'm kind of afraid to because so many germs can contaminate a gas permeable lens and I don't want to get my fragile cornea infected ever again. <BR> <BR> After my husband and I saw the eye specialist, my husband took me along to see a friend he needed to help. He met a lovely c... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 12:31:01 EST The Klutz Strikes Again What a weekend. A friend invited princess girl and I to go horseback riding Saturday. My sister and her grandson came along and all was going well until I decided to ride a little faster. The stirrups were too long and I couldn't hold on well enough. You guessed it! I fell off my horse! I'm not sure which was bruised more my body or my dignity. I got up, brushed myself off, and got back on for the rest of the ride. My sister took video of the kids riding. I was SO happy she didn't get ... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 11:51:32 EST Do It Because it's Your Duty I intended to get up for wogging with my exercise partner this morning at 7am. She asked that we make it 8:30 instead. That's mid-morning for me. W2aaay too late. I almost begged off but my inner voice said not to. If I want to show anyone health matters, I have to make concessions. I showed up and, after our walk, bought smoothies at McD's for us. She was proud of herself for making all 3 days AND, I see a change in her figure already. She was so happy I noticed. A little does a lot... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 12:17:34 EST It Isn't About Working Will my husband please get out of the house...PLEASE? <BR> <BR> Seriously, can he please get out of his cave and do something? He is the laziest, yuckiest, person when he's home. He lives in bed. He eats there and only gets up to go to the bathroom and to smoke cigarettes. He, he hates and won't he's home. Lord-a-mercy...pleeeease get the grumpy man out of my house! I appreciate that he's stressed about lack of work but really? I may have used... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 15:45:33 EST The Day Continues... Good lord...will it end? <BR> <BR> I've become incapable of being immobible. Once I'm up, the unemployed husband is nipping at my heels...ready to spar. My elderly pug is less annoying. I'm his one and only...and, usually I love it...though he is never ready to spar any more. <BR> <BR> My weirdo (so 70's) landlord said, this morning, he would have the first and only Chinese food delivery sent to my house for dinner tonight. Oh good heavens...he was the delivery person. The regular guy... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 01:28:06 EST Lesson Learned...again Attitude is everything! <BR> <BR> I got back from exercising and was puttering until it would be time to get ready for work today. So, here I was in a my workout clothing when the doorbell rang. Who on Earth would be at my door before 9am? Oh, lucky me! My landlord who has been MIA for over 2 months. During this time, our a/c has gone out during 'the' heatwave! It's been unbearable to clean upstairs due to the heat. Fortunately, it's too hot to be up there so it's just dusty. Living ... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 20:11:09 EST It's a WOW day I'm only working 2 days this week therefore, I know I need to get out and move. I woke up and got in a 2 mile run. The air is crisp and I loved the feeling of running free. Tomorrow morning is wogging partner day. I'm guessing it will be hills because school's in session so the track isn't available. I gave her an incentive to show up all 3 days. Friday, after our wog, we are going to continue on to McDonald's and have a small smoothie. I don't really want one but, if it helps keep her... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 19:43:26 EST I Think I'm Bored Here I am home all day. I've exercised for 2 hours already and my house is clean...enough. I used to be able to veg all day long watching tv and hanging out on FB. The strongest muscles on my body were in my fingers. My farm, on Farmtown, is ancient history and neither FB nor tv hold my attention. What has happened to me? Have I gotten a life or something? <BR> <BR> When I'm bored, I think. I've been reflecting on where I've been and wondering where I'm going. Complacency is deadly. ... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 16:17:34 EST The Strange Evolution... I have stuck to my guns and followed my dream to get healthy again in 2012. I've made it back to health before the 'end of the world', September 21...bawhahahaha <BR> <BR> Most people I know understand that they can't detour me and nothing, not eating in front of me, bringing me treats, nor inviting me to do things during my allocated exercise times, work to sabotage me. Some tell me they're proud of me. Some don't. It doesn't matter. I'm proud of me. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I visited with m... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 12:54:55 EST Fall Is In the Air I fell off the Spark wagon this week. I do that from time to time but I just dust myself off and climb back on. My workout partner was too busy to go with me and I was feeling a little under the weather part of the week. Working at Wendy's causes weightloss in its self. The pants I bought for work are falling off these days. I had to ask for small shirts because the mediums I got when I started drown me. <BR> <BR> So anyway, I ate terribly all week long and was thinking the skinny jean... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 18:59:42 EST OH, where do I start ...and then <BR> <BR> Well, yes, I am still a Wendy's employee. Weird, huh? I have been giving it all I have. I work hard and, oddly, it isn't easy. I have to work to be good at it. Those Mexican/Americans are very hard workers and they spare no prisoners! <BR> <BR> Anyway, since I've last blogged, I almost lost my cornea transplant. As a strange blessing, my boss has 2 cornea transplants and understood. My job wasn't in jepordy. I took 2 weeks off and then, as of now, work about 4 ... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 22:39:29 EST Where Have I Been? I've been too tired to even manage to log onto my laptop. I can't type worth beans on my phone. I'm still working on mastering a touch screen keyboard and swiping. I'm eating alright but I haven't been doing my exercise routine. <BR> <BR> I remember I loved my first job. I begged for more hours and closing was the BEST ever. What was I thinking? Working during the day might be easier than closing. Closing is hard work with nobody to talk to because nobody else really speaks English. ... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 10:29:06 EST Which is Better? What a crazy week! I stood up for myself and said I couldn't watch my grandson overnight so I could get up to exercise. That worked out ok and I was under the mistaken impression my week would go smoothly :p <BR> <BR> The car accident, in 2004, that injured my back still hasn't been completely settled. I had an all day arbitration last Wednesday. My husband drove me down to Salt Lake City and also took care of our grandson. They had a terrific day going to the Living Planet Aquarium, the... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 09:59:40 EST Selfish Mom Summer break has begun for my little grandson. He has officially graduated from kindergarten. This means I don't have to go pick him up from school anymore but it also means he arrives every morning for Grammy to tend him. <BR> <BR> I'm not much of a morning person however, I made the decision to wake up earlier and get out for my wog before he arrives at 7ish. My daughter called last night to ask if she could drop him off to spend the night so she wouldn't have to drive him in this morni... Tue, 29 May 2012 09:57:37 EST Star Spangled Banner Waves <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I hope everyone has a wonderful Memorial Day and takes a few minutes to reflect on the price so many have paid for our Country's freedom <BR> Mon, 28 May 2012 15:11:35 EST Pick a Side! The weather continued to be chilly yesterday and I was moving at the pace of an arthritic snail all morning. I got my exercise in on my treadmill but then I was back to lazy. I had some women coming over in the evening and, as you ladies know, that meant I needed to make sure my house was very clean and I needed to have a treat baked. Well, I sent a note to a SP friend and mentioned that my day was going smoothly. I almost deleted the comment but didn't. Haha on me. My husband came home... Fri, 25 May 2012 09:32:43 EST Among Us Friends... Thank you for dancing with me and celebrating my little victory with me. I'm very, very, proud of myself. It's time to take a step into the harsh light of reality though. I have lots of work to do before I'm where I need to be. This is...oh I really sharing this? stomach; <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> See the flab and I still have 2 halves of my belly. I just don't have dunlop/apron anymore and my bat isn't lifesize any... Thu, 24 May 2012 11:01:04 EST No Freakin' WAY! I know. I know. I'm getting out of control with this blogging. This just couldn't wait though. You're my support group and I whine and complain to you a lot. This time I want to share my joy. <BR> <BR> This is for my new friends who are doing the Spring Into Shape Bootcamp Challenge: <BR> <BR> For any of you who follow my crazy blog, you know I'm a big fan of bodyshapers. They smooth out the 'rough' spots. I thought I might be noticing less jiggle in the middle and, hesitantly, wore ... Wed, 23 May 2012 18:33:09 EST How Does It Feel? How did I move around when I was over 50lbs heavier? I'm asking myself that exact question these days? I can't even lift that much weight when I'm strength training yet! Yet my poor joints and back were lugging that much more around for years. Is it any wonder my chronic back pain felt so much worse than it does now? My back pain will always be there however, it's a lot more manageable now. What can I look forward to when I get down in my goal range? Wow, I'm pretty stoked with I think... Wed, 23 May 2012 11:36:12 EST Changin' It Up I got out to exercise this morning and decided to change it up and power walk. Oh how I used to laugh when I saw people doing it when I was kid. It's a workout though. <BR> <BR> I saw the cutest thing while I was out this morning. There was a very old woman out, on her gorgeous vintage bicycle, exercising. She was out there pedaling away looking as happy as can be. She waved at me twice while I was out. I want to be her someday. We can be active our entire lives if we make it happen.... Tue, 22 May 2012 11:48:39 EST Do I Hear the Theme Song From 'Rocky'? I was lazy yesterday morning and didn't get outside to wog early and, when I got moving, it was too hot. We set a record for the hottest May 21 on record. I did my bootcamp videos instead. My husband got home 'early' so I grabbed my ipod and went to the gym during busy time. My nicer exercise clothes were dirty so I wore Old Navy tanktops and the sweat pants I wore when I first started SP. They're quite 'roomy' these days. I don't go to the gym to look good anyway. So yeah, I knew I ha... Tue, 22 May 2012 09:55:03 EST Confession: I've been cheating I've been using a treadmill for quite a while now and feeling darned good about it. I don't have the best balance although it is getting better. I was at the gym yesterday and hiking on the treadmill. I had to take my hands off of the bar to fix my ipod and - viola - I instantly realized I CHEAT! Holding onto the sides or the bar, even though I'm not really holding on is a lot easier. I did my best to keep my hands free yesterday and, whew, it was exponentially more difficult. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 20 May 2012 10:46:32 EST Quick P.S. I did what I said. I, piddled around a bit but I got my butt to the gym and, as usual, getting there is over half the battle. I 'hiked' the treadmill to get my heart pumping (12 -13% incline) for 20 minutes and then did my entire strength training routine. Yep, I'm patting myself on the back. I hope I don't wrench my shoulder out. LOL Sat, 19 May 2012 16:14:46 EST Did I Do Too Much or Am I a Wimp? I did 3 sets of my strength training at the gym Thursday and wow, am I ever feeling it today. How quickly I'd forgotten what it feels like to have a difficult time getting out of bed, sitting down and getting up off of the toilet, walking up and down the stairs, and it's for sure a shower day because I would need the handicap bar to get in and out of the bathtub. To think, I felt this way every day before I started sparking! <BR> <BR> I did walk to and from the church building because it w... Sat, 19 May 2012 13:42:58 EST Sportin' My Apron My youngest daughter has spoiled me absolutely rotten lately and I wanted to do something nice for her on my tiny budget. I decided to invite her over for lunch. <BR> <BR> I set the table like a dinner party for two, bringing out linen napkins, water goblets, along with my good china and silverware. I made a spinach salad with raspberry vinegarette dressing for the first course, baked chicken breast, with a serving of mashed potatoes for her, for the main entree, and SP banana 'ice cream'... Fri, 18 May 2012 17:07:10 EST Girls Just Wanna Have Fun My brain has its moments...and an idea popped into my head this morning. <BR> <BR> I went to a young, hip, resale shop with my daughter yesterday. She told me they sell larger sizes too. I took in some of my bigger clothes to sell. Well, they didn't want them. They're too worn. I got to thinking about how difficult it is for plus size gals to find clothing that's stylish and looks good on us. I wore my nice clothes until they became threadbare because I hated shopping when there was no... Thu, 17 May 2012 10:28:53 EST Finally... Yes folks, this girl has finally gotten a smart phone. I think I'm just about the last person in the USA who didn't have one. I've been living with my Blackberry from 2006, the Stone Age, and the people who text me hate it. They don't get photos I send to them (not to mention the quality is horrible) and I can't download half of the things they send me. So, for Mother's Day, my youngest daughter gave me an android phone. I got my service switched over today and I am now the proud user o... Tue, 15 May 2012 20:37:52 EST Is it Me or is the World Getting A Lot Brighter? I had a stellar Mother's Day. I had my little princess on Friday and Saturday. We played at the park and I even went down the slide. Weirdness! My grandson stayed the night Saturday so I got to wake up to his darling little face first thing on Mother's Day. My husband invited me to go up to the cabin he's building for the day and was impatiently waiting for my little guy's mommy to come get him. My youngest daughter and her little family stopped over, even though she was tired from maki... Mon, 14 May 2012 10:53:22 EST To My Special Friends Lots of times friends shy away from saying anything because they don't know what to say and/or they don't want to see their friend tear up. I'm of the opinion that these friends need to be acknowledged on this day too. Mothers who don't have their children on Earth anymore are still Mothers. This day is to show our love to them and remind them they were terrific Mothers to their children while they were here and we know they hold that child in their heart forever. <BR> <BR> This is also f... Sat, 12 May 2012 16:44:54 EST My Heart is Smiling I was talking to my husband about the probable demise of one of his best friend's marriage. I'm not a jealous woman and my husband goes on a lot of 'man trips' without me. Anyway, his friend's wife and her friends showed up at a motorcycle race a while back. I'd heard the story before and was thinking it was odd she got angry when my husband brought up the subject of that trip in front of her and her husband. Last night, my husband told me the 'real' story. She'd bluntly came onto him, u... Sat, 12 May 2012 10:48:56 EST Ouch! I was taking a bath this morning and was lying back to 'braise' for a little while and my backbone hit against tub. Ouch in a good way. It's been a very long time since that's happened. That being said, my youngest daughter dropped off my princess girl and stayed to chat for a bit. She, sadly, guessed my weight as 10lbs more than it is AND laughed when I told her I was proud of my backside being firm again. "Mom, you need to do some squats". Really? I DOOOO! Oh well, I can't ever have... Fri, 11 May 2012 16:33:58 EST Facing My Fear So, I met with a personal trainer for my free training session last night. After going over my goals, he told me I had to hop on the scale. EEEEEEK! The terror was there and I could have easily run. I womaned up though and climbed on. My 'magic power' is still spot on. I was 3 lbs off what I thought my weight was. The ugly truth is I'm at 37 on my fat %. My BMI is 27. I have miles to go before I sleep. He had me warm up on an industrial treadmill. What a difference from the one I h... Wed, 9 May 2012 10:01:01 EST Small News I joined a gym last night! The weather is heating up and I want to be sure I never have an excuse not to exercise. A nice cold gym is the perfect solution and I can afford $15 a month. The guy who signed me up made me feel surprised/shocked and so good when he said I looked like I kept myself in good shape and when he was surprised when I told him my age. I really expected more of a "we have facilities for all fitness levels and ages" approach if you know what I mean. Of course I told hi... Tue, 8 May 2012 10:25:12 EST Exercise My friend asked me if I could come over and help her set up voicemail on her new telephone and said she would call this morning and come pick me up. I woke up refreshed and energetic this morning. I downed a cup of coffee and took off on my walk. I decided to just walk to her house since it isn't that far away. She was so surprised when I called from down the block from her place. We had a nice short visit and, again, she was surprised when I declined a ride home. Going 'green' is the b... Mon, 7 May 2012 14:02:54 EST Got 'Er Done Week 1 of the Spring Challenge is complete! I had no idea that adding 6 - 12 more minutes of exercise, as well as being dedicated to my daily cardio, could make me so sore. I felt like the old me hobbling up and down the stairs, using the handicap bar in my bathtub, and walking as slowly as a turtle in peanut butter in the mornings. Unlike, when I first started exercising, I've embraced the pain and know it will have positive effects on my body. <BR> <BR> I'm proud of myself for getting m... Sat, 5 May 2012 12:48:06 EST Not Something I Usually Do Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and <BR> downs I pass through, <BR> I will continue on my journey. <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, <BR> and forgive myself for my past, <BR> and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, <BR> To Stop making excuses, <BR> And stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best <BR> Friend, <BR> Because that is who I am. <BR... Thu, 3 May 2012 16:04:20 EST New Outlook I used to watch Biggest Loser while I ate a high calorie snack. I dreamed of being on the show so I could lose weight like the contestants and felt sorry for myself because I couldn't afford a personal trainer to kick my butt into shape. I watched part of the finale last night and, WOW, I realized I'm on my way to being a big loser too. I'm not a spectator anymore. My life is changing simply because I gave up excuses and changed my attitude. <BR> <BR> I'm starting day 3 of the Spring in... Wed, 2 May 2012 10:36:58 EST 3-2-1-GO! I've been skating along for a while and it's time to take this Sparking up a notch. I joined Spring Into Shape Bootcamp team. That means I have to do cardio and workout to a 10 minute video FIVE days a week. Can I do this? Yes I can. Will I do this? I will! <BR> <BR> This weekend was a real bust. I had my little princess this weekend and she was feeling quite whiney. It was chilly outside and her mom didn't bring her a warm enough coat for us to walk and play out... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 11:19:51 EST Smile My oldest daughter and I went on a 'date' last night. We went and had Indian food and I ate saag until I almost burst. I do love spicy spinach. We were chatting so much through dinner that we realized we were going be late for our movie. We waddled as fast as we could to the theater and got settled into our seats only about 5 minutes into the show. How often do you say "thank heavens for preview trailers'? Ladies? The Lucky One is such a cute, romantic, movie and that Zac Efron has gro... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 12:32:32 EST Some People's Kids I was stressing out last evening over everything when my youngest daughter called. "What are you doing Mom?" "Hmmm...let's see...nothing really." "Wanna go get a pedi with me?" I hesitated because a pedicure really isn't in my budget. Before I could come up with an excuse, she butted into my thoughts and said "It's on me. Pleeease say yes." We went to the spa and had a super-duper time. I let all my stress fly away for a little while and it felt good. She complimented me on how I lo... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 15:09:47 EST More, More, and More Does life just get harder at times or could it be that we aren't strong enough to look at the positive and, instead, dwell on the bad? I'm doing ok these days but if isn't one thing, it's definitely another. I find crawling into bed and not getting up sounds amazingly appealing on a lot of days. <BR> <BR> One thing that is stressing me out is the flabby body I now own. It's BAD. Why would I have thought I could escape the jiggle if I strength trained? The flying squirrel arms are out-of... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 12:43:51 EST When Meaners Strike I shall first tell you all an embarrassing, but quite funny, story. I got to the hospital for a family meeting. I had gotten dressed in jeans, a tanktop, and a cover shirt with an elastic waist that didn't cover the waist of my jeans. I didn't like the flabby tummy look and thought I would try it with my bodyshaper. It looked nice so that's what I wore. Well, I arrived at the hospital and decided to make a quick trip to the ladies room. Anyone who's worn a bodyshaper knows the dilemma. ... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 15:24:03 EST The Spark is Back Tough times don't last. Tough people do. <BR> <BR> I've been on an emotional rollercoaster over the last week but it seems to be evening out a bit now. The life struggles you, my Spark friends, blog about helped me a lot. We all have problems. How we handle them is the important part. <BR> <BR> I realized something interesting about myself last week. I felt guilty that I was feeling good. I felt like I should be feeling as badly as my daughter instead of having a bright outlook for m... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 14:33:53 EST Stressful My daughter was transferred to the hospital's behavioral unit yesterday afternoon. She is having a very difficult time understanding why she has to be there. The hardest part for me is knowing she needs things to change in her life and going home right now will put her right back into the same situation. I've spent a lot of time listening and very little time talking since Monday. <BR> <BR> She married her husband (her high school sweetheart) three years ago. She brought a son into the... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 13:29:24 EST Worst Day of My Life While I was blogging this morning, my oldest daughter text'd me sounding really down. She and I text'd back in forth as I tried to cheer her up. She then text'd "I just want to give up and go to sleep forever". I was concerned and decided to take a bath and go over an spend some time with her. I wasn't getting any texts back while I was bathing. My sister called me while I was in the bath and said she'd gotten a call from her ex-husband saying my daughter had text'd him to pick up her yo... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 23:27:27 EST The Slump Well, I'm officially in a slump. I want to KICK, KICK, KICK myself. I want to tell everyone out there NOT to let yourself slip...even when you have valid reasons. I still haven't found a way to exercise with little children around. I thought I could get up and exercise early. I'm not an early morning person and, having them wake up earlier (and they do), isn't something I want to repeat. Anyway, once I stopped making daily exercise a habit, I began to feel lazier and lazier. I even... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 12:02:12 EST Happy Easter <img src=""> <BR> These are the deviled eggs I'm making for our family Easter get-together <BR> <BR> My grandson and I walked to Dollar Tree on Wednesday to shop for Easter baskets for my Pocatello grandbabies. Has anyone else noticed they spend more money shopping at dollar stores? LOL My oldest daughter and I have a lunch date today and I need to shop for the rest of the Easter baskets. I think I'll see if I can save a little mone... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 10:38:09 EST Really? I, apparently, have a new obstacle to overcome. My life has become busy. This is the woman who stayed in bed all day without anything to do but play Farmtown on Facebook and watch tv. Now that Grammy is up and actively plays with them, my grandchildren beg to come and stay at my house. I haven't had a moment to myself for days now. I don't even have time to fire up the laptop. When I'm here, I have little hands 'helping' me. The kids love to play on my treadmill and I sure can't let t... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 12:19:36 EST This is what weekends are made for How did I let myself decide being inactive all weekend, every weekend, was relaxing and enjoyable? It feels so much better to get out and enjoy life. There is a whole world of fun outside of my little house. I took a big bite out of life this weekend and it makes me happy. <BR> <BR> My youngest daughter asked me to go on a hike with her on Friday afternoon. It's a strenuous hike and I wasn't sure I could handle it. I did it though. I felt the cool waterfall mist at the top and felt the... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 10:58:36 EST Climb Climb Up Sunshine Mountain I went on a hike, in the foothills behind Ogden, yesterday with my new spark friend, NEWERIN. It wasn't easy for me which certainly tells me I need to change up my workout. 2.5 miles hiking lots of uphill and maneuvering the dirt paths is more difficult than city streets. On the bright side, I couldn't have even done the hike before sparking. NEWERIN can hike a lot better than I can but now it's a challenge to conquer the hills. :) She told me about an upcoming 5K and I'm going to ente... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 09:51:36 EST