SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's SparkPeople Blog SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 1 - Weigh In and Measurements <img src=""> <BR> Today is Day 1 and I'm logging my stats <BR> <BR> Weight - 190lbs <BR> Waist - 40 <BR> Hips - 44.5 <BR> Thighs - 25.5 <BR> Stomach - 46 <BR> Calf - 16 <BR> Bust under - 37.5, Bust 45 <BR> Arms - 13.5 <BR> Neck - 15 <BR> Forearm - 10 <BR> Body Fat: 46.8% <BR> <BR> My morning started with logging all my stats, taking pictures. Plan for today is to walk for lunch and do my Body Pump workout af... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 04:55:08 EST Finishing May and Gearing up for June 1st! <img src=""> <BR> Today is my prep day ... for my June challenge to reset in every way. I am cooking and also enjoying my last few drinks of alcohol until July 1st - 30 days of abstinence. <BR> <BR> My plan is to blog daily ... and to plan one day at a time to get through the cravings to 'cave in'... to aim to stick to this plan. I have put it OUT there on many fronts publicly in order to have the accountability a... Sun, 31 May 2015 15:26:18 EST Grateful for an Amazing Day I woke up this morning without the clock... It was a vacation day for me. I started with the reading of my affirmations and I immediately found a theme of staying in 'peace' today... and so it was. <BR> <BR> The day started with the school meeting with the day treatment team and we had a really good discussion. Then the school formality of her placement meeting for next year and both went really well. Next at 11:15 was the doctor's appointment to get blood work done and get something to help... Fri, 29 May 2015 21:57:47 EST Looking Ahead... and Planning for 30 Days to a Better ME <img src=""> <BR> As many of you know I've had some challenging times of late. This has resulted in coping with eating/drinking and has resulted in weight regain... So I'm motivated to begin June 1st and make it 30 days (the entire month) to a better me... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I have a few days to prep myself mentally for this - but s... Thu, 28 May 2015 09:36:40 EST 99 to 49... Hitting a Low Point <img src=""> <BR> A picture is worth a thousand words - and this one really made me realize how I am unhappy with my body right now. Everything I try on is tight. I feel extremely bloated and uncomfortable and this picture - well I see the size of my arms and mid-section and I want to cry. I have gained 25 to 30lbs with all the stress I've been living with my DD over the past couple of years and it has to STOP! <B... Wed, 27 May 2015 07:33:27 EST Dreams Can Come True... <img src=""> <BR> So my guy bought the house yesterday - and so long as conditions are met by June 5th this will be the new place he'll be moving into and perhaps someday - my home too... <BR> <link><BR>io/south-mountain/10646-nelson-rd/2833<BR>331/mls943419/ </link> <BR> <BR> I've always dreamed of living in a brand NEW home and this is exactly that! While I told him this ... Tue, 26 May 2015 08:29:52 EST Weekend Visit and Then "Stuff" So the visit back home was really great... I may have pics to post later - still waiting for some to get shared as I wasn't the photographer for once. <BR> <BR> The girls seemed to do ok while I was away - my oldest stayed with my 14 year old again. I got home last night and all seemed fine - but this morning my daughter asked to go to the residential crisis unit again (this has been occurring weekly now for the past 3 weeks) but FINALLY they admitted her. It's a temporary fix but I almost f... Mon, 25 May 2015 20:59:19 EST Love of Oneself <img src=""> <BR> As a single mom - this is easier said than done because the most difficult thing I'm dealing with is my own child and a parent can not let go of her own child... at least not until she reaches a more mature age. <BR> <BR> She is missing school again today - her excuse being lack of sleep. I have tried everything to help - melatonin, explained practices that could help, and just about every trick ... Thu, 21 May 2015 13:43:08 EST I'm Tired... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Another really tough day ... My daughter is missing school again. Her 'day treatment' has been 3 half days (2 hours a day from 12:50 to 2:50) and they were going to try to increase it and she is now doing worse - with the crises the past 2 Tuesdays and now her excuse this week of not sleeping well and sleeping past her alarm or not able to wake up. Then she cries about her anxiety and that s... Wed, 20 May 2015 13:23:22 EST New Moon - Mercury Retrograde <img src=""> <BR> Do you tend to observe the moon cycles and how it affects your energies? I do. And a new moon to me is like a fresh start. There's a cool 30 day challenge through this info link about the New Moon: <link><BR>2015/05/17/new-moon-in-taurus-developi<BR>ng-mastery-over-the-physical-world/ </link> <BR> <BR> I woke up feeling good despite an 'off' weekend on the ... Tue, 19 May 2015 12:09:20 EST Finding Balance <img src=""> <BR> Well it's been a hectic/busy week but Friday is here and a long weekend ahead! I managed to have 2 days without alcohol, but I have enjoyed some (in moderation) on other nights and feel ok with it. <BR> <BR> UPDATE ON BLOG:- I don't consider myself as having a drinking problem (as one of the comments below notes)... but I suppose how I worded it - that might be the interpretation - the reason I ... Fri, 15 May 2015 12:55:55 EST Up and DOWN... After my blog yesterday - it's like a call for drama ... I had a great day - went to bed only to be woken up at 10:45pm by my 14 year old daughter - she was crying and asking to go to emergency because she 'couldn't take it anymore'. I asked her if she was thinking of harming herself (because as it's emergency - they won't accept you unless there's an imminent danger or you actually DO something - which is why I'm so frustrated with the system... especially when your child is trying to reach ... Wed, 13 May 2015 22:24:37 EST Feeling the Groove Again <img src=""> <BR> Two good healthy days under my belt - good eating and no drinking and some exercise and I feel better. The cravings haven't been too bad but not eating past 7pm is a bit of a challenge (I'm hungry now). <BR> <BR> Hoping for a good night's rest so I can workout again tomorrow morning. Getting those morning workouts in again feels so good and I got a walk in at lunch. So long as the weather permit... Tue, 12 May 2015 20:31:45 EST 11-11 <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I need to set my intentions and 'wish' in the RIGHT direction. Since my last blog - things have not gone in the direction I had hoped. It's May 11 and I have 11 days until my visit back home. <BR> <BR> Last week was particularly difficult with another crisis with my daughter w... Mon, 11 May 2015 11:14:44 EST It's a NEW Day... Hello MAY!! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I feel better this morning after a good night's rest, sleeping in and a 'vacation' day to start the month. I've been spending it quietly tending to things I've been procrastinating about for almost a MONTH lol. I finally put away my suitcase from my trip. Now just sorting through clothes and organizing my room so it's the haven it should be - not a... Fri, 1 May 2015 09:12:38 EST Overwhelmed... <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Breathing deeply and hoping for a better day tomorrow... <BR> <BR> Will post/write more tomorrow... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 18:38:34 EST Gearing up for May <img src=""> <BR> It's absolutely BEAUTIFUL out today and I'm gearing up to take part in this challenge for 30 days in May to spend 30 minutes outdoors. Here's the link for anyone who might want to join in: <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a less successful day in that I caved in to S T R E S S and had drinks... My daughter continues to present me with day to day challenges and yesterday was a tougher day... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 11:57:43 EST Don't compare... Keep Pushing I found this quote and ironically it was one that came up as one I posted to Facebook on this very day 4 years ago... and it's very fitting for where I'm at right now: <BR> <BR> Never mind what others do; do better than yourself, beat your own record from day to day, and you are a success. ~ William J. H. Boetcker <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Loved this poster too... <BR> <BR> It's all about our mindset and taking action to CHANGE. Thi... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 08:47:47 EST Smaller Steps Thank you for your feedback on my blog - and GABIBEAR - you are right ... I need to take smaller steps to get back on the right track (and not so much the all or nothing mentality). This article and today's RESET reminder was a good one for me to read: <link><BR>ion_articles.asp?id=84 </link> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I can't keep denying or self-sabotaging myself... <BR> <BR> And Brenda - the BF th... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 12:22:26 EST Where is My Motivation?! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It seems the more I want this ... the further I'm slip... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 08:09:14 EST Day 2 - Create a Game Plan <img src=""> <BR> Day 1 was good up until I went home - that dreaded 'afternoon' slump where my best intentions and positive mindset from the morning gets thrown aside as I feel like I 'deserve' a break after a good day's work... So I had drinks and eats that fell off the plan. <BR> <BR> Today's game plan in an effort to change this 'habit' - working out as soon as I get home from work. I finish around 2:30pm so get home by 3pm. I was s... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 07:24:35 EST Healthy Habit Reset <img src=""> <BR> Well my start starts again... I guess I was still in the remnants of my vacation mode and while I had intentions of starting the 21 Day Fix last Wednesday - I began TODAY with the workouts. <BR> <BR> I'm also going to follow the SP 30 day Healthy Habit Reset <link><BR>-habits-reset.asp </link> because I find that my eating has been particularly off track and with one slip (eats an... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 10:47:00 EST Day 1 - 21 Day Fix <img src=""> <BR> Here's the low down... I am up 2lbs since before my trip to Cuba but here are my stats for Day 1 of the 21 Day Fix program that I'm starting with my gf. She has a wedding coming up in about 24 days and I have my visit back home in May and I simply want a boost to get back into program mode. <BR> <BR> I've let my habits slide back and my weight today is where it was at when I joined SP almost 9 years ago... I'm ready to... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 07:23:36 EST Cuba Trip Report with Pics! <img src=""> <BR> The resort if relatively new (I think they only opened in October) - the above was our room (as you can see you have to be ok with little privacy in the washroom - that window is where the shower is - by the bed). <BR> <BR> The scenery there was beautiful - and while some services need improvement - overall we enjoyed the experience. Some reviews are negative but I think people set expectations too high and don't consi... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 14:01:02 EST Back from Cuba and Back to Routine/Work April 13th! Well I'm just logging in now and I have to say it was <em>345</em> to completely DISCONNECT for the duration of my vacation... so I'll not be backtracking on posts but as of tomorrow it's back to routine. I'm winding down tonight and thought I'd post a blog and a few pics. The trip was wonderful and the 'test' that was to be if we'd be compatible to spend a whole 9 days together - well we passed with flying colors! It truly was so natural, lovely, wonderful - we laughed, had fun, relaxed a... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 21:59:04 EST Vacation Alert! Offline until April 11th <img src=""> <BR> Checking that all is in place at work here too to make sure things run smoothly. As the admin and office 'go to' person - I like to make sure my team is taken care of. <BR> <BR> Not sad to leave this yuck weather we had this morning - snow and freezing rain - changing to rain by lunch. I hope that by the time I come back all the snow will be gone and the nicer weather here to stay. <BR> <BR> We fly out of Ottawa at 7... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 10:19:59 EST April 1st - New Beginnings - New Adventures! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Love new months and this one in particular is kind of like a 'NEW' year with so many great possibilities ahead! At work it's the beginning of a New fiscal year. In my life - well I begin a new adventure - now in a relationship and <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'm feeling extremely blessed and gratef... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 08:03:06 EST One Day at a Time <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is something I need to continually remind myself of... because despite the best laid out 'long term' plans - we can only do with TODAY. <BR> <BR> I had plans to do a weekend challenge and that fell through. So I have today - and was going to workout this morning but felt a bit nauseous so skipped it. I'm still feeling the cold/flu symptoms.... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 09:01:19 EST One Week to Cuba!! By this time next Friday I'll be in Toronto getting ready to board my plane to get to Cayo Santa Maria in Cuba!! <BR> <BR> I am at the tail end of this nasty cold - coughing a lot the past 2 days (hopefully it will be all cleared up by next Friday). I am pleased to report that I did my morning workouts every day this week - even when I was tired - I pushed through and happy I did. I got my strength training in Mon-Wed-Fri and cardio Tue-Thu. I am going to follow this Weekend Weight Loss Chal... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 08:44:04 EST My Size - My Comfort - Accepting me in the Now <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 9 days away for my trip to Cuba... and NO my weight is not down to where I had hoped but I am accepting what is and I am going to make the most of it. <BR> <BR> I found a bathing suit that I will be comfortable in as I'll be mostly living in it for the time I'm away - I actually LOVE it and couldn't believe that it was the first one I tried on. T... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 07:39:33 EST Big Milestones... Big Celebrations... Feeling Love and Gratitude <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I am feeling on TOP of the world today and feeling so VERY grateful for all the <em>345</em> things in my life! <BR> <BR> Despite the issues of difficulties with my daughter - which are kind of the norm now, the bad cold and sore mouth from a broken tooth - TODAY - I am feeling so amazing that I had to share/blog because I feel like I'm going ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 11:42:12 EST Happy St-Patrick's Day - Lucky 17!! Well it's ironic and LUCKY for me... it's the 17th and I have 17 days until I leave for Cuba!! <BR> <BR> I ended up going to the pharmacy yesterday and bought some canker sore orajel stuff for the sore under my tongue and found some ortho wax which is normally used for people who wear braces to soothe irritations and I covered the 'rough' tooth so it's bearable until I see the dentist. Sadly - it's my first visit with him (I have neglected this since I moved to Ottawa and had not found a new... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 07:14:18 EST Mouth Pain... Maybe this mouth pain will allow me to lose some weight finally lol... I have to have a sense of humor about it but MAN it hurts! I lost a filling from one of my back lower molars and its sharp edge has cut into my tongue making it difficult for me to talk and eat. Add insult to injury I also had a cold/sore throat... It was not a fun weekend. Cancelled plans because I couldn't even think of being with my guy friend... <BR> <BR> I am grateful though that it happened now and not while I was ... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 12:00:24 EST Breathe... and Meditate <img src=""> <BR> Great affirmation for today... Another good AF day... thankful for the gorgeous weather. Grateful to have had the ability to leave early to go see my doctor ... got my 2nd Twinrix shot for the travel (and my guy friend paid for it)... I went to pay for my daughter's contacts. Decided to invite my friend over so we hung out after work - I made dinner for him and we enjoyed a nice few hours together... <BR> <BR> I exerci... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 21:33:34 EST Take a Walk - Not a Pill <img src=""> <BR> There was a definite theme in the affirmations I was drawn to today... The one above drove me to take back my walk at lunch and I introduced for the first time a walk home from a further bus station to my home (so a total of 75 minutes of walking today). <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="htt... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 20:05:15 EST Accepting What IS! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Thank you SP Friends for reminding me about this... I have this mentality where I 'count down' to everything and it's simply not working. As a matter of fact - the more I push myself with time limits to do this or that by this date or that time, the more I distance myself from... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 07:25:11 EST 30 Days to Cuba!! We got our etickets by email yesterday ... this trip is for REAL and I need to get my bootie bootcamped into shape! Seriously - I was at 188lbs this morning - highest weight for me since my pregnancy time - 14 years ago!! <BR> <BR> I know the stress of life of late has a huge affect on this as I've been coping with eating/drinking and just in a bad way into habits that are simply not healthy for me (mind or body). <BR> <BR> So I have 30 days ... to take it one day at a time to make changes... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 05:56:33 EST Checking in... I'm still trying to muster up my energy levels after a difficult weekend. I also have my 'monthly visitor' making its appearance and with my body adjusting to the whole peri-menopause stage - I'm really feeling it. I was in bed last night at 6pm - just so drained/exhausted. I woke up at 10 till 11 and was back in bed. <BR> <BR> I start the day with good intentions. I did my workout this morning and thinking of things I'd like to do tonight but it's just past 1pm and I'm feeling tired again. ... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 13:30:44 EST Prayer for my Daughter... <img src=""> <BR> Last night - I was out with my guy friend... and I read some disturbing texts from my daughter... She asked when I was coming home and said she was not feeling well... Then she told me that she had taken a handful of pills... and that she was feeling worse and worse. I was an hour away so I had to call 911 to get the paramedics to get there before me... and they did. They checked her and brought her in to the children's h... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 14:52:27 EST Happy New "Chinese" Year - Year of the Sheep <img src=""> <BR> I've been MIA on SP the past little while - slightly overwhelmed with 'life' and needed to take a step back. I was off sick Thursday and Friday last week and the flu lasted till the early hours of Saturday morning. <BR> <BR> The meeting last week with my daughter's team from school was stressful. The night before I had 'dealings' with my oldest. Then my youngest was dealing with online harassment through Facebook as s... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 09:26:05 EST February Blues No More... Please I have been home sick with another flu bug - decided to help out a friend to watch their little one on Monday and turns out I must have caught the bug. Was sick on Wednesday afternoon through the night - stayed home yesterday and today woke to hear my daughter getting sick at 3am. My belly is still not great. <BR> <BR> My guy friend is a sweetheart though - he had planned to get these delivered to my work but they came to me at home yesterday and brightened my day... <BR> <img src="http://p... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 05:58:10 EST Positive Affirmations <img src=""> <BR> Every morning I begin my day with positive affirmations/readings. I start every day off with a mindset that it's fresh and new - and clear to make of it what I will. <BR> <BR> I managed to get my morning workout in yesterday but didn't have the energy this morning so my intention is to get to one in tonight. I find making a plan helps - I know I have to pick up a few things from the store in preparation for meal making... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 08:22:06 EST Walk This Way... One Step at a Time... <img src=""> <BR> Here's me and my hero - three year old Leukemia Fighter - Maya!! <BR> <BR> I sit here on a Sunday night feeling like I need to take a step forward again towards the 'light' if you will. I wrote about my fears... and yet I now write about this blessing... <BR> <BR> When you meet someone like this little princess - it gives you perspective on life. It's been an interesting weekend. I had my lovely ladies group on Saturd... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 19:28:53 EST Fearing Change <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I sit here tonight trying to figure out why I am doing so much emotional eating and drinking. I am today - probably heavier than I have been in over 10 years and it frustrates me to no end! <BR> <BR> WHY is this happening? I have really GOOD things going on in my life... but yet I still have major stressors going on too. I have this fear of chang... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 22:02:26 EST World Cancer Day 2015 <img src=""> <BR> February 4th - World Cancer Day... and here I am with the greatest warrior - Maya - who will be 3 years old next month and fighting leukemia! She's my HERO!! Despite all the pokes and tests... here she is smiling away... because she's a trooper!! She sure gives me perspective on 'not sweating the small stuff'... Life is precious - every moment is... never take one for granted! <BR> <BR> She came to visit me today (at wor... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 20:20:06 EST New Ideas for Valetine's Day Dates... I LOVE the women's group that I continue to attend ... and the events that they allow me to be a part of... the next being the 'ducklings manifesto' outing to go check out the movie 50 Shades of Gray on the 15th... check out some other cool 'sexy' ideas for Valentine's Day <link><BR>te-night-ideas-2015/ </link> <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is my guy friend's bday and I got him a card and we are going together to the event on the 15th... and I am making him lasag... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 22:04:33 EST 2 - 2 - Same message as yesterday ... Faith! <img src=""> <BR> Interesting following the angel reading/prediction for the week and then this picture today. <BR> <BR> Today was a good day despite a bit of a slow start. I didn't manage to workout in the morning (my elbow is still really bothering me) - but I did just now find a cure I'm going to try (a castor oil compress - and I'm all about natural cures). Most of what I've read said to do exercises after 2 to 3 weeks rest and when ... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 19:48:15 EST Keep the Faith <img src=""> <BR> Here was Doreen Virtue's weekly oracle reading... and I do believe it's a message for me... <BR> This week is lighter than last week, thank goodness! The week begins on a Midas touch positive note. You've got the green light, so go forward now. Mid-week through the weekend, beware of any tendency to self-sabotage your progress. Know that you deserve to receive, and it's okay to allow success and happiness into your life... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 08:41:35 EST Feeling Determined Yet Flexible in My Approach Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach. <BR> ~ Tony Robbins <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 70 days to my trip... and I am determined to hit my monthly goal! I'm now 2lbs away from 170Ville (at 181 thi... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 07:09:40 EST Trip is BOOKED!! 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