SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's SparkPeople Blog SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Moving in 30 Days!! A floor plan of my new digs... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My ticker is set to counting down to 'move day' and I'm at 30 days today! And despite the feelings that come when one has to move - I'm now starting to look at it more positively. <BR> <BR> Last night my daughter and I went browsing through IKEA to get her a new bed frame and to get ideas for decorating. Then we went to see at Leon's for a new couch/loveseat. I had considered a sect... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 12:00:44 EST Re-Writing Your Own Story <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Thank you to all who responded with such love and compassion to my post yesterday - I cherish all of you my SP friends and I am feeling better today. <BR> <BR> I found a 'physical' reason for my recent emotional lows in that I just started my cycle after not having it since March 21st. Major hormone shift and adjustment leading up to it I gather ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 08:58:40 EST Depression and Anxiety <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I have throughout my life battled my own bouts of depression and anxiety... My most recent one having been the last three days - whereby I have been unable to sleep well and whereby I have simply again withdrawn from everything. <BR> <BR> Today is my first day back - again pulling myself out of this darkness - back into the light. I know the reas... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 05:24:25 EST Accomplishments... In a world where we so often notice the things we haven't done - I decided it's time to list some of the things I am accomplishing... I have been meaning to take a jewelry class for ages and finally went to one last night - this was my first try at it. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> With regards to my certification - I finished all three modules for Word 2010 and received my certificates this week. By tomorrow I will have finished all 3 modules ... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 15:25:25 EST Balancing Priorities - Without a Healthy Body Where Would We Be? <img src=""> <BR> When it boils down to it - TOP priority in our health journey is treating our body well - including eating wholesome natural non-processed foods as well as providing it with adequate activity to keep us moving. <BR> <BR> In the busy'ness of every day life stressors, we tend to forego these basic principles - allowing stress or emotional eating/drinking to take over as an easy out. <BR> <BR> Think of the last time you... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 12:08:57 EST I am NOT Powerless! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> These past few weeks I've been exploring programs that observe the 12 steps - and I must say I'm having a very hard time accepting step 1 in saying that I am powerless - because I don't believe I am. To say so, in my mind, means giving up my power and I simply can't do that. <BR> <img src=""> ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 07:42:16 EST Just For Today... <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Planning can be a good thing - but it can also be overwhelming when we take on too much. This has been the case for me in that I launched my intentions into doing this 90 day challenge which included MANY things I wanted to change or improve upon and it felt like it was just too much given the other stuff I'm also facing with an upcoming move again... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 07:19:11 EST It's BUSY Times I realized I haven't blogged in a couple of days. Things sure are picking up in my life with my volunteer role as President for my association and other things I'm working on. I'm pushing to get my work done to obtain my certification and pushing to get through my workbooks before my birthday. <BR> <BR> What I have left to the side is the BIG 90 day challenge I setup for myself because it's just too much pressure right now while I work through other priorities in my life - like my upcoming ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:54:53 EST When Depression Strikes... RIP Robin Williams <img src=""> <BR> Mental health issues have been at the forefront of my own family - with my daughters and through my own periods of highs and lows... Hearing of Robin Williams apparent suicide following severe depression makes me realize how we are so not alone in this. <BR> <BR> It also makes me realize that the challenge to stay positive is never ending. Hearing news like this - to have such a talented soul take his own life breaks m... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 20:54:29 EST 4 Steps to Overcome a Lack of Discipline I got this post from Osha and wanted to share here because it's something I really needed to read and wanted it stored with my blogs to look over again when I need it most... <BR> <BR> Here's her website if you want more of her info: <link> </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. FORGET WILLPOWER <BR> <BR> The problem is that we often rely on our willpower. But there's only a limited amount of willpower we have... When it runs out, we fall off the wagon. <BR> <BR> Whenev... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 15:50:56 EST Tales from the Scale <img src=""> <BR> This morning was my weigh in day and from last Friday's weigh in I have lost 6lbs. While this looks great - it's the weight that I regained and thus I knew the first 10lbs would go relatively quickly. I'm still in 170ville (I am down to 174lbs this morning). The thing to take note of is that I have not been in the 170s this long for years. I was for 2 to 3 years in a range of 166lbs and right now that's where I'm working... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 07:42:17 EST Soulmate Secret - Painting <img src=""> <BR> A few years ago I read Arielle Ford's Soulmate Secret <link><BR>st-Love-Attraction/dp/006169696X/ref=s<BR>r_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1407460642&sr=8-1&ke<BR>ywords=arielle+ford </link> <BR> <BR> Part of the book talked about preparing your 'space' to make room for the new (my move and purging) as well as putting paintings that reflected that which you were seeking (rather than having 'alon... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 21:22:35 EST 90 Day Challenge - Adjustment <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I have been going FULL force for the first 6 days and then today it hit me - I was TIRED... and realized that in order to succeed, I need to allow for some 'rest'. My body today needs that - I feel it in my muscles. I have completed 3 ST workouts and I did do my ab work this morning and 20mins of walking - but going to do my lower body ST tomorrow. ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 18:22:46 EST The Best Laid Plans Can Change... <img src=""> <BR> As a Virgo - I am the kind of person who likes to plan things and be organized and have things happen just a certain way. Over the years and through many experiences, I've learned to let go a bit of this personality trait and I am much more 'chill' when things don't go exactly as I'd planned. <BR> <BR> Take tonight for instance. I got home and thought I'd have another night to myself but my daughter started texting me ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 21:34:49 EST Back to Work! <img src=""> <BR> I must say that I finally feel like I'm back and focused on getting things done. For a while with all that was going on at home - I felt scattered and unable to really concentrate and get things done. I'm now using to do lists and while not each items gets check off right away (as I seem to pick up more to do's along the way that weren't on the list lol) - things ARE getting done. <BR> <BR> It will be really important... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 21:04:58 EST Day 4 of 90 Day Challenge A leisurely walk by Mooney's Bay and Hog's Back Falls <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Salad for dinner <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:20:57 EST Exercise is Medicine & To Do Lists are Healthy Too <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Today I managed to get in a total of 170 minutes of activity - above are the stats for my 3 walks - one alone this morning - another more leisurely one (25mins) and the last one with CHEFKATLEANER. I tried to wear it while doing my Jazzercise and Turbo Jam but it didn't seem t... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 20:03:22 EST 90 Day Challenge Goal/Vision Board & Move Update <img src=""> <BR> Well Day 2 of my challenge has been super productive. I woke up after a good night's rest. Read my affirmations and had breakfast. Then I headed out for a 45mins walk by the river. <BR> <BR> Oh - before I get into TODAY's day... an update!! I got the apartment I applied to get on Thursday! I am so grateful to the resident manager as she said she was 'going to bat' for me because there was a question about my past credit... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 21:14:23 EST BIG DAY - BIG CHANGES <img src=""> <BR> So today, by the time I get home from work, my daughter will have moved out. What will remain in her room will be the stuff she doesn't want. I'll be alone too as my youngest is still out with a friend. My plan is to stay busy - I will get a workout in as I wasn't able to get one in this morning. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The past month for me was truly paralyzing - b... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 13:30:01 EST It's My 8 Year SP Anniversary!!! WOW - I can't believe it's my 8 year SP anniversary... so much in my life has changed and I sit here at 1:07am writing this after a day that was - well ... not so great. <BR> <BR> I was in Milwaukee for my conference from July 25 to today ... I had to leave early as I was supposed to drop my daughter off to camp tomorrow morning - BUT that's not happening anymore <em>28</em> She spent the 5 days with the family while I was away with no incidents and for that I'm truly grateful - but she m... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 01:17:57 EST Success is a Lifestyle - Not a Result I took this number 5 from Marc and Angel's post today (if you want to read the rest of the great tips see this link <link><BR>hings-you-need-to-remind-yourself-of-w<BR>hen-you-wake-up/#more-766 </link> <BR> <BR> Success is a lifestyle, not a result. – We all want to achieve success, but we need to remember that success in not a specific achievement. Success is not crossing over some arbitrary finishing line. It’s the ability to fight the good fight da... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 07:35:53 EST Feeling so Ambivalent Well I'm back to work and now thinking that I may NOT move... After seeing the places I saw (they were old and dated compared to the nice and newly renovated place I'm in) and only a slight difference in cost - I may be able to re-work my budget and stay where I am. I can also look at renting a room out if need be. Things are just too unstable with my youngest and she's even talking/threatening to move out on me so I don't want to commit to a new lease for a year without knowing what will ha... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:11:38 EST Viewing New Places I went to view a place today and while it wasn't bad - the outside of the building wasn't great looking. There are other buildings they manage and I've setup another appointment tomorrow to go see it. I will say this - I am going to feel the change - it's not as new or nearly as nice as where I am right now - as this place was freshly renovated and I LOVED the kitchen and I won't have a dishwasher... BUT I will be near the water and closer to work and my daughter is happy as it's also closer ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 20:01:36 EST The WILL to Change It seems these days that change is all around me and while I embrace it - there are some areas of my life where I find my will to change is not where it should be. My mind has been completely pre-occupied these past couple of weeks on my family life - the challenges with my daughters, the pending move of my oldest and now the reality of having to also face downsizing and move again. <BR> <BR> As I have said - I have not lived in an apartment in over 2 decades and while I'm open to it - I kno... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 07:44:11 EST Moving Considerations So I took a 'drive by' of the place I thought would be great - walk to work and all and I just didn't get a good vibe nor did I like the look of the place - or similar unit/blocks around it so the search continues. <BR> <BR> While I want to be closer to work - and ideally be able to walk - I don't want to sacrifice other things. I'm going to widen my search - now considering a place by Mooney's Bay - near a few places I'd love to be close to - which involves WATER (Mooney's Bay beach and Ho... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 20:14:57 EST Symbols and Signs <img src=""> <BR> I am having a friend paint a 'lovers' painting to hang in my bedroom and above is this white moth that landed on the painting and stayed with her for an hour while she worked on my piece (I hope to receive it later this week). Given all that's been going on with me and now the pending move - I will not hang it until I am moved into my new space and I will completely redo my room around the colors from this painting. <B... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 11:45:31 EST Blessing in Disguise <img src=""> <BR> Well yesterday's thought about moving again was not welcome at first, but as the day went on and as I started thinking of the pros and cons, I do believe this might be a blessing in disguise. <BR> <BR> Moving closer to work will shorten my commute. Downsizing to an apartment will be tough as I have not lived in an apartment for over 20 years - and while I will miss some things - I'm trying to look at the bright side of... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 07:35:29 EST Moving Again?!? Well I never thought I'd be considering this again so soon - but with the news that my oldest will be moving out August 1st and with me losing her share of support when she turns 18 means I have some big decisions to consider. <BR> <BR> There's also the fact that the day treatment program my daughter will be attending in the Fall is on the other side of town and my work commute is 1 hour by bus. So I'm putting feelers out and I'm going to explore moving closer to my workplace to reduce my co... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 13:06:21 EST Look Deep Within I've been taking time out from the computer world and just coming back today... It's been an incredibly difficult week for me and I'm trying hard to come around. Today - it's rainy out and I'm going to spend time in my room listening to some meditative music, do some reading and some cleaning - maybe some cooking later on... <BR> <BR> I was cleaning out my inbox and found this card - which really does pinpoint exactly where I'm at. I love these Lotus Cards... <BR> <em>8</em> <em>8</em>... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 12:09:15 EST Breaking Down... <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I've felt this before - but perhaps this time it's even scarier as I swore I'd never be back here again. This weekend was truly heart wrenching with a major blow out on Saturday with my 13 year old - and I'm still recovering emotionally. <BR> <BR> I was ready to throw in the to... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 08:07:37 EST Borderline Personality Disorder I made a few calls today - first to the Children's Aid Society to clarify what had been said to me with respect to giving up my daughter to temporary care - which in my case, since she's not at risk of harm by me, would mean basically that I would be abandoning her because I couldn't handle it anymore (something that just breaks my heart to even think about). <BR> <BR> Then I called the Parents Lifeline of Eastern Ontario again and I have to say I need to call them more often. The person I s... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 21:00:40 EST Affirmations at Work... <img src=""> <BR> Life and every NEW day is definitely a blessing to be appreciated! <BR> <BR> It was back to work today and it felt good - especially since things cooled off and I managed to sleep a solid 5 hours - I know not a lot but in comparison to the previous 3 nights a blessing. <BR> <BR> The day flew by as it was my first day back since last Thursday. I am forever grateful for my workplace and amazing colleagues! <BR> <BR> I ... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 17:18:10 EST Staying Strong ... and Coping <img src=""> <BR> It's very heart wrenching that my 13 year old daughter is going through so much. Today was another day off for me - and I hoped to rest but spent it mostly still wound up about the event and talking with my oldest as we kind of debriefed together as she too is going through all of this. It's stressful for her too to hear and witness all of it. She often feels caught in the middle as my 13 year old will confide certain th... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 17:20:34 EST Overcoming Adversity <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Yesterday was quite a day for me. It started with my motivation on a high because of the new month but as the day progressed things became more challenging. <BR> <BR> More conflict and arguing with my kids. My own cravings to cave in on my resolve to abstain from alcohol for a while and then caving in - but to fast foods instead. I managed to turn... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 08:22:29 EST 30 Days to my 8 Year SP Anniversary! <img src=""> <BR> This SP quote is ME - as I weighed in and measured again - no big changes from last month and overall since the beginning of my journey here 8 years ago - I am down 12lbs. There was a time that I was down 30lbs but I regained some. But I'm not going to fret about this because I'm still here and will continue to be for a lifetime - because this is not a diet plan but a lifestyle!! <BR> <BR> SP has been a wonderful addit... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 07:55:43 EST Faith Will Bring Me Through This <img src=""> <BR> I am catholic - but I am not a church goer at this time in my life. I am very spiritual and truly do believe in the higher power, my angels, and yes God. I do not speak of it often but think of it daily and pray daily - to get me through these difficult times. <BR> <BR> I am also grateful that despite some very challenging times - I'm still blessed with many good things in my life. <BR> <BR> This past week has been an... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 09:27:47 EST Another Beautiful Grad Pic <img src=""> <BR> This picture was taken the night of the graduation dinner - it's even nicer than the package I purchased... her hair is longer and her smile... Gorgeous!! <BR> <BR> I am now off for the 'long' weekend and not back to work until Wed July 2nd. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling very tired and drained and need to re-energize and get my mojo back. I need to take stock of where I am at and where I need to go. I need to acknowledge how ... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 16:23:43 EST Cleanse and Healing <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I can't believe we are nearing the end of another month. With school officially ending and summer beginning - it's time to think of vacations and taking a break from routine. For me - it means re-adjusting to day to day dealings with how to manage my daughter and hopefully ge... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 10:17:32 EST Gift and Purpose <img src=""> <BR> My blogs and writing are my gifts back to the world. As I document my journey - my struggles and my successes, I allow others to see that they are not alone. I speak thoughts here - sometimes very personal - opening up my world to others, in the hopes that perhaps in doing so, I can help someone through their own struggles. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The choices we mak... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 08:29:20 EST Motivation is Lacking - The WHY my Resistance is Low <img src=""> <BR> I start the day off with good intentions... and then I get hit with the reality and heartaches that have been ongoing and my resistance get worn down... <BR> <BR> My girlfriend found this article that truly explains it well: <link><BR>l-decisions/201406/why-your-resistance<BR>-gets-low </link> <BR> <BR> I know it's not an excuse but I'm seriously just trying to survive these day... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 19:44:37 EST Acceptance <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Yesterday was good - while I didn't stay on track with my intentions - I am ok with what happened and accept where I'm at right now. I spent the morning cleaning out my daughter's room - finding things that hurt - showing the signs of her pain and issues... but it felt good to... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 09:54:24 EST Face the Truth - Coping.... <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I wake this morning feeling like I need to truly face some hard facts... I cannot move forward until I face some realities and that is that I have poor coping mechanisms at times when it comes to dealing... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 09:09:31 EST 10 Power Thoughts for a More Rewarding Life Louise Hay has been an incredible influence in my journey. It started with the book "You Can Heal Your Life" and now I live by positive affirmations and start every day with them and end each day by expressing that which I'm grateful for - it truly can change YOUR life!! <BR> <BR> These are power thoughts posted in a recent newsletter I received from Louise Hay. <BR> <BR> 1. I choose to feel good about myself each day. Every morning I remind myself that I can make the choice to feel good. ... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 08:25:55 EST A Graduation Gift... <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It was a nice evening last night... the pics above of all three girls and my daughter receiving her diploma. <BR> <BR> In the mail was an envelope sent by my sister's best friend, who since my sister pas... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 05:24:42 EST Graduation Day <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Tonight is my 17 year old's graduation dinner and I can't believe the day is HERE!! It's been a challenging road to arrive here - but tonight it will be celebrations of endings and new beginnings. <BR> <BR> While she is not sure what's next - education and learning is truly ... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 09:04:07 EST I had Good Intentions... <img src=""> <BR> The T from HALT was at play today BIG time - I am feeling so drained and tired from a week of about an average of 4 to 5 hours sleep... <BR> <BR> And so the mind goes... the hunger grows, the cravings are there and I cave in - to tired to fight it mentally and actually enjoying the comfort of just being. It's just the easy way out I know and it's not what is going to get me the results I want. <BR> <BR> My mind works ... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 17:39:28 EST The Countdown is ON! <img src=""> <BR> So many things are coming up in the next while and I need to get my FOCUS on!! <BR> <BR> Last night I was sworn in as the new president for our chapter effective July 1st to December 31, 2014 (ending early as the organization will be restructuring from chapters to branches so our chapter will dissolve in December/January). <BR> <BR> My daughter's graduation dinner is on Tuesday. <BR> <BR> My youngest has until Monda... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 07:51:38 EST 11-11-11 and Full Moon Friday the 13th <img src=""> <BR> I often look at my clock and 11 or the sequence as above which is a bit more rare shows up and I smile and think positive thoughts because I view it as a sign from my angels being with me. <BR> <BR> The other 'angel' sign I have is finding dimes everywhere - in the strangest places and at times when it's like I need the sign to know they are with me. <BR> <BR> Then there's this Friday... <BR> <img src="http://phot... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 14:20:11 EST Never EVER Quit! <img src=""> <BR> There are times when our progress seems slow or at a stand still - or even like it's going the wrong way - but one thing I've learned is to Never EVER Quit! If you've had a bad day - turn TODAY into a great one! What choices can you make today that will make it more successful. Better yet - what action plan do you have - what workout will you do, what will you eat/drink (or maybe more important what WON'T you eat/drink)... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 05:25:33 EST New Week! <img src=""> <BR> Last week was good in the exercise department. I did my ST Monday to Thursday alternating upper and lower body. I did well with nutrition... until Thursday rolled around and then I slipped off track again. <BR> <BR> I was successful in not weighing in every day - but was a bit disappointed that not ONE pound moved ... however, it's my own doing with too much indulging on the weekend. <BR> <BR> I was active with the... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 19:55:05 EST