SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SEPTEMBERSPIRIT SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ R'OCTOBER: New Month - New Beginnings - New Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790477 I am back to work today and it felt so good to get back to routine - even though the routine is now NEW. Taking the bus this morning was 'new' - a shorter route to work (it was dark this morning so I'll see it better going home tonight). <BR> <BR> The extra day off yesterday was super productive. I got more boxes unpacked (most of my kitchen is done) and my gf came over last night to help me build the bookcase I had to get (had a built in one at the other place) and hang some shelves and pi... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 14:06:39 EST 5 Rules for Turning Endings into New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789605 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1032930227.jpg"> <BR> How timely is this message ... another one that is too good NOT to share and keep in my blogs... from Marc and Hack Angel... <BR> <BR> From now on... <BR> <BR> 1. Change your mind. – Change is like breath; it isn’t part of the process, it is the process. In reality the only thing we can count on is change. And the first step toward positive change is to change your outlook. You are not your past losses and failu... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 09:12:26 EST Goodbye to the Old... Finally DONE moving out of the 'old' place... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789357 Well today started at 8am - I was stuck in traffic heading to the old place hoping to get the rest of what was left there. My daughter was with me this time. I decided to rent a truck because really to go back and forth with my car - and the distance - the amount of trips would have taken too much time and gas. So I rented another truck - a 10ft one this time and I was alone with my daughter to load it. There were a few heavy pieces and she took A LOT of breaks but we got it done. Her gf came... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 21:46:12 EST Commit and Conquer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788243 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l635400902.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l604631752.jpg"> <BR> The move was the most work I've done in all my moves. With few hands and a tight time slot... it was a stressful day but overall it went well. I slept for the first night alone in the new place and woke just after 5am to start all over again. I've already cleared boxes to at least put them in the appropriate area. I have a few more car loads to do a... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 07:23:45 EST Letting Go... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787486 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l649642949.jpg"> <BR> How ironic that this was today's affirmation... I am EXHAUSTED!! I woke up in the middle of the night - around 1:30am and started packing until 4 and then slept till 7 and started again. Now I'm drained and thinking I need a nap to get up and do more. <BR> <BR> I have one extra lady helping me tomorrow and I'm praying things go well. <BR> <BR> My oldest daughter has been texting me about some of her 'stuff' and it's ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 16:56:14 EST A New You! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786534 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1575132314.jpg"> <BR> From the Daily Motivator... perfect message for me and I'm sure for other too... <BR> <BR> If you’re stuck, you don’t have to be. If you’re weary, disappointed or unmotivated, you don’t have to be. <BR> <BR> You can change, and you can make that change for the better. You can transform your thoughts, your perspective, your direction, your possibilities and your life. <BR> <BR> Every moment, a new you is being born. ... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 04:50:06 EST Transitions - Life Begins at the End of Your Comfort Zone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786067 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1959216008.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1341822757.jpg"> <BR> The only constant in life truly is change. After today, I'll be off work until the move is done/complete. I'm excited, nervous, happy, scared, positive, and anxious... <BR> <BR> In addition to the home 'move' - so many other things are transitioning. My oldest is experiencing some difficult times with her new living situation - to a point where ... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 10:48:26 EST 99 Days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785441 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l65673057.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l744655425.jpg"> <BR> It's all about making EVERY DAY count. I changed my ticker to focus back on the nearest thing on my horizon... MOVE day!! I'm psyching myself now - and going to make it great! We have 99 days left in 2014 folks! Today is the first day of autumn (my favorite season with all its beautiful colors). <BR> <BR> I managed to get quite a few boxes packed l... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 12:00:47 EST Six of Swords (Tarot Cards) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784491 This card was delivered to me and the description of it all ... so on point with everything I'm going through right now with the move coming up... <BR> <BR> The six of swords calls today to set you free! The six of swords is a card of release, of moving to a higher vibration, of letting go of the past, and finding the light within. This card reminds you that all of life has been preparing you for this moment. The six of swords speaks to the sadness of letting go, of giving up the thoughts of... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 05:24:03 EST 1 Week Away From the MOVE / Treated Myself to a Hair Color/Cut/Style http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783555 Next Saturday - by this time - I should be at my new place unloading my stuff... Right now I just got back from the hairdressers to treat myself to a color and style (went with more low lights and some highlights - going all 'one' color is too much maintenance). Everyone loves when I straighten my hair - and I like it too... but don't want to do it every day as I believe it would damage it too much. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l641508678.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 14:33:32 EST 12 Promises You Should Make to Yourself and Keep Forever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782125 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1664620310.jpg"> <BR> This one was TOO GOOD - had to share!! <BR> <BR> Life is not all rainbows and butterflies. It can be tough sometimes. And you’ve paid a heavy price to get this far, so the best option is to really make it count by moving forward from where you are. Free yourself from the world’s negativity – from the sources of ignorance telling you what you can and cannot do – by promising to look ahead, to live ahead, and to get a... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 07:23:56 EST Letting Go - Taking a Break... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781656 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l668535365.jpg"> <BR> For the rest of this month I have to let go of my goals around diet/exercise. I need to take some pressure off - and simply focus on one day at a time - with work, my move prep, my volunteer stuff and somehow get some balance and insert some FUN in there. <BR> <BR> I've been so busy that I haven't been able to visit with my 'friends' as much and it's making me grouchy. There are also a couple who were rude or just turne... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 13:08:53 EST Go With The Flow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781158 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l87945952.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l885364538.jpg"> <BR> I am resigning to allow life to flow these next two weeks. I am done trying to 'control' things and I'm going allow things to flow as they will. <BR> <BR> It's liberating to do this - and it's something I need to practice more in my life. I need to let go of the "Virgo" in me who wants to know every detail, step... Life HAPPENS... I'm not perfect b... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 18:21:02 EST I Got This!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777515 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1245803177.jpg"> <BR> Day 2 with my daughter back to school. In thinking of the trials and challenges we went through last year - we've come a long way and I see possibilities for positive changes. <BR> <BR> She ended up reaching her friend and I allowed her to spend time with him and she was very grateful and felt very relieved that he was ok. She has been much more appreciative and expressing gratitude these days which is nice. There are ... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 21:42:39 EST Having Faith... in Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776779 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1723843475.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l213054170.jpg"> <BR> Progress is progress... <BR> <BR> My daughter had her first day today ... while I had to drive her in because the transportation didn't show up - she went and she for the first time left the house without her hat as it's not allowed at school (an issue she has about not liking how she looks / her hair). <BR> <BR> She was only there a half day as... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 19:40:08 EST Setting a NEW Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775847 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l955455287.jpg"> <BR> In our lives, we are constantly setting goals for ourselves in every area of our lives. My most recent one was to obtain my certification and that's been accomplished. My next big one is my move day - September 27th which means I have to get down to business and no more procrastination. <BR> <BR> With the stress of the recent life changes I've been living - with my oldest moving out and adjusting the home life to having... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 12:07:12 EST Certification Received! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773857 I received confirmation that I am the 36th person in the entire international association to obtain my Technology Applications specialty certification!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I set this goal and wanted it done by my birthday and despite the other challenges I'm dealing with I got it done!! <BR> <BR> Now the next goal in my life is to continue with the de-cluttering at home and packing in preparation for my move. <BR> <BR> On the health front - I need to get my focus back on my ST and... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 09:20:02 EST Grateful to SP and Friends for the Birthday Wishes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772624 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l649864517.jpg"> <BR> I love how SP sends this wonderful message on my birthday and <BR> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> to all my SP for the notes, messages and goodies! I'm so grateful for my online friends because - frankly my own kids haven't even acknowledged it. <BR> <BR> I truly am looking at making the years count and not counting the years... I truly believe that this part of my life going forward is going the be the ... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 12:26:51 EST Adjusting my Sails http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771764 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l104080735.jpg"> <BR> I updated my SparkPage to show my weight loss ticker again. I had been avoiding it because of where I'm at. There was a point when I was down 30lbs from the start and now I'm back up with 7lbs lost since the start of this journey... but alas, there's no looking back and I'm re-adjusting my goals (sails) to better navigate forward to the destination I am after - a HEALTHIER, leaner and more toned body! <BR> <BR> While th... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 10:00:06 EST New Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770919 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l852030140.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l938263480.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1388616867.jpg"> <BR> I love new beginnings and every day is just that - an opportunity to start fresh. Turning the calendar page this month is even more exciting as there are many things coming up ... tomorrow I bring my daughter for another appointment at the school and she will hopefully start ... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 07:27:07 EST Moving in 30 Days!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768703 A floor plan of my new digs... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/8/l486476365.jpg"> <BR> My ticker is set to counting down to 'move day' and I'm at 30 days today! And despite the feelings that come when one has to move - I'm now starting to look at it more positively. <BR> <BR> Last night my daughter and I went browsing through IKEA to get her a new bed frame and to get ideas for decorating. Then we went to see at Leon's for a new couch/loveseat. I had considered a sect... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 12:00:44 EST Re-Writing Your Own Story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767925 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1795197456.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l692328259.jpg"> <BR> Thank you to all who responded with such love and compassion to my post yesterday - I cherish all of you my SP friends and I am feeling better today. <BR> <BR> I found a 'physical' reason for my recent emotional lows in that I just started my cycle after not having it since March 21st. Major hormone shift and adjustment leading up to it I gather ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 08:58:40 EST Depression and Anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767111 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l665514693.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1677322645.jpg"> <BR> I have throughout my life battled my own bouts of depression and anxiety... My most recent one having been the last three days - whereby I have been unable to sleep well and whereby I have simply again withdrawn from everything. <BR> <BR> Today is my first day back - again pulling myself out of this darkness - back into the light. I know the reas... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 05:24:25 EST Accomplishments... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763675 In a world where we so often notice the things we haven't done - I decided it's time to list some of the things I am accomplishing... I have been meaning to take a jewelry class for ages and finally went to one last night - this was my first try at it. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l656011973.jpg"> <BR> With regards to my certification - I finished all three modules for Word 2010 and received my certificates this week. By tomorrow I will have finished all 3 modules ... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 15:25:25 EST Balancing Priorities - Without a Healthy Body Where Would We Be? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762877 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1684894357.jpg"> <BR> When it boils down to it - TOP priority in our health journey is treating our body well - including eating wholesome natural non-processed foods as well as providing it with adequate activity to keep us moving. <BR> <BR> In the busy'ness of every day life stressors, we tend to forego these basic principles - allowing stress or emotional eating/drinking to take over as an easy out. <BR> <BR> Think of the last time you... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 12:08:57 EST I am NOT Powerless! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761257 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l314164181.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1888396555.jpg"> <BR> These past few weeks I've been exploring programs that observe the 12 steps - and I must say I'm having a very hard time accepting step 1 in saying that I am powerless - because I don't believe I am. To say so, in my mind, means giving up my power and I simply can't do that. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l881108283.jpg"> ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 07:42:16 EST Just For Today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760710 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1480782494.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l792445887.jpg"> <BR> Planning can be a good thing - but it can also be overwhelming when we take on too much. This has been the case for me in that I launched my intentions into doing this 90 day challenge which included MANY things I wanted to change or improve upon and it felt like it was just too much given the other stuff I'm also facing with an upcoming move again... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 07:19:11 EST It's BUSY Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759604 I realized I haven't blogged in a couple of days. Things sure are picking up in my life with my volunteer role as President for my association and other things I'm working on. I'm pushing to get my work done to obtain my certification and pushing to get through my workbooks before my birthday. <BR> <BR> What I have left to the side is the BIG 90 day challenge I setup for myself because it's just too much pressure right now while I work through other priorities in my life - like my upcoming ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:54:53 EST When Depression Strikes... RIP Robin Williams http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757816 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1266021032.jpg"> <BR> Mental health issues have been at the forefront of my own family - with my daughters and through my own periods of highs and lows... Hearing of Robin Williams apparent suicide following severe depression makes me realize how we are so not alone in this. <BR> <BR> It also makes me realize that the challenge to stay positive is never ending. Hearing news like this - to have such a talented soul take his own life breaks m... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 20:54:29 EST 4 Steps to Overcome a Lack of Discipline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756977 I got this post from Osha and wanted to share here because it's something I really needed to read and wanted it stored with my blogs to look over again when I need it most... <BR> <BR> Here's her website if you want more of her info: <link>www.becomethebestofyou.com </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. FORGET WILLPOWER <BR> <BR> The problem is that we often rely on our willpower. But there's only a limited amount of willpower we have... When it runs out, we fall off the wagon. <BR> <BR> Whenev... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 15:50:56 EST Tales from the Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755567 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l985565750.jpg"> <BR> This morning was my weigh in day and from last Friday's weigh in I have lost 6lbs. While this looks great - it's the weight that I regained and thus I knew the first 10lbs would go relatively quickly. I'm still in 170ville (I am down to 174lbs this morning). The thing to take note of is that I have not been in the 170s this long for years. I was for 2 to 3 years in a range of 166lbs and right now that's where I'm working... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 07:42:17 EST Soulmate Secret - Painting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755355 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l566987337.jpg"> <BR> A few years ago I read Arielle Ford's Soulmate Secret <link>www.amazon.ca/Soulmate-Secret-Manife<BR>st-Love-Attraction/dp/006169696X/ref=s<BR>r_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1407460642&sr=8-1&ke<BR>ywords=arielle+ford </link> <BR> <BR> Part of the book talked about preparing your 'space' to make room for the new (my move and purging) as well as putting paintings that reflected that which you were seeking (rather than having 'alon... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 21:22:35 EST 90 Day Challenge - Adjustment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755277 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1621291672.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l88753120.jpg"> <BR> I have been going FULL force for the first 6 days and then today it hit me - I was TIRED... and realized that in order to succeed, I need to allow for some 'rest'. My body today needs that - I feel it in my muscles. I have completed 3 ST workouts and I did do my ab work this morning and 20mins of walking - but going to do my lower body ST tomorrow. ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 18:22:46 EST The Best Laid Plans Can Change... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754682 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1577093658.jpg"> <BR> As a Virgo - I am the kind of person who likes to plan things and be organized and have things happen just a certain way. Over the years and through many experiences, I've learned to let go a bit of this personality trait and I am much more 'chill' when things don't go exactly as I'd planned. <BR> <BR> Take tonight for instance. I got home and thought I'd have another night to myself but my daughter started texting me ... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 21:34:49 EST Back to Work! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753899 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1521971868.jpg"> <BR> I must say that I finally feel like I'm back and focused on getting things done. For a while with all that was going on at home - I felt scattered and unable to really concentrate and get things done. I'm now using to do lists and while not each items gets check off right away (as I seem to pick up more to do's along the way that weren't on the list lol) - things ARE getting done. <BR> <BR> It will be really important... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 21:04:58 EST Day 4 of 90 Day Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753198 A leisurely walk by Mooney's Bay and Hog's Back Falls <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l823814589.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1238279466.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1251019305.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1863971468.jpg"> <BR> Salad for dinner <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l476318286.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:20:57 EST Exercise is Medicine & To Do Lists are Healthy Too http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752448 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l140151389.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l956533303.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1063971250.jpg"> <BR> Today I managed to get in a total of 170 minutes of activity - above are the stats for my 3 walks - one alone this morning - another more leisurely one (25mins) and the last one with CHEFKATLEANER. I tried to wear it while doing my Jazzercise and Turbo Jam but it didn't seem t... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 20:03:22 EST 90 Day Challenge Goal/Vision Board & Move Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751891 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l752756033.jpg"> <BR> Well Day 2 of my challenge has been super productive. I woke up after a good night's rest. Read my affirmations and had breakfast. Then I headed out for a 45mins walk by the river. <BR> <BR> Oh - before I get into TODAY's day... an update!! I got the apartment I applied to get on Thursday! I am so grateful to the resident manager as she said she was 'going to bat' for me because there was a question about my past credit... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 21:14:23 EST BIG DAY - BIG CHANGES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751106 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1843456397.jpg"> <BR> So today, by the time I get home from work, my daughter will have moved out. What will remain in her room will be the stuff she doesn't want. I'll be alone too as my youngest is still out with a friend. My plan is to stay busy - I will get a workout in as I wasn't able to get one in this morning. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l720082754.jpg"> <BR> The past month for me was truly paralyzing - b... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 13:30:01 EST It's My 8 Year SP Anniversary!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750079 WOW - I can't believe it's my 8 year SP anniversary... so much in my life has changed and I sit here at 1:07am writing this after a day that was - well ... not so great. <BR> <BR> I was in Milwaukee for my conference from July 25 to today ... I had to leave early as I was supposed to drop my daughter off to camp tomorrow morning - BUT that's not happening anymore <em>28</em> She spent the 5 days with the family while I was away with no incidents and for that I'm truly grateful - but she m... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 01:17:57 EST Success is a Lifestyle - Not a Result http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745474 I took this number 5 from Marc and Angel's post today (if you want to read the rest of the great tips see this link <link>www.marcandangel.com/2014/07/23/12-t<BR>hings-you-need-to-remind-yourself-of-w<BR>hen-you-wake-up/#more-766 </link> <BR> <BR> Success is a lifestyle, not a result. – We all want to achieve success, but we need to remember that success in not a specific achievement. Success is not crossing over some arbitrary finishing line. It’s the ability to fight the good fight da... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 07:35:53 EST Feeling so Ambivalent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743455 Well I'm back to work and now thinking that I may NOT move... After seeing the places I saw (they were old and dated compared to the nice and newly renovated place I'm in) and only a slight difference in cost - I may be able to re-work my budget and stay where I am. I can also look at renting a room out if need be. Things are just too unstable with my youngest and she's even talking/threatening to move out on me so I don't want to commit to a new lease for a year without knowing what will ha... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 13:11:38 EST Viewing New Places http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742305 I went to view a place today and while it wasn't bad - the outside of the building wasn't great looking. There are other buildings they manage and I've setup another appointment tomorrow to go see it. I will say this - I am going to feel the change - it's not as new or nearly as nice as where I am right now - as this place was freshly renovated and I LOVED the kitchen and I won't have a dishwasher... BUT I will be near the water and closer to work and my daughter is happy as it's also closer ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 20:01:36 EST The WILL to Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741284 It seems these days that change is all around me and while I embrace it - there are some areas of my life where I find my will to change is not where it should be. My mind has been completely pre-occupied these past couple of weeks on my family life - the challenges with my daughters, the pending move of my oldest and now the reality of having to also face downsizing and move again. <BR> <BR> As I have said - I have not lived in an apartment in over 2 decades and while I'm open to it - I kno... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 07:44:11 EST Moving Considerations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740322 So I took a 'drive by' of the place I thought would be great - walk to work and all and I just didn't get a good vibe nor did I like the look of the place - or similar unit/blocks around it so the search continues. <BR> <BR> While I want to be closer to work - and ideally be able to walk - I don't want to sacrifice other things. I'm going to widen my search - now considering a place by Mooney's Bay - near a few places I'd love to be close to - which involves WATER (Mooney's Bay beach and Ho... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 20:14:57 EST Symbols and Signs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740048 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1507101213.jpg"> <BR> I am having a friend paint a 'lovers' painting to hang in my bedroom and above is this white moth that landed on the painting and stayed with her for an hour while she worked on my piece (I hope to receive it later this week). Given all that's been going on with me and now the pending move - I will not hang it until I am moved into my new space and I will completely redo my room around the colors from this painting. <B... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 11:45:31 EST Blessing in Disguise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739138 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1238439722.jpg"> <BR> Well yesterday's thought about moving again was not welcome at first, but as the day went on and as I started thinking of the pros and cons, I do believe this might be a blessing in disguise. <BR> <BR> Moving closer to work will shorten my commute. Downsizing to an apartment will be tough as I have not lived in an apartment for over 20 years - and while I will miss some things - I'm trying to look at the bright side of... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 07:35:29 EST Moving Again?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738653 Well I never thought I'd be considering this again so soon - but with the news that my oldest will be moving out August 1st and with me losing her share of support when she turns 18 means I have some big decisions to consider. <BR> <BR> There's also the fact that the day treatment program my daughter will be attending in the Fall is on the other side of town and my work commute is 1 hour by bus. So I'm putting feelers out and I'm going to explore moving closer to my workplace to reduce my co... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 13:06:21 EST Look Deep Within http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737887 I've been taking time out from the computer world and just coming back today... It's been an incredibly difficult week for me and I'm trying hard to come around. Today - it's rainy out and I'm going to spend time in my room listening to some meditative music, do some reading and some cleaning - maybe some cooking later on... <BR> <BR> I was cleaning out my inbox and found this card - which really does pinpoint exactly where I'm at. I love these Lotus Cards... <BR> <em>8</em> <em>8</em>... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 12:09:15 EST Breaking Down... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734355 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l702646851.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l80222048.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l21195235.jpg"> <BR> I've felt this before - but perhaps this time it's even scarier as I swore I'd never be back here again. This weekend was truly heart wrenching with a major blow out on Saturday with my 13 year old - and I'm still recovering emotionally. <BR> <BR> I was ready to throw in the to... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 08:07:37 EST