SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SEPTEMBERSPIRIT SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Celebrating and Reflecting on my 9 Year SP Anniversary! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969602 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0c2dcea5-87d2-4ee1-9022-1c7cd6166d2e.jpg"> <BR> I joined SP on July 31, 2006. In looking back on my SP page - I see my blogs go back to 2008 (I'm not sure how long SP keeps them in the archives but it's interesting to go back and sometimes randomly pick old blogs to see where I was and how far I've come). <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3f29a47d-9ac6-4f4b-b311-24969ada9297.JPG"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.spar... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 07:37:57 EST New Spark Team! Cize it up baby! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969393 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/95413388-ddfc-4d82-a115-4ce03620cea0.jpg"> <BR> I had SP friends ask if I'd run the 'mirror' accountability group here on SP and so I created my very first SP team from scratch. I have been leader on teams - but had never started one from scratch so this is a FIRST for me (and tomorrow's my 9 year SP Anniversary - how fitting). <BR> <BR> While the description for the group is for lovers of the program (as I saw there were other teams who were ... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 20:44:25 EST Putting myself out there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968913 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6cb431cc-abff-4744-8567-6ba99712907e.jpg"> <BR> I'm going for it ... putting myself out there more beyond SP... For those who are interested you can join in... I know not everyone does Facebook, but I'd love to connect with you there. <BR> <BR> Hope to see you there! If not - I'll be periodically posting here but my daily focus will be on the 'secret' group. <BR> <BR> <link>helenebbcoach.wordpress.com/2015/07/<BR>30/my-first-accountability-... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 22:50:25 EST Transformation in Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968514 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/49949d09-29ab-4c21-bfac-108dab60334b.JPG"> <BR> I am in 2015 even heavier than I was in 2007 as pictured above. In 2012 I successfully lost 30lbs and I know I can do it again! Over the years - life stressors have led to emotional eating/drinking. <BR> <BR> I joined SP on July 31, 2006 - coming up on 9 years and I am a 'transformation in progress' and vow to NEVER give up! <BR> <BR> I am re-committing - and as you see in the photo and the ye... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 09:24:44 EST One Year from Today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967817 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/de62991d-6fea-433e-9c73-adb226eb4e78.png"> <BR> Next year on this date I will be in Nashville attending my first Coach Summit! It is the DRIVE behind my new found motivation to recommit to losing the weight once and for all. <BR> <BR> On Monday August 3rd I'm starting a 'secret' group on Facebook - kind of my own little motivational 'FIT' Club. If you are interested in joining and on Facebook - just send me a message and I'll add you to the l... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 07:31:56 EST A Good Life Is... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965841 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/afcdb863-dabb-404f-b97e-437f0bcd2238.jpg"> <BR> Happy (extra HAPPY) Friday! Today's the day my bf gets the keys to his NEW house! It's so amazing because of how he's included me in the whole process. His lawyer even gave him a bottle of wine for us to celebrate for when he officially gets 'ownership' later today. <BR> <BR> My daughter will be coming with me to join in the celebration and this is truly special. The fact that she's open and acc... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 07:58:46 EST Re-Committed to my Workouts - Streak Day 13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5965016 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/27774a71-06be-4854-abec-a458a2f15075.jpg"> <BR> A pic of the trainers that are motivating me to workout out DAILY. Since July 10th I have workout out with one of their programs - mostly 21 Day Fix but I always go back to Turbo Jam (my first love Beachbody workout). And today, I did my first time workout with Shaun T and his new CIZE dance program. It was great - the first one was called Crazy 8's and he breaks it down so you can learn the moves... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 16:56:57 EST Periodic Check Ins... NEW VISION BOARD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963389 Hi SP friends! Thank you all for your kind comments and understanding. I'll still be peaking in as I continue to gather knowledge from all fronts. <BR> <BR> Today was pretty remarkable... I've completed my 9th straight day of the 21 Day Fix workouts - pushing play every single day. My wonderful BF allowed me to buy us tickets to the Coach Summit for 2016 (being held in Nashville again). So thrilled that I will be there ... and my vision board is all about reaching this dream! <BR> <img src=... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 20:02:17 EST Focusing on Building the New http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961558 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cb20afca-cf7e-4bb3-81ad-02e5d23689c4.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ff354110-375a-498a-b2ac-868fc94bf54d.png"> <BR> Dear SP Friends... I have been a member of this wonderful site and community coming up on 9 years at the end of this month. I have built friendships, led some teams, joined some challenges and I have learned so much. I write this blog to let you know that I am going to be trying an experiment... <BR> ... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 06:46:07 EST Awesome Day!! Things are Falling Into Place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5960877 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b4d33433-fe92-43af-8ce7-0c43aacc8418.jpg"> <BR> If you take care of YOU and follow your passion and dreams - everything does eventually fall into place. While the past few days have been a bit of a whirlwind for me and there's so much to absorb - a few things happened to day that I just have to mention in gratitude: <BR> <BR> 1. I set my 'coach' call for the orientation with my new venture for Tuesday (they have the BIG summit this weekend whi... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 20:47:57 EST Love to Dance? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5960342 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d42ab6c8-1130-4bd3-8b57-f436ea4254dd.png"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/936ab317-b71c-4403-8c5f-417a3aa07438.jpg"> <BR> One of my biggest motivators to sign up as a Beachbody Coach was my goal to attend their summit next year - this year's is being held this week in Nashville. The idea of being able to attend and workout live with many of the people I've followed for so many years excites me. <BR> <BR> The other thing ... Mon, 13 Jul 2015 21:23:46 EST Streamlining - Focus - Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959429 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/74ff9421-efb7-4c74-956d-0f3ff768c99d.png"> <BR> Some of you have been following my blog in the past while - and I went from feeling unmotivated, lacking focus to where I stand today and it's a really good feeling. When you set a goal that makes you feel excited and passionate, you know you're on the right path. For years I have expressed my wish to help others through some form of coaching. To inspire and motivate as I strive to do here through... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 07:33:54 EST Becoming More Disciplined http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5958091 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8d58ccae-710b-4ab1-9a74-cdf86e6c34dc.jpg"> <BR> This speaks volumes in terms of really focusing on what I want most and that is better health and to feel sexy/confident and be more lean/toned. <BR> <BR> As I work my way through the week, I'm pretty proud of my momentum as I work my way back to starting up the 21 Day Fix on Saturday July 11th (ending July 31st). One of my failings is I am all gung ho to do something and then jump in, and after... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 12:15:05 EST Lens is Changing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5957495 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/bb90aee4-c7b2-4f54-ad66-3929f7b32283.jpg"> <BR> For the first time in a LONG time I'm feeling my passion/fire coming back! I have been contemplating the 'why' behind how I've been feeling and SP just happened to launch a new 30 day plan <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/the-bal<BR>anced-life.asp?md=1 </link> which I've signed up for... <BR> <BR> Today, your challenge is to write down why you're feeling unbalanced lately... For me it's be... Wed, 8 Jul 2015 11:32:31 EST Vision and Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956799 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3060b349-ec8b-479f-a3b2-c30fe7079a74.png"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4948ad74-120c-4666-8042-7c62d8cdf3e0.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c0c11d74-1550-4b4c-a866-0eb98b8f29fa.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7b91bfc0-1ed7-4368-b33e-d2d2c5f0dc2d.jpg"> <BR> I was reading this article this morning and realized just how I need to get a new vision board created. <li... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 08:08:32 EST Getting Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956389 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6f1c42e0-df68-4daf-b42f-ca1514df1d8c.png"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ff2e3ecf-3764-4fc2-8c65-468b20a90ade.jpg"> <BR> Mini-vacation is OVER and I'm so 'over' feeling yuck about myself. This picture with my gf - well I see the side view and I'm upset with myself but I'm going to use the anger towards re-committing to getting the weight off again! <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4b3a91f5-5916-4e01-... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 12:43:24 EST Vacation - Time to Retreat and Refocus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953355 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c8a186ef-f54e-4fbb-b38a-7226cf022fc5.png"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/00cf9e3b-f4ec-4c60-b707-7fdfd7755120.jpg"> <BR> I'm counting down now - less than a couple of hours away from starting my mini-vacation. The focus will be RELAXATION, connecting with family/friends and UNPLUGGING from the technology. <BR> <BR> My plan is to take time every day to walk in nature - meditate, focus and think about my goals. It's a mus... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 12:41:15 EST Going in the WRONG Direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952682 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fa55fa44-fd03-4f5e-851f-250dadb8c59e.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c3aff593-22c9-4433-8562-04a38c50ccc8.png"> <BR> I can feel my 'puffyness' as I am up 1.5lbs from my starting point and I know I shouldn't weigh in daily but it's a habit I have a hard time to kick - and right now - I'm hoping that the numbers will KICK me into gear! <BR> <BR> This past weekend was spent doing the wrong stuff - too much eating/drink... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 10:20:25 EST Needing Ideas for Healthy Camping Foods/Eats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952627 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/288b805e-0303-40ea-b9e8-37c5a554d227.png"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/afdcdd30-89c9-4d59-9002-b9f152165df1.jpg">I'd love to hear from some of my SP friends about ideas they might have about what to pack bring for my upcoming camping trip. My sister is letting me stay in a trailer that they have setup for company. There will be a fridge available. A freezer to put ice and other items - but I'm not sure what's there to ... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 09:07:06 EST 5% Summer Challenge - First Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5951279 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0a89e791-c145-4075-bb3d-4f3ab9c28665.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b260e09b-c718-4b4e-8376-4b93a7693875.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/76035bd4-ec90-4209-8c75-33a1d3728358.png"> <BR> So I weighed in today instead of the official FIRST weigh in day tomorrow as I'm sleeping away from home tonight. I will measure but I will only do so July 1st (as I measure the first of every month). My 2n... Fri, 26 Jun 2015 10:39:04 EST Looking to Find my MOJO and Motivation Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950855 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8bd06ba1-e3d9-41ee-abac-8fef6600ef4c.jpg"> <BR> I joined the 5% Summer Challenge and already I'm getting cold feet about whether or not I'll be able to make a difference. I'm not usually like this - but I've made so many promises in previous blogs to follow a plan, goal, etc., only to find myself where I am today - 30lbs heavier - at my HEAVIEST actually since my pregnancies and when I first joined SP almost 9 years ago. <BR> <BR> I know all ... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 13:30:11 EST Staff Retreat... Feeling Blessed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949932 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2efe4f00-c337-407f-bf54-12452a315d6e.JPG"> <BR> Here are the amazing colleagues I get to share my days with. Most people dread staff retreats but ours are different - they are enjoyable. We reviewed comments received from partners, staff and alumni and the words that described us - well KUDOS to what we are - a great team... <BR> • Experts <BR> • Best Practice <BR> • Research to support practice <BR> • Child health <BR> • Leading-edge... Tue, 23 Jun 2015 20:49:49 EST Gearing up for the 5% Summer Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5949171 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7848a15d-9856-4fa1-8363-ebd9d97e21fa.jpg"> <BR> I went to "My Virtual Model" to re-create a model as of where I stand today <link>www.modelmydiet.com/ </link> <BR> <BR> I joined with a friend's encouragement (Di Di by 60 : ) this team as I need to start somewhere with losing all the weight I've regained. I had intentions at the beginning of this month to get a head start - and did ok one week but then the weight came right back. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 22 Jun 2015 12:10:38 EST Evaluating Relationships http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947607 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/169758b8-c409-4715-9b04-32eda6f3b0ac.jpg"> <BR> I wanted to elaborate on something I noted in my blog yesterday that seemed to elicit some replies - for which I'm very grateful for always. You see - in my work with the women's group around self-esteem and body image, there was also a lot of talk about relationships. I heard about failed marriages, open relationships, and so much more. The person who leads these groups has regular events which e... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 07:41:55 EST Re-visiting MY 5 Year Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947096 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/aa5f2d15-5651-41a0-af2f-9acaecd38565.png"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/05cdebab-24ba-49d4-815d-50ee75ca4763.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/376952cf-0fc6-4c39-8edf-428c0825f321.png"> <BR> I'm back to work after 2 days off sick with migraine issues and some down right depressive and anxious thoughts. I know myself and I have this cycle periodically - while they are less than before, they still happen. <B... Thu, 18 Jun 2015 08:51:29 EST Lose/Gain - Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5945411 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f442534f-20ce-4e68-84ad-3d001204334f.png"> <BR> Loved this quote from SP today! So many times when we consider changing our habits we think about things we have to give up rather than what we have to gain... thus what happens to me at times when I give in to temptations and allow ONE cheat day turn into many. <BR> <BR> My workplace social/BBQ was a great success but I have not been following my 'plan' since the 10th now and need to get back t... Mon, 15 Jun 2015 09:29:37 EST Day 10 and 11 - No Quitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943327 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b2b24e36-5f70-4003-aa94-668971dc7290.jpg"> <BR> I set out a plan for the month to really reset my eating/drinking habits but the past 2 days were tougher. I was hungrier (not sure why) and yesterday was super tired all day. I have had 2 days of 'cheats' with food and last night I even had a few drinks... but I'm NOT quitting. <BR> <BR> This month is my reset. I looked at my 2015 calendar as I track month to month my progress with my weight, AF... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 07:51:06 EST Day 9 - Don't stop walking... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942545 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c6fbf854-bd6a-4b40-8ddc-f1855813460d.jpg"> <BR> Today I was hit with a hunger and ate more than I should have probably - but I did try to make good choices or moderate more than I usually do when I decide to allow a 'cheat day'. For me the important thing was to stick with my commitment to be AF for the 30 days and while my DD wanted me to hang out and watch one of our favorite shows together - that's a definite trigger for me. <BR> <BR> I man... Tue, 9 Jun 2015 20:26:32 EST Day 8 - First week completed successfully http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941814 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5926c67a-e062-4afe-bc94-d7a43c5cc4c9.png"> <BR> It's been a while since I can say that I've successfully completed a GOOD solid week of healthy eating and exercising. I also can't believe how productive I've been - I feel like I'm on fire getting so many great things accomplished... I need to bottle this feeling for when I am tempted to cave in. <BR> <BR> I will be leaving work shortly to head home and do my Body Pump workout. Picking up my ca... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 13:51:26 EST Day 6 & 7 - Great Weekend!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941387 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1f4a9086-5fd2-4413-bd7e-119f8ac6bd0e.jpg"> <BR> On day 6 I went to work my shift as a volunteer on the phones at the telethon from 7 to 9... but not before putting in a super productive day!! I followed through with my plan and woke up at 5am on my own and I did my workout. Then we spent most of the day organizing his office - I wish I had taken 'before and after' pictures. It's amazing the difference!! He said he almost got lost in there this ... Sun, 7 Jun 2015 21:16:17 EST Day 5 - SuperHero Day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5940394 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e508b0b8-48f0-4d80-87b0-3b4a83758894.png"> <BR> Well I was on the go today like a SuperHero ... as our workplace themed it in preparation for the telethon tomorrow and we had a blast. I went around and took pictures. I got the idea to do the capes with T-Shirts my boss told me to give away/use somehow and they made great capes and then everyone else added their own fun to it! It was an awesome day and another reason why I LOVE MY JOB!! <BR> <i... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 20:17:17 EST Day 4 - Clarity and Focus http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939633 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c837113c-35fe-4aa1-94d3-9b860b7b7218.jpg"> Couldn't resist this pic - I aspire to be this toned one day!! <BR> <BR> Well other than feeling a bit sore from a fall I had while cleaning my daughter's room last night (tried to step on the edge of the bed and missed and fell backwards onto my behind bracing myself with my butt, wrists and neck - so my head wouldn't hit the hard concrete apartment floor)... I'm feeling really good about my progres... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 12:33:59 EST Day 3 - Determining MY Happy Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939026 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/96b426f5-6889-4821-b3f4-6d94fa6716f4.jpg"> <BR> Today's SP coach session was about finding your happy weight. This has been something I've been wondering about for some time. I joined SP almost 9 years ago (my anniversary coming up at the end of July) and I used to say I'd like to be around 135lbs but how realistic is that for me?! I was at a plateau for 3 years in the range of 163 and 169. I dipped below into the 150s but didn't stay there lon... Wed, 3 Jun 2015 10:58:35 EST Day 2 - Preps and Planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938482 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/1193cec9-8fc6-4e79-b22d-7cf0b71c0d55.jpg"> <BR> It's day 2 of my reboot into my health routine and I'm feeling good. I got my lunch time walk in and did my body pump workout after work. I was busy the entire evening and stayed on track (no TV watching). <BR> <BR> Today I've found many things that have inspired me - the fact that my job promotes healthy active living means it's GOOD that I browse and find articles and events of interest in thi... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 12:37:59 EST Day 1 - Weigh In and Measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937639 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4467b225-d989-4565-9f88-6e1f43cba42f.jpg"> <BR> Today is Day 1 and I'm logging my stats <BR> <BR> Weight - 190lbs <BR> Waist - 40 <BR> Hips - 44.5 <BR> Thighs - 25.5 <BR> Stomach - 46 <BR> Calf - 16 <BR> Bust under - 37.5, Bust 45 <BR> Arms - 13.5 <BR> Neck - 15 <BR> Forearm - 10 <BR> Body Fat: 46.8% <BR> <BR> My morning started with logging all my stats, taking pictures. Plan for today is to walk for lunch and do my Body Pump workout af... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 04:55:08 EST Finishing May and Gearing up for June 1st! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937349 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6e28f492-9a18-43ea-90de-9ab0c3fea2f9.jpg"> <BR> Today is my prep day ... for my June challenge to reset in every way. I am cooking and also enjoying my last few drinks of alcohol until July 1st - 30 days of abstinence. <BR> <BR> My plan is to blog daily ... and to plan one day at a time to get through the cravings to 'cave in'... to aim to stick to this plan. I have put it OUT there on many fronts publicly in order to have the accountability a... Sun, 31 May 2015 15:26:18 EST Grateful for an Amazing Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936479 I woke up this morning without the clock... It was a vacation day for me. I started with the reading of my affirmations and I immediately found a theme of staying in 'peace' today... and so it was. <BR> <BR> The day started with the school meeting with the day treatment team and we had a really good discussion. Then the school formality of her placement meeting for next year and both went really well. Next at 11:15 was the doctor's appointment to get blood work done and get something to help... Fri, 29 May 2015 21:57:47 EST Looking Ahead... and Planning for 30 Days to a Better ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935624 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/49d28c94-d622-4359-9f76-d3740a1da2d0.jpg"> <BR> As many of you know I've had some challenging times of late. This has resulted in coping with eating/drinking and has resulted in weight regain... So I'm motivated to begin June 1st and make it 30 days (the entire month) to a better me... <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/cb3f3b61-713b-4658-a51e-9c9e61730470.jpg"> <BR> I have a few days to prep myself mentally for this - but s... Thu, 28 May 2015 09:36:40 EST 99 to 49... Hitting a Low Point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934995 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/58ed2ec3-7812-4e26-9ef8-2b5d3064d675.jpg"> <BR> A picture is worth a thousand words - and this one really made me realize how I am unhappy with my body right now. Everything I try on is tight. I feel extremely bloated and uncomfortable and this picture - well I see the size of my arms and mid-section and I want to cry. I have gained 25 to 30lbs with all the stress I've been living with my DD over the past couple of years and it has to STOP! <B... Wed, 27 May 2015 07:33:27 EST Dreams Can Come True... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934423 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/01da416c-5995-4d1d-9306-ac9bd86019b8.jpg"> <BR> So my guy bought the house yesterday - and so long as conditions are met by June 5th this will be the new place he'll be moving into and perhaps someday - my home too... <BR> <link>www.royallepage.ca/en/property/ontar<BR>io/south-mountain/10646-nelson-rd/2833<BR>331/mls943419/ </link> <BR> <BR> I've always dreamed of living in a brand NEW home and this is exactly that! While I told him this ... Tue, 26 May 2015 08:29:52 EST Weekend Visit and Then "Stuff" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934202 So the visit back home was really great... I may have pics to post later - still waiting for some to get shared as I wasn't the photographer for once. <BR> <BR> The girls seemed to do ok while I was away - my oldest stayed with my 14 year old again. I got home last night and all seemed fine - but this morning my daughter asked to go to the residential crisis unit again (this has been occurring weekly now for the past 3 weeks) but FINALLY they admitted her. It's a temporary fix but I almost f... Mon, 25 May 2015 20:59:19 EST Love of Oneself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932031 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b6433e02-98e9-4328-ac76-adfc76cf5bdf.jpg"> <BR> As a single mom - this is easier said than done because the most difficult thing I'm dealing with is my own child and a parent can not let go of her own child... at least not until she reaches a more mature age. <BR> <BR> She is missing school again today - her excuse being lack of sleep. I have tried everything to help - melatonin, explained practices that could help, and just about every trick ... Thu, 21 May 2015 13:43:08 EST I'm Tired... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931431 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/99de9037-2be5-4bb9-a662-87063bf0fccc.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Another really tough day ... My daughter is missing school again. Her 'day treatment' has been 3 half days (2 hours a day from 12:50 to 2:50) and they were going to try to increase it and she is now doing worse - with the crises the past 2 Tuesdays and now her excuse this week of not sleeping well and sleeping past her alarm or not able to wake up. Then she cries about her anxiety and that s... Wed, 20 May 2015 13:23:22 EST New Moon - Mercury Retrograde http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930799 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e95ff05f-9ba6-42ce-a5d7-a6d5cf85561b.jpg"> <BR> Do you tend to observe the moon cycles and how it affects your energies? I do. And a new moon to me is like a fresh start. There's a cool 30 day challenge through this info link about the New Moon: <link>http://www.collective-evolution.com/<BR>2015/05/17/new-moon-in-taurus-developi<BR>ng-mastery-over-the-physical-world/ </link> <BR> <BR> I woke up feeling good despite an 'off' weekend on the ... Tue, 19 May 2015 12:09:20 EST Finding Balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928657 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/eee30b23-ec26-472b-9565-67ca85ca7dd9.jpg"> <BR> Well it's been a hectic/busy week but Friday is here and a long weekend ahead! I managed to have 2 days without alcohol, but I have enjoyed some (in moderation) on other nights and feel ok with it. <BR> <BR> UPDATE ON BLOG:- I don't consider myself as having a drinking problem (as one of the comments below notes)... but I suppose how I worded it - that might be the interpretation - the reason I ... Fri, 15 May 2015 12:55:55 EST Up and DOWN... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927750 After my blog yesterday - it's like a call for drama ... I had a great day - went to bed only to be woken up at 10:45pm by my 14 year old daughter - she was crying and asking to go to emergency because she 'couldn't take it anymore'. I asked her if she was thinking of harming herself (because as it's emergency - they won't accept you unless there's an imminent danger or you actually DO something - which is why I'm so frustrated with the system... especially when your child is trying to reach ... Wed, 13 May 2015 22:24:37 EST Feeling the Groove Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927150 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f5ee3b1a-5b90-474d-878b-5e7e787161ac.png"> <BR> Two good healthy days under my belt - good eating and no drinking and some exercise and I feel better. The cravings haven't been too bad but not eating past 7pm is a bit of a challenge (I'm hungry now). <BR> <BR> Hoping for a good night's rest so I can workout again tomorrow morning. Getting those morning workouts in again feels so good and I got a walk in at lunch. So long as the weather permit... Tue, 12 May 2015 20:31:45 EST 11-11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926311 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1384324259.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l81575392.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l479270733.jpg"> <BR> I need to set my intentions and 'wish' in the RIGHT direction. Since my last blog - things have not gone in the direction I had hoped. It's May 11 and I have 11 days until my visit back home. <BR> <BR> Last week was particularly difficult with another crisis with my daughter w... Mon, 11 May 2015 11:14:44 EST It's a NEW Day... Hello MAY!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920681 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1469975583.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l743249729.jpg"> <BR> I feel better this morning after a good night's rest, sleeping in and a 'vacation' day to start the month. I've been spending it quietly tending to things I've been procrastinating about for almost a MONTH lol. I finally put away my suitcase from my trip. Now just sorting through clothes and organizing my room so it's the haven it should be - not a... Fri, 1 May 2015 09:12:38 EST Overwhelmed... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920364 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2125864064.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2087725314.jpg"> <BR> Breathing deeply and hoping for a better day tomorrow... <BR> <BR> Will post/write more tomorrow... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 18:38:34 EST