SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's SparkPeople Blog SEPTEMBERSPIRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Where is My Motivation?! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It seems the more I want this ... the further I'm slip... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 08:09:14 EST Day 2 - Create a Game Plan <img src=""> <BR> Day 1 was good up until I went home - that dreaded 'afternoon' slump where my best intentions and positive mindset from the morning gets thrown aside as I feel like I 'deserve' a break after a good day's work... So I had drinks and eats that fell off the plan. <BR> <BR> Today's game plan in an effort to change this 'habit' - working out as soon as I get home from work. I finish around 2:30pm so get home by 3pm. I was s... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 07:24:35 EST Healthy Habit Reset <img src=""> <BR> Well my start starts again... I guess I was still in the remnants of my vacation mode and while I had intentions of starting the 21 Day Fix last Wednesday - I began TODAY with the workouts. <BR> <BR> I'm also going to follow the SP 30 day Healthy Habit Reset <link><BR>-habits-reset.asp </link> because I find that my eating has been particularly off track and with one slip (eats an... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 10:47:00 EST Day 1 - 21 Day Fix <img src=""> <BR> Here's the low down... I am up 2lbs since before my trip to Cuba but here are my stats for Day 1 of the 21 Day Fix program that I'm starting with my gf. She has a wedding coming up in about 24 days and I have my visit back home in May and I simply want a boost to get back into program mode. <BR> <BR> I've let my habits slide back and my weight today is where it was at when I joined SP almost 9 years ago... I'm ready to... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 07:23:36 EST Cuba Trip Report with Pics! <img src=""> <BR> The resort if relatively new (I think they only opened in October) - the above was our room (as you can see you have to be ok with little privacy in the washroom - that window is where the shower is - by the bed). <BR> <BR> The scenery there was beautiful - and while some services need improvement - overall we enjoyed the experience. Some reviews are negative but I think people set expectations too high and don't consi... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 14:01:02 EST Back from Cuba and Back to Routine/Work April 13th! Well I'm just logging in now and I have to say it was <em>345</em> to completely DISCONNECT for the duration of my vacation... so I'll not be backtracking on posts but as of tomorrow it's back to routine. I'm winding down tonight and thought I'd post a blog and a few pics. The trip was wonderful and the 'test' that was to be if we'd be compatible to spend a whole 9 days together - well we passed with flying colors! It truly was so natural, lovely, wonderful - we laughed, had fun, relaxed a... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 21:59:04 EST Vacation Alert! Offline until April 11th <img src=""> <BR> Checking that all is in place at work here too to make sure things run smoothly. As the admin and office 'go to' person - I like to make sure my team is taken care of. <BR> <BR> Not sad to leave this yuck weather we had this morning - snow and freezing rain - changing to rain by lunch. I hope that by the time I come back all the snow will be gone and the nicer weather here to stay. <BR> <BR> We fly out of Ottawa at 7... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 10:19:59 EST April 1st - New Beginnings - New Adventures! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Love new months and this one in particular is kind of like a 'NEW' year with so many great possibilities ahead! At work it's the beginning of a New fiscal year. In my life - well I begin a new adventure - now in a relationship and <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'm feeling extremely blessed and gratef... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 08:03:06 EST One Day at a Time <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is something I need to continually remind myself of... because despite the best laid out 'long term' plans - we can only do with TODAY. <BR> <BR> I had plans to do a weekend challenge and that fell through. So I have today - and was going to workout this morning but felt a bit nauseous so skipped it. I'm still feeling the cold/flu symptoms.... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 09:01:19 EST One Week to Cuba!! By this time next Friday I'll be in Toronto getting ready to board my plane to get to Cayo Santa Maria in Cuba!! <BR> <BR> I am at the tail end of this nasty cold - coughing a lot the past 2 days (hopefully it will be all cleared up by next Friday). I am pleased to report that I did my morning workouts every day this week - even when I was tired - I pushed through and happy I did. I got my strength training in Mon-Wed-Fri and cardio Tue-Thu. I am going to follow this Weekend Weight Loss Chal... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 08:44:04 EST My Size - My Comfort - Accepting me in the Now <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 9 days away for my trip to Cuba... and NO my weight is not down to where I had hoped but I am accepting what is and I am going to make the most of it. <BR> <BR> I found a bathing suit that I will be comfortable in as I'll be mostly living in it for the time I'm away - I actually LOVE it and couldn't believe that it was the first one I tried on. T... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 07:39:33 EST Big Milestones... Big Celebrations... Feeling Love and Gratitude <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I am feeling on TOP of the world today and feeling so VERY grateful for all the <em>345</em> things in my life! <BR> <BR> Despite the issues of difficulties with my daughter - which are kind of the norm now, the bad cold and sore mouth from a broken tooth - TODAY - I am feeling so amazing that I had to share/blog because I feel like I'm going ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 11:42:12 EST Happy St-Patrick's Day - Lucky 17!! Well it's ironic and LUCKY for me... it's the 17th and I have 17 days until I leave for Cuba!! <BR> <BR> I ended up going to the pharmacy yesterday and bought some canker sore orajel stuff for the sore under my tongue and found some ortho wax which is normally used for people who wear braces to soothe irritations and I covered the 'rough' tooth so it's bearable until I see the dentist. Sadly - it's my first visit with him (I have neglected this since I moved to Ottawa and had not found a new... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 07:14:18 EST Mouth Pain... Maybe this mouth pain will allow me to lose some weight finally lol... I have to have a sense of humor about it but MAN it hurts! I lost a filling from one of my back lower molars and its sharp edge has cut into my tongue making it difficult for me to talk and eat. Add insult to injury I also had a cold/sore throat... It was not a fun weekend. Cancelled plans because I couldn't even think of being with my guy friend... <BR> <BR> I am grateful though that it happened now and not while I was ... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 12:00:24 EST Breathe... and Meditate <img src=""> <BR> Great affirmation for today... Another good AF day... thankful for the gorgeous weather. Grateful to have had the ability to leave early to go see my doctor ... got my 2nd Twinrix shot for the travel (and my guy friend paid for it)... I went to pay for my daughter's contacts. Decided to invite my friend over so we hung out after work - I made dinner for him and we enjoyed a nice few hours together... <BR> <BR> I exerci... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 21:33:34 EST Take a Walk - Not a Pill <img src=""> <BR> There was a definite theme in the affirmations I was drawn to today... The one above drove me to take back my walk at lunch and I introduced for the first time a walk home from a further bus station to my home (so a total of 75 minutes of walking today). <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="htt... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 20:05:15 EST Accepting What IS! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Thank you SP Friends for reminding me about this... I have this mentality where I 'count down' to everything and it's simply not working. As a matter of fact - the more I push myself with time limits to do this or that by this date or that time, the more I distance myself from... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 07:25:11 EST 30 Days to Cuba!! We got our etickets by email yesterday ... this trip is for REAL and I need to get my bootie bootcamped into shape! Seriously - I was at 188lbs this morning - highest weight for me since my pregnancy time - 14 years ago!! <BR> <BR> I know the stress of life of late has a huge affect on this as I've been coping with eating/drinking and just in a bad way into habits that are simply not healthy for me (mind or body). <BR> <BR> So I have 30 days ... to take it one day at a time to make changes... Wed, 4 Mar 2015 05:56:33 EST Checking in... I'm still trying to muster up my energy levels after a difficult weekend. I also have my 'monthly visitor' making its appearance and with my body adjusting to the whole peri-menopause stage - I'm really feeling it. I was in bed last night at 6pm - just so drained/exhausted. I woke up at 10 till 11 and was back in bed. <BR> <BR> I start the day with good intentions. I did my workout this morning and thinking of things I'd like to do tonight but it's just past 1pm and I'm feeling tired again. ... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 13:30:44 EST Prayer for my Daughter... <img src=""> <BR> Last night - I was out with my guy friend... and I read some disturbing texts from my daughter... She asked when I was coming home and said she was not feeling well... Then she told me that she had taken a handful of pills... and that she was feeling worse and worse. I was an hour away so I had to call 911 to get the paramedics to get there before me... and they did. They checked her and brought her in to the children's h... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 14:52:27 EST Happy New "Chinese" Year - Year of the Sheep <img src=""> <BR> I've been MIA on SP the past little while - slightly overwhelmed with 'life' and needed to take a step back. I was off sick Thursday and Friday last week and the flu lasted till the early hours of Saturday morning. <BR> <BR> The meeting last week with my daughter's team from school was stressful. The night before I had 'dealings' with my oldest. Then my youngest was dealing with online harassment through Facebook as s... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 09:26:05 EST February Blues No More... Please I have been home sick with another flu bug - decided to help out a friend to watch their little one on Monday and turns out I must have caught the bug. Was sick on Wednesday afternoon through the night - stayed home yesterday and today woke to hear my daughter getting sick at 3am. My belly is still not great. <BR> <BR> My guy friend is a sweetheart though - he had planned to get these delivered to my work but they came to me at home yesterday and brightened my day... <BR> <img src="http://p... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 05:58:10 EST Positive Affirmations <img src=""> <BR> Every morning I begin my day with positive affirmations/readings. I start every day off with a mindset that it's fresh and new - and clear to make of it what I will. <BR> <BR> I managed to get my morning workout in yesterday but didn't have the energy this morning so my intention is to get to one in tonight. I find making a plan helps - I know I have to pick up a few things from the store in preparation for meal making... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 08:22:06 EST Walk This Way... One Step at a Time... <img src=""> <BR> Here's me and my hero - three year old Leukemia Fighter - Maya!! <BR> <BR> I sit here on a Sunday night feeling like I need to take a step forward again towards the 'light' if you will. I wrote about my fears... and yet I now write about this blessing... <BR> <BR> When you meet someone like this little princess - it gives you perspective on life. It's been an interesting weekend. I had my lovely ladies group on Saturd... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 19:28:53 EST Fearing Change <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I sit here tonight trying to figure out why I am doing so much emotional eating and drinking. I am today - probably heavier than I have been in over 10 years and it frustrates me to no end! <BR> <BR> WHY is this happening? I have really GOOD things going on in my life... but yet I still have major stressors going on too. I have this fear of chang... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 22:02:26 EST World Cancer Day 2015 <img src=""> <BR> February 4th - World Cancer Day... and here I am with the greatest warrior - Maya - who will be 3 years old next month and fighting leukemia! She's my HERO!! Despite all the pokes and tests... here she is smiling away... because she's a trooper!! She sure gives me perspective on 'not sweating the small stuff'... Life is precious - every moment is... never take one for granted! <BR> <BR> She came to visit me today (at wor... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 20:20:06 EST New Ideas for Valetine's Day Dates... I LOVE the women's group that I continue to attend ... and the events that they allow me to be a part of... the next being the 'ducklings manifesto' outing to go check out the movie 50 Shades of Gray on the 15th... check out some other cool 'sexy' ideas for Valentine's Day <link><BR>te-night-ideas-2015/ </link> <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is my guy friend's bday and I got him a card and we are going together to the event on the 15th... and I am making him lasag... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 22:04:33 EST 2 - 2 - Same message as yesterday ... Faith! <img src=""> <BR> Interesting following the angel reading/prediction for the week and then this picture today. <BR> <BR> Today was a good day despite a bit of a slow start. I didn't manage to workout in the morning (my elbow is still really bothering me) - but I did just now find a cure I'm going to try (a castor oil compress - and I'm all about natural cures). Most of what I've read said to do exercises after 2 to 3 weeks rest and when ... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 19:48:15 EST Keep the Faith <img src=""> <BR> Here was Doreen Virtue's weekly oracle reading... and I do believe it's a message for me... <BR> This week is lighter than last week, thank goodness! The week begins on a Midas touch positive note. You've got the green light, so go forward now. Mid-week through the weekend, beware of any tendency to self-sabotage your progress. Know that you deserve to receive, and it's okay to allow success and happiness into your life... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 08:41:35 EST Feeling Determined Yet Flexible in My Approach Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach. <BR> ~ Tony Robbins <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> 70 days to my trip... and I am determined to hit my monthly goal! I'm now 2lbs away from 170Ville (at 181 thi... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 07:09:40 EST Trip is BOOKED!! (with pics : ) <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Thu, 22 Jan 2015 10:41:45 EST Destination: Cayo Santa Maria, Cuba in April <img src=""> <BR> Today was a challenging day with some irritations presenting themselves to me in various ways (DD going to school only to find out her worker wasn't there again and then she accused me of lying... some work glitches... and this just made me more sensitive to usual things I normally don't feel anything about - I was irritable today)... <BR> <BR> In all of this though - GREAT things... looks like I found the place we'll ... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 21:27:45 EST Vision Board 2015 Here's the board I created (and added to my photo gallery) yesterday. For the first time in a LONG time my focus is on losing a specific 'number' in terms of weight loss. Other areas in my life are going well - my job, my love life... my kid - well that will always be there - so to feel better about ME again - I need to lose this weight once and for all. I honestly am not liking how I feel in my skin having gained almost 20lbs from the point of my plateau range. On this vision board are real ... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 19:03:16 EST Two Weeks In - Two Weeks Left - RECOMMITMENT!! <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Weighed in this morning and down 0.5lb for a total of 2lbs since I started the new journey in 2015. My monthly goal is to lose 7.5lbs per month to reach my final goal by summer. So it's time to recommit. Exactly two weeks left in January and I WILL make my target and have 7.5lbs GONE and say goodbye to 180Ville FOREVER!! <BR> <BR> What has to chan... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 07:42:14 EST Stay Focused and Positive <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The past couple of days have been hard at home with my daughter. More issues coming up and nasty communications/behaviors. It's very draining and it's making it hard to stay focused on my goals here... but I keep pushing forward. <BR> <BR> I am grateful for the support from the school. While she won't be going this week (she attempted yesterday bu... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 11:48:04 EST Adjusting to 'Stuff' <img src=""> <BR> So I had 2 light beers yesterday and today - I won't lie... the craving to have some drinks is there but I'm working to get past it... I know my trigger today... <BR> <BR> My youngest has not yet gone to school this week and she only went one day last week - so frustrating. This week it's because she's messing with her hair again - coloring now from Black to Blue meaning bleaching and well - it's not easy to do of cour... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 13:59:22 EST A Good Week <img src=""> <BR> Sitting here preparing for the week ahead and reflecting on my first week back to re-committing to my health goals to lose the weight and never find it again. <BR> <BR> Things I've accomplished: <BR> - I lost 1.5lbs <BR> - I was consistent with my workouts alternating cardio and ST days with 2 rest days <BR> - I stuck to my goal of not drinking more than 2 days in a row (so far this month only 3 days with drinks - Jan 1... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 20:13:00 EST Article in Office Pro - A Good Day! <img src=""> <BR> I got the Jan/Feb 2015 issue of our Office Pro and the article I was interviewed for and quoted in was included - so cool - here's the link to the article if you wish to read it (it's about performance evaluations - mine's coming up at the end of March as usual): <link><BR>s </link> <BR> <BR> Then after work I headed over to our webinar and was introduced to some really cool app... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 21:27:36 EST Better is Better <img src=""> <BR> Yesterday I went out to visit the possible venue for an event I'm planning and the catering manager offered me a complimentary drink and I said yes. I stopped at one and went back to water after. I had originally set the intention to go 90 days without alcohol but realize that's a tad too drastic for me. So I am accepting that better is better. So far this month I have more AF days than I did the entire month of Decembe... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 22:22:34 EST A Prayer for Trailblazers <img src=""> <BR> And Louise Hay's affirmation today... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This post inspired me to nominate Michael Stashin who did the 14 Marathons in 14 Days in support of helping raise awareness for children to be more active with the CTV Healthy Kids Awards. <BR> <BR> The affirmation from Louise also made me realize that despite things being very difficult at home right no... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 12:33:01 EST Ready for Change <img src=""> <BR> I was going to title the blog "Ready to Get Back to Routine" but the truth is - I'm ready for NEW everything. It's not going 'back to work' like before - it's a New Year and I've got a new energy and outlook on making changes. <BR> <BR> Today was a bit wonky - my guy friend wanted to hang out but Mother Nature thought differently with freezing rain - so I spent the day mostly alone and got to many things I wanted to i... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 18:37:32 EST Savor Your Successes! <img src=""> <BR> I read this article today - <BR> <link><BR>ok-ahead </link> and it is something we all need to be mindful of. In order to succeed - we must focus on the GOOD we have accomplished and relish in those successes. <BR> <BR> Today was a good day. I ran some errands, visited a friend, took down the decorations... and ate not too bad. Started my day by sleeping in till 7am (rare for me... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 21:00:40 EST Taking Action Towards 2015 Goals <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It's about taking ACTION this year. I have some very specific goals in a few key areas in my life. <BR> <BR> The mantra and areas that I'm working on... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> With my goal of establishing a strong and healthy relationship with my body and my bank account in 2015. <BR> <BR> I ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 18:20:22 EST A Review of 2014 (with pics) I have this calendar planner that I use - it's a monthly one where I record events through the year and this is the year in review... <BR> <BR> January - weigh in at 172lbs. Had a physical on the 6th. Submitted an application for 'financial hardship' to help me out of my financial difficulties by accessing my pension funds. Started the women's group on the 18th (for body image/self-esteem). Did Zumba, started doing Jazzercise. Had individual counselling for myself. Saw gynecologist for me. S... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 09:43:37 EST Back Home A Day Early <img src=""> <BR> I had three wonderful days of visiting but our plans got cut short as my DD was upset with a friend who was in a bad way and she wanted to come home so I offered to do so a day early. In a way it was a blessing as it gives me a day to rest up before she gets started with her visit with her dad... who is arriving sometime tomorrow (I have yet to hear from him). <BR> <BR> I have been so FULL with all the eating throughou... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 15:52:29 EST My 2015 Mantra <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I LET GO. This is your personal mantra for 2015, written to serve as your simple-yet-powerful reminder of what’s most important to you. Use your Mantra this year to establish a strong and healthy relationship with your body and your bank account. Tape it on your mirror, make it your Facebook cover photo, set it as your phone’s wallpaper, or write i... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 06:44:09 EST Counting My Blessings <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I am truly appreciating all that I have in life. When I think back to last year and my situation - I would have never dreamed I'd be here today. <BR> <BR> This year - I was able to buy gifts for the holidays. This year, I have romance in my life. This year - I am in a new pla... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 07:45:43 EST Reason to Believe In the Possibility of Love/Romance <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I spent Friday night and day with my new 'friend' (Barry)... I still find it hard to say anything more than that while others are referring to him as my boyfriend - I guess it's still too surreal to swallow. He makes me feel special. We laugh and have so much fun together - ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 07:31:49 EST Kids (Magazine by Salt and Light Studio) - Inspiring Stories <img src=""> <BR> Earlier this week I shared a pic of my gf's daughter Maya - featured on the cover of this amazing magazine now available online. I ordered a printed copy to have because I think it's just absolutely BEAUTIFUL... capturing the children - their stories and sharing love, joy and hope through it all as well. <BR> <BR> Here's the link if you want to view it <link><BR>y_salt_and_light_s... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 09:41:37 EST And Just When I Thought... After yesterday's post... what a day with my daughter... she missed school because of something that upset her (recalling her sexual assault) and self-harmed... punching a wall bruising her hand - and then I noticed ... she had cuts/marks on both of her hands ... so while I thought she had not cut since May - I was wrong... it's so hard to swallow... <BR> <BR> I found this blog and wanted to share... it's a place for parents like me to go ... <link> </link> <BR> ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 05:35:07 EST