SENZ2001's SparkPeople Blog SENZ2001's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community been forever and it shows I went to my parents house for a week and gained 5 pounds. I knew the food I ate was bad. I ate all day. I just enjoyed the food. The type of food you only get in your hometown. The type of food you remember and love. The type of food that got me in this HORRIBLE shape in the first place. <BR> <BR> I'm started new routines today. With my students, with my kids, with myself...It's a goal to make it good by at least Saturday and beyond. <BR> <BR> I know I can do this! Mon, 15 Jul 2013 15:11:43 EST scared to weigh myself I hasn't been a week since I've been back on track, but I've very apprehensive to get on the scale. I've been severely restricting my calories and I don't want to be disappointed. I know it's not a race. I know gradual weigh-loss is the best. I know that it's an everyday thing, not just a number on a scale. I KNOW!!! But I still want to want that special number. Sun, 29 Jul 2012 12:12:45 EST KEEP IT OUT OF THE HOUSE!!! I just can't have temptation in the house. All of these things are current gateway foods to a downward spiral of calories and regret: <BR> <BR> cream puffs (my husband craved them) <BR> chips (organic, so my brain thought, "they're good for you!" No so much) <BR> fat free whipped cream (only 10 calories per serving, at 10 servings per shot, I've maxed out and gone over too easily) <BR> or... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 13:47:19 EST need to commit to it I know when I don't record my food I go crazy. I let things slide and I KNOW why my weight goes up. Why don't I stick to it?!?!? It takes time and mindfulness. Two things that I'm short on these days along with patience. <BR> <BR> Keep breathing and enjoying each day. <BR> <BR> Cutting back on my calories makes me so tired. I need to find a way to boost the energy without caffeine! <BR> Sat, 14 Jul 2012 12:35:27 EST feeling the 3rd day cravings... This always happens when I cut back on calories. I get to the third day and start over indulging in food. I really need to stay on track and make this calorie range a habit. <BR> <BR> fingers crossed. Fri, 6 Jul 2012 16:55:19 EST home with all the food Good thing that there is nothing but good veggies to keep me company when the kids are at the babysitter and I'm running around trying to get the house less chaotic. Thu, 5 Jul 2012 09:41:01 EST BACK AGAIN! Ate too much food at my in-laws while the power was out. Why does food taste better when someone else cooks it? Like, 100 times better. It's all in my head. I know that, but really...Sometimes I fool myself so well. <BR> <BR> Now I've gained, no big surprise, but I'm back to SP, ready, and armed with lots of veggies! Wed, 4 Jul 2012 19:34:57 EST slow and steady Need to keep myself in check tonight after I put the boys to bed. Just rest or workout. DO NOT EAT!! I really want a glass of wine, but the bathroom needs cleaning and laundry need to be done before Sunday. I really want to get it all done so we just go to church on Sunday and I can celebrate Mother's day with me and my two little men. I can't count on DH because he needs to work. Acceptance. This is just the way it is to keep him happy. Fri, 11 May 2012 18:36:40 EST keep in check I ate just the right amount. I still feel the need to indulge in more food. I hate that i have to keep thinking about it. There was a catered lunch today and I just had to fill my plate with lettuce and a taste of pasta...just a taste. Wed, 9 May 2012 20:59:12 EST gave blood, ate too much So I gave blood yesterday and for some reason I thought that was the "GO EAT" signal my brain had to eat all cookies, pizza, and garlic knots in the house. WHAT?!?!?! Why did giving blood make it okay for me to overindulge in such yucky things? <BR> <BR> Another "WHAT WAS I THINKING?" moment Tue, 8 May 2012 11:51:33 EST junk in the trunk I ate too many calories at my in-laws house and I feel like a thousand pounds and out of shape. too many biscuits, too many jams, too much television. I need to clean out my body and start again. Oh, yeah, and then there was the fast food on the road...yuck! Why did I do that? Mon, 7 May 2012 06:07:19 EST fast week I've been so busy with junk. Junk at work, junk at home, and then DH and I get into an argument... that was finally resolved last night, but has kept me up for days. The boys are being so good tonight, I don't want to send them away for the weekend, but I don't want to go away because it'll be exhausting. I'll have to decide soon. Thu, 3 May 2012 19:29:44 EST sunny sunday Got the boys and myself out the door and to church. they had a great time even though it was a bit chaotic. I'm so glad we went! The pastor does a great job of reminding me of how blessed our lives are. <BR> <BR> The weather cleared up for us to play outside a bit before a little afternoon nap and then we'll be refreshed for when DH wakes up. <BR> <BR> Now to get rid of this headache! <BR> Sun, 29 Apr 2012 12:42:31 EST another saturday slump I've run out of ideas on how to occupy the kids. I really don't like t.v., but my mind is a blank and I'm really not motivated to do much. We've already gone outside and it's freezing. I don't feel like going to a store and spending money we don't have. Maybe when the library opens in an hour we venture out into the cold again. Sat, 28 Apr 2012 10:59:49 EST need a jump start I've been slacking on my workouts and I know that's what's caused me to stall. I need a jump start!!! <BR> I don't know what I was thinking, drinking alcoholic beverages, even going to the liquor store was a bad idea. I know I don't have that kind of self control. I can't have it in the house...just like cookies or chocolate. Wed, 25 Apr 2012 05:21:37 EST red robin dinner I can already feel my feet swelling because of the salt and I ate too much. Yuck! I thought I could control myself. Luckily I did drink water before indulging in the meal. Sun, 15 Apr 2012 18:31:05 EST Candy is evil Now I've resorted to going a little over my caloric budget and not care because I want the stupid candy! It's crazy! I've worked so hard to become more healthy and these stupid sweets are ruining my progress! Sat, 14 Apr 2012 10:21:21 EST never again.... There is way too much candy in the house and I thought I could be strong, but I was WRONG!! I know that I've eaten over 600 calories of candy this week and it's a slippery slope back to were I was. Fri, 13 Apr 2012 06:19:19 EST tuesday troubles I've got way too many calories left for the end of the day. I hope I don't blow it. Tue, 10 Apr 2012 14:17:36 EST monday cleaning The kids are at the sitter and I decide to clean instead of rest. My problem is that there is always something to do. I need to find a balance that doesn't drive me nuts. <BR> Mon, 9 Apr 2012 09:42:40 EST peeps are too good I've gone such a long time from junk food, I've forgotten how addictive it is. I've already eaten 4 peep bunnies and they went quickly. I need to be more mindful of EVERYTHING that passes these lips. Sun, 8 Apr 2012 09:05:02 EST sunny sunday I'm so excited to have great weather to take the kids outside. I added a little banana to my morning and it seems to help to keep me awake instead of my pure protein breakfast. Here's to KEEP GOING!!! Sat, 7 Apr 2012 07:41:38 EST long day My little son decided on an early morning, luckily his younger brother decided to sleep in. It took me a good hour or so to get off of the couch to supervise. <BR> <BR> It's a long day. The boys and I are going to visit a friend and have lunch. I just have to take it one hour at a time, enjoy the day, and before I know it my DH will be awake from his night shift and nap time will be upon us. <BR> <BR> Need to stay alert today. Fri, 6 Apr 2012 06:56:55 EST managed my calories I stayed in range, but I used up many of my calories on alcohol. I'm not proud, but it was what I budgeted to do. I hope I don't retain to much for my weekly weigh-in tomorrow. Must stay away from calories for the rest of the day and drink water! Thu, 5 Apr 2012 18:41:47 EST stiff sore, already. Tue, 3 Apr 2012 16:40:09 EST painting Even though I am grateful for the beautiful weather and my home, painting my house while laying on the roof isn't as fun as I thought. Tue, 3 Apr 2012 12:47:18 EST still slowly getting there I can't get over how much I don't want to go near food today. I over-indulged and my body violently reacted. I was vomiting and on the toilet for an hour. Well, now that I've had a cleanse, I need to REALLY watch what goes in my mouth. Mon, 2 Apr 2012 12:05:55 EST slow sunday I'm tired. Maybe I need a super power drink to get me through the day. A visit to Starbucks may be in my future. The boys are so tiring. I need to have them play though. I really wish I had the energy. Energy = food and I know that I have to REALLY watch my intake today. Sun, 1 Apr 2012 06:51:35 EST saturday DH works nights, so it looks like I'll have the kids all day. I'm trying to psych myself up for the challenge and get some exercise as well. Keeping up a good attitude while not giving in to the temptations. Need to go food shopping to get more veggies in the house for snacking. Sat, 31 Mar 2012 08:59:00 EST long weekend so thankful that spring break is started. excited to get to work on the house, but also take time to rest and play with my little sons. Fri, 30 Mar 2012 18:48:27 EST motivation I want to exercise...cardio...sweating...feeling great. BUT, after getting the kids fed, washed, calmed down, and in bed, I'm tired too and I collapse. I don't know how to keep up the momentum into the night. Tue, 20 Mar 2012 15:58:42 EST feels like thursday I was so tired when I woke up this morning, I felt like I've worked a whole week already and it's only MONDAY!!! <BR> <BR> I'm happy with my progress, but I know I really need to kick up the exercise to get to my goal. I need to find the time and the energy. I NEED to make it happen. I'm just too sleepy today. Mon, 19 Mar 2012 17:23:59 EST good saturday The weather is great, which helps to put me in a good mood. Last night wasn't so horrible and the boys are great. I've got some things to do, but trying not to be overwhelmed by it all. <BR> I've decided not to go to a friends house for dinner because it'll be more hassle than it's worth. I wish I didn't feel that way, but that's the way I feel. Sat, 17 Mar 2012 11:14:53 EST friday is very stressful I've got a deadline at work and they keep taking days to work on my projects away from me for meetings and other useless stuff. I just want to do my JOB!!! DH has got work tonight, which means I'm a single parent and don't get a moment until midnight. I need to remember to keep breathing and be thankful for all that is going right. Fri, 16 Mar 2012 12:34:25 EST stress I woke up late which made me run around the house like a mad women getting the kids ready and didn't get a chance to do a little workout. I didn't prepare a good lunch. I know that it's not a lot of food and I'm going to crave something filling. I've got plenty of fruit and water, but I'm not sure... <BR> <BR> Need to stay on track and not go for crappy filling food. Thu, 15 Mar 2012 11:46:04 EST good day Started the day with a shower and a little workout before the kids got up. I took extra healthy snacks to work in preparation for a great hunger wave that didn't come. I'm so stressed out at work. I need to focus on the positive. I'm hoping to keep my cravings to shovel food into my mouth under control. Wed, 14 Mar 2012 15:12:59 EST so thankful My DH cooked dinner and it was very good and healthy. He also went food shopping. How wonderful! <BR> <BR> Another great success is that I lost all the bloated and the scale is down. <BR> <BR> Very happy today. Tue, 13 Mar 2012 09:12:57 EST happy monday The weather is definitely changing my mood. The sunny 70's is great! Even though people are already complaining about DST, I'm looking forward to having more outside time! Mon, 12 Mar 2012 13:42:07 EST poor friday and saturday I ate too much and drank too much, but I had a good time at my friend's house. I am looking forward to getting back on track. I'm not going to punish myself or be down. I'm just going to keep on. Sun, 11 Mar 2012 11:50:22 EST pride I'm so proud of myself for NOT eating the whole pizza. Just one piece with a LOT of water. I had ice cream and didn't feel guilty because I budgeted it into my daily calories. I'm proud that I did a 10 minute workout this morning and who knows what tomorrow brings, but today I did it. Thu, 8 Mar 2012 06:50:47 EST feel good I was so excited when I tried on my pants today and they were kind of loose. The scale is staying still, but I just have to keep up with my 10 minute exercises in the morning and then I KNOW it will move down. I know I shouldn't focus on a number, but it's really hard for me to keep on track during the week or know that I'm doing the right thing if I DON'T weight myself. Wed, 7 Mar 2012 10:13:04 EST need to stay focused I'm feeling very tired. Cutting back the sugar and calories, add more exercise while trying to maintain my house is exhausting. I want to start running and hope my husband supports me enough to watch the kids while I run. Tue, 6 Mar 2012 11:30:36 EST rainy and hungry The weather is getting me down and I've filled myself up with fruit, but still have that unsatisfied feeling. I know it's psychological and water isn't going to do it. Chocolate! I want chocolate!!! And not junky kind, I want deep, dark, lovely, velvety chocolate! Wed, 29 Feb 2012 11:59:01 EST need more time There is never enough time in the day. I feel like I'm rushing and not prepared. I need to plan better, be more attentive. I'm run down. Fri, 17 Feb 2012 12:00:46 EST forgot lunch I'm so hungry. I want to raid the snack machine or buy a very unhealthy lunch from the cafeteria. Thu, 16 Feb 2012 11:34:13 EST feeling great about my progress, but... I need to kick it up and get cardio into my day. I passed out at 6:30 yesterday and my sleep cycle is all messed up. I'm not used to needing this much sleep. I used to get by with 5 or 6 hours, but now that the kids sleep through the night, I'm finding that my body turns off at night and I sleep for 9 hours. <BR> I don't know if I'm exhausted because I don't do cardio, but I do strength training, or if it's working full-time and being a mom of two little ones. I just don't have the energy ... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 08:58:40 EST good day I'm rested and feeling much better. Doing well with my initial weight loss and diet management. Need to exercise to get the rest off. Don't know when I'm going to find the time for that. Hopefully get out for a run this weekend. Thu, 9 Feb 2012 18:40:47 EST need to rest I've been sick for such a long time, I need to rest. Luckily I'm still being mindful about what I eat during the day...but when I get home, I just eat. I hate it. I want to make sure that I'm not going over my calories, but I'm just so hungry. <BR> I do things to mindlessly cut back on my calories like not drinking wine and only have a very small portion of carbs. <BR> <BR> I really want to get out and run, but sit down with my baby at 7:00 and fall asleep with him in my arms. I don't k... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 12:32:28 EST back to better I had a horribly sick weekend. I was too sick to eat through the pain, but I'm getting better. Here's to Mondays! Mon, 6 Feb 2012 12:20:11 EST need a kick in the... So I've stabilized my weight loss after my second child. He just turned one and I'm ready to make it all happen again for me. Make the time, make the effort, make it all happen. <BR> <BR> Hopefully my DH will understand when I bring all the junk food in the house to work so that everyone eats it instead of me. That's what I need. I NEED the junk food OUT! I could care less about the pasta or the's the chocolate and the cookies AND the bit size whatever that I just say, "I'll on... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 15:09:37 EST