SENSORYFOODIE's SparkPeople Blog SENSORYFOODIE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Triumphing After a Year What does it mean to triumph? It means that you've made enough changes to see a difference over a period of time. It can also mean little successes every single day that you can lean on to help you to see that you're going to be successful in eventual weight loss. Big things--the big picture--that you see in weight loss. Little things--like measuring out chips if you can't say no to them. Habit-forming changes that you can see in your behavior and your body. Not being obsessive about food or ... Thu, 26 Mar 2015 06:53:43 EST Back to Basics This is my second year in SP and I am in a weight loss phase after having a year of learned maintenance. I learned about the differences in an article I read on SP about two study groups in a weight loss study. The first learned weight maintenance and the second group learned weight loss, and then they reversed. The study found that after the first year the weight maintenance group gained less (2-3 lbs) than the weight loss group (9 lbs). This last year--a full year, since I started in March... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 15:49:41 EST Today I came back Today I came back after a long time away <BR> To return to the place that started my way, <BR> To a new life, a new bod, a new start <BR> In a new place, a new lease, a new heart. <BR> <BR> I bought new pants, I saw myself shrink <BR> But then I got scared--froze--got tight, couldn't think. <BR> <BR> Got all caught up in weights, bands and right; <BR> "How do I eat and when, and if at night? <BR> <BR> Found I should stop, and find who I am; <BR> What do I like, what do I do, and when? <BR>... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 13:06:33 EST No Streaks But Down Anyway I have taken a break from tracking my exercise and nutrients on SparkPeople but I haven't stopped tracking them internally. For that reason, I have lost weight--not a lot, but down is down! When you're using a digital scale, a few ounces makes a difference, and I am celebrating that as I would despair if they went in the opposite direction. I have been watching how I eat, when I eat, what I eat, and most important, if I want to eat which I believe has been part of the reason along with all of... Sun, 25 May 2014 07:10:07 EST Coming back to you The struggle is real Mon, 19 May 2014 06:25:50 EST What I WILL I will: <BR> <BR> Eat clementines at night. <BR> <BR> I will: <BR> <BR> Not talk myself into eating at night <BR> <BR> When hungry, I will eat something that I KNOW I'm okay with, so I don't have to live a lie, which is <BR> <BR> EATING ANYTHING IS OKAY AND IT WON'T MATTER. Eating MATTERS. Fri, 9 May 2014 06:43:20 EST Big Eater, Big Talker I think I eat and talk a lot and like to use my mouth for a whole lot of other reasons. This being said, eating is a wonderful diversion. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had fun in my house, where I pretended my house was the grocery store and I was the customer who bought and consumed everything it had: buttered popcorn, oreos, walnuts, sausage, eggs, cheese, etc... But I tracked my calories so I could see how much damage I had done so damage was not complete. After all, I have met one of my short te... Wed, 7 May 2014 00:33:11 EST BMR, BMI and A, B, C, D, E, F, G So after spending about 30 minutes calculating and recalculating my BMR (relatively easy) and my BMI (much, much harder for me to get), I came away with much confusion over my base and my high caloric allotment given to me by SP. <BR> <BR> Which leads me to my next post, which was coming whether I calculated my BMI or not or even knew what it was. <BR> <BR> I have got to learn how to eat. Our ancestors--even 200 years ago-- knew how to eat. They ate when they were hungry. Someone knows th... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 06:31:09 EST Becoming True to Myself After six weeks on the program and enough weight, but not more than 10 combined lbs and inches, lost to make a visible overall difference in my appearance, I am back down to what I my common "normal", although, like obese people who after a certain period stop counting the lbs gained or lost and just live in the moment, I consider this weight to be my highest that I can tolerate before I look measurably overweight. <BR> <BR> So, this is what that means: <BR> <BR> I have to have a "new norm... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 07:40:51 EST It is enough To get this far and to not congratulate myself would be to lose the lesson, so I've decided in this journey to say "dayenu"--it would have been enough--and to stop here. I've not given up the fight or changed my goals at all. I've decided that I can accept myself right here and right now for changing my body and liking those changes before I go any further down the road of more changes. <BR> <BR> Why am I willing to do this? Because a) weight loss is hard, and b) there is no guarantee that I... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 07:49:52 EST I wanted to be a race car driver At age 52 3/4, I am finally stepping into adulthood. This means that I leave behind childish behavior and embrace courageous, uncomfortable behavior. <BR> <BR> What is uncomfortable is being the person I was meant to be, instead of the person I think I was supposed to be. For years I tried to become what I wasn't, whether that was a straight-haired person, someone who was good at organizing, and mostly someone who just wasn't ME. Those may be the operable words: someone who wasn't ME. <BR> ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 06:59:46 EST Getting the hang of it I think I'm getting it, after almost six weeks on the program. <BR> I understand what we all learn after a while: that it's a numbers game. <BR> Very simply, what you take in must be less than what you burn off. <BR> If we search it out on the SP site, our resting metabolic burn rate is about 1700 calories a day (if I am wrong, then please correct me, and this may be for women only). If we eat the minimum of 1200, then we are losing a rate of 500 calories a day, which would make a deficit of... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 04:02:36 EST Looked in the Mirror Uh OH--I looked in the horror mirror. And what did I see? The EXTERNAL me looking back. And did I like her? No, I did not like her. I picked her apart. Now, granted, before I began this program I had not really scrutinized myself without my clothes on. I had scrutinized and criticized her WITH her clothes on but without any critical move towards changing her. <BR> <BR> Now I am trying to change my body. But I am faced with the reality of what I look like externally and it scares me. <BR> <... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 09:45:12 EST Obsession about my Body Now that I have lost enough weight to look significantly different, I look less in the mirror than I did before. Albeit, I am still in the middle of my journey and not at my final destination. This may be why I don't want to obsess about myself. A, I want to accept myself NOW, before I get to goal size, and B, I don't want to obsess about where I am. I want the process to take care of itself and I don't want to get in the way. <BR> <BR> I believe that all the time I was looking in the mirro... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 04:03:03 EST