SENIMMO's SparkPeople Blog SENIMMO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community "Supposed to"?? I never know if I'm amused or angered by people who think they know everything about everything and everyone. <BR> <BR> I've had so much of "I only eat CLEAN" (whatever that means, and no, thank you, I would NOT like it explained. I could not possibly care less), I'm allergic to gluten (have you been diagnosed with Celiac Disease? No? You are NOT "allergic" to gluten), the only diet to use is "_______" (fill in the blank. Atkins, no carb, vegetarian, low carb, vegan, fat free, "clean", b... Mon, 18 May 2015 18:43:14 EST Long day <img src=""> and all SHE did was look cute all day? I'm the one who worked market today and I'm still wide awake. <BR> <BR> So far, this is her favorite toy. Mine too, no bell, no squealer, no rustly paper. Just the sounds she makes rolling around with it. <BR> <BR> And no, she does not have a name yet. I'm still thinking. She was in the garden when son found her, so it will probably be something related, but we... Sun, 17 May 2015 20:08:58 EST She's growing When we found her sunday, she fit in my hand with room to spare. After 5 days of bottles and kitten food (as much as she wants as directed by vet) she is noticeably bigger. And much more active! ! <img src=""> <img src=""> Fri, 15 May 2015 22:42:18 EST Mother's Day Wasn't bad. I ran errands and made a run to green bay. When I got home, son found this <img src="">freezing in my garden. <BR> <BR> No clue where she came from. The boys want to keep her. I'm making them foot the bill (mostly). They went and got her milk replacement, but couldn't find a bottle. Guess who went back to the store last night and found one? Then stayed up all night feeding and playing with her? <BR> <BR> <img src="http:... Mon, 11 May 2015 11:49:03 EST The first...of many? We'll see. It depends on if it sells and how long it takes for my hands to not hurt so bad. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I admit the photo's not so great, but it's as good as it's going to get for now. <BR> <BR> I still have to attach the sleeves, but they are finished. IF all goes according to plan, I will have 4 or more sweaters (1cardigan, 3 pullovers) 150 ish printed dish towels, 100+embroidered dish towels, 50 dish cloths and 150-200 sc... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 14:36:00 EST Proof I've been doing SOMETHING Even if it's not exercising or losing weight. <BR> <BR> These are 2 of the needles I use for sweaters, both the same size, same brand, one new and one from last fall. <BR> <BR> This is why I wish I could find metal ones easier! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The points are much sharper when the wooden ones are new. Hubs was a little surprised that I had worked enough to have them worn down so much with my nerve damage. <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 19:52:30 EST Whew Hubs just headed back out to work. The taxes got done. A dump run got made. My garden got all tilled and my fence stakes are in (I still have to put the fencing up). A lot of my plants are started in the house. One of my markets is paid for and another has been applied for. Utility stuff got done. <BR> <BR> We only made it to the gym once. Oh well. At least I didn't binge non stop. <BR> <BR> Dealing with a lot of pain and stress. Nothing new there. <BR> <BR> Trying to figure out a schedul... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 19:15:25 EST To spark break or not to sparkbreak? Its not like I've been doing a lot of "real" sparking or working on it, so there wouldn't be much difference. <BR> <BR> I haven't been logging because I haven't been measuring...or eating <BR> <BR> I have figured out the why. I just haven't gotten to the fixing it stage yet. <BR> <BR> Hubs will be in in a couple of hours, we plan to go to the pool at some point in the frenzy of getting sh*t done. Hopefully every day, but who knows. <BR> <BR> I threw some ribs in to co... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 12:33:16 EST Honestly evaluating Sucks. let's face it, it does. I had planned to do it in a private journal entry, but I cannot for the life of me find sparks journal link any more...So, instead of making even more excuses, I'm doing it in my blog. <BR> <BR> Let me be clear, I am NOT asking for sympathy, I do NOT need judgement or advice (if I want advice, I will ask for it from you specifically), and I swear, anyone who has the nerve to tell me I need counselling or medication WILL BE DELETED. <BR> <BR> That being said- <... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 14:05:06 EST Here we go...again ...and again... So I got the fitbit and I guess I thought it would work magic. It didnt. I do have a better idea of what I burn I an average day now, and boy is the spark estimate OFF!!! <BR> <BR> Spark estimates I burn roughly 2500 a day just being alive and breathing. Fitbit says 2230 TOPS. well, that's 270 calories a day I don't have to play with now. <BR> <BR> Spark estimates I burn 600-800 calories for an hour of hard work in the pool. Fitbit says not quite 500 at most. <BR> <BR> About the only good... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 09:18:11 EST I graduated To the small wristband on my fitbit! Considering Hubs was home for 3 weeks doing the cooking while I was so sick, I am amazed and happy. <BR> <BR> No clue what the scales says and don't care. I'm taking what I can get. <BR> <BR> Have a great day! Tue, 10 Mar 2015 20:10:57 EST The newest of my projects People at the markets had been asking, so I dug through my stuff and got the right materials out and designed these over the weekend: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here's hoping they sell well enough to make it worth the pain of making them. Sun, 1 Mar 2015 22:18:39 EST Argh! men... So. The plumber came while I was at therapy. Chewed Hubs out because Hubs didn't shut the crawl space access door and now there is ice under the house (totally Hubs fault) and my house looks like pigs live in it. Admittedly my crafts are a lot of clutter, but if the guys would do what I ask when u ask it wouldn't be anywhere near this bad. <BR> <BR> I had to clean the bathroom and pulled 2 full bags of trash out from the boys throwing trash under the sink and behind the tpilet. I threw...a f... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 10:23:58 EST Eh... Because "meh" annoys me, lol. <BR> <BR> Hubs has been home a few days. We've gotten some stuff done, took the dogs to the groomer, had a nice dinner out, had Dr appointments for both of us, started occupational therapy for me, and are having water problems. Sigh. <BR> <BR> My Dr wants me to retire from crafting, which is not happening if I can avoid it. Hubs' cancer is reacting well to the new meds, fewer skin lesions, which is good. The eye irritation he has should clear up with the drops ... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 22:14:11 EST Here we go...again ... Trying to get back in the habit of logging, blogging, and getting my big butt moving more. <BR> <BR> While I am consistently burning 2500ish calories a day, I'm not doing the best job of eating right, doing heavy activity, walking or getting to the gym. <BR> <BR> A lot of it is from being so sick (I still haven't kicked the bronchitis) and it being so dang cold (single digits for highs, negative windchills). The rest I'd just laziness. <BR> <BR> I have been getting random stock made. An... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 06:18:55 EST 2am...Again?? Well, 230 am to be more precise, but still! Why am I up?? <BR> <BR> Because I'm still coughing my head off, I know. Ugh. <BR> <BR> Hubs delivers out this way on Tuesday, then needs to do some training in Rockford wednesday. Since he will only be a few hours away, he's going to go ahead and come home for a few days. The plan is for him to rearrange my room so I can work easier. <BR> <BR> I'm going to go later and see if his Dr can get him in for more cancer treatments while he's home. An... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 03:38:30 EST Early valentine gifts Because Hubs is <em>345</em> <img src=""> <BR> Three of my favorite flowers! Pink tulips, pink and white baby carnations, and miniature roses (which I like in any color except yellows and orange/peach shades). <BR> <BR> He is SO good to me. When he gets home, I will have either a sweater or socks knitted for him out of wool I have spun myself and a tin box of chocolates that looks like a frog (he's been spending a lot of time in Vega... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 12:32:43 EST So far, so good... I seem to be doing more moving with the fitbit. I'm not doing well tracking on both sites though. Sooner or later I will find a "happy medium". <BR> <BR> As long as I burn more than I eat, I'm not going to stress too much at this point. <BR> <BR> I have an indoor sale this weekend, not sure if I'm ready...but it seems like no matter what I do, it won't quite be right. I will either have too much or not enough or the wrong things. It's the way it goes. So be it. Whatever happens? Happens. <... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 21:06:51 EST My newest "toy" Is a pink fitbit flex. We'll see how much it helps. It is not exactly user friendly for my learning problem, it comes with one written instruction...Go to <BR> <BR> Isn't that helpful for someone who can't/doesn't learn well from a computer or video??? <BR> <BR> It took me over 2 hours to get it activated and linked. It won't talk to my tablet, but it does talk to my cell phone. <BR> <BR> The biggest problem I had was figuring out what the heck a "dongle" was!!!! They... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 11:22:13 EST Sunday I am too tired to think of a better title. I plan to head to the gym in an hour when they open, but I feel more like copying Leo... <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Doesn't he look comfy? He's enjoying snuggling this morning, yesterday I made him lay on the floor because I was working. I ran over a dozen towels through the embroidery machine. And I ran some errands. <BR> <BR> I got my contacts ordered and paid for. With all this rotten brig... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 07:29:38 EST Momentum I am trying to get mine in a better gear. I am down almost a full pound, so that helps. <BR> <BR> I thought about going back to bed, but that single pound has me wanting more. So as soon as I finish my blog? Off to the pool. Biddies and all. Wondering where I put those earplugs... <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Hubs is planning to send me shopping money later. The younger boy has a college book we need to pay for (the bookstore made an error and gave his to another student, but billed my sons ap... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 09:47:10 EST Karma for my kids... Leo hid one of the younger one's shoes, so he had to wear his canvas converse today for pe first period. He is annoyed because I kept laughing while he was tearing the house apart looking for the shoe before he gave in and wore the others. <BR> <BR> I was nice enough to give him a ride to school. <BR> <BR> The older one stayed out all night. And will be shoveling the snow when he gets up. If he has plans (like work) he better not sleep until the last minute and then take an hour in the bat... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 10:33:03 EST I'm up... More or less. Still not feeling great, but trying to get the energy together to dress and go swim...before the biddy squad gets there. I swear if I get that mean when I'm that age, I want someone to lock me up where the only people who have to deal with me are paid to. Old should not excuse meanness. <BR> <BR> Anyway. I got on the scale. 325.1!!!!! WOO HOO!!!! Careful happy dance, but happy dance nonetheless. <em>334</em> <em>104</em> <em>521</em> <BR> <BR> For me, the biggest thi... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 08:47:49 EST No BK for me! I had to run to green bay today for thread for my machine because no one in the county carries what I needed. I didn't even stop at burger king! <BR> <BR> Not only did I not binge, I didn't have ANYTHING. I did stop at taco bell when I got back to town and got an order of nachos, but I'm logging it. I was getting hungry and knew I wouldn't feel like cooking. It's still a better dinner than BK would have been. I even added an extra serving of tomatoes to it. <BR> <BR> I did slip on the ice... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 20:40:39 EST Fighting back I dragged myself to the gym today since I don't have a fever any more. I got in a good half hour of aerobics in the pool before the perfume drenched gossip group came in. I started sneezing and wheezing so I left. <BR> <BR> But I went!!! And instead of grabbing fast food on the way home? I stopped and got fish to bake with spiced potatoes and tomato for sandwiches this weekend. <BR> <BR> I will keep up with the decongestants and cough suppressant over the weekend too. Monday I will see wha... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 14:21:41 EST Flu...again??? Evidently. I thought I had slept fairly comfortably, I woke up and planned to go swimming. <BR> <BR> Then I got up. Had a coughing fit, spit out the stuff I was able to get up, and realized I have chills and feel like crap. I may have to go out later for tissues and powerade, I'm fairly certain I will run out. <BR> <BR> I think I'm glad I don't have to go out of my house to work. I'm going to curl up on the couch with blankets, a cup of hot broth, and netflix. <BR> <BR> Hope you all av... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 07:55:30 EST Swimsuit season? In january?? In wisconsin?? Yep. <BR> <BR> I had to make a walmart run for some crafting supplies for work and they already had swimsuits out. So I called Hubs. He said get what I needed. So I got bottoms with decent elastic to go with the top of the suit MIL got me and a black tank suit. Now I have plenty of swim gear both for now and as I lose. I am good for the next 60 lbs. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping to feel well enough to go swim tomorrow. Wed, 21 Jan 2015 19:40:16 EST Ready For flu season the be over. I think we are probably all sick and tired of being sick and tired. <BR> <BR> A few reminders-wash your hands frequently <BR> <BR> Don't share cups, straws, utensils. If the boys have been drinking from containers, find something else to drink. <BR> <BR> Keep the germy laundry washed. Those towels hanging in the bathroom to be reused to "save the environment" are just another round of flu bugs waiting to get back on you. Until everyone in the house is healthy, s... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 11:24:24 EST Some days I wonder why I even try making plans to do things for myself. The boys are doing an incredible job of sabotage. I don't know if it's intentional, but it sure is effective. <BR> <BR> The younger one was supposed to have his wash done so I could wash my swim gear (that he said he would bring in from the car and I ended up carrying myself). The older was supposed to not let trash overflow this week. And the two of them promised I would not get stuck doing dishes again. <BR> <BR> So this mor... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 11:37:33 EST Small victories 1-my son dug my portable exerciser out. I only did 2 minutes, but I did it. <BR> <BR> 2-I am trying veggie drinks and found some that aren't absolutely disgusting. A couple are even pretty good! I like the v8 carrot mango, the healthy greens isn't too bad (as long as I don't look at it or smell it, the taste is ok) I haven't tried the Capri sun one yet, but I did buy some. <BR> <BR> 3-I logged all my food for the day. And I bought salad fixings for dinner. <BR> <BR> I'm not in as much pain... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 14:29:31 EST I WAS having a good day Then I got hit by a car. An elderly man chatting with his wife backed out of a parking space without even looking! !! It didn't knock me down, but I will have a bruise for a while. <BR> <BR> He didn't even stop until I pounded on his trunk. Then he stopted and looked confused. He rolled his window down as I was limping to my car and asked if I was ok. I said I wI'll be, but pay attention when you back up!!! <BR> <BR> Sat, 17 Jan 2015 12:20:44 EST Healthy changes to a favorite comfort food That was what I did today. I made lasagna with homemade meatless sauce, added chopped spinach in the cottage/ricotta cheese mix, swapped low fat varieties for all 3 cheeses. And used thin slices of eggplant instead of pasta. I bought myself a few 1 cup Pyrex baking dishes with lids. I made 4 servings. 3 are in the freezer. I had 1 for dinner. <BR> <BR> I loved the spinach in the cheeses. I didn't notice any taste loss for the low fat cheeses, but I was not horribly thrilled with the eggpl... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 18:42:27 EST So, the Dr said... No, it's not the beginning of a joke. Sorry. <BR> <BR> I have been in so much pain lately that I've been closing myself in my room and crying. So I finally called my pain dr and they got me right in. And she chewed me out...kind of. And very compassionately and kindly. She had nothing negative to say about my weight gain, other than "we have got to get your pain under control". <BR> <BR> She was glad I recognized the negative cycle I've gotten back into (pain=less activity=weight gain=more... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 12:43:38 EST Giving up? Giving in? Letting go? Call it anything you like, I am not looking for sympathy or making excuses. I just need to vent. <BR> <BR> The nebraska police are refusing to do anything about our stolen truck. The shop that assisted in the theft is charging continuing fees and has charged that we abandoned the truck. The police said we can pay the 10k fees or give up the truck. <BR> <BR> I have taken down my fundraising page (what little I managed to raise went for postage, copying fees, and faxes). I took the truck phot... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 15:50:27 EST Not my dog? He's really not "supposed to be"... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> What do you think? Thu, 1 Jan 2015 17:55:57 EST So, Pizza Hut is helping with my weight loss How? They changed more of their recipes to be "healthier" and "more flavorful". In a rats a** they did. <BR> <BR> I am not a person who enjoys "trendy" foods. I do not like "world cuisine" mixtures of flavors. I have never been a fan of wafer thin cardboard tasting crust. (Yes, I do know what cardboard pizza crust would taste like. My mother was not the the best cook and would occasionally leave the cardboard under the frozen pizza when she cooked and cut it. Dad didn't appreciate the taste... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 10:46:04 EST Merry Christmas <img src=""> <BR> Yep. Hubs is good. This was definitely worth waiting for. Thu, 25 Dec 2014 19:42:03 EST Ugh. I can't believe I am still up at 0420. The gym opens in just over half an hour, so there is no point in going to sleep now. Especially since I am wide awake and alert. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Maybe after a swim I will be tired and sleepy. If I am too sleepy, I will take a nap in the car. I do not drive tired. I never drive if I've had a drink or certain meds, either. I know too many people who do stuff like that and I refuse to be that irresponsible. <BR> <BR> We found one of my missing sw... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 05:35:05 EST Cold and wet Cold outside, which is "duh! You live in Wisconsin and it is December!" Wet, in the pool. Where I dragged myself and worked for a half hour <BR> <BR> I planned to do more. Wanted to do more. But their Christmas music was on a 20 minute loop. By the time I changed and was in the water, it was half through loop 1, by the time I had done 30 minutes of exercise it was beginning loop 3. I had already had all I could stand. I didn't even hit the whirlpool. Yes. It was that bad. <BR> <BR> Tomorr... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 16:20:02 EST A start A slow one, but it's a start. <BR> <BR> I have already done a coach Nicole spark video and it is just now 6am! I also tracked my breakfast and intended lunch. <BR> <BR> I hear engines outside, so I am guessing I have more exercise later shoveling snow. I will get the boys to do some, if not most. I need to burn calories, not get hurt. <BR> <BR> Hubs should be in sometime tomorrow. He has another treatment Friday morning for the spot the pathologist can't identify. Sigh. It is always somet... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 07:09:46 EST Put one foot in front of the other... <em>335</em> <em>339</em> <em>276</em> I'm sure you recognize the song from the old Christmas cartoon. It resembles my attitude today. One step at a time. <BR> <BR> Today, the step was dragging my big butt (please, no comments about needing to feel good about myself at any size. I have to be honest with myself if I am going to change) into the kitchen and making lower calorie foods for while I'm knitting socks for Christmas presents. <BR> <BR> I pulled out 2 slices of salami-turkey ... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 12:58:26 EST This is creepy My mother is having family send her video of my aunt's memorial service. That is creepier than taking photos at a funeral! Ewww! <BR> <BR> I get it with celebrities and royalty and such, but not for us "regular folk". My southern relatives taking photos at funerals used to really give me the willeys, too. <BR> <BR> I understand wanting photos of the flowers and such, but not while people are there. <BR> <BR> And if you want photos with people who you don't see often that came, go outsi... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 09:32:21 EST Finally got my boy home... Neither of us is happy with frontier airlines. But he is home and safe. And his boss is willing to let him make up the hours he lost. <BR> <BR> The airline only answers customer service calls from 8-11am and is refusing to return calls or answer email so far. We gave them over 24 hours to respond, then posted negative review with the facts. I also opted out of having them appear whenever I do a travel search from now on. <BR> <BR> My Aunts memorial service is later today out in California. ... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 03:58:39 EST Worst airline ever? Probably frontier. They scheduled their connecting flights too close together and let the Milwaukee flight leave early, closing the doors 20 minutes before the departure and refusing connecting passengers boarding. My 18th old foster son is stranded overnight. And I am already in milwaukee. Now we are having to pay for hotels in 2 states because the airline is so bad. <BR> <BR> Tried getting customer service and was told they are only available 8 am to 11 am mon thru fri. Way beyond po'd at ... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 00:32:12 EST Discoveries I have learned some things while I was AWOL. <BR> <BR> COOK Kale before trying to eat it. It's not nearly as gross. Also use small amounts until it "grows" on you to like. <BR> <BR> If your son's dog pees on your space heater...get a new space heater (or put it where son uses it) because you will NEVER get the smell out. Use your imagination, I'm not even going to try describing the scent! <BR> <BR> Any time you get through thanksgiving with minimal family drama-they saved it for christmas... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 07:13:15 EST Holy cow! I just realized that I have been "bad" and AWOL for nearly a month again. I did spend the last 2 weeks with Hubs home, but it didn't go as planned...again...sigh. <BR> <BR> While we DID accomplish a lot, the really necessary things did not get usual. I am really trying to focus on what DID get done. But his dinking around about his rig and title and such is driving me bat crap crazy!!! It's a good thing I love him to distraction. <BR> <BR> Another thing that didn't happen? Ge... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 10:58:24 EST Fat does NOT always mean unfit!!! I had to go for my CDL physical today and the anorexic looking provider in the knee high spiked heel boots decided I have sleep apnea and is taking away my truck license unless I have a sleep study done. <BR> <BR> I have issues with being told by someone who DOES NOT KNOW ME or my history being allowed to screw with my life like this. <BR> <BR> I have a really bad cold right now, so she decided I always have this much trouble breathing. <BR> <BR> I have to have a sleeping partner fill out... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 23:57:36 EST Almost friday And I made it through the week. Today was dicey, I took the boys to green bay to Christmas shop. What was I thinking? !??!! <BR> <BR> I got several things at St vincents. Mout importantly-some old college textbooks with workbooks to learn the accounting I need for my business. Got an electric indoor grill too. Not one of those foreman things. I had one of those and hated it. This one actually makes things grilled not glorified ironed. <BR> <BR> Got some craft things I need for my busines... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 00:56:29 EST Eh, I will get there... Eventually. I'm working on the grocery list. Nothing healthy sounds good right now. We are all battling colds(hoping none of us end up with flu). <BR> <BR> So things like soda, ice cream, Popsicles, etc are sounding good. Juice too, but the calories are horrendous for the quantities we are drinking. Between water and tea, I had 14 cups today! <BR> <BR> I will probably pick up some sugar free Gatorade or Powerade. More tea mix. Bananas, mixed raw veggies, a few small apples. Cheese and soups... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 22:23:23 EST Maybe later... My alarm went off at 0430 and I actually woke up and rolled out of bed...and immediately regretted it. My head feels like it has a very tiny, very angry person with a very large hammer, having a tantrum in it. <BR> <BR> I got up, went to the bathroom, went to the kitchen and drank my grapefruit juice, then came back in my room and will be going back to bed for a while. Hot one minute, chills the next, wheezing and aching is not a good mix for going to the gym. We'll see how I feel after some... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 05:56:04 EST