SENIMMO's SparkPeople Blog SENIMMO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 8k ?! That's what my activity tracker says I did today! I have been basically sedentary and was starting back slowly. My average when I decided to get moving more was under 2k. I had been maintaining 3 the last week and was going for 3500 to 4k this week. <BR> <BR> Then I blew that out of the water today. I'm paying for it, ow, lol. But I DID it. And soon, 8k will be average and eventually, it will be a slow day. <BR> <BR> I can do this. Its going to take time, but I can do it! <BR> <BR> <em... Sun, 17 Jun 2018 20:49:39 EST Major nsv- That will help result in a scale victory! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I found these at dollar tree! 250 calories, chicken sausage middles. They taste great, nuke in less than 2 minutes (directions say 1, but I have a little microwave). <BR> <BR> This is going to majorly help my food efforts, especially on market days! I can nuke a pack of these, grab a cocoa packet, hit the drive through for black coffee to mix ... Fri, 15 Jun 2018 07:50:59 EST Change is coming... They're "upgrading" our beloved sparksite. Sigh. I had JUST figured out how to navigate the LAST round of "improvements" (that did NOT improve squat!!!) <BR> <BR> I really do NOT have time to relearn AGAIN, but it's not like we get a choice. Actually, we DO. Adjust or quit. Quitting needs to not happen. <BR> <BR> So, forced adaptation it is. It is going to be a major setback for me (and probably many others) because I can either skip workouts to spend the time learning to use the "new an... Thu, 14 Jun 2018 09:17:43 EST Slow and careful day I worked in my shop, even with the injured hand. I decided to take tomorrow off from the market and let the hand heal more before I load and unload and set up. I also limited what I did and rested the hand frequently. <BR> <BR> Son came over after work and broke seals on water bottles for me, so that will help limit the OW factor, lol. <BR> <BR> We shall see how tomorrow goes... <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Tue, 12 Jun 2018 20:15:32 EST Well, THAT didn't go as planned... I smashed 2 of my fingers yesterday. Got xrays, no breaks, but... <BR> <BR> Yeah, I really loathe those "but"s. I was going to just splint the fingers and go in to work. Um...not happening. <BR> <BR> By the time I managedto get them wrapped (as suggested by Dr, but they don't do it FOR you any more), I was in enough pain that I vomited down the front of my shirt. Sigh. <BR> <BR> Clothing in the washer, shower taken, ice pack on hand. <BR> <BR> I'm evidently taking the day off. <em>198</e... Mon, 11 Jun 2018 10:52:25 EST Adapting I managed to adjust our budget, get the necessarythings paid on time, not lose my mind, stop myself mid-binge, AND be ready for work today. <BR> <BR> I really AM getting better. <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Sun, 10 Jun 2018 06:01:15 EST So... The plans got tanked, or at least seriously derailed or turned into a roller coaster. It is what it is. <BR> <BR> My hoops came, so I will be doing some product development. My shoes also came...they are beautiful, but make my feet hurt. Sigh. Hopefully getting more active will help make them hurt less... <BR> <BR> I grabbed tea instead of coffee with additives, so hoping that helps me feel better. We will see. <BR> <BR> For now? Concentrate on the good, work on the eh, ignore the ne... Sat, 9 Jun 2018 07:54:52 EST Not thrilled I made the call this morning about going to drive wirh Hubs. We were given bad info, it's not going to be happening. Sigh. <BR> <BR> Not a fan of being lied to. <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> On the plus side, they came and did my yard this morning and it freaking looks amazing!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Taking positives where I can find them. Oh, and I started my day with 20 minutes in the pool, so the stress migraine now is the worst of my day. It will go away and my day will improve. Thu, 7 Jun 2018 14:18:17 EST Problem solving- The lawn mower died from being left out all winter (again). Was trying to figure out a way to keep up with mowing without a lot of money or extra work. <BR> <BR> Thought about calling the folks that plowed for me, decided to do that tomorrow. Sat down to relax for a while and someone knocked at the door? Answered it and it was them! They stopped to say they were starting to do lawn care this year and would I be interested? <BR> <BR> They gave me a very reasonable rate, so I hired them on... Wed, 6 Jun 2018 19:39:58 EST Back to work? So, Hubs and I are looking into what is involved for me to go back to driving with him. <BR> <BR> One of the potential "sticking points" is my lack of current driving experience. I have a plan for that, Monday I start driving the Habitat truck once or twice a week for deliveries. <BR> <BR> Second potential issue? DOT physical. I'm going to be working on my weight and water consumption and will go get that done in a few days/weeks. <BR> <BR> Let's see what happens... <BR> <BR> <BR> <... Tue, 5 Jun 2018 16:46:13 EST Look what came in the mail!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I cried. Daddy would have been proud of me. Hubs and son are proud of me. And me? I am freaking AMAZED at myself!!! <BR> <BR> Now, a summer of less stress, no school, more work. Then I will decide what comes next. <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Mon, 4 Jun 2018 20:12:59 EST Tired, but good. Second market of the weekend. Consecutive days is always hard especially when I am in recovery mode. The knees are still a bit unhappy from the 3 hours of standing at graduation, but I managed to unload, set up, get up and down chasing things in the wind for 4 hours, pack, and reload -all by myself! I did have a friend move my car out to the parking lot and back, though. <BR> <BR> Sales weren't great, but not bad, either. It will take some time, but I will get better at it. And Hubs' squa... Sun, 3 Jun 2018 15:04:16 EST Managing... So far, I haven't binged from the stress over Hubs' cancer, I'm back under 320, AND I managed the market alone today! <BR> <BR> Slowly, but surely, I will get through it all. <BR> <BR> Here's hoping tomorrow goes well!! <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend, sparkies! <em>593</em> Sat, 2 Jun 2018 14:53:45 EST Praying hard- So, about an hour ago, we got a phone call that has me seriously scared. <BR> <BR> Hubs had 7 skin cancer spots removed to be biopsied the day I graduated. We expected them to be basal cell carcinoma, the usual, which we don't worry abour overly. We've dealt with literally hundreds of those, it's really no big deal. <BR> <BR> These 7 spots came back as squamous cell carcinoma. They can go rogue and metastasize quickly. They need to be treated asap. Hubs is on his way out for freight a... Wed, 30 May 2018 20:06:35 EST Battling stress- I am really trying to not let it get to me, but it is what it is. Hubs did more at the house than usual, but also left more of a mess. *sigh* <BR> <BR> I asked a friend to go swimming with me tomorrow, so that's planned for 0630 to help me deal with the stress. <BR> <BR> I made son a batch of crab salad for his dungeons and dragons game tonight as a treat for his birthday coming up. Tomorrow at midnight we will go to friend's bar for son's first drink. Saturday and sunday will be markets fo... Thu, 24 May 2018 19:35:08 EST We are building a house!! No, not for ourselves. We are involved with Habitat for Humanity and this year's partner family just got approved! <BR> <BR> We are building a house!! I'm going to help make meals for the build crew for mornings, since I'm a morning person and most people aren't, lol. <BR> <BR> I'm going to make healthier versions of simple foods for them instead of donuts and pastries all the time. <BR> <BR> My plan is breakfast casseroles made with diet bread, eggs, veggies, and turkey sausage or turkey... Mon, 21 May 2018 13:14:59 EST Better weather! Still chilly, but sunny! <BR> <BR> Lady finally made it to pick up her amigurumi order (whole Rudolph cast), so it was a good day. <BR> <BR> Hubs is willing to finish market and pack up, so I am going to go to the pool and work on the house! <BR> <BR> He makes me crazy, but Hubs is good. <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Sun, 20 May 2018 13:17:20 EST Opening day of the tourist season And it rained. Crazy cold, too. Sales were off from last year, but pretty good considering the weather! <BR> <BR> Hoping for a better day tomorrow. Dressing MUCH warmer, that's for sure!! <BR> <BR> Funny how I get so much colder now than 40lbs ago. I'm going to be a human popsicle by the time i get to goal weight, lol. <BR> <BR> Have a restful night, sparkies! <em>593</em> Sat, 19 May 2018 19:36:05 EST On to the next step <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> Officially a graduate!! <em>590</em> Thu, 17 May 2018 06:35:40 EST Almost there! 5 more hours til graduation ceremony starts. It should take about an hour, so 6 hours and I'm done!!! <BR> <BR> <em>58</em> <em>590</em> <BR> <BR> An hour and half until graduation check-in <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 16 May 2018 13:56:08 EST YAY ME!!! So, I'm getting ready to take my VERY LAST test for my accounting degree! <BR> <BR> And my Honors regalia is MIA, still. Sigh. I'm honestly thinking about not bothering with it. Hubs has my kitchen still torn all to heck and gone, he started doing the floor, then "got tired". Sigh. I love him, he makes me crazy. It is what it is. <BR> <BR> I'm deciding which of my cute short dresses to wear tomorrow. It will probably be one of the two pink ones. Either the pastel tie dye pink and white or t... Tue, 15 May 2018 10:02:40 EST Yay! I'm on the graduate list. 46 more hours. <BR> <BR> I've got this. <BR> <BR> <em>590</em> <em>58</em> <em>224</em> Mon, 14 May 2018 21:20:02 EST Yay! I'm on the graduate list. 46 more hours. <BR> <BR> I've got this. <BR> <BR> <em>590</em> <em>58</em> <em>224</em> Mon, 14 May 2018 21:19:59 EST About time, guys! Hubs is finally working on my kitchen. The stove and freezer are moved, the new tile is down under that space. The old fridge is empty, ready to go out. The little fridge is ready to go on top of the freezer (after it gets defrosted and wiped off). <BR> <BR> He's taking his time, but at least its finally getting done!!! <BR> <BR> Have a great day, sparkies! <em>593</em> Sun, 13 May 2018 11:51:38 EST Oh FFS :-/ Turns out I may not get to graduate Wednesday after all. I had asked academic advisor a few months ago if I needed anything else to graduate. She said no. Turns out there was a form that needed to be filed. No way to find out if it actually got done or not until Monday. If it didn't, it is too late and I don't get to participate. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> It is what it is. I guess I wait until Monday to find out. Sigh. Sat, 12 May 2018 20:42:07 EST TGIF! I am SO glad it's Friday. Even though I had to do a presentation today. I had an awesome study partner that worked with me for it. So, the presentation is OVER. I don't know what the grade will be, but I'm sure I passed. I'm good with that. <BR> <BR> I have to wait for a few things to get graded yet and I have one more test to take that hasn't been made available yet. I'm good with that. <BR> <BR> Hubs will be in at some point tonight, so YAY!! I get to spend time with Hubs!! <BR> <BR> Bo... Fri, 11 May 2018 16:01:26 EST Commiserating- For good or bad, the classmate that's working on tomorrow's project with me had her very first anxiety attack of her life this week. She's struggling with the anger, tears, and general useless/helpless feeling that goes with them. <BR> <BR> I told her to CALL me if she needs to talk/vent. With the panic attacks I've been having over the construction on campus and having to take anti-anxiety meds all semeser, I TOTALLY get what she's going through! <BR> <BR> Poor thing. I feel for her. So I ... Thu, 10 May 2018 15:27:46 EST Better today, I hope So, yeah. I tried really hard yesterday to fake my way through and be okay. I managed (barely), but around 3, I finally lost it and fell apart. It was the 1 year anniversary of mom's passing. <BR> <BR> Those of you who know me, know that my mom was not a nice person. I loved her, but she was very manipulative and abusive. It was a difficult relationship. Recovering from that kind of toxicity is hard. <BR> <BR> I had made HUGE strides towards being emotionally healthy before she passed. Main... Wed, 9 May 2018 11:40:24 EST OMG-So scattered! My brain is just not wanting to function today. I know it's just nerves and all the usual stuff that goes on with big life changes. I'm just not liking the way it feels. <BR> <BR> Part of it is still having to take the anti-anxiety meds for the claustrophobia the campus construction causes me. Still don't have the dosage worked out quite right. Sigh. Is it really that much to ask? Do the construction at night or close the flipping campus until it's done. I'm not the only one who's unhappy a... Tue, 8 May 2018 11:20:17 EST Antsy- That's what I am again today. I've got a severe case of "senioritis". I am SO ready to be done with school! <BR> <BR> Of course, I'm already enrolled in classes for the fall for one of my other two majors, lol. <BR> <BR> Hubs should be home in a few more days, so YAY!! <BR> <BR> I took my last business tax class today. It wasn't pretty, but I'm fairly sure I will still pass... <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I will go crank out the last of my managerial accounting class, update my resume and get it ... Mon, 7 May 2018 14:56:42 EST Vacation recovery I just got back home, time to recover! Son and I had a great trip overall. He was shocked that I didn't dwell and focus on the negatives. I TOLD him I was making changes, lol. <BR> <BR> I will post more about the trip later. Right now all I want to do is sleep, but first I have to cuddle the dog and cat. They are both trying to get in my lap at the same time, so I better get off Spark and on to the petting! <BR> <BR> Have a great night! <em>593</em> Sun, 6 May 2018 20:37:50 EST Focusing on positives So. The visit with the family was great. The rock and gem show was mostly fantastic. A few other customers were those "crystals have magic powers" and "this kind of crystal cures ______" and kept LOUDLY stating their opinions in my ear. (For the record, I am a scientist. Crystal structures can focus certain types of energy, but they have not been proven to have "magic power" or cure any disease, especially cancer). They kind of detracted from my enjoyment, but avoiding them helped. The peop... Sat, 5 May 2018 20:58:55 EST Totally worth it! So, we got to niece's on thursday afternoon. Stayed with them overnight and had a wonderful visit. Left after lunch and drove to Kalamazoo. Checked into hotel, made sandwiches for dinner, tried going to the pool...the floor was filthy and there were guests drinking beer in the pool. They apparently had already had "a few" and had opened the security doors to the outside and blocked them open. Its clearly posted no food or drinks and the doors are emergency exits only (the pool room door needs... Sat, 5 May 2018 07:26:05 EST It's OFFICIAL!!! I just turned in most of the remaining assignments for the rest of the semester. I have enough points in all the classes for passing grades, even if I don't do another thing in any of them! <BR> <BR> Since I just found out my younger niece was in a rollover car wreck with her 2 year old daughter and my older niece is having stress related pregnancy issues over the worry, I am bailing on my classes for the rest of this week and going to Ohio to be with my family. <BR> <BR> I will still find... Tue, 1 May 2018 11:44:47 EST Three in a row? Yep. I'm loving it, even though it's a little scary! <BR> <BR> Today, I was able to get a small upright freezer that will work with my dorm size fridge to help remodel in my kitchen! Since most of what I buy has to be portioned and stored, freezer space is more important to me than fridge space. So, <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> We uploaded the habitat logo and requested a quote to digitize it for my embroidery machines. <BR> <BR> I'm ahead on most of my classwork. I need 70 points to pass my... Mon, 30 Apr 2018 12:43:13 EST Another day of awesome! I went shopping again today, but today son and our friend went with us. We got shoes for son for walking next weekend on vacation, under $100. Victory! <BR> <BR> Got earrings and a graduate charm, another win. <BR> <BR> Tried on a few more dresses, one really formal mermaid style in a 24. It was too big, so I passed. Got a long sundress and a gorgeous blue chiffon overlay dress. And spanx, lol. <BR> <BR> I also got materials for making inventory...and another machine... <em>2</em> <... Sun, 29 Apr 2018 19:43:42 EST Are you kidding me??? I went clothes shopping today. I needed something to wear for graduation in 2 weeks. I was not optimistic. <BR> <BR> The last time I went shopping, I ended up "settling" for something that "didn't look too bad". I was in the biggest size the store carried (specialty large store). And nothing pretty or cute would fit. I was upset and went and cried. <BR> <BR> That was 40lbs ago. <BR> <BR> Today? Today I bought 3x tops at Kohls, a REGULAR STORE! Yeah, in the plus department, but 40lbs ago... Sat, 28 Apr 2018 18:06:14 EST Overcoming issues SO, the construction has chemical smells today, which is giving me a migraine. Yay. I'm sticking it out as much as I can. We did get the project done and I got most of my assignments done and in. I'm still totally willing to sacrifice my GPA by bailing as soon as I have the points to get a D or C. That's 600 or 700 points. I currently have 400, and there are over 200 points of assignments pending grading. <BR> <BR> It would be different if it weren't causing me physical problems. I can't tak... Fri, 27 Apr 2018 14:27:35 EST Just Sigh... I realized this morning that though my attitude is a bit better, my actions and the results are the same. I'm not losing, I crept back to nearly 325 from 319, and I'm just not accomplishing what I should be. <BR> <BR> I've looked at the situations objectively and the only thing that I can come up with that could be my problem is the campus situation. They keep tearing more things up, still haven't put ANY of the ceiling back together, are dropping MORE of the celings (I'm honestly not even f... Thu, 26 Apr 2018 09:04:17 EST Almost there- No, not the weight goal. We aren't talking about that right now. Since the weekend I was snowed in, got stupid and tried digging myself out (we had over 30 inches of snow, then the drifts and the city plowing all of the excess snow from the other 3 corners onto mine <em>28</em> ) I am back up to nearly 325. I was under 320 before that. Sigh. It is what it is. When I got on the scale the day after I shoveled, I was back up at 329! I knew that was fluid, so I didn't beat myself up over it. S... Tue, 24 Apr 2018 09:08:16 EST Works in progress Lots of them, right now! <BR> <BR> Graduating, it's still in process, but I'm starting to feel like I'll make it. Not totally confident, they keep making the campus worse for my claustophobia (they are putting in even MORE dropped ceilings, I can LITERALLY touch them when I wear "grown up shoes" (anything with heels of 2") and I'm only 5'4"!?! But they wanted it to be "upscale and modern". Evidently that means cramped and terrifying for anyone with an anxiety disorder). I am doing what I ca... Mon, 23 Apr 2018 10:20:38 EST So tired Went down tp Herrschners and bought a ton of their yarn to sell in my shop. Obviously, it will cost more from my shop than from them direct, but its a better quality than what walmart has. <BR> <BR> Will post pics later this week, after I get the stuff organized! <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Sun, 22 Apr 2018 19:27:25 EST Market done The last winter market is over. Now to start gearing up for the tourist season... <BR> <BR> And finish college at the same time... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> <em>58</em> <em>593</em> Sat, 21 Apr 2018 14:41:03 EST Thank goodness for weeekends! I have a market tomorrow and I had a TON of homework this week. I am SO needing to get off the campus! <BR> <BR> I'm going to finish a quick blog now that class is over and I'm going to do what I can to get ready for the market and then just take sunday and relax! <BR> <BR> I SO need this semester to get done. <BR> <BR> I can make it, right? <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Fri, 20 Apr 2018 16:57:07 EST I may make it?! I am starting to think I may make it to graduate, after all! <BR> <BR> I have one more business tax project to do, I have three more creative thinking classes to survive, one term paper to write, two more computer tax projects to enter into the computer, and two more chapters in managerial accounting to get through. <BR> <BR> I may actually manage to get it done! <BR> <BR> I'm not working on the campus when I don't HAVE to, the construction is worse by the day. The tutor came and worked w... Thu, 19 Apr 2018 14:38:57 EST Waiting on the weather... The forecast varies, depending on the station or website. Anywhere from "little or no accumulation" to "approximately 6 inches". <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> The weight is still up, but it's still fine. I am still having issues with swelling, so I'm not worrying about it. Once the body is done repairing itself, it will shed the excess fluid and the weight will come back down. <BR> <BR> I made a copy of the afghan I won an award for 23 years ago and we're raffling it off for the local Habitat... Wed, 18 Apr 2018 17:16:04 EST And more snow coming? Yep. Tonight's forecast is ANOTHER 6". Sigh. I want that groundhog in a stewpot! <BR> <BR> I did a lot more shoveling over the weekend than I had any business trying to do, but it needed doing. I did finally find help, a friend sent me the name of someone that had posted a facebook ad offering to plow. I called to see if they could snowblow or shovel sidewalks as well and they did. They helped finish getting through the plowed pile of ice out in front of my house, so the mailman can get to t... Tue, 17 Apr 2018 15:41:27 EST More exercise From this <img src=""> <BR> I managed this <BR> <img src="">and <img src=""> <BR> It may not look like much from the pictures, but I'm sure feeling it! And SO much more to shovel. Ugh. <BR> <BR> My weight was up today, but I'm not going to beat myself up ov... Mon, 16 Apr 2018 13:16:07 EST Yesterday's exercise <img src=""> <BR> It took me 4 trips, multiple pairs of dry pants, and I'm feeling it today! <BR> <BR> And its been blowing, drifting, and another foot expected before done?! <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Sun, 15 Apr 2018 11:35:46 EST What the??? <img src=""> <BR> I may finish digging out in time for class monday... <BR> <BR> At least I am getting exercise, lol. <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> <em>576</em> Sat, 14 Apr 2018 12:29:06 EST