SENIMMO's SparkPeople Blog SENIMMO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Ugh. I can't believe I am still up at 0420. The gym opens in just over half an hour, so there is no point in going to sleep now. Especially since I am wide awake and alert. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Maybe after a swim I will be tired and sleepy. If I am too sleepy, I will take a nap in the car. I do not drive tired. I never drive if I've had a drink or certain meds, either. I know too many people who do stuff like that and I refuse to be that irresponsible. <BR> <BR> We found one of my missing sw... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 05:35:05 EST Cold and wet Cold outside, which is "duh! You live in Wisconsin and it is December!" Wet, in the pool. Where I dragged myself and worked for a half hour <BR> <BR> I planned to do more. Wanted to do more. But their Christmas music was on a 20 minute loop. By the time I changed and was in the water, it was half through loop 1, by the time I had done 30 minutes of exercise it was beginning loop 3. I had already had all I could stand. I didn't even hit the whirlpool. Yes. It was that bad. <BR> <BR> Tomorr... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 16:20:02 EST A start A slow one, but it's a start. <BR> <BR> I have already done a coach Nicole spark video and it is just now 6am! I also tracked my breakfast and intended lunch. <BR> <BR> I hear engines outside, so I am guessing I have more exercise later shoveling snow. I will get the boys to do some, if not most. I need to burn calories, not get hurt. <BR> <BR> Hubs should be in sometime tomorrow. He has another treatment Friday morning for the spot the pathologist can't identify. Sigh. It is always somet... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 07:09:46 EST Put one foot in front of the other... <em>335</em> <em>339</em> <em>276</em> I'm sure you recognize the song from the old Christmas cartoon. It resembles my attitude today. One step at a time. <BR> <BR> Today, the step was dragging my big butt (please, no comments about needing to feel good about myself at any size. I have to be honest with myself if I am going to change) into the kitchen and making lower calorie foods for while I'm knitting socks for Christmas presents. <BR> <BR> I pulled out 2 slices of salami-turkey ... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 12:58:26 EST This is creepy My mother is having family send her video of my aunt's memorial service. That is creepier than taking photos at a funeral! Ewww! <BR> <BR> I get it with celebrities and royalty and such, but not for us "regular folk". My southern relatives taking photos at funerals used to really give me the willeys, too. <BR> <BR> I understand wanting photos of the flowers and such, but not while people are there. <BR> <BR> And if you want photos with people who you don't see often that came, go outsi... Mon, 15 Dec 2014 09:32:21 EST Finally got my boy home... Neither of us is happy with frontier airlines. But he is home and safe. And his boss is willing to let him make up the hours he lost. <BR> <BR> The airline only answers customer service calls from 8-11am and is refusing to return calls or answer email so far. We gave them over 24 hours to respond, then posted negative review with the facts. I also opted out of having them appear whenever I do a travel search from now on. <BR> <BR> My Aunts memorial service is later today out in California. ... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 03:58:39 EST Worst airline ever? Probably frontier. They scheduled their connecting flights too close together and let the Milwaukee flight leave early, closing the doors 20 minutes before the departure and refusing connecting passengers boarding. My 18th old foster son is stranded overnight. And I am already in milwaukee. Now we are having to pay for hotels in 2 states because the airline is so bad. <BR> <BR> Tried getting customer service and was told they are only available 8 am to 11 am mon thru fri. Way beyond po'd at ... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 00:32:12 EST Discoveries I have learned some things while I was AWOL. <BR> <BR> COOK Kale before trying to eat it. It's not nearly as gross. Also use small amounts until it "grows" on you to like. <BR> <BR> If your son's dog pees on your space heater...get a new space heater (or put it where son uses it) because you will NEVER get the smell out. Use your imagination, I'm not even going to try describing the scent! <BR> <BR> Any time you get through thanksgiving with minimal family drama-they saved it for christmas... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 07:13:15 EST Holy cow! I just realized that I have been "bad" and AWOL for nearly a month again. I did spend the last 2 weeks with Hubs home, but it didn't go as planned...again...sigh. <BR> <BR> While we DID accomplish a lot, the really necessary things did not get usual. I am really trying to focus on what DID get done. But his dinking around about his rig and title and such is driving me bat crap crazy!!! It's a good thing I love him to distraction. <BR> <BR> Another thing that didn't happen? Ge... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 10:58:24 EST Fat does NOT always mean unfit!!! I had to go for my CDL physical today and the anorexic looking provider in the knee high spiked heel boots decided I have sleep apnea and is taking away my truck license unless I have a sleep study done. <BR> <BR> I have issues with being told by someone who DOES NOT KNOW ME or my history being allowed to screw with my life like this. <BR> <BR> I have a really bad cold right now, so she decided I always have this much trouble breathing. <BR> <BR> I have to have a sleeping partner fill out... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 23:57:36 EST Almost friday And I made it through the week. Today was dicey, I took the boys to green bay to Christmas shop. What was I thinking? !??!! <BR> <BR> I got several things at St vincents. Mout importantly-some old college textbooks with workbooks to learn the accounting I need for my business. Got an electric indoor grill too. Not one of those foreman things. I had one of those and hated it. This one actually makes things grilled not glorified ironed. <BR> <BR> Got some craft things I need for my busines... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 00:56:29 EST Eh, I will get there... Eventually. I'm working on the grocery list. Nothing healthy sounds good right now. We are all battling colds(hoping none of us end up with flu). <BR> <BR> So things like soda, ice cream, Popsicles, etc are sounding good. Juice too, but the calories are horrendous for the quantities we are drinking. Between water and tea, I had 14 cups today! <BR> <BR> I will probably pick up some sugar free Gatorade or Powerade. More tea mix. Bananas, mixed raw veggies, a few small apples. Cheese and soups... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 22:23:23 EST Maybe later... My alarm went off at 0430 and I actually woke up and rolled out of bed...and immediately regretted it. My head feels like it has a very tiny, very angry person with a very large hammer, having a tantrum in it. <BR> <BR> I got up, went to the bathroom, went to the kitchen and drank my grapefruit juice, then came back in my room and will be going back to bed for a while. Hot one minute, chills the next, wheezing and aching is not a good mix for going to the gym. We'll see how I feel after some... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 05:56:04 EST So Hubs is helping Me get motivated. He is out for who knows how long on freight, but agreed to work out with me. <BR> <BR> So today we went for a walk. I only made it up 2 blocks and back, but it's a start. He made 4 laps around the parking lot down at Landstar. Now, if we can get each other to do it every day... <BR> <BR> I had to grab my inhaler when I got back. There is a no burn policy in our town, but it's pretty much ignored. Great for my allergy asthma...NOT! <BR> <BR> tomorrow I will go to the po... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 14:11:35 EST Slowing down... In lots of situations is much easier said than done...and in others (like weight loss) is much easier done than said. So confusing. <BR> <BR> While I need to ramp up my weight loss (which will be very hard to track since the boys broke me scale <em>234</em> don't ask-I have no clue) I need to slow down on other things. Cooking-need to relearn how to not cook for an army. Eating-goes along with the cooking...need to feed dogs more <em>334</em> . Spinning-yeah. Until <em>345</em> MIL ... Thu, 30 Oct 2014 11:10:30 EST Spinning wheels So by next now, everyone should know Amazing, Incredible, Fantastic, Awesome Hubs got me a spinning wheel for an early Christmas present. <BR> <BR> I have not been spinning get much with it. It kept coming apart. The problems are 1 I spin backwards and 2 I spin way too fast for the poor thing to keep up. <BR> <BR> So, I fixed it. It doesn't help that it turns out it is made with particle boand and not real wood. And I am working on learning to spin in the opposite direction. It's not goi... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 09:19:42 EST Getting there- It's the last market weekend and I am SO ready to be done! I may take the whole next week and do nothing but sleep. <BR> <BR> I plan (yeah. There's that word again) to spend the winter concentrating on me. Eating better and getting to the gym. I know I can take this weight off and I know how to do it. I just have to DO it. <BR> <BR> My computer and router aren't on speaking terms, so blogging and logging haven't been happening. Having extra time to be able to do it on the phone or tablet (... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 06:16:47 EST RAINED out So, weather forecast said rain would be gone by 730. They lied. It is still pouring and no sign of it letting up. No one else came and I am not staying. Maybe next week... <BR> <BR> I will go home, do more laundry, fix a healthy lunch, and maybe start on Christmas presents... <BR> <BR> Have a warm, dry day. Wed, 15 Oct 2014 09:39:59 EST Finally! The end is near- Tomorrow is the last of my Wednesday markets. I have 2 more Saturdays and am deciding if I am doing 1 or 2 more sundays...or 3... <BR> <BR> Sales this season were way off because the sweaters are mia, last year I sold 6 of them at 200-300 because they are 100% wool. That isn't a bad price for hand knit real wool. They last for decades if they are taken care of properly. <BR> <BR> I'm taking another rest day today. Trying to get my pain level under control. Evidently, neuropathy doesn't like... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 11:14:18 EST Everything but my weight loss... Is going a little better. I knew it would. I just had to hang on, keep praying, and believe. <BR> <BR> Saturday sales weren't great, but they were better. Enough that I was able to pay both boys for helping with takedown and loading (I gave them coffee money, which I probably would have given them without the work, so I was very happy with the work!). I ended up taking the younger one to green bay for him to start Christmas shopping and to get some hats for winter at the Halloween store (d... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 09:39:01 EST Another Saturday Another Farmer's Market. I have decisions to make over the winter. Mainly to keep doing the market in town or not. If I keep doing it, I have to decide if I want to keep sharing the same space with the "friend" I've been sharing with for 2 years. My sales have gone down by over 30% each year being next to her. <BR> <BR> It doesn't make sense. At my northern market, I'm in even less space sharing with my Baker friend and my sales are fine. I think it's the person , not the lack of space. She... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 06:18:27 EST So, my intended Sparkbreak Was much shorter than I planned. While I am not doing well with my weight loss, I am doing better with being accountable for my lack of ambition. <BR> <BR> Motivation is just not there right now for much of anything. Not dieting, not working out, not even working or shopping ( Though I did do some serious spending yesterday). <BR> <BR> Hubs sent me $ for the younger boy's weekend in Wisconsin dells and told me to use the rest to go to green bay and shop for supplies for my business for... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 06:54:01 EST Sometimes the right thing is the hardest to do. I will most likely be taking an extended SparkBreak. I just got home from having to put my dog, Hazel to sleep. <BR> <BR> I know in my head it was the right thing to do, but my heart is not on board with the decision. <BR> <BR> She has been getting lost in her own house, stuck in corners, running into walls and furniture, falling when she walks, and having to be picked up and lifted down from the porch (not that I mind doing that!). She hasn't wagged her tail in so long, I don't remember th... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 17:05:52 EST I survived the weekend...barely! Unfortunately, the title is literal. I am allergic to bees and got stung saturday while at the festival. Of course, it happened only an hour into the show! I had my epipens with me and had to take both doses of that, benadryl, my inhaler, and had to go to the hospital in a rescue squad. They had to give me a breathing treatment in route and tried (unsuccessfully) THREE times to start an iv line. It was a rough day. <BR> <BR> I was released after several hours in the ER, massive steroids, ant... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 10:42:15 EST Wednesday Had market today, sales were practically nonexistent, but that's ok. If I had sold a lot today, I would be killing myself trying to get more done for the weekend. That would not be fun. <BR> <BR> I'm having a lot of the neuropathy pain, so that stinks. And my mom started in again today. <BR> <BR> She was po'd that her package didn't get there, so she texted me at work. I sent her a picture of the receipt from the post office saying that it should be there today and I called the tracking num... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 21:42:02 EST Ok I'm up... And I've already nagged boys to put trash out (and the extra over flowing bags from the house out too!) Which they did without too much grumbling. Got them to make sure washer and dryer are free for me to use (SCORE!!) took older one to work (in exchange for the extra household chores that did take him some time)and went on a store run. Also got the change for tomorrow's market and shopped online already this morning. <BR> <BR> I have business cards coming that will get here before my weeken... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 10:17:39 EST What is it about the middle of the night- that makes me have massive munchie attacks? <BR> <BR> Actually it's a rhetorical question. I know what it is most of the time. It's the meds. I can't take them on an empty stomach or they make me sick, so I have to have something with them. I tried just having a cracker or two andthat doesn't work. It has to be something a bit more substantial than crackers or yogurt. <BR> <BR> I'm learning to budget my calories to allow for it. which means aiming for the low end of my allotment and giving ... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 02:52:15 EST Eh. There's always tomorrow Or in the case of my market sales, next week. Of course it's the last week of the season for my best market next week. Not sure how I feel about that.. <BR> <BR> Today was rainy to start and cold/very windy throughout. Not a lot of sales, but paid for gas. <BR> <BR> Tried making bank deposit through AT and it kept spitting my $ back out, after the umpteenth try, it gave up and kept my cash! Ugh. <BR> <BR> Came home and tried to order towels. They said that wouldn't get here until next... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 17:19:01 EST I was offline HOW long?? I logged into Spark when I got home and done with all the errands, packing Hubs off to work, dealing with mama drama (justifiable surprisingly for her) kids, computers, work, banking, budgeting, etc., ad nauseum. sigh. <BR> <BR> I have been doing fairly well with my calorie intake (not great, but not as bad as I usually do when Hubs is home) but didn't get any gym time in, It happens. Not beating myself up over it. <BR> <BR> My friend that shares my space didn't stay today because the wea... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 18:35:58 EST What the?? So I just logged into Spark for the day, and yesterday's blog is nowhere to be found! Well! <BR> <BR> I'm not going to bother trying to recreate it, but it is a bit frustrating that the thing said it was loaded and now it's MIA. Sigh. If that's the worst that happens this week? I will take it and RUN with it!!! <BR> <BR> Today's sales were decent. Not stellar, but decent. I was able to get MIL's significant other's Christmas gift and have a bit left over after I paid for space, so it works.... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 15:57:24 EST Sunday was a Monday in disguise... My internet was down...again! ATT is getting right up there on the list with cell company "v", let me tell you! <BR> <BR> It happens. Sales were down again. no big surprise there. It's my own fault for donating things. If that's the worst thing that happens this week I will take it and RUN!! lol <BR> <BR> I went to the gym already and then tried to go get errands done, bills paid, etc. Oh, wait, nothing opens until 9! it's a good thing I'm self employed, I'd have to take days off to pay bil... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 08:29:16 EST Some people Are so rude! I had a group of people who decided the front of my tent was a good place to stand and chat with friends...for 2 hours! As you can guess it prevent red me from making any sales <BR> <BR> I did have 1 customer who really wanted a sock monkey cozy who said "excuse me" and pushed her way past them. They had the nerve to complain that she was rude??? <BR> <BR> Sigh. I did donate a set of towels to United Way for a fundraiser. The guy was going to buy one first thing this morning t... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 13:57:24 EST A few ups! I was able to get almost all of the patterns I wanted downloaded into the computer. SO, that was good. Not so good is that for some reason I managed to mess it up to where it tries to unzip most of them with media player. Sigh. I have NO idea how to fix that. Guess I will just have to ask Hubs to help when he gets home for his surgery. <BR> <BR> I WAS able to get a few downloaded in a usable form!!! WOO HOOO. I have one for thanksgiving, two for easter, some nautical resized, an anchor, and ... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 11:20:16 EST Almost made it- to the weekend. It's been one of those weeks. But things are starting to shape up. Either that or I'm just getting used to it! <BR> <BR> I had the vintage sweater nearly done and started assembling it. Then realized the lady had used the wrong size needles in almost the whole thing. SO, I will be taking it ENTIRELY apart, skeining the yarn and washing it, then reknitting the whole dang thing from stitch one. I won't be getting paid any time soon I guess. sigh. it happens./ <BR> <BR> I went... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 19:34:30 EST Wet Wednesday- I was up at oh crap early and went to the gym before I went to the farm market... <BR> <BR> Except I ended up not going to the market. I had stopped at walmart to pick up the towels I had ordered and while I was in there, it started pouring rain. I called a friend who lives farther north to ask what the weather up there was doing and I checked the weather forecast. <BR> <BR> Rain, more rain, heavy rain, and flood warnings for the whole county. I came back home. <BR> <BR> I did get the vint... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 21:56:23 EST Feeling better today... Except I'm too tired to go to the gym right now (0430) so I'm going to go back to sleep for a while. <BR> <BR> I got more suggestions yesterday on where to look for help with the truck, so I sent those links and phone numbers to Hubs as soon as I found them. I had done these exact searches before and these links had never shown up until yesterday.. we'll see what comes of it. <BR> <BR> I was able to find the info in my computer to fill out my gym paperwork for scholarship. Hubs said we will... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 05:58:21 EST I give up Before you go ballistic on me, pay attention to the rest of the statement- <BR> <BR> Trying to do it all myself. Getting the truck back, dealing with Hubs' condition, my businees, the ever tightening budget, all of it. I'm giving it all over to God. He will do what He sees fit with it and He will give me the strength to endure and cope. <BR> <BR> That being said, I still posted an update on gofundme ( <link> </link> )and I am going to the gym this morning to ask fo... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 07:22:22 EST SO frustrated! WHY is it that other people commit crimes and Hubs and I are the ones who end up paying for it?? <BR> <BR> I got a notice yesterday that our grocery benefits are ending because the boy we took in (after his parents put him out) "is receiving benefits on another case"!!???? <BR> <BR> Which means his parents are still claiming him to get higher payments and committing FRAUD and WE'RE the ones getting cut off???? <BR> <BR> Kind of like trying to get Nebraska law enforcement to do their dang j... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 18:18:34 EST Friday!!! I'm back home after taking Hubs down to pick the rig he's driving for now up from the shop. He had freight pick up yesterday, but it doesn't deliver until sunday, monday, and tuesday. and it only goes 800 miles. There was no need to rush out on it. <BR> <BR> So, I drove him down wednesday night, we slept in the back of the van, camping style and slept pretty good. Especially considering how HOT it was!! Then around 3 am it started raining and storming. It cooled off, at least!! <BR> <BR> We... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 17:27:50 EST Wednesday Tried writing blog, kept getting redirected from the adware. I give up on the blog for the day. <BR> <BR> Have a good one. <BR> Wed, 3 Sep 2014 16:07:22 EST No blog No time. Just too hectic today. Maybe tomorrow... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 22:36:35 EST Monday is being a MONDAY <em>234</em> My new software for my embroidery machine ($130!!! OW OW OW) does NOT WORK with windows 8. It has been opened therefore is unreturnable. <BR> <BR> I hate windows8. I really really do. I can view the patterns, I can make the alterations to them. I cannot print them to the card. There is no driver. <BR> <BR> I went online and searched for the driver. They haven't MADE one. Sigh. I don't think I like computerized anything right now (well, I like my spark, but not the popups and... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 10:31:12 EST Well- I don't know if it was my warning to them about being "beyond po'd" or if Dad had a chat with them while they were all down in green bay yesterday, but the boys came home and got on things. <BR> <BR> The older one (the one who left the dirty skillet on the stove after I had asked him not to) didn't even say hello before he started on the dishes. The younger one cleared the living room enough to pull his sofa bed out to sleep on and get to the free standing closet/cabinet we have. They ran la... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 17:26:24 EST Too Tired- I have no energy to deal with any more. Not my weight, not my business, not fighting with the kids to get them to stop making the house look like pigs live in it, not to clean, not to work, nothing. <BR> <BR> I don't even have the energy to eat junk, let alone make it or carry it in m y to room! <BR> <BR> I was supposed to go down to appleton to pick up a boatload of materials/supplies/software today after the market. I'm feeling so bad and in so much pain that I asked Hubs to take the boys... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 14:45:57 EST Let it rain!! At least for now. I can work in the house while it pours, so raining all day today is fine, tonight is fine, please clear up tomorrow at least from 6 until 1230ish?? We'll see what happens. <BR> <BR> No matter what, it will be fine. God knows what he's doing and it will be totally ok. I have to keep reminding myself of that sometimes... <BR> <BR> The house (apartment we are rearranging furniture and got some more used good furniture) is SLOWLY coming together, Hubs is having to do most of t... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 07:32:32 EST Just ARGH! Things were going fairly well today, even with being exhausted from the overnight drive to get Hubs. <BR> <BR> We got my dr appointment in, got my new rx, got Hubs scheduled for more treatments, and went ahead and robbed peter to pay paul and buy furniture for the boys so they both have comfortable sleeping arrangements. <BR> <BR> At which point, my son decided since what he wants and needs HAS been taken care of, he can be a butt to me. <BR> <BR> He threw a fit when the phone rang becaus... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 20:00:20 EST Mondays blog that wasn't Because I didn't have time. Parts are going to take several days, so Hubs asked me to come get him. <BR> <BR> I'm not used to 200 mile drives any more, but I managed. I'm exhausted this morning though. Waiting to see Dr about the neuropathy. Will try to post more later. .. Tue, 26 Aug 2014 09:40:14 EST Sunday was Not as profitable as I had hoped, but not as bad as I had feared. I broke even, because I paid son and bought fresh produce. I hate paying $1.25 for a single tomato and $4 for a medium bag of leaf lettuce, but I love the lady who grows it and i have to get back in the habit. <BR> <BR> Did I mention that my baker friend (who is also amazing!) is making me small loaves of breads now? I can convince my brain that it's had a whole sandwich and still have less than a half sandwich out of one of t... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 23:12:04 EST Awesome Sales today were up. Embroidered towels are starting to really take off. I had several people today say they really want the hanging tops on them. So, I came home and made 2 up for a lady who is leaving tomorrow and delivered them to her hotel. <BR> <BR> My pos singer quit working on me again and there is no time for me to work on it, so Hubs said go get another one because if I don't have the towels done, every single one of those people who want them are going to show up tomorrow! <BR> ... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 20:25:07 EST So... yesterday's blog evidently didn't post. Like that's anything new with windows8?? yeah. not so much. sigh. <BR> <BR> I planned to go to the gym this morning, even got up at 0430. And found kids sleeping in the living room. I don't mind this, but it means they moved my swim bag and I was NOT about to wake grumpy teen boys to find my gear. Nope. No way!!. That's like waking a bear from hibernation. Not a good idea. <BR> <BR> So I started working. Not working working, but spinning. I want to kn... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:09:24 EST