SENIMMO's SparkPeople Blog SENIMMO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Getting ready for the trip... I took the car in for 2 new tires and ended up also replacing a ball joint. Wasn't as expensive as I feared it would be. Car is safe to drive down for the funeral. <BR> <BR> Son is coming to watch pets and housesit while I'm gone. <BR> <BR> Had to take him to urgent care for spot on his back. Turned out to be a cyst that got infected (it was assumed to be a zit and he asked me to open it the other day. Sigh.) Antibiotics, wound packing, and the cyst will have to be surgically removed. All ... Fri, 17 Nov 2017 21:01:18 EST Happy Birrthday, Daddy Today would have been my dad's 79th birthday. I miss him. I was going to bake a spice cake, because that was his favorite. <BR> <BR> Then I decided if I bake a whole cake I will eat a whole cake. <BR> <BR> I went shopping for desserts and took them to the church for the community holiday dinner tonight. <BR> <BR> Daddy would have approved. <BR> <BR> Now to get through the next week and mom's funeral. <BR> <BR> I've got this. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Thu, 16 Nov 2017 12:33:13 EST One more week- I'm doing what I can to manage everything going on, I'm working on getting photos uploaded on the funeral home's memorial page for my mom. And I printed a couple to use on the poster. <BR> <BR> I'm already emotionally exhausted from dealing with it. I want to be done. Hubs has his schedule for the next two weeks, even though his second destination got changed. He is still going to be at the funeral with me. I'm still not looking forward to dealing with it. <BR> <BR> It's either going to be... Wed, 15 Nov 2017 09:45:14 EST Ups and downs- I'm struggling with the grief today. All I feel like doing is crying, but I'm not letting it happen right now. I don't want to fall apart during class. To be honest, though, it's probably going to happen. More than once. Sigh. It is what it is. <BR> <BR> On the brighter side, I got on the scale this morning, fully dressed and it was UNDER 330!!! It hasn't been below 330 with clothes on in over 4 years!! I'm taking that as progress. <BR> <BR> There is a LOT of high-calorie food planned for ... Tue, 14 Nov 2017 10:23:32 EST Not sure how THAT happened... I was sure I had four essays to write and submit by midnight and three accounting assignments due this morning. <BR> <BR> Turns out I did all the work last week and I'm ahead!? <BR> <BR> Guess that means I can do next week's work this week and not stress about turning stuff in next week while I'm out of town for mom's funeral. <BR> <BR> I may have this under control after all. <BR> <BR> Mon, 13 Nov 2017 14:45:53 EST Winter has arrived So I made homemade ham and bean soup and have cornbread in the oven. Used a smaller pot and only made enough for a few bowls. Didn't make a giant cake pan of cornbread, either. <BR> <BR> I'm getting there. Sun, 12 Nov 2017 17:21:58 EST Two of my 4 favorite men <img src=""> <BR> My great-nephew and my awesome Hubs. <BR> The other 2 favorites are my son and my great nephews daddy (my niece's husband) <BR> <BR> Hubs gets to see this little guy more than I do, as he's on Ohio more often on freight. <BR> <BR> I sure do love all 4 of them. Fri, 10 Nov 2017 21:20:02 EST In the midst of grief- <img src=""> <BR> Someone shares a ray of light. Thank you, whoever posted this first. Thu, 9 Nov 2017 20:17:15 EST Happy Humpday <img src=""> <BR> How many pots a day is too many? Wed, 8 Nov 2017 08:35:22 EST TUESDAY <img src=""> <BR> This is my day today. Tue, 7 Nov 2017 10:56:30 EST Yep. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But I'm dealing with it. And it's slowly getting better. Mon, 6 Nov 2017 14:02:37 EST Determined- I don't usually post 2 blogs, but I'm working hard on my classwork and I need a break. I'll be driving down to green bay shortly for a meeting and to grab some royal blue netting for a custom scrubbie order for the shop. I need my brain to shift out of "holy crap, I'm drowning in schoolwork" panic mode to "normal" and able to process information properly mode so I can drive, lol! <BR> <BR> I'm getting a grip on most of the classwork. I think I may have completely missed a due date for anothe... Tue, 31 Oct 2017 13:15:58 EST Got it done...I think I opened the file yesterday to submit my final project and the file was empty. Sigh. Yet again I did an entire semester project in 1 day. Ended up missing class and the presentation part though. I was sick to my stomach from pain in my hands. They still hurt really bad, but I have to get stuff done. <BR> <BR> I'm hoping for a c, we'll see what happens. <BR> <BR> Now, off to school! <BR> <BR> I've got this... <BR> <em>593</em> Tue, 31 Oct 2017 08:07:42 EST Progress on one front, at least I was able to get the rocking chair and rabbit food out of the car and into storage by myself! 100lbs of rabbit food. Ow. <BR> <BR> Went to the farm store and got 2 bales of pine shavings a bale of what was supposed to be Timothy hay and ended up being Timothy grass. It will cushion bunny feet, at least. He's been chewing and has them raw. Son is supposed to help get them wrapped, but I'll probably end up doing it myself. <BR> <BR> I got all of that hauled into the house and put away. I e... Sun, 29 Oct 2017 15:12:20 EST Small steps I went and got some materials today and worked. I've got 3 hats ready to assemble and put eyes on. I decided not to line any for now. <BR> <BR> We'll see how the weather is in the morning and decide then if I'm going to try outdoor market. Either way I'll get something done. <BR> <BR> Little bits of forward progress. I've got this. <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Sat, 28 Oct 2017 23:17:54 EST Getting back on a productive schedule I spent the day in the shop today. No sales, but did get a few product requests. Hubs said go get materials tomorrow and see what happens... <BR> <BR> Still not making it through an entire day without something making me cry, but I'll get there. <BR> <BR> Just under a month and the memorial and burial will be behind me. I can do this... <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Fri, 27 Oct 2017 19:03:40 EST Grieving is hard work- I was doing ok. I really was handling things pretty well, all things considered. <BR> <BR> Then I got a text yesterday that sent me into a tailspin. From the landlord at my shop. He had messaged me about calling the signmaker and asked how things were going with the memorial plans. I messaged back that things were finalized and thanks for the concern. He replied "You're a good daughter". <BR> <BR> I lost it. And I'm still struggling. What the hell? Someone who barely knows me was able to s... Thu, 26 Oct 2017 09:19:29 EST Just UGH. So, I'm still battling the reaction to the flu shot. Which stinks, because I'm feeling worse by the day. Sigh. It is what it is. A few days now is better than a month of illness later, I guess. <BR> <BR> I got up this morning and went to leave for school and found a tree branch on top of my car! It's only about 3" in diameter and maybe 8-10 feet long, very leafy, but still! ON MY CAR!?!? Sigh. No visible damage, I have to wait until it rains again to make sure it didn't break the seal in th... Wed, 25 Oct 2017 10:30:58 EST Keeping on... It's going to be a long and most likely rough month coming up, but I will manage to get through it. <BR> <BR> Mom's obituary is posted already. I find it ironic that the family members that were so insistent I get things planned are not only not coming to the funeral, they haven't even posted to the guest book. It is what it is. I'm not letting it be my problem. <BR> <BR> I've been working on preplanning for myself and possibly hubs, because I don't want anyone to have to deal with this fo... Tue, 24 Oct 2017 16:57:21 EST Insane? Yep. So, the definition of insanity is repeating behavior expecting a different result, right? <BR> <BR> Every time I get a flu shot, I get sick. Don't start on me that vaccines can't make you sick. The flu shot does with me. EVERY TIME. Not as sick as I would probably be if I caught the bug naturally, but sick nonetheless. <BR> <BR> I got my shot at 10 this morning. By 11 I was running a low fever. By noon, I was aching and had chills. By 2 I felt like I had been run over by a steamroller. I've... Mon, 23 Oct 2017 18:22:34 EST Looks like the season is done... High winds again yesterday and more wind and rain coming in today. I think my outdoor season is over. <BR> <BR> Son and I are going shopping today in green bay. We'll see if we can find music for the service. Sigh. Another month and it will be done. <BR> <BR> I'm ready for things to get back to "normal". <BR> <BR> I've got this, right? <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Sun, 22 Oct 2017 03:37:55 EST One more task done. I just made the corrections and approved the obituary for my mother. Am I done being an adult for the day? <BR> <BR> Her service is next month (she was cremated, so it's not creepy) and the newspaper version will be printed the Sunday before the service. <BR> <BR> If anyone would like to read the obituary, you can find it at Her name was Kathy Bookman. Dad's is still posted, too (they leave them in perpetuity). Mom's should be posted by Monday. <BR> <BR> I'm getting ... Sat, 21 Oct 2017 15:30:29 EST Plans are set For the memorial service. The day and time are what I'd hoped for. I get the proof for the obituary tomorrow. <BR> <BR> So many more details to work out...I can do this, one day at a time... <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Thu, 19 Oct 2017 22:14:50 EST Note to self- If you're going to weigh yourself, do it before you're completely dressed...including shoes...with your pockets full of change and your backpack on. <BR> <BR> If you don't, it's going to say something rude! Like you're up 5lbs instead of maintaining or down 1!!! <BR> <BR> Anyone happen to know how much $12 in quarters weighs? Roflmbo!!!! <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Wed, 18 Oct 2017 08:16:05 EST Plugging away- I called my counselor and went down to see him yesterday. I let the schoolwork slide a little to do it. It was necessary. I've got to deal with all of this in a healthy way and not let it put me back to where I used to be. <BR> <BR> I can't imagine how much worse it would be if I had tried to pull all of this together back in May when she first passed! <BR> <BR> I'm still waiting for confirmation from the funeral home, but it is what it is. The flowers should be fabulous, at least. <BR> <... Tue, 17 Oct 2017 09:40:06 EST So, that happened... My weekend was a nightmare. The next five and a half weeks until Mom's memorial service don't look to be much better, but I'm dealing with it. <BR> <BR> I'm not off the rails, I'm not binging, I didn't drop out of school, and I'm functioning. <BR> <BR> It's going to be a long month of blogs, though. Sorry guys. This is my safe venting place. I'm not asking or expecting anyone to fix things for me. It's totally fine to not know what to say. Just please, don't be judgmental or tell me what to... Mon, 16 Oct 2017 10:00:47 EST Uncooperative weather...again and other...stuff. Skipping today's market for high wind warnings. Last week I lost 2 racks to the wind. Yesterday, the scrubbie bins blew over and stuff wouldn't stay on tables. (Obnoxious woman next to me said "I heard the crash" in this superior tone of voice as I was struggling to pick things up. I looked at her and said "EVERYONE heard the crash, thanks") I decided it wasn't worth dealing with wind and obnoxious both. Not after the last few days I've had! After I packed up (Ms. Obnoxious had to comment o... Sun, 15 Oct 2017 07:04:48 EST Correction to yesterdays blog- My last sentence yesterday got deleted (thanks, smartphone <em>234</em> <em>246</em> ) <BR> <BR> Mom's service is in 6 weeks, the week of thanksgiving in the US. I can't afford time away from school right now, Hubs is committed to freight for the next 10 days, and it's a lot of money to come up with (no life insurance). <BR> <BR> The support and prayers are appreciated and very necessary. I'm dealing with things, but it's more of the "fake it til you make it" thing for now... <BR> <... Sat, 14 Oct 2017 06:10:16 EST My Friday the 13th Was spent planning mom's memorial and burial of her ashes. Not a great day. <BR> <BR> Hubs is being amazing, as usual, but it's all on me to plan and arrange. According to him, he's "just in it to provide moral support and pay the bill. Oh, and play bodyguard if the ex shows up". <BR> <BR> He is such a character. And so good to me and for me. <BR> <BR> So, my plan is to have an hour of visitation (mainly to make dad's family happy) and a graveside service. We plan it for mid afternoon so n... Fri, 13 Oct 2017 21:23:41 EST Holy cr*p, I'm getting it?! I blogged about butting head with my instructor about my integrity and refusing to resubmit my work after correcting it with the class. Well, the assignment in question has been graded and I got...Wait for it...95%!!! <BR> <BR> Not exactly sure how I managed to do that, but I'm good with it! And I didn't compromise my ethics to do it! A good grade and I feel good about the way I got it. <em>244</em> <BR> YAY ME!!! <BR> <BR> The tutor had to cancel for this afternoon, so she made arrange... Thu, 12 Oct 2017 10:52:54 EST Yay! The mini washer came! And son made time to stop by and not only wrangle it into the house (thanks for putting it on the porch where I couldn't open the door, UPS <em>234</em> ) he even uncrated it, put it where I needed it, AND hooked it up!! <BR> <BR> He hooked it up to the wrong faucet, hot instead of cold, but I was able to change that myself. <BR> <BR> It's smaller than my old one, but it's a good size for me with my limitations. And the new (to me) dryer holds 2 to 3 washerloads from the new mini. That ... Wed, 11 Oct 2017 22:51:36 EST Hubs is helping :-) No, he's not home. He's not doing stuff at the house. He's playing tag with hurricanes all this past week! <BR> <BR> But he IS helping with things by making sure I can get what I need for the house. He's having the new mini-washer delivered (it was supposed to be here yesterday and they emailed me saying no, tomorrow instead, we changed our minds. Sigh. <BR> <BR> He also got me an air purifier for the house! It's a small one, it only filters one room, but it's in the bedroom now and it's a... Wed, 11 Oct 2017 09:39:34 EST Butting heads and other fun stuff for the day I'm having a bit of an issue with an instructor. It's an odd one. The issue, not the instructor. The instructor is amazing. We had a project due today (FIVE tax returns!) and I screwed up on mine. I turned it in before class, because I thought it was due before class started. It ended up not being due until midnight tonight and she went over it in class and gave the correct calculations. <BR> <BR> She wanted to clear my submission and have me resend it with the corrections from the class se... Tue, 10 Oct 2017 13:53:03 EST Progress in the kitchen But not the way you'd think. The old washer and gas dryer are out. The new (to me) electric dryer is hooked up. A new mini washer is on its way (hubs evidently broke the drain on the one I had when he stored it because it was broken when I went to hook it up). I just went and got some new shelves for the kitchen because cupboards and countertops are NOT in the budget for quite a while. Slowly, I am getting my house usable for ME. <BR> <BR> I'll get it done eventually <em>334</em> <BR> ... Mon, 9 Oct 2017 15:08:25 EST No rain today So the market was able to happen. But the winds picked up and flipped a table with several racks. I had left a friend watching the tables while I started loading the car. She was evidently off doing something else. I didn't even know she had walked off until I heard the wind and looked up to see everything going over in a twisted pile and her nowhere to be seen. <BR> <BR> There was no way I could move fast enough to prevent it. Sigh. My market season may be over, depending on how much dam... Sun, 8 Oct 2017 16:36:46 EST Rained out again. Ugh. We were rained out for over a third of market days this year. Ouch. That hurts the bottom line. I picked a bad year to open the shop. But Hubs wants me to give it another year. <BR> <BR> That gives me plenty of time to reclaim my house from son moving out and downsize my machinery to fit in the other bedroom. <BR> <BR> I ended up spending the day shopping in green bay with a friend. I resisted the pushing to binge eat. ("We don't do this often, go ahead and have..." Yeah. Nope. I stayed on... Sat, 7 Oct 2017 16:30:12 EST Getting there... I'm slowly getting my house clean from son moving out. It's going to be a work in progress for a while. <BR> <BR> I do what I can manage within my physical ability and then rest until I can do more. Slowly it will come together... <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Fri, 6 Oct 2017 13:57:48 EST Oh, for crying out loud, AGAIN?!?! Another nice, long, well written blog went POOF in the upload process. <BR> <BR> Sigh. <BR> <BR> It is what it is. I'm not up for rewriting it, so this is my blog for the day <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Maybe tomorrow... <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> <BR> Wed, 4 Oct 2017 14:34:07 EST The Tech War Continues- For the past 3 days, the tech has been winning. It refused to let me have the files I needed to do my work. After multiple calls to tech support and the help desk, I FINALLY have the files I need. And I've learned how to make the computer behave and give them to me the first or second time I ask!!! <BR> <BR> And it only took 3 days!!! I may get the hang of this yet! <BR> <BR> Of course, that doesn't mean things are going to go easily, it just means I'm handling things better. <BR> <BR> I'v... Tue, 3 Oct 2017 09:18:43 EST Me? Eating apples?? Yep. I found a kind of apple I don't loathe. Please don't start about how great apples are. I used to love apples, then they started messing with them and making all of the "designer" varieties and I just don't like them. Apples are not supposed to be the size of a person's HEAD. (ok, that's an exaggeration, but not by much!). <BR> <BR> I honestly think that's part of our "portion distortion". We got taught in grade school that 1 piece of fruit was a portion. That worked when fruit was a rea... Mon, 2 Oct 2017 09:35:07 EST A new goal- So, I was walking to the restroom at the farm market and I noticed my shadow isn't completely round any more!?! <BR> <BR> My top is (slightly but noticeably!) Smaller. My new goal is for my bottom half to be the same size or smaller than my shoulders and my waist to be clearly defined in my shadow. <BR> <BR> I am totally fine with a full hourglass figure. It beats the heck out of the giant round I was and the extra large pear that I currently am. It's a work in progress. <BR> <BR> I've als... Sun, 1 Oct 2017 09:04:49 EST Not normal It is VERY rare you will see me post a picture of what I'm eating. So many people post pictures of everything they eat and a lot of It frankly looks horrible. Which is why I was pretty surprised when the spaghetti squash I made with semi homemade meat sauce actually tasted good!?!! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know, it doesn't look like most of the food photos on spark. It's not blackened, there are no charred ma... Thu, 28 Sep 2017 16:22:49 EST I bought the dog a Roku.. I'm not even joking. Since son left (actually a while before he said he was moving out, since he was gone t days out of any given week for a month) the dog has been annoyed with being alone so much. I can't quit school to pay attention to him! <BR> <BR> I've adjusted my schedule and been doing the extra climbing and work to let him out several times a day and set evening alarms to remind me to out him out at times son used to. I used to just turn Netflix on the game system for him and it kep... Wed, 27 Sep 2017 18:08:44 EST It ate my blog again. I'm not writing it again. I don't have time. Things are going better today, though. I'm hopeful I can get everything caught up and get some time put in at my shop. We'll see how the morning goes in class... <BR> <BR> <em>593</em> Tue, 26 Sep 2017 09:24:10 EST More than ready for the cold! It's been record setting hot here. Yesterday went fairly well, son helped with moving things and packing. Sales were down, and the custom work I busted my butt to do didn't get picked up. Grr. <BR> <BR> Oh well, it is what it is. The pieces will sell to someone else and when the people that asked for them come back I'm going to just say "sorry, they were purchased by another customer. I held them for the day you said you'd pick them up and put them out the next week." <BR> <BR> I offer to h... Mon, 25 Sep 2017 14:49:32 EST Hotter than the 4th of July! Literally! It was 90 today?!?! Sales were good. Heat about killed me. I will pack up and move stuff to my regular spot tomorrow. Son said he will go and help. <BR> <BR> Oh, and he's moving out. That's why he doesn't come home for days at a time. It is what it is. He's 20. Most of his friends have been on their own for years already. Hopefully he will start being better about keeping his word. He evidently enrolled himself in more college classes and is paying his own tuition, so that's prog... Sat, 23 Sep 2017 18:43:13 EST How did that happen?? No, I don't mean how did I get to this size. We ALL know how that happened! <BR> <BR> I want to know how THIS happened? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I'm FULL. <BR> <BR> Less than half what I normally eat and I just don't feel like finishing. So you know what? I'm not going to. <BR> <BR> What? When? How? <BR> <BR> Maybe this time the changes really will work and stick!! <BR> <BR> Here's to more meals of "nope, not... Fri, 22 Sep 2017 09:16:27 EST Still managing- I'm doing a ton of work every day for school and the shop is kind of falling by the wayside for now. I have no reliable help, so I'm having to pick my battles. I'm too close to finishing college to let that be what suffers. The business will take a pretty hard hit, but it will recover...eventually... <BR> <BR> I'm still trying to drown whatever bug this is that I've caught, but it's being stubborn and evidently knows how to swim in addition to having a really good life vest! Ugh. <BR> I mana... Thu, 21 Sep 2017 11:50:13 EST Still on top! My cell phone ate three of my contacts today, but I was able to restore them from text messages that were still in the phone. HA! Victory for ME!! <BR> <BR> My laptop is still talking to the school network and i'm still able to access the cengage thingy to do my classwork. Another victory for ME! <BR> <BR> I'm on track with most of my work, so I'm good there. And I got an email from my instructor on my 100% test <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I've got this. And now, it's time to go to class fo... Wed, 20 Sep 2017 11:14:42 EST HA! Take THAT, Technology! So, the "virtual blackboard" came back up yesterday at..wait for it...10:29am for a class that had an online test at 10:30!!!! <BR> <BR> And guess who aced it? Yep. One question I am certain was wrong, because the actual correct answer was not one of the options, but I went with the closest of the incorrect answers they offered and it scored it as right! So, I got a 100% <BR> <BR> I got done shortly after the first student (I was writing everything down off the computer screen to do my calc... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 09:13:54 EST