SEEKNIRVANA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SEEKNIRVANA SEEKNIRVANA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Trying... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5310146 It's been a few days since I've logged, and it's because I've been too ashamed to. I need to break out of that habit, because I know logging on here will influence me to make better choices. I get so angry with myself, I don't know why I can't stop eating! I wish I had more control, and I don't know how to get it. I don't want to go back to being over 300 pounds, but I set myself up for failure. I hate it. I don't know what to do, and every time I look in the mirror I just get so upset. I wan... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 12:37:36 EST I just want to keep losing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297959 Finally I have had a breakthrough in losing weight. This is the first time since I was in high school that I'm under 300 pounds, and it terrifies me. Every single thing I put in my mouth makes me feel guilty, and then I get discouraged, and I give up for the day. This is the vicious cycle I find myself going back to over and over. I just don't know what to do to make it stop, and it really upsets me. I am happy with the weight I am right now, of course I know for my health I have to lose mor... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 07:49:10 EST