SEDDLEMAN823's SparkPeople Blog SEDDLEMAN823's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Starting workouts this week! I started my workouts this week. Tried out a few different ones that were low impact but high intensity. The first one, I was dying by 7 minutes lol. I found one that I really like. It is Walking Away the Pounds. I couldn't believe I had walked a whole mile on my second day of working out!! I am off to do it again as I really screwed up today. I thought a subway cookie had 100 calories, imagine my surprise that it has over double that!! I could have had soooo much more!! Oh well, if I can do ... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 15:58:26 EST On the way up Yesterday I went to the lowest of my week. I felt like I couldn't move at all. when I started to cry over everything I saw on tv, I realized what was going on! I am having a round with depression. It has been while, so it didn't even hit me as to what was happening to me. Now that I know, I think I can get myself out of it. <BR> <BR> My son invited myhusband and I out to eat today! I can't wait. I miss him since he moved out. He is 29 but I still feel he is a little one. Sun, 23 Mar 2014 01:19:14 EST Started a journal I am taking advice I have been given and I have started a journal. It is private and hidden so only my eyes will see what is there. Thank you for the support, it means so much! I do not have family, except for my boys and their lives as adults are starting. So I figure why not start a new life for myself also! <BR> <BR> I guess this week my mind has been dealing with things I didn't want to deal with, so I have been falling asleep every few hours. Either that or I am not getting as much sle... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 01:37:38 EST Adding to my last entry... I mentioned my autistic son in my last blog. Actually, I have 3 sons and all 3 are on the spectrum. My oldest, you would never know it if you met him, my middle one you would think was a little quirky and my youngest ( 20 but lots of times acts 12 or 13) dresses weird and people give him strange looks. lol They are all healthy in mind and body thankfully. They all know how to treat others and they can't stand the way that I am treated. I am very proud of my boys and who they have become. I a... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 14:14:25 EST My secret.. I am finally telling For the past 4 or 5 days, I have been sooo tired and sleepy. Then at night I can't get to sleep until about 3 or 4 am. Guess I have my nights and days turned around. This isn't helping the scale any! My goal this week was to pay attention to my urges for food and figure out why I am eating. <BR> <BR> I found that I am eating when I am tired. When I get really sleepy, instead of taking a nap, I am eating to stay awake. I feel guilty if I take a nap. I will not go into it here, but I do know w... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 00:51:05 EST So tired! Spring fever already? My grandma called it spring fever. A combination of the time change, the weather flipping from warm to cold and sunshine making us feel relaxed again. For the past week I have been wiped out! Thinking of going back to bed :D yep, another nap is in order ! <em>102</em> Sat, 15 Mar 2014 12:53:24 EST Another one down! I know, I know, you are not supposed to weight but once a week, but I LOVED seeing the new number of 229 on the scale, but today, it was different. It said 228! My goal is 100 pounds, and now I only need to lose 88 more :D <BR> <BR> Started taking some multivitamins and some other vitamins yesterday that are supposed to help with healing the adrenal glands. If nothing else, it will help my body. Just wish they didn't look like horse pills lol Sat, 15 Mar 2014 01:09:03 EST I did it!!!! I did it, I did it!! I FINALLY brok 230!!! As of this morning, I am 229! I have not been that weight in over 5 years! Woo hoo!! After not losing weight for a couple of weeks and then losing a couple of pounds in a few days I am on cloud 9. :D Wed, 12 Mar 2014 15:32:37 EST A Beautiful Day!! After all of the snow we have had, this 65-70 degree sunny weather is awesome! It felt great to be out a little yesterday. I was getting a little bummed about the scale not moving, but in review it was my own fault. McDonalds is a diet killer! I am starting to see it is not just about the calories, what we eat, when we eat, but a combination of everything. Exercise is going to be a hard one for me but, I am trying to move more than I did. It feels good to be back at my 10 pounds down mark. I ... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 16:09:16 EST Been away a few days... This has been a VERY long week!! It started right after we got out of being snowed in. My Jeep ( which I absolutely LOVED) started screaming so we had the car doctor check it out. About a year ago, we had to take the 4x4 drive shaft out. This time,the 4x4 axles had to come out and one came out in 3 pieces! When we picked up the Jeep, my son called about 1/4 mile down the road and said something was wrong with the brakes. Back to the car doc. Oh, he says, I forgot to tell you that the antilock... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 13:30:00 EST My puppy now has a name!! I would like to introduce you to Rocky! He reminds me of a boxer and the first thing that came to my mind was the movie Rocky lol. Everyone likes it, so unless he does something that earns him a nick name, this is it <BR> <BR> We got our refund, so I had promised my son a PS4. Evidentally, everyone in three counties got their refund also! lol When I came in, I notice the Valentines aisles were still packed with candy, animals,ect. There were 5 full aisles of this stuff. When I was getting i... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 23:19:59 EST Still snowed in :( I am running out of good foods to eat and I do not want to eat the stuff I am not supposed to have. I want to get to a grocery store! Maybe we will get out tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I am SO tired! The puppy is getting up every hour or 2 and has to potty and eat, ect. Husband is at home and thinks I am supposed to be up with the sunrise. I am NOT a morning person lol. Besides having CFS/ME which makes me extra tired anyway, something has got to give. <BR> <BR> I do not know what I did last week, b... Fri, 14 Feb 2014 14:48:02 EST Snow, snow and more snow!!! Final total is between 21 and 22 inches of snow!! That is unheard of where I live. The truck is stuck in the yard. I really hope that we get out tomorrow. Our refund came so I am very excited to do some shopping!!!! <BR> <BR> Husband is leaving Sunday evening through Thursday evening for training for his job. This is a rare opportunity. I am treating it as a vacation and I am going to pamper myself some. I may just go for a massage! I haven't ever had one..not a professional one anyway. <BR... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 19:47:08 EST Here is a pic of my new puppy! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here he is!! My new puppy! I still do not have a name for him. I am one of those people that have to have the perfect name. He is a handful! The lady I got him from was disabled and she would hold the pups all day long. When he sees me, it is time to pick him up or he will let you know he isn't happy <BR> <BR> I weighed today and was h... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 22:32:35 EST Feb 8th - several subjects on my mind today I have been at eating healthy for almost a month now. The cravings for sweets is not gone, it is just different. I can choose whether I eat sweets and what type of sweets I eat now. Usually I choose either natural sweets like fruits or a little dark chocolate. Things like donuts, and cakes are not even interesting anymore. Did I just say that?? <BR> <BR> The last 3 weeks, I could sort of feel like I lost weight. This week, not so much. I feel heavier for some reason. Maybe it is due to my in... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 13:54:15 EST Feb 5th I have been at this for almost a month now! Yay!! when I started this journey, I told myself that I would not say " I can't have that" because that is how I always failed last time. I say to myself " I can have that if I want to... or... I can have all of this for the same amount of calories". More food usually wins. I LOVE food! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was soooo full! I didn't think I would be able to eat all of my calories. I had been hooked on cinnamon toast for a long time for some reason... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 14:18:28 EST Getting Started I have never had a blog, and I am not really sure what to put here, so I guess I will just say what comes to mind. <BR> <BR> I have tried to lose weight for years and have never been able to stay with it more than a couple of weeks. I would always lie to myself about my calories, how much I ate, ect. This time seems to be different. I actually WANT to do this! I am down 11 pounds in 3 weeks!!! That is the least I have weighed in 5 years. <BR> <BR> Five years ago, I had a surgery and it didn... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 02:11:30 EST